April 24, 2025 • 42 mins
In this soul-stirring episode, Amanda Joy Loveland invites you into the sacred chambers of her transformation—from a woman bound by religious expectations to a powerful spiritual conduit walking between worlds. With raw vulnerability, she reveals how her father's death at 54 cracked open her carefully constructed reality, planting the first seeds of awakening in soil watered by tears and uncertainty. Through the fire of divorce, the dismantling of identity, and nights spent in the dark cathedral of her soul, Amanda discovered the divine spark that had always lived within, waiting to be reclaimed.
Her journey through shamanism, energy work, and channeling isn't just a spiritual résumé—it's a testament to the courage required to remember who we truly are when the world conspires to make us forget. As she speaks about her newly published book "Threads of Light," her voice carries the unmistakable resonance of someone who has walked through the flames and emerged not just intact, but luminous.
This episode isn't merely content to consume—it's an initiation. Amanda extends her hand, inviting you to join her at the threshold where heaven and earth converge within your own body, where the gods and goddesses we've worshipped externally are finally recognized as our own divine reflection. Each Thursday, she'll guide you further into embodied ascension, weaving a new reality where we don't just imagine heaven on earth—we become its living, breathing manifestation.
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Music. Welcome to embodying ascension where the
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metaphysical meets the physicaland the divine remembers itself
through you. I'm your host.
Amanda, joy, Loveland, Oracle,guide and midwife for a new
earth. Here we honor the fullspectrum of awakening, the rise
of the sacred feminine and thereturn of the holy masculine
within us and between us. Thisis a space for mystics and
seekers rebels and remembers menand women, masculine and
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feminine, all who are ready towalk the spiral of embodiment
through ancient wisdom,spiritual transmissions and
real, grounded conversations, weawaken Christ codes, reclaim our
sovereignty and weave heaveninto earth one breath at a time.
This is more than a podcast.
It's a portal. Welcome home toyour body. Welcome home to your
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truth. Welcome to embodyingascension. I am so excited to be
back in the hot seat to becreating a another podcast. If
you followed my journey at all,depending on how close you are
to be or how much you've beenfollowing me, you'll know that
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this is my fourth podcast that Iam creating. I had two other
really beautiful podcasts in thebeginning of my self like,
personal development, spiritualawakening. Journey That one I
got to do with my beautifulfriend, Valerie ciolis. Another
with another beautiful friend,Jessica DeVonish. And then my
longer podcast that I did wasleaving religion a guide, which
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was so beautiful. All thesepodcasts have been so beautiful
and so close to my heart thatleaving religion a guide was a
solo podcast that I got to goand have different conversations
with beautiful guests, and Ihaven't done that for a couple
years. I haven't been inpodcasting for a couple years.
And as it happens, I had anothersoul call that it was time to do
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with another podcast. Andhonestly, I missed this. But the
funny thing is, is diving backin. I'm like, holy crap. I'm a
little rusty, and today where II love when I get to have the
conversations with guests, andwe just get to a free flow and
just riff off of what theconversation is that wants to
develop. It's one of the mostfun things for me, doing a pod.
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None of my podcast episodes arescripted. I never send out
questions to the guests. I neverthere's nothing in it that's
scripted. And especially whenwe, when I get to do a solo
episode like I'm doing today, itis always so fun. And it takes,
takes a minute, like, there'sgoing to be a little bit of,
we're just going to see wherethis flows. But I knew that I
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got to do an episode I've long,you know, had our first episode
that I got to do with JakeTrembath, which was absolutely
beautiful, talking about thedance and embodiment and the
divine feminine, divine andmasculine and sacred union that
gets to help happen throughthat. If you haven't listened to
that episode, I highly recommendyou go listen to it after this
one. But this episode, I reallyget to be pretty candid and
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vulnerable, as I often try todo, and try to be as transparent
as I can of why the hell I'mhere again, and a little bit
about me. If you haven'tfollowed me or followed any of
my journey, I'm just going togive you like if you want to
know more of my leaving religionstory, go find it on leaving
religion a guide. There's a lotof different places you can find
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pieces about me. I always am. Ialways hesitate with how much to
share, because I don't know ofhow many of my listeners that
are listening right now know athing about me or they don't. So
I'm going to assume that youknow things about me and you
don't know things about me as Idive into who I am. And I'll
start with this. I Since a veryyoung age, I've always felt
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different. I've always feltunique in my family system. I've
always felt unique in who I wasand how I operated in the world.
And for a long time, I shut offa lot of who I was because it
was deemed as not okay. And Iget to film an episode to be on
a TV show called Legacy makers.
I get to film that at the end ofnext month, and that's been an
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interesting place of being indeep reflection of what I get to
share there, and some of this,of what I shut off, and why I
shut off, and why I lived morein the masculine, the masculine
way of being for me, and how Ireally stepped more into my
feminine and awakening that andand what I'm here to do, as far
as how I am to make a legacythat will be coming out soon. So
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I'm going not going to dive toomuch into that, but I've always
felt this soul call this soulcall to doing something here on
this planet that felt so muchbigger than me, and I knew that
whatever I did, I got to touchthe world and saying that from
quite a young age, and I feltthat from my youth, and then
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especially in my 20s and 30s, Iwould start getting when I
started learning how tomeditate, I would start seeing
things of like me, me standingon stage. In front of 1000s and
1000s of people, and at thetime, it always felt very
grandiose to even admit such athing. I wasn't a speaker at
that time, I was a Mormonhousewife, and then later I was
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running a company, but it alwaysjust had this like this push.
And so there's something insideme that's always been the seeker
of wanting to know what else ispossible. So I was raised, born
and raised in Utah, Utah Countyand Orem, Utah. And I was born
and raised Mormon, and there's alot of pieces of that religion
that I really, really deeplylove and value and love that
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that was a part of my schoolingand a part of the foundation.
Now, if you're someone that hasleft religion, when you leave
and step out of a religion,there's a lot of programming
that happens in there. There's alot of unwinding and healing to
do. So in my journey of that,you know, I went through did the
whole stay at home, mom, I havefour beautiful children, and as
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I kind of went through the ebbsand flows of my life. I was
married at 21 and really doubleddown on the Mormon, the wife,
the mom, and shut off a lot ofwho I, who I was. I should
probably show a picture of, youknow, I chopped my hair. I
remember that kind of being thething you know, that that women
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do when they have babies. Theycut off their hair, they chop
their hair. And I sure did that.
I cut off my hair. I just didthe things that you you do. And
different events unfolded in mylife that started to wake me
back up. And so I almost like, Ijust had my head down. I was
like, Alright, this is what wedo. This is, this is how we're
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to, you know, get the celestialglory. And yeah, I kind of just
did the things, one of just didthe things. One of the things
that really started to awaken mewas my dad died at 54 that was a
year in all of our lives, myfamily's lives, that really
rocked the hell out of us. Andwhile it was one of the most
difficult years of our lives atthat time, and I'll just speak
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for me, it was one of thehardest years of my life, it was
also one of the most rewarding Igot to have this time with my
dad that I would have never hadotherwise, you know, spending
nights andtime in the hospital. I did not
plan on getting emotionalwith him, who my dad was,
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my dad, if you knew my dad,James Loveland, he was one hell
of a man. He could come into anyroom. The six foot two statues,
very broad shoulders, veryerect. You know, his posture was
great. He was a survivalinstructor in the military at
1920 and brilliant, man, and wasdefinitely the patriarch of our
family, created a verysuccessful software company that
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we all grew up in and had a hemy dad had a lot of pride, and
one of the things he did notwant to lose in his battle with
cancer was to lose his dignity.
And unfortunately, there was alot of things out of his
control, and we went throughsome really hard pockets.
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But those times that I got tospend with my dad, rubbing his
feet, just taking care of him,being with him, and being in
more of that nurturing spacethat I didn't you know there
wasn't really opportunities tohave growing up was some of the
most tender times of my life.
But that sure will rock you. Iwas 23 when my dad died. 23 so
young. My dad was 54and I think it taught I know
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that, not think I know it taughtall of us, my siblings, my mom,
the importance of life. I'vebeen enjoying everything that
the fruits of our labors and howwork hard would play hard like
work to create life and and workfor family, but not necessarily
like, have the family and haveall these pieces, but know that
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the things that you're creatingin life are benefiting this
ultimate goal that you have, andnot sacrificing so much that you
don't get to enjoy the fruits ofyour labor and laborers. And my
dad definitely enjoyed life asbest as he could, but his he
wanted so deeply to havesomething for his family that he
didn't have growing up. And hereally built it. And it was one
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of those years that did startshaking and shifting something
in me. I when he died as eightmonths pregnant with our second
child, and then had two morebabies after that. And my
husband at the time, weredivorced now, but my husband at
the time, we ended up buyinginto some companies, starting
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our own companies, and somethingin me started to awaken within
those businesses, which thankGod for that. Um, you know, I
had been more of these, this,this way of being in my life
that I was somewhat pushed downinto, hey, this is how you're to
conform. This is how you're tobe, because this is what's
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what's deemed as safe andappropriate in the world. But
when these dynamics startedhappening, and I started to wake
up to who I really am, and kindof remembered, re remembered
parts of me, who've always been,who's always been there, they
just went dormant. They justwent to asleep for a little
while. Man, it's crazy whenyou've been asleep and you start
to wake up having kind of thismoment of, what the hell have I
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been doing? And I kind of, I gotmad at myself for a little
while, because I have a strongpersonality, and some of the
different dynamics that I wasattracting in my life was really
upsetting to really own andclaim why I was attracting these
things. But the funny thing,since I talked about the hair I
had kind of as these things arestarting to unwind, I decided to
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go get hair extensions. Becauseif you're a woman and even, or
even a man and you've ever triedto grow your hair out when it's
really short, it's verydifficult to do. So I got hair
extensions put in, and all of asudden, something lit back up.
It's almost like I found there Iwas. It was like, Oh my gosh,
here I am, as silly as that is,my hair helped me to see myself
again and start to wake back up.
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And in my awakening, I startedto see the marriage that I was
in was completely unhealthy, andI in 2012 had some experiences
that are very personal. So Iwon't I won't share too much
here, but started to really showme that this was not the
partnership that I wanted, andit sure as hell was not
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something I wanted to teach mychildren was healthy. We fought
a lot in front of our kids andcreated some dynamics that were
not okay. And, you know, it'soften times that we just go
through the motions of life andwe do all the things that we
think we're supposed to do inorder to have happiness, that
there's a part of us that shutsoff, and then when that light
comes back on, it is like, thisharsh awakening of like, what,
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what the heck do I want and whatis really important to me? And
this, I know this isn't okay,but then to face these dynamics
that are sitting in front of ushere, I was married in the
Mormon church to my foreverpartner so that we can have an
eternal family. And I was aboutto go ripple shake that up. And
I did. I made a decision thatwas really challenging, and it
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took me some time to come to butI shook it up, and I made a
choice that was in fullalignment for me, but was one of
the hardest decisions, andironically, on the hills of that
so 2012 I get a divorce. I amstill Mormon, but I'm also
starting to awaken more intothis part around that time, 2011
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2012 starting to learn Reiki,starting to learn more
energetics, meditation,spirituality, just starting to
kind of get my foot wet in it. Iwould have to go meditate in my
closet, because my husband, atthe time was really he teased
me, he shamed me a lot for forthose pieces. And so I would
hide a lot of that. And as Istarted getting closer and more
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in touch with me and in touchwith something deeper than
myself, this is what assisted mein really feeling like there's
something with me to help mewith making these choices, like
I felt so aligned, and I wasteaching gospel doctrine in my
church at the time, and I lovedgospel doctrine. I love teaching
that class. In fact, that wasthe first time where I really
learned that I love to speak andI love to teach, and I'm really
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good at it. So I'm so gratefulto this day for that experience.
And I taught for a few years.
Loved it. Taught verydifferently, and my husband and
I are separated at the time,although he's still living in
the house, and we're beingsomewhat cordial to each other,
because we really, I don't knowthat we'd even told our kids at
that time. And our kids werebabies. They were little. Our
oldest was nine. Our baby wasthree, and I was teaching a
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lesson. My husband, at the time,was sitting in the back of the
room. I went to go bear mytestimony, and all of a sudden
it was gone. The only thing Iknew was love and light. So I
bore my testimony in love andlight and the wall in front of
me like I remember looking infront of me, just seeing the
wall, and I it was my innervision, my inner sight. I saw
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this staircase, and I just hadthis instant knowing that I was
done, that there was somethingmore for me, and I was done with
this religion, and it was likethis. I wasn't asking. I was not
there were so many other thingshappening in my life at that
time. I was not even closely,remotely asking if this church
was true, or if the religion waswhere, like there was nothing in
that. So it was so surprising tome, and yet so gentle and so
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beautiful and so profound that Icould not refute it. Shortly
after that, like, literally, I,you know, closed the lesson, and
the one of the counselors in thebishopric came in said, The
bishops wanted to meet with me.
My husband, at the time, waslike, Hey, I didn't say anything
about us. It was kind ofpanicking. It was kind of odd.
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And I go into his. Office, andhe releases me. And I thought,
How perfect, how perfect oftiming that I got released after
I had this experience. Andshortly after that, I took my
garments off, had an experiencelater with my mom. My mom had a
it was really challenging forher. I was the first member of
our family to get a divorce. Istill am, and I was the first
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member in our family to leavethe Mormon Church, which, if you
guys have any religiousbackground, you know how big of
a deal that is, and yet I feltso guided and so supported. It
was like I was the eye of thetornado, and everything was
around me, just swirling andmoving and lots of chaos, but I
was very still and verycentered. And I had a lot of
really beautiful experienceshappened to me at that time. If
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you're curious to hear moreabout that again, go ahead and
go find that episode. It's thevery first episode that I think
is four years old. Now, part ofme wants to go re record that,
but it it shares some of theexperiences that I went through,
but this was one of the biggestcatapult, biggest leaps of faith
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that I had made, and itcatapulted from one thing to
another, to another, to another,to another, like this part of
what I feel like I'm here to do,and now I have more clarity on
that I am as I'm here to assistus, including myself, of how do
we fully awaken in the physicalform? How do we fully ascend in
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the physical form? How do webecome gods in the physical
form? This is why the taglinewith this is bringing the
metaphysical where metaphysicalmeets physical. How do we do
that? And part of my path, youknow, as I had this experience
with religion, and then my Goddies. I'm seeking what else is
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possible. Shamanism comes intomy life. I study for three and a
half years. I'm running aclothing business, but feeling
called to become a shaman againmakes no sense. But I trust when
you fill this call, you gottalisten. And for those of you who
haven't had a call and don'tlisten, life will get really
hard, and there's a saying thatI love pain pushes until the
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soul calls, and it is so trueand so profound, and so when
those moments come into ourlives, we it's that call to make
sure we listen and have faithand courage to move forward,
even when we're scared shitless.
And I'm in a period of my liferight now where I am facing a
lot more of stripping down anymasks that I may be carrying,
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and stepping more fully into theembodiment of who I am and why
I'm here. And in that as these,you know, as I look back in this
moment, as I'm just sharing thiswith you, and I look back at my
life, while there have been somereally challenging moments, they
have been so timely and soperfect and so gentle. And I'm
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kind of laughing, because thereare some moments where you are
just feeling to the depths ofdespair in your soul of
wondering like that, loneliness,the hitting, the dark nights of
the soul of thinking like, whatis the purpose of this? And then
you get to these points whereI'm at right now, that you can
look back and you can think God,think source, think divine,
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think your higher self, thinkwhatever it is, of seeing the
beauty in the strength and thethe cultivation that has
happened on the soul level. Andthere's no part of me that
regrets any part of my journey,and I've had some hard things in
my journey, and there are timeswhere it's like, holy cow,
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what else is required? But youknow, when we have had lifetimes
and lifetimes of creatingdifferent programs and different
dynamics and different ripplesof actions that we've made that
have created ripple effects,it's going to take a minute to
unwind. And we unwind with thephysical we unwind in the
somatics. We unwind in this thisthis density of the human form.
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Now, as Igoing back a little bit more so
I'm a shaman. I'm a shamanicpractitioner. Studied for three
and a half years. I have mybeautiful Mesa close by with my
kuyas. I did full on when in2019 I felt the call to close my
doors with my clothing business,which was a really, really
difficult call, lost. And I wentthrough a phase of my God died.
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Went through that found a newaspect and a new aspect and a
new aspect. God continues toevolve for me, of what that gets
to look like as I'm evolving. Soof course, that God connection
would continue to evolve evolve.
It's one of the coolest, mostbeautiful dynamics. Then I feel
called to close my doorsomewhere, my door somewhere, my
identity, my stability, like,Who do I get to be in this world
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now? I start facilitatingretreats. I start taking
clients, becoming a shaman, andI write and publish my first
book, and I actually have themhere, because I thought, Oh, I
get to talk about this. I. Yeah,and my first book that I wrote
was, I thought I was going towrite a book love life and loss,
something like that, or it wassomething with business. I can't
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remember, and I'm not I, I'venot been trained as a writer.
And when this first came in, Iwas running mod BOD, and I'm
like, I'm supposed to write abook. Holy cow, I don't know how
to write a book. I'm not awriter, like, what is this? But
it was just this deep, like,subtle just kept coming in. It's
like, you can't ignore thosecalls. So I was paying
attention, paying attention andpaying attention, and it was
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finally, when I closed my doors.
It was like, Okay, now it's timeto go write your first book. So
I did, and I actually published.
This is my first book. It's notin print now, and I'll explain
why here in a minute. But thisis my first book. If you're
watching on YouTube, you canactually see the cover. I wrote
my first book, Love in thespaces in between. It was one of
the most beautiful writing andpublishing a book. And going
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into this is a almost a memoirof experiences of love and
relationships. Relationshipshave been my biggest teachers in
my life. And of course, theywould be right. They're our
biggest mirrors to ourselves.
And I've had several profoundrelationships, and some very
difficult ones, and I referredto earlier about how I'm this,
you know, strong woman, and I'veattracted the relationship I
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had, attracted a few othersafter that, that I've had an
experienced abuse. Luckily for Ihaven't had massive physically
abuse or physical abuse, whichI'm really grateful for, but
I've definitely had mental,emotional, some sexual abuse,
and that will really rock you.
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One of the harshest experiencesthat I had was with someone that
had borderline personality, butit was some of the biggest
learnings of myself andlearnings about love, and one of
the most profound experiences inthat relationship is that it
didn't matter if I loved thisthis person that I was with. It
was what mattered more is that Iloved myself first, and if I
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chose myself first, would Ichoose that partnership? And the
answer was no, and that I tothis day, I'm so grateful for.
And at the end of the day, whatI recognized, and I had a really
beautiful friend that reallyhelped me to see this is I was a
choosing, choosing abusiverelationships, because my
internal dialog was veryabusive. I was very hard on
myself. So I was creating thisabuse inside as I was attracting
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this abuse on the extra on theoutside. So I wrote a lot about
that, and I wrote about mypersonal experiences at the
time. I was married to a reallybeautiful man that that marriage
ended, I actually rewrote thatbook. That's a long story, and
one I won't share here. So Iactually wrote the book twice.
This is the first rendition.
This was the second. And nowthis one's no longer in print
as, yeah, that relationshipdidn't work out again. Beautiful
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relationship lasted for sevenyears. Super grateful. We're
friends, and I wish him thebest, but just we you know,
relationships sometimes don't,don't work, and they do because
they give us exactly what weneed at the time. So I wrote and
published that startedfacilitating retreats, became
full on shaman, and felt likesomething was still missing,
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debate about going into thecorporate arena. I was missing
corporate arena, and debateabout becoming a corporate
Shaman. And at the time I, longstory short, because I put this
call out, I knew something wasmissing. I ended up going to
lunch with an individual whointroduced me to NLP, neuro
linguistic programming, and Ifirst studied with him, William
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lamb. He has, he's great. He hasthis amazing company called
upgrade up, G, R, D, that hedoes phenomenal at and
especially if you have somereally high money goals, high
like proficiency goals, you justreally want to know what is
possible in life. He he hasnailed so many of those pieces.
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I highly recommend checking himout. So he was my first
introduction to NLP. Startedfirst with his training.
Finished my training withanother beautiful friend of mine
who's still a friend of mine andactually a business partner.
She'll be on this podcast a fewtimes as we're creating
something called the embodiedmethod, that is a training
modality that is going to beincredible, geared first towards
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women, and we'll open it up tomen later, but I'll share more
about that. That one I am soexcited about but I finished my
training with her and herbusiness partner at the time,
Amanda Nelson, and so Michellewilding, Amanda with Nelson,
like such beautiful, beautifulwomen, and I got to do my
training and became a master NLPpractitioner through them. And
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what I love about NLP, so inshamanism, we get to travel in
between the worlds. You get togo play in the metaphysical
realms, and I've learned allsorts of things in the
metaphysical and that's reallyhelped me to hone this conduit
of, how do I become the hollowbone? How do I be the hollow
bone? I've also been trained inReiki as a psychic, and all
sorts of other different littlemodalities and trainings, right?
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We're always learning. Me. Ilove that I can teach, but I'm
always a continual student oflife. And this podcast is one of
those, those, those aspects forme. So go through that
experience, become an NLPpractitioner. I feel called. I'm
in a meditation again. I getthis download. You are to write
another book. It's calledleaving religion, and those we
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leave behind, and is to assist,and I was told I couldn't do it
with any kind of animosity, anykind of hate, no attacking
whatsoever. Now, when I leftMormonism, I didn't have any
hate, I didn't have anyattacking, but I had to sit with
that for a minute. And itactually took me a couple years
to unwind some dynamics for methat were still stinging and
hanging out with the patriarchyand healing that. And when I did
that, then I felt called toactually start a podcast, and I
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changed the name to leadingreligion a guide. And you can
find that on Spotify. It's stilllive, still active. And then I
got to write, I, you know, Ihave asked this book. I wrote
this book, Leading religion aguide, and it's a really it was
a really good book, but I wasn'tsuper proud of it, because I
wasn't sure that I really wantedto write it, but I felt like I
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was supposed to, so I did, andthat was in print for a little
while. And as I've kind ofawakened and kind of, you know,
continuing to develop and tapmore into what my purpose is and
what I'm here to do, I just, Iam actually currently writing
another book like hopefully Ishould put all this down in
bullets, this, and then this,and then this, and have it
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somewhat in this linear order.
Ironically, as I'm writing thecurrent book that I'm writing, I
was again in another meditation,and I had these beings that came
to me. And, you know, likeschooling. Life is schooling.
And religion was this reallybeautiful part of the schooling
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of my life, and it helped me insome way. So knowing there's
something greater than me, butwhat I started then learning
afterwards, was the greatnessthat was outside of me is inside
of me. And how do I hone that?
How do I activate that? How do Iget become more in co creation
with the Divine and awakeningthe god cells within me. So as
I've been in in practice of thisof learning and becoming more of
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a master of it, the next phaseof my journey was that I was to
channel a book. And these beingscame to me and said that they
were wanting me to channel abook. It's called weavers of the
New Earth. It's not out yet, andI got to go sit in Kauai with my
beautiful friend and publisher,Kira Brinton. It's not Britain.
Why did I just say her last namewrong? Oh my gosh, it's JOA
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publishing, and I just said herlast name wrong. Kira, don't get
mad at me. Poulson, no, nowshe's Brinton. She was married
and then went by her maidenname. That's so funny. Anyway,
JOA publishing, I got to sitwith my beautiful friend, Kira,
who's also my publisher, and isa truly amazing human being and
woman on this planet, and shesat with me as I got to channel
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this book, and I'm stillchanneling it, and as I was in
that space and receiving allthis information that was some
of it has been hard for me toreally it's been difficult to
process in some ways, becauseit's information coming through
me coming through my conduitsand things of like, do I am I
really going to put this intoprint? And I know that that book
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is for the 144,000that would number was given to
me specifically for thoseindividuals that are here to be
a leader and a catalyst intobringing heaven on earth and to
literally, we re weaving thegrids and re weaving and
bringing the RE emergence of theChrist itself on this planet. So
this book, I'm specificallytalking to them, and in that,
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and in this embodiment of moreof my claiming of who I am and
what I'm here to do. There issome massive things that I get
to do here, and I get to claim,and I get to own, and it's
interesting when you're raisedin a religion and in a society
with dogma where there is oneprophet to consider ourselves as
a mouthpiece and as aprophetess, or as a priestess or
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as I don't care what the labelis, but some sort of leader of
knowing that you have thingshere that you are to say and to
share. But I know that I'm notthe only one, that there are
many of us, and I do get to ownand claim what I feel like I am
here to do, and that I feel thatI am called and somewhat
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anointed, here to do, and I alsoam here to assist in activating
and bringing sacredness into theback into the divine feminine,
awakening the Divine Femininecodes, and then awakening the
divine masculine. And that is apodcast for another time. So as
I'm going through thisexperience, I knew I got to
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rewrite my leading religionbook. So I did. I rewrote it. I
literally just published thisbook two weeks ago, called
threads of light, unwinding theweb of religion to reclaim
yourself. And this book isfantastic. I am really. Really
proud of this book. This bookfor anybody that has left any
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dogma, if you feel stuckanywhere, caught anywhere, feel
like you can't quite moveforward, feel like there's still
anger, there's still animosity,there's still shame, there's
still guilt, there's still howdo I navigate relationships? Any
of that, or you're even justbarely in the transition, go
grab this book, it will changeyour life. And in it, it's like
there's lots of places for youto actually go through and
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write. So it's a guide book withpractices that I have
cultivated, that I have been wasshown as I'm writing this book
of different processes to gothrough. You know, I talk about
death and rebirth, the darknight of the soul. Are you
completely free yet? How do youbreak the news with the family?
You know, those that we leavebehind talking about unconscious
shame and talking aboutconscious shame? I had a really
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interesting experience aroundthat that was just blew my mind
limiting beliefs or subconsciousmind triggers. Like this book is
not crazy massive. It's 189pages, actually probably 190
with like the thank yous at theend, but it has lots of places
in there for you to write and tobe able to go through your own
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healing journey as you're you'rereading this book. So this book
is literally how to unwind theweb and how to reclaim yourself.
And then there's another bookthat I got to be a collaborator
on. So I've written a few books.
Never in a million years.
Thought this would be my stack.
They would sit here on apodcast. Again, if you're
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watching on YouTube, you can seeit. I'm literally holding five
books on my hands, and I willhave two more written by the end
of this year. Holy shit.
So this podcast,as I continue to lean in and
continue to, you know, takeit takes a lot of courage to
walk this path, they sayignorance is bliss, and it sure
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as hell is can be bliss, becausewhen we start to awaken and we
question everything, it forcesus to literally unwind these
pieces within us that we didn'tknow we had. And this year is a
year of me being seen. I get tofilm two TV shows this year, and
one where I literally will bechanneling another book that is
a spiritual book, and I get tobe seen more raw, more
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vulnerable, more in my claimingof who I am and who I get to be
in this world, not in thinkingthat I am better than anyone
else, because I sure as hellknow that I am not, and I just
get to be one of the manymouthpieces that assist all of
us, all of these things that Iam doing, this podcast, these
books, these when I get to workwith beautiful clients, when I
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get to teach and facilitate,when I get To with my beautiful
partner, doing this, theembodied method with Michelle,
all of these things teach me andgrow and help me to embody and
be more in my mastery, and thispodcast is one of them. This
podcast is a sacred invitationto go through the spirals of
life, of unwinding the placeswithin us that had been so
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caught up in the enslavement ofour world, had been so caught up
in the humanness, in thephysical, literal body of
thinking that it's an enemy toGod. When I was just having this
conversation with Michelle atbreakfast yesterday, it's so
interesting when we look at alot of the programs and the
things that we're taught. Oh, Iwas reading this in
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conversations with God. Money isthe root of all evil, right? But
yet, God is like, this goodthing. And so if we do anything
that's spiritually minded, or wefeel like we are doing anything
good, and then we're trying tomake money, they're like, in two
contrasting things. So how it'slike oil and water? They don't
blend the same thing with ourbodies, like in Christianity,
we're taught that the naturalman is an enemy to God. There's
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so much of our carnal naturesthat we are taught as a sin,
which is not truth. Our bodiesare one of the most sacred
things about us. Our embodimentis the key. And so this podcast
of embodying ascension is how dowe allow ourselves to a be fully
at home in our physical bodies.
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If I were to ask you right now,from a scale of zero to 1010,
being the most, the highest,let's do 100% zero to 100% 100%
being the most. How embodied Areyou? How much are you in your
body? Right now, you should havegotten a percentage. I have
never met anyone that said 100%not once. And my second question
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would be to you, why? Why areyou not at 100% Why are you at
50? Why are you at 6070? 3020,Is there fear? There? Why is
there fear? You know, when youstart to unwind things, sees it
doesn't feel safe to be seen. Idon't I don't feel safe to feel
my emotions. My emotions are toointense. Maybe you're empathing,
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and you don't know how tonavigate this world, because
energy is everything, and we'resensing and we're feeling all
these things. It's not justabout the mind. It's not just
about the physical, literal.
It's there's emotions, there'senergetics. Spiritual beings
having a human experience, andwe're not really taught how to
do that, and that is one of thethings that I am here to do. And
this podcast, we're going toexplore ideas, thoughts, things
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that I don't have answers for.
It's all curiosity, allthoughts. And I might have
guests on here that think thatthey do have the answers for it.
I do not ever speak inabsolutes. I don't believe in
absolutes, and I will havepeople that will argue that with
me, and I'm completely fine withthat. I love people who have
their opinions, but I love and Ithink, and I believe that when
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we sit in curiosity, allows forthe space of whatever what else
is possible to come in. I doknow that I have a purpose here.
I do know that there issomething greater than me that
lives outside and around me andis in deep co creation of how I
get to go create in this world.
And I know that we are so muchmore than this human aspect. We
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are gods in physical form, andwe are learning how to become
gods and goddesses in physicalform, and our bodies again are
the key. So my invitation as youdive in each week, I'm dropping
episodes on each Thursday. Myinvitation to you as you come
into these episodes is to comewith an open heart and an open
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mind to bring your energy intothis cause, if you will, into
this podcast. Because whateveryour intention is, is we magnify
this curiosity, and we come withlove, we come with openness, we
come with honesty. We come withvulnerability, transparency. It
does it does something to theplanet. It changes the grid
lines. It changes the ley lines.
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It changes the way in which wewalk in the world. There's a
story that I often tell that Ilove, that I learned when I was
going through my shamanictraining, and it's that of being
an Ayni a y n i and there's astory, there's many stories, but
the one I love the most is abouta village that was at the top of
these mountains, and theydepended upon their crops for
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survival, and they were goingthrough a drought, and they
naturally were in fear, and theycall in a shaman to the village.
The shaman comes and she thevillage people come to her. The
you know, the elders come to herand ask her, what does she need?
And she said, I need somewhereto stay. They provide her a hut.
She goes into the hut, and she'sin there for three days. And on
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the third day, she comes out ofthe hut and the rains come, the
villagers praise her, celebrateher crying with joy, and ask
her, what did you do? How didyou bring the rains? And she
said, Your village was so out ofAyni that it took me three days
to get myself back in Ayni,which is right relationship with
self, and when she got back intoher right relationship with
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self, the village aligned and itreverberated out into the
planet. This, my beautifulfriends, is what I believe we're
here to do. We're here to learnhow to embody ascension,
bringing the metaphysical intothe physical. And as more and
more of us do this, more andmore of us access and and crack
these codes, unlock the theenslavement dogma and the
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enslavement ways of being in theworld where we're not addicted
to all sorts of differentthings, whether it's in
relationship dynamics, whetherit's in media, whether it's in
food, whether it's in alcohol,drugs, whatever it is. And we
allow ourselves to really fullystart to wake up more and more
into who we are and who we havealways been. The more of us that
do it, even as we're crackingopen just these little pieces,
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it allows for that informationto go out into the planet, and
it changes, and it givespermission to others to do the
same. So as you're listening tome, as you're listening to these
other guests that I'll have, youget to add your energy into
this. And as we do this, ourenergy together ignites, and we
raise the planet, we raise thefrequency. And I don't know
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about you, but I sure as hellwould love to know and learn and
to embody heaven on earth inthis lifetime for me, so that I
can teach my kids and we cancreate a world that is unlike
anything that we ever thoughtwas possible. I never in a
million years thought that thiswould be my life, ever the only
thing that I can say that as ateenager or a young adult, that
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I said I wanted that I have nowis that I'm a mother, everything
else I had no idea. We knowchange is the only constant
thing in this life. So if we canmove through life with
curiosity, with a lens ofwonderment, of wondering, what
else is possible, how is thisdynamic in my life, currently
serving me, serving the planet,serving humanity. And how do I
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get to show up more and more inlove in this world? Because love
is the foundation of all things,then I think it's going to be
fantastic and amazing andexquisite to see what else is
possible. So. So with that, letme check in to see if there's
anything else that gets to besaid at this time. And as I do
that, I'm going to invite all ofyou to take a deep breath with
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me, hands through the noseand out through the mouth
and in again through the nose.
And as you breathe in, I'm goingto invite you to imagine a
golden light pouring down fromthe heavens and washing through
your entire body, clearing andcleansing your system, your
vessel, your cells, yourtissues, your neural pathways,
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and at this time, if there is amessage, something for you that
you are seeking, your life, thatyou are needing, whether it's
conscious or unconscious, givingpermission for that to come to
you at this time. Maybe it'seven in this moment, right now,
right here, right today,inviting a message to be spoken
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to your inner sight, your innervision, your inner hearing or
your knowing now,beautiful know that you are
loved, that you are valued, thatwhat you do and who you are, no
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matter what it is is seen, iswitnessed, is appreciated. If
you're curious to find out moreabout me, I'm going to share
some links down below. You canhead over to my website, Amanda
Joy loveland.com, I have somereally beautiful freebies out
there. I'm creating a few more.
And I my greatest joy in thislife. My middle name is Joy. My
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greatest joy in this life isassisting people and coming home
to themselves and having theseahas and creating a life you did
not know what was possible of isit possible to have it all? And
I say, Yes, it is, and let's goexperience that more and more in
life. Have such a beautiful day.
Sending you all so much love.
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Thank you for joining me onembodying ascension, where we
don't just talk about awakening,we become it. You are the
embodiment of heaven and earth,the divine feminine and sacred
masculine dance within you. Ifthis episode moves something in
you, I invite you to share it.
Leave a review or subscribe.
Your voice helps this messagereach those who are ready. For
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those that are wanting more,head over to my website, Amanda
Joy loveland.com where you canfind some freebies that I have
created. Just for you. To goeven deeper, I invite you to
find my book on Amazon, threadsof light until next time,
beloved, stay in your body,speak from your soul and walk as
a light you came here to besending you love you.
Music. Welcome to embodying ascension where the
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metaphysical meets the physicaland the divine remembers itself
through you. I'm your host.
Amanda, joy, Loveland, Oracle,guide and midwife for a new
earth. Here we honor the fullspectrum of awakening, the rise
of the sacred feminine and thereturn of the holy masculine
within us and between us. Thisis a space for mystics and
seekers rebels and remembers menand women, masculine and
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feminine, all who are ready towalk the spiral of embodiment
through ancient wisdom,spiritual transmissions and
real, grounded conversations, weawaken Christ codes, reclaim our
sovereignty and weave heaveninto earth one breath at a time.
This is more than a podcast.
It's a portal. Welcome home toyour body. Welcome home to your
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truth. Welcome to embodyingascension. I am so excited to be
back in the hot seat to becreating a another podcast. If
you followed my journey at all,depending on how close you are
to be or how much you've beenfollowing me, you'll know that
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this is my fourth podcast that Iam creating. I had two other
really beautiful podcasts in thebeginning of my self like,
personal development, spiritualawakening. Journey That one I
got to do with my beautifulfriend, Valerie ciolis. Another
with another beautiful friend,Jessica DeVonish. And then my
longer podcast that I did wasleaving religion a guide, which
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was so beautiful. All thesepodcasts have been so beautiful
and so close to my heart thatleaving religion a guide was a
solo podcast that I got to goand have different conversations
with beautiful guests, and Ihaven't done that for a couple
years. I haven't been inpodcasting for a couple years.
And as it happens, I had anothersoul call that it was time to do
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with another podcast. Andhonestly, I missed this. But the
funny thing is, is diving backin. I'm like, holy crap. I'm a
little rusty, and today where II love when I get to have the
conversations with guests, andwe just get to a free flow and
just riff off of what theconversation is that wants to
develop. It's one of the mostfun things for me, doing a pod.
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None of my podcast episodes arescripted. I never send out
questions to the guests. I neverthere's nothing in it that's
scripted. And especially whenwe, when I get to do a solo
episode like I'm doing today, itis always so fun. And it takes,
takes a minute, like, there'sgoing to be a little bit of,
we're just going to see wherethis flows. But I knew that I
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got to do an episode I've long,you know, had our first episode
that I got to do with JakeTrembath, which was absolutely
beautiful, talking about thedance and embodiment and the
divine feminine, divine andmasculine and sacred union that
gets to help happen throughthat. If you haven't listened to
that episode, I highly recommendyou go listen to it after this
one. But this episode, I reallyget to be pretty candid and
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vulnerable, as I often try todo, and try to be as transparent
as I can of why the hell I'mhere again, and a little bit
about me. If you haven'tfollowed me or followed any of
my journey, I'm just going togive you like if you want to
know more of my leaving religionstory, go find it on leaving
religion a guide. There's a lotof different places you can find
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pieces about me. I always am. Ialways hesitate with how much to
share, because I don't know ofhow many of my listeners that
are listening right now know athing about me or they don't. So
I'm going to assume that youknow things about me and you
don't know things about me as Idive into who I am. And I'll
start with this. I Since a veryyoung age, I've always felt
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different. I've always feltunique in my family system. I've
always felt unique in who I wasand how I operated in the world.
And for a long time, I shut offa lot of who I was because it
was deemed as not okay. And Iget to film an episode to be on
a TV show called Legacy makers.
I get to film that at the end ofnext month, and that's been an
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interesting place of being indeep reflection of what I get to
share there, and some of this,of what I shut off, and why I
shut off, and why I lived morein the masculine, the masculine
way of being for me, and how Ireally stepped more into my
feminine and awakening that andand what I'm here to do, as far
as how I am to make a legacythat will be coming out soon. So
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I'm going not going to dive toomuch into that, but I've always
felt this soul call this soulcall to doing something here on
this planet that felt so muchbigger than me, and I knew that
whatever I did, I got to touchthe world and saying that from
quite a young age, and I feltthat from my youth, and then
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especially in my 20s and 30s, Iwould start getting when I
started learning how tomeditate, I would start seeing
things of like me, me standingon stage. In front of 1000s and
1000s of people, and at thetime, it always felt very
grandiose to even admit such athing. I wasn't a speaker at
that time, I was a Mormonhousewife, and then later I was
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running a company, but it alwaysjust had this like this push.
And so there's something insideme that's always been the seeker
of wanting to know what else ispossible. So I was raised, born
and raised in Utah, Utah Countyand Orem, Utah. And I was born
and raised Mormon, and there's alot of pieces of that religion
that I really, really deeplylove and value and love that
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that was a part of my schoolingand a part of the foundation.
Now, if you're someone that hasleft religion, when you leave
and step out of a religion,there's a lot of programming
that happens in there. There's alot of unwinding and healing to
do. So in my journey of that,you know, I went through did the
whole stay at home, mom, I havefour beautiful children, and as
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I kind of went through the ebbsand flows of my life. I was
married at 21 and really doubleddown on the Mormon, the wife,
the mom, and shut off a lot ofwho I, who I was. I should
probably show a picture of, youknow, I chopped my hair. I
remember that kind of being thething you know, that that women
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do when they have babies. Theycut off their hair, they chop
their hair. And I sure did that.
I cut off my hair. I just didthe things that you you do. And
different events unfolded in mylife that started to wake me
back up. And so I almost like, Ijust had my head down. I was
like, Alright, this is what wedo. This is, this is how we're
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to, you know, get the celestialglory. And yeah, I kind of just
did the things, one of just didthe things. One of the things
that really started to awaken mewas my dad died at 54 that was a
year in all of our lives, myfamily's lives, that really
rocked the hell out of us. Andwhile it was one of the most
difficult years of our lives atthat time, and I'll just speak
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for me, it was one of thehardest years of my life, it was
also one of the most rewarding Igot to have this time with my
dad that I would have never hadotherwise, you know, spending
nights andtime in the hospital. I did not
plan on getting emotionalwith him, who my dad was,
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my dad, if you knew my dad,James Loveland, he was one hell
of a man. He could come into anyroom. The six foot two statues,
very broad shoulders, veryerect. You know, his posture was
great. He was a survivalinstructor in the military at
1920 and brilliant, man, and wasdefinitely the patriarch of our
family, created a verysuccessful software company that
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we all grew up in and had a hemy dad had a lot of pride, and
one of the things he did notwant to lose in his battle with
cancer was to lose his dignity.
And unfortunately, there was alot of things out of his
control, and we went throughsome really hard pockets.
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But those times that I got tospend with my dad, rubbing his
feet, just taking care of him,being with him, and being in
more of that nurturing spacethat I didn't you know there
wasn't really opportunities tohave growing up was some of the
most tender times of my life.
But that sure will rock you. Iwas 23 when my dad died. 23 so
young. My dad was 54and I think it taught I know
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that, not think I know it taughtall of us, my siblings, my mom,
the importance of life. I'vebeen enjoying everything that
the fruits of our labors and howwork hard would play hard like
work to create life and and workfor family, but not necessarily
like, have the family and haveall these pieces, but know that
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the things that you're creatingin life are benefiting this
ultimate goal that you have, andnot sacrificing so much that you
don't get to enjoy the fruits ofyour labor and laborers. And my
dad definitely enjoyed life asbest as he could, but his he
wanted so deeply to havesomething for his family that he
didn't have growing up. And hereally built it. And it was one
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of those years that did startshaking and shifting something
in me. I when he died as eightmonths pregnant with our second
child, and then had two morebabies after that. And my
husband at the time, weredivorced now, but my husband at
the time, we ended up buyinginto some companies, starting
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our own companies, and somethingin me started to awaken within
those businesses, which thankGod for that. Um, you know, I
had been more of these, this,this way of being in my life
that I was somewhat pushed downinto, hey, this is how you're to
conform. This is how you're tobe, because this is what's
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what's deemed as safe andappropriate in the world. But
when these dynamics startedhappening, and I started to wake
up to who I really am, and kindof remembered, re remembered
parts of me, who've always been,who's always been there, they
just went dormant. They justwent to asleep for a little
while. Man, it's crazy whenyou've been asleep and you start
to wake up having kind of thismoment of, what the hell have I
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been doing? And I kind of, I gotmad at myself for a little
while, because I have a strongpersonality, and some of the
different dynamics that I wasattracting in my life was really
upsetting to really own andclaim why I was attracting these
things. But the funny thing,since I talked about the hair I
had kind of as these things arestarting to unwind, I decided to
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go get hair extensions. Becauseif you're a woman and even, or
even a man and you've ever triedto grow your hair out when it's
really short, it's verydifficult to do. So I got hair
extensions put in, and all of asudden, something lit back up.
It's almost like I found there Iwas. It was like, Oh my gosh,
here I am, as silly as that is,my hair helped me to see myself
again and start to wake back up.
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And in my awakening, I startedto see the marriage that I was
in was completely unhealthy, andI in 2012 had some experiences
that are very personal. So Iwon't I won't share too much
here, but started to really showme that this was not the
partnership that I wanted, andit sure as hell was not
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something I wanted to teach mychildren was healthy. We fought
a lot in front of our kids andcreated some dynamics that were
not okay. And, you know, it'soften times that we just go
through the motions of life andwe do all the things that we
think we're supposed to do inorder to have happiness, that
there's a part of us that shutsoff, and then when that light
comes back on, it is like, thisharsh awakening of like, what,
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what the heck do I want and whatis really important to me? And
this, I know this isn't okay,but then to face these dynamics
that are sitting in front of ushere, I was married in the
Mormon church to my foreverpartner so that we can have an
eternal family. And I was aboutto go ripple shake that up. And
I did. I made a decision thatwas really challenging, and it
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took me some time to come to butI shook it up, and I made a
choice that was in fullalignment for me, but was one of
the hardest decisions, andironically, on the hills of that
so 2012 I get a divorce. I amstill Mormon, but I'm also
starting to awaken more intothis part around that time, 2011
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2012 starting to learn Reiki,starting to learn more
energetics, meditation,spirituality, just starting to
kind of get my foot wet in it. Iwould have to go meditate in my
closet, because my husband, atthe time was really he teased
me, he shamed me a lot for forthose pieces. And so I would
hide a lot of that. And as Istarted getting closer and more
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in touch with me and in touchwith something deeper than
myself, this is what assisted mein really feeling like there's
something with me to help mewith making these choices, like
I felt so aligned, and I wasteaching gospel doctrine in my
church at the time, and I lovedgospel doctrine. I love teaching
that class. In fact, that wasthe first time where I really
learned that I love to speak andI love to teach, and I'm really
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good at it. So I'm so gratefulto this day for that experience.
And I taught for a few years.
Loved it. Taught verydifferently, and my husband and
I are separated at the time,although he's still living in
the house, and we're beingsomewhat cordial to each other,
because we really, I don't knowthat we'd even told our kids at
that time. And our kids werebabies. They were little. Our
oldest was nine. Our baby wasthree, and I was teaching a
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lesson. My husband, at the time,was sitting in the back of the
room. I went to go bear mytestimony, and all of a sudden
it was gone. The only thing Iknew was love and light. So I
bore my testimony in love andlight and the wall in front of
me like I remember looking infront of me, just seeing the
wall, and I it was my innervision, my inner sight. I saw
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this staircase, and I just hadthis instant knowing that I was
done, that there was somethingmore for me, and I was done with
this religion, and it was likethis. I wasn't asking. I was not
there were so many other thingshappening in my life at that
time. I was not even closely,remotely asking if this church
was true, or if the religion waswhere, like there was nothing in
that. So it was so surprising tome, and yet so gentle and so
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beautiful and so profound that Icould not refute it. Shortly
after that, like, literally, I,you know, closed the lesson, and
the one of the counselors in thebishopric came in said, The
bishops wanted to meet with me.
My husband, at the time, waslike, Hey, I didn't say anything
about us. It was kind ofpanicking. It was kind of odd.
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And I go into his. Office, andhe releases me. And I thought,
How perfect, how perfect oftiming that I got released after
I had this experience. Andshortly after that, I took my
garments off, had an experiencelater with my mom. My mom had a
it was really challenging forher. I was the first member of
our family to get a divorce. Istill am, and I was the first
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member in our family to leavethe Mormon Church, which, if you
guys have any religiousbackground, you know how big of
a deal that is, and yet I feltso guided and so supported. It
was like I was the eye of thetornado, and everything was
around me, just swirling andmoving and lots of chaos, but I
was very still and verycentered. And I had a lot of
really beautiful experienceshappened to me at that time. If
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you're curious to hear moreabout that again, go ahead and
go find that episode. It's thevery first episode that I think
is four years old. Now, part ofme wants to go re record that,
but it it shares some of theexperiences that I went through,
but this was one of the biggestcatapult, biggest leaps of faith
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that I had made, and itcatapulted from one thing to
another, to another, to another,to another, like this part of
what I feel like I'm here to do,and now I have more clarity on
that I am as I'm here to assistus, including myself, of how do
we fully awaken in the physicalform? How do we fully ascend in
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the physical form? How do webecome gods in the physical
form? This is why the taglinewith this is bringing the
metaphysical where metaphysicalmeets physical. How do we do
that? And part of my path, youknow, as I had this experience
with religion, and then my Goddies. I'm seeking what else is
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possible. Shamanism comes intomy life. I study for three and a
half years. I'm running aclothing business, but feeling
called to become a shaman againmakes no sense. But I trust when
you fill this call, you gottalisten. And for those of you who
haven't had a call and don'tlisten, life will get really
hard, and there's a saying thatI love pain pushes until the
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soul calls, and it is so trueand so profound, and so when
those moments come into ourlives, we it's that call to make
sure we listen and have faithand courage to move forward,
even when we're scared shitless.
And I'm in a period of my liferight now where I am facing a
lot more of stripping down anymasks that I may be carrying,
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and stepping more fully into theembodiment of who I am and why
I'm here. And in that as these,you know, as I look back in this
moment, as I'm just sharing thiswith you, and I look back at my
life, while there have been somereally challenging moments, they
have been so timely and soperfect and so gentle. And I'm
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kind of laughing, because thereare some moments where you are
just feeling to the depths ofdespair in your soul of
wondering like that, loneliness,the hitting, the dark nights of
the soul of thinking like, whatis the purpose of this? And then
you get to these points whereI'm at right now, that you can
look back and you can think God,think source, think divine,
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think your higher self, thinkwhatever it is, of seeing the
beauty in the strength and thethe cultivation that has
happened on the soul level. Andthere's no part of me that
regrets any part of my journey,and I've had some hard things in
my journey, and there are timeswhere it's like, holy cow,
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what else is required? But youknow, when we have had lifetimes
and lifetimes of creatingdifferent programs and different
dynamics and different ripplesof actions that we've made that
have created ripple effects,it's going to take a minute to
unwind. And we unwind with thephysical we unwind in the
somatics. We unwind in this thisthis density of the human form.
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Now, as Igoing back a little bit more so
I'm a shaman. I'm a shamanicpractitioner. Studied for three
and a half years. I have mybeautiful Mesa close by with my
kuyas. I did full on when in2019 I felt the call to close my
doors with my clothing business,which was a really, really
difficult call, lost. And I wentthrough a phase of my God died.
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Went through that found a newaspect and a new aspect and a
new aspect. God continues toevolve for me, of what that gets
to look like as I'm evolving. Soof course, that God connection
would continue to evolve evolve.
It's one of the coolest, mostbeautiful dynamics. Then I feel
called to close my doorsomewhere, my door somewhere, my
identity, my stability, like,Who do I get to be in this world
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now? I start facilitatingretreats. I start taking
clients, becoming a shaman, andI write and publish my first
book, and I actually have themhere, because I thought, Oh, I
get to talk about this. I. Yeah,and my first book that I wrote
was, I thought I was going towrite a book love life and loss,
something like that, or it wassomething with business. I can't
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remember, and I'm not I, I'venot been trained as a writer.
And when this first came in, Iwas running mod BOD, and I'm
like, I'm supposed to write abook. Holy cow, I don't know how
to write a book. I'm not awriter, like, what is this? But
it was just this deep, like,subtle just kept coming in. It's
like, you can't ignore thosecalls. So I was paying
attention, paying attention andpaying attention, and it was
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finally, when I closed my doors.
It was like, Okay, now it's timeto go write your first book. So
I did, and I actually published.
This is my first book. It's notin print now, and I'll explain
why here in a minute. But thisis my first book. If you're
watching on YouTube, you canactually see the cover. I wrote
my first book, Love in thespaces in between. It was one of
the most beautiful writing andpublishing a book. And going
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into this is a almost a memoirof experiences of love and
relationships. Relationshipshave been my biggest teachers in
my life. And of course, theywould be right. They're our
biggest mirrors to ourselves.
And I've had several profoundrelationships, and some very
difficult ones, and I referredto earlier about how I'm this,
you know, strong woman, and I'veattracted the relationship I
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had, attracted a few othersafter that, that I've had an
experienced abuse. Luckily for Ihaven't had massive physically
abuse or physical abuse, whichI'm really grateful for, but
I've definitely had mental,emotional, some sexual abuse,
and that will really rock you.
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One of the harshest experiencesthat I had was with someone that
had borderline personality, butit was some of the biggest
learnings of myself andlearnings about love, and one of
the most profound experiences inthat relationship is that it
didn't matter if I loved thisthis person that I was with. It
was what mattered more is that Iloved myself first, and if I
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chose myself first, would Ichoose that partnership? And the
answer was no, and that I tothis day, I'm so grateful for.
And at the end of the day, whatI recognized, and I had a really
beautiful friend that reallyhelped me to see this is I was a
choosing, choosing abusiverelationships, because my
internal dialog was veryabusive. I was very hard on
myself. So I was creating thisabuse inside as I was attracting
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this abuse on the extra on theoutside. So I wrote a lot about
that, and I wrote about mypersonal experiences at the
time. I was married to a reallybeautiful man that that marriage
ended, I actually rewrote thatbook. That's a long story, and
one I won't share here. So Iactually wrote the book twice.
This is the first rendition.
This was the second. And nowthis one's no longer in print
as, yeah, that relationshipdidn't work out again. Beautiful
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relationship lasted for sevenyears. Super grateful. We're
friends, and I wish him thebest, but just we you know,
relationships sometimes don't,don't work, and they do because
they give us exactly what weneed at the time. So I wrote and
published that startedfacilitating retreats, became
full on shaman, and felt likesomething was still missing,
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debate about going into thecorporate arena. I was missing
corporate arena, and debateabout becoming a corporate
Shaman. And at the time I, longstory short, because I put this
call out, I knew something wasmissing. I ended up going to
lunch with an individual whointroduced me to NLP, neuro
linguistic programming, and Ifirst studied with him, William
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lamb. He has, he's great. He hasthis amazing company called
upgrade up, G, R, D, that hedoes phenomenal at and
especially if you have somereally high money goals, high
like proficiency goals, you justreally want to know what is
possible in life. He he hasnailed so many of those pieces.
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I highly recommend checking himout. So he was my first
introduction to NLP. Startedfirst with his training.
Finished my training withanother beautiful friend of mine
who's still a friend of mine andactually a business partner.
She'll be on this podcast a fewtimes as we're creating
something called the embodiedmethod, that is a training
modality that is going to beincredible, geared first towards
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women, and we'll open it up tomen later, but I'll share more
about that. That one I am soexcited about but I finished my
training with her and herbusiness partner at the time,
Amanda Nelson, and so Michellewilding, Amanda with Nelson,
like such beautiful, beautifulwomen, and I got to do my
training and became a master NLPpractitioner through them. And
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what I love about NLP, so inshamanism, we get to travel in
between the worlds. You get togo play in the metaphysical
realms, and I've learned allsorts of things in the
metaphysical and that's reallyhelped me to hone this conduit
of, how do I become the hollowbone? How do I be the hollow
bone? I've also been trained inReiki as a psychic, and all
sorts of other different littlemodalities and trainings, right?
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We're always learning. Me. Ilove that I can teach, but I'm
always a continual student oflife. And this podcast is one of
those, those, those aspects forme. So go through that
experience, become an NLPpractitioner. I feel called. I'm
in a meditation again. I getthis download. You are to write
another book. It's calledleaving religion, and those we
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leave behind, and is to assist,and I was told I couldn't do it
with any kind of animosity, anykind of hate, no attacking
whatsoever. Now, when I leftMormonism, I didn't have any
hate, I didn't have anyattacking, but I had to sit with
that for a minute. And itactually took me a couple years
to unwind some dynamics for methat were still stinging and
hanging out with the patriarchyand healing that. And when I did
that, then I felt called toactually start a podcast, and I
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changed the name to leadingreligion a guide. And you can
find that on Spotify. It's stilllive, still active. And then I
got to write, I, you know, Ihave asked this book. I wrote
this book, Leading religion aguide, and it's a really it was
a really good book, but I wasn'tsuper proud of it, because I
wasn't sure that I really wantedto write it, but I felt like I
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was supposed to, so I did, andthat was in print for a little
while. And as I've kind ofawakened and kind of, you know,
continuing to develop and tapmore into what my purpose is and
what I'm here to do, I just, Iam actually currently writing
another book like hopefully Ishould put all this down in
bullets, this, and then this,and then this, and have it
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somewhat in this linear order.
Ironically, as I'm writing thecurrent book that I'm writing, I
was again in another meditation,and I had these beings that came
to me. And, you know, likeschooling. Life is schooling.
And religion was this reallybeautiful part of the schooling
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of my life, and it helped me insome way. So knowing there's
something greater than me, butwhat I started then learning
afterwards, was the greatnessthat was outside of me is inside
of me. And how do I hone that?
How do I activate that? How do Iget become more in co creation
with the Divine and awakeningthe god cells within me. So as
I've been in in practice of thisof learning and becoming more of
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a master of it, the next phaseof my journey was that I was to
channel a book. And these beingscame to me and said that they
were wanting me to channel abook. It's called weavers of the
New Earth. It's not out yet, andI got to go sit in Kauai with my
beautiful friend and publisher,Kira Brinton. It's not Britain.
Why did I just say her last namewrong? Oh my gosh, it's JOA
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publishing, and I just said herlast name wrong. Kira, don't get
mad at me. Poulson, no, nowshe's Brinton. She was married
and then went by her maidenname. That's so funny. Anyway,
JOA publishing, I got to sitwith my beautiful friend, Kira,
who's also my publisher, and isa truly amazing human being and
woman on this planet, and shesat with me as I got to channel
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this book, and I'm stillchanneling it, and as I was in
that space and receiving allthis information that was some
of it has been hard for me toreally it's been difficult to
process in some ways, becauseit's information coming through
me coming through my conduitsand things of like, do I am I
really going to put this intoprint? And I know that that book
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is for the 144,000that would number was given to
me specifically for thoseindividuals that are here to be
a leader and a catalyst intobringing heaven on earth and to
literally, we re weaving thegrids and re weaving and
bringing the RE emergence of theChrist itself on this planet. So
this book, I'm specificallytalking to them, and in that,
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and in this embodiment of moreof my claiming of who I am and
what I'm here to do. There issome massive things that I get
to do here, and I get to claim,and I get to own, and it's
interesting when you're raisedin a religion and in a society
with dogma where there is oneprophet to consider ourselves as
a mouthpiece and as aprophetess, or as a priestess or
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as I don't care what the labelis, but some sort of leader of
knowing that you have thingshere that you are to say and to
share. But I know that I'm notthe only one, that there are
many of us, and I do get to ownand claim what I feel like I am
here to do, and that I feel thatI am called and somewhat
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anointed, here to do, and I alsoam here to assist in activating
and bringing sacredness into theback into the divine feminine,
awakening the Divine Femininecodes, and then awakening the
divine masculine. And that is apodcast for another time. So as
I'm going through thisexperience, I knew I got to
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rewrite my leading religionbook. So I did. I rewrote it. I
literally just published thisbook two weeks ago, called
threads of light, unwinding theweb of religion to reclaim
yourself. And this book isfantastic. I am really. Really
proud of this book. This bookfor anybody that has left any
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dogma, if you feel stuckanywhere, caught anywhere, feel
like you can't quite moveforward, feel like there's still
anger, there's still animosity,there's still shame, there's
still guilt, there's still howdo I navigate relationships? Any
of that, or you're even justbarely in the transition, go
grab this book, it will changeyour life. And in it, it's like
there's lots of places for youto actually go through and
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write. So it's a guide book withpractices that I have
cultivated, that I have been wasshown as I'm writing this book
of different processes to gothrough. You know, I talk about
death and rebirth, the darknight of the soul. Are you
completely free yet? How do youbreak the news with the family?
You know, those that we leavebehind talking about unconscious
shame and talking aboutconscious shame? I had a really
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interesting experience aroundthat that was just blew my mind
limiting beliefs or subconsciousmind triggers. Like this book is
not crazy massive. It's 189pages, actually probably 190
with like the thank yous at theend, but it has lots of places
in there for you to write and tobe able to go through your own
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healing journey as you're you'rereading this book. So this book
is literally how to unwind theweb and how to reclaim yourself.
And then there's another bookthat I got to be a collaborator
on. So I've written a few books.
Never in a million years.
Thought this would be my stack.
They would sit here on apodcast. Again, if you're
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watching on YouTube, you can seeit. I'm literally holding five
books on my hands, and I willhave two more written by the end
of this year. Holy shit.
So this podcast,as I continue to lean in and
continue to, you know, takeit takes a lot of courage to
walk this path, they sayignorance is bliss, and it sure
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as hell is can be bliss, becausewhen we start to awaken and we
question everything, it forcesus to literally unwind these
pieces within us that we didn'tknow we had. And this year is a
year of me being seen. I get tofilm two TV shows this year, and
one where I literally will bechanneling another book that is
a spiritual book, and I get tobe seen more raw, more
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vulnerable, more in my claimingof who I am and who I get to be
in this world, not in thinkingthat I am better than anyone
else, because I sure as hellknow that I am not, and I just
get to be one of the manymouthpieces that assist all of
us, all of these things that Iam doing, this podcast, these
books, these when I get to workwith beautiful clients, when I
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get to teach and facilitate,when I get To with my beautiful
partner, doing this, theembodied method with Michelle,
all of these things teach me andgrow and help me to embody and
be more in my mastery, and thispodcast is one of them. This
podcast is a sacred invitationto go through the spirals of
life, of unwinding the placeswithin us that had been so
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caught up in the enslavement ofour world, had been so caught up
in the humanness, in thephysical, literal body of
thinking that it's an enemy toGod. When I was just having this
conversation with Michelle atbreakfast yesterday, it's so
interesting when we look at alot of the programs and the
things that we're taught. Oh, Iwas reading this in
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conversations with God. Money isthe root of all evil, right? But
yet, God is like, this goodthing. And so if we do anything
that's spiritually minded, or wefeel like we are doing anything
good, and then we're trying tomake money, they're like, in two
contrasting things. So how it'slike oil and water? They don't
blend the same thing with ourbodies, like in Christianity,
we're taught that the naturalman is an enemy to God. There's
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so much of our carnal naturesthat we are taught as a sin,
which is not truth. Our bodiesare one of the most sacred
things about us. Our embodimentis the key. And so this podcast
of embodying ascension is how dowe allow ourselves to a be fully
at home in our physical bodies.
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If I were to ask you right now,from a scale of zero to 1010,
being the most, the highest,let's do 100% zero to 100% 100%
being the most. How embodied Areyou? How much are you in your
body? Right now, you should havegotten a percentage. I have
never met anyone that said 100%not once. And my second question
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would be to you, why? Why areyou not at 100% Why are you at
50? Why are you at 6070? 3020,Is there fear? There? Why is
there fear? You know, when youstart to unwind things, sees it
doesn't feel safe to be seen. Idon't I don't feel safe to feel
my emotions. My emotions are toointense. Maybe you're empathing,
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and you don't know how tonavigate this world, because
energy is everything, and we'resensing and we're feeling all
these things. It's not justabout the mind. It's not just
about the physical, literal.
It's there's emotions, there'senergetics. Spiritual beings
having a human experience, andwe're not really taught how to
do that, and that is one of thethings that I am here to do. And
this podcast, we're going toexplore ideas, thoughts, things
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that I don't have answers for.
It's all curiosity, allthoughts. And I might have
guests on here that think thatthey do have the answers for it.
I do not ever speak inabsolutes. I don't believe in
absolutes, and I will havepeople that will argue that with
me, and I'm completely fine withthat. I love people who have
their opinions, but I love and Ithink, and I believe that when
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we sit in curiosity, allows forthe space of whatever what else
is possible to come in. I doknow that I have a purpose here.
I do know that there issomething greater than me that
lives outside and around me andis in deep co creation of how I
get to go create in this world.
And I know that we are so muchmore than this human aspect. We
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are gods in physical form, andwe are learning how to become
gods and goddesses in physicalform, and our bodies again are
the key. So my invitation as youdive in each week, I'm dropping
episodes on each Thursday. Myinvitation to you as you come
into these episodes is to comewith an open heart and an open
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mind to bring your energy intothis cause, if you will, into
this podcast. Because whateveryour intention is, is we magnify
this curiosity, and we come withlove, we come with openness, we
come with honesty. We come withvulnerability, transparency. It
does it does something to theplanet. It changes the grid
lines. It changes the ley lines.
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It changes the way in which wewalk in the world. There's a
story that I often tell that Ilove, that I learned when I was
going through my shamanictraining, and it's that of being
an Ayni a y n i and there's astory, there's many stories, but
the one I love the most is abouta village that was at the top of
these mountains, and theydepended upon their crops for
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survival, and they were goingthrough a drought, and they
naturally were in fear, and theycall in a shaman to the village.
The shaman comes and she thevillage people come to her. The
you know, the elders come to herand ask her, what does she need?
And she said, I need somewhereto stay. They provide her a hut.
She goes into the hut, and she'sin there for three days. And on
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the third day, she comes out ofthe hut and the rains come, the
villagers praise her, celebrateher crying with joy, and ask
her, what did you do? How didyou bring the rains? And she
said, Your village was so out ofAyni that it took me three days
to get myself back in Ayni,which is right relationship with
self, and when she got back intoher right relationship with
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self, the village aligned and itreverberated out into the
planet. This, my beautifulfriends, is what I believe we're
here to do. We're here to learnhow to embody ascension,
bringing the metaphysical intothe physical. And as more and
more of us do this, more andmore of us access and and crack
these codes, unlock the theenslavement dogma and the
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enslavement ways of being in theworld where we're not addicted
to all sorts of differentthings, whether it's in
relationship dynamics, whetherit's in media, whether it's in
food, whether it's in alcohol,drugs, whatever it is. And we
allow ourselves to really fullystart to wake up more and more
into who we are and who we havealways been. The more of us that
do it, even as we're crackingopen just these little pieces,
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it allows for that informationto go out into the planet, and
it changes, and it givespermission to others to do the
same. So as you're listening tome, as you're listening to these
other guests that I'll have, youget to add your energy into
this. And as we do this, ourenergy together ignites, and we
raise the planet, we raise thefrequency. And I don't know
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about you, but I sure as hellwould love to know and learn and
to embody heaven on earth inthis lifetime for me, so that I
can teach my kids and we cancreate a world that is unlike
anything that we ever thoughtwas possible. I never in a
million years thought that thiswould be my life, ever the only
thing that I can say that as ateenager or a young adult, that
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I said I wanted that I have nowis that I'm a mother, everything
else I had no idea. We knowchange is the only constant
thing in this life. So if we canmove through life with
curiosity, with a lens ofwonderment, of wondering, what
else is possible, how is thisdynamic in my life, currently
serving me, serving the planet,serving humanity. And how do I
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get to show up more and more inlove in this world? Because love
is the foundation of all things,then I think it's going to be
fantastic and amazing andexquisite to see what else is
possible. So. So with that, letme check in to see if there's
anything else that gets to besaid at this time. And as I do
that, I'm going to invite all ofyou to take a deep breath with
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me, hands through the noseand out through the mouth
and in again through the nose.
And as you breathe in, I'm goingto invite you to imagine a
golden light pouring down fromthe heavens and washing through
your entire body, clearing andcleansing your system, your
vessel, your cells, yourtissues, your neural pathways,
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and at this time, if there is amessage, something for you that
you are seeking, your life, thatyou are needing, whether it's
conscious or unconscious, givingpermission for that to come to
you at this time. Maybe it'seven in this moment, right now,
right here, right today,inviting a message to be spoken
(40:53):
to your inner sight, your innervision, your inner hearing or
your knowing now,beautiful know that you are
loved, that you are valued, thatwhat you do and who you are, no
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matter what it is is seen, iswitnessed, is appreciated. If
you're curious to find out moreabout me, I'm going to share
some links down below. You canhead over to my website, Amanda
Joy loveland.com, I have somereally beautiful freebies out
there. I'm creating a few more.
And I my greatest joy in thislife. My middle name is Joy. My
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greatest joy in this life isassisting people and coming home
to themselves and having theseahas and creating a life you did
not know what was possible of isit possible to have it all? And
I say, Yes, it is, and let's goexperience that more and more in
life. Have such a beautiful day.
Sending you all so much love.
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Thank you for joining me onembodying ascension, where we
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