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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Praise and peace one
and all.
Welcome to another rendition ofthe Moral Compass Chronicles.
I'm your man, I'm your guy, erj, and it's been a little while,
man.
It's been a little while.
I'll just jump right into it.
The truth is, life is somethingelse, man.
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Life is something else, um, andyou know what else life is?
Life is short, life is short,man, and, um, you never know.
You never know what is going tohappen, you never know where
you're going to, where you'regoing to be, what's, what's
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going to be going on with you oranybody else on any particular
day, and that's why it behoovesus, it behooves us to to live
our lives in a morally sound way.
That's the name of this podcast, the moral compass chronicles,
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and so, um, I try to do right bythe people that are in your
life and even the people thatyou come across that you don't
know.
I thank God for mysister-in-law who has recently
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passed away.
I dedicate this episode, thischronicle, to my sister, keisha,
and Fraser Keisha, and alwaysin our hearts.
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My sister, who Accepted me, tookme in when I started dating my
now wife, natasha.
I felt welcomed by Keishaimmediately.
There's some family members whoI knew were a little on the
fence about me.
You know somebody new kind ofcoming into the picture, dating
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one of your family members, oneof your siblings, and you know
they some.
You know they may not know whatyou're about, they don't know
who you are for real, and so youknow, sometimes you know you'll
probably get some bad vibesfrom family members, and the
truth is there's some, there'ssome members of the family I'm
sure you know don't like the cutof my jib.
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You know I move a littledifferent, I walk a little
different, and so I already knownot everybody is going to like
me, but I thank God for Keisha,who accepted me, man, and not
just accepted me but made mefeel welcome, made me feel like
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a part of the family, made mefeel welcome, made me feel like
a part of the family, andYolanda, of course, and Mo, my
brother, mom, you know, even myfather-in-law, me and him, me
and him get along very well, youknow.
And so I thank God for thisfamily that I'm a part of.
And the truth is, man, theselast few weeks have been
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difficult, have been difficult,very difficult, and this is
public knowledge at this point,and so I can, I can talk about
it now.
Um, that's that's where I'vebeen for the last two weeks or
so.
Uh, we lost Keisha earlier thismonth.
It's just so crazy.
I was ended June.
Now already, um, we lost her.
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I believe it was um June 8th, Ibelieve June 8th or June 9th,
june 9th.
Yeah, and the truth is, you know, I am, I'm one of the last
people that that spoke to Keishman, um, god would have it that
I was in New Jersey the thenight she went into the hospital
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and so I was able, five minutes, I was, I was at a church five
minutes away from the hospital,so I was able to go and see my
sister and and pray for her.
And, um, you know, just bethere with her.
And um, you know, just be therewith her.
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And you know, you gotta, yougotta can't take that for
granted.
Even that I was.
I was glad I was able to dothat.
And you know, um, unfortunately, you know, she didn't make it,
unfortunately, she didn't makeit.
And uh, man, it's been tough,it's been tough, bro, it's been
tough, it's been tough.
And if you, if you're somebodywho has lost someone, you
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already know, man, this is mypastor always says man,
condolences are are only they'reborrowed, they're loaned.
And they're borrowed becausetoday you're offering your
condolences to me and tomorrow,unfortunately, I will be
offering my condolences tosomeone else.
We have a brother who you know,nice lady, older, older woman
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who goes to our church.
She just lost her son and hisfuneral is on Sunday.
His funeral is this Sunday,june 29th.
And then my sister.
Just talk to you guys, man,because I know a lot of people
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have been asking me, you knowwhen's the next, the next
episode coming out?
And even me, man, I've, I'vewanted to get on this microphone
and talk to you guys, man, talkto us for the better part of a
month now and I just haven'tbeen able to.
Man, you know it's, I know Idon't owe anybody an explanation
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, but this, this is our baby,this is our podcast.
You know what I'm saying.
This is our space, um, and it'sgood to be able to have a space
where you can talk to somebody.
You know, if you're, if you, ifyou're dealing with a lost man,
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it it is imperative that you'renot alone, because we literally
cannot do it alone.
I thank god for everybody.
Oh, my god, the outpouring oflove that we have felt, man, and
let's not, let's, let's not,let's not get it twisted.
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Yes, I am grieving the loss ofmy sister in law, but my wife is
grieving the loss of her sister.
You know what I'm saying.
My mother in law is grievingthe loss of her daughter.
You know what I'm saying and Ifeel the pain.
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But I can only imagine what itfeels like for my sister-in-law
Yolanda, my brother-in-lawYolanda, my brother-in-law Mo.
I can only, I can only imagineyou know and be there for them
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and seeing my wife struggle.
Man has been tough for me.
It has been tough man, and youknow I'm just going to continue
to try to be strong for foreveryone and you know, just be
there.
But, man, the outpouring of lovefrom you guys, man, has been
amazing.
Wherever you are, whatever youhave done you, whether you
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cooked or you prayed or youbrought food or you sent money
or you, you know what.
Yo, bro, thank you, thank you,thank you, thank you.
On behalf of my family, wethank you for everything, all
that you have done.
The support has been.
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I mean out, literally out ofthis world.
Every single day since ourbeloved keisha passed, every
single day there have beenpeople coming by the house, just
stopping by hanging outsupporting direct family,
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friends, church, fam, yo, I meanpeople will really show you
that they love you, man.
People will really show youthat they care.
And it's a testament to twothings Keisha's life and the
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type of life she lived.
Bro, I haven't seen this likeoutpouring of love in so long
for an individual bro.
Seen this like outpouring oflove in so long for an
individual bro.
Last night we had the um.
We had, uh, like a balloonreleasing, candle lighting kind
of joint.
Our friends put it together.
Shout out to all of you guysand, whether you ever hear this
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or not, shai and and and therest I heard shai's name was
involved in the planning andputting everything together for
last night.
Man, beautiful, beautifullittle joint man.
We just we're grateful.
Man, we're grateful, we'regrateful.
I couldn't even begin to try tospeak for the family man.
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I've been me and my wife.
We got married in 2024.
We started dating in 2022.
I've been here like three years.
You know what I'm saying.
I've been me and my wife.
We got married in 2024.
We were started dating in 2022.
I've been here like three years.
You know what I'm saying.
I've been here like three years.
I've known Keisha like three,four years man, um, I couldn't
even begin to speak for thefamily, but you know what.
I'm family now, and so I coulddo a little bit of speaking.
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You know I could do a littlebit of speaking.
I've seen, I've seen from theinside out, um, and seen a lot
very quickly in a short amountof time, um, within this family.
And so thank you, man, thankyou to everybody, to everybody.
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Thank you, man, thank you toeverybody, to everybody, um, and
you know what, even to thepeople who may people have been
encouraging me lately.
I swear God has been sendingpeople to encourage me, not even
on this you know about thepassing of my sister but just on
this path that I'm on now.
You know what I'm saying, whereI'm doing this, this podcast
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thing.
I've started a mediationbusiness and um been consulting
with people and um taking onclients and, you know, going to
be getting into public speakingsoon.
I already know that's on theway, because God has already
shown me this whole thing andhow things are going to work
together for our good Right.
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But there's been so many peoplewho have been encouraging me,
you know, to keep pushing and tokeep going, and you know if
there's anything you need, andyou know I've been having
conversations about even likeadvertisements, and there's been
so many moving parts but I justhaven't been able to focus on
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any of it, and so thank you toyou guys who have been looking
for more from me.
Thank you for your patience,thank you for understanding.
A lot of you already knew whatwas going on and so for those
who didn't know, who are goingto find out from listening to
this, thank you, thank you inadvance for your patience.
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I'm going to be striving tokind of, I've been getting back
on the horse, getting back towork.
I've gotten it's funny becauseI have gotten back to doing the
work, but it hasn't manifesteditself in podcast episodes.
You know I've actually beenediting stuff and cause I've?
I've had so much stuff justsitting in my computer that need
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to be edited, and so the timethat I have gotten back to work,
it's been boom, uh, speaking to, you know, some clients and my
brothers and my sisters, and youknow, getting back into the
flow of that sort of thing andthen back into the editing.
And you know, take some time,bro, take some time.
We have the week tonight and aguy in his wake is just another
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word for like a party and so,and there's going to be a big
one, it's going to be a big one.
Um, yeah, man, like a party andso, and it's gonna be a big one
, it's gonna be a big one.
Um, yeah, man, it's.
And then we got the funeralmonday and so, oh god, I tell
you, man, keep on praying for us, please keep on praying.
Um, I got so much to say andthere's so much that I believe
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god has placed in me, man andthis, this right here, bro, it's
like if anybody needed an eyeopener, it don't.
It, don't it?
Eyes can't get more open thanthis, bro, it don't.
Eyes can't get more open thanthis bro, something like this
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bro, somebody like Keisha, 37,38 years old young woman, man,
two children, my niece and mynephew, bro, eyes.
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I don't know if it's possiblefor eyes to be open more than
this.
Yes, god gives and he takes,and yes, it's appointed unto.
Man wants to die, but, man, wedon't want to see nothing like
this man with anybody, like thisman with anybody, with anybody,
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bro, I don't, I don't wish thistype of pain on my worst
enemies.
I just I don't even have noenemies, but, like bro, I don't.
There's people out there who,like, wish ill on other people.
Bro, I don't wish this onanybody, I don't.
I, like, I pray that nobody hasto go through this pain, bro,
bro, oh my god, man, so, man,open your eyes.
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Open your eyes.
The, the arguing, the bickeringman, the constant, you know,
hating and lack of love for oneanother man, the beef that's
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just been sitting for years andyou and this person just can't
get along, bro, let it go.
Been sitting for years and youand this person just can't get
along.
Bro, let it go.
Let it go, man, let it go, letit go.
Man, you haven't talked to yourfamily in how long?
And you want nothing to do withthat person and that person
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want nothing to do with you.
Yo, let that person be a child,let let that person Do it.
You, you, you, who, you, whoknows better?
Please do better, man, dobetter, do better, do better.
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Life is so short, life is soshort and it's too short to be
holding grudges against people.
Man, man, I, I don't even got,I don't even have the, the
energy to.
If you couldn't hear it already, I don't have it, I don't have
it in me to preach this messageto you and to anybody else
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anymore, this specific one, andand I'll find it again for sure,
I'll find it, and you know, Igot a million other things that
I'll be talking about, but, likeright now, like anybody who
needs that, talk, bro, like it'slike at this point, it's
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between you and God, bro, causeI don't have no grudge in me to
hold against nobody, bro.
If I did before, I, bro, I have, I, yo, I forgive you, whoever
you are.
I forgive you and and I praythat you forgive me, that's it,
bro.
I don't have any grudge in meto hold against you anymore,
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have any grudge in me to holdagainst you anymore, because
life is too short and I could begone tomorrow.
God forbid somebody else couldbe gone tomorrow, today, bro.
So I pray.
I pray that we, all us asbrothers and sisters and it may
sound cliche, but we'llliterally make the decision to
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live in harmony, be thecommunity that God has called us
to be.
And yes, we have our differenceof opinions and you know, yes,
we believe different thingsultimately, but I mean, love is
universal man.
Love transcends everything,transcends religion, race, creed
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, bro Yo, love transcends it all, and if we could just love one
another man, just love eachother, we'd be in a much better
place as a society.
Man, but it starts with us.
It starts with us.
We can't change the world ifwe're not willing to change
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ourselves.
Can't change the world if we'renot willing to change ourselves
.
Can't change the world if we'renot willing to change ourselves
.
So I love you guys, man, man, Ireally be getting to talking
Like I really didn't plan ondoing a 20 minute joint, but
here we are.
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Man, I love you guys again.
Thank you, thank you.
Thank you to everybody who hasdone anything, if you even
thought about it, if you eventhought about doing something
for the family man, if you evenconsidered it.
Thank you.
Thank you to to my pastor andmy leader.
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My father, bishop Smith maynever hear this, but I thank God
that he's still here and I'mstill here and I literally was
able to sit down with himyesterday and talk to him about
life and everything, and I wasable to thank him for everything
he's done, to thank him foreverything he's done, and I just
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pray that we continue to getthe opportunity to love on each
other, all of us, all of us.
I'm talking now.
I pray we all get theopportunity to continue to love
on each other, man, until God isready for us.
Um, that's it, man.
I love you.
I appreciate you guys.
I will be back soon.
I will be back soon.
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And, bro, I'm coming back withfire.
Bro, I'm coming back with firein my heart and fire in my belly
and purpose, purpose in everyfiber of my being.
I'm empowered, I'm remainingsteadfast, unmovable.
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God is strengthening us man ina way that we didn't even know
was possible, in a way that wedidn't even know was possible.
And so I'm looking forward tothis next chapter, because we
don't have a choice but to presson.
We don't have a choice.
We don't have a choice but togo on.
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And Keisha, my sister, yourmemory will live on.
Your legacy Will never die.
You'll be remembered forever.
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You'll be remembered forever.
Your niece is almost here.
My daughter, few more months.
You'll be remembered forever.
You'll be remembered forever.
Your niece is almost here.
My daughter, a few more months,and your memory will live
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forever.
Love you, guys.
God bless you Until next time.