MalBread: Cozy Rebellion in a Digital Bakery | Online Identity & Gamer Culture - Gamertagged: Digital Identities. Real Stories.

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MalBread (00:00):
I want everything to feel genuine.
And I, because I feel like inreal life, like the real me is
constantly performing.
I'm constantly being a versionof myself that is not authentic.
And I don't feel any joy beingthat.
And I feel like I'm constantlyfollowing a script.
So streaming is my form ofrelaxing and being my genuine,

(00:23):
authentic self.

Scarto46 (00:41):
We'll be right back.
carved out her joy and secret,and emerged with something

(01:13):
bigger than a stream.
She built a world, a cozybakery of digital belonging
where anyone can be a loaf, eventhe moldy ones.
Mal isn't just playing games.
She's reclaiming space,choosing softness, and creating
the kind of internet she nevergot growing up.
So settle in.
Here's our conversation withthe one and only MalBread.

(01:35):
Hey Mal, thanks for joining ustonight.

MalBread (01:41):
Thank you.

Scarto46 (01:41):
Yeah, for sure.
Also on the show tonight,Marthah Maple is here.
Hi.
And Ryanocerus.

Ryanocerus (01:54):
Hi.
I think Marthah was ready to becalled out like that.

Scarto46 (02:01):
It was pretty good.
That was the Kirby high wave.
It was pretty solid.

MalBread (02:05):
I even waved IRL just in case anybody needed a visual.

Scarto46 (02:09):
It's a video podcast now.

MalBread (02:11):
No,

Scarto46 (02:14):
cool.
Mal, for real, though, thanksfor joining us.
We're super excited to do thisshow with you tonight.

MalBread (02:19):
Oh, well, thank you for having me.
My first ever podcast, and I amso glad that I will be spending
the next hour with cool people,interesting people like you.
You guys have interestingpersonalities and hobbies, so...
Along with my podcast, I hope Iget to know you guys more, too,
because I love meeting newpeople, interesting people,

(02:39):
especially.
So, yeah.

Scarto46 (02:40):
Yeah, for sure.
Same here.
I think it's interesting youthink we're all, like, wildly
different.
Do you feel like, like, talkingto us so far, do you feel like
we're wildly different people?

MalBread (02:49):
I know that Ryan is, like, more of a quiet type.
I know once you get to knowhim, I know he's going to be a
whole different person.
Yeah,

Ryanocerus (02:58):
he's pretty funny.
I'm a natural listener.
So I have to like force myselfto interject at times because I
just want to listen to peopletalk.

MalBread (03:09):
Oh, okay.
Yeah, it makes sense.
And like Marthah, you have, Ifeel like you're very eccentric,
but like in a very fun andinteresting way.
And, you know, we were talkingabout books and you love
collecting them and decoratingyour space with them.
So I can already like pictureyou like in front of me and

(03:30):
we're just fangirling overanything and everything.
I love your energy already.
And like Skardo, you seem tolove your family a lot and you
talk, you've mentioned yourdaughter very often and I can
like clearly picture you as avery fun partner but also a very
loving and caring dad.
So yeah, this is all from thetop of my head from the few

(03:54):
minutes we've talked, so.
Yeah.

Scarto46 (03:57):
Well, you nailed it, bud.
Except I think that the threeof us are also really chaotic,
wild, and fun human beingssometimes, potentially.
Yeah.
It's got to be the best show.
Hey, let's talk about...
So I want to start not withyour tag, which is MalBread, but
with you.
So what brought you into theworld of games or digital

(04:20):
spaces?
What got you interested inbeing on the internet, making
content, playing games?
And like, were they always partof your story or did they show
up later in your life?
Like, how did that whole storyhappen?

MalBread (04:33):
I've noticed.
Okay, so I have like verystrict Asian parents.
So they were constantly tellingmy siblings and I, okay, you
got to study.
You have to think about whichuniversity you're going to go to
and then like get a good job.
And like everything, almosteverything was controlled in my
life.
So I kind of lost a huge chunkof my personality so that I can

(04:54):
put everything all my eggs inone basket close all my other
tabs and just like concentrateon just one tab and just perfect
that but I felt so suffocatedwhile I was in high school
college and you know universityAnd I really missed the fun and

(05:15):
eccentric kid that I was growingup because I was always playing
outside.
When I was indoors, I wouldplay a lot of video games.
So, and the type of games.
Growing up, we were also poor.
So we didn't really have cableTV or really access to any video

(05:35):
game consoles or anything.
So when we would, my siblingsand I, when we would go to
school, We would see other kidstalking about TV shows that we
had no idea what they were.
We did have access to a PCgrowing up because my dad
studied in computer science.
So we always had a computer inany shape or form at home.

(05:57):
So we would play the gamesthemed after the shows that the
kids at school were talkingabout.
So we would, my siblings and I,we would often be on Cartoon
Network, like all the games thatCartoon Network would make
related to all the shows likeKids Next Door, like I said,
Samurai Jack and The GrimmAdventures and all that.

(06:19):
And we would imagine that weare watching the shows and
getting to know the charactersas we would play the game.
So that's where we really, likeI really got into gaming
because it felt like I waswatching a story and I was
contributing to the story.
And during the pandemic, that'swhen I was like, you know what?

(06:41):
Right.
Right.
that I'm doing to make my brainhappy.

(07:04):
I'm just thinking about what Ineed to do in two years, in five
years.
But right now, I'm never havingfun in the present.
So I'm like, you know what?
I'm going to go back to gaming.
Dude, I

Scarto46 (07:16):
felt so seen by your story.
Because I mean, when I wasgrowing up, it was very similar.
We didn't have any money.
And it wasn't the first timethat I got a computer.
I had to build it.
And I built it with parts fromthe hospital that my grandma
worked at.
And so I've like, you'retalking about like going through
and trying to relate to peoplein class or whatever, because

(07:40):
you were playing games on, onCartoon Network and like
creating your own episodes andlike getting to know the
characters.
Like, I think that's so cool.
Cause it was like that for me.
I mean, you know, I think for alot of people, you know, you
kind of start playing games andlike, it becomes a way that you
try to engage and like learnsocial skills or even just
create, like you, you mentioned,like you were creating the

(08:01):
stories about those charactersfor yourself.
Like, I don't know, that'spretty beautiful that that's
where you started.

MalBread (08:07):
It was fun.
I really missed that creativeside of myself.
Also, when this is like peakpandemic, and I was like, okay,
I love creating.
I love being exposed to contentand media.
And also managing, becausesomething I noticed when I

(08:31):
started streaming is you're notonly making content, you have to
take all your streams and youhave to make little clips out of
them.
And all the story times that Iwould do, I would edit little
videos and post them on othersocial medias to bring people
from other places to my Twitchchannel.
And it's a lot of time and it'sa lot of management.

(08:55):
I also missed that part ofmyself.
I grew up as the oldestsibling, the oldest kid in an
immigrant household.
So I was kind of the managerand the psychologist of my
family members and my parents.
So I had to think about multiplethings at once.
So I noticed that.
So I put it to use when I gotinto content creation.

Scarto46 (09:19):
So when you were growing up, you know, like going
through this part of your life,how would you describe the
digital kid you were growing up?
Were you trying to engage andbe socially engaging or were you
just trying to play and tryingto find an outlet for that?
How would you describe thatkind of kid you were back then?
Oh,

MalBread (09:39):
okay.
I did talk a bit about myearlier, let's say under
10-year-old Mel.
I did talk about it a littlebit.
If I want to talk about myteenage self, the period where I
was the least...
my authentic self, I wouldstill express myself on the
internet by going on Tumblr.
I used to have like this hugeTumblr page and I would talk

(10:02):
about, I would share posts aboutanime and fashion in Japan and
people would interact with myposts and I was like, oh my
gosh, I'm expressing myself.
And I really enjoyed thatperiod in my life because it was
the only time during my daywhere I could interact with

(10:23):
other people other than peopleat school and who only talk
about, you know, homework.
I went to a private school, soit was study, study, study,
study, study.
I really didn't have a sociallife while I was in school.
Like, yes, I was one of thepopular kids.
Why?
Because I had good grades.
But other than that, it was soboring.
So that's why I was glad tohave the internet and access to

(10:47):
it to express myself.
The side that I couldn't when Iwas trying to be a serious
teenager or, like, a young adultand have good grades.

Scarto46 (10:58):
Do you feel like that, like, it was almost like a
quiet rebellion?
Like, you were taught to bevery structured and disciplined
and manage these things, but youhad this other part of you that
you were, that was pulling onyou, right?
Like, so...

MalBread (11:10):
Oh, yeah.
Hell, yeah.
It was my way of, like, low-keyrebelling because I don't think
my parents knew I had a Tumblr.
And...
You know, it was for Asianparents.
So they were like, OK, don'ttalk to boys.
And, oh, don't watch this.
Don't say that.
But like I was the I wasliterally another person on the

(11:30):
Internet and I was talking aboutfashion.
At one point I would getsponsorships from.
fashion sites and they would belike oh we're gonna we're gonna
send you five to six items andwe would love for you to review
them so wear them take photosand review them so that your
audience can you know come toour site and stuff like that and

(11:52):
I would do that behind myparents back and my mom would be
like why are you taking photosof yourself I'm like oh I'm just
testing the camera we haven'tused it so like I don't know
it's kind of glitchy But like Iwould take photos, you know, I
was secretly taking photos andthen posting it online and like
writing reviews and stuff likethat.
But anyways, a whole differentlife.

Scarto46 (12:15):
Do you feel like that time, like, did you feel like
you had the emotional maturityto manage like the feedback you
were getting from the internet?
Like, cause I think that'shard, right?
When you're in your formativeyears and you're like expressing
this part of yourself as maybemore vulnerable and more open
and you're starting to getfeedback from other humans that
you don't know on some randomplace that are anonymous.
Like, Do you feel like thataffected you in like a positive

(12:36):
way or like in a negative way?
I

MalBread (12:39):
don't think it affected me at all because if I
got like...
It was mostly positive becauseit was more of a wholesome
community that I was in becausewe would talk about cute anime
and cute anime girls and then wewould talk about Japan and
beautiful scenery and then likepretty fashion and stuff like
that.
So even if I did get negativecomments or anything, I would be

(13:00):
more like, oh, they're probablyhaving...
a hard day or like, oh, theymust have a rough life.
Like I'm, I'm like verystupidly empathetic.
So if somebody is mean to me,the first thought would be like,
oh, they're probably having abad day or like maybe I offended
them in some way instead of thefirst thing being, oh my gosh,
I feel, I feel so sad.
I feel so offended and blah,blah, blah.

(13:22):
And so I guess it's my way ofcoping and also being the oldest
sibling I had to put aside myemotions to be the mature person
in the room.

Scarto46 (13:35):
Well, I think that's beautiful.
I think it's a, I don't know,growing for me, it's a behavior
I had to learn that like Iwasn't the problem in a lot of
those type of situations.
And then it's probably just myupbringing, which was similar
but different than yours.
And I, it's something as aparent, I've thought about a

(13:55):
lot, right?
So when my daughter startedlike posting on Instagram, her
art and I was like, okay, whenyou post art and you're making
things, the thing that I thinkabout as a parent is like, well,
where I grew up, the internetwas much smaller.
Communities weren't as vibrantor as protective as they are
today.
And the other part about thatis, is like knowing her and

(14:18):
being like, yep, cool.
She's tough.
She'll figure it out.
But like, you know, it's athought, right?
Cause I think.
Growing up around the Internetor on the Internet like I did, I
was like, you know, you neverreally know what kind of
feedback you're going to get.
So I think it's cool that youfind a community where you fit.

MalBread (14:35):
Yeah, I was glad that I found a positive community to
start my Internet journey withbecause I've heard some pretty
rough things from my otherInternet friends.
And, you know, they were moreexposed online.
with uh more mature peoplegladly the the type of community

(14:58):
that i was in it was mostlylike teenage girls and just
talking about pretty things andstuff like that so it was more
positive because i really wantedto cope from my depressive real
life uh situations and you knowschool so i would purposely
think about the opposite andyeah be more positive and uh be

(15:19):
surrounded by happy things andhappy thoughts.

Scarto46 (15:22):
That's beautiful, Mal, for real.
I think it's really cool thatyou were able to find a place
like that where you fit in soearly.

MalBread (15:27):
Yeah, I'm happy.
Good memories.

Ryanocerus (15:32):
Yeah, it sounds like you kind of really found
yourself a bit once you wereable to get into the Tumblrs and
get into that internet space.
I'm wondering, how didstreaming begin for you?
How did you move from Tumblrinto you know saying oh I want
to stream I know you mentionedthe pandemic kind of catalyst of

(15:52):
that for you but like what wasthe what was was there a driving
factor was it a bunch of littlethings

MalBread (15:59):
okay when I was thinking of streaming it was a
spontaneous idea I never watchedanybody stream before and I
didn't even know that was athing I knew that people would
post like gameplay content likeyou know Markiplier or like
PewDiePie they would like filmthemselves play the game and
they would post it on YouTubebut like in my head I never had

(16:21):
the concept of like livestreaming and I'm like who would
I would I was so confused likewho would want to like sit down
and watch somebody struggle overa game and then I would think
about the difference betweenlive streams and YouTube YouTube
you can polish your content andyou can if you have awkward
pauses or if you're likemiscommunicating you can just

(16:41):
edit it out and have all thebest moments out there and
people watch the polishedversion of you and the content
you're posting.
But when it's live, you'relike, you could make mistakes.
You can be awkward.
You can have awkward pauses.
So like who would watch that?
But no, it's really the humaninteraction part of it that

(17:02):
really brought me in.
And I'm like, I was reallycraving that social community
connection thing that peoplealways humans always crave or
animals in general always craveso I was like okay let me look
into streaming and then Istarted brainstorming so hard
that it took me like around amonth of me creating my labels

(17:24):
and creating my little likelogos and stuff like that and
like in the span of one month Istarted streaming and I was like
this looks fun let's do it andI'm the I have ADHD I'm super
ADHD so I have like multiplehobbies that I love to do At the
same time, or I love to startnew hobbies.
So I was like, okay, this is mynew hobby.
I'm going to start it.
And I started it and I haven'tlooked back since.

(17:46):
And I'm glad that I did becauseI've got to meet so many
interesting people, so many nicepeople, weird people, for sure.
I

Ryanocerus (17:54):
love that you launched with like, you're like,
I have to have a logo and Ihave to have a brand ready.
I can't just...
I think that there's kind oftwo sides to that coin when
people decide that they want tostream.
It's like, I'm just going to doit.
And then there's the peoplethat are like you trying to
build that brand.
So you're launching with aplatform almost.
Were you always MalBread whenyou started streaming or did

(18:18):
that come later?

MalBread (18:18):
Yeah, that was always my gamer tag because...
Okay, I can explain it now ifyou guys want why my name is
Malbret.

Scarto46 (18:28):
I mean, it's a super layered name and I'm sure it has
a really deep meaning to you.

MalBread (18:33):
Yes, it does.
You kind of maybe notice that Ihave an accent when I speak.
I am multilingual.
But one of the two mainlanguages that I speak when I go
out is English and Frenchbecause I live in the French
part of Canada.
And so I like to mix languages.
different parts of my life intothings that I create or things

(18:57):
that represent me.
So Mal is part of my real name.
And everybody at school, myreal name, which I don't share
on the internet is, I don't knowwhy it's very hard to pronounce
for French speakers becausethere's an H in it.
And French people don't usuallysay the H letter.
It's silent most of the time.

(19:18):
Just call me Mal.
It's easy.
You can't butcher athree-letter word.
So everybody calls me Mal.
And then I'm like, I feel likeMal is too short of a username.
So what can I do?
And then I started thinking,okay, Mal.
In French, when you say, oh,I'm in pain, we say, oh, j'ai
mal.
J'ai mal.
And Mal means pain.

(19:41):
So pain, P-A-I-N, the same wordin French is paine.
which is bread.
So it kind of made that weirdconnection.
I'm like, okay, there we go.
This makes sense.
Let's slap those together.
And voila, you got my usernamethat I've been using for, yeah,

(20:01):
for a long time now.
So it's the same username thatI use on my Steam, on my
Instagram.
And yeah, there it is.
I also love the fact thatthere's the bread theme in my
like bakery theme in all thethings that I create.
Because I don't know, when youthink about a fresh loaf of
bread, what do you, how, what doyou feel?
You feel cozy.
You feel comfort.

(20:23):
You feel like, oh, I can relax.
Oh, this is, this is going tofeel my belly.
I'm going to, I'm going tosmell nice things.
So yeah, this is also theenergy that I wanted to give off
to people that, hey, if you'rewith me, my name is MalBread.
I want to give off a, a nicecomfort vibe.
while you're with me, spendingtime with me.

(20:43):
So yeah.

Ryanocerus (20:43):
Like a nice cafe.
Yeah, I love that.
Have you streamed any of likethe cooking mamas or those
cooking games where you dobaking?
I'm just curious.

MalBread (20:53):
Thank you for giving me this awesome idea.
I think I'm going to have tostart doing that.
Oh my God.
That

Ryanocerus (20:59):
one is free.

MalBread (21:00):
Okay.
So a lot of people ask me to dobaking streams.
Like, oh,

Ryanocerus (21:05):
you have to bake.
Oh, like actual baking.
IRL baking.

MalBread (21:08):
IRL baking.
Yes.
So I'm like, oh yeah, I lovemuffins.
I love cake and I love freshbread.
That is actually a good idea.
So I just have to think ofbringing my PC to my kitchen and
let us think of a temporarysetup so I can like film myself

(21:28):
streaming and also baking.
I don't know.
It looks like a fun idea.
Oh,

Scarto46 (21:32):
that'd be awesome.
I wouldn't know my house.

MalBread (21:33):
Crazy stuff with sourdough.
Oh, girl.
I love powers.
Well, that's

Scarto46 (21:40):
what I was going to ask.
What's your favorite bread?
If you had to pick a breadforever.
And it's such a hard question.
No, that is

MalBread (21:47):
such a hard question.
Oh, my gosh.

Scarto46 (21:49):
One bread forever.
What bread?

MalBread (21:53):
I love garlic and I love garlic bread.
Oh, with a good amount ofbutter.
going

Ryanocerus (22:02):
after a super like flavorful bread too.
Like you can't, I love, I know.
I love it.
I was trying to think, I'mlike, what, what is the most,
what is the most basic breadthat I can do a bunch of
different things with?
I want, yeah.
Do I want like cinnamon toast?
No, I want garlic toast, likesomething that I can do both on.
Cause I would say ciabatta, butI don't know if I could do

(22:23):
cinnamon toast on, I mean, Icould, but I don't know how good
it would be.

MalBread (22:27):
Good idea.

Ryanocerus (22:28):
Garlic bread though.
Just going for it.
I like that.

MalBread (22:30):
Wait, I'm curious though.
Okay, so if you like garlicbread, how do you like it?
Do you like the Texas toast?
Do you like the baguette?
Do you like the garlic knots?
What's your vibe?
Is it all of them?
Is it none of those?
Oh, the way that I make garlicbread is with my mom and she
always bakes our bread at home.

(22:50):
So we never buy bread.
in our household.
Even if I moved out, my momstill sends me bread.
She's like, don't buy bread.
This is like, I use healthy,like a fresh and natural flour.
And like, if you buy bread,bread is like super expensive.
I'm going to send you bread.
That way it's cheaper.
You're going to save ongroceries.
So anyways.

(23:12):
So sweet.
Yeah.
So my mom...
Whenever I go visit her, she'salways baking.
She's always cooking.
And sometimes I'm like, youknow what?
I am craving garlic and I'mcraving carbs.
Let's make a garlic bread.
So she makes this huge loafwith so many grains in them.
So like poppy seed, sesameseed.
There's like, oh, so a thousandmore other like seeds.

(23:36):
And then we take that, we sliceit, and then we make our own
garlic butter.
She makes ghee at home.
Oh,

Ryanocerus (23:45):
damn.

MalBread (23:46):
Yeah.

Ryanocerus (23:46):
I

MalBread (23:47):
feel like she's still young at heart and all of her
kids kind of like moved out forcollege and work and stuff.

(24:07):
So she's like, I don't knowwhat to do.
There's this old annoying manwho lives with me who's always
like nagging me to like makefood for him, a.k.a.
her husband.
And she's like, I just want mykids back.
I want to make fun recipes formy kids, not for an old man.
Because if I feed this man toomuch butter, he's going to die.
So she loves it when her kidscome visit her.

(24:28):
She's like, oh, I could makelike my fun peas.

Ryanocerus (24:31):
All right, Mal, what is your favorite thing to cook?
If we all showed up tonight atyour house right now.
If you were there, what wouldyou be cooking for us?

MalBread (24:41):
Oh, oh, my gosh.
I love potatoes.
Oh, my gosh.
You got two Irish boys

Marthah Maple (24:47):
in there.
I

MalBread (24:49):
love potatoes.
So any dish with potatoes inthem, count me in.
And something that I've beenobsessed with recently is
Japanese curry.
So yeah, if I was having youguys over and I know you would
be over in like an hour or two,that will give me enough time to
prep all the ingredients andhave the hot meal ready for you
guys and sided with either somesushi rice or...

(25:12):
bread.
That is exactly what I would becooking for you guys if you
guys were coming over.
Mal,

Scarto46 (25:19):
did you have any gamer tags before MalBread?
Like when, you know, back inthat early formative part of
your life?
Or has it always been MalBread?

MalBread (25:28):
Oh, during my Tumblr era, I had another username,
which I don't use anymore.
I loved it because I would talka lot about Japanese culture
and anime especially.
So it kind of made sense that Ihad a Japanese-ish username
back then.

Ryanocerus (25:46):
To MalBread now, is there something about your
gamertag you've always wanted toshare?

MalBread (25:51):
Yeah, Bred.
I went with Bred, like I said,because I want to give off a
comforting aura when people comeover or when people from the
internet meet me.
So yeah, that's the aura thatthe energy that I was going
after when I picked malt bread.
And

Ryanocerus (26:10):
your logo, that's a corgi bread loaf, right?

MalBread (26:14):
Yeah.
Somebody from my community waslike, I got like this Discord
discounted thing and I have thisleftover little icon I can give
to you.
It's like bread related.
So it matches with yourusername.
I'm like, oh, that's supersweet of you.
And then like she gifted it tome.
So that's why I have it.
Usually my icon is naked, butNow he's wearing a cute little

(26:36):
corgi bread hat.

Ryanocerus (26:38):
For our audio listeners who can't see this,
it's like a cartoon version ofMal holding a piece of bread
that has MB burned into thetoast, and then it's a frame
that is a loaf of bread withcorgi ears and a little nose,
eyes, and mouth, and then alittle bow tie, too.
It's adorable.
Mal, you close all your videoswith

Scarto46 (26:57):
that.
Everything you do, you closewith that logo, right?

MalBread (27:00):
Yes, that is the first thing that I started drawing
when I wanted to startstreaming.
I was like, okay, I'm not goingto stop my face everywhere
because some people might notfind me interesting to look at,
but I'm going to draw a cutechibi version of myself.
It's an old drawing of me.
I have slightly improved sincethen, but I like to keep my

(27:22):
traces of parts of me from thepast.
So yeah, that is one of thefirst things that I started
drawing when my idea ofstreaming started blooming in my
head.
I was like, okay, I'm going toneed a logo.
I'm going to need like animage.
And then I'm going to need likebakery themed things I can use
for my community.

(27:43):
So people will remember mebecause when I started
researching ideas for streamingand I was getting to know the
community and what it actuallyis, because I don't like
half-assing things.
I'm like, if I do something,I'm going to do it properly.
And people were telling newstreamers, hey, how can you
stand out?
What can you do to make youremember?

(28:07):
What can you do to bring peopleback?
And having a catchy username,having something, a little
something on your screen or inyour phrasing or how you talk
can make you remember.
memorable.
So people will come back andkeep interacting with you.
Yeah.
Hence why I have a mascot formy channel called Toasty, who is

(28:31):
a chunky piece of bread with asunny side up egg on his head.
And, you know, he's just, hejust looks cute and he's just
fluffy.
And yeah, just that that's hisjob.
Only job looking cute andfluffy.

Scarto46 (28:42):
Yeah.
And he's super cute.
I was just going to ask.
So when someone shows up inyour stream the first time, like
what is the thing that you hopethat they take away or they
feel?
Okay.
Because you thought a lot aboutthis, right?
Even what you wanted it to be.
And I bet you had this idea inmind of like, this is what I
hope someone feels.
Because you mentioned the cafeearlier, right?
And fresh bread and that vibe.

(29:02):
But what is the thing you hopethey take away when they walk
away from your stream?

MalBread (29:08):
Okay, I'm going to start off by saying what I love
to say whenever somebody newfollows me on my stream.
It's always, hello, welcome tothe bakery.
You are now officially a loaf.
You can be any bread you want.
And then I start listing offeverything.
random pastries and types ofbread that they can choose to
be.
So I say you can be a blueberrymuffin.

(29:30):
You can be an everythingseasoning bagel.
You can be plain old whitebread.
You can be a baguette, atortilla, a burger bun.
So it's kind of my way ofsaying, hey, you can be anything
you want.
Be a part of the community.
See this place as a cozy littlebakery where everybody here is

(29:50):
either a baker.
Like my subscribers are bakers,the ones who like pay a monthly
fee to be part of thecommunity.
Those are bakers who help mearound the bakery to make all
the croissants and all the pies.
And if somebody loves cinnamonrolls, they're like, okay, I'm
going to give you cinnamonrolls.
You're going to make all thecinnamon rolls or like, oh, the
other person loves red velvetcake.

(30:11):
I'm like, OK, I'm going to giveyou I'm going to I'm going to
make you bake all thehypothetically, of course, all
the red themed pastries in ourbakery for the month.
So I like to make peopleparticipate.
in the weird imagery we have, Ihave in my head of the
community.

(30:32):
And I guess people love it.
And they're like, yay, whenthey subscribe or when they
bring friends over, they'relike, friends to the bakery.
And then the newcomers arelike, oh, I've been craving
banana bread a lot recently.
So they're like, I want to be abanana bread.
Or like, I want to be some edgykids.
They come over, they want to belike, oh, I want to be moldy

(30:53):
bread.
I'm like, oh, really?
What color does your mold have?
Is it more like the greenishkind?
Is it the fuzzy kind?
Is it the black kind?
The black is not.
And then I start talking aboutmold for like five minutes.
And anyways, so that's theenergy I like to give off for
the community.
Cozy vibes, sense of community.
I

Ryanocerus (31:12):
want to be the moldy bread.

MalBread (31:14):
You're the moldy bread in my eyes, Ryan.
I've

Ryanocerus (31:21):
always wanted to hear somebody say that.
Mal, you're known for Doingexpressive first-play style
streams, how do you approachthose games emotionally?
Are you prepping before you goin?
Are you going in raw?
Is it something kind of inbetween?
Oh,

MalBread (31:39):
okay.
I hate being spoiled.
So I love to stay off theinternet or I try not to see
content related to either themovie or the game that I will be
experiencing.
So I love to experience thingsraw for the first time.
That's why I mainly do firstplaythroughs on my channel,

(32:01):
because if there are jumpscares, I don't want to know if
there are jump scares.
And if I get jump scared, well,you're going to see me shoot my
pants on stream.
So like I want everything tofeel genuine.
And I because I feel like inreal life, like the real me is
constantly performing.
I'm constantly being a versionof myself that is not authentic.

(32:23):
And I don't feel any joy beingthat.
And I feel like I'm constantlyfollowing a script.
So streaming is my form ofrelaxing and being my genuine,
authentic self.
So if I'm playing a game, Iwill play a game that I find
interesting.
If I want to experience it forthe first time, I'm going to act
in the way that I genuinely amfeeling on the inside.

(32:46):
So yes, that's why I play firstplaythroughs mostly on my
streams.

Scarto46 (32:52):
I think that resonates with us, though.
I mean, you know, for us, like,again, we in real life like
that, and maybe this is foreveryone, but in real life, like
we have an expectation of whowe have to be or the jobs or the
roles or the things we have todo.
And then being able to be trulyauthentically yourself kind of
happens on behind this gamer tagthat you have, right?
So I think that resonatestotally with the three of us and

(33:15):
probably with lots of people.

MalBread (33:17):
Oh, yeah, definitely.
When I post content on myYouTube or Instagram, I do get
hate comments, obviously.
But I understand it's comingfrom people who feel trapped.
Yeah.
Mm-hmm.
Mm-hmm.

(33:41):
when I get old.
Oh my gosh, I don't wantwrinkles because of all the
hatred I have bubbling inside.
No, I want to be jolly.
I want to be happy.
And if I have wrinkles, I wantthem to be smile lines.
I want them to be happywrinkles.
So yeah, that's how I see it.

Ryanocerus (34:05):
Yeah, you have a real range in your content, you
know, horror games, Soulsborne,Cozy Chaos.
Do these genres speak todifferent parts of you as you're
playing them?
Are there specific charactersor archetypes that you feel
reflected within those games?

MalBread (34:21):
Oh my gosh, I love this question.
Okay, so I don't know if Imentioned this during the
podcast, but we were talkingabout this before we started
recording, but my brain is weirdand my brain is annoyingly
addicted to multitasking.
So I have multiple tabs open onmy in my brain and there's this

(34:45):
one tab watching a cutesy animeand the other tab has a youtube
video open related to a horrorshow that i'm i am currently
that i just finished watchingwith my brother and i have
another tab that's like relatedto i don't know a horror game

(35:05):
that recently came out and i'mwatching the trailer to it so
Yeah, it's one of the reasonswhy I am a variety streamer,
because I don't want to putmyself in a mold, which is
exactly what I did growing up.
And I was forced to do becauseof my upbringing is close all
the other tabs, just have onetab open and just concentrate on
that.
I'm like, what?

(35:25):
Don't want to think about that.
Like this week, what if I wantto do another thing?
And then I come back to it fora few hours and I go to go do
something else.
And I like to have this freedomof choice.
choosing according to my mood.
So one day, like I try tostream three to four times a
week and each day I end upplaying a different game.

(35:47):
So one of the funny things thatI've been doing recently is
playing a dating sim.
That's a game that came outrecently called Date Everything.
And I usually don't play datingsims, but it got gifted to me.
So Mondays are dating simnights.
And then Wednesdays, I play ahorror game.
And then we do community nightsanother day.

(36:09):
And I play Dead by Daylightanother day.
So it's really, I'm giving,letting myself have the option
to enjoy everything as much as Ican.
Because, you know, beinganchored to just one thing is
too suffocating and boring.
Yeah, it's not right.

Scarto46 (36:24):
I was going to ask you, Mal.
So like...
What's your relationship withyour like persona today with
MalBreads?
I mean, you just described howyou're in so many different
places all at the same time.
You've described why you're avariety streamer and because you
love to engage in all theseplaces and you don't want to be
confined to a certain area or acertain topic.
But do you think of MalBread aslike a mirror of who you are?

(36:47):
Like when you look at MalBreadas like the persona you have, is
that a mirror of you or is thissomething else entirely?

MalBread (36:55):
Ooh, okay.
Another great question.
You could say I am a completelydifferent person from what
outsiders see me as.
My closet, you should see mycloset, by the way.
It's like black t-shirts, darkred, maroon, and gray, white

(37:16):
clothes.
Things that I wear to theoffice or to school and to
appear more serious and mature.
But then the PJs, The pajamasthat I wear at home, as soon as
I come home, I just change intomy pajamas.
You know, I feel more likemyself and also I feel like more
clean.
They're all multicolored.

(37:37):
There's a lot of floral.
There's a lot of pink, blues,purple, pastel colors.
And all of them are made by mymom.
Shout out to my mom again.
She sews.
She sews a lot.
She sews a lot of pajamas forme.
And those are the, most of thetime, those are the outfits that
I wear when I'm streaming.
So I feel more nice and bubblywhen I am indoors and at home

(38:02):
and not really myself and moreof a mature shell of myself when
I'm.

Scarto46 (38:08):
So you feel like Malbret is and the persona you
are like, that's really you.
But when you're outside, you'rewho you have to be.

MalBread (38:16):
Exactly.
OK, you worded it perfectly.
Yeah,

Scarto46 (38:20):
I get that.
I mean, I think that I'm themost authentic version of myself
when I'm here.
So I totally understand whereyou're coming from.
I think that's probably truefor Marthah and Ryan as well.
So because you get to just be.

MalBread (38:35):
The part that you said where like your outside clothes
are completely different towhat you wear at home and the
stuff that you wear at home iswhat brings you joy.
That resonated so hard with me.
I'm glad we're, we think thesame.
You feel the same.
I feel like a lot of people,like if they really sat down and

(38:57):
thought about it would agreewith that because there's things
that we gravitate towards andwe love and we enjoy, but maybe
they're not the norm out there.
IRL in the corporate office or,you know, wherever you go on a
day-to-day basis, but it is thestuff that brings you joy.

(39:17):
I'm

Scarto46 (39:18):
going to ask you like a, As part of your building your
persona, building yourcommunity, is there a thing
that, like, you didn't expectthis to, like, opportunities or
things that you've learned oreven, like, grown your creative
side or behind the scenes side?
Like, are there things thatthis has given you that you

(39:38):
didn't expect would happen whenyou started, like, building out
your platform and your idea andyour brand over a month?

MalBread (39:47):
Okay.
When I first started streaming,I was...
doing this because I want to doit.
I wasn't expecting to peoplecome and watch and come and want
to be with me, spend time withme or be part of the community
that I'm building because I wasbeing part of communities, but
I've never created a communityof my own.
So I was finding it fun, butalso shocking that people would

(40:12):
come back and they wouldremember what I would say and
they wanted to There's also theparasocial thing that you have
to be cautious about.
But more on the positive note,people were genuinely interested
in being part of what I wasbuilding.

(40:33):
And I loved that.
And I really enjoyed continuingthis process because I was
like, you know what?
I'm not just doing this formyself.
I'm doing this for otherpeople.
And At first, my streams werenot 18 plus, not because I swear
a lot or I talk about weird susthings, but it was more like a

(40:56):
lot of young kids and youngerteens would join because I look
young and I talk in a verycomforting way.
So kids would come to mystreams and they would not
understand the parasocial thingand they would be like oh I'm
having trouble in my life andthey would start talking trauma

(41:19):
dumping on stream and it wasthis weird mix between I'm
trying to make content I'mplaying my game but that person
thinks that I'm like their bestfriend or they think that I am
their older sibling that theycan have comfort moments with

(41:42):
but I'm having fun.
I'm having fun creating mycommunity, but I think
boundaries is healthy to have.

Scarto46 (41:50):
No, I totally respect where you're coming from with
that because it is hard becauseI think you're describing a
moment where you're trying tobuild a community, you're trying
to get started and you wanteveryone to feel seen, but then
having to build the boundaryaround like this part of this
stream with the trauma dumpingpart of this, I can't like be
part of, right?
And like, you don't want toexclude anyone because you're

(42:11):
starting to really trying tobuild this thing but you had to
like set boundaries for yourself

MalBread (42:18):
yeah yeah that's that's the kind of iffy part of
content creation especiallystreaming because you're
reacting and and answering liveto messages and comments you're
getting right away like within afew seconds

you

MalBread (42:41):
mentioned anime and comics a few times.
And I'm just curious, like,what comic worlds or what anime
worlds are you most drawn to?
Like, what are the ones youkeep going back to on a bad day?
Like, what's your vibe?
Okay, okay, okay.
I used to have like a horrormanga phase.

(43:02):
Like, I used to read a lot ofJunji Ito manga when I was a
very young.
I shouldn't read those, butlike right before bed, I'm like,
oh, I want to feel something.
And I would read like horrormanga.
That's

wild.

MalBread (43:16):
Yeah, I don't know.
I was like, oh my god, I don'tknow what was going on.
And yeah, and then I got intomore fantasy and isekai anime.
And I'm usually not a romancegirly, but I do tend to enjoy
more fantasy, more sci-firelated content.
So comics, I'm reading a sportscomic and I've been enjoying it

(43:40):
recently.
I've been also getting into alot of Marvel movies.
Growing up, I don't know why myparents were never into like
superhero content or movies.
So now I'm like, you know what?
I'm paying my own internet andI have free time and free will.
I'm gonna watch that Spider-Manmovie that I never got to watch
before.
So I've That's what I do.
And I'm like, you know what?

(44:00):
Marvel.
I love the Marvel Universe.
And I would love to startreading the comics, too.
So I'm like, I'm going to doeverything that I didn't get the
chance to do as a teenager andgrowing up.
And now that I have adult moneyand free time.
So I'm trying to...
Because one of the worstthings, one of my biggest fears
is to die with regret.

(44:23):
Regret of not eating acertain...
dish, a regret of not watchingthat certain show, regret of not
finishing that book series.
So I don't know, this gnawingfeeling at the back of my head
all the time.
That's one of the reasons whyI'm exposed to this so many
media at the same time, becauseI'm like, I don't want to miss
my chances of finishing this orreading this or watching this.

Scarto46 (44:47):
I was going to ask, so are you planning on stack
ranking all at the end of theyear?
Which ones you think are like Stier or Is that a thought you
have right now about like,here's all the content I
consumed, I'm going to rankthem?

MalBread (45:00):
Oh my gosh, yes.
Something that I've beenconsidering is making a mid-year
or like an end-of-year video ofme compiling all my thoughts
and all the media that I havewatched.
So I have a channel that I talka lot about, you know, media,

(45:23):
film and shows.
So on that channel, I'm like,okay, at the end of the year, I
can do like a category where Italk about all the anime I've
watched.
Then another category, I talkabout all the shows I've
watched.
And then another category aboutall the shows, all the movies
that I've watched.
And I have another YouTubechannel that I'm planning on
starting is related to books andthen on that channel, I can

(45:45):
talk about all the manga,comics, books, series that I
started or didn't finish or planon starting or plan on buying
or like getting rid of from mycollection.
So yes, I want to share my loveand interest.

Scarto46 (46:01):
I want to share your experiences.

MalBread (46:03):
Yes, exactly.

Scarto46 (46:03):
If you think about like who you are becoming,
right, because you've described,you've shared a lot about like
how you started in your life andjust the evolution of you, if
you think about who you'rebecoming, not just as a creator,
but as a person, what feelsimportant to hold on to?
What are the lessons thatyou've learned today that you
wish you could teach the youngerversion of yourself?

MalBread (46:26):
I say, think about yourself.
Be more selfish.
And like I said, I'm a veryhardcore people pleaser.
And I would destroy I take foodout of my plate so that other
people have fuller bellies andthat applied to any aspect of

(46:48):
life whether it's like money ortime or a show that I wanted to
watch but if my brother wantedto watch like another show I'm
like okay we can watch it but ifI had to say something
important to the past me I wouldbe like be more selfish think
about having fun now too becauseYou don't want to keep being a

(47:13):
version of yourself who'sconstantly thinking about the
future, but never thinking aboutthe present, never grounding
yourself in the present.
I used to be somebody who wasconstantly tired and stressed
and overstimulated because Inever took the time to be in the
present and calm myself.
I was never like, hey, I'mstressed right now.

(47:33):
I'm just going to stop doinghomework for like an hour.
I'm just going to go.
I could go to the cafe, grab alittle pastry and just empty my
head and be in the moment.
Stop thinking about what willwhat other people will say or
like what I'm doing in one year,two year and five years.
Just ground yourself.
Be in the moment.

Scarto46 (47:53):
I think that's a great message, Mel.
I think that's so cool thatlike you can look back at, you
know, from where you are todayand and Think about like what
you would just to be moreselfish when you were younger
and like take care of yourselfbetter.
That's dope.
All right.
We're going to take a quickbreak and we'll come right back
with MalBread and we'll we'll doreroll and see if we can
capture the essence.
MalBread.

(48:14):
All right.
And we're back with MalBread.
Mal, are you ready to playreroll?

MalBread (48:27):
Oh, hell yeah.
I'm so excited.

Scarto46 (48:30):
Okay, cool.
Let me explain the rules of thegame to you.
So on the Gamer Tech Podcast,we play a game called Reroll.
We've recorded notes about youthroughout this episode, taking
notes on your key personalitytraits, your preferred roles in
gameplay, favorite genres andworlds, signature style or vibe,
and visual inspiration.
We're going to share thatprompt with you on the screen.

(48:52):
But throughout the podcast,we've been taking notes.
And what we're going to do isenter this into our bot.
And this bot will generate afirst image of MalBread.
From there, you'll have theopportunity to reroll twice.
At any point, you can stay.
If you feel like that imagerepresents you, you don't have
to change anything.

(49:12):
But if you want to, you canchange anything you want about
the image with each reroll.
So you'll get two after thefirst input.
Do you have any questions aboutthat?

MalBread (49:24):
Crystal clear.
There

Scarto46 (49:26):
you go.
Crystal clear.
Marthah is going to read offthe notes we've recorded about
you, and I will show them to youon the screen.

MalBread (49:33):
Okay, awesome.
Yeah, so I'm super excited toshare these with you because I
feel like they're kind of allover the place and very
interesting.
Okay, so key personality traitsright off the bat.
You are so energetic.
You are so expressive.
And you make it very clear thatyou are a mental multitasker.

(49:54):
Based off of the way youdescribe your streaming style, I
think that you're veryobservant.
I think that you are inclusiveand you are engaging.
Based off of how you describedsome of your life experiences, I

(50:15):
think that you're veryimaginative, you're confident,
and you are a go-getter like noother.
Oh, thank you.
For your preferred roles andgameplay, I put storyteller,
leader, caretaker, because ofyour role as an older sibling.

(50:38):
And you mentioned that you feellike you're constantly
performing, but online you getto be your truest self, which I
think is pretty cool.
My favorite genres and worlds.
I have Japan.
You mentioned Japan severaltimes.
Chibi.
Definitely cozy bakery on arainy day vibes.

(51:02):
And I think this is where itstarts to get kind of
interesting.
So we've got Dark Souls.
We've got Dating Sims.
We've got horror games.
And we've got Dead by Daylight.
But the interest doesn't stopthere.
When we get into your signaturestyle or vibe, we've got
comics.
We've got cozy, cozy.
Bakery.

(51:23):
You've got some vibrantpajamas.
You've got horror.
You've got fantasy, sci-fi,Marvel comics.
I'm imagining you in a garlicbread bakery of your dreams.
And the visual inspiration thatwe have for you is, again, your
garlic bread bakery.
Toasty, of course.

(51:44):
We have to include toasty.
And what I think is really,really funny is Junji Ito
versus, and you can correct meif I say this wrong, but Isika.
I googled what those are, andthose could not possibly be more
different, but they both justfeel like so you.

(52:06):
Yes, that's, yeah, that's reallyme.
Isekai is like in anotherworld, like you get transported
in another world.
That's true, yeah.
It was so interesting.
I had no idea what I wasgoogling, and then when I saw
them and compared the images, Iwas like, oh my, this is so
different, but I love it.
And then, obviously, we arethrowing in your favorite shade

(52:28):
of pink.
Oh, thank you.
Yay.
So,

Scarto46 (52:32):
Mal, are you ready to re-roll?

MalBread (52:36):
Oh, yes.
I am fidgeting in my seat.
Like, I can't wait.
This is going to be so good.

Scarto46 (52:43):
Let's see what happens.

Ryanocerus (52:53):
Oh my god, this is so good.
This

MalBread (52:56):
is adorable.
And I'm actually, I don't knowhow you feel, but I actually
love how Toasty looks.
That is so cute.
Shorter hair.
I do have, I'm trying to growout my hair.
Toasty is very accurate, by theway.
Isn't it cute?

(53:16):
So cute.
So adorable.
I love it.
And yeah, I'm trying to growout my hair.
I'm going to see how far I cango until I go bald from all the
stress.
What

Scarto46 (53:31):
would you like to change about this picture?
You can change anything youwant.
You have two re-rolls.
We can adjust anything youwant.
But

MalBread (53:41):
what would you like to see changed?
I would say...
The hair could be longer.
I don't know if that counts asa re-roll.
And usually the pajamas I wearduring my streams are floral
themed.
And yeah, all my pajamas arefloral themed.
I always go to the fabric storewith my mom and we always end

(54:04):
up buying 100% cotton, cutefloral, pastel, or spring themed
fabrics.
And you should put that youwant a tee.
tag hanging out of it.
Oh, yes.

Ryanocerus (54:21):
I'm so excited for the picture to just be a giant
mug.

MalBread (54:24):
Hope with Toasty in the corner.

Ryanocerus (54:28):
Toasty's in the mug.
Nice.

Scarto46 (54:32):
All right.
I wrote, I love everythingabout this picture, except I
would like to change the patternon the pajamas from fruits to
floral themed.
And could you make her hairmuch longer?
I would also like a giant mugwith a tea tag hanging from the
side of it.

MalBread (54:49):
Yes.
I love how the edits on thisare just bigger, bigger.
Yeah.
Because it fits you.
It's so fitting for you.
Thank you.

Scarto46 (55:00):
If that prompt looks good, Mal, we can try your first
re-roll.

MalBread (55:04):
Go for it.
Yeah.

Scarto46 (55:05):
All right.
Here we go.
Let's see what happens.
That is such a cool style.
Oh my gosh.

Ryanocerus (55:17):
I love.
Again, another very differentstyle than the other stuff.
So our

Scarto46 (55:22):
whole idea with re-roll is like, could this
like, not art, but like, couldthe picture represent the person
and like their style and their,you know, what they're into?
And that's kind of been thewhole thing is like, it becomes
a collage of like human beingsand their personalities, you
know?
So.

MalBread (55:36):
Yeah.
We want you to walk away fromthe podcast and also re-roll
feeling like you were seen.
Yeah,

Scarto46 (55:45):
totally.

MalBread (55:46):
I do feel seen and heard.
Well, it is an audio podcast,so it's more like I feel heard.
Garlic bread.

Scarto46 (55:54):
I love it.
This is the beautiful partabout re-roll.
You actually never know what'sgoing

MalBread (56:00):
to...
Oh, yeah.
This is going to be fun.
Rainy, rainy night.
Oh, my gosh.
The photos.
Oh, I love this.

Yes.

MalBread (56:13):
This is accurate.
Oh, my gosh.
Yeah.
Oh, you love this?
Yeah.
With the giant mug that is veryme.
There's Toasty.
Oh, my gosh.

Scarto46 (56:23):
Toasty's just chilling.
So for our listeners, Mal isnow in a garlic bread bakery.
It is a rainy night outside.
Her hair is much longer.
She has a giant mug.
for her tea or soup, TBD.
And Toasty is sitting on astool next to her in her floral
pink pajamas.
Mal, do you feel seen by thispicture?

MalBread (56:46):
I see.
I feel very seen.
But I did notice that the bookwe had in the first version is
now gone.
I wonder where the book went.
Maybe having the last...
Use the last re-roll and maybetry adding books...
In the scenery.
Okay.

Ryanocerus (57:07):
We also lost the bread.
I think we had a wall of breadbehind you in the first

MalBread (57:11):
one.
Can we scroll up and see this?

Ryanocerus (57:14):
I think there was a wall of bread.
Yeah.
Now it's telling us thatthere's bread, but I don't
necessarily see

MalBread (57:22):
the bread.
But we have no evidence.

Ryanocerus (57:25):
But

MalBread (57:25):
honestly, the first one was very good.
Oh, I could be sitting on astack of books.
So it's, I

Ryanocerus (57:32):
don't know.
Or maybe Toasty's on a stack ofbooks.

MalBread (57:36):
Yeah.
Or Toasty could be on a stackof books.
Yeah.
That's actually a really goodidea.
Toasty looks so happy andendearing.
I love him.

Scarto46 (57:49):
I am concerned about what will happen.
I'm

MalBread (57:51):
scared.
But I know that, like, re-rollnumber two is solid.
Yeah.
I was very impressed.
I think maybe, I think I wouldprefer like a sunny day outside
than a rainy day.
Well, at the same time, it doesgive like the indoor cozy vibe
if it's raining outside.

Scarto46 (58:12):
And the duality of your horror games versus your...

MalBread (58:15):
Okay, okay.
No, no, no.
Okay.
I agree.
I agree.
Yeah.
Oh, do we put like a creepy,like shadowy figure in the...
I don't know if it's going tobe too detailed.
We don't have to, but like it'slike cozy vibes.
But like in the background,it's a little dark and rainy and
there's maybe something orsomeone outside.
All

Scarto46 (58:36):
right.
I added.
I'm going to read the prompt.
I love everything about thispicture.
Please.
All caps.
Don't change anything.
But I would like to add breadon the wall underneath the
garlic bread bakery sign andreplace the stools with stacks
of books for sitting.
please put a creepy shadowyfigure in the scene outside
instead of the tree.

(58:56):
Mal, are you ready to roll the

MalBread (59:00):
dice for your last re-roll?
Yes.

Scarto46 (59:04):
This is also the beautiful part about re-roll is
we actually don't know what'llhappen.
It's like every time, becauseyou almost like you're rolling
the dice to see like, will thiswork out?
I don't know.
Who knows?
This is the moment of truth.

MalBread (59:25):
It's looking promising so far.

Scarto46 (59:28):
Marthah, don't say anything.
I

MalBread (59:29):
know.
No, I know.
I know.

Ryanocerus (59:31):
It's still listening to you.
Don't say anything.
Yeah, it's still listening.
It's like a fantasy genie whereit takes what you want.
Well, I'm not going to give youquite nothing.
What's a laugh?

Scarto46 (59:44):
Oh, boy.
Here

Ryanocerus (59:45):
we go.
I see some bread.
I see bread.
Toasty's really high in theair.

Scarto46 (59:50):
Maybe Toasty's the creepy figure now.

Ryanocerus (59:55):
No, he's still happy.
He's still happy.
He's still happy.
He's still happy, yeah.
He's smiling.
His little arms are up.

MalBread (01:00:01):
Are you, like, waving?
Are

Ryanocerus (01:00:05):
you holding him up?
Okay, okay.

Wait, there's, like, oh, my God, there's a creepy
photo.

Yeah.
Oh,

my God.
What is this boy doing?
There are some bread-shaped,no, book-shaped

bread.
There's bread books.
There's bread books.
I love the bread books.
I told you it would be like...

Do we love it or do we hate it?

What do you think, Mal?
I also like the piece of breadhanging on the

wall.
Hanging.

Like nailed

up to the

wall.
I love that.

No.
It was the first sourdoughloaf.
Wow.
And we got two mugs this time.
Two giant mugs.

Scarto46 (01:00:43):
Two giant mugs, yeah.
one for you one for toasty

one for toasty he can take a bath in it yeah I think
actually I think this is this islike really good okay yeah it's
really good it's just there's abook shaped bread that's the
funny part but

I love the book shaped bread quite honestly it's
so funny I didn't even noticeit until you said that either me

neither

Okay, cool.
Well, if you love it,

Scarto46 (01:01:16):
we'll stay with it then, yeah?

Actually, I really like it.
I mean, we got the littlecreepy figure in the back and I
have no idea that I'm beingstalked right now and I'm like
chilling in my garlic breadbakery with Toasty with a mug of
soup and a mug of tea on hugestacks of books.
Yeah, I love this.

Scarto46 (01:01:38):
Okay, great.
Well...
MalBread, you are the midnightbaker.
You're the cozy queen ofcomfort meets creeping horror.
Floral PJs, toast plush, tea inhand, and a shadow at the
window.
Welcome to her world.

Nice.
I love this.
This is so good.

Scarto46 (01:01:54):
Well, thanks for playing Reroll, Mal.
I'm glad this actually workedout.
I was terrified of what wouldhappen after the second Reroll.
I am so glad that you got apicture that you love.

Yay, I love it.
Thanks.
Thank you.
Thank you for taking the timefor the re-rolls.
I really appreciate it.

Scarto46 (01:02:12):
No, for sure.
We're at the end of the show.
And what we'd like to do ishand the show to you.
Anything you want to share withyour community, other creators,
or anyone listening in,something that you want people
to take away from the podcast,it's your show.
So what would you like to sayto the audience listening?

Oh, okay.
Let me take the mic and let methink about this because...
I've been thinking about thisever since we started our call.
And first of all, I would loveto thank everybody in my life,
good or bad, because you made methe version that I am today.
And I would also like to tellfuture me, present me and also

(01:02:56):
past me and everybody listeningto this podcast right now and
also the hosts, if you can,every day, try to do something
for yourself, something selfishthat will bring joy to you or
help you relax and also dosomething for someone else.

(01:03:16):
I feel like it's gonna keep youhappy, keep you in a better
version of yourself and alsokeep the community happy because
to be in a close to perfectworld, you want everybody to be
content with whatever they'redoing or wherever they are.

(01:03:38):
Long story short, be happy.
Do something for yourself everyday.
Do one thing for yourself everyday and do one thing for
someone else.
And then you'll have a nicepresent and a good future too.
So yeah, that's it.

Scarto46 (01:03:54):
That's beautiful, Mal.
Yeah.
Do something for yourself everyday.

Yes.

Scarto46 (01:04:01):
I just want to say...
We really enjoyed hanging outwith you.
You are a beautiful person andyou are so fun to hang out with.
And I think I smiled the entiretime we hung out and I just
want to say thanks for coming onGamertagged and hanging out
with us.

I can second that.
I definitely smiled the wholetime.
It's been so fun listening toyou talk about your story and
just really fun getting to knowyou.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
I felt like I could be mygenuine self with you guys
because you guys are genuinelygood people and very fun and

(01:04:38):
entertaining to interact with.
So I had zero trouble being myauthentic self with you guys
here on this podcast.
So thank you for being awesomeand nice and genuine.

Marthah Maple (01:04:52):
For sure.

Scarto46 (01:04:53):
Thank you, everyone, for listening tonight.
And Mal, thanks again forjoining us for this episode of
Gamertagged.

Thank you.
Thank you for having me.

Scarto46 (01:05:05):
That was MalBread, a person whose kindness radiates.
I don't think we stoppedsmiling once during this
conversation.
And honestly, that sayseverything.
Every person we meet here hastheir own recipe.
For Mal, it's a mix of softnessand survival, a dash of chaos,
a spoonful of courage, andenough garlic to make you feel
safe.
She's proof that you don't needto be loud to be bold.

(01:05:27):
and that the names we carryonline can become homes for who
we really are.
So take Mal's advice.
Be selfish.
Do something for yourselftoday, and maybe something for
someone else too.
Thanks for listening to thisepisode of Gamertagged, where
every name has a story, andevery story deserves to be
heard.
The Gamer Tag Podcast isproduced by the team at Gamer

(01:05:49):
Tag Studios.
Production and editing byPortella.
Music direction by Ryan Osiris.
Visual design by Sushi.
Guests and partnerships byMarthah Maple.
Hosted by me, Scarto46.
If you enjoy the show, hitsubscribe or follow.
It helps more people find thesestories and keeps the studio
cooking.
Reviews make a huge differencetoo.

(01:06:11):
A few words from you can helpthe right listener feel seen,
and we read every single one.
Want to see this week's re-rollcard?
Head to gamertagpodcast.com tocheck it out and explore past
guests.
See you on the next episode ofGamertagged, where digital
identities become real stories.
Transmission ending.

(01:06:32):
Goodbye.

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