March 30, 2025 • 20 mins
In this powerful episode, I reflect on the last three podcast episodes I’ve released—and how, together, they mirror the true, raw spiral of deep spiritual evolution. I open up about the illusion of “being done healing,” the truth behind waking up in a new vibration (hint: it’s not what you think), and why real transformation doesn’t come from bypassing your shadows, but by walking straight through the fire.
If you’ve ever felt frustrated that healing isn’t linear, or wondered why peace and freedom still feel hard to access sometimes, this episode will feel like a soul mirror. I speak to the difference between superficial spirituality and the kind of real, lasting embodiment that changes your life from the inside out.
This is for the ones doing the deep work. The ones who aren’t afraid to look at themselves again and again—and rise.
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(00:49):
I was reflecting on the lastthree episodes I put out how
three episodes ago I put out anairy solar eclipse episode.
And I talked about how Itransformed my life, how I
learned to work with myemotions.
And then episode two, I talkedabout my lifelong journey of
healing, overthinking.
(01:11):
And then my most recent episode,my venous retrograde Neptune and
Pisces one, I shared somethingcompletely different.
I shared, here's what stillhurts.
And here's what I'm learning toreceive, and I was reflecting on
the order in which I postedthese episodes and how it speaks
(01:37):
to what a true, deep spiritualtransformative journey is in
that.
There is no shame.
There's, I'm gonna cry.
There is absolutely no shame.
In having healed something sodeeply and then having to go
(01:59):
back into healing something elsethat's slightly similar, but
slightly different, but acompletely different vein
because that is thetransformative healing process.
It is not linear.
It is a spiral.
And I'm saying this becausesometimes I work with people.
(02:19):
And they have a bigbreakthrough.
And then they're so mad atthemselves for having taken this
long to get here, or they're somad at themselves'cause they're
like, I already healed that.
But then they realized theyhealed one aspect of it, one
layer of it, and there was amuch deeper layer that was so
(02:39):
unconscious and so shocking andso surprising that it, it pulled
them back under again.
And whenever I hear people aresad about it, I just wanna, I
wanna like put my heart intotheir heart.
'cause this is something I'vehad to do for myself so many
times and I wanna say.
There is nothing wrong with you.
(02:59):
This is a life of finding goldand it's a fight, a life of
finding more and more gold.
It's not about being sad aboutall the gold you haven't found
yet.
It's about being excited abouthow much more gold you're gonna
find, and if you get upset everytime you find gold.
How silly is that?
(03:20):
If you were mining for gold andyou were upset every time you
found a big gold mindset, Ican't believe it.
To me.
Six months to find this.
I'm so pissed.
I didn't find this six monthsago.
Would that journey have beenworth it?
Would the gold felt as good?
No.
And so I wanna record thisepisode to talk to, I don't
(03:46):
wanna call it this, but it's theonly word I can think of.
Superficial spirituality andsuperficial transformation, and
this is in no way shaming anyoneor blaming anyone.
This is an episode to provideawareness and empowerment and
inspiration because I think thatthere's a lot of false
(04:08):
information out there when itcomes to deep transformation and
it fucks people up.
And I know when people aresharing this information, it's
coming from a good place.
It's coming from sharinginformation from where that
person is in their spiritualjourney.
I.
And they have no idea that it'sharmful because it's just where
they're at in their spiritualjourney and it's not even
(04:30):
harmful.
Maybe it's helpful for certainpeople who are, who aren't where
they're at yet.
Just like my podcast is not foreveryone, my pod, I'm not here
to meet people where they're at.
I really am not.
I am here to speak truths thathave become neutral to me on my
journey, or I'm in the middleof.
(04:50):
And I'm speaking it, and thepeople who will meet me will
meet me if I trigger people.
And you've watched every episodeand you're still like, Rachel
triggers me every time.
Maybe you're not meant to listento my podcast, you can still be
here.
That's totally cool.
But like the point of what I'msaying is, is that there's
different levels on the journey.
And if you're here on thispodcast, the level that I wanna
(05:15):
speak to is deep spiritualtransformation.
And so I wanna.
I wanna speak to things thatI've become aware of and share.
Okay, so the first thing Imentioned already, it's that
(05:38):
even if you have done a lifetimeof healing.
If you continue to tell peopleyou've done a lifetime of
healing and you're done healing,and you're just here to be a
guide for others, I'm gonna saythis, with so much love and a
(05:59):
big hug, you are cheatingyourself and you are blocking
yourself.
And, and I, I'm gonna say thisalso with love.
You to, I know you have healedyour whole life.
I know you have, and I'm proudof you and you have worked so
(06:21):
hard and I will never take thataway from you ever.
And at some point there is aswitch from healing to evolving.
(06:43):
There is a switch from realizingthat there's not something wrong
with you, and so you don't haveto block any more healing.
I have found that when peoplesay they've been on a long
healing journey and they'redone, it's because they're done
at looking things that are wrongwith them, and this is the
switch that maybe you're readyto make.
(07:04):
It is no longer.
That there is something wrongwith you.
It is that you have gotten to aplace where you are ready to
keep evolving and life gettingbetter and better rather than
healing and looking for thethings that are wrong with you.
(07:25):
And so, for example, where I'mat in my spiritual journey is I.
Every single person is a teacherfor me.
Every single person, even thepeople that I teach you are a
teacher for me.
I, I learn deeply from you and Iprobably don't tell you the ways
I'm learning.
I am learning through observingyour patterns and reflecting on
(07:48):
how those patterns are still inme.
Because if you are in my life,you are reflecting a planet in
my birth chart, whether I wannaadmit it or not.
It's not, you're not just herefor me to help.
And I'm, I have come to a placein my journey where I can be
humble enough to admit that.
And at one point it might havebeen hard for me to admit that,
(08:09):
but yeah, I learned from everysingle person, especially the
people I help, because when I'mhelping you, there are things
that I have healed that I'mhelping you with, but
simultaneously, there's deeperlayers being revealed to me.
'cause you're showing me aslightly different aspect.
And may bringing clarity to itfor me.
(08:31):
And so I no longer look forthose things as there's
something wrong with me.
In fact, I look at them as gold.
How much gold can I find inevery person, in every
interaction?
And it's why I'm willing to bevulnerable here on my podcast
because that is gold in itselffor me.
(08:55):
And.
My, my heart's getting a littletight because I think this is
something I need to feel into.
(09:26):
I have learned that there ismore gold and freedom and power
in my vulnerability than thereis in me acting like I'm all
healed in an authority.
And in fact, I have learned thatpretending I am all healed in
authority is the very blocked tomy, my power.
(09:47):
And it's why people probablylisten to me are like, holy shit
Rachel, you really share someshit.
Yeah, it's'cause I, I will keepsharing shit.
I had rather just put it all outthere because that is truth and
that is strength.
And I am not afraid to say thatI am still evolving'cause I'm
(10:07):
not healing anymore.
My life is getting better andbetter.
And so it's the first deepspiritual truth I wanna bring to
you.
Stop looking at learning lessonsevolving as there's something
wrong with you.
You are just finding more andmore gold nuggets, and if you
look at it that way, it becomesso much easier.
(10:28):
You stop resisting your growth,you stop resisting your power,
and you have way more freedomand you stop needing to prove
yourself to people.
I have been overcoming a deepwound of proving myself to
people and I'm still in it, andit's been one of the deepest
lessons for me.
Okay, number two.
(11:07):
Peace is not an event.
Freedom is not a moment.
You don't just wake up healed inanother dimension overnight.
And when I've heard spiritualteachers.
(11:29):
Share that it, it does get me.
Because I understand they'rewanting to preach what is
possible for people and thatthey can wake up in a new earth
and feel peace and freedom andlike money doesn't matter.
(11:53):
And like the whole world is attheir oyster.
And I know it's a dream thatpeople wanna wake up to and I'm
sure there are days you can wakeup and feel that way.
There are plenty of days I wakeup and feel that way.
There are weeks, months when Ifeel like I'm living in candy
land, where everything is magic,everything is in constant flow.
I feel peace.
I feel freedom.
(12:14):
That being said, you do not justever wake up healed and when if
you ever hear someone say that,take it with a grain of salt
because healing is not linear.
Peace is not instant.
(12:35):
And peace and freedom are amuscle.
They're a muscle.
And if you go to the gym, let'ssay you start going to the gym,
you'll build a muscle slowly andsurely over time.
And you can get stronger andstronger, but it requires going
deeper and pushing yourself, andthen lifting heavier weights and
(12:58):
going heavier.
So very similar to the firstpoint.
Evolution is never done.
You can always get stronger andstronger.
You can always get connected tonew parts of your body, new
muscles in your body, newmovements, new flexibilities,
new things.
It's limitless, but because it'slimitless, you can lose muscle
(13:19):
sometimes.
You can lose peace.
You can go right back into apattern.
You can then, um, flow back intolike your highest healing and
then you can flow lower.
But the thing is, and you'llalways flow higher and higher.
It's not that you go back toground one.
My, since I've been nine andI've been on a healing journey,
I have gone higher and higher,and I'm sure you've recognized
(13:41):
that too.
It's not back to square oneunless you don't do the deeper
work.
If you feel like your healing'slike this up, down, up, down,
up, down, it's because.
There is a false sense there.
There's that block in numberone.
I talked about very likely thatyou're done learning lessons.
(14:02):
It's too painful and you'reactually resisting the, the
evolution more than you'reflowing with it.
And that's okay.
It took me a really long time tofigure this out.
But the reason I'm, I'm bringingall this up is because you
cannot just wake up healed andstay healed and stay in this new
dimension and say, oh, I woke upin the five D I'm staying here.
(14:24):
This is what it's like now.
This is where I live now.
Goodbye everyone.
See you when you get here.
It just makes, it's not how thehealing path works.
It's like someone saying, Ibecame a bodybuilder and I'm fit
for life now.
And, um, see you when you gethere.
(14:47):
No, life is constant evolution.
We are here to find goldconstantly.
It's a constant game.
And I am not saying this to hurtanyone, make anyone feel sad or
make anyone feel disempowered.
Make anyone feel like heaven onearth is not possible.
I have found that heaven onearth is so possible as long as
(15:08):
you're willing to constantlylook for the depth and magic in
life and see where you can godeeper.
And here's the other thing I'velearned is that.
The constant lessons when youreally learn to stop resisting
them, they can feel like astruggle when you're resisting
them.
I understand why people say lifeis, is struggle because most of
(15:28):
my life was struggle until Ilearned this lesson.
People ask me if it, I hatehearing the hard truths that
spiral me into deeptransformation.
And I tell them, I am atransformation masochist.
I want people to punch me in thegut.
I want you to stab me in thechest'cause I wanna
self-reflect.
I wanna move through that woundbecause every time I have gained
(15:51):
more power, I have gained morefreedom.
I've gained more.
I don't give a fuck ness.
'cause in my experience, whenyou stop resisting the lessons,
but you dive head first, youaccept them, you become part of
them.
You say, yes, this is my shadowand I'm gonna own it, and I'm
gonna make it me.
And I'm not gonna resist it orfeel bad about it, or feel shame
about it, but I'm gonnatransmute it into power and I
don't give a fuck ness.
(16:11):
I'm gonna feel the deepest painI can from this until it burns
everything down inside me.
And I'm emerged nothing but inmy truth, nothing but in
alignment.
And I'm unfuckwithable because Iwent through that ego death.
I went through that fire.
I, I faced that truth.
That felt like a stab in thegut.
And instead of resisting it andpouting about it and making
myself a victim about it, Iowned it and I claimed it.
(16:33):
And I said, yeah, I do do that.
And I felt the pain of it.
And I said, I will never do thatagain.
Because when you truly feel thepain of something, it burns you
down.
To the point where you realizeyou're still alive having faced
it, and then you're free.
It's why I've had so manyclients, um, I've had so many
(16:54):
people in my life who tell me,Rachel, you just go there.
You just speak these hardtruths.
You go to these deep truths andnot everyone's ready for it, and
you say it.
So no, nonchalantly like, it'slike it's just no big deal and
with no compassion and.
It is not that I don't havecompassion, it's, it's that I am
(17:16):
saying them neutrally.
And the reason I can say a lotof these truths neutrally now is
'cause I've burned them downinside me and they've become
neutral.
And so it's hard for me not tosay them neutrally because I
look at every, at all neutrallynow because except for the new
things that come and that stabme in the gut, they'll stab me
in the gut and until I come backinto neutrality around them, and
then I'm here to speak moreneutral truths that trigger
people.
(17:37):
'cause they're like, why are yousaying it so neutrally?
It's'cause I've cleared it.
Truly.
And so you don't wake upovernight healed, but you do
continuously can face stabs inthe guts.
Take ownership of it, not resistit, let it burn you down and
kill a part of you.
And then you have neutrality andfreedom and you will always keep
(18:00):
happening and you will learn tolove it.
That's why I say I'm a mindsetmasochist and people think I'm
crazy, but it's'cause I'velearned to love it.
And you can too.
It's really not as horrible andpainful as it seems.
It's actually way less painfulto do what I just said than to
resist the healing and thelessons.
(18:21):
Like I totally understand whypeople don't wanna keep learning
lessons and are sick of them.
'cause there was a point in mylife where I felt the same way
until I learn this and this iswhat I guide people through, I'm
really good at the deepest ofdeep spirituality and
transformation becausebasically.
If you lived a day in the lifewith me, I am basically shamanic
(18:42):
journeying most of my lifeexcept for the times I go out
and have fun with my boyfriendor my friends, or I travel, or I
do fun things, and that's kindof how my life works, is I'm
either in deep inner reflectionand transformation like
meditation, journaling, goingdeep into my soul, my astrology,
and uncovering deep truths, orI'm living my life.
(19:02):
And I sometimes feel like I'meither in a dream state or
alive.
It's kind of like I live betweenthose two and I love it, but
that's what I do.
If you are called to this depthof work and you are like, I
really want to like do that deepexcavation where I feel that
power, that I feel that I don'tgive a fuck ness, I can speak my
(19:24):
truth from that place, then I amthe person for you.
And if you wanna apply forone-on-one coaching, I have my
one-on-one coaching applicationdown below.
If you wanna apply forone-on-one coaching, you do have
to book a birth chart ratingwith me first.
It allows me to understand if Iwant to take you on as a
one-on-one client when you dothe application.
Because until I read your birthchart and like interact with you
(19:46):
and then read your application,it's hard for me to tell if
we're a good fit or not.
So I hope this episode servedyou well.
Make sure to share it withanyone that you think could use
this breakthrough today.
This little nudge, this littleinsights I'm sending.
Love and journey well.
I was reflecting on the lastthree episodes I put out how
three episodes ago I put out anairy solar eclipse episode.
And I talked about how Itransformed my life, how I
learned to work with myemotions.
And then episode two, I talkedabout my lifelong journey of
healing, overthinking.
(01:11):
And then my most recent episode,my venous retrograde Neptune and
Pisces one, I shared somethingcompletely different.
I shared, here's what stillhurts.
And here's what I'm learning toreceive, and I was reflecting on
the order in which I postedthese episodes and how it speaks
(01:37):
to what a true, deep spiritualtransformative journey is in
that.
There is no shame.
There's, I'm gonna cry.
There is absolutely no shame.
In having healed something sodeeply and then having to go
(01:59):
back into healing something elsethat's slightly similar, but
slightly different, but acompletely different vein
because that is thetransformative healing process.
It is not linear.
It is a spiral.
And I'm saying this becausesometimes I work with people.
(02:19):
And they have a bigbreakthrough.
And then they're so mad atthemselves for having taken this
long to get here, or they're somad at themselves'cause they're
like, I already healed that.
But then they realized theyhealed one aspect of it, one
layer of it, and there was amuch deeper layer that was so
(02:39):
unconscious and so shocking andso surprising that it, it pulled
them back under again.
And whenever I hear people aresad about it, I just wanna, I
wanna like put my heart intotheir heart.
'cause this is something I'vehad to do for myself so many
times and I wanna say.
There is nothing wrong with you.
(02:59):
This is a life of finding goldand it's a fight, a life of
finding more and more gold.
It's not about being sad aboutall the gold you haven't found
yet.
It's about being excited abouthow much more gold you're gonna
find, and if you get upset everytime you find gold.
How silly is that?
(03:20):
If you were mining for gold andyou were upset every time you
found a big gold mindset, Ican't believe it.
To me.
Six months to find this.
I'm so pissed.
I didn't find this six monthsago.
Would that journey have beenworth it?
Would the gold felt as good?
No.
And so I wanna record thisepisode to talk to, I don't
(03:46):
wanna call it this, but it's theonly word I can think of.
Superficial spirituality andsuperficial transformation, and
this is in no way shaming anyoneor blaming anyone.
This is an episode to provideawareness and empowerment and
inspiration because I think thatthere's a lot of false
(04:08):
information out there when itcomes to deep transformation and
it fucks people up.
And I know when people aresharing this information, it's
coming from a good place.
It's coming from sharinginformation from where that
person is in their spiritualjourney.
I.
And they have no idea that it'sharmful because it's just where
they're at in their spiritualjourney and it's not even
(04:30):
harmful.
Maybe it's helpful for certainpeople who are, who aren't where
they're at yet.
Just like my podcast is not foreveryone, my pod, I'm not here
to meet people where they're at.
I really am not.
I am here to speak truths thathave become neutral to me on my
journey, or I'm in the middleof.
(04:50):
And I'm speaking it, and thepeople who will meet me will
meet me if I trigger people.
And you've watched every episodeand you're still like, Rachel
triggers me every time.
Maybe you're not meant to listento my podcast, you can still be
here.
That's totally cool.
But like the point of what I'msaying is, is that there's
different levels on the journey.
And if you're here on thispodcast, the level that I wanna
(05:15):
speak to is deep spiritualtransformation.
And so I wanna.
I wanna speak to things thatI've become aware of and share.
Okay, so the first thing Imentioned already, it's that
(05:38):
even if you have done a lifetimeof healing.
If you continue to tell peopleyou've done a lifetime of
healing and you're done healing,and you're just here to be a
guide for others, I'm gonna saythis, with so much love and a
(05:59):
big hug, you are cheatingyourself and you are blocking
yourself.
And, and I, I'm gonna say thisalso with love.
You to, I know you have healedyour whole life.
I know you have, and I'm proudof you and you have worked so
(06:21):
hard and I will never take thataway from you ever.
And at some point there is aswitch from healing to evolving.
(06:43):
There is a switch from realizingthat there's not something wrong
with you, and so you don't haveto block any more healing.
I have found that when peoplesay they've been on a long
healing journey and they'redone, it's because they're done
at looking things that are wrongwith them, and this is the
switch that maybe you're readyto make.
(07:04):
It is no longer.
That there is something wrongwith you.
It is that you have gotten to aplace where you are ready to
keep evolving and life gettingbetter and better rather than
healing and looking for thethings that are wrong with you.
(07:25):
And so, for example, where I'mat in my spiritual journey is I.
Every single person is a teacherfor me.
Every single person, even thepeople that I teach you are a
teacher for me.
I, I learn deeply from you and Iprobably don't tell you the ways
I'm learning.
I am learning through observingyour patterns and reflecting on
(07:48):
how those patterns are still inme.
Because if you are in my life,you are reflecting a planet in
my birth chart, whether I wannaadmit it or not.
It's not, you're not just herefor me to help.
And I'm, I have come to a placein my journey where I can be
humble enough to admit that.
And at one point it might havebeen hard for me to admit that,
(08:09):
but yeah, I learned from everysingle person, especially the
people I help, because when I'mhelping you, there are things
that I have healed that I'mhelping you with, but
simultaneously, there's deeperlayers being revealed to me.
'cause you're showing me aslightly different aspect.
And may bringing clarity to itfor me.
(08:31):
And so I no longer look forthose things as there's
something wrong with me.
In fact, I look at them as gold.
How much gold can I find inevery person, in every
interaction?
And it's why I'm willing to bevulnerable here on my podcast
because that is gold in itselffor me.
(08:55):
And.
My, my heart's getting a littletight because I think this is
something I need to feel into.
(09:26):
I have learned that there ismore gold and freedom and power
in my vulnerability than thereis in me acting like I'm all
healed in an authority.
And in fact, I have learned thatpretending I am all healed in
authority is the very blocked tomy, my power.
(09:47):
And it's why people probablylisten to me are like, holy shit
Rachel, you really share someshit.
Yeah, it's'cause I, I will keepsharing shit.
I had rather just put it all outthere because that is truth and
that is strength.
And I am not afraid to say thatI am still evolving'cause I'm
(10:07):
not healing anymore.
My life is getting better andbetter.
And so it's the first deepspiritual truth I wanna bring to
you.
Stop looking at learning lessonsevolving as there's something
wrong with you.
You are just finding more andmore gold nuggets, and if you
look at it that way, it becomesso much easier.
(10:28):
You stop resisting your growth,you stop resisting your power,
and you have way more freedomand you stop needing to prove
yourself to people.
I have been overcoming a deepwound of proving myself to
people and I'm still in it, andit's been one of the deepest
lessons for me.
Okay, number two.
(11:07):
Peace is not an event.
Freedom is not a moment.
You don't just wake up healed inanother dimension overnight.
And when I've heard spiritualteachers.
(11:29):
Share that it, it does get me.
Because I understand they'rewanting to preach what is
possible for people and thatthey can wake up in a new earth
and feel peace and freedom andlike money doesn't matter.
(11:53):
And like the whole world is attheir oyster.
And I know it's a dream thatpeople wanna wake up to and I'm
sure there are days you can wakeup and feel that way.
There are plenty of days I wakeup and feel that way.
There are weeks, months when Ifeel like I'm living in candy
land, where everything is magic,everything is in constant flow.
I feel peace.
I feel freedom.
(12:14):
That being said, you do not justever wake up healed and when if
you ever hear someone say that,take it with a grain of salt
because healing is not linear.
Peace is not instant.
(12:35):
And peace and freedom are amuscle.
They're a muscle.
And if you go to the gym, let'ssay you start going to the gym,
you'll build a muscle slowly andsurely over time.
And you can get stronger andstronger, but it requires going
deeper and pushing yourself, andthen lifting heavier weights and
(12:58):
going heavier.
So very similar to the firstpoint.
Evolution is never done.
You can always get stronger andstronger.
You can always get connected tonew parts of your body, new
muscles in your body, newmovements, new flexibilities,
new things.
It's limitless, but because it'slimitless, you can lose muscle
(13:19):
sometimes.
You can lose peace.
You can go right back into apattern.
You can then, um, flow back intolike your highest healing and
then you can flow lower.
But the thing is, and you'llalways flow higher and higher.
It's not that you go back toground one.
My, since I've been nine andI've been on a healing journey,
I have gone higher and higher,and I'm sure you've recognized
(13:41):
that too.
It's not back to square oneunless you don't do the deeper
work.
If you feel like your healing'slike this up, down, up, down,
up, down, it's because.
There is a false sense there.
There's that block in numberone.
I talked about very likely thatyou're done learning lessons.
(14:02):
It's too painful and you'reactually resisting the, the
evolution more than you'reflowing with it.
And that's okay.
It took me a really long time tofigure this out.
But the reason I'm, I'm bringingall this up is because you
cannot just wake up healed andstay healed and stay in this new
dimension and say, oh, I woke upin the five D I'm staying here.
(14:24):
This is what it's like now.
This is where I live now.
Goodbye everyone.
See you when you get here.
It just makes, it's not how thehealing path works.
It's like someone saying, Ibecame a bodybuilder and I'm fit
for life now.
And, um, see you when you gethere.
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No, life is constant evolution.
We are here to find goldconstantly.
It's a constant game.
And I am not saying this to hurtanyone, make anyone feel sad or
make anyone feel disempowered.
Make anyone feel like heaven onearth is not possible.
I have found that heaven onearth is so possible as long as
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you're willing to constantlylook for the depth and magic in
life and see where you can godeeper.
And here's the other thing I'velearned is that.
The constant lessons when youreally learn to stop resisting
them, they can feel like astruggle when you're resisting
them.
I understand why people say lifeis, is struggle because most of
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my life was struggle until Ilearned this lesson.
People ask me if it, I hatehearing the hard truths that
spiral me into deeptransformation.
And I tell them, I am atransformation masochist.
I want people to punch me in thegut.
I want you to stab me in thechest'cause I wanna
self-reflect.
I wanna move through that woundbecause every time I have gained
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more power, I have gained morefreedom.
I've gained more.
I don't give a fuck ness.
'cause in my experience, whenyou stop resisting the lessons,
but you dive head first, youaccept them, you become part of
them.
You say, yes, this is my shadowand I'm gonna own it, and I'm
gonna make it me.
And I'm not gonna resist it orfeel bad about it, or feel shame
about it, but I'm gonnatransmute it into power and I
don't give a fuck ness.
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I'm gonna feel the deepest painI can from this until it burns
everything down inside me.
And I'm emerged nothing but inmy truth, nothing but in
alignment.
And I'm unfuckwithable because Iwent through that ego death.
I went through that fire.
I, I faced that truth.
That felt like a stab in thegut.
And instead of resisting it andpouting about it and making
myself a victim about it, Iowned it and I claimed it.
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And I said, yeah, I do do that.
And I felt the pain of it.
And I said, I will never do thatagain.
Because when you truly feel thepain of something, it burns you
down.
To the point where you realizeyou're still alive having faced
it, and then you're free.
It's why I've had so manyclients, um, I've had so many
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people in my life who tell me,Rachel, you just go there.
You just speak these hardtruths.
You go to these deep truths andnot everyone's ready for it, and
you say it.
So no, nonchalantly like, it'slike it's just no big deal and
with no compassion and.
It is not that I don't havecompassion, it's, it's that I am
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saying them neutrally.
And the reason I can say a lotof these truths neutrally now is
'cause I've burned them downinside me and they've become
neutral.
And so it's hard for me not tosay them neutrally because I
look at every, at all neutrallynow because except for the new
things that come and that stabme in the gut, they'll stab me
in the gut and until I come backinto neutrality around them, and
then I'm here to speak moreneutral truths that trigger
people.
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'cause they're like, why are yousaying it so neutrally?
It's'cause I've cleared it.
Truly.
And so you don't wake upovernight healed, but you do
continuously can face stabs inthe guts.
Take ownership of it, not resistit, let it burn you down and
kill a part of you.
And then you have neutrality andfreedom and you will always keep
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happening and you will learn tolove it.
That's why I say I'm a mindsetmasochist and people think I'm
crazy, but it's'cause I'velearned to love it.
And you can too.
It's really not as horrible andpainful as it seems.
It's actually way less painfulto do what I just said than to
resist the healing and thelessons.
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Like I totally understand whypeople don't wanna keep learning
lessons and are sick of them.
'cause there was a point in mylife where I felt the same way
until I learn this and this iswhat I guide people through, I'm
really good at the deepest ofdeep spirituality and
transformation becausebasically.
If you lived a day in the lifewith me, I am basically shamanic
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journeying most of my lifeexcept for the times I go out
and have fun with my boyfriendor my friends, or I travel, or I
do fun things, and that's kindof how my life works, is I'm
either in deep inner reflectionand transformation like
meditation, journaling, goingdeep into my soul, my astrology,
and uncovering deep truths, orI'm living my life.
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And I sometimes feel like I'meither in a dream state or
alive.
It's kind of like I live betweenthose two and I love it, but
that's what I do.
If you are called to this depthof work and you are like, I
really want to like do that deepexcavation where I feel that
power, that I feel that I don'tgive a fuck ness, I can speak my
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truth from that place, then I amthe person for you.
And if you wanna apply forone-on-one coaching, I have my
one-on-one coaching applicationdown below.
If you wanna apply forone-on-one coaching, you do have
to book a birth chart ratingwith me first.
It allows me to understand if Iwant to take you on as a
one-on-one client when you dothe application.
Because until I read your birthchart and like interact with you
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and then read your application,it's hard for me to tell if
we're a good fit or not.
So I hope this episode servedyou well.
Make sure to share it withanyone that you think could use
this breakthrough today.
This little nudge, this littleinsights I'm sending.
Love and journey well.
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