Psychic in Combat: Navy Veteran Monica Lynne on the GATE Program, Navigating PTSD, and and Working as an Intuitive Weapon Inside a System That Denies It Exists

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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Next up on Soul Level , human.

Speaker 2 (00:02):
You probably don't remember, but if you went to
public school in America in the1990s, you were 100% tested for
psychic ability.
If you passed the first testthat you didn't know you took,
you were given a second testthat you didn't know you were
taking.
And if you passed the secondtest you didn't know you were
taking, you got put into theGATE program.
The GATE program was the Giftedand Talented Education Program.

Speaker 1 (00:26):
You didn't come here to play safe.
You came to remember your powerand build what comes next.
I'm Sylvia Beatriz, psychicmedium and intuition coach.
And this is Soul Level Human,the podcast for truth tellers,
cycle breakers and soul ledrevolutionaries.
You didn't come here to bypassthe chaos, you came here to lead
through it.
You came here to lead throughit.
What you just heard before thatintro was actually a TikTok

(00:49):
that I came across back inJanuary.
That's Monica Lynn.
She's an aircraft mechanic, acombat veteran, a psychic.
We get into PTSD navigatingveteran life with psychic seals
and witchy powers and how shestays grounded these days.
But how about I just play you alittle bit more of that TikTok?

Speaker 2 (01:09):
I was a psychic in the Navy.
I actually got discovered whenI was in elementary school, at
10 years old, through the GATEprogram.
The GATE program was actuallyrun by the CIA and because they
did it in elementary schools,most people assumed that they
meant gifted and talented, likeyou may be gifted at reading or
talented at math.
That's not what they meant,babe.
They meant do you have a gift?
Are you talented at psychicability?
First of all, what they werelooking for was people to serve

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in the military and they werelooking for somebody that was
good at a specific psychicability called psychometry, the
ability to read the energy ofobjects.
I actually can feel the energyof mechanical objects and I can
tell you where they're broken.
That is what the GATE programwas looking for.
Does anybody remember thesecards, the cards with the
pictures on the back and oneperson would hold it up and you

(01:52):
were supposed to be able tovisualize the picture on the
other side of the card.
They would say specifically theword visualize on purpose,
because they did not want you toguess.
They wanted to know if you knew.
The two tests that they gaveyou to determine whether or not
you would go into the GATEprogram were IQ tests, and the
military entrance test is alsoan IQ test.
Those tests are testing yourprocessing speed.

(02:14):
The gifted and talentededucation program was meant to
test whether or not you werecapable of psychometry.
I was in a squadron called HSC84.
It was the only squadron in theNavy that was dedicated
specifically to specialoperations.
Support malfunction, anoperational failure I could feel
inside both of my chest andsomewhere right here behind my

(02:52):
nose.
I wish I could like point tothe place where it is, because
it's like an intersectionsomewhere right in there, and I
visualized the part of thehelicopter, the mechanical piece
that was going to malfunctionand I can say something about it
before they ever take off theground.
There were at least seven thatI can remember where I just
suddenly felt this feeling likesomething was going to happen
and I said something to somebodyand I went and fixed it or I
went and checked on it, andsometimes it would be really

(03:13):
small things.
It would be bolts that weren'ttight, tiny screws, cam locks
that weren't put in all the waythat would possibly cause one of
the covers of one of thegearboxes to fly off and into
the road ahead or just get lost.
I did it as well a few timeswith my second squadron, the
passenger plane squadron.
We did not go into combat atall, but there were a few times

(03:33):
where I just out of nowhere gotthe feeling and so I said I'm
going to go out in the hangarand check on the plane, and sure
enough, I'd walk out there andthere'd be a major hydraulic
leak, something wrong with thejack screw in the plane or just
any number of things.
But I can feel the energy ofobjects.
Now how does that come in handyin my daily life?
My friends literally alwaystext me to find their lost shit.
They'll be on the other side ofthe country, but it grows good.

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I still find I can feel it andthink about the object and I can
see wherever it's sitting in mypile of things that I need to
clean up.
Do I still try to clean?
Yes, but am I good at it?
Absolutely not.
Objects also all feel verydifferent to me, so trying to
organize them is actually reallydifficult for me.
To me they are differentobjects and they don't go
together, even if they are thesame thing.

(04:17):
I can feel the energy betweentwo different objects of the
same thing.
They just completely feeldifferently to me.
Anyway, this is something thatI've actually taught people how
to do.
It's not that difficult tolearn.
Most people can actually do italready.
They just don't realize they'redoing it.
It does take some patience toget a lot better at it and be
able to use it.
Honestly, I would say about 80%of the people that I've tried
to show it get it really quickly.

(04:37):
It's really easy.
I literally just pick up thingsaround my house and I say, hey,
what's in my hand and I don'tshow you.
But what I teach you is how todecipher.
Most people get it right withinthe first few tries or within
five or six minutes, and theonly thing that I'm actually
teaching you is how to pick outthe correct information from the
rest of the energeticinformation that you get.
Anyway, I hope you learnedsomething today and if you
didn't, then go drink some water.
And even if you did go drinksome water, because it

(04:59):
definitely doesn't work if youdon't drink enough water- Okay,
so you get it right.

Speaker 1 (05:03):
She's awesome.
I had to have her on.
I immediately commented on thisTikTok and I said I was going
to send her a DM and she's likeI never checked my DMS and I
never really read my commentsand yours just stuck out.
And I checked my DMS and herewe are.
Some things are just meant tobe.
An energy speaks for itself,and if you're in my world, I

(05:24):
think you're starting to getthat right.
We recorded this interview acouple months ago and the
exciting update is that hermetaphysical shop is up and
running on Buckley Space ForceBase.
Monica's stories are absolutelywild, so stay tuned.
You are in for quite a ride.
Let's get into it.
For quite a ride.

(05:44):
Let's get into it.
Monica, welcome to the podcast.
We were just hanging out and Iwas like I need to start
recording because we're talkingabout way too much good stuff.
So awesome.
Yes, let's do it.
I'm excited.
You just told me that you arein the middle of opening up your
business.
Yeah, tell me more.
That's really exciting.
So I own a metaphysical shop.
It's called Conjuring Craft.

Speaker 2 (06:01):
Let's start with the fact that I own several small
businesses and yeah, tell memore, that's really exciting.
So I own a metaphysical shopit's called conjuring craft.
Let's start with the fact thatI own several small businesses,
and every single one of them hasbeen started out of the premise
of me wanting to buy stuff,because I have a shopping
problem and I'm not afraid toadmit that or are you an?
Expert curator exactly ifyou're gonna have a shopping

(06:22):
problem, have a selling problemtoo.
The main thing that I sell ismini incense.
A lot of what I do is aboutsetting the intention or setting
the energy, the feeling of thespace that I'm in, and scent is
the absolute easiest way to dothat.
Scent is the human strongestmemory receptor.
Even the way that you tastefood has to do with how you

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smell your food.
A lot of how you experience theworld is through your nose.
It is one of your strongestfight or flight senses as well.
If you smell smoke, you'regoing to turn.
You know, everyone knows whatcertain scents smell like, even
things like natural gas andstuff like that.
That is deadly If it's in theair.
It can kill with a spark.
It's a poisonous gas thatdoesn't actually smell like

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anything.

Speaker 1 (07:04):
They make it smell like something, so that we smell
it and so that we know wow.

Speaker 2 (07:09):
A lot of what we do is focused around scent and so
when I'm trying to set theintention of the space, the
energy of a space, if I justwant to have a good day, when
I'm cleaning, when I'm doinganything, all of those different
things have a scent to them.
When you're baking and stufflike that.
So if I'm just going to sitdown and do crafts, instead of
like baking an entire pie beforeI do that, it's easier to just

(07:30):
throw an incense that burnsreally quickly and it doesn't
get overwhelming.
And I do that for everything.
If I'm cleaning, I open mywindows, I go around the house
with my sage and then I goaround the house with one of my
incense and I'll put music onand it makes it so inviting.
If I could tell anybody anyadvice if you work from home,
you have to make that space aspace that you love.

(07:53):
I promise things would be somuch better, the space that you
come home to.
Every single time you walk inthat door you should be like, oh
my God, it's magical in here,Like there should be.
No, I hate this place.
We go through a lot of stagesin life where we end up places
where we don't want to be, andeven in the most restricting of
spaces, when I was in themilitary, I would sit down and I

(08:16):
would, at the minimum.
What am I allowed to have?
The maximum of whatever I'mallowed to have.
I'm going to have, if I canhave decorations, just whatever
it is that makes me happy and ifminimalism makes you happy,
then keep it that way.

Speaker 1 (08:33):
Your senses are going to be the fastest way to hack
any kind of energy signature,because we are in a body.
Right now we are literal soullevel humans.
So that is the perfect way toget into working with energy.
It's with the body.
So brilliant Love that.
So then you went into thistoxic relationship that took you
completely by surprise.

Speaker 2 (08:52):
These dudes are out here pretending to be somebody
that they're not really well isthe thing.

Speaker 1 (08:56):
Okay, so with all these guys pretending to be
something that they're not andyou have all of these skills and
sensitivities as a which, as asensitive person, how do you
walk that line?

Speaker 2 (09:07):
My friends are probably terrified that I'm out
here in the world by myself somedays.
There are a lot of things thatI'm just out here doing for the
plot.
I have absolutely been inrelationships where I knew like
my intuition was sayingsomething's wrong and I'd be
like, well, I also see thatwe're going to get to go on a
trip here, so I'd be like, well,whoops.

Speaker 1 (09:24):
Worth it.
I guess we're going to do it.
Cost benefit analysis let's go.

Speaker 2 (09:28):
I'm like, let's go, and every single time, exactly
what I thought was going tohappen happened and I'm like, oh
well, next.

Speaker 1 (09:36):
Well, I have to commend you for your courage
actually, because that takes alot of guts to to know exactly
what you're walking into and beable to go in eyes wide open and
just go in for the experienceof it.

Speaker 2 (09:47):
I think honestly.
I don't think that I would beable to do that if I wasn't in
the position that I was most ofthe time.
I understand that, like, everysingle one of the situations was
always just a learningsituation.
If you always look at it fromthe perspective of the fact that
you are just here to beenlightened, you will always be
enlightened by your experiences.
Literally every single thingyou will actually be able to

(10:09):
look at and be like wait aminute, what did I learn?
and sometimes most of the timeyou're gonna be like, oh, I
gotta stop being a bitch, I getit very humbling, um, because I
mean, like most of the time,yeah, you are just like playing
around with people who,hindsight 2020, you'd be like
what was I doing?
Dating that dusty scrub?
Anyway, he could never and hewas in here being disrespectful,
absolutely not in my house well, we all have our lessons to

(10:32):
learn.

Speaker 1 (10:33):
Let's just put it that way exactly, which is why I
just go for it.

Speaker 2 (10:36):
I'm like, if it let, if I got led to the water, I'm
gonna drink it there you go.

Speaker 1 (10:41):
How did you come to realize that you had extra
sensitivities and that otherpeople didn't have them, and
when did you kind of startworking with them on purpose?

Speaker 2 (10:51):
The absolute first memory I have of realizing that
I could do something that otherpeople couldn't was when I was
probably.
I'd be like three or fourbecause, I realized that my
parents couldn't hear me when Italked telepathically.
My sister could, and I realizedlike and like she would even

(11:13):
like explain it to me, like theydon't do that.

Speaker 1 (11:17):
They don't get it, but we do.
Yeah, they don't get it, but wedo.
What is your sister?
What's the age difference?
She's two years older than me.
Okay, cool.

Speaker 2 (11:22):
So it's like you've always been together and you
have this connection.
Yeah, and when I started Ithink it was probably when my
sister started going to schoolAt some point I remember being
dropped off at like the houseacross the street right
Babysitters, and I hated thatplace.
I hated that woman.
There's nothing wrong with her,she was just stressed, I guess,
and I could feel her stress alot.

(11:42):
I hated that feeling she had alot going on.
She was super overwhelmed and Ireally remember trying to like
tell my mom and just realizinglike oh my God, nobody even
understands me, they can't dothis.
I remember being a baby andjust like fully understanding
adults, conversations aboutcompletely adult subjects, and I
mean like less than one yearold, less than two years old.

(12:04):
I remember listening toconversations and like having
opinions on it.
A lot of times especially, Iwould listen to people and just
be like, oh, they're silly, theyjust don't understand how any
of this works.

Speaker 1 (12:15):
I know that feeling.

Speaker 2 (12:17):
And it's funny.
It's funny as an adult becauseobviously, like you lose a lot
of those abilities as you gothrough trauma.
So then like I could startgoing through trauma and other
things as I grow older and thenlike there's been times in my
life when I have thought back orI've had like a memory
resurface and I'd be like, wow,I was so much wiser when I was a
child.
I need to wait a minute.

Speaker 1 (12:34):
Let's reconnect with that girl.

Speaker 2 (12:36):
Oh yeah, Hold on.
I was like wait a minute.
I knew this what am I doing?

Speaker 1 (12:45):
Like well, we're out out here playing clown games
with these clowns.
I'm glad you had your sister,though, because so many, so many
of us are out here winging itall by ourselves over here.
Oh, that's amazing that you hadyour sister.

Speaker 2 (12:52):
Yep, I remember time in between like my lives, in
between, like incarnations, andI do have very faint, but
they're definitely therememories of like planning to
come down here with my sisterand me kind of being like you
need to go first because like Idon't have time for this when I

(13:13):
come in here, and like when Iget here I need somebody to
already be able to get me stuffand do things for me.
And sure enough, that's myperspective of our relationship
as really young children is likeI remember my first memory of
actually communicating with her,like telepathically, but I
remember I needed ketchup on mychicken nuggets because they
were so dry, and she was overthere like biting her little

(13:36):
chicken nuggets when my mom hadcut mine into tiny little baby
pieces I had to be less than ayear old, but they were dry and
so I was just nomming on drychicken nuggets but she had
never given me ketchup.
So my sister goes and startsasking for the ketchup, right,
and my mom is not payingattention.
They're arguing about a planthere and she's saying she wants
ketchup and my mom's you know,they think a two-year-old's

(13:58):
playing and she ended up givingme ketchup and they're like, oh,
she loves it.
But like it was not my firsttime trying ketchup, my sister
had let me try ketchup because Ilooked at her and I was like
what is that stuff on your plate?
Why are you dipping yours insomething?
And mine are nasty?
I remember that conversation,like all through our childhood
we all kinds of things.
My parents convinced her thatshe couldn't hear me and so she

(14:19):
stopped being able to hear me.
I know everybody always hearsthis story story from me and I'm
like it happened.
I'm not sure if she remembersit or not.

Speaker 1 (14:25):
Actually, Are you still close now?

Speaker 2 (14:28):
We're not probably as close as we used to be because
we both live in completelydifferent states and we have for
a long time.
I came in from school one daywhen I was like I'm going to
join the Navy.
I was too young to join mysister.
He graduated high school andshe was going to the community
college and I came in Septemberwhen I turned 16, I came in

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saying okay, I actually talkedto the recruiter today and he
said I have to wait till I'm 16and a half, so I can't actually
sign until March.
And so I don't know if I gaveher the idea or something that
was an ROTC.
I wanted to go into themilitary a higher rank, so I had
gone on a trip where they tookus to sit on the back of a

(15:11):
KC-130.
It's an in-flight refuelingplane.
So we got to drive to SeymourJohnson Air Force Base from
Charlotte, north Carolina, whereI grew up.
We drove to Seymour Johnson AirForce base and we got onto the
plane and we got to lay in theback of the plane next to the
in-flight refueler they'recalled the boom operator in the
air force while f-18s came up tothe plane and we watched them

(15:33):
in-flight refuel.
And so I came back from thistrip with all these pictures and
all this stuff and showed mysister and I was like look how
cool this was.
And it was like a week later shecame in the house was like I
joined the air force.
Whoa, of all people, you'regonna join the air force.
You're gonna go like run stufflike this.

(15:53):
And uh, sure enough, she wentin to be a boom operator.
That was what she originallywanted to do, but that job has a
lot of math attached and shehates math.
So she eventually was like waita minute, this is not math test
, that's.
I don't want to be doing thismy entire life and that's what
that job entails.
So now she's in logistics, butshe's still in the Air Force.

Speaker 1 (16:12):
Wow, so she's still in.

Speaker 2 (16:13):
Yeah, she just hit 16 years, so she's going all the
way.
It's crazy.
She's getting ready to go onanother deployment sitting here,
I think, so I was like that'swonderful for you.
Yep, both of our parents areveterans too.

Speaker 1 (16:25):
Our whole family's been military.

Speaker 2 (16:27):
She left November 2008 and I left in July of 2009.
You're in the military, you'regone.
The opportunity to be close isnot actually handed to you.
You know what I mean.
There's several times where youjust don't even have your phone
.
And as soon as I joined, samething.
I went to bootcamp, went toschool, got to my first squadron

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and within less than a yearfrom getting there, I was in.

Speaker 1 (16:51):
Iraq.

Speaker 2 (16:51):
So we were both out in the desert different times,
back and forth on deployments.
All the time you don't get tosee people for years sometimes.
But we make, do we all did areally good job of trying to see
each other when we could.
We all spent a lot of holidaysalone or out of the country as
well too.
But we see each other a lotmore now that I'm actually out
and I basically just do what Iwant for work.

(17:12):
It adds up content creationright the possibility to do
whatever you want.

Speaker 1 (17:17):
So, timeline wise, we're already talking about you
being in the military.
Let's rewind a little bit.
Actually, let's go into theGATE program, because that's
initially how I found you.
You were doing this wholeseries, which was awesome.
On the GATE program, which Iwasn't a part of, I went to
Catholic school, no Right.
So I'm like wait, tell me more.
This is incredible.

(17:38):
And I always had heard of otherkids in the neighborhood like,
oh yeah, I'm in the gate program, blah, blah, blah, and I'm like
OK, what You're doing, what now?

Speaker 2 (17:45):
Yeah Well, first I intended on doing a whole series
on it but, to be honest, I haveso much going on and I'm going
to sit down eventually andanswer some questions in the
comments.
I think that a lot of peoplereally expected me to turn
around and continue talkingabout things of that nature
without realizing that that'snot my.
I make crafts for a living.
I don't.

(18:05):
There are people who talk aboutall kinds of metaphysical
topics, et cetera, for a livingand that is their focus and
that's what they love.
That was part of my life.
It's actually really traumatic.
That video going viral has keptme up at night.
Even talking about it like thathas been some of the scariest
things for me.
People ask me all the time,literally in my comments.

(18:28):
All the time they say you'renot worried, that someone's
going to come from you?
Fuck, yeah, I'm worried, butI'm so confident, I know how
good I am at what I do I can saythat no one's coming for me.
Also, if anybody on this planetknows how good I am at what I
do, it's the people that wouldcome for me.
So I know, and they know, thatI would know, if they're going
to come for me.
So no, no one's coming for me,but like is it?

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Do they want to?
Yes, is it a possibility?
Have I gotten?
Have I had interactions withpeople who I knew were sent to
try to dissuade me from talkingabout what I'm talking about?
Absolutely.

Speaker 1 (19:04):
Yes.

Speaker 2 (19:04):
That entirety, that a whole thing of the men in black
and blah, blah, blah thatpeople talk about coming up with
giving them death threats andstuff that has happened to me.
I just don't fucking care.
I don't think that peopleunderstand.
Like when you're looking atderanged, you're looking right
here.

Speaker 1 (19:19):
I don't care.

Speaker 2 (19:20):
I do not care.
I think that, like I said, alot of people don't take it from
the perspective, but I was theone that was standing out there
in the war doing what I wasdoing.
I'm not scared of a lot ofthings that people are afraid of
.

Speaker 1 (19:40):
You've stared it in the face Like what do you have
to?
Absolutely have several timesand also, I understand that none
of this shit's real anyway.
Afraid of what?
Okay, so slow it down.
What is the GATE?

Speaker 2 (19:47):
program.
I'll mention it.
It's not that I'm not going tosit down and do a series.
I just have so much going onand I'm going to do it a
different way.
I'm going to let it pan itselfout, but the GATE program itself
for listeners that don't know,was a program that the CIA was
and I'm pretty sure still is,running in schools.
It stemmed from the GatewayProgram, the Gateway Program

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most people have.
If not, you can definitely justvery easily look up the Gateway
Tapes.
It's a series of tapes thatwere meant to give you an
existential experience.
It's directions on how tomanipulate energy, directions on
how to astral project,directions on outer conscious

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things that the world has tooffer right.

Speaker 1 (20:32):
Yeah, they're on Spotify and YouTube, by the way.

Speaker 2 (20:34):
Yep, you guys can find them.
I definitely actually recommendgoing to look at them because
it's good to know.
I mean, listen to them, it'sgood to listen to things.

Speaker 1 (20:41):
A lot of people are afraid of them.

Speaker 2 (20:42):
They're not scary.
I promise you when you dothings like this, nothing that
ever.
If it's scary, you're scared ofsomething within yourself.
It's not scary.
You're scared of things youdon't know, maybe that's scary,
I get it, I get it.
But it is not.
If you actually listen to them,nothing weird is going to
happen to you.
I mean, like something weirdmight happen but it's not going
to be bad.

(21:03):
On the other hand, something Iwill say very specifically about
those tapes and going into theGateway program and the Gate
program, is that those tapes,from what they originally were
used for in the military andwhat they have been declassified
as have been altered, portionsof them that are still going to
be used for military use are notin the declassified portion

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because they're still using them.

Speaker 1 (21:28):
A lot of people talk to me all the time and they say,
well, I've never heard of that.
What program are you in there's?

Speaker 2 (21:33):
no information about it on the internet.
Why the hell would there beinformation about it on the
internet if they're still usingit?
Come on, guys, I know commonsense isn't coming, but we got
to get there.
So the gateway tapes as theystand.
They change them.
You can listen to works forcertain things, just the same
way that if you sat down and didyour own meditation, you could

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find your own ways to get tothese conclusions.
There are several people thathave astral projected and have
no clue what the gateway tapesare.
But they're not going to giveyou all of your answers.
They still don't necessarilywant everyone to just come to
full enlightenment, because thenyou're dangerous to them.
They can use you, but not ifyou come to full enlightenment.

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The same way that I, when Ijoined the military, I knew that
I could do what I could do.
I knew that they didn't knowwhen I kind of went in more as
curiosity because I realizedthey wanted me to go do
something.
So I was like let me see whatit is.
But when I became aware ofexactly what it was that I was
doing, it's almost like reachinga little bit more enlightenment
for me in the physical level.
I was like wait a minute, I gotto go.

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This is not good, I got to go.
So they're not going tonecessarily hand you the
instructions on just how to getpast the gate.

Speaker 1 (22:46):
I mean, if people knew their own power, we would
be very difficult to control andthat doesn't serve a lot of
people.

Speaker 2 (22:52):
Yeah Well, one of the biggest problems is, if people
knew their own power, they wouldhave a hard time controlling
themselves.
So it's not just that we wouldbe difficult to control, it's
not just that we would bedifficult to control, it's that,
based on the trauma that we'veall experienced, when you
realize your own power, you haveto have a lot of discernment in
controlling yourself.

(23:12):
You have to have a lot ofdiscernment in what you realize
you're able to do to otherpeople.
From my perspective, from whatI know I've done in the military
, I could very easily say Icould fuck people up all the
time, but I choose not to dothat because I'm nice.
There's a lot of people thathave done a lot of things to me,
not at all at all realizing howeasily I could have turned

(23:34):
around and easily ruined theirlives, and not based on
something that I did, just basedon some like loop a backdoor
that they didn't realize thatthey left open a situation that
they put themselves when theydidn't realize they didn't have
the amount of leverage that theyactually thought that they had,
where they hadn't been coveringtheir own P's and Q's, they
hadn't been minding their ownfricking business.

(23:56):
So, you know, they come uptrying to be mean to me and rude
to me and don't even realizethat, like I could turn around
and slam them legally.
I had a boyfriend one time.
I wouldn't call him a boyfriend, he was a friend who went to
prison.
It was a white collar crime.
He stole a bunch of money.
He went to prison and then thepandemic happened when he went
to prison.
Originally he tried to not tellhis family that he was going to

(24:17):
prison, which was the worstidea.
Zines are hilarious.
Anyway, I go to a craft showone day, right, I'm selling
items it's a vendor show and hesends me a weird text and I'm
like I just get this reallystrong feeling I need to go home
.
So I tell my friend, I'm like Iknow it's like halfway through
the show, but something's weird.
We got to go home.
I get home and he has taken allof the furniture out of my

(24:38):
fucking apartment.
What?
Everything is gone.
Everything the bed, theeverything, except for my couch,
the tvs, everything is gone,everything is gone.
And he has now disappeared.
He thinks into the nightwithout a trace and he's written
me this stupid, egotistical ashell letter that he left on.

Speaker 1 (24:58):
It was so stupid many layers of chaos right there,
whoo I knew exactly where he was, I jumped straight on amazon.

Speaker 2 (25:04):
I'm'm psychic.
Y'all don't understand howpsychic.
I jumped on Amazon and I satdown for a second and I started
just typing, right, I typed anaddress.
I know he was at that address.
I get what I get right.
I sent a book called Angry andAbusive Men to his.

Speaker 1 (25:22):
You may never see me again.
But you got that back, bitch.
But you got that back.
But you got that back, bitchyou're welcome.

Speaker 2 (25:29):
But I mean, like at the moment, he was not on my
lease, he had just been releasedfrom prison, he was had an
ankle monitor on, he was onprobation.
I legitimately could havecalled the police at that moment
and reported it as a theft andI could have said I know exactly
where he is, you're gonna showup and you're gonna find every
single one of the things thatwas in this apartment.
He had unplugged my cameras andstuff like that.

(25:50):
So like I had recordings of thestuff, having been there before
, I had a recording that day ofhim being there.
I probably had a recording ofhis friend, his cousin, showing
up to help him get the shit outof my apartment.
I didn't look, but Ilegitimately could have called
the police and been like thisman, he's at this address, he
stole my stuff, you will find it, and he would have gone right
back to jail.
No question, five year minimum.

(26:12):
You just not only violated yourprobation, but you robbed
somebody.
You robbed an entire apartmentand your cousin.
You can go with you.
I could have got two peoplethat night like stop playing
with me, but instead I decidedto get online and send him a
book because this bitch assneeds it.
That's mercy.
Maybe you'll fucking readsomething.

(26:33):
Man Woo Again, when you havethe ability, you have to have a
lot of integrity on where youdecide to use the power, and I
got confirmation weeks laterthat that was exactly where he
was.
I knew I got the change ofaddress letter in the mail.
Stop playing with me.
Stop playing with me.
Y'all are crazy.

(26:54):
You think I can't seeeverything that you're doing and
that's not the first time Icould have done that different
situations, but like samepremise with several
relationships that I've been in.
But they definitely have to havethe integrity and have done the
healing people get intimidatedwhen you are doing something
that they can't do, that theyjust can't do, especially in our
society.

(27:14):
We've got so many men that havebeen told just over and over
and over you're the man, you gotto be the leader, and boys
don't cry and they don't showemotion and just all these other
things that were not onlydesigned specifically to block
their chakra system block theirenergy, keep them low, keep them
with all this negative energystuck in their body.
So they can't function out ofintuition and they can't

(27:36):
function out of love, literally.
But they are told somethingthat is just not true, what
makes me think that they shouldlead the people.
If you can have a whole tribeof people without the man there,
because you incubated it andyou had it and it needs to eat
from you, then obviously youcome with naturally born
leadership ability.
Animalistic instinct would tellyou that you're supposed to

(27:59):
lead these little animals thatneed you to survive.
They're literally sucking onyour titties for food?

Speaker 1 (28:03):
they're not.

Speaker 2 (28:03):
They're gonna die without that, but the dude can
go away.
Then, okay, maybe you weren'tactually supposed to be the
leader, but they're told thisover and over and over and over,
on purpose, by a system thatdoesn't actually let them be a
leader to begin with, so thatthey think that they're supposed
to do something that they can't.
They can still control the restof the population, but they can
never actually get in charge.

Speaker 1 (28:24):
Right Control is not leadership.

Speaker 2 (28:26):
Exactly.
But that's but.
They don't want to controlunless they get told they're
supposed to do something thatthey can't do.
So now they think they'resupposed to be the leader.
They don't actually havenatural abilities to do that,
because they were never supposedto naturally have to lead
people.
It's not that they can't, theyshouldn't, they weren't supposed
to have to do that, that wasnot their role, not to say all
men, because there's several menthat do, but most of them don't

(28:49):
have the natural born abilityto make decisions for a large
group of people, rationaldecisions that works for
everybody, because that's nothow they think.
That's why we don't see themhaving, you know, big
babysitting parties, becauseevery single one of those kids
now needs to be taken care ofand, if he is actually just bred

(29:10):
, to make sure that he is safe,because to be a protector, to be
able to go hunt, to be able togo gather, you only have to make
sure you're working right, youdon't have to make sure
everybody else is working.
You only have to make sureyou're working.
If that's what you're born todo.
You're born to function.
You are a piece in the wholemachine, but you're not the
director of the machine.
The director of the machine iswho's overseeing all the parts

(29:32):
and doing the maintenance backbehind the scenes.
That's the woman.
And then again, in our society,men get told you're supposed to
be the leader, when reallyyou're not.
You're supposed to be thestrength, but it doesn't need to
be the leader.
And then the trauma comes whenthey turn around and try to do
that and it's just not whatthey're good at.
And now they just start yellingand now everyone's upset again.

(29:53):
I get why we see men actinglike that.
We have this whole culture oftrying to be the alpha.
What?
alpha Gross, no one's asking you, actually, we're asking you to
stop trying.
We don't need you to be, wedon't want you to be the alpha.

Speaker 1 (30:04):
Right, and it would be so much more beneficial
Exactly For you it would be somuch more beneficial if you
would.

Speaker 2 (30:09):
Just when we have an alpha idea, we could give you
that one thing that we need youto do and you could go do that
one thing, and then everyonecould relax.
Yeah, we're not asking thatmuch.

Speaker 1 (30:19):
Okay, curious, bridging it back to the gate
program, Knowing what we knowabout society, patriarchy, all
that right now as adults.
Did you notice anything backthen being in the gate program?
Was there like?
So interestingly girls and boysWas there like equal divide and
just to recap the gate program.

Speaker 2 (30:39):
It was positioned as an accelerated learning program,
right gifted and talentededucation, although like they
also wouldn't let the parents inthere to see what the
curriculum was or what they wereteaching, all kinds of stuff
like that.
And I mean, my mother was ateacher at our elementary school
, so like when they're notletting the teachers in to see
what the kids are doing, it's alittle bit sketchy.
So like when I told her Ididn't like it, I wanted to get

(31:01):
out, she was like yeah, I don'tlike it either, because how is
that?
Okay, yeah, those kids behindthose closed doors.
These random people are comingin from where to do what and
they won't.
Let us see it Like that's weird, right.
But you know, whatever peopleturn their blind eyes to,
whatever their kids are beingtaught, because they also,
honestly, probably don't knowwhat they would be teaching them

(31:22):
themselves.
So it is what it is.
But the gait program girls andboys, everybody got tested as
far as like preliminarily.
I don't know if there wasnecessarily a higher I.
I do think that there was ahigher percentage of girls that
actually ended up passing thefirst cognitive test and in the
program but it was kind of evenas far as it goes at that stage.
I do know that the recruitmentprocess from that program it's

(31:46):
not that they're looking foranything, they're looking for
specific things, people whoscore high in specific things
and also have other specificattributes about them.
Personally, I scored very highin psychometry.
I'm really good at feeling theenergy of objects.
But another attribute that theywere looking I'm a witch.
Literally I am a witch in thesense of the energetic fact that

(32:09):
I can affect physical energy.
It sounds crazy to people, butI can affect the weather.

Speaker 1 (32:15):
Probably not crazy to the listeners of this podcast,
but go on.

Speaker 2 (32:19):
It sounds crazy to a lot of people who've just never
heard things like that.
Like I can affect the weather.
And I mean like it doesn'tsound crazy to people who get it
, because when I say that, a lotof people's eyes will light up
and they'll be like I knew it.

Speaker 1 (32:31):
I knew it.
I knew people could do this andI'm like absolutely.

Speaker 2 (32:34):
you can Like when you look outside and you think,
like, did I just make it storm?

Speaker 1 (32:37):
Yes, the hell you did .

Speaker 2 (32:41):
I work best when I am in a group.
I can most strongly affectphysical energy when I am in a
group, just like anything right,You're always going to have a
covenant.
It's always going to be theprinciple of the military.
The way that they work and theway that they're harnessing all
of this power, to begin with iswitchcraft, just so you guys
know.
But it literally is.
All the things that all, all ofthe things that they do are

(33:01):
rituals.
It's all repetitive.
They're wearing uniforms,garments.
Everyone's moving the same,doing the same thing.
Your repetitiveness is a ritual.
Every single time you wake upand do the same thing every
single day in the military, it'sa ritual.
They're making you read out ofthese books.
It's the exact same thing.
Those are spells, babe.
They got y'all.
Anyway, mind you, the reasonthat I'm there is because I'm a

(33:23):
witch.
That's what they're doing andthat's what I know how to do,
because that's how it works.
So I can affect other people'sphysical frequency.
I can affect the energy of aroom.
I can change other people'sphysical frequency, a group of
people I can change everyone'smood at the same time.
I can change people's thoughts,and it takes a lot of energy.
They create a lot of energy bycreating a specific squadron and

(33:47):
handpicking the people in thatsquadron, instead of just saying
like let's fill this place withpeople that do these jobs.
They literally from elementaryschool.
They say that person and thatperson and that person.
So you know they get thousandsof people.
And then from those people theystart trying to contact them
telepathically to try topersuade them to join the

(34:07):
military.
And if they can get thosetelepathic communications,
there's just one more thing onthat list If they come and
they're getting thosecommunications that they're
sending, they're like, okay,well, they can hear us too, so
that's something we're lookingfor.
So every single time you haveone more thing that they're
looking for.
It's like you pass throughanother gate.
And then, obviously, in theastral realm, when you get
communication, when I get energy, when I see if you can see that

(34:31):
far into the future, if you canread energy that well, I feel
all the things that are going tohappen as well and they know
that.
They know that I see what'sgoing to happen in the future.
They know that I know that I'mgoing to end up out in a war and
I'm going to go throughdifficult.
The difference isn't like justsaying difficult from a surface
level, of saying it's going tobe hard, or like actually

(34:51):
knowing, feeling, seeing thelevel of difficulty that you are
about to be up against, themental strain, the physical
strain.
So they know that I know thosethings.
And if you're not afraid of themone of the things that, uh, we
all operate in frequency fear isa very, very low frequency
energy.
You can't do any of thesemagical skills if you're afraid

(35:13):
to operate in that zone, ifyou're afraid to do things like
go out into a war, if you'reafraid to get shot at even
things like that, if you areworried about it, even you can't
do it.
So if they are sending thesetelepathic signals and you're
basically passing these tests,you pass their written tests,
you pass their little card testsand their mental tests and then
now you're passing their testsof getting the telepathic

(35:34):
information and then you passthe test of are you afraid to do
this to begin with, like, ifyou feel that energy and you
know what's going to happen, youactually can't do that.
Are you worried about it?
And if the answer is no, thenyeah, you're in there.
They want you in that squadron.

Speaker 1 (35:47):
So all these, tests that you're mentioning.
Are they in the GATE program oris this like a wider Nope, this
is a wider nope.

Speaker 2 (35:57):
This is way bigger than the gate program bigger
okay, the gate program was avery preliminary.
Let's find somebody that we canmonitor throughout the rest of
their life and see if we caneven get them towards us um so,
from then, that squadron that Iwas in and you asked about
separating but like, were theremore boys or girls?
the reason that that squadronexists?
The special operations teamsfirst of all.
Let's never, ever say that themilitary does anything for one

(36:19):
specific reason, even the factthat I was in there as a psychic
, but like, you're not justgoing to fricking stand around
and be psychic, fix something,do something.
If you're in here, you betterwork right.
The special operations teamsfirst of all.
They got to get where they'regoing.
Helicopters, that's how theyget there.
You don't need the same levelof training for helicopter

(36:42):
mechanics and helicopter pilotsthat you need for the special
operations teams.
So there's no reason to havethat as the same people we are
considered special operationssupport in that squadron.
But the reason that thatspecific squadron that I was in
because it currently doesn'texist.
It commissions anddecommissions for conflict Only
when there's a time of war, onlywhen there's a specific mission
, only when we have somebody togo get.
You can find information aboutthe squadron on the internet.

(37:03):
It's called HSC 84, by the way,it started as HAL 3, it
decommissioned, it returned asHCS 4, and then it changed to
HSC 84, which is the one that Iwas in.
It does have a sister squadron,hsc 85.
That still exists.
It is still in commission, it'sin San Diego, they're all the
time.
But 84 is the one that goes outto conflict.
Hal 3 was Vietnam, hcs 4, Ibelieve, was for Desert Storm

(37:27):
and then HSC 84 was forOperation Iraqi Freedom,
enduring Freedom and New Dawn.
So which were the three that Ideployed for?
But that squadron again existsbecause they need women in that
squadron, they need women aroundthe special forces teams.

Speaker 1 (37:43):
Are you saying that that squadron is all females?

Speaker 2 (37:46):
No, not at all, Actually when I got there, there
was only four or five femalesthere's barely females but they
need to have a placespecifically to put the female
psychics that they find, becausewe have a much stronger
intuition and, honestly, theyneed to have things set up just

(38:06):
in case, right so they have tohave that there just because
when they do find the peoplethat they're looking for, nine
times out of ten they're women.
But they couldn't have women onthe special forces teams.
Obviously I said obviously,we'll get to that in a second,
but it's not so obvious why theydon't.
I'll tell you, guys, and it'snot why you think.
But uh, they have to have asquadron that can be in contact
with what the special forces aredoing but can also conceal a

(38:30):
female psychic.
I can't just ride around withthe seals in the helicopter.
They'd be.
What the hell are you doing?
Why is she going?
Literally, what is she therefor?
Women aren't on special forces.
There are only women in specialoperations support.
There were never women inspecial operations For one.
That's a safety issue.
These guys, some of them, arelegitimately huge If we're all

(38:57):
out in a combat situation.
I don't even have to explainwhat the Navy SEALs get into,
because we can watch movies andwe can get enough of a thought
right.
But at me as a 126-pound, 5'7female can't drag a dude if he's
shot.
I'm not useful in thatsituation.
I can't help right, that's notmy skill set.
And if I'm just there becauseI'm the psychic and I can tell
you if something's going to gowrong now, I'm just a liability

(39:19):
to get shot.
I can't keep up.
The reason that they now allowwomen into special forces and I
love to set this record straight.
A lot of people think that theyhad this like epiphany, that
they're like yeah women can dothings too and like women's
empowerment Wrong.
They need to make sure that ifJohn shows up one day and says,
guys, I identify as a woman, butJohn is a trained Navy SEAL,

(39:44):
that John doesn't get sent homebecause John is needed.
John is a special person.
There's only a certain amountof people very, very, very, very
, very small percentage of thepeople who even have the balls
to try to be a Navy SEAL,actually get through that.
And if John decides he wants towear a dress and show, then by

(40:05):
all means, but we still need you, but we still need you Got it.
This has nothing to do withwomen's empowerment.
They get women close to thespecial forces operations teams
and the reason that they needwomen still on those teams
basically is through the specialoperations support squadrons
and through people like me justhanging out pretending to be not
pretending to be an aviationelectronic technician.

(40:26):
I was actually working on this.
I was absolutely not pretendingwe were working, um, but at the
same time I have basically likea double job that I'm just not
allowed to tell anybody.
I I would have gone to thegrave with that secret.

Speaker 1 (40:42):
And so why are we talking about it now?
What's what's different?
What's changed?

Speaker 2 (40:46):
You want to know what's funny?
Yeah, I'm going to.
We're going to spill some teathat I don't even know who cares
at this point.
I got pissed off in January.
I this is a long story I gotpissed off at a lot of people.
Actually, it was a culminationof a lot of people pissing me
off.
First of all, I'm out of themilitary.
The information that I have,based on what I've done, is a

(41:08):
lot of the information thatthey're trying to keep secret.
But I'm also know what I am andam not giving out.
I wouldn't give out informationthat necessarily puts anybody
in jeopardy.
If that squadron were tocommission again, it's not like
you would know or know who, orever ever be able to figure out
whether there even was or wasnot an active psychic in that
squadron working.
It's not how it works at all.
Not only that, the person whois the active psychic in the

(41:29):
squadron might not know thatthey are the person that's doing
.
That it's legitimately, it'strue.
I can't even.
There's a lot of people in themilitary right now that are in
positions doing something thatthey do not know that they are
there to do.
They are working completelyunder the guise of a job, not
realizing that their intuition,specifically in that squadron,

(41:51):
is actually so much strongerthan everybody else's that they
don't realize it.
But if something goes wrong, itwill activate the's that they
don't realize it.
But if something goes wrong, itwill activate the feeling that
they're supposed to activateright.
That being said, let's get intowhy.
Why I'm snitching um.
I, I have severe ptsd.
Good god, I can't wake up andwork um and main like by the

(42:15):
time the pandemic started, I wasso happy when I got laid off
because I I remember it wasabout two weeks before everyone
actually ended up getting laidoff.
I went a full week where Icouldn't even get out of bed.

Speaker 1 (42:26):
I was so depressed I couldn't go to work.

Speaker 2 (42:28):
I mean like I was.
I had used all of my off time bylike February of 2020.
We'd start in January.
So, like I couldn't workanymore, I was mentally not
making it and I tried to applyfor disability through the
military but somebody did mypaperwork wrong and they denied
it.
So I had to send it to theVeterans Board of Appeals and it

(42:52):
sat there from April of 2020until earlier this month.
No, literally, so I mean likethat was in 2020.
I was living in Dallas.
I mean like I started trying towork on my business.
I was doing everything else totry to have a job because my
brain just could not allow me.
I couldn't take care of myself.
Like right, yeah, deterioratingmy brain is literally melting

(43:15):
from combat trauma and atraumatic brain injury and just
being in the military in generaland just all these other things
I'm trying to keep up with.
I had two houses at the time.
I lost one of them.
I was so sad, like my tenantslost their jobs as well during
the pandemic.
The house sat empty for sixmonths and I mean like I could
have saved it.
I legitimately had the optionto sit down and do paperwork to
put it into forbearance and savemy house.

(43:37):
And I would have still had ittoday.
But I was so sad that I couldnot.
I couldn't get to the mailbox,I couldn't mail the paperwork
and I didn't care.
I thought I was going to killmyself.
I didn't care, but it's okay.
I had two houses.
I got a backup house.
I still got a second one.

Speaker 1 (43:49):
That's why you always get two Silver linings up in
here Silver linings up in here.

Speaker 2 (43:56):
I was trying to find ways to not have a job.
Like I said, I'd sent that tothe Board of Veterans Appeals.
I ended up moving to Michiganwith that boyfriend who then
started being abusiveimmediately.
So I ended up back at home withmy parents.
I didn't want to be there, but Iended up there during a year
when my sister and her husbandor ex-husband at the time, both
ended up on deployment at thesame time, like their whole wing

(44:17):
went overseas.
Her son ended up with myparents, so I ended up there at
the same time as him.
So that was cool because Iactually yeah, and I really
loved being there.
To be honest, I cooked myparents dinner every night.
They miss me because they'velost their entire personal chef
and I, you know, just did stuffaround Charlotte.
I grew up there.
I don't like it, I would neverstay there, but I got to hang

(44:38):
out with my nephew and helpwhile he was there and help my
parents who are getting olderand I got to make them dinner
every night and stuff like that.
So that was.

Speaker 1 (44:45):
I love taking care of my family, so yeah it was a lot
of fun.

Speaker 2 (44:47):
So, uh, I I wanted to get a job.
I wanted to move out.
I decided I'm going to move toDenver.
I feel this intuition.
I need to move to Denver so Ican start my business.
But I needed money to move toDenver.
I had a lot of debt to pay off,et cetera, et cetera.
After my boyfriend myex-boyfriend had destroyed my

(45:07):
business, and so I knew a friendat the time who offered me a
job.
This is a crazy story.
By the way, just if you'reready for this, this gets wild.
April 2023, I drove across thecountry to go help my
grandparents out.
They're also getting older.
My grandmother fell, she was ina nursing home, et cetera, et
cetera.
I drove from North Carolina toCalifornia to stay with them for
a month and help out.
While I was out there, a friendof mine that I met in Dallas
was going to the Space Tech Expoin Los Angeles that's held

(45:31):
every year at the conventioncenter, and she was working as a
sales representative for acompany that I shall not name on
this podcast right now.
Look, they better watch out,because I honestly don't give a
fuck.
I'll start naming it.
They're on your list.
I'll give y'all a wholegovernment out.
Sue me because they can't doshit because they know what they
did.
Anyway, I started working forthis company.

(45:53):
It was based in New Hampshire.
Long story short, let's skipall of the small drama, that
wasn't important.
They ended up hiring me as thedirector of engineering for the
company.
The company, to be honest, itwas a disaster, worse than a
disaster.
The condition that the companywas being kept in cleanliness
and tools and all that.
It's terrifying and I can'teven, I don't even want to say

(46:17):
it because it would cause it's alarge industry.
Let's just say I'll say it's alarge industry that could keep
you, that could fall out of thesky.
We'll stay there.
Also, I'm an aircraft mechanic,so just keep that in mind.
But it's bigger than that.
Aside from the company justbeing a wreck no structure, no
hierarchy, no, nothing.
Hierarchy, no, nothing.
Terrible job, terrible people.

(46:37):
The president's wife was doingseveral jobs and was also hr and
all these other things wascompletely aside from the fact
that this woman five inches frommy face, shoving her fingers in
my face, saying I have workedunder the stress of machine gun
fire, like no, you haven't.

(46:58):
You were a clerk at a federalcourt for two years.
You haven't worked under thestress of machine gun or
anything, and you couldn't evenimagine.
Why would you say that to acombat veteran?
Why would you say that tosomeone who.
I have nightmares about that.
Anyway, that company ended updeciding to move me to Denver.
I originally was going to quitbecause even my own parents were

(47:21):
like I wouldn't believe thathalf of that stuff had happened
if it hadn't happened to you.
We went to a company dinner.
One time she shoved her fingersin my soup.
This is the president's wife.
That's disgusting.
And the HR representative ohgood, yeah, like stuff like that
.
The whole company.
I mean like just disgustingpeople, racist.
The president himself.
We're working with engineersfrom NASA.

(47:42):
These are some of the topengineers in the country and
this man's over here asking themwhat they think of his hot,
young black director ofengineering.
She's hot Like the fuck when wego on flights and he says
things to me like well, I wantyou to experience first class
once in your life.
Bitch, I've flown on Air ForceTwo.
I got flown to a deployment onAir Force Two.

(48:06):
Stop, I'm important.
I don't think y'all understand,so things like that.
Anyway, they decided to move meto.
I was going to quit.
I was like this place isterrible, you guys are terrible.
I was like I'm going to workhere for the rest of the year
and I'm taking my ass to Denver,because I hate this.
He had the bright idea We'llpay your moving expenses, we'll
move you out there.
Sure, let's go Absolutely.
He had the whole plan.

(48:27):
We'll pay here in June.

Speaker 1 (48:39):
Paid my living expenses and everything like
that Great.

Speaker 2 (48:41):
In July he decided that they didn't actually have
anything for me to do out here,so they weren't going to pay me
anymore.
So now I was living at homewith my parents and I was in a
financially safe position.
Because I still struggle toremember to brush my fucking
teeth.
I don't think people understandhow bad PTSD really is when you
have gone out to combat.
It's not even necessarily aboutlike the things that you've
done or whatever.
It's being out there and beingon the ground when a bomb blasts

(49:01):
near you does something to youthat you don't realize it's
doing energetically and it comesand takes a toll on you later
in life when you just think thatyou're coasting along, going
fine.

Speaker 1 (49:10):
Especially as an energetic person like you are.

Speaker 2 (49:21):
Yeah, and I mean like again, I, everything that we
did out there.
They don't even know I was outthere doing.
On top of all of the trauma ofa normal life, I have the trauma
of every.
I can see other people'sthoughts.
They came back from murderingpeople and I could see it.
I could see it, I could smellit, I could hear it, I.
They came back with the spiritsof the people that they killed
that I can talk to.
I came back, I like, I likeshook.
I was 18 years old what thefuck was that?

(49:42):
And, like I said, so now fastforward to 2024, all of 2024,
I'm working for this company.
That's just absolutelydisrespecting me, treating me
terribly.
They moved me to Denver, theyshut off my income, but they say
oh, you can still travel and doour service work, perfect.
So now I'm supposed to betraveling twice as much as I was
to begin with, which isstressful for me because I'm
still trying to get my businessset up.

(50:02):
I have my cat, I'm on my own,like people don't realize, and
I'm still struggling with PTSD.
I'm just able to make theincome.
No, they send me on one servicetrip a month.
I barely go anywhere.
I'm not making any money.
Literally, I'm like struggling.
I was eating nothing forfucking weeks at a time,

(50:24):
sometimes like cheese andtortillas, because they're not
paying me enough.
I still have a house.
I still.
I'm in a $3,000 a monthapartment that I was affording
when they were paying me, butthen they just shut my income
off and I was like you gave meno chance.
December comes, the girl thatwas originally my friend, that
was a sales rep for the company.
She's going to go back outthere and do whatever they're
doing because they've got somestupid stuff going on that they

(50:46):
don't know about and she wantsme to watch her cats for her.
But I am at home making craftsbecause I sell miniatures for a
living, because the only moneythat I can get because this
dusty ass company cut off myincome is from selling earrings
and shit.
She gets mad that I won't watchher cats for free.
She only lives like half a miledown the street.
She wants me to go down theretwice a day and puff an inhaler

(51:08):
in her 12 year old cat's faceand I tell her like I can't go
over there every day.
This was a trip where she endedup taking her cat with her
anyway.
First of all, it's hard for meto leave my house.
She wants me to get dressed andgo out in 20 degrees when it's
raining, snowing outside, to gohalf a mile down the street when
I'm making stuff, and for methat's like a two hour process

(51:28):
of coming to a stopping point ofwhat I'm doing cleaning
everything up so that my own catdoesn't get hair and things
that I'm sending to people.
This is my business.
I'm a again disabled veteran.
Can you please cut me a fuckingbreak and understand that I
can't go watch your cat?
And on top of that, you want meto do it for free.
I don't have any money to beginwith.

(51:49):
I tell her that veryrespectfully.
She immediately writes me backand says oh, you're being a
bitch already, blah, blah, blah.
And I was like if I'm such abitch, figure it out on your own
.
These are your cats.
None of this has anything to dowith me, but that's how you're
going to act when I'm doingsomething for you as a favor.
I was like you need to watchhow you talk to people.
She said that chip on yourshoulder is even making your

(52:23):
outfits, just laughed and Iwrote her back and I said you
dress like a circus clown.
And I must have hit a fuckingnerve because she because she
wrote me back immediately andwas like stop messaging me or
I'll block you.
Right, let me show you whatkind of nerve I hit.
You're this is gonna.
This escalates to the point youcouldn't imagine when I said
that she messages me and saysstop messaging me or I'll block
you.
But I'm like you're not aboutto block me because she has my
spare key.
We live in Colorado.
She had my spare key from myapartment on her key ring in
Manchester, new Hampshire, onher car keys Anyway.

(52:44):
So I got mad that she had mykey.
She says I will block you and Isay don't, I'm thinking like
you have my key.
So then she blocked me.
Like five minutes later I lookI'm blocked, right.
She came home and went down tothe Denver County Court Office
and she filed a restrainingorder on me and in the
restraining order this is acivil protection order it asks

(53:05):
you like what has this persondone that makes you think that
your life is in danger?
And she wrote that I wouldn'twatch her cats.
I texted her to ask for myspare key back.
And I wouldn't watch her cats.
I texted her to give her, toask for my spare key back and I
wouldn't watch her cats.
And then the last statement.
She wrote that I'm a Navycombat veteran with severe PTSD
and several weapons and Ithreatened to use them
frequently.

(53:25):
And then in one of thestatements she wrote I mean like
they were escalating she wroteI had threatened the life of the
president of the company that Iwork for and I threatened to
shoot up the airport.
So she went in there, told himto fire me.
He turned around and fired me.
This was all in December.
Right January 6th I had to go tothe fucking courthouse to wipe

(53:48):
her ass across the courtroomfloor about the fact that we
don't call the police becausepeople don't want to watch your
cats, and the judge had to giveher a very stern talking to
while she cried it'sdisrespectful.
People go for a civilprotection order, people go in
there and don't get them granteduntil they're in fucking body
casts.
This girl did it about her catsLike stop playing.
At that moment I realized likewhat am I going to do?
Like what am I going to do?
I legitimately have zero incomeright now.

(54:10):
My disability is not comingbecause it's sitting at the
Veterans Board of Appeals.
So I wrote them an honest letterand said this is my situation.
I'm in financial distress, Ineed help.
I'm a veteran, I can't work.
If you open this and you don'tdo anything about it, then I
guess my death will just be onyour hands, right?
I got a letter back that saidit will be dealt with in the

(54:32):
order that it was receivedliterally again.
And then I got pissed and thisis how this ties back into the
GATE program and I woke up oneday and I had that email that
said or it was a letter I openedthe letter that said they'll
deal with my appeal and the youknow, there's other people on
the docket, yours will get there.
That was the same thing that Igot back the last three times
and I jumped on video where Istarted and was like you might

(54:54):
not remember, but if you were inelementary school, you were in
America, you were tested for theGATE program and within minutes
of putting it up I mean likeminutes it had several thousand.
Like three minutes later Ilooked at it and I was like all
right, there's like three orfour thousand people on there.

Speaker 1 (55:11):
I was like there you go.

Speaker 2 (55:12):
That's what happens when you piss me off.
And the comments startedflooding in.
Everybody started saying thesame thing.
They were like oh my god, I hadforgotten this happened.
You just unlocked a memory forme.
You just did.
And this is exactly why noone's coming for me, because if
I can wake people up like that,I'll fuck everyone up.
That whole story culminates inthe fact that the reason and

(55:32):
quite literally I was in theshower that morning thinking
like what am I going to do?
And I'm pissed at this bitchfor taking me to court and I was
like you know what I'm about toget out of this shower.
I'm going to make a videothat's going to wake up enough
people that the government isgoing to realize they need to
turn around and grant my shit,or I'll wake everybody up, like
I can do it in little incrementsor I can do it all at once.
Y'all don't want me to do itall at once, and so I did it in

(55:54):
a little increment.
And the amount of people thatturned on there and they said oh
my god, I didn't remember.
You just unlocked the memory,you just reminded me of so many
things.
I posted that video on like athursday or something like that
monday morning I had a uh letterthat said that my appeal had
been advanced on the docket,like that's right by magic as if

(56:15):
by magic, as if y'all were likeoh no, you don't have to do
that, don't wake everybody elseup.
Like that's exactly whathappened.
You're probably the firstperson that's heard that story,
other than my friend shannon.
But thank you, don't piss meoff, because I will.
I will wake everyone up anyway.
That's how that video ended upgetting made, which is why I
said like then a bunch of peoplethought that I was going to

(56:36):
start making like more videos of.
I wasn't even intending.
I didn't wake up thinking likeI need to enlighten the world on
this one video.
I was actually just pissedbecause what do you mean?
I get to get thrown around bysome company that's just putting
everybody on the planet's livesin danger.
To be honest, I I've doneeverything that I could to try

(56:57):
to whistleblow on that companyfor the atrocities that they're
committing, but we'll see whathappens.

Speaker 1 (57:03):
I will blame it all on one person.

Speaker 2 (57:05):
If anyone wants to know who did this, that bitch
that took me to court- wheneveryone wakes up, all over the
cats, it were.

Speaker 1 (57:13):
It was those cats that awaken the world, literally
.
It was those cats that awakenthe world.

Speaker 2 (57:16):
Literally, it was those cats that awaken the world
, because she pissed me off.
And that's what happens,literally.
I put that video up and it'sstill getting posted, that same
video.
Yeah every week I get someonethat sends me another pages post
of that video and they're likehey, this is you, and I'm like I
can't hear my voice anymore.

Speaker 1 (57:33):
I know, okay.
So with all of this, now you'resitting with taking care of
yourself, dealing with PTSD,dealing with the very human
logistical paperwork bullshit ofthe world, and also being so
energetically sensitive andfeeling everything that we're
going through as a collectiveand everything that's coming.
That's a fucking lot.

Speaker 2 (57:56):
I'm also starting a business In speaking on how I
manage all of those things.
At the same time, it'sinteresting that you say that I
actually just had a client sayto me how are you doing so much?
Aren't you overwhelmed or areyou just like really overwhelmed
and not saying anything?
And I was like no, I'm notreally overwhelmed, because I'm
not telling myself that you'renot actually overwhelmed until

(58:20):
you get to the point where youcan't say it as somebody that's
been to that point.
you're not actually overwhelmeduntil you realize I'm afraid to
even tell anybody, I'm afraid totell myself, I'm afraid to
acknowledge that I'm overwhelmed.
If you can still say this istoo much shit, then it's not
that much shit.
Then you're okay, you're stillgood.

Speaker 1 (58:40):
PSA for everybody in the United States right now.
If you can actually stillcomplain that you're still doom
scrolling.

Speaker 2 (58:46):
You're actually fine, yeah, if you look down and you
say I need to be doing somethingelse.
I'm wasting all this time.
You're so good If you canactually say that to yourself.
There's days that I've beendoing that and I didn't realize
I was doing that.
You get to a point where youcan't say it to yourself.
On the other hand, I also hadto explain to her that's how you
get there is saying it toyourself when you're not there.

(59:07):
If you keep saying I'moverwhelmed when you're not
overwhelmed, eventually you willbe that overwhelmed because
you're creating it Every singleday.
You're feeding yourself alittle bit more of overwhelm.
You're saying, up, today we'remore overwhelmed than we were
yesterday and then we're gonnabe a little bit more overwhelmed
tomorrow.
Like if you just say I'm notthat overwhelmed, I have a whole
bunch of shit to manage, yeah,but like I'm managing it, I'm

(59:29):
getting a little bit ofeverything done every single day
, then yeah, it is what it isand if, if I don't, then oh well
.
I've ignored things for five,six years before, and then, when
I turned around to figure themout, they were still right there
.
So get your shit off.
Who cares Exactly?
So, yeah, it is a lot to manageand I mean, like I'm doing it.
I can't say that I don'texperience stress or anything

(59:50):
like that, but I also I'm havingfun doing what I'm doing, and
one of the ways that I teachpeople to manifest is to stay in
the same headspace that youused to have when you were a kid
.
Kids can manifest thingsbecause they can pretend,
because they actually are ableto detach themselves from their
physical reality and let theirmind create those things to the

(01:00:14):
point where they remember thatthey're there.
If you create a pretend housein your driveway with your
friends when you're little andyou say that's the bedroom,
that's the kitchen, you rememberwhere those rooms are.

Speaker 1 (01:00:25):
You don't make it so real.

Speaker 2 (01:00:26):
Yep, you make it the toilet, you make it so real to
the point where you knew thestructure of that house.
A lot of people would probablybe super surprised to find out
that if that was how theypretended a lot when they were
little, they probably grew up tohave a lot of the things that
they didn't realize they weredoing in their childhood play
sessions.
They were thinking I'm going tohave this house, I'm going to

(01:00:48):
have this family, I'm going tohave this, this and that and car
and blah, blah, blah.
They don't remember that as anadult they have a lot of those
things I just happen to rememberand I happen to also realize
that that's how I got them andso I tell people all the time
stay there.
And that's what I do with myown business.
I don't wake up energetic andready to tackle my business
every single day, and nobodythat has a small business or
works for themselves is going todo that.

(01:01:09):
It's not fun every day.
It's a lot of work.
You don't want to get up and doit, you don't want to edit, you
don't want to post, you don'twant to whatever.
I wake up every day and when Ifeel like that, I pretend that I
am a child again and I thinkhow would I have imagined this
as a child?
I would have woken up and Iwould have told myself I'm a big
executive of a big company andI live in a big city and I live

(01:01:31):
in a really nice apartment onthe top floor and I have a great
view and I can look around andall those things are true.
And then I'm like wait a minute, this is exactly where I want
to be Hold on.

Speaker 1 (01:01:40):
What am I doing?
Why am I?

Speaker 2 (01:01:41):
sad, Like let me just get the small things out of the
way so I can enjoy the reason Iwanted to do this.
And as you stay in that pretendzone, you realize you're
actually affecting higherdimensions and that shit will
start falling into your life Imean, like dominoes.
People don't understand howmuch power you really have to
just make things show up.

Speaker 1 (01:02:01):
Can you think of any one story that's like that?
That would be like what.

Speaker 2 (01:02:06):
Honestly, I could say I do a lot more manifesting for
other people that I noticebecause, for myself.
I'm just kind of like rollingwith the flow and then like
things show up, honestly, thisentirety of the situation moving
out to Denver, knowing that Iwas supposed to be out here, and
now how it's changed to me,having found a physical location
that's almost like uncannilyperfect for my business.

Speaker 1 (01:02:29):
Do you have anything else that you want to share, any
parting wisdom for all of us inthe great collective awakening
of 2025?
Oh man, oh my gosh, hang inthere, man, hang in there.

Speaker 2 (01:02:41):
We have so much going on.
We're looking at politicalsituations and just everything.
Right, people themselves,everything is vibrating higher.
Everybody feels a lot more.
We're sensing a lot more.
Drink water, drink a lot, a lot, a lot of water and hang in
there.
It is so much easier if you cansee everything with a sense of
humor and it sounds like acoping mechanism.

(01:03:02):
It is a coping mechanism, butit's okay to cope.
I think that a lot of oursociety, in seeing things like
that, get the idea that like, oh, if you're using coping
mechanisms, then like you haveproblems to fix.

Speaker 1 (01:03:15):
Yeah, it's fucking right, I have problems to fix
that doesn't mean that I don'tneed to do something it's also
so ableist Like oh okay, soyou're not supposed to use
crutches if you have a brokenleg, or what Exactly?

Speaker 2 (01:03:25):
Exactly so.
I mean like, yes, coping if youneed to use dark humor to get
through it.
I mean like, use dark humor.
I try to be really careful andreally responsible about what I
post on the internet and what Isay when I post, because I know
I have a lot of followers thatdon't take the things that I say
with a grain of salt and theyin their minds my brain is
always on and everything I sayis the holy grail and it's gonna

(01:03:47):
happen.
So I try to avoid saying thingslike it's gonna get worse
before it gets better, but Imean I will say y'all should
probably brace for shock.
It's gonna get worse before itgets better, but I mean I will
say y'all should probably bracefor shock.
It's gonna get worse before itgets better, but at this point
it's just it needed to happen.
I posted on my own tiktok thatwe needed things like the
current administration.

(01:04:08):
It's not to say that we lovethat they're happening, but we
need things like this to happenso that we see why it's
important to pay attention tocertain things, why it's
important to take everybody intoaccount, why we would consider
not just paying attention to thepeople that are in charge, but
who else is going to be put incharge with them, right?

(01:04:29):
What if that person is incharge, what will they do?
Will they be, be fair?
Will they be a leader?
Again?
These leadership things keepcoming up, so like that's the
most important thing I can tell.
Anybody is again, hang in there, drink water, but, like that
sense of humor, just see it as abad boss.
Every, everybody, everybody isa bad boss.

(01:04:52):
Every single time someone'sdoing something wild, you
probably can look at them and belike, all right, well, I
wouldn't work for you.
And I mean like, in that sense,don't work for people you
wouldn't hire.
If you look at your own actualboss and you think you're a
clown, quit.
Quit your job.

Speaker 1 (01:05:09):
Yeah, one last thing for holding the vision of the
world we're here to build.

Speaker 2 (01:05:24):
Can you see it?
Absolutely, and it's going totake some work.

Speaker 1 (01:05:27):
We got to cut out for us it's a lot.
We got some work to share.

Speaker 2 (01:05:31):
There's people doing it.
I mean, like, we've got youthings like the podcast.
You're waking people up.
Every single person that youspeak to, every person that sits
down and listens to it, everysingle person that learns
something from it.
That's one more tiny energeticounce of waking somebody up and
everyone wants to think thatit's going to be this large
scale epiphany.
And it's just not how anythinghappens.

Speaker 1 (01:05:51):
Yep, we're definitely playing the long game.
So just like a marathon.
We got to fuel up, we got torest up, we got to have fun
doing it.

Speaker 2 (01:05:58):
We got to find community and don't take
everything so seriously.

Speaker 1 (01:06:02):
I know.

Speaker 2 (01:06:03):
It's literally.
That's one of the things yousee people getting into
arguments on the internet andstuff like that.
So if you open your phone andit pisses you off, close your
phone.
Yeah, go for a walk, go for awalk.
There's no way you should betaking anything so seriously
that some random stranger likey'all have to understand some of
y'all are letting dudes thatare sitting on their couches in
their boxers with holes in theirone sock that they're wearing

(01:06:24):
piss you off.
Stop.
That man hasn't washed hisballs in two days, like
literally.
If you don't realize that,that's who you're arguing with
on the internet.
When you're arguing, whenyou're letting someone make you
mad yuck, that's not queenbehavior.
There it is Tap into your queen,exactly Letting these peasants

(01:06:44):
on the internet upset you is nothow we live and that's what
people who have opinions and whowould try to say mean shit to
upset somebody on the internetare.
They're peasants, or else theywouldn't be on the internet
doing that, I promise.

Speaker 1 (01:06:56):
So true.
So everybody who's listening,tap into that queen energy for a
second.
Really, just let that land, letthat expand your energy, let
that expand your body, meet yourenergy, just sending it out in
all directions, grounding sopowerfully into the earth and
grounding so clearly into yourintention.
What kind of a day are yougoing to choose to have?

(01:07:17):
What are you here to do on thisplanet?
And go fucking do it Every day,every day.

Speaker 2 (01:07:25):
Every day is the best day of your life, amen.

Speaker 1 (01:07:28):
Thank you so much, monica.
Such a good combo.
Thanks for coming on.
Yeah, it was so much fun, goodI love getting on here and
blabbing with people.

Speaker 2 (01:07:35):
And there's always something new.
I've been for the last likeyear communicating with horses
on a daily basis.
Awesome, and it's just, it'swild.
I sometimes don't evenunderstand how it's so accurate.
I literally have my friends.
She texted me yesterday and waslike, hey, he's giving us a
problem with his shoes, blah,blah, blah.
And I was like I keep hearingthe word thrush.
I'm not sure if that's like ahorse thing, or I was like she

(01:07:57):
was like oh my God, that'sexactly what he has.
I was like gosh, how do I knowthese?

Speaker 1 (01:08:01):
things that's so fun and see, that's how we can help.
That's, yeah, that's sopowerful.

Speaker 2 (01:08:07):
It's all it's out there and every, every single
person has something.
It's really important to notget ahead of yourself.
Energy can be difficult to read, so like getting ahead of
yourself, in the sense of like,if you're not ready to start
giving readings, it's totallyfine to be patient with yourself
.
People will have their likefirst spiritual awakening and
out of nowhere they're like Ihave to share the gospel,

(01:08:29):
spirituality, right, I have togive readings and I have to do
tarot cards and, like you get inall these things.
Don't think that you have togive answers.
Everything is just slowlyflowing along and it's your job
to observe and enjoy.

Speaker 1 (01:08:43):
Exactly Observe and enjoy and learn and think
critically Learn while you'reobserving and enjoying, and
don't do anything stupid.

Speaker 2 (01:08:51):
Yeah, yeah, try to think while you're down here.

Speaker 1 (01:08:57):
I like it.
Work on that noggin, I like it.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Try to think while you're downhere.
I like it, I like it.
Okay, thank you so much.
I'm going to go have some lunchGo feed your body.
Thank you for listening to soullevel human.
If this episode moved somethingin you, share it.
Text it to a friend, post toyour stories.
The soul level revolutionspreads one brave human at a
time and your voice makes adifference.

(01:09:19):
So until next time, remember toslow down, tune in, trust your
guidance and keep having theaudacity to choose the highest
timeline.
When you show up fully, yougive others permission to do the
same.
Make this the timeline whereyou show up.

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