Series Surrender Letter 2 : "The Faith I Had to Choose Before I Felt It" - ENG VERS

Can faith still live in a heart that doesn’t feel aligned?
Jesus asked to let the cup pass.
Job said, ‘Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.’
And here I am asking the same question.

Episode Transcript

Divine Insight (00:00):
Dear Father, I want You.
I want to surrender.
I want to be fully aligned withYour will.
And yet… there’s a part of methat keeps pulling back.
I’ve cried out,“Take this, God.
It’s Yours.” But somehow I stillfeel the weight pressing on my
chest.
Is this surrender?
Because if it is, it doesn’tfeel holy—it feels heavy.

(00:21):
I believe You see my fight.
You see that I want to obey,even when every feeling inside
resists.
Can faith still live in a heartthat doesn’t feel aligned?
I remember Jesus in Gethsemane,whispering,“Father, if You are
willing, take this cup from me;yet not my will, but Yours be
done.”(Luke 22:42).

(00:42):
I remember Peter, following Youwith fear and confusion.
I remember Job saying,“ThoughYou slay me, yet will I hope in
You.” You promised:“I will giveyou a new heart… I will remove
the heart of stone and give youa heart of flesh.”(Ezekiel
36:26) So Father, here’s myhonest prayer: Give me a heart
that feels again but not justanything.

(01:04):
A heart that feels You, even insilence.
A heart that wants You, even inloss.
A heart that chooses You, evenwhen I want to reach for
anything else.
I don’t want performance.
I don’t want spiritual theater.
I want a faith that lives in thebones even when the feelings
haven’t caught up.
To choose You more than comfort.

(01:25):
To trust You more than outcomes.
Let this be worship.
Amen.