September 18, 2025 • 13 mins
On this emotional episode of Pillow Talk, Alii talks about the tragic assassination of Turning Point USA founder Charlie Kirk.
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
This is the FCB Podcast Network. This is pillow Talk
with Ali Michelle on the FCB Podcast Network.
Speaker 2 (00:23):
Welcome back to an episode of pillow Talk with Ali Michelle.
I am your host, Ali Michelle. This episode is rough.
I've spent the last twenty four hours crying and wondering why.
(00:46):
I'm sure as many other I'm sure as many of
you are asking the same question as to why a
man who just preached the gospel, who loved God, who
did nothing but just voice his opinions, and some may
have not agreed with him, But that's the point of
(01:10):
America is to talk about our differences, figure out a
happy medium, not be shot in cold blood in front
of a group of students that were there to learn
about him, learn from him, who adored and admired and
looked up to him. Charlie has made a huge impact
(01:34):
in America, and it's very hard to find the words
right now. I, as a mother and as a wife,
have I grieve and I feel horrible that America let
(01:56):
her down and this monster ripped and robbed her from
the love of her life, the father of her children,
their children, and they were so young. He was turning
thirty two in October. He is literally two months younger
than me. You guys, two months younger than me. He
(02:21):
didn't deserve his fate, and as someone who struggles with
their religion and trying to find God, I two for
a second asked the question why God, Why him? I'm
literally sitting here next to my bed, on my floor,
between my wall and my bed, recording this podcast, asking why.
(02:45):
And then I remember the journey I'm on, and it
wasn't God that took him. It was a monster that
that ripped Charlie from his family and ripped him from
his mission and the movement that he created. I am
(03:10):
not gonna act like I know him personally because I don't,
as a lot of us don't know him personally. But
he connected with us. We watched him, We felt as
if we knew him just watching our phone screens, the televisions.
(03:30):
I Charlie did something to us all. He connected us all.
It's so hard to explain. It's kind of like this,
It's kind of like this magnetic field or connection that
we are all intertwined with him, and he is the keyponent,
like he is the key to it all, or he
(03:52):
was the start of it all. But he should have
never been taken. That was such a horrific, a horrific event.
And you know, as somebody who is in the political
field who voices her opinion unapologetically just as he did,
(04:12):
it has I'd be lying if I said it didn't
create fear withinside of myself. I talked to my mom
today and we're going over the events, and I said,
it's just scary because this is the world I'm in.
And she was like, I think you should really like
pause for a minute when it comes to talking about politics.
(04:32):
My mom, I'm sure as many other moms. I'm sure
so many moms who have kids who are in the
political realm and this is our community and this is
like what we love to do, are terrified. We should
not be terrified to send our children to school and
allow our children to speak their voice, our God given rights.
(04:56):
We should not be afraid. And I've been pawned, and
I've been praying, and I've been asking questions. My prayers
aren't the same as many others. I kind of just
talk within my own self and just ask questions. I'm
not I don't know prayers by verbatia. I don't know
any of that. I just I know that I have
felt God, and I've seen him, and I've yeah, and
(05:22):
I've been wondering and trying to figure out the internet today.
Is it wrong to voice? Is it wrong to talk
about it? Is it selfish to talk about it? And
I don't think it is. I think from what we
have learned from Charlie is to never back down and
(05:44):
uh getting a little worked up again. And I don't
think he would want us to be silent. I think
he would want us to all put the pressure on
finding the monster that did this. I don't think he
would ever want us to stop the conservative movement based
(06:07):
on the actions of one disgusting, vile human being who
lost their way a long long time ago. There is
evil in this world. And I saw a quote or
I saw somebody talking about I don't know if there's
a god, but I'm slowly believing because there's evil, which
means there must be good, which means there must be
a God. That's kind of where I'm at. I'm a
(06:30):
little further than that, just because of my own experiences
and my own journey. It's just the thing that keeps
playing in my mind. And I know this podcast is
like all over the place, But my mind just keeps
replaying that footage that unfortunately his children may see someday.
(06:53):
And I know there's speculation and I'm not sure if
it's true that if his wife and kids were there
to witness it firsthand, But if they were, I how
strong you have to be to continue on after that?
We saw it online and that that struck us, that
(07:13):
that was that was so my prayers go out to
all of the Kirk family, all of his closest, most
(07:36):
dear friends. You know, what's just kind of crazy is
that he did. From what I've watched, I don't even
think he realized it happened. I don't even think he
heard it. And this is I don't know if this
is wrong to talk about, but just watching the footage
over and over, you don't see him jump. It was
just quick, which part of that makes me a little
(08:02):
bit okay, but not because he was talking and the
next thing, you know, he probably woke up in heaven
like what just happened? Here? What just happened? I was
just talking to my friends. I was just talking to
a group of students, and then I saw a cartoon
(08:23):
illustration where Charlie was walking with Jesus and he and
the microphone was in the background and he was like,
I hope somebody picks that up, like ooh, that illustration
really did it. And then the family's the videos of
the family. My prayers go out to Erica and his kids.
(08:47):
This woman if she if you're listening or if you're not,
she may or may not have slept last night, but
today she does not have a husband, and as a
newlywed who found love, happiness, healthy, understanding relationship, I couldn't.
(09:15):
I can't imagine my life without him. And that's Erica's reality.
So I made a video today on TikTok after I've
struggled with going back and forth. I you know, the liberal,
(09:36):
well extreme progressive liberals. They're loud, right, they're loud, but
we're louder. Their celebrations they're vile. Display of lack of
remorse is loud, but not as loud as our love
we are. Our love is louder, our compassion is louder,
(10:00):
our humanity is louder, our faith is louder, our voices
are louder, and our movement is getting louder by the second.
Do not ever let them take that away from us,
and I'll be damned if I ever hear anyone tell
(10:23):
me we need to take the guns, because now we're
not just protecting ourselves from a possible tyrannical government. We
are now protecting ourselves from the lunatics and the psychopaths
that are roaming with us, who give zero shits about us,
who don't care. If you're not if you don't believe
(10:45):
this way, then they're going to try to take that away.
You may have taken away a phenomenal man, but you
did not take away the movement he started. We are
just getting started. They have woken up a beast. And
(11:06):
you want to know what I find truly, truly amazing
is that I have been seeing hundreds of videos of
people that leaned with the liberal side saying I'm done
with the liberal side. I'm done. So not only did
they make our movement louder, they're making our movement bigger.
We are growing by the masses. Now. Nobody wants to
(11:29):
live in a world, in a country is that we
have the right to speak on things and be afraid
that that's going to make a target on your back.
Opinions should not make it so you have a target
on your back, and I'm gonna I'm going to exit
(11:50):
with this. Our parents may be afraid, our friends may
be afraid that we're speaking, but we should never stop speaking,
should never bow down, because we live in fear. Absolutely not.
Our movement is strong, our voices are stronger, and our
(12:15):
humanity is growing by the day. Our compassion, our fight
is growing by the day. We have woken up. Many
people are starting to wake up. Now it's time to
(12:36):
put this force into action. The conservative movement will be
the greatest movement of all time and we're trying. We
are going to make America great again. All thanks to Charlie.
My prayers go out to his family and his friends,
his kids, and his beloved wife. We love you, We
(13:00):
stand behind you. You have an entire army backing you,
and we will not fail him. And with that else,
you guys. Talk to you guys on the next one.
This is the FCB Podcast Network. This is pillow Talk
with Ali Michelle on the FCB Podcast Network.
Speaker 2 (00:23):
Welcome back to an episode of pillow Talk with Ali Michelle.
I am your host, Ali Michelle. This episode is rough.
I've spent the last twenty four hours crying and wondering why.
(00:46):
I'm sure as many other I'm sure as many of
you are asking the same question as to why a
man who just preached the gospel, who loved God, who
did nothing but just voice his opinions, and some may
have not agreed with him, But that's the point of
(01:10):
America is to talk about our differences, figure out a
happy medium, not be shot in cold blood in front
of a group of students that were there to learn
about him, learn from him, who adored and admired and
looked up to him. Charlie has made a huge impact
(01:34):
in America, and it's very hard to find the words
right now. I, as a mother and as a wife,
have I grieve and I feel horrible that America let
(01:56):
her down and this monster ripped and robbed her from
the love of her life, the father of her children,
their children, and they were so young. He was turning
thirty two in October. He is literally two months younger
than me. You guys, two months younger than me. He
(02:21):
didn't deserve his fate, and as someone who struggles with
their religion and trying to find God, I two for
a second asked the question why God, Why him? I'm
literally sitting here next to my bed, on my floor,
between my wall and my bed, recording this podcast, asking why.
(02:45):
And then I remember the journey I'm on, and it
wasn't God that took him. It was a monster that
that ripped Charlie from his family and ripped him from
his mission and the movement that he created. I am
(03:10):
not gonna act like I know him personally because I don't,
as a lot of us don't know him personally. But
he connected with us. We watched him, We felt as
if we knew him just watching our phone screens, the televisions.
(03:30):
I Charlie did something to us all. He connected us all.
It's so hard to explain. It's kind of like this,
It's kind of like this magnetic field or connection that
we are all intertwined with him, and he is the keyponent,
like he is the key to it all, or he
(03:52):
was the start of it all. But he should have
never been taken. That was such a horrific, a horrific event.
And you know, as somebody who is in the political
field who voices her opinion unapologetically just as he did,
(04:12):
it has I'd be lying if I said it didn't
create fear withinside of myself. I talked to my mom
today and we're going over the events, and I said,
it's just scary because this is the world I'm in.
And she was like, I think you should really like
pause for a minute when it comes to talking about politics.
(04:32):
My mom, I'm sure as many other moms. I'm sure
so many moms who have kids who are in the
political realm and this is our community and this is
like what we love to do, are terrified. We should
not be terrified to send our children to school and
allow our children to speak their voice, our God given rights.
(04:56):
We should not be afraid. And I've been pawned, and
I've been praying, and I've been asking questions. My prayers
aren't the same as many others. I kind of just
talk within my own self and just ask questions. I'm
not I don't know prayers by verbatia. I don't know
any of that. I just I know that I have
felt God, and I've seen him, and I've yeah, and
(05:22):
I've been wondering and trying to figure out the internet today.
Is it wrong to voice? Is it wrong to talk
about it? Is it selfish to talk about it? And
I don't think it is. I think from what we
have learned from Charlie is to never back down and
(05:44):
uh getting a little worked up again. And I don't
think he would want us to be silent. I think
he would want us to all put the pressure on
finding the monster that did this. I don't think he
would ever want us to stop the conservative movement based
(06:07):
on the actions of one disgusting, vile human being who
lost their way a long long time ago. There is
evil in this world. And I saw a quote or
I saw somebody talking about I don't know if there's
a god, but I'm slowly believing because there's evil, which
means there must be good, which means there must be
a God. That's kind of where I'm at. I'm a
(06:30):
little further than that, just because of my own experiences
and my own journey. It's just the thing that keeps
playing in my mind. And I know this podcast is
like all over the place, But my mind just keeps
replaying that footage that unfortunately his children may see someday.
(06:53):
And I know there's speculation and I'm not sure if
it's true that if his wife and kids were there
to witness it firsthand, But if they were, I how
strong you have to be to continue on after that?
We saw it online and that that struck us, that
(07:13):
that was that was so my prayers go out to
all of the Kirk family, all of his closest, most
(07:36):
dear friends. You know, what's just kind of crazy is
that he did. From what I've watched, I don't even
think he realized it happened. I don't even think he
heard it. And this is I don't know if this
is wrong to talk about, but just watching the footage
over and over, you don't see him jump. It was
just quick, which part of that makes me a little
(08:02):
bit okay, but not because he was talking and the
next thing, you know, he probably woke up in heaven
like what just happened? Here? What just happened? I was
just talking to my friends. I was just talking to
a group of students, and then I saw a cartoon
(08:23):
illustration where Charlie was walking with Jesus and he and
the microphone was in the background and he was like,
I hope somebody picks that up, like ooh, that illustration
really did it. And then the family's the videos of
the family. My prayers go out to Erica and his kids.
(08:47):
This woman if she if you're listening or if you're not,
she may or may not have slept last night, but
today she does not have a husband, and as a
newlywed who found love, happiness, healthy, understanding relationship, I couldn't.
(09:15):
I can't imagine my life without him. And that's Erica's reality.
So I made a video today on TikTok after I've
struggled with going back and forth. I you know, the liberal,
(09:36):
well extreme progressive liberals. They're loud, right, they're loud, but
we're louder. Their celebrations they're vile. Display of lack of
remorse is loud, but not as loud as our love
we are. Our love is louder, our compassion is louder,
(10:00):
our humanity is louder, our faith is louder, our voices
are louder, and our movement is getting louder by the second.
Do not ever let them take that away from us,
and I'll be damned if I ever hear anyone tell
(10:23):
me we need to take the guns, because now we're
not just protecting ourselves from a possible tyrannical government. We
are now protecting ourselves from the lunatics and the psychopaths
that are roaming with us, who give zero shits about us,
who don't care. If you're not if you don't believe
(10:45):
this way, then they're going to try to take that away.
You may have taken away a phenomenal man, but you
did not take away the movement he started. We are
just getting started. They have woken up a beast. And
(11:06):
you want to know what I find truly, truly amazing
is that I have been seeing hundreds of videos of
people that leaned with the liberal side saying I'm done
with the liberal side. I'm done. So not only did
they make our movement louder, they're making our movement bigger.
We are growing by the masses. Now. Nobody wants to
(11:29):
live in a world, in a country is that we
have the right to speak on things and be afraid
that that's going to make a target on your back.
Opinions should not make it so you have a target
on your back, and I'm gonna I'm going to exit
(11:50):
with this. Our parents may be afraid, our friends may
be afraid that we're speaking, but we should never stop speaking,
should never bow down, because we live in fear. Absolutely not.
Our movement is strong, our voices are stronger, and our
(12:15):
humanity is growing by the day. Our compassion, our fight
is growing by the day. We have woken up. Many
people are starting to wake up. Now it's time to
(12:36):
put this force into action. The conservative movement will be
the greatest movement of all time and we're trying. We
are going to make America great again. All thanks to Charlie.
My prayers go out to his family and his friends,
his kids, and his beloved wife. We love you, We
(13:00):
stand behind you. You have an entire army backing you,
and we will not fail him. And with that else,
you guys. Talk to you guys on the next one.
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