This Might Be Therapy

What do you do when the love of your life becomes the biggest silence in your house?

In this raw confession, I sit with the truth of 19 years spent loving one woman — through good, bad, ugly, and everything no one else sees behind the pictures we post for show. This is for every man or woman who’s ever carried a marriage on their back, fought for loyalty while drowning in family poison, and asked, “Are we still meant to be… or a...

Some names are just paper.

Some names are blood.

And some names you stand guard over so your children never have to wonder where they come from.

In this short episode, I open the door to my own roots — from an adopted name to a birth surname whispered out of Belgium, from Welsh hills to my kids’ future.

This is for anyone who ever asked, “Who am I, really?” — and found the answer buried deep in the quiet parts of the family tree.

🔑 Lis...

I carried May in silence.

My wife’s birthday.

My mother’s birthday.

Mother’s Day.

And the anniversary of the day the military discarded me—May 10th. Every year, I bleed through that month while everyone else just expects me to smile through it.

But now it’s June.

And this time, I’m claiming what’s mine.

Father’s Day.

Seven years of Chris and Sons.

Men’s Mental Health Awareness Month.

And the first day of summer.

This month is ...

What happens when the person you built a life with walks away—and doesn’t even look back?

This episode isn’t about bitterness. It’s about the invisible grief of being emotionally replaced while you’re still standing right there. It’s about the quiet rooms, the unanswered questions, and the silence that used to be filled with love. But more than that—it’s about what comes next.

Because in this story, I don’t stay broken.

In...

After years of court losses, false accusations, and financial ruin, I took back my power—and I did it without a lawyer.

In this episode, I break down exactly how I navigated the child support system, gained more custody of my children, and rewrote the terms of my fatherhood. No sugarcoating. No legal team. Just grit, strategy, and faith.

💡 Learn the hidden rules behind parenting plans.

📑 Hear how I reduced child support from...

Some truths can’t be sugar-coated. This episode is one of them.

In A Special Place in Hell, Vigil delivers his most raw and unfiltered episode to date—calling out the dark reality that many fathers silently endure: when mothers turn children into weapons, and the court system hands them the ammunition.

From personal testimony to real-world cases across the U.S., this episode exposes how child support, custody arrangements, an...

What if the argument wasn’t really about a pillow?

In this raw and deeply personal episode, Vigil unpacks a moment that seems small on the surface—but reveals a much deeper truth about emotional control, parenting power struggles, and how everyday objects become weapons in toxic dynamics.

After a thoughtful gesture is twisted into conflict, a father finds himself punished not with words—but through distance, silence, and the weaponiz...

A quiet revolution in self-worth

There was a time I didn’t even like myself—let alone want to be myself.

In this honest, soul-deep episode, I walk through what it means to rebuild trust with yourself after years of abandonment, shame, and people-pleasing.

Not performance. Not perfection. Just presence.

Through vivid storytelling and scripture, I unpack how I went from chasing approval to finally sitting still in my own ...

Healing doesn’t always announce itself with fireworks.

Sometimes it whispers.

In the quietest way possible, I realized I was healing—because it didn’t hurt as much. I didn’t check her page. I didn’t replay the fight. I didn’t reach for a drink. I didn’t want her to come back.

This episode marks the beginning of a new chapter—where peace comes in stillness, and strength shows up in softness.

Through vivid reflection and scripture, I exp...

Not every fire ends in ashes.

Sometimes, what’s left behind… still burns.

In this deeply personal bonus episode, I close out Chapter 3 not with a dramatic finale—but with a quiet truth: something in me survived.

I speak on the symbolic and personal meaning of “the ember”—from the emotional flame that stayed lit through betrayal, divorce, and isolation… to the real-life Ember, my estranged niece, whom I once held close but have...

What if every hardship wasn’t leading to something greater… but just preparing you to survive more pain?

In this raw and soul-baring episode, I ask the question I’ve carried for years: Is God preparing me for purpose—or just breaking me down one crisis at a time?

From surviving one brutal divorce to now staring down another, from child support debt to emotional collapse, I unpack the exhaustion of rebuilding my life over and ...

What do you do when the person who swore they’d never hurt you… does it anyway?

This episode is about betrayal—not the loud kind, but the kind wrapped in silence and convenience. Chris shares the raw story of how his children were stolen from him in 2006, how the military discarded him at his lowest, and how, in 2025, the same emotional wounds are being reopened by the very woman who once promised to protect him.

From military trauma...

They said if you stayed loyal, loved hard, and did the right thing—you’d be enough. But for fathers in this generation, being “good” doesn’t guarantee anything. In this raw, unfiltered episode, I expose the 7 biggest lies they told us about fatherhood—and the painful truths that come with them.

From betrayal, emotional manipulation, and court battles, to the quiet grief of being erased by the very people you sacrificed for… this...

What do you do when your own son tells you to go to hell… and the woman standing next to you just walks away?

In this raw, unfiltered episode, I open up about a defining moment that broke me at 5:36 PM on May 16, 2025—a moment of defiance, silence, and generational pain. My 12-year-old son lashed out physically and verbally. My wife witnessed it and said nothing. And on the birthday of the woman who taught me how to suffer in si...

This is more than a podcast. It’s a testimony for every father who’s ever been erased by a lie.

In this brutally raw episode, we expose the quiet warfare behind custody battles—where manipulative women build their case in secret, weaponize the father’s own family against him, and use false accusations to destroy his credibility, finances, and connection to his child.

You’ll hear the truth about:

• How the setup begins be...

In this raw and soul-baring episode, Vigil opens up about the invisible weight men carry—day in and day out—without praise, without recognition, and often without thanks. From laundry loads to late-night problem-solving, he speaks on the quiet sacrifices made by fathers and husbands everywhere who stay steady while the world forgets who’s holding the line.

Through powerful storytelling and deeply personal reflection, he explores...

After giving everything he had on Mother’s Day—despite having nothing to give financially—Vigil reflects on the emotional cost of showing up when you feel unseen. In this raw, reflective episode, he unpacks the quiet pain of being a man who gives, sacrifices, and carries the weight… only to be told he’s not welcome. He explores the symbolism of the garage—not as a place to escape, but as a place to survive.

Scripture weaves thro...

This is the most brutally honest episode yet.

In this powerful exposé, we dismantle the myth of equality in modern parenting and shine a light on the weaponization of motherhood—how lies, false allegations, and biased courtrooms are used to erase fathers from their children’s lives.

Backed by hard U.S. data, scripture, and real conversations with alienated fathers, this episode isn’t just therapy. It’s a firestorm.

We brea...

This is not a sob story. It’s a war report.

In this raw and unfiltered episode, I expose the brutal reality of how the child support system, custody laws, and parental alienation tactics are being used to break fathers—financially, emotionally, and spiritually. Inspired by a private conversation with another father in the trenches, I’m speaking what most men have been forced to keep quiet for years.

From North Dakota to Texas to Mont...