I Was in a 5-Year Affair: Here's What It Taught Me About Emotional Intimacy and Healing After Heartbreak

Ever loved someone in a way you couldn’t explain to anyone else? Found yourself in a relationship that felt more real than anything before but didn’t fit the story you were supposed to live? Yeah, me too.

This episode is where we begin. Without filters or shame, I share the truth about falling for someone who isn’t fully yours and why that love still mattered.

For five years, I was in a relationship with a married man. It wasn’t part of the plan. I wasn’t chasing chaos. But it happened. And it shaped me. 

If you’ve ever felt torn between what’s “right” and what’s real, or quietly carried the pain of taboo relationships, you’re not alone.

In this conversation, I open up about how it started, how it evolved, and why leaving was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. We talk about emotional intimacy, the messy middle of complicated relationships, and what no one tells you about affair recovery.You’ll hear the full story on how we navigated the affair, how COVID became a turning point, and what it meant to love someone I couldn’t fully claim. 

This is for the women living in the gray, for anyone unpacking their own relationship stories, and for those craving healing after heartbreak.

Here’s to rewriting what love is,

Nikki

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