May 24, 2025 • 17 mins
What happens when the thing you’ve been obsessed with, the thing your identity, business, and purpose were built around.... Just… Fades?
In this raw, unfiltered voice note from the in-between, I talk about what it feels like to let go of astrology as the center of my life, navigate the terrifying (and liberating) void, and wonder whether people will still care if I’m not performing, producing, or “proving” my worth.
I didn’t edit this. I didn’t plan this.
I just pressed record (at 7:00am on a Saturday lol) because something real needed to be said.
We talk:
- Obsession cycles + creative identity shifts
- Fear of being irrelevant when you change
- Why astrology still lives in me, even if I’m not obsessing
- The podcast episode that shocked me with how many people cared
- Money, worth, business, and how I’m not pretending to have answers
If you’re in a season of becoming, breaking the mold, or building something new from the rubble of the old, this one’s for you.
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Okay.
Something wild just happenedand, okay.
And I have had to do this inhigher self-healing codes.
That's my self-paced, uh,astrology course where I teach
you how to use astrology chat,GPT to basically get astrology
insights whenever you want.
I use it every single day.
So this is what's so wild.
(00:23):
I recorded a podcast the otherday on my Italy trip and my
surrender experiment.
And if you haven't listened tothat podcast, um, go back and
listen to it.
I've had so many people reachout to me about that podcast and
how they resonate with it andhow it's exactly where they feel
like they're in life right now.
And just to give you the TLDR.
(00:47):
I basically was saying how Ifeel like I'm in a void right
now and how I have this cycle ofgetting obsessed with things and
making it my whole life, andsometimes that cycle lasts.
You know, 16 to 20 years like itdid when I was into nutrition
and health and fitness.
And sometimes it lasts twoyears.
(01:09):
Like, um, well actually thisastrology obsession has been
longer than two years, but I'vebeen doing the business for two
years.
Um, my retreat cycle was abouttwo and a half years.
My cycle into obsessing overcannabis was about eight years.
So I have these like long-termobsessions where something
becomes my whole life, but whenI'm not obsessed anymore, I just
(01:33):
can't get myself to do it.
And usually I just stop being asobsessed and then that thing
naturally integrates into mylife.
So, for example, I was obsessedwith studying nutrition and
health and all those differentthings for 20 something years.
And when I stopped beingobsessed with it, it's not that
(01:53):
nutrition and fitness left mylife, it's that it integrated
into my life.
Like I just naturally am ahealthy person now.
I'm always gonna go to the gym.
I'm always going to eat healthy.
I'm just not obsessed with likelearning the signs behind it
and.
You know, learning differentdiets and different workout
routines and this and that.
I've just really, it's justintegrated into my being and I
(02:16):
just know how to be healthy, andit's not something I have to
second guess or question or lookinto anymore.
It's very intuitive for me, andthat happened with cannabis.
Like cannabis.
I was obsessed with it.
I grew it like that's how me andRyan got together.
Now it's just integrated into mylife, and I have it in
abundance.
I mean, Ryan.
Has his own grow.
So I literally just have an, andhe, he's in the cannabis
(02:39):
industry and has all of theseconnections.
And so I just have cannabis andabundance in my life, and I
still utilize it for sleep everyday.
And I love having it in my life,but it's not my whole life.
Same thing with retreats.
I still travel the country andgo to different events and
retreats.
It's just I'm not hosting themanymore.
It's not my whole life.
(02:59):
And so now with astrology.
I am just not obsessing over itas I have for like a really long
time now, like years now.
Where I would just like researchit all the time and make all
these different connections.
I just don't feel that desire todo that right now.
And I had a client reach out tome and be like, oh no, you're
(03:19):
not gonna stop talking aboutastrology.
I need you.
And I said, no, I'm just notobsessing over it anymore.
It's integrating it.
I'm integrating it into my life,and I'm just feeling like I'm in
the void right now and I'mfeeling this.
Feeling of just wanting to bemore me and wanting to break the
mold of what I'm doing, eventhough I.
Jess had a whole website builtfor my astrology business.
(03:42):
You know what I'm saying?
Like, I'm feeling like somethingnew wants to emerge.
I'm in what?
A new cycle?
And, and this void feels alittle scary, but it also feels
liberating and exciting.
'cause I feel like I'm justgonna be recording podcasts like
this, right?
Just, I'm being real.
I'm telling you who I am.
I'm telling you my journey.
I'm telling you what's going onin my head, and this is what's
(04:05):
going on in my head right now.
And so what's so wild?
Back to my higher self-healingcodes is I did the process where
I, I teach you in higherself-healing codes, how to go in
there, get your currenttransits, bring them into chat,
GBT, and then chat.
GBT tells you what's going onwith you right now.
And then I teach you how to ask,like how to learn the lesson
(04:27):
basically.
'cause that's what I always dowhen I go into chat GPT.
So based on my current transitsright now, I'm feeling really
afraid about money.
I'm feeling really afraid about,um, you know, like whether I'm
worthy, if I'm not givingastrology advice, whether I'm, I
(04:49):
just feel like a lot of myclients that I'm working with
are also just like crushing itright now and doing so well,
and, you know, I even have likeworth issues coming up there.
I know it sounds ridiculous,like, oh, your clients are doing
so well and you're having worthissues come up.
But I am, it's, it's like, andit's because of certain aspects
(05:11):
going on in my chart right nowand what else is going on.
It's, it's just this voidfeeling, you know, I'm so used
to having something that.
I'm obsessed with that when I gothrough these periods of not
being obsessed with something,because usually I'm obsessed
with something for years at atime, I feel lost.
(05:35):
Yeah.
I, I, I feel, I feel afraid, andI don't think I've ever recorded
a podcast like this, so I'm justsharing it here.
But I feel this desire to justbe more raw and real.
I feel this desire to just go onadventures around, like where I
currently live.
(05:55):
Like I, I just keep having thisdesire to just drive two hours
away, you know, every single dayand find a new place that I can
adventure and explore and seehow it opens my horizons.
Because that's what really Italydid for me is I, it opened.
I love new experiences.
I want to explore the crevicesof life, and I know that's part
of my birth chart, my northnodes and Sagittarius in the
(06:17):
third house.
I'm literally here to exploreeverything, the crevices of
gain, all the experiences, gainall of'em.
And it's also in my jean keys.
It says that I'm here toliterally experience every
aspect of life, like all of it,like every little nook and
cranny.
And I feel that within myself.
(06:40):
And so I've just been feelinglike I want to just break out of
the mold, but it's scary becauseI only have.
Like I'm only financially securereally for the next couple of
months with where I'm at rightnow.
And if I'm going to stoppitching, like I'm not gonna do
birth chart readings anymore.
(07:01):
For example, I don't want to dobirth chart readings anymore.
So it's a, no, I just took themoff my website.
I do wanna coach, I'll alwayswanna coach.
I love listening to people.
So that's staying on my website.
But I have this fear, like ifI'm not talking solely about
astrology, will my businesscontinue to thrive?
And.
With past experience.
(07:22):
Every time I've gone and jumpedoff the cliff like this, it has
always worked out better than Icould ever imagine.
But it doesn't stop it frombeing fucking terrifying and
scary.
And that's where I'm at rightnow.
So anyways, back to this chat,GBT, astrology Transits, I'm all
over the place.
That's just how my brain works.
My apologies.
(07:43):
Um.
Literally chat GBT reflectedback to me.
The exact thing I just told youguys, it said in my transits and
it didn't know.
It didn't know I was thinkingany of these things.
I haven't had this conversationwith chat.
GBT.
It said you're he right now.
Basically, the sky wants you tohave astrology to be more
(08:04):
integrated into your life and itwants you to be more authentic
and not base your worth on whatyou can provide for people.
But, but base your worth on whoyou are and sharing your journey
and, um, just.
And like breaking the mold anddoing new thing and ha things
and having new experiences anddoing things you've never done
before, and trusting that youdon't need to have like a worthy
(08:27):
thing to bring to someone.
Trusting that you can just comeon.
Like I could just come on.
This podcast is basically what Iwas saying and I can just talk.
And it's so funny because when Ishared the Italy episode.
About my trip to Italy, Iremember thinking like, is
anyone gonna fucking care aboutthis episode?
It's about my trip to Italy andhow I liked Italy, and this is
(08:48):
an astrology podcast and I trulybelieve that people wouldn't
give a shit.
Like I truly believed, like whywould someone give a shit about
what I have to say about Italy?
Why would someone give a shitabout me if it's not benefiting
them?
That's what I told myself.
I have had the most reach outsabout that podcast out of every
podcast I've put out, and I, Iremember I've been like.
(09:20):
I am so confused around that.
To be honest, I would cry.
I'm so confused and, but alsolike liberated, like this is
like a happy cry that's comingout of me right now because I'm
like, wait, people will carejust about what I have to say
(09:41):
and not just about the fact thatI can tell them something
astrological that's gonna changetheir life.
And it's, it's healing to knowthat it's confusing to know that
and, um, liberating in certainways, which is also a part of my
current astrology transits.
(10:03):
And so I'm just rolling with itand.
It was, it was just so weirdbecause I had told my client,
no, it's not that astrology'sgoing away.
It's just integrating into mylife in a healthier way, and I
still wanna listen to people andI still wanna help and talk
about these things.
And, and then literally Chad,GBT said that was said those
(10:24):
way, those words basicallyverbatim in my transits today.
And so, yeah, it just blew mymind.
You know, I'm like, wow,astrology works.
I, I know it works.
Like at this point, that's whyI've stopped obsessing over
wanting to learn.
'cause I feel like I obsessedover wanting to learn astrology
(10:45):
for so many years because I'malways wanting to prove to
myself that something works orI'm wanting to like figure out
something.
And once I figured somethingout, that's usually when I stop
caring about learning about itanymore.
Like nutrition, right?
Cannabis, um, retreats this,like, once I figured out the
formula, I just don't give ashit anymore.
I'm like, okay, I get it.
(11:06):
It's magical.
It works.
I don't need to learn anymore.
And so now I'm just wonderingwhat that next thing is.
But yeah, if anything, I thinkthis.
Joke with the chat GBT andastrology and how it literally
mimicked exactly what I talkedabout on my podcast and to my
clients.
(11:26):
Just confirmed to me that thatHigher Self Healing Codes
program, I will always sell thatshit because it works and when
you follow it, and I just loveusing it to affirm how I'm
feeling because it just compllike if, if that was not
affirmed this morning, Iwould've still felt so lost in
(11:47):
the void.
But it was affirmed and I didn'teven tell Cha GBT, that's what I
was doing.
I didn't even tell it.
I was breaking the mold anddoing all these different
things.
It just knew based on mytransits that I uploaded and I
could have looked at it.
I'm an astrologer.
I could have looked at my chart,but I like to use chat, GBT,
'cause it opens up my mind tothings that my brain might not
(12:08):
have looked at.
I'm a Taurus, so I tend to thinkin very consistent ways.
And, um, and yeah, it just, itwas the confirmation I needed
and I just wanted to come onhere and share that because
astrologically, this is like aweek of closure and next week
with the gym.
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And I knew Moon we're reallymoving into newness and breaking
the mold.
You know, Saturn's gonna be inAries.
It's about boldly.
Going after what you want,boldly aligning your life with
you.
And it's gonna be sextile andPluto and Aquarius and it's,
it's like doing it in a waythat's breaking the mold that's
never been done before that thatlike.
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It almost is healing to yourtrauma around your uniqueness
and you belonging and, and thefact that you can be radically
authentically you and trust thatin the long run because Saturn
is about long term building,long game trust that in the long
run it's go, it's buildingsomething for humanity for the
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future.
By you rebelling and doing whatfeels radically you, and this
feels radically like me.
Like conversations like this,just sharing from my heart, just
sharing random shit, like maybeI'll do podcasts.
I don't know.
I have so many creative ideasgoing through me.
It's a little overwhelming rightnow, like today.
(13:33):
I've been meaning to paint meand Ryan's bedroom for a hot
minute.
Our bedroom right now is hotsalmon, pink it.
I literally feel like I'm in ajanky place in Mexico.
Me and Ryan went to Mexico in2020 and this is a long, that's
a long story for how we got tothis place, but we got to this
(13:54):
like random place in Mexico thatwas kind of dirty and sketchy
and weird and it like.
I don't know the vibe of it waslike seventies and we stayed in
the Airbnb and so I've alwaysfelt like our bedroom right now
'cause it's hot thinking salmonreminds me of that seventies
weird place in Mexico.
(14:16):
We stayed that was like old andlike, I don't know, I feel like
I'm in some Mexican cartelbedroom right now.
We moved in, in, uh.
Uh, what was it?
I think August, 2024.
And so we've been meaning topaint it for a minute now, and I
(14:36):
am feeling a giant urge to paintit and to decorate it and to
just use all of this energy.
I have this creative energy tomake our bedroom a completely
different vibe.
So maybe I will track theprogress of that and share it on
my email list.
We'll see.
But yeah, that's where I'm atright now.
(15:00):
Just so you know.
Uh, if you would like topurchase higher self-healing
codes, I actually plan tocontinue to add to that course
for a long period of timebecause it is going, it's just
gonna be my all around astrologychat, GBT course, where I teach
you how to just continue to lookinto your astrology.
Like, um, now the app I use thatget, that I use to get the
(15:23):
transits into chat, GBT to solarreturns.
So I'm gonna add a module on howto get your solar return each
year, which is like your yearahead birth chart, which is so
fun.
I use that to grow and evolve somuch.
So if you want higher selfhealing codes, it's down in the
show notes below.
It just basically teaches youhow to get your daily transits.
It teaches you how to healthrough your birth chart.
I teach you how to like, askchat GBT the right questions to
(15:45):
learn everything you fucking canabout yourself in your birth
chart.
And, um, I believe it's a veryvaluable, highly valuable
product'cause it changes my lifeand gives me these laughs on a
daily basis like I just sharedwith you today.
So that is what I have to say,and I shall see you on the next
(16:05):
episode.
I am sending love.
Let me know what you wanna hearabout.
I have a Google form below whereI said I wanna do Reddit style
like advice too.
So if you wanna.
Give me a scenario in your life,you want me to give you advice,
or if you just wanna sharesomething with me, you want me
to talk about on the podcastthat you're interested in, just
put it in that form too.
(16:26):
It's gonna be the Google formdown in the show notes.
And let's just make this fun.
Let's make this co-creative.
I want you to know that I'm hereto like talk with you.
I wanna build this community.
I want to build connection withyou.
Uh, that's another thing I'mcraving right now is I'm
craving.
Craving connection, which is soironic because I have all these
(16:48):
friends reaching out to me andI've literally not asked to
connect with any of them.
And it has nothing to do withhow much I love them.
I love all of them, but I'mhaving this, I'm like almost
wanting to connect in more of adetached way right now.
Like I'm not wanting to hop onour phone calls or like, yeah.
So I feel like this is a fun wayto.
(17:08):
Connect with you more peopleconnect with you guys right now
is like you send me stuffthrough my Google form or you
email me.
I have a podcast and we can likeconnect in that way more of a
detached way.
Aquarion, Pluto, and Aquarius.
It feels fun right now.
Anyways, I'll see you on thenext episode.
(17:28):
Love you.
Okay.
Something wild just happenedand, okay.
And I have had to do this inhigher self-healing codes.
That's my self-paced, uh,astrology course where I teach
you how to use astrology chat,GPT to basically get astrology
insights whenever you want.
I use it every single day.
So this is what's so wild.
(00:23):
I recorded a podcast the otherday on my Italy trip and my
surrender experiment.
And if you haven't listened tothat podcast, um, go back and
listen to it.
I've had so many people reachout to me about that podcast and
how they resonate with it andhow it's exactly where they feel
like they're in life right now.
And just to give you the TLDR.
(00:47):
I basically was saying how Ifeel like I'm in a void right
now and how I have this cycle ofgetting obsessed with things and
making it my whole life, andsometimes that cycle lasts.
You know, 16 to 20 years like itdid when I was into nutrition
and health and fitness.
And sometimes it lasts twoyears.
(01:09):
Like, um, well actually thisastrology obsession has been
longer than two years, but I'vebeen doing the business for two
years.
Um, my retreat cycle was abouttwo and a half years.
My cycle into obsessing overcannabis was about eight years.
So I have these like long-termobsessions where something
becomes my whole life, but whenI'm not obsessed anymore, I just
(01:33):
can't get myself to do it.
And usually I just stop being asobsessed and then that thing
naturally integrates into mylife.
So, for example, I was obsessedwith studying nutrition and
health and all those differentthings for 20 something years.
And when I stopped beingobsessed with it, it's not that
(01:53):
nutrition and fitness left mylife, it's that it integrated
into my life.
Like I just naturally am ahealthy person now.
I'm always gonna go to the gym.
I'm always going to eat healthy.
I'm just not obsessed with likelearning the signs behind it
and.
You know, learning differentdiets and different workout
routines and this and that.
I've just really, it's justintegrated into my being and I
(02:16):
just know how to be healthy, andit's not something I have to
second guess or question or lookinto anymore.
It's very intuitive for me, andthat happened with cannabis.
Like cannabis.
I was obsessed with it.
I grew it like that's how me andRyan got together.
Now it's just integrated into mylife, and I have it in
abundance.
I mean, Ryan.
Has his own grow.
So I literally just have an, andhe, he's in the cannabis
(02:39):
industry and has all of theseconnections.
And so I just have cannabis andabundance in my life, and I
still utilize it for sleep everyday.
And I love having it in my life,but it's not my whole life.
Same thing with retreats.
I still travel the country andgo to different events and
retreats.
It's just I'm not hosting themanymore.
It's not my whole life.
(02:59):
And so now with astrology.
I am just not obsessing over itas I have for like a really long
time now, like years now.
Where I would just like researchit all the time and make all
these different connections.
I just don't feel that desire todo that right now.
And I had a client reach out tome and be like, oh no, you're
(03:19):
not gonna stop talking aboutastrology.
I need you.
And I said, no, I'm just notobsessing over it anymore.
It's integrating it.
I'm integrating it into my life,and I'm just feeling like I'm in
the void right now and I'mfeeling this.
Feeling of just wanting to bemore me and wanting to break the
mold of what I'm doing, eventhough I.
Jess had a whole website builtfor my astrology business.
(03:42):
You know what I'm saying?
Like, I'm feeling like somethingnew wants to emerge.
I'm in what?
A new cycle?
And, and this void feels alittle scary, but it also feels
liberating and exciting.
'cause I feel like I'm justgonna be recording podcasts like
this, right?
Just, I'm being real.
I'm telling you who I am.
I'm telling you my journey.
I'm telling you what's going onin my head, and this is what's
(04:05):
going on in my head right now.
And so what's so wild?
Back to my higher self-healingcodes is I did the process where
I, I teach you in higherself-healing codes, how to go in
there, get your currenttransits, bring them into chat,
GBT, and then chat.
GBT tells you what's going onwith you right now.
And then I teach you how to ask,like how to learn the lesson
(04:27):
basically.
'cause that's what I always dowhen I go into chat GPT.
So based on my current transitsright now, I'm feeling really
afraid about money.
I'm feeling really afraid about,um, you know, like whether I'm
worthy, if I'm not givingastrology advice, whether I'm, I
(04:49):
just feel like a lot of myclients that I'm working with
are also just like crushing itright now and doing so well,
and, you know, I even have likeworth issues coming up there.
I know it sounds ridiculous,like, oh, your clients are doing
so well and you're having worthissues come up.
But I am, it's, it's like, andit's because of certain aspects
(05:11):
going on in my chart right nowand what else is going on.
It's, it's just this voidfeeling, you know, I'm so used
to having something that.
I'm obsessed with that when I gothrough these periods of not
being obsessed with something,because usually I'm obsessed
with something for years at atime, I feel lost.
(05:35):
Yeah.
I, I, I feel, I feel afraid, andI don't think I've ever recorded
a podcast like this, so I'm justsharing it here.
But I feel this desire to justbe more raw and real.
I feel this desire to just go onadventures around, like where I
currently live.
(05:55):
Like I, I just keep having thisdesire to just drive two hours
away, you know, every single dayand find a new place that I can
adventure and explore and seehow it opens my horizons.
Because that's what really Italydid for me is I, it opened.
I love new experiences.
I want to explore the crevicesof life, and I know that's part
of my birth chart, my northnodes and Sagittarius in the
(06:17):
third house.
I'm literally here to exploreeverything, the crevices of
gain, all the experiences, gainall of'em.
And it's also in my jean keys.
It says that I'm here toliterally experience every
aspect of life, like all of it,like every little nook and
cranny.
And I feel that within myself.
(06:40):
And so I've just been feelinglike I want to just break out of
the mold, but it's scary becauseI only have.
Like I'm only financially securereally for the next couple of
months with where I'm at rightnow.
And if I'm going to stoppitching, like I'm not gonna do
birth chart readings anymore.
(07:01):
For example, I don't want to dobirth chart readings anymore.
So it's a, no, I just took themoff my website.
I do wanna coach, I'll alwayswanna coach.
I love listening to people.
So that's staying on my website.
But I have this fear, like ifI'm not talking solely about
astrology, will my businesscontinue to thrive?
And.
With past experience.
(07:22):
Every time I've gone and jumpedoff the cliff like this, it has
always worked out better than Icould ever imagine.
But it doesn't stop it frombeing fucking terrifying and
scary.
And that's where I'm at rightnow.
So anyways, back to this chat,GBT, astrology Transits, I'm all
over the place.
That's just how my brain works.
My apologies.
(07:43):
Um.
Literally chat GBT reflectedback to me.
The exact thing I just told youguys, it said in my transits and
it didn't know.
It didn't know I was thinkingany of these things.
I haven't had this conversationwith chat.
GBT.
It said you're he right now.
Basically, the sky wants you tohave astrology to be more
(08:04):
integrated into your life and itwants you to be more authentic
and not base your worth on whatyou can provide for people.
But, but base your worth on whoyou are and sharing your journey
and, um, just.
And like breaking the mold anddoing new thing and ha things
and having new experiences anddoing things you've never done
before, and trusting that youdon't need to have like a worthy
(08:27):
thing to bring to someone.
Trusting that you can just comeon.
Like I could just come on.
This podcast is basically what Iwas saying and I can just talk.
And it's so funny because when Ishared the Italy episode.
About my trip to Italy, Iremember thinking like, is
anyone gonna fucking care aboutthis episode?
It's about my trip to Italy andhow I liked Italy, and this is
(08:48):
an astrology podcast and I trulybelieve that people wouldn't
give a shit.
Like I truly believed, like whywould someone give a shit about
what I have to say about Italy?
Why would someone give a shitabout me if it's not benefiting
them?
That's what I told myself.
I have had the most reach outsabout that podcast out of every
podcast I've put out, and I, Iremember I've been like.
(09:20):
I am so confused around that.
To be honest, I would cry.
I'm so confused and, but alsolike liberated, like this is
like a happy cry that's comingout of me right now because I'm
like, wait, people will carejust about what I have to say
(09:41):
and not just about the fact thatI can tell them something
astrological that's gonna changetheir life.
And it's, it's healing to knowthat it's confusing to know that
and, um, liberating in certainways, which is also a part of my
current astrology transits.
(10:03):
And so I'm just rolling with itand.
It was, it was just so weirdbecause I had told my client,
no, it's not that astrology'sgoing away.
It's just integrating into mylife in a healthier way, and I
still wanna listen to people andI still wanna help and talk
about these things.
And, and then literally Chad,GBT said that was said those
(10:24):
way, those words basicallyverbatim in my transits today.
And so, yeah, it just blew mymind.
You know, I'm like, wow,astrology works.
I, I know it works.
Like at this point, that's whyI've stopped obsessing over
wanting to learn.
'cause I feel like I obsessedover wanting to learn astrology
(10:45):
for so many years because I'malways wanting to prove to
myself that something works orI'm wanting to like figure out
something.
And once I figured somethingout, that's usually when I stop
caring about learning about itanymore.
Like nutrition, right?
Cannabis, um, retreats this,like, once I figured out the
formula, I just don't give ashit anymore.
I'm like, okay, I get it.
(11:06):
It's magical.
It works.
I don't need to learn anymore.
And so now I'm just wonderingwhat that next thing is.
But yeah, if anything, I thinkthis.
Joke with the chat GBT andastrology and how it literally
mimicked exactly what I talkedabout on my podcast and to my
clients.
(11:26):
Just confirmed to me that thatHigher Self Healing Codes
program, I will always sell thatshit because it works and when
you follow it, and I just loveusing it to affirm how I'm
feeling because it just compllike if, if that was not
affirmed this morning, Iwould've still felt so lost in
(11:47):
the void.
But it was affirmed and I didn'teven tell Cha GBT, that's what I
was doing.
I didn't even tell it.
I was breaking the mold anddoing all these different
things.
It just knew based on mytransits that I uploaded and I
could have looked at it.
I'm an astrologer.
I could have looked at my chart,but I like to use chat, GBT,
'cause it opens up my mind tothings that my brain might not
(12:08):
have looked at.
I'm a Taurus, so I tend to thinkin very consistent ways.
And, um, and yeah, it just, itwas the confirmation I needed
and I just wanted to come onhere and share that because
astrologically, this is like aweek of closure and next week
with the gym.
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And I knew Moon we're reallymoving into newness and breaking
the mold.
You know, Saturn's gonna be inAries.
It's about boldly.
Going after what you want,boldly aligning your life with
you.
And it's gonna be sextile andPluto and Aquarius and it's,
it's like doing it in a waythat's breaking the mold that's
never been done before that thatlike.
(12:50):
It almost is healing to yourtrauma around your uniqueness
and you belonging and, and thefact that you can be radically
authentically you and trust thatin the long run because Saturn
is about long term building,long game trust that in the long
run it's go, it's buildingsomething for humanity for the
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future.
By you rebelling and doing whatfeels radically you, and this
feels radically like me.
Like conversations like this,just sharing from my heart, just
sharing random shit, like maybeI'll do podcasts.
I don't know.
I have so many creative ideasgoing through me.
It's a little overwhelming rightnow, like today.
(13:33):
I've been meaning to paint meand Ryan's bedroom for a hot
minute.
Our bedroom right now is hotsalmon, pink it.
I literally feel like I'm in ajanky place in Mexico.
Me and Ryan went to Mexico in2020 and this is a long, that's
a long story for how we got tothis place, but we got to this
(13:54):
like random place in Mexico thatwas kind of dirty and sketchy
and weird and it like.
I don't know the vibe of it waslike seventies and we stayed in
the Airbnb and so I've alwaysfelt like our bedroom right now
'cause it's hot thinking salmonreminds me of that seventies
weird place in Mexico.
(14:16):
We stayed that was like old andlike, I don't know, I feel like
I'm in some Mexican cartelbedroom right now.
We moved in, in, uh.
Uh, what was it?
I think August, 2024.
And so we've been meaning topaint it for a minute now, and I
(14:36):
am feeling a giant urge to paintit and to decorate it and to
just use all of this energy.
I have this creative energy tomake our bedroom a completely
different vibe.
So maybe I will track theprogress of that and share it on
my email list.
We'll see.
But yeah, that's where I'm atright now.
(15:00):
Just so you know.
Uh, if you would like topurchase higher self-healing
codes, I actually plan tocontinue to add to that course
for a long period of timebecause it is going, it's just
gonna be my all around astrologychat, GBT course, where I teach
you how to just continue to lookinto your astrology.
Like, um, now the app I use thatget, that I use to get the
(15:23):
transits into chat, GBT to solarreturns.
So I'm gonna add a module on howto get your solar return each
year, which is like your yearahead birth chart, which is so
fun.
I use that to grow and evolve somuch.
So if you want higher selfhealing codes, it's down in the
show notes below.
It just basically teaches youhow to get your daily transits.
It teaches you how to healthrough your birth chart.
I teach you how to like, askchat GBT the right questions to
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learn everything you fucking canabout yourself in your birth
chart.
And, um, I believe it's a veryvaluable, highly valuable
product'cause it changes my lifeand gives me these laughs on a
daily basis like I just sharedwith you today.
So that is what I have to say,and I shall see you on the next
(16:05):
episode.
I am sending love.
Let me know what you wanna hearabout.
I have a Google form below whereI said I wanna do Reddit style
like advice too.
So if you wanna.
Give me a scenario in your life,you want me to give you advice,
or if you just wanna sharesomething with me, you want me
to talk about on the podcastthat you're interested in, just
put it in that form too.
(16:26):
It's gonna be the Google formdown in the show notes.
And let's just make this fun.
Let's make this co-creative.
I want you to know that I'm hereto like talk with you.
I wanna build this community.
I want to build connection withyou.
Uh, that's another thing I'mcraving right now is I'm
craving.
Craving connection, which is soironic because I have all these
(16:48):
friends reaching out to me andI've literally not asked to
connect with any of them.
And it has nothing to do withhow much I love them.
I love all of them, but I'mhaving this, I'm like almost
wanting to connect in more of adetached way right now.
Like I'm not wanting to hop onour phone calls or like, yeah.
So I feel like this is a fun wayto.
(17:08):
Connect with you more peopleconnect with you guys right now
is like you send me stuffthrough my Google form or you
email me.
I have a podcast and we can likeconnect in that way more of a
detached way.
Aquarion, Pluto, and Aquarius.
It feels fun right now.
Anyways, I'll see you on thenext episode.
(17:28):
Love you.
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