August 6, 2025 • 41 mins
Have you ever made a promise to God that you completely forgot about until years later? That's exactly what happened to me, and the realization stopped me in my tracks. When I was around 15 years old, I made what I now recognize as a naive but life-altering covenant with God. Standing at the crossroads of adolescence, I essentially bargained with the Almighty, then I went about my life, completely forgetting this solemn vow for over a decade.
Fast forward to a recent conversation with my sister when this long-forgotten promise suddenly resurfaced in my memory. The revelation hit me like a lightning bolt—despite years of questionable decisions that should have landed me in serious trouble, I had emerged relatively unscathed. No jail time, no unwanted pregnancies, no major health issues. Now, as a recently ordained minister with a beautiful wife and our first child on the way, I realized I was living inside the fulfillment of that teenage covenant.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Grace and peace.
Grace and peace.
Welcome to another rendition ofthe Moral Compass Chronicles.
I am your boy, I'm your man,eon J.
You already know what time itis.
I'm glad to be here yet againwith you guys.
I am grateful for you, you, you, you and you.
And in the spirit of thatgratefulness, let's jump right
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into it.
Let's jump right into it.
Let's jump right into it.
I have a very, very interestingtopic, a very a topic that is
close to my heart.
It is very personal, very, verymuch so personal, and I would
love to share it with you guys,and I pray that somebody's soul,
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somebody's heart, somebody'smind is blessed.
I pray that somebody isuplifted and I pray that you
learn something here today.
Now I mentioned my sister, sav,on the last episode.
Shout out to my sister, shoutout to you, savannah Um, I was
talking to her a few months agoand in having the conversation
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with her I had, by somethingthat happened years ago,
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something meaningful, somethingpowerful am now and where God
wants to take me, and why a vowand a covenant that I made with
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God when I was probably 14, 15years old this is over 15 years
ago, so let me not tell my age,but this was over 15 years ago.
I was in high, probably had juststarted high school and I made
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a vow with the lord.
There's a song that says I madea vow with the lord and I won't
take it back now.
I want to make something clear.
I hadn't thought about this.
I hadn't thought about this vowor this covenant that I made
with God.
In years it probably at least10 years now, maybe more I
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haven't even thought.
I hadn't thought about it untilthis conversation that I was
having with my sister, and evenin the middle of the
conversation.
I'm going to tell you what itis, or what it was.
In the middle of theconversation and I know she
remembers I actually paused andwas in amazement and actually
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it's funny enough.
I actually shared it with mychurch and you know people
laughed because it was funny.
I delivered it in a funny kindof way, but it was serious to me
and as I was telling Savannahthis story, I stopped and I was
like wow, oh my God, I am living.
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You know how you, you know howwe say we're living in, we're in
the middle of an answeredprayer.
Sometimes you gotta be able tostop and look at your situation
and know that, yo, this is.
You're living in the middle ofwhat you prayed for at one point
in your life right Now.
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I, at one point in your liferight Now, I made a vow to the
Lord when I was 15 years old orso, 14, whatever, it was, maybe
30, I don't even know.
It could have been 13, 14, 15,16, I'm not sure.
And at the time it came fromsuch a naive place.
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It came from a place of aspoiled Church boy.
A young man that was fortunateto be born in Christ.
In Christ and yes, I was bornin Christ had to make the
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decision for myself to makeJesus Christ Lord and savior of
my life.
Right, I have.
Everyone has to make thatdecision for yourself.
Your parents can't make thatdecision for you, even if you're
born in the church.
Right, and you see me, I'venever been someone who just
takes other people's word forsomething.
I had to come into that formyself, right, and that's what I
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have done.
That's where the convictioncomes from.
The conviction in what I speakof comes from a place not of
indoctrination and not from aplace of naivety, if you will.
It comes from personalexperience, like.
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I want to make that clear.
It comes from personalexperience and personal
understanding of who Jesus isnot who people say he is, not
who the pastors preach about,but who I know him to be
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personally because I have apersonal relationship with God.
All right.
So I just want to, I want tomake that clear.
I just wanted to make thatclear right there, right now.
I had made that decision formyself.
That's the only reason I couldmake A vow like this with God
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right now.
I was in a place where I'm likeI know what's right and what's
wrong.
I know the life that I wantedto live Versus the life that God
was calling me to live.
Right Me being a teenager, ayoung black teenager.
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You know I'm seeing the parties.
I'm seeing the parties, I'mseeing the women, I'm seeing the
fun.
I'm seeing these differentthings.
You know the weed and thealcohol and these things that we
want to indulge in, and thesedesires start from a young age.
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Many of us know right.
Can I testify here today?
Hey, this is my platform.
Let me testify now.
All right, this is and, andthese are the things I'm seeing,
and there's a particular way oflife that I knew god was
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calling me to walk and callingme to live Right now.
I always say a lot of us who areborn in church and we have
parents who bring us to churchfrom young.
Oftentimes we're spoiled andwe're desensitized to the word
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of God, so much so that we'reable to be in church on Sunday
and do what we do, and we canparty all week and we can
fornicate all week, even onSundays, and we can do the
things we're not supposed to doand just play in God's face.
Not supposed to do and justplay in god's face.
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And more times than not, it'sthose of us who grew up knowing
what's right and wrong and we'vebeen hearing how jesus is
coming back for so long and he'snot back yet and that has given
us a false sense of reality,that has given us an idea that
we have time To play in God'sface.
But All right, let me, let me.
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I want to stay on topic, so letme stay on topic now.
Right, that is the place that Iwas in when I made this vow
with God.
Now I remember I spoke to theLord one night, one day,
whatever it was, because I wasin a place in my life where I
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knew yo, I just want to have fun.
I just want to enjoy life theway I want to enjoy life, and
let me, let me let me put myring on, give me one second.
Yes, let me, let me put one ofthem on my hand, feel naked all
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right now.
I I was in a place where I knewwhat I wanted, and the truth is
I didn't want the things of Godat that time.
But I knew it was right.
I knew God was still calling me.
I knew there was a calling onmy life to fulfill the work of
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the Lord.
Right, I knew that, but Ididn't want it yet.
I didn't want it yet.
I didn't want it yet.
And it's funny, I have somedefinitions here about what a
vow is and what a covenant is.
So a vow is a solemn promise,especially when you make a vow
and a covenant with God.
Specifically, that's what I'mtalking about.
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A vow is a solemn promise or apledge made to God.
A covenant, which is similar,it's a divine agreement or a
binding contract, and a lot ofus who are familiar with the
word of God, you know aboutcovenants that were made by the
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children of Israel, by thechildren of God, going from the
Old Testament spanning to theNew Testament, there are several
covenants that were madebetween God and between man.
All right, and I'm going to getinto some of those examples as
well, but this is a covenant Imade and this is where I was in
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my life at that 15 year old ageor so, right, and I prayed to
the Lord and I said, god, listen, and I you know, that's one
thing I've always been is honestwith god, right, listen, god
listen.
And I don't pray to him the wayI hear other people pray.
That's not my style.
I talk to him, like me, and,yes, there's a way to approach
the mercy seat at times, butwhen you just communion with
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communion with God, and you havea relationship with him and
you're I'm not always, you know,in sackcloth and ashes, I'm not
always at the altar.
Sometimes I'm walking down thestreet having a conversation
with God.
Sometimes I'm in the shower.
Sometimes I'll be workinghaving a conversation with him.
Sometimes I'm in the shower,sometimes I'll be working having
a conversation with him.
There was a time I was a busdriver.
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Those were some of my bestconversations with god when I
was driving those buses.
Those are some of my bestconversations with god.
Now I'm like listen, listen, god, I I know what I have to do, I
know what you're calling me to,but, god, you gave all of these
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old people all the time in theworld.
This is a true story, bro, lord, and I'm.
I'm thinking about my mom,who's now at that time, you know
, in her early 50s, right?
Well, let me not tell on mymom's age either, but you know
40s, 50s took her from.
You know that age.
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I'm thinking about my aunts andmy uncles.
I'm thinking about the eldersand all of these old people who
I grew up knowing in church, andall of these people who I look
up to and who are there for me.
You know that village they talkabout.
It takes a village, right, ittakes a village to raise a child
.
Well, that village I'm thinkingabout that village.
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My auntie Lorna, who who?
And Uncle G, and all of thesepeople who raised me, who are in
God now, who I knew were notalways saints.
I knew they weren't always asperfect as they portray
themselves to be some who decidethey want to portray themselves
as if they're perfect, and Iknow you're not right.
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This is me at the time, but Ican see how God took them from
where they were to where theyare now.
And I said to myself God, you,I see, essentially, I see what
you've done for others.
Lord, I just want to be able tolive my life.
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Now I'm young, I want to havefun.
Now I'm young, I want to havefun, I want to be able to go to
parties and I want to be able todo whatever I want.
I want to be able to drink andhave sex and and and do all.
And I don't know if I wassmoking weed at the time,
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because it depends on the age.
If it was like 15, then maybe Ihad just started Right.
Let's keep it 100.
Like 15 that maybe I had juststarted right.
Let's keep it 100 now.
I ain't heard a lot of nobody.
Lord, I want to be able to doall of these things.
But, god, I'm begging you notto come back yet.
Oh Lord, have mercy.
I don't know anybody relate tothat.
Can anybody testify that samething?
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You ever had that thought?
Lord, please don't.
They say the rapture is coming.
They say you're coming back andyou're coming back for a
prepared people.
Lord, I am begging you, don'tcome back yet.
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I want to be able to do what Iwant to do have my fun.
I also I want to be able togrow up and get married and have
a family, because those of youthat know me, I've always wanted
that.
The people who don't know meprobably think that I'm you know
, I've always wanted to havemultiple women and be a player
and blah, blah, blah, blah.
But those are the people whodon't know me.
For those who know me, you knowthat since I was young bro
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young, 12 years old experiencedlove at a young age and have
always wanted the wife and thekids and that sort of thing.
I've always wanted that.
Wasn't always ready for it, butI always wanted it.
Right, came from a good place,lord, I want all of that, just
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not right now.
I'm young.
I'm young and I want to havefun.
And, god, if you keep me thisis what I said to the Lord If
you keep me from harm and dangerand at the time I wasn't
thinking about the things Icould get myself into, but I
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just prayed with a, an honestheart to the lord if you, lord,
keep me through through all ofthe things that I want to do, I
promise you, god, that I amgoing to grow up, and this is
the first thing I said.
I'm going to grow up, I'm goingto be a minister, because I was
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thinking about my father, whowas a minister.
I'm going to grow up, not apastor.
I don't want to be no pastor.
I don't want to be no bishop.
I'm going to grow up, Lord.
I'm going to to be no bishop.
I'm gonna grow up, lord.
I'm gonna be a minister.
I'm gonna get married, havechildren, have a family and I'm
going to live for you.
I'm gonna do everything youwant me to do.
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If you keep me, let me have myfun while I'm young.
Let me do what I want to doWhile I'm young.
Let me do what I want to do andI promise I'm going to grow up
and become a minister.
I'm going to get married, havea family and I'm going to live
for you.
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That is the vow I made to theLord when I was a child.
And when I was a child, Ithought as a child, for sure.
When I was a child, I thoughtas a child.
I thought as a child, for sure.
When I was a child, I thoughtas a child.
That is the vow that I made tothe lord when I was a child.
When I was a child, I thought,as a child, not really knowing
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that with a prayer like that,there would be consequences.
There would be consequences.
Ecclesiastes 5, verse 4, sayswhen thou vowest a vow unto God,
defer not to pay it, for hehath no pleasure in fools.
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Pay that which thou hast vowed.
Pay that which thou hast vowed.
When thou vowest a vow unto God, pay that which thou has vowed.
And now I made that vow a longtime ago, and for a long time I
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hadn't thought about it.
You know why?
Because I was busy doing what Itold God I was going to do.
I was busy doing what I toldGod I was going to do.
That vow didn't that covenantthat I made with the Lord.
It didn't come from a place ofdesperation, it didn't come from
a place of God.
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You know, some people make avow with God when they're
desperate.
Lord, I'm homeless.
And if you deliver, like, like,that's a, that's a, that's a
vow that comes from a place ofdesperation.
Mine came from a place ofentitlement.
It came from a place ofentitlement, it came from a
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place of naivety.
I'm just trying to betransparent.
That is what I promised God andthat's what I asked God to do
in return.
And how did God respond?
I didn't realize it until I wastalking to my sister, savannah,
a few months ago, because thereis no way that I should have
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made it through everything Ihave done.
There is no reason no, goodenough reason that I should have
made it out alive.
There is no way that I shouldhave made it out without being
in jail right now.
There's no way that I shouldhave made it out without being
killed.
Oh God Almighty, I should notstill be standing.
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But god.
And now I'm gonna attributethat to a few different things,
because I mean, we talk aboutgrace and mercy.
You know, uh, getting thingsthat you don't deserve and then
not getting what you do deserve,right?
Can I talk about the grace andmercy that has been on my life
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since I made that vow?
And here's the thing I'm notsure.
Maybe I gotta do some morepraying.
I really just wanted to sharethis with everyone.
I gotta do some more prayingbecause I'm not totally certain
what it was that kept me.
Was it that vow that kept me?
Was it the prayers of my motherthat kept me?
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Is it the purpose that god havehas on my life, that he just
decided to keep me here for atime such as this, I'm not sure,
but what I do know is when youmake a covenant with god, it is
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binding, and god answered.
I was in a place in my lifewhere I felt like I was unable
to do certain things fordifferent reasons, some of which
I have already mentioned, but Ireally wanted to be able to
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live my life and do those thingsAllegedly and I got to say
allegedly, say allegedly right,but I have done some illegal
things allegedly that could havelanded me in jail.
I have been in the middle ofthings that I should not have
been in the middle of drugrelated that could have ended in
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me getting killed.
There are beefs that I have hadwhere people did not like me
for whatever reason, and I couldhave easily been in situations
where it was it was them or itwas me.
I could have been killed bysomebody.
I could have wound up killingsomebody and I would either be
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dead and in the ground right nowor I'd be in jail for 20 to
life.
I could be in the middle of alife sentence, but God kept me.
I could have been buried by mymother and my brother and my
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family, but God kept me.
I could have lost my mindBecause of decisions that I made
In the midst of that season inmy life when I wanted to do what
I wanted to do, but God kept me.
And then I asked myself thequestion well, am I upholding my
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end of the vow?
Am I upholding my end of thecovenant?
Now, let's keep it a hundred.
I completely forgot about this.
I completely forgot about this.
I completely forgot about it.
It wasn't until I was havingthat conversation that I
remembered and I recognized yo,I'm not perfect, but I am living
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in the middle of that answeredprayer.
I'm living in the middle ofthat answered vow, that covenant
that I made.
I'm in the middle of it.
It's a bind.
I made a binding agreement withthe Lord.
Now watch this.
I said God, if you do this, Iwill respond with this.
Now, what happens if I don'thold up my end of that covenant?
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What happens if I don't hold upmy end?
God held up his end.
He kept me through all of thosethings that I wanted to do.
He sustained me.
And I listen.
I made a lot of mistakes.
I made a lot of bad decisionsand I came out unscathed.
I could have 10 kids by now, bro, bro, I'm being transparent,
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right of all of the, the, the,all, the fornicating I've done
and you know what it was alwayswith a good heart, you know.
Is it possible to sin from agood place?
I don't know.
But you know what I've neverbeen a bro, I've never been a
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cheater.
I've been on record saying I'vecheated one time in my life or
cheated on one person in my life, and I regret that.
I will regret that until theday I die.
I got friends who are chroniccheaters.
I got friends who have, whohave cheated on every girlfriend
they have had.
You know what I'm saying.
So that's where I'm coming from.
That's what I'm surrounded with, like respectfully, and I've,
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and listen, this is something Ican say, this because I've said
this to them.
You know what I'm saying.
Yeah, I got to stop.
I've been on record.
Yeah, you go watch my videos,fellas, we got to stop cheating
on our ladies, bro.
We got to stop cheating on ourgirlfriends.
We got to stop cheating on ourwives.
Y'all need to grow up.
We have to grow up, guys.
We have to grow up.
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That's neither here or there,but I have never gotten a woman
pregnant To the point.
Let me tell you how good God is,bro.
Yo, god had me thinking therewas something wrong with me.
Yo, can we talk about it, bro?
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Can we talk about it?
God has been so good to me andhas kept me from the, from the,
the, the teeth of some of thesewomen that I have been with.
Oh good God.
Women that I have been with, ohgood god, almighty god has kept
me, even in my sin, in my shame.
I have been with some women whowould have me captive for 18
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years.
I've had some pregnancy scares,where not even scares, but it's
women lying telling me they'repregnant when they're really not
.
Y'all know who you are.
Can we keep it a hundred,telling me you pregnant but
you're not.
I've been there several timesand, thanks be to God, it wasn't
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true.
You ask what the point is.
I don't know.
Women, y'all answer thatquestion.
Why do y'all do that?
Why do y'all do that?
I don't know women.
Y'all answer that question.
Why do y'all do that?
Why do y'all do that?
I don't know.
I couldn't answer that fory'all.
I couldn't answer that.
I have been in relationshipswhere no protection, no birth
control and never got thesewomen pregnant.
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And the second I'm out of therelationship.
They get pregnant, bro.
It had me thinking there wassomething wrong with me.
And then I get married andwithin three months, four months
, my wife is pregnant, bro.
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I'm thinking yo, four months,my wife is pregnant, bro.
I'm thinking, yo, I'm gonnahave to go to a doctor to see if
I'm infertile, because there'sno way my friends are doing this
and they coming out withchildren and I love all eight
kids.
And then me, I'm doing this andno pregnancies.
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There gotta be something wrongwith me.
It can't be the women, it gottabe me, bro.
I'm thinking yo, I'm gonna haveto have this tough conversation
with my wife.
Yo, I'm being so, I'm being soreal right now.
I'm being so, I'm being.
I pray somebody is gettingsomething from this, bro.
This is as transparent as itgets.
This is my story.
This is my story.
This is my story.
This is my song man.
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The second I get out therelationship pregnant.
I'm like yo, there gotta besomething wrong with me.
And I get married.
I straighten out, get my stufftogether, decide to get in the
will of God for real.
I make a decision, I getmarried within three, four
months.
My wife is pregnant and my wifeis due early October.
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Glory be to God.
Late September.
Whatever it's going to be, comeon, man, listen.
I remembered the vow that I madewith the Lord and I said my God
, you answered.
He answered.
He answered.
This naive young man cried andthe Lord answered me.
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Very naive child Grew up in thechurch, knew what was right
from wrong, but wanted to dowrong.
So I made a vow with God andsaid, lord, if you let me get
away with doing wrong now, watchthis, let's keep it 100.
He didn't let me get away withit.
He never let me get away withit, but he let me come out of it
.
He gave me the time that Iasked for to come out of it,
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gave me the grace and the mercythat I needed to keep to stay
alive in the midst of it,brought me out of it and has
brought me into where I'm atright now.
And he's now asking me well,son, what now?
What are you going to do now?
What are you going to do now?
What are you going to do now?
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I'm in amazement at how good Godis, man, how good he is, and
it's got me thinking thatcovenants with God are stronger
than we believe.
They're more meaningful than weknow.
And I would challenge someoneWherever you are in your life
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right now, you know where youare and you know what you need
from the Lord.
Have you considered making aneed from the Lord?
Have you considered making avow with the Lord?
And it doesn't have to be likemine, we may not want the same
thing, but have you made a vowwith the Lord?
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Have you made a covenant withhim?
That's just.
That's food for thought, foodfor thought.
Have you made a vow with theLord?
Have you made a vow with himand forgotten about it?
Like me, have you?
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Have you made a vow with thelord and have?
Have you taken it back?
Let's, let's, let's, let'sbriefly just look at a few, a
few different vows, a fewdifferent covenants made.
I think about hannah.
That's like one of the.
It's one of one of the firstones I wrote down.
I think about hannah and how.
Hannah first, samuel, uh, onein ten, hannah 1, samuel 1 and
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10.
And she vowed a vow and said OLord of hosts, if thou will
indeed look on the affliction ofthy handmaid, then I will give
unto him, or I will give himunto the Lord all the days of
his life.
Hannah was barren and shewanted a child and she made a
vow with God and said Lord, ifyou give me this child, I will
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give him back to you all thedays of his life.
And if anybody is familiar withthe word of God, samuel was
dedicated to the house of God byHannah.
She gave him back to the Lordand he learned under the prophet
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Eli, if I'm not mistaken andstarted to hear from God Like no
one ever had At a time Duringthe time of Saul and David.
That came from a covenant ofone woman.
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Covenants are powerful.
Covenants are powerful, and Imentioned Hannahannah.
I mean, let's talk about thechildren of israel, the covenant
that they made with god in thedays of moses, and constantly
the children of israel have goneback and forth.
They do what's right in thesight of the lord.
Love the lord, your god, obeyhis commandments.
The Lord, your God, obey hiscommandments.
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The children of Israel havegone back and forth, doing
what's right in the sight of theLord, doing what's evil in the
sight of the Lord.
From those days till now westill doing it.
What vow have you made with God?
Have you made a vow with God?
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Have you made a vow with God?
Have you made a vow with theLord?
Have you forgotten about a vowthat you have made with him?
Have you gone back on it?
I just read that scripture inecclesiastes god takes our
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promises seriously.
Man I I had a hat.
I'm not gonna go into what Iwas gonna say just now, but god
takes our promises to himseriously.
We are making covenants withgod and sometimes we don't even
know how powerful they are andthe consequences that come from
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breaking these vows.
And my hope and my prayer thiswas, this was just my, my story,
this was my testimony.
Man I am, I'm living.
I'm living in the middle of ananswered vow, an answered prayer
, rather, and a vow that I madewith the Lord.
I'm in the middle of it.
He took me out of the mess thatI was living in and I asked to
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be able to live in the mess andyou know what?
I reaped the consequences andthe rewards of that time period,
because not all of it was badof that time period, because not
all of it was bad.
I just asked god for time.
I spent that time doing a lotof things good things and bad
things, things that god approvesof, and things, things that he
certainly did not.
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But I asked him, I asked, Iasked for it, I asked for it and
the lord heard me and heanswered, and I grew up, I came
out of the mess.
I'm not perfect, but I came outof the mess.
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I still need help from the Lord, but I have decided to walk
right.
I'm still trying to get itright Definitely still trying to
get it right and I'm a ministerof the gospel of Jesus Christ
now.
I was made a minister last yearsometime.
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I'm married, I'm a husband, I'ma father to be.
I am in the middle of acovenant that I made with the
lord and he did his part.
And, and the funny thing is,you know, if I was smarter, I
would have made a vow that thatthat might have, uh, at least on
paper, benefited me, right?
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So you say, but guess, it was anaive vow.
I asked him Lord, allow me tobe a child and to do things I
wanna do for, like this timeperiod, and then essentially,
lord, I will dedicate the restof my life to you, right, like I
mean, I don't know if that wasa fair trade-off, but I see it
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as one now.
Like I see it as a win for mepersonally.
But, like, as far as the timeframe goes, like I'm only 33 and
I mean I I made this decisionwhat to like to do, what was
right, what like, maybe, maybelike three, four years ago, for
real.
Honestly, I really believe Istarted in like 2021, like I
really that's when I I decided,yo, no more fornication, you
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know what I'm saying.
I'm cutting all of that stuffoff.
You know I stopped smoking along time ago, stopped selling
drugs a long time ago and andthat sort of thing allegedly, um
, whatever the case is, uh, yo,but the like 2021 is when I
really locked in, bro, reallystarted locking in for real late
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, like late 2021.
Fall 2021 made a lot of peopleupset.
Listen, man, when you're livingin sin, bro, there's a lot of
people in this world who whoreally love sin, man, they love
sin.
And when you make the decisionI know some of us can testify to
that, bro when you make thedecision that you're not living
in sin anymore, yo, you make alot of people upset and the
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truth is, you make the devilupset.
You make the devil upset and alot of people let the devil use
them, bro.
I've had several women duringthat time frame block me because
I decided, yo, I can't have sexanymore outside of marriage.
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Like I made that decision tobetter myself.
And or or just general or oreven some people who I just
decided not to be involved withwound up blocking me, like
people who were never involvedwith me to begin with, who I say
, yo, I'm sorry, I'm not on thattiming, right.
They, you know throwing it atme and I'm saying, yo, listen,
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I'm flattered, but you know, I'mnot on that type of timing
right now.
This is how I'm trying to livemy life and I've been blocked
for that.
That's wild to me, but it'sunderstandable.
That's what.
That's what the Bible refers toas the deceitfulness of sin.
Let's talk about it.
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That's, that's thedeceitfulness of sin.
Let's talk about it.
That's the deceitfulness of sin.
Right there.
I want to share a scripture, myfinal, last one.
I'm done here, I'm done.
Psalms 50 and 14.
It says offer unto Godthanksgiving and pay thy vows
unto the most high.
Yo, I want somebody to reflect.
Reflect if you can man.
Reflect, if you can, manreflect, if you can.
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Have you made a covenant withgod without knowing, like,
without truly understanding whatyou did?
Have you made a vow to the lord?
You asked him for something andsaid, god, if you do this for
me, I'm gonna do this.
Do you remember the vows thatyou made with the Lord and have
you held up your end of thebargain?
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Are you living in the middle ofone of those answered prayers
even right now?
Are you on your way to it?
If you're in the middle of thecovenant right now, remember
that, if it was in the will ofGod, very important was the
covenant that you tried to wasin the will of God.
Very important was that was thecovenant that you tried to make
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in the will of God.
Did you make a covenant withGod or have you made, oh Lord,
have mercy.
That's a whole, nother joint.
Have you?
Did you make a covenant withGod or have you made a covenant
with the enemy?
What type of covenant have youmade?
Whoo, oh good God, have mercy.
What type of covenant have youmade?
Oh good God, have mercy.
What type of covenant have youmade?
That's a whole, nother joint.
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Divine protection and the wrongkind of protection.
Who are you making vows to?
Are you in communion with theliving god jesus is his name or
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are you in communion withsomething else and someone else?
I, I just wanted to encouragesomebody's heart on tonight, on
this evening.
Much love to you all.
I appreciate you If you havemade it to this point in the
Chronicle.
I thank you.
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I love you.
I want you to take a look atyour life and where you are and
ask yourself that question haveI made a vow with the Lord?
Am I upholding my end of thebargain?
I love you.
God bless you all Until nexttime.
This is the Moral Compass.
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Chronicles.
Grace and peace.
Grace and peace.
Welcome to another rendition ofthe Moral Compass Chronicles.
I am your boy, I'm your man,eon J.
You already know what time itis.
I'm glad to be here yet againwith you guys.
I am grateful for you, you, you, you and you.
And in the spirit of thatgratefulness, let's jump right
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into it.
Let's jump right into it.
Let's jump right into it.
I have a very, very interestingtopic, a very a topic that is
close to my heart.
It is very personal, very, verymuch so personal, and I would
love to share it with you guys,and I pray that somebody's soul,
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somebody's heart, somebody'smind is blessed.
I pray that somebody isuplifted and I pray that you
learn something here today.
Now I mentioned my sister, sav,on the last episode.
Shout out to my sister, shoutout to you, savannah Um, I was
talking to her a few months agoand in having the conversation
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with her I had, by somethingthat happened years ago,
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something meaningful, somethingpowerful am now and where God
wants to take me, and why a vowand a covenant that I made with
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God when I was probably 14, 15years old this is over 15 years
ago, so let me not tell my age,but this was over 15 years ago.
I was in high, probably had juststarted high school and I made
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a vow with the lord.
There's a song that says I madea vow with the lord and I won't
take it back now.
I want to make something clear.
I hadn't thought about this.
I hadn't thought about this vowor this covenant that I made
with God.
In years it probably at least10 years now, maybe more I
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haven't even thought.
I hadn't thought about it untilthis conversation that I was
having with my sister, and evenin the middle of the
conversation.
I'm going to tell you what itis, or what it was.
In the middle of theconversation and I know she
remembers I actually paused andwas in amazement and actually
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it's funny enough.
I actually shared it with mychurch and you know people
laughed because it was funny.
I delivered it in a funny kindof way, but it was serious to me
and as I was telling Savannahthis story, I stopped and I was
like wow, oh my God, I am living.
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You know how you, you know howwe say we're living in, we're in
the middle of an answeredprayer.
Sometimes you gotta be able tostop and look at your situation
and know that, yo, this is.
You're living in the middle ofwhat you prayed for at one point
in your life right Now.
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I, at one point in your liferight Now, I made a vow to the
Lord when I was 15 years old orso, 14, whatever, it was, maybe
30, I don't even know.
It could have been 13, 14, 15,16, I'm not sure.
And at the time it came fromsuch a naive place.
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It came from a place of aspoiled Church boy.
A young man that was fortunateto be born in Christ.
In Christ and yes, I was bornin Christ had to make the
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decision for myself to makeJesus Christ Lord and savior of
my life.
Right, I have.
Everyone has to make thatdecision for yourself.
Your parents can't make thatdecision for you, even if you're
born in the church.
Right, and you see me, I'venever been someone who just
takes other people's word forsomething.
I had to come into that formyself, right, and that's what I
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have done.
That's where the convictioncomes from.
The conviction in what I speakof comes from a place not of
indoctrination and not from aplace of naivety, if you will.
It comes from personalexperience, like.
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I want to make that clear.
It comes from personalexperience and personal
understanding of who Jesus isnot who people say he is, not
who the pastors preach about,but who I know him to be
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personally because I have apersonal relationship with God.
All right.
So I just want to, I want tomake that clear.
I just wanted to make thatclear right there, right now.
I had made that decision formyself.
That's the only reason I couldmake A vow like this with God
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right now.
I was in a place where I'm likeI know what's right and what's
wrong.
I know the life that I wantedto live Versus the life that God
was calling me to live.
Right Me being a teenager, ayoung black teenager.
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You know I'm seeing the parties.
I'm seeing the parties, I'mseeing the women, I'm seeing the
fun.
I'm seeing these differentthings.
You know the weed and thealcohol and these things that we
want to indulge in, and thesedesires start from a young age.
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Many of us know right.
Can I testify here today?
Hey, this is my platform.
Let me testify now.
All right, this is and, andthese are the things I'm seeing,
and there's a particular way oflife that I knew god was
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calling me to walk and callingme to live Right now.
I always say a lot of us who areborn in church and we have
parents who bring us to churchfrom young.
Oftentimes we're spoiled andwe're desensitized to the word
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of God, so much so that we'reable to be in church on Sunday
and do what we do, and we canparty all week and we can
fornicate all week, even onSundays, and we can do the
things we're not supposed to doand just play in God's face.
Not supposed to do and justplay in god's face.
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And more times than not, it'sthose of us who grew up knowing
what's right and wrong and we'vebeen hearing how jesus is
coming back for so long and he'snot back yet and that has given
us a false sense of reality,that has given us an idea that
we have time To play in God'sface.
But All right, let me, let me.
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I want to stay on topic, so letme stay on topic now.
Right, that is the place that Iwas in when I made this vow
with God.
Now I remember I spoke to theLord one night, one day,
whatever it was, because I wasin a place in my life where I
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knew yo, I just want to have fun.
I just want to enjoy life theway I want to enjoy life, and
let me, let me let me put myring on, give me one second.
Yes, let me, let me put one ofthem on my hand, feel naked all
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right now.
I I was in a place where I knewwhat I wanted, and the truth is
I didn't want the things of Godat that time.
But I knew it was right.
I knew God was still calling me.
I knew there was a calling onmy life to fulfill the work of
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the Lord.
Right, I knew that, but Ididn't want it yet.
I didn't want it yet.
I didn't want it yet.
And it's funny, I have somedefinitions here about what a
vow is and what a covenant is.
So a vow is a solemn promise,especially when you make a vow
and a covenant with God.
Specifically, that's what I'mtalking about.
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A vow is a solemn promise or apledge made to God.
A covenant, which is similar,it's a divine agreement or a
binding contract, and a lot ofus who are familiar with the
word of God, you know aboutcovenants that were made by the
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children of Israel, by thechildren of God, going from the
Old Testament spanning to theNew Testament, there are several
covenants that were madebetween God and between man.
All right, and I'm going to getinto some of those examples as
well, but this is a covenant Imade and this is where I was in
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my life at that 15 year old ageor so, right, and I prayed to
the Lord and I said, god, listen, and I you know, that's one
thing I've always been is honestwith god, right, listen, god
listen.
And I don't pray to him the wayI hear other people pray.
That's not my style.
I talk to him, like me, and,yes, there's a way to approach
the mercy seat at times, butwhen you just communion with
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communion with God, and you havea relationship with him and
you're I'm not always, you know,in sackcloth and ashes, I'm not
always at the altar.
Sometimes I'm walking down thestreet having a conversation
with God.
Sometimes I'm in the shower.
Sometimes I'll be workinghaving a conversation with him.
Sometimes I'm in the shower,sometimes I'll be working having
a conversation with him.
There was a time I was a busdriver.
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Those were some of my bestconversations with god when I
was driving those buses.
Those are some of my bestconversations with god.
Now I'm like listen, listen, god, I I know what I have to do, I
know what you're calling me to,but, god, you gave all of these
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old people all the time in theworld.
This is a true story, bro, lord, and I'm.
I'm thinking about my mom,who's now at that time, you know
, in her early 50s, right?
Well, let me not tell on mymom's age either, but you know
40s, 50s took her from.
You know that age.
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I'm thinking about my aunts andmy uncles.
I'm thinking about the eldersand all of these old people who
I grew up knowing in church, andall of these people who I look
up to and who are there for me.
You know that village they talkabout.
It takes a village, right, ittakes a village to raise a child
.
Well, that village I'm thinkingabout that village.
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My auntie Lorna, who who?
And Uncle G, and all of thesepeople who raised me, who are in
God now, who I knew were notalways saints.
I knew they weren't always asperfect as they portray
themselves to be some who decidethey want to portray themselves
as if they're perfect, and Iknow you're not right.
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This is me at the time, but Ican see how God took them from
where they were to where theyare now.
And I said to myself God, you,I see, essentially, I see what
you've done for others.
Lord, I just want to be able tolive my life.
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Now I'm young, I want to havefun.
Now I'm young, I want to havefun, I want to be able to go to
parties and I want to be able todo whatever I want.
I want to be able to drink andhave sex and and and do all.
And I don't know if I wassmoking weed at the time,
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because it depends on the age.
If it was like 15, then maybe Ihad just started Right.
Let's keep it 100.
Like 15 that maybe I had juststarted right.
Let's keep it 100 now.
I ain't heard a lot of nobody.
Lord, I want to be able to doall of these things.
But, god, I'm begging you notto come back yet.
Oh Lord, have mercy.
I don't know anybody relate tothat.
Can anybody testify that samething?
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You ever had that thought?
Lord, please don't.
They say the rapture is coming.
They say you're coming back andyou're coming back for a
prepared people.
Lord, I am begging you, don'tcome back yet.
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I want to be able to do what Iwant to do have my fun.
I also I want to be able togrow up and get married and have
a family, because those of youthat know me, I've always wanted
that.
The people who don't know meprobably think that I'm you know
, I've always wanted to havemultiple women and be a player
and blah, blah, blah, blah.
But those are the people whodon't know me.
For those who know me, you knowthat since I was young bro
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young, 12 years old experiencedlove at a young age and have
always wanted the wife and thekids and that sort of thing.
I've always wanted that.
Wasn't always ready for it, butI always wanted it.
Right, came from a good place,lord, I want all of that, just
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not right now.
I'm young.
I'm young and I want to havefun.
And, god, if you keep me thisis what I said to the Lord If
you keep me from harm and dangerand at the time I wasn't
thinking about the things Icould get myself into, but I
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just prayed with a, an honestheart to the lord if you, lord,
keep me through through all ofthe things that I want to do, I
promise you, god, that I amgoing to grow up, and this is
the first thing I said.
I'm going to grow up, I'm goingto be a minister, because I was
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thinking about my father, whowas a minister.
I'm going to grow up, not apastor.
I don't want to be no pastor.
I don't want to be no bishop.
I'm going to grow up, Lord.
I'm going to to be no bishop.
I'm gonna grow up, lord.
I'm gonna be a minister.
I'm gonna get married, havechildren, have a family and I'm
going to live for you.
I'm gonna do everything youwant me to do.
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If you keep me, let me have myfun while I'm young.
Let me do what I want to doWhile I'm young.
Let me do what I want to do andI promise I'm going to grow up
and become a minister.
I'm going to get married, havea family and I'm going to live
for you.
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That is the vow I made to theLord when I was a child.
And when I was a child, Ithought as a child, for sure.
When I was a child, I thoughtas a child.
I thought as a child, for sure.
When I was a child, I thoughtas a child.
That is the vow that I made tothe lord when I was a child.
When I was a child, I thought,as a child, not really knowing
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that with a prayer like that,there would be consequences.
There would be consequences.
Ecclesiastes 5, verse 4, sayswhen thou vowest a vow unto God,
defer not to pay it, for hehath no pleasure in fools.
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Pay that which thou hast vowed.
Pay that which thou hast vowed.
When thou vowest a vow unto God, pay that which thou has vowed.
And now I made that vow a longtime ago, and for a long time I
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hadn't thought about it.
You know why?
Because I was busy doing what Itold God I was going to do.
I was busy doing what I toldGod I was going to do.
That vow didn't that covenantthat I made with the Lord.
It didn't come from a place ofdesperation, it didn't come from
a place of God.
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You know, some people make avow with God when they're
desperate.
Lord, I'm homeless.
And if you deliver, like, like,that's a, that's a, that's a
vow that comes from a place ofdesperation.
Mine came from a place ofentitlement.
It came from a place ofentitlement, it came from a
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place of naivety.
I'm just trying to betransparent.
That is what I promised God andthat's what I asked God to do
in return.
And how did God respond?
I didn't realize it until I wastalking to my sister, savannah,
a few months ago, because thereis no way that I should have
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made it through everything Ihave done.
There is no reason no, goodenough reason that I should have
made it out alive.
There is no way that I shouldhave made it out without being
in jail right now.
There's no way that I shouldhave made it out without being
killed.
Oh God Almighty, I should notstill be standing.
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But god.
And now I'm gonna attributethat to a few different things,
because I mean, we talk aboutgrace and mercy.
You know, uh, getting thingsthat you don't deserve and then
not getting what you do deserve,right?
Can I talk about the grace andmercy that has been on my life
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since I made that vow?
And here's the thing I'm notsure.
Maybe I gotta do some morepraying.
I really just wanted to sharethis with everyone.
I gotta do some more prayingbecause I'm not totally certain
what it was that kept me.
Was it that vow that kept me?
Was it the prayers of my motherthat kept me?
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Is it the purpose that god havehas on my life, that he just
decided to keep me here for atime such as this, I'm not sure,
but what I do know is when youmake a covenant with god, it is
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binding, and god answered.
I was in a place in my lifewhere I felt like I was unable
to do certain things fordifferent reasons, some of which
I have already mentioned, but Ireally wanted to be able to
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live my life and do those thingsAllegedly and I got to say
allegedly, say allegedly right,but I have done some illegal
things allegedly that could havelanded me in jail.
I have been in the middle ofthings that I should not have
been in the middle of drugrelated that could have ended in
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me getting killed.
There are beefs that I have hadwhere people did not like me
for whatever reason, and I couldhave easily been in situations
where it was it was them or itwas me.
I could have been killed bysomebody.
I could have wound up killingsomebody and I would either be
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dead and in the ground right nowor I'd be in jail for 20 to
life.
I could be in the middle of alife sentence, but God kept me.
I could have been buried by mymother and my brother and my
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family, but God kept me.
I could have lost my mindBecause of decisions that I made
In the midst of that season inmy life when I wanted to do what
I wanted to do, but God kept me.
And then I asked myself thequestion well, am I upholding my
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end of the vow?
Am I upholding my end of thecovenant?
Now, let's keep it a hundred.
I completely forgot about this.
I completely forgot about this.
I completely forgot about it.
It wasn't until I was havingthat conversation that I
remembered and I recognized yo,I'm not perfect, but I am living
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in the middle of that answeredprayer.
I'm living in the middle ofthat answered vow, that covenant
that I made.
I'm in the middle of it.
It's a bind.
I made a binding agreement withthe Lord.
Now watch this.
I said God, if you do this, Iwill respond with this.
Now, what happens if I don'thold up my end of that covenant?
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What happens if I don't hold upmy end?
God held up his end.
He kept me through all of thosethings that I wanted to do.
He sustained me.
And I listen.
I made a lot of mistakes.
I made a lot of bad decisionsand I came out unscathed.
I could have 10 kids by now, bro, bro, I'm being transparent,
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right of all of the, the, the,all, the fornicating I've done
and you know what it was alwayswith a good heart, you know.
Is it possible to sin from agood place?
I don't know.
But you know what I've neverbeen a bro, I've never been a
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cheater.
I've been on record saying I'vecheated one time in my life or
cheated on one person in my life, and I regret that.
I will regret that until theday I die.
I got friends who are chroniccheaters.
I got friends who have, whohave cheated on every girlfriend
they have had.
You know what I'm saying.
So that's where I'm coming from.
That's what I'm surrounded with, like respectfully, and I've,
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and listen, this is something Ican say, this because I've said
this to them.
You know what I'm saying.
Yeah, I got to stop.
I've been on record.
Yeah, you go watch my videos,fellas, we got to stop cheating
on our ladies, bro.
We got to stop cheating on ourgirlfriends.
We got to stop cheating on ourwives.
Y'all need to grow up.
We have to grow up, guys.
We have to grow up.
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That's neither here or there,but I have never gotten a woman
pregnant To the point.
Let me tell you how good God is,bro.
Yo, god had me thinking therewas something wrong with me.
Yo, can we talk about it, bro?
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Can we talk about it?
God has been so good to me andhas kept me from the, from the,
the, the teeth of some of thesewomen that I have been with.
Oh good God.
Women that I have been with, ohgood god, almighty god has kept
me, even in my sin, in my shame.
I have been with some women whowould have me captive for 18
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years.
I've had some pregnancy scares,where not even scares, but it's
women lying telling me they'repregnant when they're really not
.
Y'all know who you are.
Can we keep it a hundred,telling me you pregnant but
you're not.
I've been there several timesand, thanks be to God, it wasn't
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true.
You ask what the point is.
I don't know.
Women, y'all answer thatquestion.
Why do y'all do that?
Why do y'all do that?
I don't know women.
Y'all answer that question.
Why do y'all do that?
Why do y'all do that?
I don't know.
I couldn't answer that fory'all.
I couldn't answer that.
I have been in relationshipswhere no protection, no birth
control and never got thesewomen pregnant.
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And the second I'm out of therelationship.
They get pregnant, bro.
It had me thinking there wassomething wrong with me.
And then I get married andwithin three months, four months
, my wife is pregnant, bro.
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I'm thinking yo, four months,my wife is pregnant, bro.
I'm thinking, yo, I'm gonnahave to go to a doctor to see if
I'm infertile, because there'sno way my friends are doing this
and they coming out withchildren and I love all eight
kids.
And then me, I'm doing this andno pregnancies.
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There gotta be something wrongwith me.
It can't be the women, it gottabe me, bro.
I'm thinking yo, I'm gonna haveto have this tough conversation
with my wife.
Yo, I'm being so, I'm being soreal right now.
I'm being so, I'm being.
I pray somebody is gettingsomething from this, bro.
This is as transparent as itgets.
This is my story.
This is my story.
This is my story.
This is my song man.
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The second I get out therelationship pregnant.
I'm like yo, there gotta besomething wrong with me.
And I get married.
I straighten out, get my stufftogether, decide to get in the
will of God for real.
I make a decision, I getmarried within three, four
months.
My wife is pregnant and my wifeis due early October.
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Glory be to God.
Late September.
Whatever it's going to be, comeon, man, listen.
I remembered the vow that I madewith the Lord and I said my God
, you answered.
He answered.
He answered.
This naive young man cried andthe Lord answered me.
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Very naive child Grew up in thechurch, knew what was right
from wrong, but wanted to dowrong.
So I made a vow with God andsaid, lord, if you let me get
away with doing wrong now, watchthis, let's keep it 100.
He didn't let me get away withit.
He never let me get away withit, but he let me come out of it
.
He gave me the time that Iasked for to come out of it,
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gave me the grace and the mercythat I needed to keep to stay
alive in the midst of it,brought me out of it and has
brought me into where I'm atright now.
And he's now asking me well,son, what now?
What are you going to do now?
What are you going to do now?
What are you going to do now?
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I'm in amazement at how good Godis, man, how good he is, and
it's got me thinking thatcovenants with God are stronger
than we believe.
They're more meaningful than weknow.
And I would challenge someoneWherever you are in your life
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right now, you know where youare and you know what you need
from the Lord.
Have you considered making aneed from the Lord?
Have you considered making avow with the Lord?
And it doesn't have to be likemine, we may not want the same
thing, but have you made a vowwith the Lord?
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Have you made a covenant withhim?
That's just.
That's food for thought, foodfor thought.
Have you made a vow with theLord?
Have you made a vow with himand forgotten about it?
Like me, have you?
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Have you made a vow with thelord and have?
Have you taken it back?
Let's, let's, let's, let'sbriefly just look at a few, a
few different vows, a fewdifferent covenants made.
I think about hannah.
That's like one of the.
It's one of one of the firstones I wrote down.
I think about hannah and how.
Hannah first, samuel, uh, onein ten, hannah 1, samuel 1 and
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10.
And she vowed a vow and said OLord of hosts, if thou will
indeed look on the affliction ofthy handmaid, then I will give
unto him, or I will give himunto the Lord all the days of
his life.
Hannah was barren and shewanted a child and she made a
vow with God and said Lord, ifyou give me this child, I will
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give him back to you all thedays of his life.
And if anybody is familiar withthe word of God, samuel was
dedicated to the house of God byHannah.
She gave him back to the Lordand he learned under the prophet
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Eli, if I'm not mistaken andstarted to hear from God Like no
one ever had At a time Duringthe time of Saul and David.
That came from a covenant ofone woman.
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Covenants are powerful.
Covenants are powerful, and Imentioned Hannahannah.
I mean, let's talk about thechildren of israel, the covenant
that they made with god in thedays of moses, and constantly
the children of israel have goneback and forth.
They do what's right in thesight of the lord.
Love the lord, your god, obeyhis commandments.
The Lord, your God, obey hiscommandments.
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The children of Israel havegone back and forth, doing
what's right in the sight of theLord, doing what's evil in the
sight of the Lord.
From those days till now westill doing it.
What vow have you made with God?
Have you made a vow with God?
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Have you made a vow with God?
Have you made a vow with theLord?
Have you forgotten about a vowthat you have made with him?
Have you gone back on it?
I just read that scripture inecclesiastes god takes our
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promises seriously.
Man I I had a hat.
I'm not gonna go into what Iwas gonna say just now, but god
takes our promises to himseriously.
We are making covenants withgod and sometimes we don't even
know how powerful they are andthe consequences that come from
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breaking these vows.
And my hope and my prayer thiswas, this was just my, my story,
this was my testimony.
Man I am, I'm living.
I'm living in the middle of ananswered vow, an answered prayer
, rather, and a vow that I madewith the Lord.
I'm in the middle of it.
He took me out of the mess thatI was living in and I asked to
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be able to live in the mess andyou know what?
I reaped the consequences andthe rewards of that time period,
because not all of it was badof that time period, because not
all of it was bad.
I just asked god for time.
I spent that time doing a lotof things good things and bad
things, things that god approvesof, and things, things that he
certainly did not.
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But I asked him, I asked, Iasked for it, I asked for it and
the lord heard me and heanswered, and I grew up, I came
out of the mess.
I'm not perfect, but I came outof the mess.
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I still need help from the Lord, but I have decided to walk
right.
I'm still trying to get itright Definitely still trying to
get it right and I'm a ministerof the gospel of Jesus Christ
now.
I was made a minister last yearsometime.
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I'm married, I'm a husband, I'ma father to be.
I am in the middle of acovenant that I made with the
lord and he did his part.
And, and the funny thing is,you know, if I was smarter, I
would have made a vow that thatthat might have, uh, at least on
paper, benefited me, right?
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So you say, but guess, it was anaive vow.
I asked him Lord, allow me tobe a child and to do things I
wanna do for, like this timeperiod, and then essentially,
lord, I will dedicate the restof my life to you, right, like I
mean, I don't know if that wasa fair trade-off, but I see it
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as one now.
Like I see it as a win for mepersonally.
But, like, as far as the timeframe goes, like I'm only 33 and
I mean I I made this decisionwhat to like to do, what was
right, what like, maybe, maybelike three, four years ago, for
real.
Honestly, I really believe Istarted in like 2021, like I
really that's when I I decided,yo, no more fornication, you
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know what I'm saying.
I'm cutting all of that stuffoff.
You know I stopped smoking along time ago, stopped selling
drugs a long time ago and andthat sort of thing allegedly, um
, whatever the case is, uh, yo,but the like 2021 is when I
really locked in, bro, reallystarted locking in for real late
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, like late 2021.
Fall 2021 made a lot of peopleupset.
Listen, man, when you're livingin sin, bro, there's a lot of
people in this world who whoreally love sin, man, they love
sin.
And when you make the decisionI know some of us can testify to
that, bro when you make thedecision that you're not living
in sin anymore, yo, you make alot of people upset and the
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truth is, you make the devilupset.
You make the devil upset and alot of people let the devil use
them, bro.
I've had several women duringthat time frame block me because
I decided, yo, I can't have sexanymore outside of marriage.
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Like I made that decision tobetter myself.
And or or just general or oreven some people who I just
decided not to be involved withwound up blocking me, like
people who were never involvedwith me to begin with, who I say
, yo, I'm sorry, I'm not on thattiming, right.
They, you know throwing it atme and I'm saying, yo, listen,
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I'm flattered, but you know, I'mnot on that type of timing
right now.
This is how I'm trying to livemy life and I've been blocked
for that.
That's wild to me, but it'sunderstandable.
That's what.
That's what the Bible refers toas the deceitfulness of sin.
Let's talk about it.
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That's, that's thedeceitfulness of sin.
Let's talk about it.
That's the deceitfulness of sin.
Right there.
I want to share a scripture, myfinal, last one.
I'm done here, I'm done.
Psalms 50 and 14.
It says offer unto Godthanksgiving and pay thy vows
unto the most high.
Yo, I want somebody to reflect.
Reflect if you can man.
Reflect, if you can, manreflect, if you can.
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Have you made a covenant withgod without knowing, like,
without truly understanding whatyou did?
Have you made a vow to the lord?
You asked him for something andsaid, god, if you do this for
me, I'm gonna do this.
Do you remember the vows thatyou made with the Lord and have
you held up your end of thebargain?
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Are you living in the middle ofone of those answered prayers
even right now?
Are you on your way to it?
If you're in the middle of thecovenant right now, remember
that, if it was in the will ofGod, very important was the
covenant that you tried to wasin the will of God.
Very important was that was thecovenant that you tried to make
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in the will of God.
Did you make a covenant withGod or have you made, oh Lord,
have mercy.
That's a whole, nother joint.
Have you?
Did you make a covenant withGod or have you made a covenant
with the enemy?
What type of covenant have youmade?
Whoo, oh good God, have mercy.
What type of covenant have youmade?
Oh good God, have mercy.
What type of covenant have youmade?
That's a whole, nother joint.
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Divine protection and the wrongkind of protection.
Who are you making vows to?
Are you in communion with theliving god jesus is his name or
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are you in communion withsomething else and someone else?
I, I just wanted to encouragesomebody's heart on tonight, on
this evening.
Much love to you all.
I appreciate you If you havemade it to this point in the
Chronicle.
I thank you.
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I love you.
I want you to take a look atyour life and where you are and
ask yourself that question haveI made a vow with the Lord?
Am I upholding my end of thebargain?
I love you.
God bless you all Until nexttime.
This is the Moral Compass.
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Chronicles.
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