Purity

00:00 Purity • 
00:43 Titty streamers • 
01:31 Like dropping • 
02:09 Embarassed • 
02:31 Douchebag? • 
03:00 The last word • 
03:45 Kamikaze • 
04:21 Slow start • 
04:41 Two kinds of assholes • 
05:35 Soul burn • 
06:14 Cucumber • 
06:45 Hate is easy • 
07:47 How to medium • 
08:25 Blessings and disasters • 
09:15 Outro • • 

Featured Music: 
Emancipator - When I go •  
Groove Armada - Sun Toucher • 
Arkisit - Fill Your Coffee • 
Charles Bradley - You Think I Don't Know, But I Know • 
Chapter VII: The Glitch Mob - Interbeing • 
Flitzsuppe - Urban Density • 
Clozee - Secret Place - Tor Remix • 
Freddie Joachim - Midnight Trains • • 

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Published: April 24, 2019 (2019-04-24) • 
Software: Adobe Audition • • 

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Episode Transcript

(00:06):
There's really nothing in this world that's pure.
Purity is just an idea.
It's an idea created by peoplewho are trying to sell you stuff
to make their products seembetter.
It's used by racist people tomake their genes seem better.
Purebred animals...
banging their cousins.

(00:27):
Pure blooded royalty...
banging their sisters.
Pretty Gross.
Nowadays, purity really onlymeans one thing...
incest, So there's this thingnow with ladies streaming video

(00:52):
games with their titties out inorder to get views and get
famous, I guess.
What's weird about this is ifyou put everyone in the same
room, both the streamer and theaudience, and it's a pretty
young audience...
The sheer amount of bone orenergy, what honestly suffocate

(01:15):
the room.
It's the same way in the chat ofthe streamers.
Just a bunch of like weirdcomments.
The streamers banning everybodyleft and right for saying
anything boob related.
It's like where am I?
And yeah, I looked into it forscience.

(01:37):
If you're trying to grow onInstagram, here's some advice
that worked for me.
If somebody drops you a like youshould probably go drop them a
like, cause likes, are like thecurrency of the Instagram
economy, a trade, a transactionand plus you might see some dope
shit on their page too...
they liked you, you might likethem.

(01:57):
Nothing wrong with that.
Nothing wrong with a littleinspiration.
At the end of the day, all youwant to say is, hey, I see you
like my shit.
I got some other shit here.
I think you might also like.
Growing, changing, movingforward in life.
Sometimes I look back and go,man, I was such a dumb ass and
I'm just, I'm embarrassed of allthe dumb shit I did.

(02:20):
But you know, I know that forthe most part it's all right.
People are forgiving ingeneral...
unless they're douchebags orunless you raped somebody.
So I realized I didn't know whata Douche bags were like, I
didn't know what they look like.
You know, that thing thatssupposed to make vaginas smell

(02:43):
good?
The Feminine Product?
Yeah.
I didn't know what it lookedlike so I googled it.
But apparently they don't existbecause all I've found were
backpacks called Douche bags andreally, really orange people.
It seems like almost everyculture across the world has a

(03:06):
word that they like to endsentences with.
Like in southern Californiawhere I live, I find myself
using"dude" and"man" at the endsof sentences for no reason.
Even when there's no dude or manthere, it just rolls off the
tongue.
It sounds nice.
You know Canadians use AYE forthe same reason.

(03:28):
Armenians have two differentversions of this.
Eli and Gor, which both do thesame thing.
It almost means"person" kind of.
Really what I think is happeningis it's music.
It's like the, it's like aperiod at the end of the
sentence or a note at the end ofthe melody.

(03:53):
Hurricanes and typhoons are thesame thing and they devastated
Japan for centuries, foreverbasically.
But when the Mongolian shipswere coming across that ocean,
that divine wind came throughand saved Japan's ass.
That's what kamikaze means.
It means"Divine Wind" and it'snamed after those hurricanes

(04:16):
that took out those ships.
Fucking epic.
If you're afraid of creatingshit because you think it's
going to suck...
it is it is going to suck.
But everyone sucks in thebeginning.
Everyone's gonna do bad work.
You just got to keep at it, keepat it.
It's going to keep gettingbetter, little by little.

(04:37):
No one remembers the bad work inthe beginning for anything, they
glorify it.
There's two kinds of assholes inthis world.
Hot peppers and poisonousberries...
And I liked the peppers, becausethe peppers are honest.

(05:02):
You bite one of those guys, yourmouth's going to burn.
It's going to tell you what itis.
The pepper goes, Yo, this is me.
Take me as I am or get the fuckOutta here, but this is who I
am.
It owns it.
Unlike the fucking poisonousberry, tastes all sweet, going

(05:22):
in, feel good for a few hoursand then next thing you know
you're bleeding out of your ass.
There are definitely days wherethe mistakes of my past weigh a
lot more than they used to, andthey just dig into my soul all

(05:48):
day long.
It's like I'm having a, I'mhaving an emotional and mental
period.
It is like a period.
It's a period of sadness.
It's like a storm I have toweather, and just like anything
else it's becoming a skill.
The more I do it, the better Iget at it.

(06:09):
Get better at it, at navigatingthose dark, muddy waters.
One of the funniest and weirdestinsults in Armenian calling
somebody a cucumber.
Cucumber.
I think it means stupid or bumpyskin or small Dick.
You take your pick.

(06:30):
I guess it depends on what kindof part of the world you're in.
Cause Persian cucumbers aresmall so it's an insult.
But American cucumbers arepretty fucking big so I don't
think you would have quite thesame effect over here.
Something that kind of mindfucks me on a regular basis is
just knowing how easy it is tobe like missjudged and

(06:53):
misperceived by other peoplebased on how you look, what
you're wearing, who you're with,what you're doing.
So many reasons, you know, causeeveryone lives their own life,
has their own experiences andassociates, different things
with different things.
You know, we're all sodifferent.
Raised different, livedifferent, our day to day is

(07:15):
different and you judge everyoneelse based on your experiences
as if you know, we judge peopleas if we know for sure who they
are and what they're doing.
I mean, yeah there are certaintells but for the most part we
don't know.
We don't know.
We just think we do.
And that's crazy because no oneknows your story.

(07:36):
No one knows where you from,where you've been, where you're
going.
But one thing's for sure, ittakes a lot less work to hate
someone than it does to puteffort into understanding them.
Dogs are so intense men,everything they do, they

(07:56):
intensely protect your fuckinghouse.
Anything that moves, they cansense it from like a mile away.
And they also love intensely,you know, you leave the house
for 10 minutes and it's like youwere dead for 10 years man.

(08:18):
They just explode.
They don't know how to medium.
They don't know medium, zero ora hundred with dogs and that's
why I love him The same way thetide goes in and out, the same
way the sun sets and rises.

(08:39):
Our lives are full of blessingsand disasters.
We get the good stuff becausethere are happy things go our
way.
Then things go south and not sogood...
thats just the way it is.
It's always going to be thatway.
No matter how good is howcomfortable you think can be, no
matter how satisfied you are.

(08:59):
It always changes, and the bestskill that you can really learn
in this crazy as the world, isbeing good at adapting to
changes.
Thanks for listening.
That was episode 35 of ApricotJams.

(09:22):
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(09:42):
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