Alive

CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes candid discussion of depression, burnout, and suicidal ideation. Please listen with care and prioritize your well-being.

What does it mean to truly feel alive after you’ve nearly lost yourself? This week, I’m joined by Rachel Molenda — DJ, entrepreneur, and founder of Reunion, a women’s dance party movement rooted in joy, community, and remembering who you are.

But before Rachel was creating space for others to heal and dance, she was navigating a deep, disorienting depression that brought her to the brink. In this conversation, she speaks honestly about what it was like to be in that place — when even getting through the day felt impossible — and how music, movement, and community slowly helped her find her way back to herself.

We talk about:

• What it feels like when your light starts to go out
• The role of dance and movement in emotional regulation
• The pressure to “heal” before feeling joy again — and why that’s backwards
• The link between nervous system health and our capacity to experience joy
• How creativity, connection, and radical honesty became Rachel’s way through

Rachel's courage in sharing her story is a powerful reminder that joy and sorrow aren’t opposites — they’re companions. That remembering who you are sometimes begins when everything else has fallen away. And that healing doesn’t always happen in stillness — sometimes it happens in motion.

Learn more about Rachel and her work:

• Follow @rachelmmolenda on Instagram
• Join the @thereuniondanceparty movement
• Visit her website at rachelmmolenda.com

Host & Producer: Jenn St John
Editor: Andrew Schiller
Website: www.jennstjohn.ca
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