July 16, 2025 • 41 mins
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Hey, what's up guys? And welcome back to another
anonymous confessions video. And today we're getting into
some insane anonymous confessions.
And these confessions are all sent in by you guys, viewers of
the Snook channel, and some of them are kind of insane.
Not to make fun of any of y'all,but yeah, that's kind of the
nature of these videos. But if you'd like to see your
confession in a future video, please send to the e-mail on
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screen now. I appreciate it completely
anonymous and I read basically every single e-mail, so feel
free to send in whatever confession or anything you might
need to get off your chest. I appreciate you stopping by.
Please like the video and subscribe to the channel if you
aren't already. It helps more than you know.
And yeah, without further ado, let's get into some insane
anonymous confessions. Anonymous confession.
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I think my stepmom killed my dad.
Hi Snook, I love your videos, especially the ones of your
viewers. Anonymous confessions.
I watch them every day while I get ready for work.
I wanted to share my own story, feel free to change any of the
wording if it would go against these guidelines.
I've never told anyone this fully, but I genuinely believed
my stepmom killed my dad. On paper it says he committed S
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word. That's the official story, but
nothing about it has ever felt right.
Right after he died she sold hiscar before his body even made it
to the Funeral Home. Like she wasted no time getting
rid of his things. It was like she wanted him
erased. She didn't even want to have a
funeral or a showing for him. I had to beg her to do it.
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If I hadn't pushed, she probablywouldn't have done anything at
all. But here's where it gets weird.
Her best friend was the funeral director, the same person who
handled my dad's body and prepared him for the showing.
I don't know why, but that's always stuck with me.
When it came to his gravestone, she refused to help.
She wouldn't even go look at them.
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My grandma. My dad's mom ended up paying for
the entire thing herself. His own wife didn't give a
single dollar, but she still brags about being anxiety free
now that he's gone. She also loves to tell people
she is completely broke now, butsomehow she still takes cross
country vacations every other month.
She had no money for her husband's headstone but always
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has money for trips. She's gotten rid of everything,
his car, his belongings, even the photos of him.
There's no trace of him left in the house.
It's like she wanted to wipe himoff the planet.
Looking back, there were little things my dad said before he
died that didn't make sense at the time.
I wonder if he was afraid of her.
I wonder if he knew something I didn't.
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I can't prove anything. I know how this sounds, but deep
down I know what happened and I know she's the reason he's gone.
There is definitely more to the story, but it is already getting
long and I think I'm getting my point across.
Do you think I'm crazy or shouldI trust my gut?
And thank you so much for sharing.
I really appreciate it. And off the bat, I don't think
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you're crazy, but something thatcomes to mind immediately is did
they have any sort of pre-existing problems or, you
know, fighting? Not saying that she killed them,
but did you know he kind of fight a lot with her and then
she's like, wow, that's a lot ofanxiety off my chest.
Or, you know, that's like a lot of whatever off my brain now
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that he's gone. And maybe they just didn't love
each other the same. I don't know.
That wasn't outlined in the story, but you know, that's a
big deal for her to kill him. But I don't know, I don't think
you're crazy. It's definitely suspicious,
especially with it being an S word and sorry that I needed to
say that. And that's YouTube, you know,
censoring. So this video even gets shown to
people. I apologize for having to do
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that, but I don't think you're crazy.
But you know, I don't know if it's the right move, but talk to
her maybe. I think it's weird that she
didn't want to have a funeral or, you know, even look at a
headstone. I mean, I feel like you would
want to, especially to a loved one.
But like I said, were they fighting it all?
Do they hate each other at all? Like did she just not care that
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he died or was she the reason hedied?
I don't know. Interesting.
And if you have any updates, please send it to me and I'm
sorry for your loss. Confession.
I accidentally killed my cat. He died suffering.
Hey Snook, I've been watching your confession videos lately.
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They've sort of become a guilty pleasure.
Sometimes I feel better about myself after watching them.
I guess they help me cope. I'd appreciate any input from
you if you have anything to say about what I have to share.
What I have to confess eats at my soul and I've gone into some
pretty bad depressive episodes about it.
It happened three years ago. I live in Maine and as you could
probably imagine, it gets very cold here during the winters.
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My cat Randy was 8 years old at the time.
My family adopted him when I was10.
I grew up with Randy and I lovedhim dearly.
I still live with my family and did that as well.
At this point in my life, I was very lonely and I would just get
in my car and drive around for awhile.
Sometimes I would drive for two hours.
I began doing this in late 2020 and early 2021.
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And yes, even in the winter I would drive.
Especially in the winter. Actually, I no longer do this as
since the incident I've been afraid of going on long rides.
It was on November 11th, 2022. The day started like every other
day. My parents and elder brother
were all employed and at work. Meanwhile, I was unemployed,
recently laid off, having graduated from high school not
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long before all of this. Even though I had the house all
to myself and it was all snowy outside.
I got dressed and approached my car so I could go on a nice long
ride. I could have sworn something was
wrong, but I ignored my gut feeling.
I tried starting my car, but it didn't start.
So I tried again and I heard this loud scream which fizzled
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out terrifyingly immediately. I got out and popped the engine
and I saw Randy dead. His body was burned, his Gray
fur was like spiked and crazy, Ican't describe it well.
His green eyes were bulging out of skull and I panicked.
I sobbed and sobbed until I couldn't hear my own sobbing
anymore. Not just because my cat was
dead, but because I was responsible for his death and I
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didn't know how. I still cannot understand for
the life of me how Randy even got into my car's engine.
Our house wasn't and still isn'tproperly heated, so I have to
imagine that he somehow managed to get into the engine to be
warm and comfortable. The thing I did next is what
makes this whole thing even worse.
I felt so guilty and ashamed that I grabbed a shovel from our
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garage, dug a hole in the groundin our yard, put on gloves,
carefully took Randy out of the engine and buried him well,
crying the whole time, even though I couldn't make a sound.
I tore out some grass underneaththe snow and used both the grass
and snow along with dirt to cover up his body.
Even today, you couldn't tell he's buried there.
At least my family can't. I still know where he's buried,
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of course. Afterwards, I wiped off the
shovel, put it and the gloves back where I found them, crawled
back into my pyjamas and into bed where I cried until I
eventually passed out. My parents came home before my
brother as he wouldn't have comeand woke me up and asking how I
was and where Randy was. Then I did something awful.
I feigned ignorance and told them I didn't know.
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I'll concerned, especially my father who loved Randy even more
than I did, as though he were a third son.
They looked around for him, but my mother gave up and said Randy
would show up later in the nightor the next day.
My father was skeptical and saidthat Randy probably wouldn't
have been safe out in the cold. He questioned why Randy would
even go outside in the 1st placebecause he was never what you'd
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call an outdoors cat. But tomorrow became a week, a
week became a month, and so forth.
Nobody has recovered from Randy's loss.
We have not replaced them. And I don't have the heart to
tell them about what really happened.
And I have some input, I think. But you know, I don't think you
should not blame yourself for the death of your cat, Randy.
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That was a complete freak accident.
Obviously, you know, you would have never knew he was in your
car engine. Like you would have just never
known that. That's not your fault.
But where you do take some faultis lying to your family.
And like you said, it's been a long, long time since it
happened. But no one else in your family
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has closure. You know, you could have buried
him and then still been like, hey, guys, I fucked up or
something along those lines. I mean, I, I, I totally
understand why it was very hard to do that and why he didn't do
that. But I think you need to maybe
come clean eventually, You know,maybe go to your parents, go to
your brother and be like, hey, this is what happened to Randy.
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And kind of outline the entire situation.
Tell them why you didn't tell them.
Say you were scared, say you were sad, say whatever you were
feeling in the moment. Because, you know, I understand
that. But I think your family deserves
some closure. And don't blame yourself for the
death of the cat. That was a freak accident.
But I really think you should bring yourself or bring your
family some closure. And hopefully that's some good
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feedback. But I'd really like you to do
that because, you know, if my cat died and I didn't know what
happened to it, I would feel so horrible.
But just knowing how, how or what happened to him would bring
so much more closure and honestly, just happiness, I
guess to be like, oh, he didn't.I don't know.
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But yeah, I think you should tell your parents or your
brother or just your family in general.
You can e-mail me back and let me know if you did or if you
didn't. I don't.
You don't need to listen to me. But not just kind of my opinion.
And thank you so much for sharing.
On to the next one. Hello Snook, I hope you're doing
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well with all of these confessions.
Make sure to take care of yourself.
I have extreme fantasies about murdering.
I want to be a notorious serial killer that people talk about
decades after. I want my victims to be
absolutely mangled and disgust, even the professionals working
behind the case. I admit that I disgustingly
watched disturbing videos to ease the desires, but
truthfully, I want to see it in person.
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I want to feel what it's like tosink my teeth on human flesh and
see how much blood a body reallyhas.
I want to see how badly I can ruin people's lives for how much
I watch true crime videos. I have the perfect way to
execute one which I'm ashamed and proud of.
That's it really feels better toconfess that.
Keep this in me. I wish I could get mental health
but I live in an unsafe household.
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Thanks and all right. You didn't ask for, you know, my
opinion on it, but this to serves an opinion I think.
Please talk to somebody, anybodyabout that before it gets out of
control. Please don't watch those sort of
videos online either. I censored it for YouTube
purposes, but starts with AG. Yeah, please get that taken care
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of. I understand watching some of
those disturbing videos online can be kind of an addiction
almost. But you know, like I always give
or the advice I always give people, just please take it a
day at a time. If you, I mean, you don't need
to listen to me, you're probablynot, but you know, take it a day
at a time. Just say today I'm going to work
on my thoughts and actions and don't say I'm never going to
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think about disturbing stuff like that again because you
know, that's kind of unrealistic.
But just take it a day at a time, say today I'm going to try
and not think about stuff like that because that's very
unhealthy. Yeah, it's not a good thing.
And if you can, I know you said you couldn't because you're an
unsafe household. I don't know your circumstances.
But if you're in school, if you go to work somewhere, talk to a
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boss, talk to a school counselor, school therapist,
school nurse, whatever, please, that really needs to be, you
know, looked into by somebody else.
And I think you might need some help so please look into that
and hopefully you can take my advice or some peoples in the
comments advice. But yeah, please get some help
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before you know you do somethingirrational.
Thank you. On to the next one.
Dear Snook, I've been lurking your channel and appreciate the
confession videos. I have a lot to confess but this
one is recent and I don't want to talk to my friends about it.
If any of my friends are watching, please pretend you've
never seen this. I know I've mentioned this
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before but I don't want to have this discussion anytime soon and
be caught vulnerable. I also hope that the comments
will treat me with kindness. This might be a long 1 and I
apologize if it is all over the place.
So get ready to her face. I'm female, 21, and I've been in
therapy for 10 years. For the last four years I've
been in a a therapy program which specializes in borderline
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personality disorder which I'm being treated and medicated for.
Recently I was talking to my therapist who have been seen for
a bit over a year. Mid session she got this look on
her face like she wanted to say something.
I asked what she was thinking and she said I don't know if I
should tell you. I don't want to scare you.
I having just said something incredibly self-centered joked
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what you think I have narcissism?
She paused and went no, no you don't have narcissism, but I
think you could have. What do you know about
sociopathy? My heart paused.
Everything paused. I admit I've done some bad
things in my life, and there wasa point when I was an edgy
teenager who thought I could be a sociopath, but I sort of
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chalked it up to being dramatic and looking for attention.
She says while I don't fit all the criteria for antisocial
personality disorder, medical term for what the public knows
as a sociopath, but that over the past year of her knowing me
she's been toying with the idea of me having it, or at least
having antisocial tendencies. This has me thinking about all
the times in my life I've been abully just for entertainment,
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The way I can't empathize with people I don't want me to care
about, the way I have a bad habit of watching people get
hurt online. Please don't lecture me.
I'm aware it's an unhealthy thing to enjoy, and besides my
friends who have seen their fairshare of Reddit people dying, I
keep it private. I don't think it's helpful or
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cool when people brag about being desensitized, but I sort
of think it's more than that. For me.
I'm not desensitized. There are still videos and
images that shock me, but it's exhilarating to me.
There are videos I've watched over and over because I enjoy
it. I almost wish I could feel bad
about it. In fact, I actually feel a bit
bad that I don't feel bad. I know that when I watch those
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videos, I'm watching videos of someone's child, parent, or
friend. I find it so hard to care about
that fact. It's taboo, it's exciting, and
it gives me a little peek into something scary that I probably
won't experience in real life. Horror movies turn me on, but
knowing it's fake takes some of the excitement away when I'm
watching real videos. It's addicting.
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I don't even know that borderline PD and antisocial PD
could coexist, but apparently itcan.
My therapist said I show traits and it's possible I'll end up
being diagnosed with something like BPD with ASPD traits.
I won't tell my parents unless it's something actually
diagnosed since I feel they willinvalidate me and told me
there's no way I can be a sociopath.
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That I'm so sweet and caring andfunny.
While I care deeply about those in my close circle, it is nearly
possessive and stems from a fearof losing them.
That's the borderline I guess. I rely on my parents, best
friends and we do a lot to protect my little sister. 1 main
trait of ASPD is having a lack of empathy.
Except for my little sister, I don't really feel what other
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people feel. I understand why somebody would
be upset in a certain scenario, but it doesn't directly affect
me. I tell them that I'm sorry
they're having a bad day slash time slash experience, but if
I'm being honest, it's mostly tochange the subject or do crisis
control and I find it annoying when anyone besides me
complaints about something. I'm working on that since I hate
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being seen as a complainer and Iknow that relationships require
both parties to cater towards one another equally.
Another trait is a lack of remorse.
I feel regret for things usuallybecause of their negative
effects on my life or relationships, but I really
can't think of something. I felt true remorse for a few
days after having a psychotic episode when I was around 15.
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I choked my mom until my dad helped me down.
She wasn't hurt but in that moment I really wanted to hurt
her. I was able to talk myself out of
going to the psych ward since I said a commit S word.
If they sent me away I wouldn't actually have but I was scared
and a psych ward would be super inconvenient.
I regret scaring my parents because it made them walk on egg
shells around me for a while which made me uncomfortable but
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I don't feel bad about what I did.
Same goes for the past friends Ihave mentally hurt.
I feel sorry that I lost the comfort of people who I had fun
times with, but I don't feel sorry the way I think that
somebody guilty feels sorry. I want my best friends to be
happy because them being happy benefits my life, We have more
fun together, I don't have to comfort someone awkwardly, I
don't have to walk on egg shellsabout what I say, etcetera.
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But as long as it isn't me, I find it really hard to give much
thought to it. I wish my friends happiness
because I know it's the right thing to do, but it also gives
me an ego boost when they come to me upset.
I like feeling trusted and dependable, and I can feel that
connection. My borderline makes me
incredibly clingy and selfish when it comes to who they hang
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out with, feeling left out in the intense fear they'll wake up
1 morning and want nothing to dowith me anymore.
I care about them so incredibly much, but mostly because they
make me happy, not because I seethem as their own people.
The best way I can describe it is that they're an extension of
me, and because I care about myself, why wouldn't I care
about them? I know that makes me sound
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horrible and uncaring, but I truly do care in my own way.
They know all about my problems,I've told them almost
everything, and I have never even felt trapped or like I need
to fake myself around them. Sometimes I still find myself
having thoughts of hurting them,but I recognize that is an
unhelpful thought. I'm self aware enough to be
conscious on my level of empathyand I'm careful to take actions
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that are good, helpful, and caring.
I know that thoughts don't make you a bad person and that
actions do. So I practice mindfulness and
have learned to turn off my phone rather than argue with
people and exploit what they've said to me in confidence.
I think that might honestly be the reason that I've gone so
long thinking I was normal and why my therapist is hesitant to
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formally diagnose me with something as life changing or
forever labeling as ASPD. Maybe it's because I've been in
therapy for 10 years or maybe it's just because I don't have
ASPD and my therapist is wrong about me.
Who knows. At this point if I'm diagnosed
or not doesn't really matter because as long as I'm aware of
my habits and thoughts I know I will be OK, but it's just been
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on my mind the past few weeks. Thanks for listening and I hope
that this might make people givea second thought to labeling
their crazy ex as a sociopath since it goes much deeper than
someone saying something mean out of anger.
It is having fantasies about hurting people, about causing
destruction, and about the enjoyment that comes with those
thoughts. In my times of anger, I have
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planned how to ruin people's lives, even those I'm closest
to. It scares me that I can think
that way, but I know deep down that I am loyal and it would
take a lot to get to me to do something actually dangerous or
sinister. I know that causing people pain
is not productive, will give me a bad image, It will make me
lose even more people for my life.
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I can't afford that with the amount of happiness and peace
I've had with my best friends. I hope to anybody be listening
that you consciously take care of those around you, treat
people kindly and maybe your positive thoughts can cancel out
my negative ones. Thank you.
Thank you for allowing people toopen up when they feel as if
they can't tell anyone at all. Here's my confession, the reason
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I've never met my father. I'm from a small town in
Michigan, USA. My family on my mom's side is
originally from Michigan and Florida, but on my dad's side,
everyone is from Indiana. I was born there actually.
I've lived in Michigan for most of my life.
I'm 20 years old. You'll need this back story for
this confession to make more sense.
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My mom had five kids, I am the third.
My dad has three kids. I am also the third on that
side. About a year before I was born,
my father was sentenced to prison for 65 years for murder
and an additional 20 years for dealing substances.
Not only was he dealing these substances, he was doing them.
My oldest brother was four yearsold and my dad had BM to death.
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It brings me trauma because I'venever met my brother or his
murderer. I've wrote him and talked to him
on several occasions. In fact, we write to each other
quite often. I try to forgive him because
it's the past, but even that is very hard to do.
To add on to the story, I didn'tmeet either of my brothers from
my dad until I was 17. I was never allowed to see them
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as a child. I never even knew about them
until I was searching the Internet one day.
Everyone knew about it except for me.
Why did no one tell me? I'm not sure.
Maybe it was to protect me. I have an entire family that has
never seen or met me before because of the incident.
It's crazy to process. I have more confessions to make
that I've also never told anyoneabout.
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Hopefully this will make it intoa video and show people that
it's OK to forgive people for the wrong they've done.
Thank you. Hey Snook, it's a little bit of
an oddball confession, but I want to be a mother in the
future, just in a pretty toxic way.
I want to be the kind of mother the safe one with my future
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spouse is unkind and harsh. I want to live out an abused
wife life to have my future child see me beaten but I still
love them and protect them. I want to be the only parent
they love. I know it's bad but I like the
thought of being abused but still better.
I grew up in abuse and dated abuse of people, so I know what
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it's like and I kind of just crave it.
I'm obviously not going to put akid in a dangerous situation, so
I'll probably just stay a singlemother.
I'm in love with two women. It all started about four years
ago. There was a girl, we'll call her
Beth, not the real name. I was talking to her and we got
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very close, but we got into a fight one day over something
trivial. My best friend at the time took
this opportunity and swooped in and got with her the day after.
So I stopped. Talking to her and worked on
myself. Flash.
Forward to a year later and theybroke up and me and Beth started
talking again a few months afterthey broke up.
I know it sounds bad but I was head over heels for her.
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Eventually we started hanging out again but she did not want
to pursue a relationship as her and my old friend got into a
huge argument and she just didn't feel comfortable being in
a romantic relationship. This confused me because we
would do couple stuff, we would cuddle and watch movies, go out
on dates and have very deep conversations about romantic
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stuff. But she was also doing these
things with two other guys at the time so I didn't know how to
feel. Eventually I felt.
Like I wanted. Something that she didn't, so I
cut it off. Well, I was a local lifeguard
and one of her friends and I hitit off.
We talked every day and got super close.
We went on a few dates but nothing really came of it.
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We'll call her June, not real name.
Eventually Beth said she wanted to just be with me.
So for the last three years we have been dating.
But during that time, June and Iwere still very close friends.
I'm ashamed to say that I still have romantic feelings for June.
And while I haven't talked to her or Beth about it, Beth said
she can see the way June looks at me.
So I sort of cut it off. But ever since doing that, I
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can't stop thinking of June being She was there during a
hard part of my life. And we still talk from time to
time, but I can tell her spark is probably long gone.
And I still deeply love both of them.
Snook, I would really appreciateany advice you have.
And thank you for reading my story.
I often listen to you while trucking and have brought so
much joy to my days Anonymous. And hey man, thank you so much
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for sharing this. I appreciate it.
And thank you so much for the kind words too.
I'm glad I can help you out in those long trucking days.
And yeah, it's just great to hear that I bring some joy to
you. And this seems like a, you know,
complicated situation, and you're kind of split between two
people. And in a way, it's kind of past
and present. I feel like June represents a
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connection and a what if that never really happened?
And Beth is the person you kind of chose after a long rocky road
and you're just unsure which oneis best for you.
And you know, that's a tough situation to be in.
But my advice is I think just try to be honest with yourself
first before talking to anybody.Who do you, you know, love more
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or who do you think you love more or like more?
And do you see yourself with a long term relationship with Beth
still, even though June and you kind of have a thing going on?
Will that kind of always be nearthe back of your mind?
I think that's something you kind of need to confront with
yourself 1st and then don't stayin the relationship if you're
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not happy. Beth is your girlfriend now, I
assume, and I think she deservesto kind of know how you feel or
also just deserves to feel emotionally full from you,
almost like you are all of her attention almost and not split
between two people. And I don't know if she noticed
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that or not. But you know, it's important to
not still have June or another person lingering in your mind.
And I think one thing that mightbe hard for you or hard to do is
kind of communicate. I don't think you need to, you
know, drop a truth bomb to Beth and kind of destroy everything.
But I think you need to talk with June or Beth and kind of
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get some closure because I thinkright now, both relationships or
at least June, it's still open in your mind and there's still a
possibility and that needs closure.
And that kind of goes back to the first thing I said.
You need to just be honest with yourself and kind of realize
what you want. I mean, keeping up with the both
of them will never, you know, never be the answer for the long
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run. So I think you need to figure
out who you love more, who you see being in a relationship with
more. And just once you do kind of
figure that out, bring some closure to either or
relationship. And yeah, like I said, you can't
have both. So you need to kind of bring
some closure to yourself. June and Beth possibly.
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But that's that's just kind of my advice.
I don't know if this is just a bunch of rambling or I don't
know if it's good advice, but I wish you all the best.
Man that sucks that you're kind of split between 2:00 but I
totally understand it and best of luck and be safe on the road.
Hi Snook, I've been watching your videos for a while now.
What you do is amazing and just imagining and how much work you
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put into this gives me goosebumps.
I wish all the worst to my grandmother and I don't regret
it. I'm a 17 year old girl and
English is not my first language.
Ever since I was little, my grandmother, my father's mother,
has been a terrible person. I come from a small family,
myself, my dad, my mom, and a brother with a severe disability
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Grade 1 handicap. When I was young my grandmother
used to send us money so my dad could take care of me and my
brother, but she constantly spoke badly about my mom.
In 2017 my mom passed away when I was nine years old.
I was then moved to live with one of my mom's sisters and my
depression got even worse. After my dad found out about my
first S word attempt, he moved me back home where I lived with
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my grandmother. Unfortunately my dad was working
abroad so he wasn't home very often.
My grandmother took out her hatred on me because my dad had
fallen in love with my mom, a woman of Roma, gypsy and
ethnicity. She kept me locked inside the
house. If I wanted to go outside, I had
to lie and say I was doing something for school.
Mental abuse was an everyday thing.
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She constantly manipulated and insulted me.
If a cup wasn't put back in its place it would turn into a full
blown punishment. She would humiliate me in a
awful ways for even the smallestmistakes.
At school I was bullied because she didn't give me money for
personal hygiene. I had to wash my own clothes in
the sink. My depression got even worse
when she kicked me out of the house.
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She falsely accused me of stealing 100 Ron, about €20 and
we had a big argument. That was the first time I stood
up to her, and when I fought back more aggressively than she
expected, she kicked me out. I lived in my high school
dormitory for a year, surviving only on my school scholarship.
Now I live with her again, but she acts more peaceful because
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my dad cut contact with her for a while due to her abuse.
She's pretending to be a loving grandmother now just to get back
in its good graces. I tried to make this a short
story. Thank you.
Hey Snook, sorry if this is pretty sloppy, I'm typing this
on my phone. So when I was younger, about 6
or 7, I had this cat named Alvin.
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And he was a little fella and hestuck with me everywhere.
But one night I let him out and you know, I was a bad kid.
I torture him because I thought it was funny.
So when I woke up that morning, it was mad cold.
So I dunked him in underwater for fun, which is terrible.
I don't do that anymore. And I left him alone, and I came
outside and saw him on my soccernet.
He had strangled himself, and I just watched.
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I feel terrible to this day. Hey Snook, I'll start off by
telling you what you already know.
You've done us a great favor by providing us with a platform to
express our troubles. Your videos have helped me get
through exams and I actively wait for each new job.
Excuse any mistakes I make as English is not my first
language. Now to my sins.
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In a previous video of yours mentions the confession of a
fellow viewer about his dark, murderous tendencies, which
prompted me to share mine. Firstly, let me clear this,
there is barely any rule of law where I live and at the time
this incident took place, thieves and criminals of this
sort ruled my city. It got to the extent that any
time a theft was caught, they were burned alive.
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Horrible, I know, but it was necessary.
About two years ago, an incidentoccurred with my mother.
A thief held her at gunpoint in stole her purse.
He was, however, caught in the other street.
When I was in my house. Sleeping.
When I heard about the incident,I immediately got up and ran to
her as. Fast as I could.
She was like a shrewd or two away and there she was crying.
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Just then the thief who was probably high screamed how he
was going to R word her and her daughters and that's when I
snapped. I picked him up by his collar
and started beating the fuck outof him.
At first no one stopped me. They understood my frustration
and I didn't stop either. I kept going punch after punch.
First his teeth broke, then I heard his jaw crack and after
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that I have no memory. The next thing I remember was my
mother slapping me and screamingat me.
I turned to look around and saw the man.
I was beaten up was beaten up toa pulp, blood all over the place
and as you may have guessed, he was dead.
This was two years ago and to this day I do not regret what
happened. If I could, I would do it all
again. 1000 times over and another thousand times after
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that. Am I fucked in the head?
Absolutely. Do I wish I wasn't like this
again? Absolutely, the incident had
impacted my life severely. Some sympathize with me while
others severed all connections with me.
As for the legal proceedings, the authorities couldn't give
half a fuck that a drug addict was killed, whether there was
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now a murderer roaming free amongst the people.
But in my opinion all this was needed.
There were innocent people murdered in cold blood, all for
a phone worth maybe 30 bucks. I hope this makes it to one of
your videos so that I may have an opinion of people who don't
have a bias for me. Would love to hear what you've
got to say too. And once again, thank you for
all you do for us. I hope your channel grows and
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achieves the fame it deserves. Thank you for sharing man.
I really appreciate it and thankyou so much for the kind words.
But I don't think you're monster.
That is a horrific situation yougot put in and your mother's
life was put at stake. Your family's life was put at
stake and everything was just, you know, a high stress
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situation. And I can't say I would have
acted any differently than you. That is a horrific situation
that I hope everyone listening doesn't have to endure.
But I can't blame you for how you acted.
I mean, who knows what that guy could have done.
He would have made threats against you.
He made threats against your family, made threats against
your mother. He robbed your mother.
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And, you know, you lost some friends.
People called you a monster. But what if you never, you know,
did what you did? I don't think he meant to kill
him, you know, who knows? But I appreciate you sharing and
like I said, I really don't think you're a monster.
Thank you so much for sharing. But you're put in a self-defense
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situation and I don't know any other route you could have
taken. You know, if you want, I'd
recommend talking to somebody about this that's a heavyweight
to hold to yourself and just talk about how you feel to just
people around you. That's an important thing.
And like I said, thank you so much for sharing.
I really appreciate it. And everyone watching, please
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leave your feedback to this guy down below.
I'm sure he'd appreciate it and thank you so much again.
On to the next one. Someday I'm going to commit S
word. It's hard to put all my thoughts
into words that people can understand.
I've tried before and I'll try again.
It starts with my parents. It's nothing they've done but I
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really resent them for giving birth to me.
My mom has terrible anxiety and I'm sure you can guess which
child got it passed down to them, but it's not a typical I'm
afraid to go talk to someone or the I'm afraid of a job
interview kind of anxiety. I genuinely cannot textualize
how much I hate people who say Ihave anxiety.
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Then I see them out with friendsgoing to stores, this and that.
I can't do mundane things like walk outside because I'm afraid
people will look at me. When I first moved to college I
was stuck eating out of the makeyour own salad section because I
was too afraid to go tell the lunch staff what I wanted.
Things like walking into a storeI've never been into before.
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It makes me sweaty, gets my heart beating abnormally fast,
and I even get faint sometimes. Every time I have to go outside
for things like class or dinner,I see people with other people
and I hate it. It's a constant reminder that I
can't do anything with people orreally anything of that matter.
I have no one, no doormat, no one to eat with, no one to do
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really anything with. I have one friend up here that
I've known for my whole life, but even then I'm too afraid to
send them a text asking if they want to do something.
Someday he and I are going to dwindle in our friendship
together because I seem uninterested when I really am
not. The biggest kicker is talking to
people about it. I hear all the time in your
videos to talk to someone like atherapist or medical
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professional. I have.
I've been to two therapists and a doctor before.
I truly have gone nowhere. Every single person I talked to
doesn't understand me and I gaveup trying.
Every time I leave a therapy session or the doctor's office,
I leave feeling terrible that they couldn't understand me and
wonder where I went wrong tryingto describe my issues.
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Truth is, I'm done. I don't care about anyone
understanding me anymore and I'mready to leave it all behind.
I obviously haven't yet, but I know someday I'm just going to
snap and do it. But I feel like that's OK.
You know? People always fear death, but we
really shouldn't. I'm not religious and I'm not
scared of what happens after death and there's no reason to
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be fearful we won't know we're dead.
If it wasn't for the people thathurt and the age to buy a weapon
in my state, I would have done it already.
I've had enough of the fake. I understand you will get better
or you're doing all right. I don't know when it will be,
but if things don't change, I will not see 21.
And this one was a heavy 1. I don't have a ton to say since
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you said you've talked to therapists, you've talked to
medical professionals, but I really think you should.
I don't know, you know, practicemeditation, mindfulness.
I think something like meditation and mindfulness.
I, you know, used to have anxiety, still kind of do a
little bit, but, you know, just sitting there for a few minutes
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a day with your eyes closed trying to, you know, imagine
nothing almost. It just really helps to breathe.
Breathe. You don't need a, you know, you
don't need somebody. You don't seem to want a
therapist or it doesn't, you know, work, But things take
time. A therapist or medical
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professional won't get it right the first time.
They're just people, too. And so I really think you
should, you know, stay consistent with therapy, stay
consistent with, you know, visiting your doctor, talking to
your doctor, trying to outline all your issues.
You know, I think a mix of meditation, mindfulness, just
trying to, you know, have patience for the therapist.
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I think they can help you out. That's all they want to do.
And so please, just keep going. Please keep going.
Just take it a day at a time. And that's what I say to
everybody. Just say today I will try my
best to, you know, make today a great day, whether that's
talking to a therapist, trying to, you know, get them to
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understand you a bit better, spending an extra minute
meditating, breathing, trying torelax.
You know, you maybe you've heardall this before and you're just
going to ride it off, but that'sup to you.
I really believe you can get better.
Things do get better, but havingan attitude that things won't
get better, then they won't get better.
You have to try and slowly buildthat attitude up, turn it around
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because things can get better. There is countless, countless,
countless people who have been in the exact same position as
you and now they're doing fine. It just takes time and it sucks.
It definitely does suck, but youcan definitely get out of this
rut. And I just believe that, you
know, spend time breathing, relaxing, doing things you love,
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and then slowly, day after day, do something new.
Talk to a new person, go to a new store.
Like you said, it'll take time. I'm not saying this will happen
after a day or even a week or even a month or even a year.
This will take a long time. But I believe in you and just,
you know, trying to, you know, end it, so to say is not the
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answer. It's never the answer and I hope
you're watching to the end. I, I didn't mean to put this at
the end of the video. You know, I just usually have
these all listed out in no specific order, but I believe in
you and everyone watching the video can believes in you.
I please just, you know, a day at a time, just keep going.
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Something will change and don't just say I'll never be better.
Just focus on today and then tomorrow and then the day that's
ahead of you or the day that's in front of you.
You've got this. You matter more than you know,
and more people love you than you know.
And I believe in you. Everybody watching this believes
in you. Everyone watching, Please give,
you know, some kindness or advice.
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If you've dealt with anything similar, I'm sure they'd
appreciate it a lot right now. Everybody loves you.
You've got this. I believe in you.
Much love. And with that final heavy
confession. That wraps up some insane
anonymous confessions and all ofyou you're not alone.
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You've got this I'm here everybody watching here you've
got somebody that loves you. Please don't think that you know
doing it or you know, ending it is the answer It's not the
answer. Trust me, you've got this.
Just take a few a few minutes each day to spend some time
yourself, breathe and just you'll just take it a day at a
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time if you're in a situation like that.
But I love you guys. You guys are the best.
Thank you so much for watching. This was Snoke and I'll see you
next time. Bye.
Hey, what's up guys? And welcome back to another
anonymous confessions video. And today we're getting into
some insane anonymous confessions.
And these confessions are all sent in by you guys, viewers of
the Snook channel, and some of them are kind of insane.
Not to make fun of any of y'all,but yeah, that's kind of the
nature of these videos. But if you'd like to see your
confession in a future video, please send to the e-mail on
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screen now. I appreciate it completely
anonymous and I read basically every single e-mail, so feel
free to send in whatever confession or anything you might
need to get off your chest. I appreciate you stopping by.
Please like the video and subscribe to the channel if you
aren't already. It helps more than you know.
And yeah, without further ado, let's get into some insane
anonymous confessions. Anonymous confession.
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I think my stepmom killed my dad.
Hi Snook, I love your videos, especially the ones of your
viewers. Anonymous confessions.
I watch them every day while I get ready for work.
I wanted to share my own story, feel free to change any of the
wording if it would go against these guidelines.
I've never told anyone this fully, but I genuinely believed
my stepmom killed my dad. On paper it says he committed S
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word. That's the official story, but
nothing about it has ever felt right.
Right after he died she sold hiscar before his body even made it
to the Funeral Home. Like she wasted no time getting
rid of his things. It was like she wanted him
erased. She didn't even want to have a
funeral or a showing for him. I had to beg her to do it.
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If I hadn't pushed, she probablywouldn't have done anything at
all. But here's where it gets weird.
Her best friend was the funeral director, the same person who
handled my dad's body and prepared him for the showing.
I don't know why, but that's always stuck with me.
When it came to his gravestone, she refused to help.
She wouldn't even go look at them.
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My grandma. My dad's mom ended up paying for
the entire thing herself. His own wife didn't give a
single dollar, but she still brags about being anxiety free
now that he's gone. She also loves to tell people
she is completely broke now, butsomehow she still takes cross
country vacations every other month.
She had no money for her husband's headstone but always
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has money for trips. She's gotten rid of everything,
his car, his belongings, even the photos of him.
There's no trace of him left in the house.
It's like she wanted to wipe himoff the planet.
Looking back, there were little things my dad said before he
died that didn't make sense at the time.
I wonder if he was afraid of her.
I wonder if he knew something I didn't.
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I can't prove anything. I know how this sounds, but deep
down I know what happened and I know she's the reason he's gone.
There is definitely more to the story, but it is already getting
long and I think I'm getting my point across.
Do you think I'm crazy or shouldI trust my gut?
And thank you so much for sharing.
I really appreciate it. And off the bat, I don't think
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you're crazy, but something thatcomes to mind immediately is did
they have any sort of pre-existing problems or, you
know, fighting? Not saying that she killed them,
but did you know he kind of fight a lot with her and then
she's like, wow, that's a lot ofanxiety off my chest.
Or, you know, that's like a lot of whatever off my brain now
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that he's gone. And maybe they just didn't love
each other the same. I don't know.
That wasn't outlined in the story, but you know, that's a
big deal for her to kill him. But I don't know, I don't think
you're crazy. It's definitely suspicious,
especially with it being an S word and sorry that I needed to
say that. And that's YouTube, you know,
censoring. So this video even gets shown to
people. I apologize for having to do
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that, but I don't think you're crazy.
But you know, I don't know if it's the right move, but talk to
her maybe. I think it's weird that she
didn't want to have a funeral or, you know, even look at a
headstone. I mean, I feel like you would
want to, especially to a loved one.
But like I said, were they fighting it all?
Do they hate each other at all? Like did she just not care that
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he died or was she the reason hedied?
I don't know. Interesting.
And if you have any updates, please send it to me and I'm
sorry for your loss. Confession.
I accidentally killed my cat. He died suffering.
Hey Snook, I've been watching your confession videos lately.
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They've sort of become a guilty pleasure.
Sometimes I feel better about myself after watching them.
I guess they help me cope. I'd appreciate any input from
you if you have anything to say about what I have to share.
What I have to confess eats at my soul and I've gone into some
pretty bad depressive episodes about it.
It happened three years ago. I live in Maine and as you could
probably imagine, it gets very cold here during the winters.
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My cat Randy was 8 years old at the time.
My family adopted him when I was10.
I grew up with Randy and I lovedhim dearly.
I still live with my family and did that as well.
At this point in my life, I was very lonely and I would just get
in my car and drive around for awhile.
Sometimes I would drive for two hours.
I began doing this in late 2020 and early 2021.
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And yes, even in the winter I would drive.
Especially in the winter. Actually, I no longer do this as
since the incident I've been afraid of going on long rides.
It was on November 11th, 2022. The day started like every other
day. My parents and elder brother
were all employed and at work. Meanwhile, I was unemployed,
recently laid off, having graduated from high school not
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long before all of this. Even though I had the house all
to myself and it was all snowy outside.
I got dressed and approached my car so I could go on a nice long
ride. I could have sworn something was
wrong, but I ignored my gut feeling.
I tried starting my car, but it didn't start.
So I tried again and I heard this loud scream which fizzled
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out terrifyingly immediately. I got out and popped the engine
and I saw Randy dead. His body was burned, his Gray
fur was like spiked and crazy, Ican't describe it well.
His green eyes were bulging out of skull and I panicked.
I sobbed and sobbed until I couldn't hear my own sobbing
anymore. Not just because my cat was
dead, but because I was responsible for his death and I
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didn't know how. I still cannot understand for
the life of me how Randy even got into my car's engine.
Our house wasn't and still isn'tproperly heated, so I have to
imagine that he somehow managed to get into the engine to be
warm and comfortable. The thing I did next is what
makes this whole thing even worse.
I felt so guilty and ashamed that I grabbed a shovel from our
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garage, dug a hole in the groundin our yard, put on gloves,
carefully took Randy out of the engine and buried him well,
crying the whole time, even though I couldn't make a sound.
I tore out some grass underneaththe snow and used both the grass
and snow along with dirt to cover up his body.
Even today, you couldn't tell he's buried there.
At least my family can't. I still know where he's buried,
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of course. Afterwards, I wiped off the
shovel, put it and the gloves back where I found them, crawled
back into my pyjamas and into bed where I cried until I
eventually passed out. My parents came home before my
brother as he wouldn't have comeand woke me up and asking how I
was and where Randy was. Then I did something awful.
I feigned ignorance and told them I didn't know.
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I'll concerned, especially my father who loved Randy even more
than I did, as though he were a third son.
They looked around for him, but my mother gave up and said Randy
would show up later in the nightor the next day.
My father was skeptical and saidthat Randy probably wouldn't
have been safe out in the cold. He questioned why Randy would
even go outside in the 1st placebecause he was never what you'd
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call an outdoors cat. But tomorrow became a week, a
week became a month, and so forth.
Nobody has recovered from Randy's loss.
We have not replaced them. And I don't have the heart to
tell them about what really happened.
And I have some input, I think. But you know, I don't think you
should not blame yourself for the death of your cat, Randy.
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That was a complete freak accident.
Obviously, you know, you would have never knew he was in your
car engine. Like you would have just never
known that. That's not your fault.
But where you do take some faultis lying to your family.
And like you said, it's been a long, long time since it
happened. But no one else in your family
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has closure. You know, you could have buried
him and then still been like, hey, guys, I fucked up or
something along those lines. I mean, I, I, I totally
understand why it was very hard to do that and why he didn't do
that. But I think you need to maybe
come clean eventually, You know,maybe go to your parents, go to
your brother and be like, hey, this is what happened to Randy.
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And kind of outline the entire situation.
Tell them why you didn't tell them.
Say you were scared, say you were sad, say whatever you were
feeling in the moment. Because, you know, I understand
that. But I think your family deserves
some closure. And don't blame yourself for the
death of the cat. That was a freak accident.
But I really think you should bring yourself or bring your
family some closure. And hopefully that's some good
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feedback. But I'd really like you to do
that because, you know, if my cat died and I didn't know what
happened to it, I would feel so horrible.
But just knowing how, how or what happened to him would bring
so much more closure and honestly, just happiness, I
guess to be like, oh, he didn't.I don't know.
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But yeah, I think you should tell your parents or your
brother or just your family in general.
You can e-mail me back and let me know if you did or if you
didn't. I don't.
You don't need to listen to me. But not just kind of my opinion.
And thank you so much for sharing.
On to the next one. Hello Snook, I hope you're doing
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well with all of these confessions.
Make sure to take care of yourself.
I have extreme fantasies about murdering.
I want to be a notorious serial killer that people talk about
decades after. I want my victims to be
absolutely mangled and disgust, even the professionals working
behind the case. I admit that I disgustingly
watched disturbing videos to ease the desires, but
truthfully, I want to see it in person.
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I want to feel what it's like tosink my teeth on human flesh and
see how much blood a body reallyhas.
I want to see how badly I can ruin people's lives for how much
I watch true crime videos. I have the perfect way to
execute one which I'm ashamed and proud of.
That's it really feels better toconfess that.
Keep this in me. I wish I could get mental health
but I live in an unsafe household.
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Thanks and all right. You didn't ask for, you know, my
opinion on it, but this to serves an opinion I think.
Please talk to somebody, anybodyabout that before it gets out of
control. Please don't watch those sort of
videos online either. I censored it for YouTube
purposes, but starts with AG. Yeah, please get that taken care
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of. I understand watching some of
those disturbing videos online can be kind of an addiction
almost. But you know, like I always give
or the advice I always give people, just please take it a
day at a time. If you, I mean, you don't need
to listen to me, you're probablynot, but you know, take it a day
at a time. Just say today I'm going to work
on my thoughts and actions and don't say I'm never going to
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think about disturbing stuff like that again because you
know, that's kind of unrealistic.
But just take it a day at a time, say today I'm going to try
and not think about stuff like that because that's very
unhealthy. Yeah, it's not a good thing.
And if you can, I know you said you couldn't because you're an
unsafe household. I don't know your circumstances.
But if you're in school, if you go to work somewhere, talk to a
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boss, talk to a school counselor, school therapist,
school nurse, whatever, please, that really needs to be, you
know, looked into by somebody else.
And I think you might need some help so please look into that
and hopefully you can take my advice or some peoples in the
comments advice. But yeah, please get some help
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before you know you do somethingirrational.
Thank you. On to the next one.
Dear Snook, I've been lurking your channel and appreciate the
confession videos. I have a lot to confess but this
one is recent and I don't want to talk to my friends about it.
If any of my friends are watching, please pretend you've
never seen this. I know I've mentioned this
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before but I don't want to have this discussion anytime soon and
be caught vulnerable. I also hope that the comments
will treat me with kindness. This might be a long 1 and I
apologize if it is all over the place.
So get ready to her face. I'm female, 21, and I've been in
therapy for 10 years. For the last four years I've
been in a a therapy program which specializes in borderline
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personality disorder which I'm being treated and medicated for.
Recently I was talking to my therapist who have been seen for
a bit over a year. Mid session she got this look on
her face like she wanted to say something.
I asked what she was thinking and she said I don't know if I
should tell you. I don't want to scare you.
I having just said something incredibly self-centered joked
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what you think I have narcissism?
She paused and went no, no you don't have narcissism, but I
think you could have. What do you know about
sociopathy? My heart paused.
Everything paused. I admit I've done some bad
things in my life, and there wasa point when I was an edgy
teenager who thought I could be a sociopath, but I sort of
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chalked it up to being dramatic and looking for attention.
She says while I don't fit all the criteria for antisocial
personality disorder, medical term for what the public knows
as a sociopath, but that over the past year of her knowing me
she's been toying with the idea of me having it, or at least
having antisocial tendencies. This has me thinking about all
the times in my life I've been abully just for entertainment,
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The way I can't empathize with people I don't want me to care
about, the way I have a bad habit of watching people get
hurt online. Please don't lecture me.
I'm aware it's an unhealthy thing to enjoy, and besides my
friends who have seen their fairshare of Reddit people dying, I
keep it private. I don't think it's helpful or
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cool when people brag about being desensitized, but I sort
of think it's more than that. For me.
I'm not desensitized. There are still videos and
images that shock me, but it's exhilarating to me.
There are videos I've watched over and over because I enjoy
it. I almost wish I could feel bad
about it. In fact, I actually feel a bit
bad that I don't feel bad. I know that when I watch those
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videos, I'm watching videos of someone's child, parent, or
friend. I find it so hard to care about
that fact. It's taboo, it's exciting, and
it gives me a little peek into something scary that I probably
won't experience in real life. Horror movies turn me on, but
knowing it's fake takes some of the excitement away when I'm
watching real videos. It's addicting.
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I don't even know that borderline PD and antisocial PD
could coexist, but apparently itcan.
My therapist said I show traits and it's possible I'll end up
being diagnosed with something like BPD with ASPD traits.
I won't tell my parents unless it's something actually
diagnosed since I feel they willinvalidate me and told me
there's no way I can be a sociopath.
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That I'm so sweet and caring andfunny.
While I care deeply about those in my close circle, it is nearly
possessive and stems from a fearof losing them.
That's the borderline I guess. I rely on my parents, best
friends and we do a lot to protect my little sister. 1 main
trait of ASPD is having a lack of empathy.
Except for my little sister, I don't really feel what other
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people feel. I understand why somebody would
be upset in a certain scenario, but it doesn't directly affect
me. I tell them that I'm sorry
they're having a bad day slash time slash experience, but if
I'm being honest, it's mostly tochange the subject or do crisis
control and I find it annoying when anyone besides me
complaints about something. I'm working on that since I hate
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being seen as a complainer and Iknow that relationships require
both parties to cater towards one another equally.
Another trait is a lack of remorse.
I feel regret for things usuallybecause of their negative
effects on my life or relationships, but I really
can't think of something. I felt true remorse for a few
days after having a psychotic episode when I was around 15.
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I choked my mom until my dad helped me down.
She wasn't hurt but in that moment I really wanted to hurt
her. I was able to talk myself out of
going to the psych ward since I said a commit S word.
If they sent me away I wouldn't actually have but I was scared
and a psych ward would be super inconvenient.
I regret scaring my parents because it made them walk on egg
shells around me for a while which made me uncomfortable but
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I don't feel bad about what I did.
Same goes for the past friends Ihave mentally hurt.
I feel sorry that I lost the comfort of people who I had fun
times with, but I don't feel sorry the way I think that
somebody guilty feels sorry. I want my best friends to be
happy because them being happy benefits my life, We have more
fun together, I don't have to comfort someone awkwardly, I
don't have to walk on egg shellsabout what I say, etcetera.
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But as long as it isn't me, I find it really hard to give much
thought to it. I wish my friends happiness
because I know it's the right thing to do, but it also gives
me an ego boost when they come to me upset.
I like feeling trusted and dependable, and I can feel that
connection. My borderline makes me
incredibly clingy and selfish when it comes to who they hang
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out with, feeling left out in the intense fear they'll wake up
1 morning and want nothing to dowith me anymore.
I care about them so incredibly much, but mostly because they
make me happy, not because I seethem as their own people.
The best way I can describe it is that they're an extension of
me, and because I care about myself, why wouldn't I care
about them? I know that makes me sound
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horrible and uncaring, but I truly do care in my own way.
They know all about my problems,I've told them almost
everything, and I have never even felt trapped or like I need
to fake myself around them. Sometimes I still find myself
having thoughts of hurting them,but I recognize that is an
unhelpful thought. I'm self aware enough to be
conscious on my level of empathyand I'm careful to take actions
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that are good, helpful, and caring.
I know that thoughts don't make you a bad person and that
actions do. So I practice mindfulness and
have learned to turn off my phone rather than argue with
people and exploit what they've said to me in confidence.
I think that might honestly be the reason that I've gone so
long thinking I was normal and why my therapist is hesitant to
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formally diagnose me with something as life changing or
forever labeling as ASPD. Maybe it's because I've been in
therapy for 10 years or maybe it's just because I don't have
ASPD and my therapist is wrong about me.
Who knows. At this point if I'm diagnosed
or not doesn't really matter because as long as I'm aware of
my habits and thoughts I know I will be OK, but it's just been
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on my mind the past few weeks. Thanks for listening and I hope
that this might make people givea second thought to labeling
their crazy ex as a sociopath since it goes much deeper than
someone saying something mean out of anger.
It is having fantasies about hurting people, about causing
destruction, and about the enjoyment that comes with those
thoughts. In my times of anger, I have
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planned how to ruin people's lives, even those I'm closest
to. It scares me that I can think
that way, but I know deep down that I am loyal and it would
take a lot to get to me to do something actually dangerous or
sinister. I know that causing people pain
is not productive, will give me a bad image, It will make me
lose even more people for my life.
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I can't afford that with the amount of happiness and peace
I've had with my best friends. I hope to anybody be listening
that you consciously take care of those around you, treat
people kindly and maybe your positive thoughts can cancel out
my negative ones. Thank you.
Thank you for allowing people toopen up when they feel as if
they can't tell anyone at all. Here's my confession, the reason
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I've never met my father. I'm from a small town in
Michigan, USA. My family on my mom's side is
originally from Michigan and Florida, but on my dad's side,
everyone is from Indiana. I was born there actually.
I've lived in Michigan for most of my life.
I'm 20 years old. You'll need this back story for
this confession to make more sense.
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My mom had five kids, I am the third.
My dad has three kids. I am also the third on that
side. About a year before I was born,
my father was sentenced to prison for 65 years for murder
and an additional 20 years for dealing substances.
Not only was he dealing these substances, he was doing them.
My oldest brother was four yearsold and my dad had BM to death.
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It brings me trauma because I'venever met my brother or his
murderer. I've wrote him and talked to him
on several occasions. In fact, we write to each other
quite often. I try to forgive him because
it's the past, but even that is very hard to do.
To add on to the story, I didn'tmeet either of my brothers from
my dad until I was 17. I was never allowed to see them
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as a child. I never even knew about them
until I was searching the Internet one day.
Everyone knew about it except for me.
Why did no one tell me? I'm not sure.
Maybe it was to protect me. I have an entire family that has
never seen or met me before because of the incident.
It's crazy to process. I have more confessions to make
that I've also never told anyoneabout.
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Hopefully this will make it intoa video and show people that
it's OK to forgive people for the wrong they've done.
Thank you. Hey Snook, it's a little bit of
an oddball confession, but I want to be a mother in the
future, just in a pretty toxic way.
I want to be the kind of mother the safe one with my future
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spouse is unkind and harsh. I want to live out an abused
wife life to have my future child see me beaten but I still
love them and protect them. I want to be the only parent
they love. I know it's bad but I like the
thought of being abused but still better.
I grew up in abuse and dated abuse of people, so I know what
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it's like and I kind of just crave it.
I'm obviously not going to put akid in a dangerous situation, so
I'll probably just stay a singlemother.
I'm in love with two women. It all started about four years
ago. There was a girl, we'll call her
Beth, not the real name. I was talking to her and we got
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very close, but we got into a fight one day over something
trivial. My best friend at the time took
this opportunity and swooped in and got with her the day after.
So I stopped. Talking to her and worked on
myself. Flash.
Forward to a year later and theybroke up and me and Beth started
talking again a few months afterthey broke up.
I know it sounds bad but I was head over heels for her.
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Eventually we started hanging out again but she did not want
to pursue a relationship as her and my old friend got into a
huge argument and she just didn't feel comfortable being in
a romantic relationship. This confused me because we
would do couple stuff, we would cuddle and watch movies, go out
on dates and have very deep conversations about romantic
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stuff. But she was also doing these
things with two other guys at the time so I didn't know how to
feel. Eventually I felt.
Like I wanted. Something that she didn't, so I
cut it off. Well, I was a local lifeguard
and one of her friends and I hitit off.
We talked every day and got super close.
We went on a few dates but nothing really came of it.
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We'll call her June, not real name.
Eventually Beth said she wanted to just be with me.
So for the last three years we have been dating.
But during that time, June and Iwere still very close friends.
I'm ashamed to say that I still have romantic feelings for June.
And while I haven't talked to her or Beth about it, Beth said
she can see the way June looks at me.
So I sort of cut it off. But ever since doing that, I
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can't stop thinking of June being She was there during a
hard part of my life. And we still talk from time to
time, but I can tell her spark is probably long gone.
And I still deeply love both of them.
Snook, I would really appreciateany advice you have.
And thank you for reading my story.
I often listen to you while trucking and have brought so
much joy to my days Anonymous. And hey man, thank you so much
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for sharing this. I appreciate it.
And thank you so much for the kind words too.
I'm glad I can help you out in those long trucking days.
And yeah, it's just great to hear that I bring some joy to
you. And this seems like a, you know,
complicated situation, and you're kind of split between two
people. And in a way, it's kind of past
and present. I feel like June represents a
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connection and a what if that never really happened?
And Beth is the person you kind of chose after a long rocky road
and you're just unsure which oneis best for you.
And you know, that's a tough situation to be in.
But my advice is I think just try to be honest with yourself
first before talking to anybody.Who do you, you know, love more
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or who do you think you love more or like more?
And do you see yourself with a long term relationship with Beth
still, even though June and you kind of have a thing going on?
Will that kind of always be nearthe back of your mind?
I think that's something you kind of need to confront with
yourself 1st and then don't stayin the relationship if you're
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not happy. Beth is your girlfriend now, I
assume, and I think she deservesto kind of know how you feel or
also just deserves to feel emotionally full from you,
almost like you are all of her attention almost and not split
between two people. And I don't know if she noticed
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that or not. But you know, it's important to
not still have June or another person lingering in your mind.
And I think one thing that mightbe hard for you or hard to do is
kind of communicate. I don't think you need to, you
know, drop a truth bomb to Beth and kind of destroy everything.
But I think you need to talk with June or Beth and kind of
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get some closure because I thinkright now, both relationships or
at least June, it's still open in your mind and there's still a
possibility and that needs closure.
And that kind of goes back to the first thing I said.
You need to just be honest with yourself and kind of realize
what you want. I mean, keeping up with the both
of them will never, you know, never be the answer for the long
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run. So I think you need to figure
out who you love more, who you see being in a relationship with
more. And just once you do kind of
figure that out, bring some closure to either or
relationship. And yeah, like I said, you can't
have both. So you need to kind of bring
some closure to yourself. June and Beth possibly.
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But that's that's just kind of my advice.
I don't know if this is just a bunch of rambling or I don't
know if it's good advice, but I wish you all the best.
Man that sucks that you're kind of split between 2:00 but I
totally understand it and best of luck and be safe on the road.
Hi Snook, I've been watching your videos for a while now.
What you do is amazing and just imagining and how much work you
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put into this gives me goosebumps.
I wish all the worst to my grandmother and I don't regret
it. I'm a 17 year old girl and
English is not my first language.
Ever since I was little, my grandmother, my father's mother,
has been a terrible person. I come from a small family,
myself, my dad, my mom, and a brother with a severe disability
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Grade 1 handicap. When I was young my grandmother
used to send us money so my dad could take care of me and my
brother, but she constantly spoke badly about my mom.
In 2017 my mom passed away when I was nine years old.
I was then moved to live with one of my mom's sisters and my
depression got even worse. After my dad found out about my
first S word attempt, he moved me back home where I lived with
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my grandmother. Unfortunately my dad was working
abroad so he wasn't home very often.
My grandmother took out her hatred on me because my dad had
fallen in love with my mom, a woman of Roma, gypsy and
ethnicity. She kept me locked inside the
house. If I wanted to go outside, I had
to lie and say I was doing something for school.
Mental abuse was an everyday thing.
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She constantly manipulated and insulted me.
If a cup wasn't put back in its place it would turn into a full
blown punishment. She would humiliate me in a
awful ways for even the smallestmistakes.
At school I was bullied because she didn't give me money for
personal hygiene. I had to wash my own clothes in
the sink. My depression got even worse
when she kicked me out of the house.
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She falsely accused me of stealing 100 Ron, about €20 and
we had a big argument. That was the first time I stood
up to her, and when I fought back more aggressively than she
expected, she kicked me out. I lived in my high school
dormitory for a year, surviving only on my school scholarship.
Now I live with her again, but she acts more peaceful because
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my dad cut contact with her for a while due to her abuse.
She's pretending to be a loving grandmother now just to get back
in its good graces. I tried to make this a short
story. Thank you.
Hey Snook, sorry if this is pretty sloppy, I'm typing this
on my phone. So when I was younger, about 6
or 7, I had this cat named Alvin.
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And he was a little fella and hestuck with me everywhere.
But one night I let him out and you know, I was a bad kid.
I torture him because I thought it was funny.
So when I woke up that morning, it was mad cold.
So I dunked him in underwater for fun, which is terrible.
I don't do that anymore. And I left him alone, and I came
outside and saw him on my soccernet.
He had strangled himself, and I just watched.
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I feel terrible to this day. Hey Snook, I'll start off by
telling you what you already know.
You've done us a great favor by providing us with a platform to
express our troubles. Your videos have helped me get
through exams and I actively wait for each new job.
Excuse any mistakes I make as English is not my first
language. Now to my sins.
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In a previous video of yours mentions the confession of a
fellow viewer about his dark, murderous tendencies, which
prompted me to share mine. Firstly, let me clear this,
there is barely any rule of law where I live and at the time
this incident took place, thieves and criminals of this
sort ruled my city. It got to the extent that any
time a theft was caught, they were burned alive.
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Horrible, I know, but it was necessary.
About two years ago, an incidentoccurred with my mother.
A thief held her at gunpoint in stole her purse.
He was, however, caught in the other street.
When I was in my house. Sleeping.
When I heard about the incident,I immediately got up and ran to
her as. Fast as I could.
She was like a shrewd or two away and there she was crying.
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Just then the thief who was probably high screamed how he
was going to R word her and her daughters and that's when I
snapped. I picked him up by his collar
and started beating the fuck outof him.
At first no one stopped me. They understood my frustration
and I didn't stop either. I kept going punch after punch.
First his teeth broke, then I heard his jaw crack and after
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that I have no memory. The next thing I remember was my
mother slapping me and screamingat me.
I turned to look around and saw the man.
I was beaten up was beaten up toa pulp, blood all over the place
and as you may have guessed, he was dead.
This was two years ago and to this day I do not regret what
happened. If I could, I would do it all
again. 1000 times over and another thousand times after
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that. Am I fucked in the head?
Absolutely. Do I wish I wasn't like this
again? Absolutely, the incident had
impacted my life severely. Some sympathize with me while
others severed all connections with me.
As for the legal proceedings, the authorities couldn't give
half a fuck that a drug addict was killed, whether there was
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now a murderer roaming free amongst the people.
But in my opinion all this was needed.
There were innocent people murdered in cold blood, all for
a phone worth maybe 30 bucks. I hope this makes it to one of
your videos so that I may have an opinion of people who don't
have a bias for me. Would love to hear what you've
got to say too. And once again, thank you for
all you do for us. I hope your channel grows and
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achieves the fame it deserves. Thank you for sharing man.
I really appreciate it and thankyou so much for the kind words.
But I don't think you're monster.
That is a horrific situation yougot put in and your mother's
life was put at stake. Your family's life was put at
stake and everything was just, you know, a high stress
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situation. And I can't say I would have
acted any differently than you. That is a horrific situation
that I hope everyone listening doesn't have to endure.
But I can't blame you for how you acted.
I mean, who knows what that guy could have done.
He would have made threats against you.
He made threats against your family, made threats against
your mother. He robbed your mother.
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And, you know, you lost some friends.
People called you a monster. But what if you never, you know,
did what you did? I don't think he meant to kill
him, you know, who knows? But I appreciate you sharing and
like I said, I really don't think you're a monster.
Thank you so much for sharing. But you're put in a self-defense
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situation and I don't know any other route you could have
taken. You know, if you want, I'd
recommend talking to somebody about this that's a heavyweight
to hold to yourself and just talk about how you feel to just
people around you. That's an important thing.
And like I said, thank you so much for sharing.
I really appreciate it. And everyone watching, please
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leave your feedback to this guy down below.
I'm sure he'd appreciate it and thank you so much again.
On to the next one. Someday I'm going to commit S
word. It's hard to put all my thoughts
into words that people can understand.
I've tried before and I'll try again.
It starts with my parents. It's nothing they've done but I
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really resent them for giving birth to me.
My mom has terrible anxiety and I'm sure you can guess which
child got it passed down to them, but it's not a typical I'm
afraid to go talk to someone or the I'm afraid of a job
interview kind of anxiety. I genuinely cannot textualize
how much I hate people who say Ihave anxiety.
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Then I see them out with friendsgoing to stores, this and that.
I can't do mundane things like walk outside because I'm afraid
people will look at me. When I first moved to college I
was stuck eating out of the makeyour own salad section because I
was too afraid to go tell the lunch staff what I wanted.
Things like walking into a storeI've never been into before.
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It makes me sweaty, gets my heart beating abnormally fast,
and I even get faint sometimes. Every time I have to go outside
for things like class or dinner,I see people with other people
and I hate it. It's a constant reminder that I
can't do anything with people orreally anything of that matter.
I have no one, no doormat, no one to eat with, no one to do
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really anything with. I have one friend up here that
I've known for my whole life, but even then I'm too afraid to
send them a text asking if they want to do something.
Someday he and I are going to dwindle in our friendship
together because I seem uninterested when I really am
not. The biggest kicker is talking to
people about it. I hear all the time in your
videos to talk to someone like atherapist or medical
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professional. I have.
I've been to two therapists and a doctor before.
I truly have gone nowhere. Every single person I talked to
doesn't understand me and I gaveup trying.
Every time I leave a therapy session or the doctor's office,
I leave feeling terrible that they couldn't understand me and
wonder where I went wrong tryingto describe my issues.
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Truth is, I'm done. I don't care about anyone
understanding me anymore and I'mready to leave it all behind.
I obviously haven't yet, but I know someday I'm just going to
snap and do it. But I feel like that's OK.
You know? People always fear death, but we
really shouldn't. I'm not religious and I'm not
scared of what happens after death and there's no reason to
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be fearful we won't know we're dead.
If it wasn't for the people thathurt and the age to buy a weapon
in my state, I would have done it already.
I've had enough of the fake. I understand you will get better
or you're doing all right. I don't know when it will be,
but if things don't change, I will not see 21.
And this one was a heavy 1. I don't have a ton to say since
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you said you've talked to therapists, you've talked to
medical professionals, but I really think you should.
I don't know, you know, practicemeditation, mindfulness.
I think something like meditation and mindfulness.
I, you know, used to have anxiety, still kind of do a
little bit, but, you know, just sitting there for a few minutes
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a day with your eyes closed trying to, you know, imagine
nothing almost. It just really helps to breathe.
Breathe. You don't need a, you know, you
don't need somebody. You don't seem to want a
therapist or it doesn't, you know, work, But things take
time. A therapist or medical
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professional won't get it right the first time.
They're just people, too. And so I really think you
should, you know, stay consistent with therapy, stay
consistent with, you know, visiting your doctor, talking to
your doctor, trying to outline all your issues.
You know, I think a mix of meditation, mindfulness, just
trying to, you know, have patience for the therapist.
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I think they can help you out. That's all they want to do.
And so please, just keep going. Please keep going.
Just take it a day at a time. And that's what I say to
everybody. Just say today I will try my
best to, you know, make today a great day, whether that's
talking to a therapist, trying to, you know, get them to
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understand you a bit better, spending an extra minute
meditating, breathing, trying torelax.
You know, you maybe you've heardall this before and you're just
going to ride it off, but that'sup to you.
I really believe you can get better.
Things do get better, but havingan attitude that things won't
get better, then they won't get better.
You have to try and slowly buildthat attitude up, turn it around
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because things can get better. There is countless, countless,
countless people who have been in the exact same position as
you and now they're doing fine. It just takes time and it sucks.
It definitely does suck, but youcan definitely get out of this
rut. And I just believe that, you
know, spend time breathing, relaxing, doing things you love,
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and then slowly, day after day, do something new.
Talk to a new person, go to a new store.
Like you said, it'll take time. I'm not saying this will happen
after a day or even a week or even a month or even a year.
This will take a long time. But I believe in you and just,
you know, trying to, you know, end it, so to say is not the
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answer. It's never the answer and I hope
you're watching to the end. I, I didn't mean to put this at
the end of the video. You know, I just usually have
these all listed out in no specific order, but I believe in
you and everyone watching the video can believes in you.
I please just, you know, a day at a time, just keep going.
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Something will change and don't just say I'll never be better.
Just focus on today and then tomorrow and then the day that's
ahead of you or the day that's in front of you.
You've got this. You matter more than you know,
and more people love you than you know.
And I believe in you. Everybody watching this believes
in you. Everyone watching, Please give,
you know, some kindness or advice.
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If you've dealt with anything similar, I'm sure they'd
appreciate it a lot right now. Everybody loves you.
You've got this. I believe in you.
Much love. And with that final heavy
confession. That wraps up some insane
anonymous confessions and all ofyou you're not alone.
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You've got this I'm here everybody watching here you've
got somebody that loves you. Please don't think that you know
doing it or you know, ending it is the answer It's not the
answer. Trust me, you've got this.
Just take a few a few minutes each day to spend some time
yourself, breathe and just you'll just take it a day at a
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time if you're in a situation like that.
But I love you guys. You guys are the best.
Thank you so much for watching. This was Snoke and I'll see you
next time. Bye.
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