Sex Robots

00:00 Sex robots • 
01:02 Reverse Motivation • 
01:53 Growing Apart • 
02:54 Sketchy God • 
03:40 Wild Flat Earthers • 
04:24 Artistic Alchemy • 
05:29 Self Reflection • 
05:55 The Creative Well • 
06:42 Emilio • 
06:59 Plight of the Creator • 
08:08 Audio Technica • • • • 

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Ott - Hello My Name Is •  
Marbert Rocel - Eleanor Birdbath • 
Telefon Tel Aviv - TTV • 
The Human Experience ft. Lila Rose - Dusted Compass (Phutureprimitive Remix) • 
Tigran Hamasyan - Gypsyology (Live) • 
The Polish Embassador - Let the Rhythm Just • • • • 

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Published: May 3, 2019 (2019-05-03) • 
Remixed and Rerecorded: July 28, 2019 (2019-07-28)• 
Software: Adobe Audition • • 

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:07):
[inaudible]

Zareh (00:07):
Newsflash
now.
Pretty Weird.
But I don't know.
Maybe it's not...
maybe it can actually be goodfor society.
From what I can tell, a lot ofthese mass shooters did it
heavily because they couldn'tget laid.
Some of them even alreadyadmitted that that was why.

(00:29):
It makes sense.
What if it can help these dudes,you know, give them something,
take the edge off, reduce theshooting rates slightly still a
victory.
But I don't know, for the samereason that I think solitary
confinement drives people crazy,I think you just can't replace
the human.

(00:49):
You need someone looking you inthe eyes hearing what you are
saying, and replying backthoughtfully.
We need it.
We need it physically, mentally,and sexually.
[Inaudible] It's reallyinteresting the way being bored,

(01:11):
you know, just being completelysick of whatever it is you're
doing, can actually motivateyou.
It's a weird kind of reversemotivation where the boredom
forces you to try something new,to experiment, to take a fork in
the road.
Experimenting with it, you know?
And I think that's good for usas people to just take different

(01:33):
forks in the road, goingdifferent directions,
experiment, try new stuff andeventually we become a unique,
interesting, complex human.
But I guess there are somepeople that don't get bored as
easily as others and for them,Hey, stay on your one path.
But for everybody else.
I'll definitely see you on theother side.

(01:54):
I had this friend growing up,and we would do everything
together.
We got into heavy metal, drank,smoke, drove around town, did
stupid shit, all that stuff.
We were like brothers, but overthe years things have changed

(02:20):
and I have to constantly remindmyself that no one can fully
control where life takes them.
The left turns, the right turns,the forks in the road...
The bu s of life kind of justgoes where it wants In ways and
two people who at one point werespending all their time together
could now be spending none.

(02:42):
As much as it hurts, I know thatit's normal to grow apart.
If God is an artist, then theearth is definitely just a
sketch.

(03:03):
The final product is probablysomewhere way out there.
Spinning around a giant,beautiful star.
But this, I don't know aboutthis.
I feel like this was justpractice, you know, there's too
much shit going wrong, Dude.
Come on, look around.
There's rape, genocide, grizzlybears, great white sharks and

(03:29):
tornadoes.
God for sure made one betterthan this

(03:42):
For the longest time.
Flat earthers were kind of likebigfoot in my book.
You know, I've heard about them,but I never actually got to see
them in the wild.
And then I went to a party wherethere was two of them there and
guess what?
They wouldn't shut the fuck up.
They've almost ruined the damnparty.

(04:06):
And for a split second, Ireally, really missed vegans for
the same reason I miss GeorgeBush Jr.
There's just simply a way moreannoying version around right
now.

Zareh (04:25):
I'm constantly trying to figure out how to dance that
fine line of experimenting toomuch or experimenting too little

(04:46):
because really, I work like analchemist.
I just do things.
I just try new stuff every nowand then.
It works and it's dope.
Most of the time.
It sucks when it doesn't.
It's hard to tell.
I can never, I never know beforeand when I think I do, I'm
always completely wrong.

(05:06):
I just do and then observe, doand observe.
That's kind of what I've become,just an experimenter.
I don't know how to like, Idon't know.
I feel like, what am I evendoing?
Some days I just feel likethere's hoping, and doing and
every now and then somethinggood happens.

(05:31):
At this point I've kind of lostcount of how many times I
recorded an idea on my phonethinking it's the greatest thing
ever and then I listened back toit the next morning happy and
excited and I'm just like, oh myGod, am I really this stupid?

(05:56):
What scares me the most is thefeeling that the creative well
is going to dry up someday.
That I'm just going to run outof shit to say I run out of
observations, lose confidence.
You know, that the wall is justgoing to dry up.

(06:20):
Weird, weird feeling.
It ebbs and flows though.
I try and reassure myself basedon the things that I've observed
in the real world that, uh, fromwhat I can tell, as long as you
take care of your mind and yourbody and don't destroy it with
the drugs and alcohol, you'llprobably be okay.

(06:46):
Our first child was namedEmelia, and you know what this
means.
The second kid, boy or girl,must be named Emilio.
By the time I'm done recordingone of these things and I hit
publish, I just, at that point,I can't even stand listening to

(07:11):
it.
It's, it's annoying, whichforces me to take long breaks
from my work.
After that buttons pushed andit's up, you gotta give me like
at least two or three monthsbefore I can even be thinking
about going back, polishing,revising to making it better.

(07:34):
Shit feels weird, man.
I don't think it's ever going tofeel normal to do that.
To go back and listen to my ownvoice and then like edit it,
tweak it, refine it, and somehowput it up feeling like it's
actually entertaining.
I don't know if it is or not.

(07:55):
That's why it's so important toget feedback from people...
because without people tellingme whether it's they think it's
good or bad...
I'm just a blind dude shootingat a target just trusting only
my instincts.
Thanks for listening.
That was episode 37.
This episode is brought to youby audio technica cause I use

(08:17):
their mics and they're awesome.
I used to only have one.
You can hear it in the llstylish interview.
My mic was way worse than his,but uh, you know, you've got to
respect your guests.
You got to hook up the homies.
So he obviously sounded waybetter than me, but he's also
way bigger than me, so it allmakes sense.
Um, yeah.
Looking forward, I'm alreadyworking on the next episode.

(08:38):
It's like half of it's alreadydone.
These things.
You're just fucking gettingcranked down, man.
It's gnarly.
You can find my art onInstagram, Apricot Jams.
See you guys later.