Ep 6. - When God Feels Distant: Reclaiming Spiritual Intimacy After Religious Trauma

In this deeply personal and transformative episode, Tamara explores what it means to pursue an unmediated, direct connection with the Divine—especially after leaving the confines of organized religion. Drawing from her own experiences of trauma, deconstruction, and spiritual silence, she offers insight into how shame, perfectionism, and external authority can block intimacy with God—and how to gently rebuild that connection from within.

Tamara breaks down the four key blocks to spiritual intimacy:

• Performance spirituality & perfectionism
• Outsourcing spiritual authority
• Shame-based images of God
• Deconstruction fatigue & religious trauma

She also shares how her intuition, personal spiritual experiences, and divine synchronicities helped guide her healing—and offers listeners practical ways to begin reconnecting with God, even in the silence.

💡 What You’ll Learn:

• How religious performance can block true spiritual connection
• Why trusting your inner authority is key to divine intimacy
• How to identify fear-based beliefs about God—and gently unlearn them
• Practical tools for spiritual rebuilding after leaving religion
• The difference between divine guidance and fear-based thinking

✨ Highlights:

• Tamara’s honest reflection on leaving Mormonism
• Her story of surviving trauma and rediscovering God on her own terms
• Insights on healing spiritual disconnection without needing gatekeepers
• The moment she realized: “God’s been carrying me the whole time”

📚 Resources Mentioned:

• Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda
• Personal experiences with patriarchal blessings and deconstruction
• Spiritual trauma, intuition, and divine synchronicity stories

🙏 Final Takeaway:

Even when God feels distant, connection is still possible—and already unfolding. You don’t need a middleman, a performance, or perfection. You are already worthy of love and divine presence.

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