The Anal Whisperer & The Cosplay Queen: Love, Kinks, and Chaos with Little Puck and Shawn Alff

In this episode of Holly Randall Unfiltered, I sit down with two of my favorite people in the adult industry—Little Puck and Shawn Alff—for a totally unfiltered, hilarious, and surprisingly deep conversation. We talk about everything from Puck’s wild transformation from conservative Christian cult kid to horror cosplay queen, to Shawn’s journey from sex journalist to adult performer and director. Yes, there are threesomes. Yes, there’s microdosing. And yes, there’s talk of anal (a lot of it). But there’s also real talk about mental health, work-life balance, shame, spirituality, and the unexpected ways this industry can heal and empower.
 
You’ll hear the real story behind their infamous “bangversary,” how Shawn became the most lovable cuck in porn, and why Puck is redefining what it means to be both dominant and vulnerable. We also get into the nitty-gritty of porn writing (spoiler: most of it is bad), how they find connection on and off camera, and what it really takes to build a sustainable, creative career in adult. This one is raw, funny, touching, and weird in all the best ways—just how I like it.
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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
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(00:20):
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Speaker 1 (01:02):
Hello, everybody, Welcome back to Holly Randall Unfiltered. My guests
today are notorious in the adult world. One is a
former sex journalist who turned All Stars screenwriter, then director,
and he even gets naked in front of the camera sometimes.
And the other is a cosplay queen who went from
Christian cult kid to award winning adult icon. Welcome Sean

(01:25):
Alf and Little Puck. Thanks for having us, Thank you
for having us. Yeah, no, it's so great to have
you guys on Sean, I've known you forever, Puck. I
met you for the first time at the Porn Hub gala. Yes, yeah,
I can't remember who introduced us, but they were like
you oh then Siri, Yeah, oh that's who was. She
was like, you need to know who she is, and

(01:46):
I was like, Okay, here I am, and now I'm
gonna like learn everything about you.

Speaker 3 (01:51):
She has a lot like people who love her are
fanatical about her and they want to introduce her to everybody.

Speaker 4 (01:57):
Yeah, and that's how I am with her too.

Speaker 1 (02:00):
One of the things that I think Siri said to
me was that you were one of the hardest working
people in the business. And I have to say from
the many times that I've seen you at events since
then and the links to which you have gone to
like dress up and like do cosplay, is that is

(02:21):
a significant amount of work.

Speaker 5 (02:22):
I just saw you last week and I was playing
Leaseel from Balderskate three my full time, my own self
impost call time was five am that day. Wow, I
still showed up to that party looking hot with Sophia Locke.

Speaker 1 (02:33):
It was sick And how many scenes did you shoot for? Wow?
You know, I used to play Baldersgate, which is so
we I was not I'm not a gamer at all,
but when I was younger, like that was the only
game that I played. That's so sick. But I don't
really remember. I was drinking a lot, so like I
don't remember a lot of details about it. But I

(02:54):
just liked like getting a group of people together and.

Speaker 6 (02:56):
Like collecting things. And I never got very far. Was
it a drinking like even every time you want a quest,
you would drink. I just just anyway. And it also like,
I mean, I was by myself, so I didn't like.

Speaker 5 (03:08):
You were just playing your code Red Mountain Dew with
vodka in it, Like that's what I'm envisioning.

Speaker 1 (03:13):
No, just the vodkas down come on? Yeah, I was. Yeah,
but I love Balter's Gate. It was really fun. And
then you were Pinhead from Hell Razor at the was
it the Expositwards right? Yes, that was crazy to you.

Speaker 5 (03:32):
The amount of people who came out to me and
were like, I didn't know it was you until I
saw your kids made me so happy.

Speaker 1 (03:37):
Yes, like all right, yeah, I had I had no
idea who you were. I'm a ball cup. You must
get that a lot. Like when you do those dress ups,
you'll see people that you know really well and they
just look right past you. To the point now.

Speaker 5 (03:49):
Though that people are like, oh, of course that's gonna
be a puck because I'm dressed up so much, right,
And I've actually had people come up to me who
I don't even know, who were like you didn't dress
up this time? Like you, I'm like, oh fuck, no,
I can't go outside unless people.

Speaker 1 (04:04):
I'm very disappointed. And I showed it as yourself today.

Speaker 5 (04:07):
No.

Speaker 1 (04:07):
I was going to put a beacon and stuff, but
we debated it.

Speaker 4 (04:10):
We were like, sh a beak, a.

Speaker 1 (04:13):
Beak, I have a spare beak, A spare beak like
a bird's like an owl? One? What is your What
are Saturday nights like at home between you guys?

Speaker 5 (04:23):
And what I know?

Speaker 1 (04:24):
I can play.

Speaker 5 (04:25):
I can play any woman, you know, any character she's consoling.

Speaker 1 (04:29):
It's all right. Do you want the bird tonight? Play
a mean due lingo?

Speaker 4 (04:38):
Wow?

Speaker 1 (04:40):
When did you know that you were like into costume
and dressing up like that.

Speaker 5 (04:44):
I started when I was in a like church camps
and like all kinds of dress up and like theater stuff.
When I was when I was a kid, so I've
always been pause playing as something right, So it was
a very easy switchover when I started doing adult Yeah. Yeah, because,
like you know, there's the basic ones like put on
a nurse outfit, put on a secretary outfit, whatever.

Speaker 1 (05:05):
I skipped past that very fast. Yeah, what's like the
craziest or the most difficult case play outfit that you've done?

Speaker 5 (05:13):
I think one of the craziest ones, well, the pen
had one was pretty crazy. It was like five hours
to get the ball cap on. But a banger that
I personally love and the amount of men who have
been like I can't believe I came to that was
Salad Fingers, which is an Internet.

Speaker 1 (05:32):
By David Firth.

Speaker 5 (05:33):
It's like this very skinny green animated character with like
really long fingers and he's.

Speaker 1 (05:38):
Just like I want to suck at the new crummier
teet like that.

Speaker 5 (05:43):
He's really creepy and I made you know, I like
green horror characters, so making guys have like scary coms.

Speaker 7 (05:56):
What they're doing to challenging them and is this why
it works for you guys?

Speaker 1 (06:00):
He's always scared. He was already like that when I
found him. No, I don't think.

Speaker 3 (06:07):
I mean that is the fun of it, like the
dress up and the play and stuff, but sexually it
doesn't do.

Speaker 1 (06:13):
Too much for me. Sean loves dressing up.

Speaker 3 (06:15):
I'm getting Yeah, I love dressing up, but it's not
like a fetish, right.

Speaker 5 (06:19):
But when we also go to parties, though, people are like, oh,
you didn't wear something this time, or like were you.

Speaker 3 (06:24):
This is a problem with dressing up at parties, and
then there's that expectation. Yeah, but my dress up is
like absurd versus like intricate and cool.

Speaker 1 (06:32):
I was upset that you didn't show up in like
your gold lemee little shorts and.

Speaker 3 (06:38):
Again again we thought about it. But we're going to
try to honor this onn next time. Challenge accepted. Next
time we're coming.

Speaker 1 (06:45):
I mean just that I'm very disappointed underneath.

Speaker 3 (06:51):
Yeah, everything rips away.

Speaker 4 (06:54):
I always have a speed on. I'm always preparing.

Speaker 1 (06:56):
So let's I like to, you know, obviously, get to
know how people got started in the industry, because everybody
has a different origin story. Sean. So you started as
like a journalist, yes, and then I remember that the
only you did like fine art nudes, yes, which you know,
beautiful stuff. Yeah, no money in those though. No, of course,

(07:17):
anything that's beautiful there's no money. And art no money,
double anal lots of.

Speaker 4 (07:25):
Yes.

Speaker 3 (07:26):
So my origin story, I was in Tampa. I was
writing for a weekly alternative paper. Like all papers, it
was dying, so they were trying to build their online
brand to get people to go online, and so they're like, well,
what do people look at online?

Speaker 4 (07:43):
And it was sex and love.

Speaker 3 (07:44):
So I became a sex and love editor, and so
I started covering like swingers, resorts, newest resorts, fetish events,
porn events, and just the more that I wrote about porn,
those are the stories that people were the most interested.
So I'd go to parties and people that's what they

(08:04):
would want to talk about, and then I'd be like
on porn sets and stuff and I kind of just
follow the path that makes for the most interesting story.
And the more I've got involved in porn, the better
those stories did, the more people were interested. And then
eventually I moved to San Diego and I'd come up
to La like once or twice a month. I think

(08:24):
we met on set you were shooting Danny Daniels, Skin
Diamond and Eric Everhard Riyah no'riiley read at that one house.
It was it was for Danny Daniel's feature or something,
and they dressed as nurves or maids.

Speaker 1 (08:43):
Remember that way. I can't believe I forgot that, Okay, Yes, So.

Speaker 3 (08:48):
That was when I was writing for like AV and
XPIZ a little bit for Hustler. Forget how I forget
that you were still drinking. Probably you did come in
late with like sunglasses, but I still shot it. Yeah,
you still got it.

Speaker 1 (09:07):
But so I was coming up and writing about it, and.

Speaker 3 (09:12):
Jackie Saint James is looking for a production assistant and
also somebody to help her write scripts, and I was like,
you know what, I can make way more money working
behind the scenes than just writing about porn and have
more fun. So I in two weeks I quit my job,
moved up to La started working behind the scenes for her.
And I realized very quickly that if you are relatively

(09:32):
competent and you show up on time, everybody will hire
you to work the scenes and you're not creepy. Yeah,
So I started working for her, writing for her, and
then working for a lot of other people. Yeah, and
then things just kind of snowballed from there.

Speaker 1 (09:49):
And then I know your your career has taken much
more trajectory since then, but we'll get to that because
I also want to dive into puck story. So you
grew up in what you just describe as a conservative
Christian cult. So what did that maybe? What did that
lifestyle look like.

Speaker 5 (10:05):
I didn't masturbate until I was like eighteen, because it
was a sin right right when I would make out
with people, I thought that I had like angels, bells
in my head telling me to stop, like I had
like the I felt like what was God in the
devil in my head like all the time, like the
intrusive thoughts and things like, you know, telling.

Speaker 1 (10:27):
Me to be a good girl. And I was very good.

Speaker 5 (10:31):
I believed pretty much everything I was told until it
like my teens, and I think what brought me out
of that was the gay theater kids at my high school.

Speaker 1 (10:42):
Gay gets for me.

Speaker 5 (10:49):
So I think when I was eighteen, I got kicked
out briefly for being in a queer relationship.

Speaker 1 (10:56):
That must have been rough. It was rough.

Speaker 5 (10:59):
I was going to a Christian university at the time,
so they my parents took that away. They took the
car away. Couldn't live with them.

Speaker 1 (11:05):
Anymore. I think two weeks later I came back and
lied was just like.

Speaker 5 (11:09):
Oh, yeah, we're not dating anymore, can I please have
this stuff back? And then since then they just have
kind of like pretended that that never happened or anything.

Speaker 1 (11:18):
But yeah, what got me out and of that.

Speaker 5 (11:24):
Very conservative, very sheltered, very unhappy lifestyle was just meeting
other people with different walks of life and then exploring
my own self and sexuality.

Speaker 1 (11:35):
And it's only been uphill from there. So yeah, yeah,
I've talked to a lot of people in the adult
industry who came from a very conservative, you know, religious background,
and they say that it's something that they still struggle with.
Do you still feel like those shackles of shame?

Speaker 5 (11:49):
I'd say for probably until I was in my late twenties.
I'm in my mid thirties now and I don't feel
it as much anymore really at all. But it was
a very, very hard through all of my twenties because
I had to relearn my sexual boundaries. I had none
because all I was taught was purity culture, so anything

(12:09):
beyond that was a sin or unhealthy for me. So
I didn't have good boundaries related to relationships. Or my
sexual health. I was pretty divorced from my own sexuality,
and what got me learning about myself was porn and
producing my own amateur solo content, and that helped me
explore my own kinks and fetishes and my desires and

(12:31):
opened me up to a different world of pleasure.

Speaker 1 (12:34):
How do yours your family feel about your They know
they know I hid it from them from as long
as I could, but I think they found out from
someone else. When I did finally tell them, I really
thought I was going to be excommunicated because the last
time that we had I had told them about myself.
Really that's what they're what they had done.

Speaker 5 (12:55):
But I think I had broken them down over the
years with so many different things. At this point what
I told the mega think was like five six years ago.
They were like they cried, but they were like, I mean, yeah.

Speaker 1 (13:09):
Look at you. So you know they think once you
leave Christianity, of course you're gonna do Yeah, it's over.

Speaker 5 (13:17):
I mean, and I had gotten arrested for like activism stuff,
and like have very different political views and things, so
there was multiple things that like just over the years,
they're like, okay.

Speaker 1 (13:25):
She's gone, Yeah, yeah, she's left the fold. I'm always curious,
what's your relationship with religion and God.

Speaker 5 (13:32):
Now, I'd say that I have like a spiritual like tendency.
I want to believe in something, but I don't. Actually,
I don't believe in a god. And that's something I'm
still trying to explore because I think after leaving Christianity,
a lot of me for a long time was kind
of just like dampening down any sort of spirituality or

(13:55):
any sort of religion at all and not letting myself
think about that because it had destroyed me in so
many ways and had left me very unhealthy in multiple ways.
But I think now I've healed so much that I'm
to the point where I'm like, oh, I could think
about other things now, I could open myself up to
being like, hmmm, you know, I don't think face necessarily

(14:17):
is a bad thing. I just think it can cause
a lot of harm if you let it run your
life and yeah, oppress other people.

Speaker 1 (14:24):
Yeah. It's interesting because you know, I had the completely
opposite experience. I was raised as an atheist, right, and
so when I kind of had to come to terms
basically with my alcoholism, and I had to like find
a way to look for like a spiritual look for
some happier than myself, higher power, Thank you. I actually,

(14:50):
like it was difficult for me because I had been,
you know, taught that you know, God was a lie
and all this kind of stuff. And my dad actually
used to say that people who believed in Jesus were stupid,
like straight up. But I found that actually, like it
seemed to me to be easier for me to you know,
find my own concept of like spirituality than it was

(15:13):
for people who grew up with a very unforgiving God
and a very strict religious background that they had to
like completely reimagine a relation, a spiritual relationship, where I
had never had one in the first place.

Speaker 4 (15:26):
Yeah, you know, you like created the God.

Speaker 3 (15:29):
It's like, I think the problem with Christianity is the dogma.
Like I think religion can be good, it's just like
when you have rules that were written two thousand years
ago and you're still trying to follow those, that can
be troublesome.

Speaker 5 (15:44):
We had talked before about like some of the tenets
of Satanism and what's like one of them, something about
like the absurd or like having something that you believe
in the face of the absurd. It can really be
anything as long as it helps clear your path.

Speaker 1 (15:59):
Do you remember?

Speaker 3 (16:00):
I don't remember that, but that sounds beautiful, Ernie. You
you still have your mic?

Speaker 1 (16:05):
Right? Oh?

Speaker 5 (16:07):
Right?

Speaker 1 (16:08):
We started we added a mic for Ernie so you
could like china and shit. But okay, what can you
look at a anyway?

Speaker 4 (16:19):
Is like a metaphor?

Speaker 3 (16:21):
Right, But I think I don't think of a god
as an old man in the sky. I grew up
very religious too, and when I broke from it, it
made me question everything and it made me much more
like I only trust things that I can see facts for.

Speaker 1 (16:35):
But I do acknowledge that there's an unknown and I.

Speaker 3 (16:38):
Think you can call that unknown God, and I think
that can be healthy, that there's mysteries and things that
we don't know about. But I think it is really
just the dogma of like, no, this is God and
these are his rules that gets people into trouble.

Speaker 4 (16:50):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (16:51):
For me, like, the word alone was really hard for
me because the word was you know, had so much
like it was tinged with so much much negative such
a negative connotation for me. So even the word was
like really hard for me. But I do believe, like
if we want to call it God. I personally believe that,
like God shows up in other people, you know, like
that's where you see it. It's like in the collective

(17:13):
like conscious of humanity, and I know that's it for me.
Is this a porn podcast? Probably? What happened? Let's just
check off the person get back. Did you find it?

Speaker 4 (17:30):
It was no, I didn't find it.

Speaker 1 (17:33):
Well, it's a tenant of Satanism, And it was like
there's also different versions of Satanism. There was like the
ten that you have on like that.

Speaker 3 (17:42):
Yeah, so that's from the Satanic Temple, which is newer.
But like one of them is saying, like.

Speaker 1 (17:47):
We believe, uh, what is it?

Speaker 3 (17:51):
We go on the best scientific proof of something is
true until better scientific evidence comes along to one.

Speaker 1 (17:59):
There's so many different ones. But just am I sending
Earning down a rabbit hole?

Speaker 5 (18:03):
Yeah?

Speaker 3 (18:03):
We think, he says, not long enough, eventually he'll just
find Yeah, that's very different.

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(19:25):
actually talk about how you guys met, because you guys
met at Burning Man. Is that right? I think our
relationship solidified at Berni Man.

Speaker 4 (19:33):
Why are you Rubbi?

Speaker 1 (19:35):
Yeah, that's creepy.

Speaker 4 (19:37):
I believe you want to tell the story so will
you tell this.

Speaker 5 (19:40):
We met and we have now solidified the day that
we met as our bang of versary because we had
a BBG with him and Robbie Apples and that's our
anniversary date.

Speaker 4 (19:54):
Now you can just tell.

Speaker 3 (19:55):
There was something about just me and her and Robbie
Apples together.

Speaker 1 (20:03):
It was powerful.

Speaker 4 (20:04):
Were like, yeah, we had a pretty shark.

Speaker 5 (20:08):
I walked into that house because I some of my
friends have I've been looking for a place to stay
in La.

Speaker 1 (20:13):
It was my first like big uh collab.

Speaker 5 (20:18):
Uh.

Speaker 1 (20:20):
She had just started shooting content with other people. Okay, yeah,
because you're doing all solo stuff.

Speaker 5 (20:26):
Before I had like worked with some people and some
girls and models and stuff in in Chicago, but.

Speaker 1 (20:30):
No one else in Chicago. Yeah.

Speaker 5 (20:32):
So I came out to La. I was recommended Robbie
and Shawn's place. And as soon as I walked through
the door, and I don't mean this is sound creepy,
but it does sound creepy, I was like, I'm going
to live here. Iiately, I'm moving in because the vibes
were just so correct and like nice, and the aesthetic

(20:53):
and the art and just the feeling was like this
is home. And it turns out now I do live
there that you and Robbie are or like my boys,
that whole friend group just really accepted me and and
I was very lucky.

Speaker 3 (21:07):
It was like a parasitic relationship, you know how you
get like termites and they just you know, it becomes
a termites house.

Speaker 5 (21:15):
I'm like a black devil anglerfish where you're a little
you're a little money attached to me and I absorb
even to myself together.

Speaker 7 (21:24):
Yes, yeah, but there's about threesomes.

Speaker 1 (21:29):
Like what's funny is ah?

Speaker 3 (21:31):
I've arranged a few threesomes with the women that I'm like,
you would get along with her, and then they have
like a stronger connection and then I'm just my dick
is just there, which is great.

Speaker 1 (21:41):
Yeah, I love it.

Speaker 5 (21:42):
But I also love film and Seawan's threesomes other boy
boy girls.

Speaker 1 (21:48):
It's a favorite.

Speaker 3 (21:49):
I had another three someme I can't say with who
because they're not public yet. Very recently I had a
threesome with them they started dating.

Speaker 1 (21:57):
You're like the threesome matchmaker. We'll talk about it. Oh
so wait, wait, isn't there a movie with like Will
Smith where he like plays somebody and if you date
him then.

Speaker 3 (22:09):
You you get married after him something like that, there's
good luck.

Speaker 1 (22:14):
Maybe that's it.

Speaker 3 (22:15):
With Dane Cook, who like I feel like they date
him and then the next person after him.

Speaker 1 (22:19):
Yeah, get married.

Speaker 3 (22:20):
Yah.

Speaker 1 (22:20):
Oh my god. So you're like that person. So like
if someone is a threesome with you, so if.

Speaker 3 (22:25):
You want to find love, you just have sex with me.
Maybe it's that I make everybody else look better. I
think that's my role in the industry is the spotlight
doesn't come to me, but I like enhance the spotlight
on other people.

Speaker 1 (22:38):
Oh wow, you're like the supporting actor.

Speaker 5 (22:41):
Sean husband described no joke to me as the load
bearing support theme of this industry, and that's a double
on tendre in there.

Speaker 1 (22:53):
So can I.

Speaker 3 (22:55):
Accept that I don't need to be? I think my
success in this industry has come from accepting that I'm
not the star m that you build others up.

Speaker 4 (23:04):
I'm good.

Speaker 3 (23:04):
I've always been good at being supporting, which is why
I love working for women, other people, helping them.

Speaker 1 (23:11):
People who want to be the star. It's it's fine,
but it's like people are always attracted to other people
that are going to make them feel good about themselves,
you know, and generally people who think they're the star.

Speaker 3 (23:22):
But the balance with a good one is like not
just being a yes person and not just but you know,
some people don't like that.

Speaker 1 (23:32):
So you said that you solidified your relationship with Burning Man.
So what what does that mean? Well, is that when
she put the beacon put a pickle in my butt.
There's a lot.

Speaker 3 (23:47):
Well, you tell that version, and Bernie Man is like,
if what's funny? If you go to Bernie Man in
a relationship, oftentimes you'll end up either broken up by
the end of it or you'll end up getting married.
It's kind of can be very stressful, and you find
out how well you like somebody and how well you

(24:07):
get along with somebody. It's like traveling on a road
trip with somebody for a week. I had been to
Bernie Man I think six times that I was like
my seventh or eighth time, and it was.

Speaker 4 (24:17):
Her first time.

Speaker 3 (24:18):
And Bernie Mann is a huge, huge city, and we
ended up saying a block and a half from each
other randomly, And that was a year of the big rainstorm,
and so we were stuck out there for like three
extra days. Oh, I remember that, And I think it
was just us like having fun but also like sharing
a tent space and existing in that world and realizing

(24:41):
that I don't know if we could do that. Everything
else was easy.

Speaker 5 (24:46):
Like we said, Like at the time, I was like,
there is no one else in my life right now
who I could imagine being stuck in these conditions with
and having such a great time. Like I love a
lot of my friends and like excess and things, but
they're none of this.

Speaker 1 (25:00):
Yeah, okay, yeah, but do.

Speaker 3 (25:04):
You want to say how we solidified it though you
don't want to sell that story out sell this stuff.

Speaker 1 (25:10):
Well, I had a lot. We had a lot of
anal of that switch.

Speaker 3 (25:12):
It was like your first I guess you've done anal,
but like we started doing anal more there.

Speaker 5 (25:18):
Yes, and a lot of acid, a lot of We
migroed us a lot together and write stories.

Speaker 3 (25:28):
Really whether you start opening like this can of worms
and put it back here, there's another here's another canon?

Speaker 1 (25:34):
Which worms? Would you like? My parents used to microdoce
together a lot too. It's so much fun.

Speaker 3 (25:40):
Yeah, but again that is another thing, Like Bernie Man,
if you do psychedelics with the wrong person, you realize like,
oh I don't you can't relax around them. Yeah, so uncomfortable.
But if it's somebody that you have a good connection with,
it's a great time. Yeah, but it's I think it's
just for us. Psychedelics allows us to play. I feel
like play is so important in creativity and in relationships

(26:03):
and in life in general, and that just helps us.
And that's what Bernie Mann is too, was play in
this creative environment.

Speaker 1 (26:12):
So when what did it feel like when you guys
had sex on camera for the first time together? Wait? No,
but that was that was the first That was the
first time. Yeah, so you had already like broken that
ice by Yes, when we think you played him like.

Speaker 4 (26:28):
She did plan All of this is.

Speaker 5 (26:32):
True story When we had sex with Robbie, I said
Sean's name during sex.

Speaker 1 (26:39):
I don't say people's names during sex.

Speaker 5 (26:41):
I was like Sean, and I fell back because I
wasn't saying Robbie's name love him. But I was like,
this is you know, it was very good enough that
I would say your name. Yeah, what does.

Speaker 1 (26:55):
He do that? What does he do? Well?

Speaker 5 (26:57):
He's very attentive and he's thinking like he's he's not
out there for his own pleasure only he's like trying
to make you feel good. He's very intuitive, and he's
got boyfriend Dick.

Speaker 1 (27:13):
It's great for younal and.

Speaker 3 (27:14):
I'm okay with another guy being there during such Yeah,
which is women love that.

Speaker 5 (27:19):
It's my favorite double badge.

Speaker 1 (27:24):
I was their first double badge too.

Speaker 7 (27:27):
I brought Yes It's in the post become simultaneously, came simultaneously.

Speaker 5 (27:32):
They were so connected inside of me. They were just
never been closer, and I brought them there.

Speaker 3 (27:40):
But then she broke up our family and she kicked
him out and took his space in the house.

Speaker 1 (27:44):
We're just expanding quick.

Speaker 4 (27:46):
Expanding a franchising.

Speaker 1 (27:49):
So Sean, I want to talk a little bit about
your career expansion expansion because you started off as a
screenwriter and then you started performing I did, which surprised me.
I want, Well, I mean I didn't see that coming. Yeah, yeah,

(28:11):
I mean the art nude should have should have kind
of clued me in. But I don't know what made
you decided to go there.

Speaker 3 (28:18):
It's just, you know, I have this giant dick in
the middle. You know, it's like, it's such a shame
to keep it to myself. Uh No, So Blessa. I
wanted to do a series called zero to hero about
a loser, about a regular guy who wasn't a performer

(28:40):
becoming a performer, and uh, the owners asked me, and
I sent them this long email that's like, I have anxiety,
I have low sex drive, I have a very average dick.
I only come like once every three days. I'm going
to be terrible as a performer. And they're like, that's
why we want wanted me to fail, because they wanted

(29:03):
to show people that it's not that easy. Yeah, so
I and I was, I think thirty nine at the time,
and it's not like the ideal time to start perform, so.

Speaker 1 (29:17):
Much like writing about porn.

Speaker 3 (29:19):
As I've said, I follow the path that makes for
the most interesting story. And I think in the back
of my mind, I've always I've been taking Kopi's notes,
and I was like, I'll write a book about porn
one of these days, right, And so I figured, well,
this would make a really even.

Speaker 1 (29:34):
If I fail completely, make it even better, stronger.

Speaker 4 (29:37):
Yeah. I definitely struggled on several scenes.

Speaker 3 (29:41):
I didn't completely fail any of them. It taught me
a lot about myself. I stopped drinking, not that I
didn't really have a huge problem, but I was like
if I'm going to be on camera and drinking adds
to your quartersol levels. It makes you more anxious and
you know, so it doing that has made me a
much better person. It's made me much more in tune

(30:03):
with my own sexuality.

Speaker 4 (30:04):
I got.

Speaker 3 (30:05):
I realized, like, I don't think I have the confidence
to shoot much for other companies, but as far as
content goes, I'm pretty good as if it's just like
me and a few other people who I know. And
so after that, I just I started shooting content. I
think it helped that I had a rapport with so
many people and the content thing just kind of took

(30:29):
off from there.

Speaker 1 (30:30):
And then now you also direct for Zero to Hero.

Speaker 3 (30:33):
Yeah, now it's come full circle and I'm directing a
new guy.

Speaker 4 (30:38):
In the zero to Hero line.

Speaker 1 (30:40):
And how's that going.

Speaker 3 (30:41):
It's going well. We are going to do I think
twenty scenes. The last three are coming up. It's really
interesting to see somebody start and watch them evolve. And
also I guess seeing things that I wish I had

(31:02):
known too when I was starting out. But he's doing well.
I mean he can he can get his dick hard,
and he can come sometimes he can come multiple times
it's just all of the other things that we're really
working on, as far as acting and connecting with your
co performers and bedside manner and all thou Yeah, like

(31:27):
I said, I've said this, but I like, I don't
have a huge dick. What I do have is some
sort of charm or charisma where I'm pretty decent at
connecting with people. And I think a lot of guys
don't realize that. Like, the biggest thing about shooting content
is you first, before you're worried about like pleasing a
girl or making her fall in love with you, you

(31:48):
first have to make sure she.

Speaker 4 (31:49):
Feels safe with you. That's a good point, and I think.

Speaker 3 (31:55):
Just building this rapport of people who feel safe with me,
I feel like they would take that over somebody who's
gonna fuck them hard, but they don't know if that
guy is going to know when to stop.

Speaker 1 (32:07):
Yeah, especially like shooting content, because a lot of times
it's just you and the other person and you've never
met him before. Yeah. Yeah, I mean that's a little bit.
That's kind of wild. It's such a strange country we're
still living in. So what was your first scene? Like
my first scene?

Speaker 3 (32:28):
Luckily they let me kind of pick the people in
the beginning, and I chose Kenna James because Kenna has
this way of making you feel like she's really connecting
with you. And I'm sure you've experienced this with her
on sad like she like she genuinely cares, and I
think it is because she genuinely cares. And so she

(32:50):
was just somebody. Obviously she's beautiful, but the thing I
cared about most was just somebody who was nice.

Speaker 1 (32:57):
Yeah, it's the same thing you wanted safety. Yeah, yeah,
I want to say I wanted somebody who wasn't going
to especially because you have to perform right, like the
weight that the scene is on your shoulders, right, So
you don't want like some cold diva who's just like,
let me know when you get hard, right squirrel Instagram,
you know exactly, let me know when your dick's ready.

(33:20):
It's funny, I never know that.

Speaker 3 (33:21):
I feel like my Dick and I are like Siamese
twins and we have different brains because there's some things
I'm like, I'm like, this will make him feel at ease,
and this won't as far as like working with certain people.
But then there's there's been times where I'm working with
somebody who I think the scene's going to go well,
and then it's like taking me a second to.

Speaker 4 (33:38):
Get hard, and I'm like, what do you want?

Speaker 3 (33:40):
And then there's other people who are just like mean
and I have no connection with but for whatever reason,
my dick's like, yep, let's do this.

Speaker 1 (33:49):
So I'm still figuring out what the thing is.

Speaker 4 (33:53):
What my dick.

Speaker 3 (33:54):
Yeah, each guy in this industry has little dick science
and dick superstitions, like I need to do these things.
Like I knew one guy every time it's something different.
For a while, it was grounding. He needed to go
outside and walk barefoot and then on the grass twenty
minutes before.

Speaker 4 (34:12):
Everybody.

Speaker 3 (34:13):
I mean, I have mine. I'm like, I need to
work out for an hour and a half. I need
to cold.

Speaker 1 (34:18):
That's like you're every day though. Yeah, but some guys
are like I need to go in the bathroom and
shoot up my dick.

Speaker 3 (34:22):
Yes, yes, yes, I don't want to shoot up my dick.
And so that is why I'm not shooting for studios,
because I know that kind of pressure.

Speaker 1 (34:29):
I don't want that kind of pressure. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (34:31):
Already, when I first started shooting, I had nightmares for
a month before my first scene. Yeah, it'd be like
my dick falling off, or like trying to find my
dick and reattach it, or just like trying to get
my dick hard and set. And those dreams, those nightmares
have slowly gone. I still have versions of that, But.

Speaker 1 (34:50):
I feel like so many people don't understand like the
pressure that men have to perform, Like it's crazy. And
you know, I used to host a Playboy TV show
that was all amateur couples, and you had to be
an amateur couple to be in the scene. And so
these were guys that had no experience and it was

(35:10):
like like ninety percent fail rate. It was rough. And
so it's funny, you know when you say like this
zero to hero, you know thing where you take a
brand new guy and all you do is shoot brand
new talent. That's like my ultimate nightmare. Like I couldn't
think of anyoning. I'd rather do less than just shoot
only like new male talent.

Speaker 3 (35:29):
Like, well, I think the caveat is for you when
you're shooting a new talent, he has to succeed. Yeah,
it would be different if you're okay with him failing.

Speaker 1 (35:38):
So what happens if he fails, like does the scene,
Like do you show this scene failing at the end
and he's crying, you show him crying in the bathroom
and like the girl like packing up her bags and
be like this was a waste of time, Like you
know what I mean? Like how real does he?

Speaker 5 (35:52):
Like?

Speaker 1 (35:52):
You get?

Speaker 4 (35:52):
So Blake has been great.

Speaker 3 (35:55):
He hasn't. He's finished every scene. It just sometimes he'll
take a second to get hard, which every male performer does.
We just show that, or like what sometimes he's come
early and he's not as solid for the rest of
the scene, or like he needs to jack off to
write before he comes, which is pretty normal. We just

(36:16):
show all those aspects. But for my zero to hero,
they're they're definitely ones I struggle the hard and they
they showed, they showed that. It's funny and also a
little sad for me. The ones who are a struggle
are the ones that have the most views on porn Hub.
And Millie Morgan will attest to this too because she
sleeps with virgins and if they fail, it does better. Yeah, why, well,

(36:40):
I think people because guys can relate. And I was
telling we were kind of joking about this before you
came on. But I'm like not joking when I say, like,
I think you're an inspiration to many seriously, because so
many guys want to get into porn, so many men
are concerned about their penis size?

Speaker 1 (36:55):
Am I big enough? You know? And uh, you know
you're an average size penis man who I've actually ever
seen it? It's just what you've said. You've been subscribed
to my only fan since the beginning. No, that was
the other Holly, Okay, we'll keep that our secret. But

(37:16):
I mean, you know, like, so you're you're living like
the dream you're you know, you got an average.

Speaker 3 (37:22):
Dick boyfriend, dick, a community boyfriend, dick, you got a
beautiful girlfriend.

Speaker 1 (37:27):
A lot of guys, haven't they told you?

Speaker 5 (37:29):
Male performers have been like, oh, thanks for getting that
girl used to anal, people like he.

Speaker 4 (37:37):
I love, I love.

Speaker 5 (37:37):
A lot of women have come to him to help
practicing anal because like they get so much confident. Yeah,
Mike Adriano, thank you for hoping so many girls.

Speaker 1 (37:52):
You're like he And for those of you who don't know,
Mike ADROHND is like the king of like anal important.

Speaker 4 (37:59):
He gives the performer.

Speaker 3 (38:00):
Performers like different butt plug sizes, and the biggest one,
which is pretty big, is like, this is still smaller
than the performer it'll be working with. And I've joked
with him, I'm like, you should just include my number
in your prep.

Speaker 1 (38:13):
Haven't you what you call yourself? The anal whisper anal whisper? Yeah,
that's you.

Speaker 4 (38:18):
Maybe, But I think.

Speaker 3 (38:19):
That goes back to a point that I wanted to
make about like dick size and stuff is like in
this industry, there's so many different paths you can take.
Some people they want to be the star. They want
to be the guy with a huge dick. Some of
us do not have a huge dick. Some of us
are not going to be the star. You just have
to figure out your niche and what works for you,

(38:40):
and you can have a great career. Important You just
have to be flexible and figure out what works for
you and not be so set on like it has
to be this way. Like I what I like for
me about performing is there's no pressure on it. Like
if if I stop performing tomorrow, I will be just
fine because I'm doing all of these.

Speaker 5 (39:00):
So many other things going on, like scriptwriting, directing, yeah.

Speaker 1 (39:04):
But if you're I know a female talent who will
build their whole lives on performing, and they don't put
any eggs in any other baskets, and they're getting to
a point where, for whatever reason, they're not getting booked,
dismissed men and women that yeah and yeah.

Speaker 4 (39:18):
And then that adds even more pressure.

Speaker 3 (39:21):
So it's just you have to I read a lot
of books on survival, and one of the the Deep Survival.
This is going somewhere, I promise the people who survive
are the people who accept the reality of their situation quick.

Speaker 1 (39:33):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (39:34):
And I feel like it's the same. Important is accepting
the reality of your situation and also realizing, yeah, I
don't have a huge dick. There's plenty of women who
you know, prefer who enjoy having sex with my size dick.
Plenty of women who prefer bigger dicks.

Speaker 1 (39:50):
I'm not going to be.

Speaker 4 (39:51):
Everybody's cup of tea, and I'm okay with that.

Speaker 1 (39:54):
Actually, how big is you? Do?

Speaker 5 (39:55):
You know?

Speaker 3 (39:57):
It's from a gentleman's measurement, which is from the top,
because I know people, we all know the measure from
like the asshole who dick is eight inches. It's like, right,
over six inches, Okay, it's okay, like perfectly average.

Speaker 1 (40:12):
So then puck as a as as the woman. You know,
men always want to hear it from from your the
fair sex. Like I mean, obviously dick'sas doesn't matter to you.
But sorry, Sean, but maybe can you tell those who
believe that it is significant to women why it is

(40:36):
not important to you.

Speaker 5 (40:37):
I have had Sean than anyone else in my life,
like hands down. It's it's silly to me that people
still think that, and it makes me sad because I've
had so many different, beautiful central experiences with all kinds

(40:57):
of people, like with all kinds of dicks sizes, or
with no dicks because women can come with you know, fingers,
and I come by humping, and there's like I'm also
like bisexual, so like I really I don't need I
don't need one.

Speaker 1 (41:11):
Right, I don't need I don't need it.

Speaker 5 (41:14):
But yeah, it's it's not necessary to have a big
old honkin one.

Speaker 1 (41:19):
Just know what place is your partner. That's the most
important thing.

Speaker 4 (41:23):
I think too.

Speaker 3 (41:24):
In porn, uh, it sells better for female performers to
talk about how big a dicks they like and to.

Speaker 1 (41:32):
Sell showing opening camera.

Speaker 5 (41:34):
I mean that's like a big, big part of it,
and self fulfilling prophecy type of thing.

Speaker 1 (41:38):
That's what I often say. It's literally logistics. It's much
easier for the camera to capture because you have to
open up the camera, so you have to like bend
this way, and so you have to show the penetration
have sex. The dick has to still be in there,
and you have to be able to see it with
the light and.

Speaker 5 (41:55):
Yeah, and then we talk about it and that's what
you're going to see, and then it just keeps.

Speaker 3 (42:00):
Yeah, and I think guys are so much more obsessed
with dick size.

Speaker 5 (42:04):
It's the same as like guys who like get super
right muscles.

Speaker 1 (42:07):
It's more for taking steroids. That's for other men. That's yeah,
their studies have been done, and women are like.

Speaker 3 (42:14):
But I think that goes to the theory of mind
thing that a lot of people have, and it's like
an emotional intelligence thing, is the ability to project yourself
into other people's minds.

Speaker 4 (42:24):
You think, because this.

Speaker 3 (42:25):
Is what you like and you care about, you assume
that's what everybody likes and cares about. And because so
many of these guys like a big dick is like
one of the top five search terms on pornhub. Yeah,
because you care about your deck size, you think everybody
else does nobody cares about your deck?

Speaker 1 (42:42):
Do you hear that no one cares about noone cares
about your deck?

Speaker 4 (42:46):
Put it back, so pluck.

Speaker 1 (42:48):
Let's talk about your career and how you actually got
started in adult Like, how did you Where'd that first
step come from?

Speaker 5 (42:56):
I was, I mean, it's a pretty standard story. I
had no money, no prospects. I was out living in
a living room somewhere. I looked very different than I
do now. I had like shaved head and like tons
of piercings, and I was just kind of like in
a bad relationship, bad situation.

Speaker 1 (43:15):
I was like, I need to make money fast.

Speaker 5 (43:17):
I was also following a lot of very hot women
on Tumblr at the time. They were cam models, and
I was like, hmm, interesting, I could do that because
I had a long career in different types of performance
throughout my life, like with music and acting and all
sorts of things, and so, and I also wasn't really

(43:39):
sexually fulfilled at that time at all. And so I
you know, got a little webcam on my little laptop
and then I got to work and from there, Honestly,
I'm not gonna lie. The first like five years, I
only did it to make enough money to cover rent
and smoke weed.

Speaker 1 (43:58):
I mean that was it.

Speaker 5 (44:00):
Since that was it, I was just like I was,
you know, gut or punk twenties, like very like not
like doing anything, and which was so funny because growing
up I was like valedictorian and like very very like
straight a's and very type A and had to be
the best at everything. And then I just kind of

(44:20):
like met the real world and I was.

Speaker 1 (44:23):
Like, man, yeah, I'm good. Yeah. But after a few
years of that, I'm on my twelfth year.

Speaker 5 (44:31):
Now next week, I was like, oh, I'm learning stuff.

Speaker 1 (44:37):
Like I'm learning a lot.

Speaker 5 (44:38):
Actually, if I kept pushing and kept trying, I could
make something of myself. And I and I also love
I love being my own boss. But I was also
learning about lighting and like technical things and marketing and
like all sorts of stuff. And I was like, oh,
if I just kept pushing myself and really applied myself,

(44:58):
I could I could you know, build something. And then
I start caring enough about myself to want that for myself.

Speaker 1 (45:07):
No, I'm just all hustle baby, and I need to
start to pull it back and I need to find
work life balance. Yeah, that's how when you're working for yourself.
You're like, oh that you could keep going. Well, yeah,
there's no off clock. No. Yeah, it's it's rough. I
like just yesterday, I like sat on the couch and
I was like, Okay, I'm gonna I'm gonna watch a

(45:28):
TV show today. I haven't watched TV in like so long. Yeah,
because now, like my husband lives about it at like eight,
and you know, my daughter's asleep and so like just
so I'm like, I'm going to watch a TV show,
but I gotta check this one thing on my laptop.
Two hours later, it's like midnight, and I've been working
the whole time. I'm like, well, never mind.

Speaker 3 (45:46):
We do half movies, like we've whenever somebody talks about
watching a TV series.

Speaker 1 (45:51):
And like, what are you talking about? How do you
have time for that?

Speaker 3 (45:54):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (45:54):
We get through half of the movie and then.

Speaker 1 (45:57):
And then we fall asleep to it and we play
it back on the night. If it's interesting. Most of
them are not. Yeah, we ban in a lot of Yeah,
jump ship. It's hard, it's hard, So what just made
you decide to like start doing cosplay, Like where when
did that come up?

Speaker 5 (46:12):
Okay, I feel like I feel like when I it
wasn't just cosplay really, it was like specifically like horror cosplay.
So I started throwing these like crazy big Halloween parties.
I'd spend a month building my house out like a
haunted house. We'd have like hundreds of people come and
I would just make these intricate sets in my house. Thankfully,

(46:38):
my roommates were very down and very accepting of that.
I built like an eight foot PBC spider and like
went all in. And as I was building that, I
was also doing sex work and clipmaking on the side.

Speaker 1 (46:48):
And then I was like, what if I incorporated that?
What if I?

Speaker 5 (46:52):
So then I started doing like horror cosplays on the
sets that had already built, like you know, more bang
free book. And as I kept doing it got my
my juice is flowing and I got really excited and
I was like, oh, this is my thing, Like I love.

Speaker 1 (47:06):
Doing this, and so just kind of kept going from there.
So you do like a lot of like horror causeplay. Yes,
So when you play that character, I'm assuming it's a
very dominating kind of yes.

Speaker 5 (47:17):
Or my guys really love when I'm like the psycho
love sick girl's I can really a posas to the
I'm not a serial killer.

Speaker 1 (47:23):
I just love you, sweetie, like I'm going to take
care of you. Oh, move in to your house to house,
So guys love it. What's the most difficult outfit that
you've ever had to do a scene in? Like one
that we're just everything was like going wrong and you're like,
how am I going to have sex in this?

Speaker 5 (47:44):
I'd say that just not difficult. They're all hard. They're
all hard, especially when you're like body painted and stuff.
I really love working with my pet monster girl. I
just had him come up for three days last week
and we every day. It was like twelve to fourteen
hours every day. Our first shoot together was the hard
one because it was eight hours of body paint and prosthetics, lips, cheeks,

(48:05):
eyebrow ridges and everything eight hours, and then I did
eight hours of filming.

Speaker 1 (48:10):
How do you so do that? I don't know? Some caffeine?
Do you ever like nap while he doesn't know?

Speaker 5 (48:20):
And I'll kind of like go into like a hibernation mode,
but you have to be standing up. Yeah, I think
I get zouited off the like the work itself, because
I was thinking about that last week because I couldn't
have caffeine because I did some anal scenes last week
while in cosplay, and so I was like, why am
I so like wired? And like, I think it's just
like thinking about everything I have to do and checking
off the list and just being excited about finally getting

(48:43):
to this point that I worked for months for.

Speaker 3 (48:45):
Then I think I think if I may, yeah, I
think she enters kind of flow state, and I think
this is what her brain and body wants to do.
It's this marriage of creativity and organization and scheduling and
bringing all of those things together. And I think she
also other parts of her personality fall away, like your emotions,

(49:10):
because she's more it's like energy conservation into like yeah,
what's the word, like tele or microscopic lens, so everything
becomes more focused.

Speaker 1 (49:20):
So I do think it's it's just a flow stick.

Speaker 5 (49:22):
We were talking about that last night actually, because I was like, Sean,
I know that what I'm on set, sometimes I go
into like a different mode.

Speaker 1 (49:29):
Can I be nicer? Like is there something I can do?

Speaker 5 (49:33):
Because it's not like I mean, but I'm just so
focused that I'm not like as kind or as like
overly like whatever.

Speaker 3 (49:41):
I'm just business, which I think is also why so
many directors are so impressed with her performance, because I've
seen her on set, and I think you can attest
to this is should be quiet, should be doing the paperwork,
and you don't expect anything, and then as soon as
action hits, it's just like animated hardcore performance.

Speaker 4 (50:03):
And then when it cuts, it's.

Speaker 3 (50:05):
Off okay, And so that dichotomy and that split is like,
oh wow, okay.

Speaker 1 (50:12):
That's been really fun.

Speaker 5 (50:13):
When I work with new directors, they're just kind of
like I'll be like yawning on set, not because I'm
tired of board, it's just like just the conserving energy
and like you know, like very dead pan and power
down or power down.

Speaker 3 (50:25):
Yeah, it is like h Robin Williams is the same way.
I'm I'm sure a lot of comedians and performers are
this way. When they're not on, they are like low
and quiet, and you're kind of that way too.

Speaker 1 (50:36):
But when you're on, yeah, that makes sense. I mean,
you've got to put so much energy into what you're doing,
So what's the craziest cosplay request you've ever gotten. Do
you do customs for the cosplay ones?

Speaker 5 (50:48):
They're very uh, they're very expensive if you want me
to be like all all in that. But last week
one guy, did you know commission the Lazell Baldersgate three
to one? Not enough to cover the full thing because
that was very expensive, shore, Yeah, but a small chunk
of it, thankfully, was you know, covered. And then I
have fans. I kind of crowd fund my my big ones. Yeah,

(51:11):
I'll have different like tears that you can buy in at.

Speaker 1 (51:14):
Right, right, right, Yeah, I do the same thing. Yeah,
Balderskate was a big one.

Speaker 5 (51:18):
Van Wild was Carness, who was like a spider creature,
and then Sophia Locke was Carlac.

Speaker 1 (51:22):
Wow.

Speaker 5 (51:22):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (51:23):
It was funny because I saw Sophia and I did
not recognize her, and she was like, she's like she
comes out to me. She's like, it's Sophia Lock. That's
a great impression of her, like with the hands and everything.
She was like, it's it's amazing. I was like, oh
my god, I never in a hundred of years, so good. Yeah,
she looks amazing. Yeah, that was amazing. So Sean I'm

(51:46):
going to come back to you as someone who is
a writer before porn and now has worked on all
sides of the porn industry. Can you explain why porn
writing is often really bad.

Speaker 3 (51:58):
Yes, it's because you're trying to jump from the connection
moment to the fucking in a very short period of time,
which is why one of the most cliched things you'll
hear on set is what are you doing? Because it's
like it's like, oh, my stepmom enters and then all

(52:20):
of a sudden, she's touching my dick. Whereas, like in
a movie, that connection is taking place throughout the whole movie,
and they have time, they have different locations they can
build this tension. In porn, you do not have that time. Yeah,
And I've done a lot of writing for like Ricky Greenwood,
and he'll usually be like, all right, I want to
do a Western. I want to do like a war
movie like Rambo, and and so I like, think of

(52:44):
ways I trying to make the sex make sense in
the story. But then they'll come back with notes and
be're like okay, and then I need them to fuck
at this point, and like, but it doesn't make sense
that these characters would fuck or they're in the middle
of war, they probably aren't going to just stop and
have well, they're being hunted, but you have to do

(53:06):
a little bit of suspension of disbelief for that.

Speaker 1 (53:11):
Yeah.

Speaker 5 (53:11):
I guess also, like a lot of porn plots are
just going to be centered on the house because guess what,
we don't have a budget for multiple locations. So what's
the conflict that can happen in a house? Hmm, looks
like we're related, so you know.

Speaker 3 (53:24):
Yeah, or that used to be the plumber or the
pizza deliricy. It's how do you get a random person
into a house? Okay, who shows up at your door?

Speaker 1 (53:33):
Some sort of tension and conflict and then.

Speaker 3 (53:36):
Yeah, I think it's it's really just the limitations of
porn and what people don't realize that we're working with.
Most people don't get into porn. I know this's going
to shock a lot of people. Most people don't get
into porn to be actors, or do they think they're
going to be actors.

Speaker 4 (53:50):
Not true, it's not everybody is a theater nerd.

Speaker 1 (53:56):
The camp of it all.

Speaker 5 (53:57):
Yea.

Speaker 3 (53:58):
Oftentimes people are getting twenty page scripts. If they get
that day and that they memorize, and I still think
that important. There's some people that I am very impressed.
I'm like, how did you memorize that in ten minutes?
That is an accomplishment. Now you weren't necessarily like a
great actor, but you did the fucking part great, which
yeah important.

Speaker 1 (54:18):
The part that everyone watches, right, Yeah.

Speaker 3 (54:21):
I mean the kind of porn stories that I like
are the ones you actually think could be true or real,
and those are more like really easy POV stuff.

Speaker 1 (54:32):
It's hard because like they you know, like features generally,
you know, the big movies, they generally need like minimum
for sex scenes. Yeah, how are you going to find
a reason why people are going to have sex four times?
And they have to be different people and that kind
of thing. That's kind of like why we like producing
featurettes because there only needs to be one sex scene,

(54:54):
and then you can build a whole story around that. Yes,
but the whole like there has to be four sex scenes,
like yeah, thing is just.

Speaker 3 (55:01):
And then the director will come after you've written the
script and be like, oh, can you make this scene
into a foursome? And I don't have this person on
this day, so you have to cut this section and
you're just kind of like, Okay, well this story makes
no sense anymore, but yeah, sure.

Speaker 1 (55:19):
All right, So Puck, you kind of made a joke
earlier about how you are having a you struggle to
balance work in life. Are there any steps that you
were taking to manage that? Do you have any ideas
on how? All the time thinking about it.

Speaker 3 (55:36):
I feel like I can answer this question better than her,
because she is not going to give you an objective answer.

Speaker 4 (55:43):
Problem is she.

Speaker 3 (55:46):
Starts delegating more work to other people so she doesn't
have to do it. But then she has more free
time god to do more work and make more money,
so there's never it just keeps expanding.

Speaker 5 (55:59):
Well, then I have to manage yes, yes, more team,
and I don't have a manager to manage the team.
I'd have to train the manager too, But no one
can handle all the things. Yet I am slowly delegating.
I have like four people who help me. I could
not exist without them. But there are some things that
me and Sean do, like we'll pick one maybe two
days a month where we take off together and we

(56:22):
call them pancake pancake days, and we microdose and write stories,
and those are our days off, But Sean works just
as much as me, like till later nine every night,
like I We'll be yelling at each other like are
you ready yet?

Speaker 1 (56:34):
Can we stop now? Like is the time to go
to bed?

Speaker 3 (56:39):
Her work is just much more profitable mine is, Like
I'm tending these little streams of income, tending reverends of income.

Speaker 1 (56:48):
Do you guys have any big plans for this year,
any big projects coming out? We are so the one.
The one thing that we do do to get.

Speaker 5 (56:57):
Off the hustle mode is we have to like leave
the city, like we physically leave for the country. So
we are taking a trip. We're going to the UK
for two weeks. It's not planned yet. That's my job.
I'll get to it very soon. Are you guys gonna
shoot content while you're out there?

Speaker 1 (57:13):
Maybe?

Speaker 5 (57:13):
But probably just except it'll be like we're going to
explore castles.

Speaker 1 (57:18):
But if you do, you can write off the trip.

Speaker 5 (57:21):
Oh God, Okay, okay, Holly.

Speaker 1 (57:28):
Every trip we've gone on we end up shooting.

Speaker 3 (57:31):
Yes, it's just more of the intimate stuff that people love,
like it usually sells just as well as anything else.

Speaker 1 (57:37):
Yeah, do you guys have a hard time like having
sex and not being like, oh, we's trying the camera
on and make money off.

Speaker 5 (57:41):
At the beginning, it was very much like that, yeah,
for quite a few months, but lately it's not been
as much.

Speaker 3 (57:48):
Like yesterday we had sex and I came inside her
and then I grabbed the phone and showed it after.

Speaker 1 (57:55):
But we've realized that guys like Sean.

Speaker 5 (57:57):
This is so funny because Sean is known as Cuckleberry
Finn right in the industry. However, my fans think he's
the alpha and they love to be cooked by him.
So if we turn the camera on and we're just
have intimate, we're having intimate sex. And then I just
kind of glance over sometimes and I'm like, yeah, you
like this, that's fine. They love that because you know

(58:21):
he's king.

Speaker 1 (58:23):
Can you tell us about yours?

Speaker 7 (58:27):
Yes, you're cuckledom uh, you know my cut legend.

Speaker 3 (58:34):
So porn is made for cheap and I am always
on set and I have what's the word, I don't
have a huge ego, And so when the director is like, hey,
for extra fifty bucks, will you be cheated on in
this scene? And I say yes, I will take that

(58:57):
fifty dollars to watch those two people have sex, but
it's gotten.

Speaker 1 (59:00):
To would have been doing off. Yeah, that's true.

Speaker 3 (59:03):
And then I got to a point where I just
do it because it's funny and it keeps me entertained
and it makes I work for Quasar a lot, and
it's one of the things that makes him the happiest.

Speaker 1 (59:14):
Right now, there are happy. So it's what.

Speaker 3 (59:18):
He He does a movie just so he can cook
me in new and brilliant ways amiliate me.

Speaker 4 (59:26):
I think it's hilarious.

Speaker 3 (59:27):
I want to get to a point where there's like
a cuck meme about you're there.

Speaker 1 (59:32):
It's got to be.

Speaker 3 (59:33):
But the thing is, I think I'm a terrible cuk
because the problem is people.

Speaker 1 (59:37):
Actually I think.

Speaker 3 (59:39):
I am a cook, and I guess I am in
real life because you sleep with other people in front
of me, and every all of my partners sleep.

Speaker 5 (59:44):
That's not But I'm not like I don't love watching it.
I love watching it. I am a cut queen personally.
I get off on watching shun fuck other people.

Speaker 1 (59:54):
I think that's great. It's kind of like hot husbanding. Yeah, yeah,
I'm into it. Like he's he's hot. He's like it's
like you get this sports car that's really awesome, and like,
do you want to drive it? Yeah? You know you
want to take like a little spin a little Yeah,
lady's gonna drive you around and then return. Don't scratch it.

Speaker 4 (01:00:19):
They scratch it. They put some miles on it.

Speaker 1 (01:00:22):
The cooking thing, it's just funny to me.

Speaker 3 (01:00:24):
And I think what's interesting too is though there's male
performers who like won't take cooking work or they won't
be cooked in a sand because like they instagrating. Yeah,
they think that people care and no big care. Yeah,
all care. And I think to just embracing it, like
I make fun of myself suit. You can try to

(01:00:46):
make fun of me, but I'm beat you to the Yeah.
And it's just I'm always on set and they always
another person adds production value. So I've been married to
a lot of porn women who've all cheated on me.

Speaker 1 (01:01:01):
But you were married to them, but I was married
to them.

Speaker 4 (01:01:04):
It chose you first, it chows me first.

Speaker 3 (01:01:08):
I remember a turning point was Jackie was like, Hey,
if I pay you extra money, will you make out
with Jessa Rhodes naked in bed?

Speaker 1 (01:01:17):
And I was like, yeah, yeah, I'll do that, I'll
do that.

Speaker 4 (01:01:26):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (01:01:26):
The first for a while, I was uh, Lucas Frost.

Speaker 4 (01:01:31):
I was his contract cuckled. He needed me.

Speaker 3 (01:01:36):
The first time I met Melissa Stratton, she was my wife,
and it was fun because we were like in bed
together and she's like taking my arm and putting my
arm on her boob and stuff. But it's it's funny
that I've met so many people that way and actually
our Money Black I was on set with her and
I couldn't remember what said I've been with her, and
She's like, remember I was, I was.

Speaker 1 (01:01:57):
Your wife, you know. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (01:01:58):
I was like, Oh, that doesn't narrow it down. Lest
people in this industry, they forget who they've had sex with.
I forget who I've been married to, who's cheated on me.

Speaker 1 (01:02:06):
Yeah, there's just so many, so many. Oh my god. Well,
thank you guys so much for coming on. It's been
such a pleasure. And I do have a bunch of
questions for you from our Patreon members, so we're gonna
do those in a separate segment. But in the meantime,
can you guys please tell everyone where they can find
you online. I am on manyvis little pucktopmanivids dot com.

Speaker 5 (01:02:28):
I'm on x little Puck, TikTok is, Little Puck pls
and Instagram Little Puck's Playhouse.

Speaker 3 (01:02:34):
Okay, you can find me Mini VID's porn Hub x, Instagram,
TikTok All are at Sean alf alff two FS.

Speaker 1 (01:02:45):
And then you guys can find me on Instagram and
X at Holly Randall and TikTok Holly Randall's seventy eight.
I also have a Telegram channel that I've been posting
a lot on and I don't think I can say
the link. I think you just have to click on it.
Just go to hollylinks dot com and it'll be on

(01:03:06):
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