PMDD Diaries, Part 2 — The Crash (aka Bathroom Floors & Black Holes)

This is Part 2 of a 3-part series chronicling one of the hardest PMDD episodes I’ve had in a while. In Part 1, I thought I had beat it—cheering myself on for "feeling follows action" and riding the high of showing up for a single call (which, yes, I know sounds ridiculous... but also, no, it doesn’t).

This episode was recorded just two days later—and it’s where everything unraveled. I talk about what it’s like when the “awareness” that helped earlier in the week stops creating space. When the descent happens anyway. When the dark cloud swallows you whole and even knowing it’s PMDD doesn’t save you from how real it feels.

There are laughs in here. There’s a metaphor I drew. But there’s also despair, bathroom floor moments, and that hollow, dangerous silence that can creep in when you’re going through it alone.

A third, lighter episode is coming—one where the sun comes back out. But this one? This is the crash.

Thank you for listening. You are not alone.