"To Seek Himself Again" — published in Apex Magazine, issue 127, November 2021.
Read it here: https://apex-magazine.com/to-seek-himself-again
Marie Croke is an award-winning fantasy and science-fiction writer living in Maryland with her family, all of whom like to scribble messages in her notebooks when she's not looking. She is a graduate of the Odyssey Writing Workshop, and her stories have been published or are forthcoming in over a dozen magazines, including Apex Magazine, Beneath Ceaseless Skies, Dark Matter Magazine, Deep Magic, Cast of Wonders, and Diabolical Plots. You can find her book and short story recommendations at mariecroke.com or chat about writing woes or being book drunk with her @marie_croke on Twitter.
This story was narrated by Leeman Kessler. Leeman is a Nigerian-born American actor and village mayor who, since 2010, has been performing as HP Lovecraft on stage, film, and in his popular web-series advice show, Ask Lovecraft. You can find more of his narration work on the Escape Artists network and on Audible.
This Apex Magazine podcast was produced by KT Bryski. Theme music by Alex White. Other music in this podcast includes "Blue Sizzle," "Apprehension," "The Dread," "Magic Forest," "Wounded," and "Stages of Grief," all by Kevin MacLeod and licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license. Some sounds in this podcast are provided by the Free Sound Project. Find out more at www.freesound.org.
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Apex Magazine is a bimonthly short fiction zine focused on dark science fiction, fantasy, and horror. Find us at http://www.apex-magazine.com.
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