She wasn’t chasing a rabbit. She was chasing a memory. At sixteen, a girl walked into a locked ward at a crumbling Sussex asylum and refused her real name. She spoke in riddles, renamed the staff: the White Rabbit was a panicked orderly; the Queen of Hearts a severe matron; the Mad Hatter an old man who never spoke. At first, doctors corrected her. Then they accommodated—chipped cups of tea, slow walks in the garden, anything to keep the day from breaking.
Something spread. Patients began using her names, and even a few staff slipped into character. One afternoon she asked to go through the Looking Glass. They found her in the mirror room, smiling at her reflection and whispering to it.
When the hospital closed in 1974, Alice was transferred. She never spoke again. She sat by a window and waited for someone only she could see.
This deep dive isn’t a diagnosis. It’s a story about language as shelter, about institutions that become stages, and about a name that outlived the building that tried to contain it. They still call her Alice.
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