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The Libra Full Moon is on April12th, 2025 at 8:22 PM and it
asks you where are woundsaround, who are around yourself,
around how you view yourself,keep you in karmic patterns in
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relationships.
That don't feel balanced,whether that wound is around.
You've never had a boyfriend andyou'd really like a boyfriend
and you think there's somethingwrong with you, or that wound is
around.
People misunderstand me.
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They don't get me.
Why don't people see me?
Or maybe it's a wound around.
I give so much.
I give so much, and still no onesees me.
Why does no one see me?
Maybe, maybe you're not doingmuch'cause you're exhausted and
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you just want someone to noticeyou and have compassion for you.
There's some sort of wound youhave around self and it wants to
sh and, and this full moon isshining a light on that.
It's shining a light on whereyour emotional inner world, your
emotional landscape.
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Is keeping you stuck in thesecertain patterns in relationship
that just don't feel empoweringto you.
Because there's a karmic messagethat's wanting to come through
at this full moon, and it'sbeautifully described by the
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Sabian symbol based on thedegree that this moon in Libra
is at.
So the Moon Libra is at 23degrees.
So we round up to 24 Libra, andthat is a butterfly with a third
wing on its left side.
So to me, this full Moon is,yes, it's about transformation,
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but it's about transformationthat might feel awkward for you.
Because anytime we end alifelong pattern and we're
owning our uniqueness as ourgreatest superpower, it can feel
awkward.
Most of us been taught that whowe are uniquely are is wrong, is
bad.
That is why we are stuck inkarmic patterns for a reason.
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We stuff down.
The things we were told werewrong or bad.
We stuffed down the ways inwhich we felt different, and we
are taught not to value.
The things that we once valuedas kids, it's too weird, it's
too different, it's too much.
You are too much like whateverit is, and that's what a
butterfly with a third wing onits left side is.
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It looks awkward, but it alsohas extra capabilities that a
butterfly with two wings doesnot have.
So this degree suggests a periodwhere you or collective energy,
this is a collective awkwardtransformation, awakening of
owning what's unique and specialfor you.
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We undergoing an unusual growth,possibly feeling awkward,
different or ahead of your time.
This symbol, AKA, this fullmoon.
Is about developing newabilities that may not yet fully
integrate into the existingstructure of your life.
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There's a theme of pioneeringchange, embrace what makes you
different, and finding balancewithin imbalance.
This Full Moon challenges you toevolve, even if that means
stepping outside of conventionalnorms, oftentimes we have that
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wound around self.
Again, like I said, not becausethere's anything wrong with you,
but, but because.
Usually this is how it works.
You're born into a family thatis designed to teach you
lessons, that is designed totake you away from yourself in
some way, whether it's yourfamily or the circumstances you
grow up with.
There is a specific design toit.
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It's spelled out in your birthchart.
It's literally the lessons inyour birth chart.
And so inherently every singleperson is taken away from who
they uniquely are, and on somelevel told to not value it.
And this Full Moon is areclamation of that value.
It's a reclamation of, oh, thisthing I always thought was wrong
with me.
How can I own it as my greatestfricking superpower?
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I'll give you an example.
Um.
This past eclipse I've, I talkedabout in a previous episode, was
strongly impacting my Lilith andPisces.
And so I have undergone reallydeep transformation when it
comes to my Lilith.
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And so let me tell you about it'cause I think it will help tie
in how this full Moon can showup for you.
My deepest wound.
My Pisces Lilith wound wasaround being too sensitive.
Like anytime I would expressemotion it when I was younger,
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it was too wild.
It was too untamed.
I'm too sensitive.
I'm mean, that's what I wastold.
Because my emotion was always sobig.
I wasn't trying to be mean.
I was just trying to get myneeds met and ask a question and
I would be told You're too much.
Like I remember, I would yell atmy brother.
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And the response would alwaysbe, Rachel, stop whining.
And I felt helpless in thosemoments.
And so what I learned to do was,Rachel, you're too sensitive.
Your needs are too sensitive.
Your emotions are too wild.
Your emotions are too big.
Your emotions are dangerous.
People can't handle'em and theydon't like it.
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And so what ended up happeningwas I became very logical.
I had started controllingeverything that I said.
I wouldn't dare let people knowhow sensitive I was, how often
my feelings were getting hurt,and I just wasn't saying
anything.
I just started stuffing everytime someone hurt my feelings
every time someone assertedpower over me, because at that
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point I didn't feel like if theway I expressed would get me
anywhere, it wouldn't.
I didn't have, I didn't feellike, I felt like my power was
taken away because I'm too wildand feminine and chaotic when I
speak for my power.
So, so I just have to submit toother people's power.
You know, when the girl, whenI'm playing soccer and a girl
yells at me to pass the ball, Ipass the fricking ball.
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'cause I don't want her to yellat me even anymore.
'cause I can't protect myself.
'cause if I let it out, it's toowild, too untamed.
Well over time it made me feelreally disconnected from myself.
It made me feel tight in mychest around every single person
I talked to because I couldn'tbe the full me.
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I had to monitor and monitor,and I stepped it down and down,
and so.
And so as I've been healing mylittle thin Pisces, I've been
doing, I've been, I've beenfocusing on making myself feel
at home, and that's come withtwo different things.
One, which I've talked about onthe podcast.
I'm talking a lot less and onlytalking when I'm inspired and
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not being afraid of awkwardsilences.
And it's been life changing forme.
But number two, I've also beenspeaking up and allowing my wild
emotion to come out.
That one's been equally as scarybecause as I know that like, so
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the thing with your Lilith is itgives intuitive messages and
people will either reject youfor it or they'll accept you for
it depending on how much you'vehealed The Lilith.
In different aspects of life,there's layers to her.
And so I first practiced lettingmy wild feminine out in the
beginning of the year with afriend.
I spoke a truth to her that Icould not contain in my body
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anymore, around our friendshipand how, um, values that I had
that felt like they werecrossed.
And I'm a Taurus.
My PLU is in the second house,um, connected to my son.
So my values are everything tome and.
I have boundaries in my lifearound my values because they
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are the things that structureand form my life.
And so I felt as though a friendhad crossed those values or was
not living in alignment withthose values.
And I stuffed it down forseveral months until I finally
exploded.
Like my lith, I, that's whathappens when he Lilith.
It just came out.
It was so messy.
It was not good the way it cameout.
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Um.
I did get my truth out to her,and I set the intention before
that.
My intention is that this bringsus closer.
My intention is that this helpsyou as much as it helps our
relationship and me, right?
'cause it's also healing to meto speak my truth and things
that I see.
And we didn't talk for a fullmonth and.
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Eventually she came back at theend of the month and reinstated
my intention.
She said, your intention was forus to resolve this.
Do you still wanna resolve it?
I said, yes.
And so then we could talk from amuch more grounded place.
After I got my Lith, wild tamedrage out.
And another month later she getsa book that completely coincides
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with what I was sharing withher.
And she has like a giantbreakthrough.
She has a giant breakthrough,but I also am having a giant
breakthrough.
In my giant breakthrough wasthat, wow, there are messages
when I feel strongly aboutsomething, there is intuition
and there's wisdom in what Ifeel strongly about, and I've
been stuffing that emotion thatI have that is my strongest
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connection to my intuition downmy whole life, because I was
told I'm too sensitive, tooemotional.
And the fact that I could letthat emotion out and then my
friend could hold it and thenmeet me two months later and not
just meet me, but like meet mefrom a much higher perspective,
like, meet me in my values,recommend the friendship, be
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able to come back intorelationship.
Um, in that moment, it actuallydid something very healing for
me.
And what was healing about itwas that my emotions are not too
much for the right people.
In fact, the more I own myemotions and how things feel and
allow that truth to come out andthen stay open and compassionate
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and, and willing to, um, comeback into harmony with the other
person, by me taking anyresponsibility I need to for
where I maybe, uh, my, maybewhere my truth was not exactly
perfect.
'cause I always say truth isperfectly imperfect and it comes
out in layers.
Usually the first layer of truthis imperfect.
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Because there's a deeper layerof truth, and that's, that's
usually a much more vulnerabletruth, one that you can take
responsibility for.
So for example, in this argumentI had with my friend, I realized
the reason it came out reallymessy in the beginning when we
reconfigured a month later wasthat it's not, well, it wasn't
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just that my values were crossedis that I have these values
because.
Um, like my value is I wouldnever portray another person,
right?
For example.
So if I see someone else betraywho's close to me, betraying
someone else, that crosses myvalue, and then I, I, I don't
want them to betray me too.
That's why, because I havevalues of never betraying
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anyone.
And so if you're in my life, Iwant you to be in integrity with
that too.
Be integrity with unconditionallove.
And so I could also come, Icould also recognize where I
could take responsibility, wherethat well of emotion came from.
It came, it wasn't, it came froma place of having both wanting
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to align with my values and therelationship, but also not
wanting to be betrayed andwanting to protect the shit
outta myself.
And so when we could reconfigurea month later when I dug deeper,
I was able to apologize with theway I initially expressed this
and take accountabilityresponsibility for why it came
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out so emotional.
And that brought us closertogether.
And so since then I've beenpracticing speaking my emotional
truth.
And some people don't get it.
But the cool thing is, is everytime I allow myself to just be
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wild and messy and emote, I'mactually attracting a lot more
people who get it than whodon't.
It's almost like the more youown who you really are, the less
you even notice.
All of these people that wouldreject you or misunderstand you,
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and the less they really matterbecause it's because you're
magnetizing the people who do.
That's what magnetism is.
It inherently is gonna repelpeople and attract people, and
we're moving into an age wherewe're building a new earth where
change, change makers are risingand are needed.
And so it is more needed thanever.
For you to lean in on the thingsthat make you different, the
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things that once wounded you inorder for you to reclaim that
power so boldly that it bringsin the people who are like, I
see that power.
I relate with that power.
I'm hopping on your bandwagon.
And the, and the people who justmirror that old wound and try to
reject you.
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You, you start to come intocompassion for them.
There's some sort of long termkarmic pattern that's wanting to
come to an end at this full moonbecause Saturn in Pisces, which
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is conjunct venous, retrogradein Pisces.
So this is reflecting onrelationships, reflecting on
your self-worth, reflecting onyour values.
Which are pretty much conjunctnorth nodes.
This is very karmic, like I'msaying.
Pisces is also a karmic signsthe sign of karmic endings.
They're creating a beautiful sextile to Uranus and Taurus.
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That's the breakthrough, that'sthe awakening and recognizing,
oh my God, I just have to bepresent with myself, and the
more I own what I value, themore I own my emotional truth
and protect myself and makemyself feel at home.
The more I slow down enough toeven see what feels right, and I
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stop just reacting from fear,but I actually sit with the fear
and I process it, and I allow itto bring me into peace and
truth.
The more I.
Trust that there is inincredible information in my
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emotions and how I'm feeling,and I take ownership for them,
the more self-worth I can build.
'cause here's the thing, we onlydon't feel worthy.
We only don't feel present.
We only don't feel.
Connected to what we value orconnected to abundance and all
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those different things likeconnected to what makes us feel
rooted and present and secureand good when we think we can't
be ourselves, when we have tomanage how we show up
everywhere.
You know, you walk into a room,you have social anxiety, but you
don't want anyone to know it,and so you just act extra Greg,
gregarious and social toeveryone, but you're dying
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inside.
That's an example of what I'mtalking about.
That's you bypassing your truevalue, your true worth, your
worth of just beingness.
And so there's a breakthroughwanting to come, come through to
you.
You know, this could be, andthis breakthrough is gonna
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create stronger, more balancedlong-term relationships.
This breakthrough is gonnacreate, um, a stronger
foundation for you to buildlong-term wealth.
It's gonna come with a strongerfoundation for you to just feel
more connected to yourself, moreembodied, more, hmm, free.
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Because what happens when youdon't have to control yourself
anymore?
And you realize all the peoplewho don't like you for your
truth, really don't belong inyour life anyways, is you become
free.
And you realize how much lovethere was for the person that
you always were, that now you'reallowing yourself to be just
like the story I just told.
I know I now I know I havefriends and people in my life
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who can hold my wild, feminine,untamed nature, and they can't
just, they don't just hold it.
They crave it, they thrive it.
They use it as a permission slipfor themselves.
This thing I once was soshameful of is now my greatest
superpower.
That's what's wanting to comethrough to you.
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Where do you shame yourself?
Where do you shame your owntruth?
Because you can't let otherpeople down because you made
certain commitments to peoplethat aren't in alignment with
you anymore.
Whatever bullshit story you tellyourself, you know?
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Like there's all these rules andstories we make for ourselves.
Like, oh, well you know, Isigned on to this company and I
promised them these things and Ipromised I would deliver them
all in five years, and it's onlybeen two years and I'm dying and
I need to leave.
But I promised and I love themand I don't wanna let them down.
And, and then all these otherthings could happen.
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If I left, what happened?
If I left?
What happened?
If I followed my truth?
What happened if I was actuallytrue to myself?
What if they leave me?
What if I lose love?
What if now I'm not responsible?
What if the whole world comescrashing down and I'm not in
integrity now?
'cause I didn't stick with myfive year contract that I have
with these people, and now theirwhole business is gonna come
down'cause of me.
And like literally, if you'retelling yourself a story and
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there's so much wordyinformation.
And you're coming up with allthe excuses for why you can't
follow your truth.
There is something there foryou.
So ask yourself, where might yoube doing that?
When it comes to this fear ofhow you'd be viewed in
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relationship, this fear oftrusting yourself to honor
yourself, maybe a little toomuch.
Where is that fear and what isactually true for you?
What do you actually want?
What actually feels right inyour soul if you sign this five
year contract?
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But really what you wanna do isnot work for the next three
months and do all this creativeprojects, and it feels scary as
fuck to admit that to yourself.
That's what I mean by abutterfly with a third wing on
its left side.
This shit is a transformationfor transformative energy.
It's a little awkward'cause it'snew.
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You've never done it before.
You've never surrendered andtrusted yourself this deeply.
Maybe, maybe you have, maybethis is just a deeper level of
that surrender.
It just depends on where you areat your journey.
I've done a lot of deepsurrendering and I know this is
just probably coming with evenmore deep surrendering for me
'cause it's a constant evolutionand I'm here for it.
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But Mars in Cancer is, is in anexact trying to the North Noden
Pisces at this full moon.
And so it's showing me.
That there's always been thisway.
You've gone about creatingemotional safety, and it might
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be a little too superficial.
It's not really true.
Truth is deep and often a lot ofpeople are disconnected from
their truth because they'velived superficial lives for so
long.
And if that's been you, there'sno shame in that at all.
All at all, maybe this is thefull moon that you recognize.
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I've been living superficiallyjust to keep myself feeling
safe.
I've been just, you know, I, Ilose my job and then I
immediately think I need to findanother job that's gonna make me
a lot of money.
And, but I hate doing thesejobs.
You keep signing up for a jobthat you hate again and again
and again.
That's what I mean by asuperficial way to make yourself
feel safe.
A new way is wanting to comethrough one where you tr trust
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your passion.
One where you trust the thingsthat feel, make you feel
grounded and make you feel likeyou're truly listening to your
emotions.
If you're feeling exhausted likeyou need to rest, maybe that's
what you need to do.
If you're feeling like you justwanna study astrology, maybe
that's what you need to do.
If you're like, yeah, but I needto make money, where is that
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gonna lead me?
This is what I mean by this is akarmic surrender and it's gonna
feel awkward.
The butterfly with the thirdwing.
Hmm.
This is important to share.
Okay.
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I was gonna record a wholeseparate podcast episode about
this, but apparently it wants tobe in this episode.
So, Lilith, I just told you alittle bit about Lilith, but
Lilith is currently in Scorpio.
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Lilith is your wild, untamed,feminine energy.
And when she's in Scorpio, sheis your greatest power.
But she's also connected andwanna know what your wild and
tamed feminine energy plus yourgreatest power equals what
Lilith really is in Scorpio.
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Okay.
She is the witch wound.
She is the inner witch.
And if you wanna understand whypeople hunted down witches back
in the day, like you could beliving today and be like, I
can't wrap my head around it.
How could people burn people atthe stake?
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You could be burning witches.
Every single person on thisplanet burns people's witches,
everyone at one point, and I'mnot saying this to shame you, is
not what I'm saying.
I'm gonna explain what I'mtalking about.
So the reason Scorpio is thesign of your inner witch and the
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reason, it's the sign of magicand transformation and alchemy
and turning lead into gold.
Is because your strongest powerto turn lead into gold is
vulnerability and truth.
Those two things, and peoplewill go to their deathbed,
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keeping a secret and neversharing the truth.
Why is that?
Because if they were to sharethat truth, it could cause so
much chaos that they don't knowwhat would happen if they were
to share that truth.
It would cause so much alchemyin their life that they don't
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know what would happen, and thatis exactly why witches got
burned.
Because people cannot handletruth.
People cannot handle witches, orthey tell themselves they can't
handle it.
You really can.
It's just fucking scary.
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True deep transformation comeswhen you speak your truth, even
if it feels like you're gonnadie.
True deep transformation comesfrom taking responsibility for
truth, even when you gettriggered.
So if someone triggers you, it'sactually triggering a Scorpio
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wound, lith and Scorpio.
It's triggering your witchwound.
'cause when someone shares atruth with their truth with you,
and you get triggered by it andcan't handle it.
You know, let's say you find outthat like, like let, like let's
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say that you find out that.
Let's say you're a jealousgirlfriend and your boyfriend
really wanted to hang out withhis friends, but you never let
him hang out with his friends.
And so what he does instead ishe does this sneaky thing to go
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hang out with his friends.
'cause if he were to tell you,he'd go hang out with his
friends, he would feel yourwrath.
That's what I mean by gettingtriggered.
And then if you found out hewent out with your friends and
he never told you, you'dprobably get double triggered.
But that's because he wasafraid.
Of his truth, his inner witchbeing burned by you and, and his
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truth could have triggered yourinner witch.
There's a reason why you don'twant him to go out.
Maybe you've been cheated onbefore.
Maybe you have daddy issues.
I don't know.
Mommy issues, some sort ofissues.
I don't know.
This is a random example.
I doubt it's you, but.
That triggering is your innerwitch wound.
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It's, it's, it's the thing thatpropels people to kill other
people's witches because if youhave jealousy, abandonment
wounds, then if your boyfriendasked to go out with his friends
and it triggers you, and thenyou try to control him or beat
him or beat him up for it, or bemean to him for it, that's you
literally burning his innerwitch.
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Do you see what I'm saying?
Truth is the most alchemical,transformative, magical medicine
on this planet.
And most people won't choose it,and instead they'll keep burning
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other people's witches.
But the moment you choose it andshare it vulnerably and
self-reflect and takeresponsibility for your truth.
So in this girlfriend example,her truth is really that she's
jealous.
Because the deeper truth is, ismaybe she's afraid of being
abandoned.
'cause the deeper truth is maybeher dad did abandon her when she
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was 10 years old, and that's thepattern she expects.
And so the, the burning, thewitch version would be yelling
at the boyfriend, controllinghim.
But the sinking back into truthversion would be reflecting on
why do I feel this need to limitmy partner's freedom?
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Why am I making my partner burnhis own witch to make me feel
safe?
And if in that moment thatperson can self-reflect and say,
oh.
Ah, it's'cause my dad left meand I'm afraid of being
abandoned.
So I try to control him.
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But then I know the very act ofme trying to control him just
manifest the very thing, andthat's what's keeping me stuck
in this pattern.
So if instead she can say to herboyfriend, Hey, I want you to be
in your truth, and I'm no longergonna yell at you for your
truth.
I'm gonna put so much trust inthe universe.
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I'm gonna put so much surrenderin the universe.
And I'm gonna feel the deeppain, which the real vulnerable
truth is my dad left me and Ihave a deep fear of abandonment,
and so I'm trying to stop itfrom ever happening again.
By burning your witch, byburning your truth.
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What happens when you do that?
And I will say, this is veryhigh level shit.
It's painful shit, and I knowyou can do it.
You're more than capable, morethan.
When you actually self-reflectand see why you're getting
trigger and you take ownership,no matter how badly you want it
to be, the other person's witchis the moment you heal your
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deepest trauma.
It's the moment you alchemizethe wound.
It's the moment you realign withtruth and truth reconnects you
to your deepest power.
It doesn't matter if thatboyfriend then goes and does
whatever he wants because thatwas attracted from an old
version of you.
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Now that you're connected totruth and you refuse to ever
control another person in thatway, let's say whatever happens
in that relationship, it couldget a million times better
because now your boyfriend feelsfree and empowered and where,
where else is he gonna, is hegonna find a girlfriend who lets
him be that free?
He probably attracted you for areason, so it's healing for him
too.
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So either that relationship getsbetter and better or it ends,
which is fine.
'cause we have to surrenderrelationships sometimes.
And a really aligned,trustworthy one comes in because
you're anchored to truth and youare refusing to burn the other
person's witch.
And you're refusing to burn yourown, witch, your own truth by
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avoiding it.
You're feeling it, you'reholding it, you're alchemizing
it.
And I am bringing this upbecause Lilith in Scorpio is
squaring Pluto in Aquarius.
This is highly transformational,highly chemical energy, and it's
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wanting you to own your truth,even if you're misunderstood.
It is wanting you to own yourtruth so fully that you can
speak it, express it, and notneed to overexplain yourself.
You hold your truth and you staysilent and you wait to see who
meets you.
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There's an opportunity at thisfull moon to heal deep wounds
around feeling like you don'tbelong through radically owning
your truth.
Radically owning what feelsright, even if it burns a lot of
bridges, even if it ensueschaos, you could hold it.
This is giving you the long-termpower to hold it till you make
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it to the other side.
So that is this full moon inLibra.
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Um.
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And it's gonna give you yourspecific horoscope for this full
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moon so that you can gain themost empowerment out of it.
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