Inner Integration Podcast

In this second installment of the 9-part mini-series on emotional and behavioral anchors that distort our life and relationships, Meredith explores defensiveness as the armor we mistake for safety. From ancestral trauma to personal heartbreak, we are unraveling how this once-intelligent survival strategy becomes a prison that blocks connection, healing, and presence. With somatic reflections, personal story, and spiritual insight, ...

In this powerful opening to a 9-part mini-series on emotional and behavioral anchors, Meredith explores the deep terrain of numbness. Unfelt grief remains frozen in time—suspended in the body, psyche, and field. This exploration reveals how numbness forms as a survival strategy, how it distorts our presence in daily life and relationships, and how we can gently begin to thaw it. You’ll learn how this inherited silence becomes a fro...

What if the pain you’ve been carrying your whole life was never truly yours? In this episode, we explore the invisible scaffolding we build in childhood to carry the unresolved emotions of our parents and ancestors—sorrow, shame, fear, and more. Through heartfelt storytelling and deep insight, Meredith guides us into the spacious restoration that happens when we stop identifying with inherited trauma and begin to feel what’s beneat...

In this episode, we explore the deeper anatomy of disconnection that emerged during the pandemic—but did not begin there. From the normalization of numbness to the ancestral imprints of war and trauma, we examine how disconnection became a cultural baseline and what it’s truly costing us. Meredith invites us to reconsider our relationship with presence, repair, and relational truth—offering a path back to embodiment, coherence, and...

In this powerful follow-up to “Exiled Grief,” Meredith explores the morphic rupture of 2020 as more than a global crisis—it was an ancestral awakening. Through personal story and collective insight, she reveals how the chaos cracked open time itself, surfacing buried grief, soul memory, and long-forgotten wounds carried through bloodlines. This episode invites listeners into the deeper intelligence of the rupture, showing how the g...

Exiled grief is the sorrow that was never given space—the losses silenced in families, cultures, and collective history. It lives on in the body, in the bloodline, in the land, and in the spaces where memory was erased. In this episode, we explore how unprocessed grief echoes through generations, distorting our lives until someone dares to feel it. When remembered and integrated, exiled grief becomes a portal—transforming pain into...

In this episode, we explore the terrain of exile—not just as displacement from land, but as a patterned disconnection from presence, lineage, belonging, and wholeness. I trace the fragmentation of trauma imprinted across generations and how stillness can become a portal for return. Together, we reflect on what it means to reclaim the parts of ourselves that we exiled to survive, uncovering the personal, relational, ancestral and co...

What if the patterns playing out on the world stage—and in your personal life—aren’t new at all, but echoes of ancient unfinished stories? In this episode, we explore how unconscious ancestral memories shape our fears, our relationships, and even our bodies—until we choose to meet them with remembrance instead of resistance. This is a journey through ancestral trauma loops, genetic resonance, and the sacred power of completion. Dis...

What if the pain you’ve carried your whole life didn’t begin with you—but lives in your body as a story your ancestors couldn’t speak? In this episode, Meredith shares a deeply personal journey of ancestral healing that sparked a profound shift in her body, creative purpose, and sense of peace. This powerful transmission reveals why your deepest wound isn’t the lock—it’s the key.

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Have you always felt like you didn’t belong? In this soul-stirring episode, we will explore the deeper purpose of loneliness as part of the cycle-breaker’s journey. From childhood wounds to ancestral imprints and the evolutionary purpose of loneliness, discover how solitude isn’t a punishment—it’s preparation. Learn how to alchemize your loneliness into clarity, connection, and coherence. This isn’t just healing—it’s remembrance.

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This episode explores the tangle between your defenses and your desire to be free. We'll expose the illusion of “feeling good” as a false measure of healing, revealing how defense mechanisms like avoidance, numbing, suppressing, fixing and bypassing often mask deeper trauma loops. This is a journey from escapism into embodiment, from coping into coherence. We’ll explore the false construct of comfort as a marker of healing and...

After five years of silence, Meredith returns for a soul-stirring exploration of the personal, ancestral, and collective trauma we’ve been carrying—often in silence. In this soul-baring premiere of Season 2, she shares the deeper story behind her absence—a journey through ego reckoning, ancestral integration, and the collective trauma that weaved it all together. This episode explores the shadows of performance, the courage of with...

In this episode, we will explore the importance of setting and maintaining boundaries even during difficult times like now.

You’ll get 9 tips to set healthy boundaries in general plus some specialized tips on how to deal with toxic people.

You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how to identify a manipulator when you set a boundary.

The guided meditation part will help you understand how your body sen...

In this episode, we will explore some ways that you can make the best of the quarantine and time at home. 

You’ll find out about some practical exercises that you can do to rescue yourself when intense emotions come up, especially if you already have CPTSD.

You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how important it is to allow for the grieving process. 

You’ll understand why your past traumas and the recovery work you’re doing are goin...

In this episode, we will explore deeper into the narcissist’s discard, when they throw you away like an object.

You’ll find out about 5 reasons why the narcissist might have discarded you.

You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how the discard is different than No Contact.

You’ll finally understand why the discard is so painful and what you can do about it now.

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In this episode, we will explore 5 common narcissistic fleas.

You’ll finally understand why you might have taken on unhealthy behaviors, mindsets and habits via contact with narcissists.

You’ll also find out the most important thing you need to do before you can get rid of the fleas.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn how to reprogram yourself so you can get rid of these dysfunctional patterns.

In this episode, we will explore how abusers use gaslighting to cancel the reality of their victims. 

You’ll finally understand how similar this pattern is when it happens in interpersonal relationships, family and society.

You’ll also find out how to recognize covert forms of gaslighting through doublespeak. 

You’ll get the opportunity to learn how this erasure of reality applies to the recent novel coronavirus pandemic.

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In this episode, we will explore the false guilt that you might feel upon setting boundaries.

You’ll finally understand exactly what happens when you set boundaries with toxic people.

You’ll also find out about the particular type of manipulator who is the master of the guilt-tripping tactic and how to see this coming a mile away.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn the 3 most important guidelines for se...

In this episode, we will explore the dangers of fantasy on an individual and collective level.

You’ll finally understand more about why you might have developed the habit of fantasizing since childhood and how that can be affecting your life now.

You’ll also find out about common fantasies like the rescue fantasy, unconditional love, idealization and oneitis.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn some hel...