October 21, 2025 • 52 mins
In this episode, we continue our exploration of the Manifestor, including the relational and energetic dynamics of what it means to be a Manifestor (i.e., Informing, anger, peace, and impact). As a Manifestor herself, Kelsey dives into the misconceptions of informing so you can see your Strategy not as a way to control you, but as a practical tool for reducing resistance and honoring the Manifestor’s inherent independence.
This episode also unpacks the emotional experience of anger and the true nature of peace, illuminating how resistance and control shape the Manifestor’s conditioning. This conversation invites Manifestors to stop trying to manage others’ perceptions inside your closed aura and relax into the freedom, rest, and creative impact that are your birthright.
What's Discussed in this Episode:
- The purpose and practice of informing
- Practical examples of informing in everyday life
- Anger as the natural response to resistance and interference
- Peace as the Manifestor’s true default state of rest and autonomy
- Understanding urges as the Manifestor’s internal cue for movement and initiation
- The Manifestor’s relationship to authority as the true driver of correct action
- Navigating impatience, rejection, and isolation through awareness of aura mechanics
- Healing the conditioning of control: childhood punishment, social pressure, and the expectation to explain
- The Manifestor’s energetic role in creation: the butterfly effect and initiating new trajectories of reality
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Neutral information trulyfeels wildly better for the Manifesto's
mechanics than putting them inresponse or asking questions, because
it gives them the opportunityto show up in relationship to you
in ways that they may verymuch want to without requiring them
to compromise their geneticimperative of initiating and not
responding. And so it feelsreally good to be informed of what
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could showing up in supportiveyou look like, but then not being
necessarily held to thatspecific expectation because now
I have the freedom to do so ina way that is mechanically correct
for me. That literally doesn'thurt my body. That actually feels
good and relaxed andsupportive and autonomous in my own
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body.
Welcome to the Living Your Desig Podcast. I'm your experimentor,
Kelsey Rose Tortorice. Thispodcast is an audio only release
of the full length in depthHuman Design Foundations course I've
been teaching over the lastseveral years. It is a no bullshit,
comprehensive, embodiedintroduction to the human design
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I hope that it helps youremember and come home to yourself.
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This episode is part two of mylecture on the Manifestor Type. Check
out the previous episode forthe first half.
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Resistance is the root ofanger and informing can alleviate
resistance, thus informing asthe manifester strategy. While not
organic, it is still verypractical. Here are some examples
of informing I'm goingupstairs to read. When I first started
practicing informing, I livedwith my partner who I live with now
and we also had a temporaryroommate for a few months. They're
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both generators and rememberThinking it was so weird to have
to narrate something likethat. But you could feel when a manifester
leaves the room, you feel theabsence. You feel it move. It pushes
the energy on its way out. Andagain, it can just kind of put people
at ease to know where you'regoing, are they going to come back?
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When are they going to comeback? Right? So, again, offering
the courtesy in if, if itfeels correct for the manifestor,
if it feels that it outweighsthe benefits, outweigh the potential
annoyance of having to do it,then just simply informing of your
basic movement throughout thehouse, your basic movement throughout
the room, going to thebathroom if you're with someone,
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if you're at a restaurant.Another example of manifestor informing,
tomorrow I'm going to get outof the house for a bit. There are
two times that I did this inmy recent past that I had to, like,
kind of work myself up to,which is silly to think about, but
I, like, really went through awhole process in working myself up
to being able to say that. Onewas maybe close to a year ago now.
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I was on a family vacationwith my partner, my brother and his
family, and I was in a townacross the country from where I live.
It was only a couple of hoursfrom a really close friend of mine
that I know from online. And Iwanted to go meet up with this friend
in person because we had onlyever hung out in person once. I was
very close with them, and Ijust felt like I was going to. I,
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I. My conditioning and myhistory with my mom was such that
I was very worried aboutasking her if she would be okay with
my leaving for almost a wholeday because there was a drive associated
both ways to go see thisfriend. And I was, as I was processing
this with my partner, I waslike, wait a minute. I'm not designed
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to ask for permission. I'mdesigned to follow the urges of my
body, to do what I want, andto inform people of what's happening.
So I told my partner, I'mgonna try just informing my mom that
I'm going there in a couple ofdays, rather than asking if it's
okay or kind of dancing aroundit. And it was so wild to see how
informing just made everythinggo smoother. I don't know that my
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mom liked it or not, but byinforming, I didn't put myself in
a position where I had torespond to whether or not she liked
it. I remember she was like,changing the trash, changing the
bag in the kitchen trash. AndI just said, hey, Mom, I have a friend
that lives a couple hours awayand on Saturday I'm going to leave
for a while to go see them.And my mom was a little surprised
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and she was like, okay. And sojust really interesting to me because
my conditioning says that Ican't do that. I can't do things
that will have impact onpeople that they don't like. So I
have to like, try to wiggleand force and distort my auric imperative,
my genetic imperative, bytrying to meet other people's needs,
which is just so twisted andincorrect for the manifester. And
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so a weird thing that I'mnoticing is that even if it feels
uncomfortable to me, even ifmy conditioning, my mind so says,
like, this isn't okay, this isselfish. It literally puts everyone
at ease when the manifesterinformed. Another example of this
was I was out of town helpinga friend with some health stuff recently
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and they were very anxiousabout being left alone at the house.
And I just knew I needed somefreedom. I knew I needed to leave.
I had other friends in thattown that I wanted to visit. And
so when I could feel theanxiety coming up, when I could feel
that they really did not, Ihad left once and I could feel and
they had articulated that theydid not want me to leave again, I
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said, okay, well, I'm gonnaleave the house again tomorrow. I'm
gonna need at least a littlebit of free time. And so, you know,
if you need someone else tocome by, you can reach out to someone
else. And I, I didn't feel asscared this time as I did the time
with my mom that I just cited.But I did feel there. My mental narrative
around it was, this is rude ofme, but it literally put everything
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at ease. Cause this is justwhat's happening. And now that person
has the opportunity to usetheir own autonomy in regards to
if or how that affects theirapproach to something. It's so funny
talking about this stuff. Ifeel like I just sound so silly.
But perhaps it's useful forother manifestors because I'm a manifester
nearly four years into myexperiment, and in a lot of ways
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I'm just starting to get thehang of informing. The conditioning
around informing and doingwhat we want and really exercising
our autonomy for themanifestor can be so thick, especially
I think, for manifestors thatwere assigned female at birth and
raised as women and girls.Another example of manifestor informing,
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I'm starting to feel depletedand will be taking some time to not
respond. I'm not going toanswer my Emails for the next bit
of time. I used to say likeI'm not going to look at emails for
the rest of the week. Now I'mjust like, I'm not looking at emails
right now because I don't knowwhen, when I'll have the urge to
look again. I'm starting toget bored of X, Y, Z. So if you have
a certain like habit orroutine with someone and you're starting
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to feel that like this isn'tworking for me anymore because once
things get stagnant formanifestors, they don't feel good.
We're here for initiating andthen we retreat and then we initiate
something new and then weretreat. So just this one maybe is
more of an emotional manifestothing because splenic and ego manifestors
tend to move quickly becausethose authority centers function
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moment to moment where theemotional authority center takes
time to process. So this oneis maybe a little more specific to
emotional manifestors, butjust letting people know like what
are you in process with? Sothat they have a heads up that like
things might change soon, thismanifester might change direction
or pull away or blah blah blahsoon. And similarly speaking I'm
considering insert life orsituation change. For many manifestors
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this can seem selfish,uncomfortable, annoying, unnatural.
Experiment with it and seewhat works for you. And we talked
about in the generator lecturethere was a little bit about like
relating to generators. And soI want to talk here about how do
we talk to our manifestors?How do we talk with other manifestors
if we are manifestor? And soin addition to manifestors having
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this strategy of informing, Iwant to note this has been extremely
useful for me in my closerelationships. Manifestors like to
be neutrally informed too.Neutral information is offering information
without having an expectationfor if or how the manifesto will
respond. And neutralinformation also means information
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being offered in a way that isnot trying to control the manifesto
or the outcome. When we informmanifestors, we are again giving
them the opportunity to relateto us in integrity with their auric
function. And integrity forthe manifestor means moving into
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things on their own terms,conversing on their own terms, acting
according to their own body'srest and initiation cycle. So offering
neutral information gives themanifester an opportunity to initiate
with the information in mindof whatever it is you want to tell
them. It can be feel likeelementary to play with this adjustment
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of language. But I can tellyou that as a manifester these subtle
shifts feel extremelydifferent in my body Example, can
you pick up some eggs on yourway home? You see that Puts a manifesto
immediately in response.Something that might feel better
to a manifestor is, we ran outof eggs yesterday. Just let them
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know if it's correct for themanifestor to go get some eggs. They
will, right? If you miss yourmanifestor friend, instead of, can
you hang out this weekend,maybe just informing them, I've got
some free time this weekend,instead of, can you help me unload
the groceries? I'll be home in15 minutes and there's a lot to unload.
Right. It feels silly, but I'mtelling you, as a manifester, the
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energy of it hitting my bodyfeels so different. Like I'm literally,
like, relaxing as I read thesesecond things. And it's. It's often
said that manifesters don'tlike questions. So rather than asking
a question, just neutrallyinforming the manifestor. I've been
wondering about X, Y, Z. Therewas a while, there was a long while
where I didn't feel like Irelated to the idea of manifestors
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not liking questions,partially because, like, I love talking,
so I love talking aboutmyself. I love talking about how
I see the world. And questionsoften feel like opportunities for
me to do that. But the more Idecondition and through having some
conversations with othermanifester friends, I have started
to realize that there is a. Alittle bit of an aversion to questions
and that it does feel betterto know the kinds of things that
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people want to hear about sothat I can initiate talking about
them on my own terms. And hada conversation in particular with
my friend vaness Henry, who'sa 6:2 ego manifester. And I was asking
Vanessa, do you likequestions? And Vanessa was like,
I think I said, do you likequestions? I asked Vanessa question,
and Vanessa said, I don't likequestions. And we talked about it
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a little bit, and the way thatVanessa articulated it made a lot
of sense to me. And I've sincekind of watched this be the case
for myself as well. Vanessasaid that they like it when they
don't mind it, when questionsare just kind of posed to the universe.
And I realized that that'skind of how I tend to just engage
with questions in general. Sowhen people ask questions, I tend
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to approach them as like, oh,a question for the universe. I will
answer it in how. What,however way feels good to me rather
than in a direct response tohow you're asking it. And I have
this little asterisk up herefor manifestors like to be neutrally
informed too, becausegenerally speaking, the more that
you can wait for a manifestorto initiate with you rather than
you initiate with them, thesmoother the mechanics of the interaction
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will be for everyone. Soyou'll notice that like a lot of
this stuff is pretty neutralstuff. You know, you're some, you're
wondering about something, youcould use some help getting groceries
out of the car, somebody needsto go get eggs. You know, these aren't
hefty things. These aremundane things that most manifestors
have to deal with. Because welive in a world with others, we have
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relationships which we want tohave with others. But when it comes
to like big things, like goingout on a date, starting a new relationship,
starting a collaboration,generally speaking, allowing the
manifesto to move towards youor towards that collaboration or
towards that relationship isgoing to set the parameters up for
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a better connection for bothparties. It's still something that
I feel kind of weird talkingabout because it's so. It so challenges
my orientation towardssocialization and how I've been socialized.
And there's aspects of my notself that want to be invited, that
want to feel safe, and thatwant other people to initiate with
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me. So I know that I am wantedhere. And in the same vein, I have
noticed over time that itreally does feel better to me when
I initiate with people. I do,however, though enjoy being informed
of my impact, informed of howpeople relate to me, what they appreciate
about me, because that doesmake me feel safe, safer to initiate.
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So just an idea to play withthese, this idea of neutral information
for the manifestors and noticeif you have manifestors in your life
that are close to you, noticeif you play with this, as you play
with this, start to noticewhen you're delivering neutral information,
where do you actually have anintent to control how that manifester
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responds? Where do youactually have an expectation for
that manifestor and realizethat you simply having an expectation
for that manifestor isenergetically compromising their
ability to show up in waysthat are correct for both of you
in the container of yourrelationship or in the container
of that interaction. Insummation, neutral information truly
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feels wildly better for themanifesto's mechanics than putting
them in response or askingquestions, because it gives them
the opportunity to show up inrelationship to you in ways that
they may very much want to,without requiring them to compromise
their genetic imperative ofinitiating and not responding. So,
for example, I love mypartner. I love him and I want to
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do things for him. I want himto feel loved by me, I want him to
feel supported by me. I wantus to feel like a team. So I appreciate
Knowing what things he isperceiving need to be done. I appreciate
knowing how I could show upfor him, using my partner as an example.
This is my primaryrelationship. But I feel this way
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about all of my loved ones,all of my students, all of my clients,
everyone I work with. I wantto show up in support of you, but
I need to do it on my ownterms. And so it feels really good
to be informed of what couldshowing up in support of you look
like, but then not beingnecessarily held to that specific
expectation, because now Ihave the freedom to do so in a way
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that is mechanically correctfor me, that literally doesn't hurt
my body, that actually feelsgood and relaxed and supportive and
autonomous in my own body. Forthe Manifestor, authority takes the
front seat because themanifester is the only type whose
strategy is not mechanical.The authority becomes the mechanical
basis for how, when and withwhom to utilize the strategy to inform
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or not, as well as to initiateor not. Manifestors move or not according
to their authority, emotional,splenic or ego, and inform ahead
of and or as those movementstake place. Again, informing is not
demanding. It's simply sayingthis is what seems to be happening.
So as I notice my body doingcertain things, moving away from
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things, towards things,initiating, not initiating, I just
inform to whoever's around meor to whoever it is that I perceive
will be impacted by my actionor non action. This is what seems
to be happening, because theycannot sense that from inside of
my closed aura. And yeah, RAtalks a lot about how, because the
strategy for manifestors isartificial on a mechanical basis,
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where for everyone else it'sstrategy and authority, strategy
and authority, strategy at thefront and then authority sort of
helping you navigate thatprocess. For the Manifester, it's
authority. Our authority iswhat moves us and then we inform
as needed. So what is peace?Similarly to how I articulated earlier
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on that the open andenveloping aura for the generator
is so simple to understand thewhy of it, because it's all based
on the sacral mechanics.Satisfaction and frustration are
also completely based on thesacral mechanics. So as we get into
the other three types and weask ourselves these questions of
what is the signature of peacefor the manifestor and the not self
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of anger, it might not feel aslike simple and clear mechanically
as satisfaction andfrustration do, but we'll still break
it down a bit. And it'severything we've talked about up
to this point is hopefully afoundation for this question. So
peace, the manifester body,left unbothered and free has its
peace. Manifestors aredesigned to be in a default state
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of autonomous rest. We feelpeaceful there. And from this default
state, manifestors receivethese internal impulses from our
motor centers, urges to moveand to act on our own accord. When
the manifester is able to restautonomously, there is peace. When
the manifester is able toinitiate freely without resistance,
there is, there is peace. Thebody left unbothered and free, has
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its peace. However, whenoutside forces interfere with the
manifestor, there will beanger. And the manifester might externalize
this anger at suchinterference and, or the mind will
hijack the natural energeticflow of anger via again the narratives
of the not self and theopenness in the manifester. And instead
of allowing that anger to flowthrough the manifester, through the
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throat to be expressed, theanger will be repressed and the anger
will be internalized. So a lotof times for manifestors, again,
I think potentially more oftenmanifestors that are assigned female
at birth and conditioned aswomen and girls, as well as non white
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manifestors, people of color,specifically black people of color,
who are manifestors,specifically, specifically black
women, that anger, because ofthe conditioning on our gender, on
our race, can result in a lotmore of repression of the anger as
well. And so if that's thecase, if a lot of the anger has been
repressed, then manifestersmight not even connect with the idea
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that we have anger. It took meprobably a year and a half, maybe
two years of my deconditioningjourney to like really feel what
my anger was. And then once Istarted feeling it, I never stopped
feeling it, but it was alwaysthere, it was just very repressed
and, and I misunderstood itmyself self to the point that I mislabeled
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what I was feeling. I didn'tunderstand that it was anger. When
a manifestor does externalizethe anger, which is part of our genetic
imperative, because theenergy, anger is energy in the body.
Just like frustration andsatisfaction is from this sacral
energy. Anger is this pent upenergy meeting resistance. And so
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it does need to be expelled,but it doesn't need to be expelled
at people, right? Manifest oranger isn't really at people, it's
not personal, it's atresistance. So crying, venting, shouting,
screaming, whatever it is,there's a necessity for the manifestors
to externalize the anger insome physical, energetic way. At
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the root of anger isresistance. So again, when outside
forces interfere with themanifester body being left unbothered
and free to rest and initiate,there will be anger. There's resistance
there and resistance Createsanger. So some different examples
of resistance. Resistance cancome from outside forces attempting
to control or resist themanifestor, from outside forces and
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internal conditioningexpecting a response from a manifestor.
I've spent so much time beingangry at my email inbox in prior
iterations of my life becauseI took on the expectation that I
had to respond to all of thosethings. Now I just don't. Resistance
can come from outside forcesand internal conditioning, expecting
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completion from themanifester. So initiation happens
organically. But manifestersaren't here to complete what we initiate.
But when our conditioning. Welive in a generator world, right?
We are conditioned to believethat we should stick with the thing,
follow through with the thing.That's not correct for the manifestor.
So when outside forces expectus to both offer our very powerful
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gifts of initiation and bringthe thing to completion, and we,
when we take on thatexpectation for ourselves, that's
resistance to our rest. That'sresistance to our natural function
of initiating and thenretreating to rest. Resistance can
come from outside forces andinternal conditioning expecting anything
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from the manifestor.Oftentimes I use the words energetic
leash, Whether people areconscious of it or not, out of an
attempt to control or resistmanifestors, people will try to kind
of. They'll have, like, what Ican feel at this point in my body
as an energetic leash on me,where I can feel that they want me
to do something or want me tonot do something. And even without
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a person saying something,Although often people deliver things
verbally with an energeticundertone of control, I can feel
that. And that feels likeresistance to me because I can feel
that the space I need in frontof me, which is why I have my closed
aura, is getting compromisedby the energetic leash that someone
has on me because they expectsomething specific from me. Resistance
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can come from feeling a deepsense of connection with humanity,
through a deep sense ofconnection with God or with source,
which manifestors have insideof our closed aura. We are informed
by source, the universe, God,however you want to think about it.
That's where our urges comefrom. And we feel a deep sense of
connection to that. We feel asense of connection to that that
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is less diluted as manifestorsthan the other types, specifically
generators and projectors, whoare designed to engage with the interpersonal
conditioning realm at deeperlevels than us. So we feel this deep
sense of connection to all asmanifestors. And that's what we deliver.
We are. We're conduits asmanifestors. So we feel this sense
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of connection, including asense of connection with humanity.
But we have an aura thatcloses us off from the type of interpersonal
connection that 90% of thepopulation generators and projectors
naturally experience with oneanother. And the kind of thing that,
like, really helped connect mewith my anger and with resistance
being at the root of my angeris this real basic, mundane stuff
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at the bottom here. Resistancecan come from red lights, untied
shoes, technologicaltroubleshooting. The times when I
get the most angry, like,looking back at my life, when I get
really angry, it's when Ican't get technology to work and
I have to troubleshoot. Orlike, weird example, but if I've
been in a dressing room andI'm trying to get a shirt off or
a dress off or something, andI've gotten stuck in it, I get just,
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like, so heated angry. So thatstuff, the Untied Shoes is an example
of a manifesto friend I hadwho was like, telling a story about
how there was just, like, allthese obstacles in their way to getting
where they were going onemorning, and them having to stop
and tie their shoes was like,the thing that sent them over the
edge. I bring this stuff upbecause for me, this is how I connected
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to anger. I identified that,like, impatience at these little
obstacles in the way of mejust trying to do the thing in urge
mode and initiation mode, ortrying to get through the things
I have to do in the daybecause I live in a generator world.
Even though I don't haveenergy to do it, I have negative
energy. And I'm using thelittle bits that I have to try to
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meet the needs of the world.And I also have to tie my shoes.
Are you kidding me? Right? AndI also have to sit in traffic. What
these little mundane thingswere, how I first really felt in
an aware way, the frequency ofmy anger at resistance. And then
I was able to recognize it inbigger ways via relationship dynamics
and this energetic leash andexpectation and all of these other
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kind of larger things. And Imentioned impatience because, again,
that was a huge part for me infeeling into my anger. I believe
it was my teacher Alok, who Ifirst and maybe only, only person
I've heard say the anger andpatience are the same frequency.
And when he said that,everything clicked for me. And I
think that's when I started tosee, like, oh, troubleshooting technology
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and getting stuck in clothesin a dressing room. That's when I'm
the most angry. Because thoseare, for whatever reason, the times
that I didn't repress myanger. All the other instances of
resistance and anger that Feellike bigger deals on this slide were
times that for most of mylife, I repressed the anger around
that. I tried to think itaway. I tried to avoid or deny that
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I was feeling that. But withthese mundane things, I allowed myself
to feel it. I allowed thatenergy to move through me. And so
that was my connection. Thatwas my connection point to being
able to feel into and exploreand recognize my anger at these other,
more existential issues.Manifestors get impatient and thus
angry at having to deal withthe outside world. When we're designed
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to move from what's inside ofour aura, only we experience impatience
and thus anger in regards toall of the minor resistances of the
day, all of the responseneeded throughout the day, customer
service, calls, emails, texts,loved ones, cooking, cleaning. Manifestors
were designed to lead. We werethe type people talk about manif,
joke about manifesters beinglike dinosaurs right now because
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we are going extinct accordingto ra, which is a whole other thing.
But we're not the leadersanymore. Manifestors used to dictate,
essentially by saying,initiating, this is what's happening.
And then entire civilizationswould move according to that manifesto's
initiation. So back whenleadership was about initiation,
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which it's not, we're evolvingaway from that, which we'll talk
about when we get toprojectors. But back when, when manifestors
were the leaders, becauseleadership was about initiating,
manifestors used to have anabundance of support from the sacral
beings of the world. This isthe old setup. And manifestors today
are living in the afterworldof our original auric purpose. So
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it makes sense to me thatmanifestors feel angry at everything
we have to do because we'renot designed to have the energy to
do it. And historicallyspeaking, we have had other people
doing those things for us. Itfeels weird to talk about, but it
also just feels so true to meat this point that I can't not talk
about it. Manifestorsexperience impatience and less anger
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and having to explainourselves when everyone else can
feel each other. This issomething that I'm summarizing from
something that I heard Alaqsay in one of my classes. Alakanon
Diaz, an emotional manifestor,was sharing at one point that most
of his anger at this point inhis life comes from having to explain
his feelings. And this is aquote from a class that I took with
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him where he said, do I reallyneed to explain? Don't you feel me?
Don't you want to feel me?There's nothing we are more sensitive
to as manifestors thanresistance. They want you to Go crazy.
They don't want to listen toyou. They want you to explain, but
they don't want to believeyou. Very tiring, irritating. When
I'm trying to explain and youare trying not to understand, that's
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where peace ends. Sometimesthe Not Self Generator or the Not
Self projector or the Not Selfreflector can get frustrated, bitter
or disappointed. The Not Selfthemes of those three types at their
inability to control themanifestor. And so they'll bump up
into the closed aura and feela frustration, a bitterness, a disappointment,
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a resentment in some way, afear mixed in with that of this closed
aura, and decide they makemeaning out of it. Why can't I get
through to you? Why won't youlisten to me? Why can't I control
you? Why can't I feel you? Whycan't I predict you? And they'll
come up with a story, they'llcome up with their own meaning or
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narrative around that thinkingespecially about the extent to which
this happens to manifestorswho have fifth lines and maybe even
second lines, but especiallyfifth lines in their profile, where
it's so easy to project astory onto that manifesto that is
completely cut off from thetruth of what's happening with that
manifester and with yourexchange with them. So this happens
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a lot when the manifester istrying to offer the courtesy of informing,
trying to explain,understanding that you can't feel
what's happening in here. Andthe other person is trying not to
understand because they'vealready come up with a story about
what the sensation of thisclosed aura means, because they don't
get it, they don't understand.And how could they? The closed aura
is a mechanical thing. It'snot up to the manifestor. We are
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not intentionally closing off,but we so often get blamed for that,
for our closed offness andostracized for it. So this just really,
really struck me when I'mtrying to explain and you are trying
not to understand. That'swhere peace ends. Manifestors can
feel impatient and thus angrywhen the not self of the manifestor
attaches to the initiation,seeking to sustain it and bring it
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to completion, when the bodyis actually ready to release it and
rest. I mean, this is like theexistential problem for the manifestor.
The existential suffering forthe manifestor is around being the
only creature, the only of thefour aura types for whom nothing
for them will come from theoutside. Everything has to be initiated
within. And I think for theself manifester, we know that that's
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what brings us peace and yetalong the way, and perhaps even once
deconditioned, there is sortof a sadness, an impatience around
and a loneliness around. Ihave to do everything myself, you
know, and there's narrativesaround that that manifestors can
get hooked into that aresimply not true. We can't do everything
ourselves because we are nonsacral beings. We need the other.
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We and every person,regardless of their design, needs
the other in a way, but on anauric level, like nothing that's
correct for the manifesterwill ever come from outside, from
another being. It will comefrom me initiating it. And there
can be an anger and animpatience because of that. Another
quote from a manifestor namedMartha Delafield on Manifestors threat
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control and anger. Manifestorsare here to have an impact. You're
here to do what you want todo. That kind of independent energy
tends to freak people out. Asa kid, you are likely headstrong
and impulsive and I'm going todo what I want to do kind of kid.
This often means thatmanifesto children experience more
punishment than any othertypes, with parents and teachers
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more likely to want to controlyou. That independent energy, that
closed aura, triggers othersthat feel like you are unpredictable
and out of control. Andsimilarly, from RA, manifestors are
controlled from the momentthat they come into the world because
there is suspicion about themthat stems from this aura contact.
And this control leads to thetheme of anger. Manifestor children
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with this repelling aura mightbe tribal, emotional and collective.
These aren't things we'vestudied a whole lot yet emotional
we have. But those are someelements of many other elements as
well, not listed here, thatmake the manifester want to feel
included, want to feel likepart of things, want to be in connection.
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So you can imagine howdifficult that is. So again, speaking
to the kind of existentialanger of having to do everything
alone, having to initiateeverything myself, even though there
are parts of me that long tobe in connection. They want to be
able to integrate and theycan't. It's why there is all of this
potential anger and tensionthat builds up in the life of the
manifesto child, theconditioned manifester child. Manifestors.
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I know myself, and I haveheard many other manifestors articulate
this in their own veryimpactful, moving ways, often experience
anger at the boundary of theclosed aura, as well as anger towards
the resistance that thisclosed aura presents to living freely
as themselves, which is apure, genuine need for the manifestor
and not an inherently harmfulquality, the fundamental prerogative
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of the vehicle of themanifestor. At this point this is
all review. Manifestors arethe butterfly and the butterfly effect,
the stone toss that initiatesall of the ripples in the pond of
reality. In case you haven'theard of the butterfly effect, here's
a. A property of chaoticsystems such as the atmosphere, by
which small changes in initialconditions can lead to large scale
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and unpredictable variation inthe future state of the system. I
really like thinking ofmanifestors as the butterfly and
the butterfly effects, becausewhile it isn't so simple and straightforward
and linear as generators areonly ever responding to manifestors
who initiate and then in theirresponse inviting projectors who
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are waiting for theirinvitations. It's not that linear.
But all of the ripples throughthe Maya, all of the ripples in the
pond of reality originate atmanifestor initiation. Because manifestors
are the only ones who initiatefrom an internal cue that's not already
out there. The initiation thatmanifesting generators do is happening
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in response to the ripplesthat are already out in the pond
of reality. Manifestorsthemselves are the initial stones
that get tossed, or the tosserof the stones into the pond of reality.
I heard of this law of 10%,which maybe is kind of a stretch,
but I'm just playing with thisidea right now. The law of 10% in
the energy pyramid is think oflike the food chain. Each source
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of food, only 10% of thatenergy from that source of nourishment
makes it into the next levelwhen that part of the food chain
is eaten or consumed by thenext part of the food chain. So kind
of thinking of the 10% roughlyof the, of the collective that is
manifesters. We are that 10%of energy initiating something new,
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bringing in the next mutation,the next stage of evolution into
the reality. And theneverybody responds to it, is invited
into it, guides it in theirown way. But it begins with manifestor
impact. With manifesterinitiation, the manifester pulls
new shapes and trajectories ofreality into the Maya from the void
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space. Manifestors, younaturally pierce through the homogenized
muck of the world and the holein reality that is left in your wake,
through that piercing is spacefor new possibility to fill. You
are a conduit for thisprocess, not a director of it. Manifestors
initiate from a surrenderedstate. We are not in control of what
we initiate any more than agenerator is in control of what they
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respond to. Manifestors, yourclosed aura and your acceptance of
it protects this process. Asgenerators are the keepers of life
force energy, you are thekeepers of the portal for creation.
Your body is the portal forthis creation, this initiation. Maybe
this should have gone inearlier because I've talked about
urges and rest a bit already.But let's just go over it because
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it's here. Rest and quoteurges. What is an urge? Where does
it come from? Some people sayGod, life force, source, inner cues,
all of the above. Manifestorscan explore this question to their
head and Ajna centered delightin whatever ways their definition
or conditioning brings thatquestion in. But essentially the
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important piece, I think, orthe universalization underneath all
of it is that there's aninternal cue communicating to the
manifestor when to initiatethrough this urge. And it has nothing
to do with the ripples thatare already out there. Rest is the
default and urges are theexception. Manifestors are energy
beings. You will hear peopleclassify projectors and reflector
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reflectors. You are non energybeings. Stop trying to do, you are
not here to do. And that'sextremely true. And we will get deep
into that in the reflector andprojector lectures and manifestors.
Because you are an energybeing and because your auric function
has to do with what you do inyour energetic urges, you will often
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be recognized for thatenergetic contribution because it
is your contribution.Initiation is your contribution and
it has to do with energy. Andthat is not your default state. And
so it's. I think it's justvery important for manifestors in
the deconditioning process toremember that you are non sacral,
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you are not consistently usingenergy. Default is your rest. And
then you wait for the urge,the urge shows up. And it's only
in those urges which happensparingly compared to your rest,
that you are actuallyenergized to use energy. I've heard
in multiple places. I'm notsure exactly where it came from.
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I'm not sure if this comesfrom source material. I don't think
I've ever heard Ross say it,but I have heard from multiple other
sources that rest is thedefault and that manifestors are
resting about 80% of the time.And urges that are the exception
and that we're in create modeorganically about 20% of the time.
I don't know how I feel aboutthat because it feels a little homogenizing.
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I think it can depend on manythings, including phases of life.
I kind of sort of understandfor me urges to happen on like multiple
levels. I won't get too intothat right now, but there's like
macro urges and micro urges inmy experience up to this point. Also
manifestors have differentkinds of motors and different amounts
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of motors. I have three motorsin my body graph, some manifestors
have one. So we might bemotorized in urges to different extents,
at different times anddifferent proportions. But generally
speaking, I did want to offerthis because me now about halfway
through my first seven yeardeconditioning cycle, I need so much
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more rest than I thought I didbefore I entered this experiment.
And I needed to hear the 8020which I heard from a manifestor to
initiate me into, to kind ofshock me into. Oh, is that a possibility?
So I wanted to share that withyou all for those of you who are
manifesters to consider thatyou are an energy being, but you
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are a non sacral energy being,which means rest and relaxation as
your default urges do nothappen in response. They come from
the energy in the manifesto'snon sacral motors. So you'll notice
if you are a manifestor, ifyou watch manifestors, that the nature
of their urges is dependent ontheir motor center. If a manifester
has a defined ego, there'swill and heart, willpower and heart
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in their urges. If amanifester has a defined root center,
there is a feeling of liketime to begin that impulse pressure
with their urges. And if amanifesto has a defined solar plexus,
their urges have anemotionalized energy to them, have
an awareness to them. Urgesfrom the ego and the root do not
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have awareness to them ifthere isn't also a defined solar
plexus. The closed auraprotects this process, protects us
from forcing initiationincorrectly in response, and protects
our ability to move in oururges as well as to stay in our rest.
I mentioned in the generatorlecture that I do think there are
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overlapping qualities in theexperience of the manifesting generator
and the manifestor that areworth looking at. So hopefully you've
received my additionalcontextualizing that you are absolutely
a generator with an open andenveloping aura. But within that
umbrella. I do think it can beuseful for manifesting generators
and for all of us toacknowledge the shared experience
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of the motorized throat. Solet's discuss manifesting generators
again in this context of amotorized throat reminder. Manifesting
generators, you wait forresponse, not urges. Your throat
impacts, but your auraenvelops. You do not have a closed
aura. Your aura does not push.Does the motorized throat make the
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MG aura push a little? MaybeVerdict's still out on that for me.
I'm not sure. Like when Ithink about what is. How does an
enveloping aura also impact.It feels like a strong hug, you know,
maybe a little like, I don'tknow, suffocating I don't know if
that's true. It's like a tightsqueeze. It doesn't push away because
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it envelops, but within thatenveloping, that open and enveloping
aura, which is the base octaveof what an MG's energetic field does.
All of our auras contain insmaller levels the definition of
the gates and the channels andthe centers in our aura. And so the
MG aura, while being open andenveloping, it does also have the
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frequency marker of amotorized throat. So does it push
a little bit? I don't knowthat I feel pushed by MG auras, but
I do feel a sort of like liftynature to it. And perhaps another
time, since this lecture isalready so long, I don't want to
include it here. But perhapsanother time I'll bring up. I'll
tell the story of. At an eventI hosted called In Aura where There
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were about 20 human designexperimenters, we did an aura experiment
where each type sat with othertypes to feel just the pure interaction
of those two type auras. I didnotice a difference between the MG
and the generator aura. SoI'll just deliver that piece of the
anecdote right now. Is thatthe generator auras, the pure generators,
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non manifesting auras, theyfelt very buzzy but they felt low.
They brought us like lower tothe ground. Whereas the MG auras,
we felt the same buzz but itwas like a faster buzz and it felt
uplifting, like the energy wasmoving up. So that it's like the
way that that aura envelopsyou, it, the weight of what it moves
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in your body feels differentbut it's not pushing, it's still
enveloping. So manifestors andMGs, what's the same, what's different?
Same is less than what'sdifferent. The same as the motor
to the throat. The expressionfrom these people have power because
the throat center ismotorized. There's consistent impact
through that externalizationand there's a level of independence.
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Different aura type, strategy,signature are all different for mgs.
For manifestors, open versusclosed aura, inconsistent versus
consistent energy expenditure.Manifesting generators are going
pew pew pew with their impact,but they're showing up consistently
because the sacral power ismotorizing it all versus manifestors
are living in this void spacebehind a closed aura and then they
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come out with massive impactand then retreat back to the space.
Satisfaction versus peace.Manifestors are not after satisfaction
and manifesting generators arenot after peace. They need their
satisfaction or their sacralwon't be healthy. And I think of,
you know, generators, I'venoted multiple times, are the carriers
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of life force. Sometimes Ilike to refer to manifesting generators
as the curators because you'recarrying around this power, this
motor that sustains andcarries life force energy with your
defined sacral. But as amanifesting generator, you're also
sort of. Your initiations arealso sort of like trimming and curating
that life force as you go.Right. Versus manifestors. We're
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not carrying it. We come outand we create space for new iterations
of life force. Big impactversus manifesting generator. Impact
is like upkeep throughout. Somgs, as the curator of life force
within their carrying of lifeforce function versus manifestors
are the conduit or the portalfor the impulse for life force energy
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to move or shift or change.Coming back to this phrase, these
key ideas and questions forthe types, generators are here to
know themselves. Theirquestion is, who am I? Projectors
are here to know the other.Their question is, who are they?
Manifestors are here to knowtheir impact. The question is, what
is my impact? How do I impact?Reflectors are here to know their
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differentiation. Who isdifferent? Ra says a manifestor has
the ability to move its energyinto action. It is an energy type.
The illusion that people haveabout manifestors is that they can
do whatever they want. Well,they can't. It's just an illusion.
Manifestors tend to operate ontheir own. And in operating on their
own, they tend to look to theoutsider like they're taking their
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own action. In fact, likeeverybody else, we are all reactive.
We are all reacting to theimpulse. None of us are in control
of the process. However, itcertainly looks like the manifestors
are able to take theinitiative. So if you think about
this in regards to the themeof manifestors so often being attempted
to be controlled by the other,this is all connected to that. Others,
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out of their own sense of lackof control, project onto the manifestor
that the manifester is incontrol because the manifester is
the only one that cannot becontrolled. Designed to not be influenced.
But actually manifestors, inorder to be in alignment, in order
to reach their signature ofpeace, need to be as surrendered
as any other type issurrendered to their process. It's
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just that the process, themechanical strategy for the manifestor,
is coming from internal cues.So it can look like it's happening
on its own accord. It's not.It's just as much a surrendering
to the geometry, to the shape,to the dance of life. It just enters
the manifesto's bodydifferently. We are all reactive.
In other words, we are allhelpless equally so we are all reacting
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to the impulse. Manifestorsget the impulse inside the closed
aura. Everybody else gets itfrom the outside world. Here's my
little empowerment insummation for the manifestors. Manifestors
will deal with the theme ofrejection throughout their life.
Manifestors will deal withostracization throughout their life.
It's simply the nature of themechanics of the closed aura interacting
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with the not self. WorldAwareness for the manifestor, is
in understanding, watching andsurrendering to the mechanics of
the closed aura withoutattempting to interfere with those
mechanics or assigning mentalmeaning to them. When we try to make
meaning out of our rejectionas manifestors, when we try to take
blame or place blame on othersfor the inevitable mechanics of our
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auras, we only perpetuate oursuffering. People will be repelled.
People will be threatened.People will not understand what's
happening inside of our closedaura if we don't inform them. And
that is no one's fault. It'snot your fault if you repel people.
It's not their fault. It'sjust the mechanics. It's not personal,
it's mechanics. This issomething that is said often in human
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design for everything. It'snot personal, it's mechanics. Manifestors,
you have likely beenconditioned to perform openness in
attempts to feel that youbelong and attempts to put others
at ease in your presence sothat you can belong when you're at
peace. Your big impacting aurapushes peace out into the world it
impacts peacefully. Even then,some will feel discomfort at their
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sense that you will impactthem and they cannot control or predict
how, but that discomfort istheir trip to tend to, not yours.
Manifesters. Just as you wishfor others to let go of attempts
to control you, you must letgo of your attempts to control others
reactions to you. Divest fromthis performance of openness and
the futile attempts to manageyour impact. Instead, invest in your
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peace and experiment withinforming and relax into the spaciousness
that that creates in your life.
Thanks for listening to theLiving Your Desig podcast. Stay
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Neutral information trulyfeels wildly better for the Manifesto's
mechanics than putting them inresponse or asking questions, because
it gives them the opportunityto show up in relationship to you
in ways that they may verymuch want to without requiring them
to compromise their geneticimperative of initiating and not
responding. And so it feelsreally good to be informed of what
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could showing up in supportiveyou look like, but then not being
necessarily held to thatspecific expectation because now
I have the freedom to do so ina way that is mechanically correct
for me. That literally doesn'thurt my body. That actually feels
good and relaxed andsupportive and autonomous in my own
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This episode is part two of mylecture on the Manifestor Type. Check
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Resistance is the root ofanger and informing can alleviate
resistance, thus informing asthe manifester strategy. While not
organic, it is still verypractical. Here are some examples
of informing I'm goingupstairs to read. When I first started
practicing informing, I livedwith my partner who I live with now
and we also had a temporaryroommate for a few months. They're
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both generators and rememberThinking it was so weird to have
to narrate something likethat. But you could feel when a manifester
leaves the room, you feel theabsence. You feel it move. It pushes
the energy on its way out. Andagain, it can just kind of put people
at ease to know where you'regoing, are they going to come back?
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When are they going to comeback? Right? So, again, offering
the courtesy in if, if itfeels correct for the manifestor,
if it feels that it outweighsthe benefits, outweigh the potential
annoyance of having to do it,then just simply informing of your
basic movement throughout thehouse, your basic movement throughout
the room, going to thebathroom if you're with someone,
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if you're at a restaurant.Another example of manifestor informing,
tomorrow I'm going to get outof the house for a bit. There are
two times that I did this inmy recent past that I had to, like,
kind of work myself up to,which is silly to think about, but
I, like, really went through awhole process in working myself up
to being able to say that. Onewas maybe close to a year ago now.
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I was on a family vacationwith my partner, my brother and his
family, and I was in a townacross the country from where I live.
It was only a couple of hoursfrom a really close friend of mine
that I know from online. And Iwanted to go meet up with this friend
in person because we had onlyever hung out in person once. I was
very close with them, and Ijust felt like I was going to. I,
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I. My conditioning and myhistory with my mom was such that
I was very worried aboutasking her if she would be okay with
my leaving for almost a wholeday because there was a drive associated
both ways to go see thisfriend. And I was, as I was processing
this with my partner, I waslike, wait a minute. I'm not designed
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to ask for permission. I'mdesigned to follow the urges of my
body, to do what I want, andto inform people of what's happening.
So I told my partner, I'mgonna try just informing my mom that
I'm going there in a couple ofdays, rather than asking if it's
okay or kind of dancing aroundit. And it was so wild to see how
informing just made everythinggo smoother. I don't know that my
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mom liked it or not, but byinforming, I didn't put myself in
a position where I had torespond to whether or not she liked
it. I remember she was like,changing the trash, changing the
bag in the kitchen trash. AndI just said, hey, Mom, I have a friend
that lives a couple hours awayand on Saturday I'm going to leave
for a while to go see them.And my mom was a little surprised
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and she was like, okay. And sojust really interesting to me because
my conditioning says that Ican't do that. I can't do things
that will have impact onpeople that they don't like. So I
have to like, try to wiggleand force and distort my auric imperative,
my genetic imperative, bytrying to meet other people's needs,
which is just so twisted andincorrect for the manifester. And
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so a weird thing that I'mnoticing is that even if it feels
uncomfortable to me, even ifmy conditioning, my mind so says,
like, this isn't okay, this isselfish. It literally puts everyone
at ease when the manifesterinformed. Another example of this
was I was out of town helpinga friend with some health stuff recently
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and they were very anxiousabout being left alone at the house.
And I just knew I needed somefreedom. I knew I needed to leave.
I had other friends in thattown that I wanted to visit. And
so when I could feel theanxiety coming up, when I could feel
that they really did not, Ihad left once and I could feel and
they had articulated that theydid not want me to leave again, I
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said, okay, well, I'm gonnaleave the house again tomorrow. I'm
gonna need at least a littlebit of free time. And so, you know,
if you need someone else tocome by, you can reach out to someone
else. And I, I didn't feel asscared this time as I did the time
with my mom that I just cited.But I did feel there. My mental narrative
around it was, this is rude ofme, but it literally put everything
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at ease. Cause this is justwhat's happening. And now that person
has the opportunity to usetheir own autonomy in regards to
if or how that affects theirapproach to something. It's so funny
talking about this stuff. Ifeel like I just sound so silly.
But perhaps it's useful forother manifestors because I'm a manifester
nearly four years into myexperiment, and in a lot of ways
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I'm just starting to get thehang of informing. The conditioning
around informing and doingwhat we want and really exercising
our autonomy for themanifestor can be so thick, especially
I think, for manifestors thatwere assigned female at birth and
raised as women and girls.Another example of manifestor informing,
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I'm starting to feel depletedand will be taking some time to not
respond. I'm not going toanswer my Emails for the next bit
of time. I used to say likeI'm not going to look at emails for
the rest of the week. Now I'mjust like, I'm not looking at emails
right now because I don't knowwhen, when I'll have the urge to
look again. I'm starting toget bored of X, Y, Z. So if you have
a certain like habit orroutine with someone and you're starting
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to feel that like this isn'tworking for me anymore because once
things get stagnant formanifestors, they don't feel good.
We're here for initiating andthen we retreat and then we initiate
something new and then weretreat. So just this one maybe is
more of an emotional manifestothing because splenic and ego manifestors
tend to move quickly becausethose authority centers function
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moment to moment where theemotional authority center takes
time to process. So this oneis maybe a little more specific to
emotional manifestors, butjust letting people know like what
are you in process with? Sothat they have a heads up that like
things might change soon, thismanifester might change direction
or pull away or blah blah blahsoon. And similarly speaking I'm
considering insert life orsituation change. For many manifestors
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this can seem selfish,uncomfortable, annoying, unnatural.
Experiment with it and seewhat works for you. And we talked
about in the generator lecturethere was a little bit about like
relating to generators. And soI want to talk here about how do
we talk to our manifestors?How do we talk with other manifestors
if we are manifestor? And soin addition to manifestors having
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this strategy of informing, Iwant to note this has been extremely
useful for me in my closerelationships. Manifestors like to
be neutrally informed too.Neutral information is offering information
without having an expectationfor if or how the manifesto will
respond. And neutralinformation also means information
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being offered in a way that isnot trying to control the manifesto
or the outcome. When we informmanifestors, we are again giving
them the opportunity to relateto us in integrity with their auric
function. And integrity forthe manifestor means moving into
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things on their own terms,conversing on their own terms, acting
according to their own body'srest and initiation cycle. So offering
neutral information gives themanifester an opportunity to initiate
with the information in mindof whatever it is you want to tell
them. It can be feel likeelementary to play with this adjustment
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of language. But I can tellyou that as a manifester these subtle
shifts feel extremelydifferent in my body Example, can
you pick up some eggs on yourway home? You see that Puts a manifesto
immediately in response.Something that might feel better
to a manifestor is, we ran outof eggs yesterday. Just let them
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know if it's correct for themanifestor to go get some eggs. They
will, right? If you miss yourmanifestor friend, instead of, can
you hang out this weekend,maybe just informing them, I've got
some free time this weekend,instead of, can you help me unload
the groceries? I'll be home in15 minutes and there's a lot to unload.
Right. It feels silly, but I'mtelling you, as a manifester, the
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energy of it hitting my bodyfeels so different. Like I'm literally,
like, relaxing as I read thesesecond things. And it's. It's often
said that manifesters don'tlike questions. So rather than asking
a question, just neutrallyinforming the manifestor. I've been
wondering about X, Y, Z. Therewas a while, there was a long while
where I didn't feel like Irelated to the idea of manifestors
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not liking questions,partially because, like, I love talking,
so I love talking aboutmyself. I love talking about how
I see the world. And questionsoften feel like opportunities for
me to do that. But the more Idecondition and through having some
conversations with othermanifester friends, I have started
to realize that there is a. Alittle bit of an aversion to questions
and that it does feel betterto know the kinds of things that
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people want to hear about sothat I can initiate talking about
them on my own terms. And hada conversation in particular with
my friend vaness Henry, who'sa 6:2 ego manifester. And I was asking
Vanessa, do you likequestions? And Vanessa was like,
I think I said, do you likequestions? I asked Vanessa question,
and Vanessa said, I don't likequestions. And we talked about it
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a little bit, and the way thatVanessa articulated it made a lot
of sense to me. And I've sincekind of watched this be the case
for myself as well. Vanessasaid that they like it when they
don't mind it, when questionsare just kind of posed to the universe.
And I realized that that'skind of how I tend to just engage
with questions in general. Sowhen people ask questions, I tend
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to approach them as like, oh,a question for the universe. I will
answer it in how. What,however way feels good to me rather
than in a direct response tohow you're asking it. And I have
this little asterisk up herefor manifestors like to be neutrally
informed too, becausegenerally speaking, the more that
you can wait for a manifestorto initiate with you rather than
you initiate with them, thesmoother the mechanics of the interaction
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will be for everyone. Soyou'll notice that like a lot of
this stuff is pretty neutralstuff. You know, you're some, you're
wondering about something, youcould use some help getting groceries
out of the car, somebody needsto go get eggs. You know, these aren't
hefty things. These aremundane things that most manifestors
have to deal with. Because welive in a world with others, we have
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relationships which we want tohave with others. But when it comes
to like big things, like goingout on a date, starting a new relationship,
starting a collaboration,generally speaking, allowing the
manifesto to move towards youor towards that collaboration or
towards that relationship isgoing to set the parameters up for
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a better connection for bothparties. It's still something that
I feel kind of weird talkingabout because it's so. It so challenges
my orientation towardssocialization and how I've been socialized.
And there's aspects of my notself that want to be invited, that
want to feel safe, and thatwant other people to initiate with
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me. So I know that I am wantedhere. And in the same vein, I have
noticed over time that itreally does feel better to me when
I initiate with people. I do,however, though enjoy being informed
of my impact, informed of howpeople relate to me, what they appreciate
about me, because that doesmake me feel safe, safer to initiate.
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So just an idea to play withthese, this idea of neutral information
for the manifestors and noticeif you have manifestors in your life
that are close to you, noticeif you play with this, as you play
with this, start to noticewhen you're delivering neutral information,
where do you actually have anintent to control how that manifester
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responds? Where do youactually have an expectation for
that manifestor and realizethat you simply having an expectation
for that manifestor isenergetically compromising their
ability to show up in waysthat are correct for both of you
in the container of yourrelationship or in the container
of that interaction. Insummation, neutral information truly
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feels wildly better for themanifesto's mechanics than putting
them in response or askingquestions, because it gives them
the opportunity to show up inrelationship to you in ways that
they may very much want to,without requiring them to compromise
their genetic imperative ofinitiating and not responding. So,
for example, I love mypartner. I love him and I want to
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do things for him. I want himto feel loved by me, I want him to
feel supported by me. I wantus to feel like a team. So I appreciate
Knowing what things he isperceiving need to be done. I appreciate
knowing how I could show upfor him, using my partner as an example.
This is my primaryrelationship. But I feel this way
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about all of my loved ones,all of my students, all of my clients,
everyone I work with. I wantto show up in support of you, but
I need to do it on my ownterms. And so it feels really good
to be informed of what couldshowing up in support of you look
like, but then not beingnecessarily held to that specific
expectation, because now Ihave the freedom to do so in a way
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that is mechanically correctfor me, that literally doesn't hurt
my body, that actually feelsgood and relaxed and supportive and
autonomous in my own body. Forthe Manifestor, authority takes the
front seat because themanifester is the only type whose
strategy is not mechanical.The authority becomes the mechanical
basis for how, when and withwhom to utilize the strategy to inform
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or not, as well as to initiateor not. Manifestors move or not according
to their authority, emotional,splenic or ego, and inform ahead
of and or as those movementstake place. Again, informing is not
demanding. It's simply sayingthis is what seems to be happening.
So as I notice my body doingcertain things, moving away from
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things, towards things,initiating, not initiating, I just
inform to whoever's around meor to whoever it is that I perceive
will be impacted by my actionor non action. This is what seems
to be happening, because theycannot sense that from inside of
my closed aura. And yeah, RAtalks a lot about how, because the
strategy for manifestors isartificial on a mechanical basis,
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where for everyone else it'sstrategy and authority, strategy
and authority, strategy at thefront and then authority sort of
helping you navigate thatprocess. For the Manifester, it's
authority. Our authority iswhat moves us and then we inform
as needed. So what is peace?Similarly to how I articulated earlier
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on that the open andenveloping aura for the generator
is so simple to understand thewhy of it, because it's all based
on the sacral mechanics.Satisfaction and frustration are
also completely based on thesacral mechanics. So as we get into
the other three types and weask ourselves these questions of
what is the signature of peacefor the manifestor and the not self
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of anger, it might not feel aslike simple and clear mechanically
as satisfaction andfrustration do, but we'll still break
it down a bit. And it'severything we've talked about up
to this point is hopefully afoundation for this question. So
peace, the manifester body,left unbothered and free has its
peace. Manifestors aredesigned to be in a default state
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of autonomous rest. We feelpeaceful there. And from this default
state, manifestors receivethese internal impulses from our
motor centers, urges to moveand to act on our own accord. When
the manifester is able to restautonomously, there is peace. When
the manifester is able toinitiate freely without resistance,
there is, there is peace. Thebody left unbothered and free, has
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its peace. However, whenoutside forces interfere with the
manifestor, there will beanger. And the manifester might externalize
this anger at suchinterference and, or the mind will
hijack the natural energeticflow of anger via again the narratives
of the not self and theopenness in the manifester. And instead
of allowing that anger to flowthrough the manifester, through the
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throat to be expressed, theanger will be repressed and the anger
will be internalized. So a lotof times for manifestors, again,
I think potentially more oftenmanifestors that are assigned female
at birth and conditioned aswomen and girls, as well as non white
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manifestors, people of color,specifically black people of color,
who are manifestors,specifically, specifically black
women, that anger, because ofthe conditioning on our gender, on
our race, can result in a lotmore of repression of the anger as
well. And so if that's thecase, if a lot of the anger has been
repressed, then manifestersmight not even connect with the idea
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that we have anger. It took meprobably a year and a half, maybe
two years of my deconditioningjourney to like really feel what
my anger was. And then once Istarted feeling it, I never stopped
feeling it, but it was alwaysthere, it was just very repressed
and, and I misunderstood itmyself self to the point that I mislabeled
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what I was feeling. I didn'tunderstand that it was anger. When
a manifestor does externalizethe anger, which is part of our genetic
imperative, because theenergy, anger is energy in the body.
Just like frustration andsatisfaction is from this sacral
energy. Anger is this pent upenergy meeting resistance. And so
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it does need to be expelled,but it doesn't need to be expelled
at people, right? Manifest oranger isn't really at people, it's
not personal, it's atresistance. So crying, venting, shouting,
screaming, whatever it is,there's a necessity for the manifestors
to externalize the anger insome physical, energetic way. At
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the root of anger isresistance. So again, when outside
forces interfere with themanifester body being left unbothered
and free to rest and initiate,there will be anger. There's resistance
there and resistance Createsanger. So some different examples
of resistance. Resistance cancome from outside forces attempting
to control or resist themanifestor, from outside forces and
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internal conditioningexpecting a response from a manifestor.
I've spent so much time beingangry at my email inbox in prior
iterations of my life becauseI took on the expectation that I
had to respond to all of thosethings. Now I just don't. Resistance
can come from outside forcesand internal conditioning, expecting
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completion from themanifester. So initiation happens
organically. But manifestersaren't here to complete what we initiate.
But when our conditioning. Welive in a generator world, right?
We are conditioned to believethat we should stick with the thing,
follow through with the thing.That's not correct for the manifestor.
So when outside forces expectus to both offer our very powerful
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gifts of initiation and bringthe thing to completion, and we,
when we take on thatexpectation for ourselves, that's
resistance to our rest. That'sresistance to our natural function
of initiating and thenretreating to rest. Resistance can
come from outside forces andinternal conditioning expecting anything
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from the manifestor.Oftentimes I use the words energetic
leash, Whether people areconscious of it or not, out of an
attempt to control or resistmanifestors, people will try to kind
of. They'll have, like, what Ican feel at this point in my body
as an energetic leash on me,where I can feel that they want me
to do something or want me tonot do something. And even without
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a person saying something,Although often people deliver things
verbally with an energeticundertone of control, I can feel
that. And that feels likeresistance to me because I can feel
that the space I need in frontof me, which is why I have my closed
aura, is getting compromisedby the energetic leash that someone
has on me because they expectsomething specific from me. Resistance
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can come from feeling a deepsense of connection with humanity,
through a deep sense ofconnection with God or with source,
which manifestors have insideof our closed aura. We are informed
by source, the universe, God,however you want to think about it.
That's where our urges comefrom. And we feel a deep sense of
connection to that. We feel asense of connection to that that
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is less diluted as manifestorsthan the other types, specifically
generators and projectors, whoare designed to engage with the interpersonal
conditioning realm at deeperlevels than us. So we feel this deep
sense of connection to all asmanifestors. And that's what we deliver.
We are. We're conduits asmanifestors. So we feel this sense
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of connection, including asense of connection with humanity.
But we have an aura thatcloses us off from the type of interpersonal
connection that 90% of thepopulation generators and projectors
naturally experience with oneanother. And the kind of thing that,
like, really helped connect mewith my anger and with resistance
being at the root of my angeris this real basic, mundane stuff
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at the bottom here. Resistancecan come from red lights, untied
shoes, technologicaltroubleshooting. The times when I
get the most angry, like,looking back at my life, when I get
really angry, it's when Ican't get technology to work and
I have to troubleshoot. Orlike, weird example, but if I've
been in a dressing room andI'm trying to get a shirt off or
a dress off or something, andI've gotten stuck in it, I get just,
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like, so heated angry. So thatstuff, the Untied Shoes is an example
of a manifesto friend I hadwho was like, telling a story about
how there was just, like, allthese obstacles in their way to getting
where they were going onemorning, and them having to stop
and tie their shoes was like,the thing that sent them over the
edge. I bring this stuff upbecause for me, this is how I connected
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to anger. I identified that,like, impatience at these little
obstacles in the way of mejust trying to do the thing in urge
mode and initiation mode, ortrying to get through the things
I have to do in the daybecause I live in a generator world.
Even though I don't haveenergy to do it, I have negative
energy. And I'm using thelittle bits that I have to try to
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meet the needs of the world.And I also have to tie my shoes.
Are you kidding me? Right? AndI also have to sit in traffic. What
these little mundane thingswere, how I first really felt in
an aware way, the frequency ofmy anger at resistance. And then
I was able to recognize it inbigger ways via relationship dynamics
and this energetic leash andexpectation and all of these other
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kind of larger things. And Imentioned impatience because, again,
that was a huge part for me infeeling into my anger. I believe
it was my teacher Alok, who Ifirst and maybe only, only person
I've heard say the anger andpatience are the same frequency.
And when he said that,everything clicked for me. And I
think that's when I started tosee, like, oh, troubleshooting technology
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and getting stuck in clothesin a dressing room. That's when I'm
the most angry. Because thoseare, for whatever reason, the times
that I didn't repress myanger. All the other instances of
resistance and anger that Feellike bigger deals on this slide were
times that for most of mylife, I repressed the anger around
that. I tried to think itaway. I tried to avoid or deny that
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I was feeling that. But withthese mundane things, I allowed myself
to feel it. I allowed thatenergy to move through me. And so
that was my connection. Thatwas my connection point to being
able to feel into and exploreand recognize my anger at these other,
more existential issues.Manifestors get impatient and thus
angry at having to deal withthe outside world. When we're designed
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to move from what's inside ofour aura, only we experience impatience
and thus anger in regards toall of the minor resistances of the
day, all of the responseneeded throughout the day, customer
service, calls, emails, texts,loved ones, cooking, cleaning. Manifestors
were designed to lead. We werethe type people talk about manif,
joke about manifesters beinglike dinosaurs right now because
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we are going extinct accordingto ra, which is a whole other thing.
But we're not the leadersanymore. Manifestors used to dictate,
essentially by saying,initiating, this is what's happening.
And then entire civilizationswould move according to that manifesto's
initiation. So back whenleadership was about initiation,
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which it's not, we're evolvingaway from that, which we'll talk
about when we get toprojectors. But back when, when manifestors
were the leaders, becauseleadership was about initiating,
manifestors used to have anabundance of support from the sacral
beings of the world. This isthe old setup. And manifestors today
are living in the afterworldof our original auric purpose. So
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it makes sense to me thatmanifestors feel angry at everything
we have to do because we'renot designed to have the energy to
do it. And historicallyspeaking, we have had other people
doing those things for us. Itfeels weird to talk about, but it
also just feels so true to meat this point that I can't not talk
about it. Manifestorsexperience impatience and less anger
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and having to explainourselves when everyone else can
feel each other. This issomething that I'm summarizing from
something that I heard Alaqsay in one of my classes. Alakanon
Diaz, an emotional manifestor,was sharing at one point that most
of his anger at this point inhis life comes from having to explain
his feelings. And this is aquote from a class that I took with
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him where he said, do I reallyneed to explain? Don't you feel me?
Don't you want to feel me?There's nothing we are more sensitive
to as manifestors thanresistance. They want you to Go crazy.
They don't want to listen toyou. They want you to explain, but
they don't want to believeyou. Very tiring, irritating. When
I'm trying to explain and youare trying not to understand, that's
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where peace ends. Sometimesthe Not Self Generator or the Not
Self projector or the Not Selfreflector can get frustrated, bitter
or disappointed. The Not Selfthemes of those three types at their
inability to control themanifestor. And so they'll bump up
into the closed aura and feela frustration, a bitterness, a disappointment,
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a resentment in some way, afear mixed in with that of this closed
aura, and decide they makemeaning out of it. Why can't I get
through to you? Why won't youlisten to me? Why can't I control
you? Why can't I feel you? Whycan't I predict you? And they'll
come up with a story, they'llcome up with their own meaning or
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narrative around that thinkingespecially about the extent to which
this happens to manifestorswho have fifth lines and maybe even
second lines, but especiallyfifth lines in their profile, where
it's so easy to project astory onto that manifesto that is
completely cut off from thetruth of what's happening with that
manifester and with yourexchange with them. So this happens
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a lot when the manifester istrying to offer the courtesy of informing,
trying to explain,understanding that you can't feel
what's happening in here. Andthe other person is trying not to
understand because they'vealready come up with a story about
what the sensation of thisclosed aura means, because they don't
get it, they don't understand.And how could they? The closed aura
is a mechanical thing. It'snot up to the manifestor. We are
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not intentionally closing off,but we so often get blamed for that,
for our closed offness andostracized for it. So this just really,
really struck me when I'mtrying to explain and you are trying
not to understand. That'swhere peace ends. Manifestors can
feel impatient and thus angrywhen the not self of the manifestor
attaches to the initiation,seeking to sustain it and bring it
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to completion, when the bodyis actually ready to release it and
rest. I mean, this is like theexistential problem for the manifestor.
The existential suffering forthe manifestor is around being the
only creature, the only of thefour aura types for whom nothing
for them will come from theoutside. Everything has to be initiated
within. And I think for theself manifester, we know that that's
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what brings us peace and yetalong the way, and perhaps even once
deconditioned, there is sortof a sadness, an impatience around
and a loneliness around. Ihave to do everything myself, you
know, and there's narrativesaround that that manifestors can
get hooked into that aresimply not true. We can't do everything
ourselves because we are nonsacral beings. We need the other.
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We and every person,regardless of their design, needs
the other in a way, but on anauric level, like nothing that's
correct for the manifesterwill ever come from outside, from
another being. It will comefrom me initiating it. And there
can be an anger and animpatience because of that. Another
quote from a manifestor namedMartha Delafield on Manifestors threat
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control and anger. Manifestorsare here to have an impact. You're
here to do what you want todo. That kind of independent energy
tends to freak people out. Asa kid, you are likely headstrong
and impulsive and I'm going todo what I want to do kind of kid.
This often means thatmanifesto children experience more
punishment than any othertypes, with parents and teachers
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more likely to want to controlyou. That independent energy, that
closed aura, triggers othersthat feel like you are unpredictable
and out of control. Andsimilarly, from RA, manifestors are
controlled from the momentthat they come into the world because
there is suspicion about themthat stems from this aura contact.
And this control leads to thetheme of anger. Manifestor children
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with this repelling aura mightbe tribal, emotional and collective.
These aren't things we'vestudied a whole lot yet emotional
we have. But those are someelements of many other elements as
well, not listed here, thatmake the manifester want to feel
included, want to feel likepart of things, want to be in connection.
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So you can imagine howdifficult that is. So again, speaking
to the kind of existentialanger of having to do everything
alone, having to initiateeverything myself, even though there
are parts of me that long tobe in connection. They want to be
able to integrate and theycan't. It's why there is all of this
potential anger and tensionthat builds up in the life of the
manifesto child, theconditioned manifester child. Manifestors.
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I know myself, and I haveheard many other manifestors articulate
this in their own veryimpactful, moving ways, often experience
anger at the boundary of theclosed aura, as well as anger towards
the resistance that thisclosed aura presents to living freely
as themselves, which is apure, genuine need for the manifestor
and not an inherently harmfulquality, the fundamental prerogative
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of the vehicle of themanifestor. At this point this is
all review. Manifestors arethe butterfly and the butterfly effect,
the stone toss that initiatesall of the ripples in the pond of
reality. In case you haven'theard of the butterfly effect, here's
a. A property of chaoticsystems such as the atmosphere, by
which small changes in initialconditions can lead to large scale
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and unpredictable variation inthe future state of the system. I
really like thinking ofmanifestors as the butterfly and
the butterfly effects, becausewhile it isn't so simple and straightforward
and linear as generators areonly ever responding to manifestors
who initiate and then in theirresponse inviting projectors who
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are waiting for theirinvitations. It's not that linear.
But all of the ripples throughthe Maya, all of the ripples in the
pond of reality originate atmanifestor initiation. Because manifestors
are the only ones who initiatefrom an internal cue that's not already
out there. The initiation thatmanifesting generators do is happening
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in response to the ripplesthat are already out in the pond
of reality. Manifestorsthemselves are the initial stones
that get tossed, or the tosserof the stones into the pond of reality.
I heard of this law of 10%,which maybe is kind of a stretch,
but I'm just playing with thisidea right now. The law of 10% in
the energy pyramid is think oflike the food chain. Each source
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of food, only 10% of thatenergy from that source of nourishment
makes it into the next levelwhen that part of the food chain
is eaten or consumed by thenext part of the food chain. So kind
of thinking of the 10% roughlyof the, of the collective that is
manifesters. We are that 10%of energy initiating something new,
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bringing in the next mutation,the next stage of evolution into
the reality. And theneverybody responds to it, is invited
into it, guides it in theirown way. But it begins with manifestor
impact. With manifesterinitiation, the manifester pulls
new shapes and trajectories ofreality into the Maya from the void
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space. Manifestors, younaturally pierce through the homogenized
muck of the world and the holein reality that is left in your wake,
through that piercing is spacefor new possibility to fill. You
are a conduit for thisprocess, not a director of it. Manifestors
initiate from a surrenderedstate. We are not in control of what
we initiate any more than agenerator is in control of what they
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respond to. Manifestors, yourclosed aura and your acceptance of
it protects this process. Asgenerators are the keepers of life
force energy, you are thekeepers of the portal for creation.
Your body is the portal forthis creation, this initiation. Maybe
this should have gone inearlier because I've talked about
urges and rest a bit already.But let's just go over it because
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it's here. Rest and quoteurges. What is an urge? Where does
it come from? Some people sayGod, life force, source, inner cues,
all of the above. Manifestorscan explore this question to their
head and Ajna centered delightin whatever ways their definition
or conditioning brings thatquestion in. But essentially the
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important piece, I think, orthe universalization underneath all
of it is that there's aninternal cue communicating to the
manifestor when to initiatethrough this urge. And it has nothing
to do with the ripples thatare already out there. Rest is the
default and urges are theexception. Manifestors are energy
beings. You will hear peopleclassify projectors and reflector
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reflectors. You are non energybeings. Stop trying to do, you are
not here to do. And that'sextremely true. And we will get deep
into that in the reflector andprojector lectures and manifestors.
Because you are an energybeing and because your auric function
has to do with what you do inyour energetic urges, you will often
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be recognized for thatenergetic contribution because it
is your contribution.Initiation is your contribution and
it has to do with energy. Andthat is not your default state. And
so it's. I think it's justvery important for manifestors in
the deconditioning process toremember that you are non sacral,
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you are not consistently usingenergy. Default is your rest. And
then you wait for the urge,the urge shows up. And it's only
in those urges which happensparingly compared to your rest,
that you are actuallyenergized to use energy. I've heard
in multiple places. I'm notsure exactly where it came from.
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I'm not sure if this comesfrom source material. I don't think
I've ever heard Ross say it,but I have heard from multiple other
sources that rest is thedefault and that manifestors are
resting about 80% of the time.And urges that are the exception
and that we're in create modeorganically about 20% of the time.
I don't know how I feel aboutthat because it feels a little homogenizing.
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I think it can depend on manythings, including phases of life.
I kind of sort of understandfor me urges to happen on like multiple
levels. I won't get too intothat right now, but there's like
macro urges and micro urges inmy experience up to this point. Also
manifestors have differentkinds of motors and different amounts
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of motors. I have three motorsin my body graph, some manifestors
have one. So we might bemotorized in urges to different extents,
at different times anddifferent proportions. But generally
speaking, I did want to offerthis because me now about halfway
through my first seven yeardeconditioning cycle, I need so much
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more rest than I thought I didbefore I entered this experiment.
And I needed to hear the 8020which I heard from a manifestor to
initiate me into, to kind ofshock me into. Oh, is that a possibility?
So I wanted to share that withyou all for those of you who are
manifesters to consider thatyou are an energy being, but you
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are a non sacral energy being,which means rest and relaxation as
your default urges do nothappen in response. They come from
the energy in the manifesto'snon sacral motors. So you'll notice
if you are a manifestor, ifyou watch manifestors, that the nature
of their urges is dependent ontheir motor center. If a manifester
has a defined ego, there'swill and heart, willpower and heart
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in their urges. If amanifester has a defined root center,
there is a feeling of liketime to begin that impulse pressure
with their urges. And if amanifesto has a defined solar plexus,
their urges have anemotionalized energy to them, have
an awareness to them. Urgesfrom the ego and the root do not
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have awareness to them ifthere isn't also a defined solar
plexus. The closed auraprotects this process, protects us
from forcing initiationincorrectly in response, and protects
our ability to move in oururges as well as to stay in our rest.
I mentioned in the generatorlecture that I do think there are
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overlapping qualities in theexperience of the manifesting generator
and the manifestor that areworth looking at. So hopefully you've
received my additionalcontextualizing that you are absolutely
a generator with an open andenveloping aura. But within that
umbrella. I do think it can beuseful for manifesting generators
and for all of us toacknowledge the shared experience
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of the motorized throat. Solet's discuss manifesting generators
again in this context of amotorized throat reminder. Manifesting
generators, you wait forresponse, not urges. Your throat
impacts, but your auraenvelops. You do not have a closed
aura. Your aura does not push.Does the motorized throat make the
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MG aura push a little? MaybeVerdict's still out on that for me.
I'm not sure. Like when Ithink about what is. How does an
enveloping aura also impact.It feels like a strong hug, you know,
maybe a little like, I don'tknow, suffocating I don't know if
that's true. It's like a tightsqueeze. It doesn't push away because
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it envelops, but within thatenveloping, that open and enveloping
aura, which is the base octaveof what an MG's energetic field does.
All of our auras contain insmaller levels the definition of
the gates and the channels andthe centers in our aura. And so the
MG aura, while being open andenveloping, it does also have the
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frequency marker of amotorized throat. So does it push
a little bit? I don't knowthat I feel pushed by MG auras, but
I do feel a sort of like liftynature to it. And perhaps another
time, since this lecture isalready so long, I don't want to
include it here. But perhapsanother time I'll bring up. I'll
tell the story of. At an eventI hosted called In Aura where There
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were about 20 human designexperimenters, we did an aura experiment
where each type sat with othertypes to feel just the pure interaction
of those two type auras. I didnotice a difference between the MG
and the generator aura. SoI'll just deliver that piece of the
anecdote right now. Is thatthe generator auras, the pure generators,
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non manifesting auras, theyfelt very buzzy but they felt low.
They brought us like lower tothe ground. Whereas the MG auras,
we felt the same buzz but itwas like a faster buzz and it felt
uplifting, like the energy wasmoving up. So that it's like the
way that that aura envelopsyou, it, the weight of what it moves
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in your body feels differentbut it's not pushing, it's still
enveloping. So manifestors andMGs, what's the same, what's different?
Same is less than what'sdifferent. The same as the motor
to the throat. The expressionfrom these people have power because
the throat center ismotorized. There's consistent impact
through that externalizationand there's a level of independence.
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Different aura type, strategy,signature are all different for mgs.
For manifestors, open versusclosed aura, inconsistent versus
consistent energy expenditure.Manifesting generators are going
pew pew pew with their impact,but they're showing up consistently
because the sacral power ismotorizing it all versus manifestors
are living in this void spacebehind a closed aura and then they
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come out with massive impactand then retreat back to the space.
Satisfaction versus peace.Manifestors are not after satisfaction
and manifesting generators arenot after peace. They need their
satisfaction or their sacralwon't be healthy. And I think of,
you know, generators, I'venoted multiple times, are the carriers
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of life force. Sometimes Ilike to refer to manifesting generators
as the curators because you'recarrying around this power, this
motor that sustains andcarries life force energy with your
defined sacral. But as amanifesting generator, you're also
sort of. Your initiations arealso sort of like trimming and curating
that life force as you go.Right. Versus manifestors. We're
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not carrying it. We come outand we create space for new iterations
of life force. Big impactversus manifesting generator. Impact
is like upkeep throughout. Somgs, as the curator of life force
within their carrying of lifeforce function versus manifestors
are the conduit or the portalfor the impulse for life force energy
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to move or shift or change.Coming back to this phrase, these
key ideas and questions forthe types, generators are here to
know themselves. Theirquestion is, who am I? Projectors
are here to know the other.Their question is, who are they?
Manifestors are here to knowtheir impact. The question is, what
is my impact? How do I impact?Reflectors are here to know their
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differentiation. Who isdifferent? Ra says a manifestor has
the ability to move its energyinto action. It is an energy type.
The illusion that people haveabout manifestors is that they can
do whatever they want. Well,they can't. It's just an illusion.
Manifestors tend to operate ontheir own. And in operating on their
own, they tend to look to theoutsider like they're taking their
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own action. In fact, likeeverybody else, we are all reactive.
We are all reacting to theimpulse. None of us are in control
of the process. However, itcertainly looks like the manifestors
are able to take theinitiative. So if you think about
this in regards to the themeof manifestors so often being attempted
to be controlled by the other,this is all connected to that. Others,
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out of their own sense of lackof control, project onto the manifestor
that the manifester is incontrol because the manifester is
the only one that cannot becontrolled. Designed to not be influenced.
But actually manifestors, inorder to be in alignment, in order
to reach their signature ofpeace, need to be as surrendered
as any other type issurrendered to their process. It's
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just that the process, themechanical strategy for the manifestor,
is coming from internal cues.So it can look like it's happening
on its own accord. It's not.It's just as much a surrendering
to the geometry, to the shape,to the dance of life. It just enters
the manifesto's bodydifferently. We are all reactive.
In other words, we are allhelpless equally so we are all reacting
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to the impulse. Manifestorsget the impulse inside the closed
aura. Everybody else gets itfrom the outside world. Here's my
little empowerment insummation for the manifestors. Manifestors
will deal with the theme ofrejection throughout their life.
Manifestors will deal withostracization throughout their life.
It's simply the nature of themechanics of the closed aura interacting
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with the not self. WorldAwareness for the manifestor, is
in understanding, watching andsurrendering to the mechanics of
the closed aura withoutattempting to interfere with those
mechanics or assigning mentalmeaning to them. When we try to make
meaning out of our rejectionas manifestors, when we try to take
blame or place blame on othersfor the inevitable mechanics of our
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auras, we only perpetuate oursuffering. People will be repelled.
People will be threatened.People will not understand what's
happening inside of our closedaura if we don't inform them. And
that is no one's fault. It'snot your fault if you repel people.
It's not their fault. It'sjust the mechanics. It's not personal,
it's mechanics. This issomething that is said often in human
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design for everything. It'snot personal, it's mechanics. Manifestors,
you have likely beenconditioned to perform openness in
attempts to feel that youbelong and attempts to put others
at ease in your presence sothat you can belong when you're at
peace. Your big impacting aurapushes peace out into the world it
impacts peacefully. Even then,some will feel discomfort at their
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sense that you will impactthem and they cannot control or predict
how, but that discomfort istheir trip to tend to, not yours.
Manifesters. Just as you wishfor others to let go of attempts
to control you, you must letgo of your attempts to control others
reactions to you. Divest fromthis performance of openness and
the futile attempts to manageyour impact. Instead, invest in your
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peace and experiment withinforming and relax into the spaciousness
that that creates in your life.
Thanks for listening to theLiving Your Desig podcast. Stay
tuned for the rest of thecurriculum. New batches of episodes
are released every Tuesday.For immediate complete access to
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the full course and to exploreother perks like learning and community,
extracurricular, astrology andhuman design workshops and meeting
with me face to face to face,go to patreon.com/KelseyRosetort.
You can also listen to me onmy other podcasts, the Maia Games
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