EP 156 Big Mama Butta

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What's up? What's up?
Welcome to another episode of Kennel Talk podcast.
It's your boy cadet, the bowlegged assassin and our
favorite Hostess with the Moses.OK, whatever that was.
Welcome back, Butter. How you doing?
What's going on, man? On time?

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On time. What's going on?
This ain't even going to drop anytime soon.
This will be dropping like next month.
Bro I got so many episodes recorded.
Really. Damn.
Oh my God. Well, that's good, as long as
you got like a nice catalog. So yeah, that's the thing.
Yeah. Because when I went to Florida,
you know that Well, yeah, you know, because you've been in
person, like the in person is always better because you get a,
you know, better vibe, better energy and shit, right.

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I recorded a couple when I was in Florida but and there was one
from like December that I was finally able to upload.
Yeah, bro, bro. December, Yeah, we used in
April. Nigga, all right.
All right, you got a lot. Of life, but it was a good
conversation. So that's why I'm like, I had
the salvage it, but I was able to do that.

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No, that's a fact. Anyway, we're gonna talk about
everything you got going on towards the end of the pod, you
feel me? OK, OK.
That's why I wanted to get you on, you know, watch your YouTube
video and, you know, I was like,shit, I'm here.
For it no filter mommy. So I'm gonna give it all.
Word. So he's gonna start with his

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icebreaker. I don't know if you knew about
it before I sent you that with the Anthony Edwards and his baby
Mama situation. You never heard about it?
No, not yeah. I was like, wait, who?
But she was on point. I'm not gonna hold you.
She got a point. What was her point?
Well, we'll get to that. Let me explain it for the people
that don't know. OK, so those of you that don't
know Anthony Edwards, he plays in the NBA.

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He's a young nigga, you feel me?From Atlanta, I guess.
He was dealing with a young lady, Aisha Howard, who is right
now 39, and I don't even think he's 24 yet.
You feel me like. Oh, wow.
Yeah, exactly. Yeah.
You got to got to get context onstuff, right?
So Long story short, he got her pregnant, didn't want her to

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keep the baby. She said well I'm going to keep
the baby. He said well if you keep the
baby, you're on your own, right?They going through the battles
this standard there. But what did you get from the
video I sent you before I go into detail?
Just the regular old everyday pretty girl gold dig a tick and
yeah she but the point that she gave I don't know the ages, the
ages already still live possibly.

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Right, right, right, right. But if it wasn't for the age,
she has a point, though. You haven't baited somebody
because you want to set an A check.
Why you continue to have why? Like we know people that's
having four or five kids, but weknow they're doing it for a
reason. The Jews do that.
Oh, time we know. They do that for a reason.
What's their reason? Because you.

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You get a crazy write off. Oh OK.
Nick Cannon is another. 10 God I.
Mean you it's a great write off you get if you want to go to
Section 8 route. Oh man, the Section 8 money is
is insane. We over here US nine to five
years. Yeah, you feel me?
1000 that's like 1200 coming outof my check OK and I don't got

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not a corner of a section of a corner of A8 to get any of it
none of. It I got that.
Comes right on my check because right out my check.
So when it comes to that, Pete, the, the property people do it
that way. But do we talk about, Oh, no,
you trying to get your #5 you'renumber six to get it right.
Away. Oh, you're trying to get that
extra section they check to get that double what you get the we
don't say that to them. We only say that to the gold

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diggers. We know what they doing, but you
only say that to them. So it is.
She do have a little point on that though.
But I I ain't feeling her too much because it's like because
she started off the whole video was saying, well, I'm not new to
this. Like, I've been this basically.
Like I already got a rich baby daddy and just like, yeah.
She wowed out with. That bitch what?
Hey that's a flex like this shitis weird and for her to be grown

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as hell. Like I understand the mentality
of a young girl 20 something cool like that's what they see
nowadays right? Well, for you to be damn near 40
and that's your thought process.What's?
Age. Hope.
Hopefully hopefully age is fucking maturity but obviously
fucking not. Bro it's like the prettier the
prettier art and more work they had done the the the smaller the

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brain cells. Apparently I just but I am
fucking with this hand New Girl it look good.
I just chopped all my hair off. Yeah.
I just was. Yesterday I woke up.
I was tired of all his hair and I'm a wig girl guru.
I make rigs, I buy wigs left andright.
I was just tired of it so I chopped all of it off.
What color you put in there is. I like it.

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It's like a dark red. I was scared because of the
work, so I was like, let me justdo.
I wanted to go brighter, but I was like, let me just.
Nah, fuck that home girl paved the way for y'all with the with
the dreads, with the red dreads that she had.
Yeah, so you should be high. That's what I said.
You shouldn't be straight, maybe.
For the birthday, I can go light.
I'm gonna see what everybody's saying.

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I'm not a sneaking. They'll get a little lighter.
Yeah, sneak in, sneak in with all that height and the bright
hair. Good luck with that.
That's going to be very interesting.
So back to the Edwards situation.
So Long story short, she decidedto still have the baby and a few
little things like I forgot where she lived, but she ended
up moving to California where she would get more money, right?

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So whatever happened in the courts, they obviously said, OK,
well he's going to have to pay child support.
I think his child support came out to like 5000.
So this is one thing I've never heard in my life.
Dude was like, aye, so how much will it cost for 18 years?
Boom, let me go ahead and pay that up front.
It was like a little over $1,000,000 breath and.
He coughed that up. Coughed that up and just gave

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and said don't hit me up for shit else basically.
Now, OK, all right. How do you feel about it?
Yeah, you all say that's crazy. That's crazy.
It's so many levels when it's because first, all right, when
are we ever going to take the fucking account of oh God, here
I go curse the God. Excuse me, when?
When are we always going to takethe goddamn accountability to

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the point that y'all know these type of chicks and y'all still
put in raw Dickens? Facts and then.
You're still letting off. Not that part, yeah, because you
know my dibble and dabble raw, but for you to let your Dick sit
in there and bust your nut, bruh.
Yeah, and you know, this is the,you see what Shorty is?
It's clear as day see her and you can know what type of time

(06:31):
she on. So it's just like Sir, you know
who you are, you know where you about to go.
Why? Yeah.
I don't. I don't.
Get it, but honestly get it. He been moving like a like the
way he's moving off the court, like I love his game, right?
And I wanted him to become the face of the NBA.
But it's like the way he's been moving off court is just like me
as like the man that I am, just like, bro, like what are you

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doing? Because at first he started off
on his Netflix show, you know, there was like highlighting NBA
players and stuff like that. He had a girlfriend.
He was dealing with a long time girlfriend.
She was pregnant. She had a baby.
This nigga didn't have about 2-3different kids and she didn't
have her baby bro. Oh wait.
Oh, so this is not. His first?
No, it's not his first. No, he has a couple under 5
right now. At least three or four.

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Wow. Walling, walling, walling big
time bro. And I'm just like, yo-yo, off
the court antics is crazy because it's like, even if you
become a Hall of Famer, right, in 18 years, this little girl is
going to hit the media and she'sgoing to be like, yeah, well, he
disowned me and like your shit is tarnished, nigga.
At the end of the day, you stilldealt with this woman.
Cool. But like the child, has nothing

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to do with it at all. My God, that is interesting to
the point that I said you just the type of dude that you just
you just love multiple women. You love roar.
Yeah, you love playing Russian roulette.
Snippet. That's what I love saying.
Go ahead snippet bro. What's the problem?
It's just like the common sense.I never understand why nobody

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else would think like like why you don't?
I would and you're worth millions.
You're worth millions. I don't care how good looking
you think you are, a lot of these women are not dealing with
you because of your looks. Like they see you and they see
the dollar sign at that point, but like know.
What they're gonna get from. There and you're a sports well
known player, Nigga, when you get your contract, the world
knows Anthony. I was just signed for 300

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million. Oh, oh, they out tonight.
Come on, man, like I just wish you would move a lot
differently. But you know it is what it is
because with him, right, I thinkhe lost both of his parents,
right. So he was raised with his
siblings who aren't that far apart as far as like the age
gap. I kind of attest some of it to
that. But it's also like, come on,

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brother, what are we doing? That's, that's a lot.
That's a lot. And the thing like he's only in
his 20s. He didn't even start.
He's going to have more kids. 30s is about to be crazy but to
him, his mentality alone just wanting to cough out the whole
18 and just drop it. And that's different.

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You could just. That's different.
I ain't gonna lie. It's a lot of niggas I know.
Y'all gonna hear this shit? Don't think you can do that
shit. You feel me?
You're not the five and go coverthat, No.
For average job, I mean if you got your our everyday kings, if
you got your record 9 to 5, someof them something like 500.
Yeah, so child support be like 500 I bet cause yeah.

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You do like 500? Let's do some calculations real
quick, you know? Let's go to math SO500A month
times 1212 * 18. Damn that shit.
Low key 108. That ain't too bad if you really
ain't trying to fuck with Shorty.
Yeah. If you ain't, if you ain't
trying to fuck with Shorty, yeah, that's fine.
That's definitely fine, yeah. I'll cook that up.

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Leave. It to fuck alone, That's crazy,
but for you like that's a lot ofhate though, like I don't know,
that's a lot of hate for you to lay down with.
Somebody, huh? Don't.
Don't you think you're going to spend a block and try to be a
father and like that child, you did some shit like that?
No, that's crazy, crazy. That's what I'm saying.
He's forever tarnished because that little girl's going to grow
up one day and just be like, damn, like.

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And it's not like, oh, she's gonna, it's conversations that
she's gonna hear. No, it's in the news.
It's forever on the net, Internet.
You're gonna see what what lawyers said and what she had to
say. I don't think she should've got
on Internet try to talk about it'cause it made her look more
like a bird. I ain't gonna lie.
Like she tried to like defend it, but I was just like.
Oh, I've already had a rich baby, Danny and.

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Bro I was like. I don't need.
I was like. I've been so disgusted with
these girls sometimes. Like what this is your thoughts?
Like this is how you think and you think this is OK?
Easy part Why are men attracted to women like this?
That to the point that this is continuing.
It looks good. To go every bro how many good

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what good looking woman we have in this world.
It's a lot. A lot, especially in that in
that game, every day there's a bad bitch left and right.
I don't I don't get the I mean I'm not a rich nigga so I don't
understand the thought process of like the niggas dealing with
the pass arounds, like the well known pass arounds.
You know what I mean? Like I don't know, maybe they

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think, oh, they'll understand more, but like, give me a normal
chick bro. Like they just want the same
chick that future doesn't smash and you know what I'm saying?
Like that one? She just had another one with
another youngin. Joy or joy?
What a jade future is she got? Bow Wow.
Future Oh yeah, she found as fuck alright.
She nice tech nigga back Joy Chavez or some shit like that,

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yeah. Yeah, like.
Yeah, y'all right, She got 3, she got 3.
She got she got Bow Wow and thenshe had Future and then she got
an NFL player right now. Crazy.
I mean, I mean don't get it. The line up is good though,
because there's some girls out there and they they just got to
line up a bum. Niggas, you feel me?
Just Just trash across the board, trash across the board.

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You know, so I can't get too madat a girl doing like that, but
at least you stay out the news and she actually does her own
stuff. You know what I'm saying?
Like. She does do her own stuff.
You know, you want to raise a child by yourself like that is
the money's more than the personwith you.
That's the type of life we in right now, like somebody not
rubbing on your butt, not helping you, not say, I mean

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granny, you can get a nanny and you can still do your thing, but
that's life. That's goals.
Shit, that's what we. Doing I'm going through it now.
So like I this is a team effort.Let's just say that like, yeah,
I don't I've never pictured myself being a single dad.
I've never a day was like, no, because you know, that's a lot
of the thought process too. Like niggas is just cool with

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just having a child and then youdo your thing.
I do my thing. Like why?
Why, why are we why are we here?Woman too.
Like I don't even know man. This was the look, put the egg
in me. And I, I never, ever, ever.
I don't care how much if I wanted, even if I wanted kids,
I'm going to go down that route.Now, granted, everybody's

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different. I don't know any woman who wants
to do that for herself. Yeah, but that's just not the
way it's designed. No, I it's just not going to do
that. Yeah, because I had a girl on
Instagram, she, she commented tomy thing.
Oh, when I said these days womenare are bigger liars than men,
like I posted that earlier, right?
And she was just like, I mean, she said basically women had

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have tricked themselves into thinking like, they don't need
men anymore. Like that part?
That part. We need each other.
I would never say where. Where did that come from?
I'm confused. I don't know, man, I don't know.
It's crazy where they come. From I don't get it and men to
men feel like they don't need no.
Women, yeah, for sure. It's probably them, Trista,

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Columbia and shit. It'll be like.
Gotta be Trista, Columbia and Dr. and like.
And I'm not dealing with this shit.
I'm booking my trip right now. All right, brother, do your
thing, man. Do you think that?
Ain't gonna last long and you don't want somebody to be with
you. When you draw XX, you know to go
off top it real quick, right? I was thinking about this

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because I was having a conversation with one of my
homies. Shout out to Klenda.
Like, have you ever dealt with somebody?
Either y'all was just messing around or dating and it was good
y'all. Y'all ended, you know,
cordially, or at least y'all don't have any bad blood years
later, right? And then you look at this
situation and you just be like, damn, I hate that for you.
Yeah, that's a lot. You said it's a lot.

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God damn. There's a lot of those.
I was like damn, I really thought so much but.
I really thought. Damn, back in the day.
That something like that, but I'm saying it more so of the
sense of like like, OK, boom, I messed with a girl, great girl,
just for the time frame. It wasn't going to work and the

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years down the line I'm just seeing they could just adding
baby daddies to the I'm just like damn, like I wanted you to
be. I'm not saying having baby
daddies is a bad thing, but I just like I didn't see that for
you. Yeah, I saw more.
You know you'd be. More than that and especially
with this person, like I had a conversation where after she you

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know, because she had a boyfriend then whatever it
didn't work out. They end up having a kid
together. It didn't work out cool.
But then randomly I just see a pop up pregnant.
I'm just like what the fuck? Like you doing this again again
again solo? No nigga insight.
Not one nobody open nothing. Yeah, yeah, that's the heart.

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I don't I give it to the one whowant to do it again too by stuff
knowing after a bad situation like you want to do that again
that is. But maybe they're I think
they're that's kind of from trauma.
They're looking for something. They're looking for something
that they think the baby. Can give them trauma is the
game. And yeah and it's just like
y'all are living in trauma and not even understanding.

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And passing it down. And just passing it down to the
kids. We're going to talk about trauma
at the end of this. So yeah.
Oh, Chad. Yeah, we are.
Yeah. Yeah.
It's going to be a good one. Yeah.
But what does that look like fora woman?
Like, have you seen a dude? Like, what would be a thing you
see a dude doing? It's just like, damn.

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Damn Brother I. Haven't seen that.
Oh I've seen dude they got like 6 seven kids but Oh my God I
haven't seen it till the. End I'm ready to snip my shit
after this second would come outlike niggas is like oh you're
gonna. Keep trying for a boy, nigga
fuck. You nigga, I'm not trying shit.
You. Crazy as fuck that money.
My paycheck, my paycheck. I look crazy for me to ever want

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to. No, no, no.
And I'm not doing it to chase a boy. 13141314 you might be like
you know what you do one more 3/3 in the band.
Shout out the Griff that nigga, he hit me up the other day in
the in the DS, bro, because thatwhole situation I talk about,
I'll give it to you as far as like what happened off air or
whatever. But he was just like bro, like

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you know, you'll be a great soup.
Like you know, you have great leadership qualities and you
don't sugarcoat shit. Like damn, I appreciate you,
bro. Like you feel me lying.
OK. But yeah, I don't know, maybe a
14. I would consider if I was a 14.
Cool, but Nah. Nah, not the the the twelvies
not. 12 No nigga. 12512 Six. I'm a 12/4 like I said it

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depends on where I'm at because of 12/4 in Cali right now is
what nigga that shit like 130 but it's Cali though I.
Would miss that, yeah. That shit beautiful man.
Anyway, talk. About it.
Yeah, no, I'm not. I'm not doing it, bro.
I just never understood the process of just just Willy nilly

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just busting nuts off and then just going about your business.
Yeah. Oh, yeah.
That's what I'm saying. Like when they come to the New
York dudes, they do that all thetime.
They just splash. And then they just got 1000
kids. But to see me feel some type of
way about it, No. I've seen dudes like they was
him, like they was him, him all throughout my 20s.
Then 30s came around and you just be like, oh you a dusty.

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Yeah. That's crazy.
Like you really grew up to be a dusty.
Yeah, and. It's like, Dang, I really laid
down with that. That's crazy.
I feel you bro, I feel you. Oh.
God, you started like I would never, but I'm too real not to

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say like I never been with. Yeah.
You feel me? Yeah.
Yeah. You know, I'm not going to
volunteer the information, but if you ask me, I'll be like that
part. I might drop my hand, be like,
yeah, yeah, I did that shit. I did.
It was a drunk night, you know? You know, my, my time in Orlando

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was a wild time, you know, nonetheless.
Man, that's the fact. But yeah, some people just lose
it. I just like, Dang, I really
thought he was better. I thought he was.
I thought he was gonna really behappening.
Bro what should DM be looking like?
Right, Because you just keep elevating more and more and more
and more like. Not I'm.
Sure, the Dusty's wait, what? You post yesterday?

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You posted something yesterday, dog.
He was like, I should tag him. What the fuck?
What did? He say he was trying and then he
was like Dang, I thought. I thought this week he was
ovally. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.
I was like, what? Like like this is ridiculous,
but it's crazy. I'm like, my things used to be
really, really crazy. They calm down now, but it's

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still the extras. It's still the extras and.
Pop out with that haircut is about to be up.
Not they see me with a haircut about 3.
That shit about to go crazy, they see me.
So I know they remember, but it intimidated men are intimidated.

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It's not to bump my own horn andI'm not cocky at all, but a
woman, you know, with the no kids, she got the money she got
on planes. She thinking like that she do
this, she contact it's a lot. So some men be like, my men
don't really go for it. You'd be surprised.
You'd be surprised. They're like.

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She do a lot right. Keep up nigger.
The fuck no. Shit, it's good over this time
you don't like. It you sound like the toxic
reply we had on one of the episodes, somebody said yeah,
oh, they was talking about KevinGay.
They was like, yeah, he toxic, but you're gonna like it over
here, you know? Kevin is the one of them.

(20:38):
Kevin. And what's the other one?
That one you pointed NBNBA. No, this is NBA.
When I post. On none of these new kids that
little freaky nasty 10 you posted him.
NLENLE Chopper. Yeah, he another.
That nigga said man, my fantasy is the fuck a bitch.
While she talking to her nigga on the phone, I said oh Jesus

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damn, I ain't gonna lie. I didn't bend the nigga like it
ain't been they nigga, but like they talking to they home girls
and shit like that. You might go a little deeper,
you feel me? Trying to puncture along, you
know. Yeah, you know, he's that there.
We definitely there. But yeah.
We've been there before at his third time.
I think I did some talk with shit like that before too.
I ain't, I ain't. Rush.

(21:23):
It's the rush. Yeah, I mean, I'd have been laid
up in Oh my God stories for days.
I'd have been laid up in the girl Then, you know, her
boyfriend called and she's like,oh, yeah, I'm with my cousin.
Like, oh, OK. Yeah, yeah, I'll be that.
No problem. It's all good.
I ain't mature facts not all. As long as I get in draws, I'm

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I'm chilling. All right, so let's go into the
first topic here. What's your go to like after a
breakup? After like what are you doing?
You listening to music? You going to the gym a little
more you're staying into the house.
Like what you doing? Well, you got two different

(22:05):
me's. You got, you got 20s lady, 20s
me. Give me both. 20s me give me
both because obviously you don'tchange me.
You don't change over the years.The old, the old me.
Oh, I'm I'm going to get over a nigga while getting under a
nigga. I ain't going.
I'm going to keep it a buck. I'm going to find me somebody.

(22:26):
We're going to go a couple of days.
We're going to party, we're going to have fun.
We're going to link up. We're going to dream.
We're going to have a good time.He going to come through.
I'm going to go through over there and I'm going to move on
with a whole new king and he. We're just going to be chilling,
rocking and rolling. But do you have?
I ain't. Going to have no problem with.
That, but do you have a during that situation where how, how
you deal with it? Because I, I deal with it the
same way because I had to realize like damn, because even

(22:48):
when I was in a relationship andthere's just like certain things
going bad, like my, my go to waslike, I'm going to go fuck
somebody else, right? It went from like, but I
understood like, OK, I was dealing with some shit that I
didn't like in a relationship. And I'm just like, instead of
dealing with it, distract myself.
Absolutely. But what do you do when the
distraction is over? Like, you don't busted yours, He

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don't busted his, and now you'rejust sitting with yourself.
Does it come across him? Yeah.
Hey, cry. Hey.
Cry. Literally I'm a crier.
I cry for everything. So I cry when I'm happy, mad,
sad. So I'm a cry and then I'm just
got to and then talking to my, Italk to myself.
Well you just say you a crier. That YouTube video is the only
time I've ever seen you cry likeyou always give give thug

(23:33):
misses. I know you.
Remember when you 2 pieced me atwork?
I did. I was scared for my life.
You are strong. He's a strong ass nigger.
You know, you, you needed that. You needed that.
So I had to be granted Billy, you know what I'm saying?
You need that. Yeah, I ain't gonna argue.
I ain't gonna argue. I needed.
That two piece. But it was kind of like when you

(23:54):
hit me, I was just like, OK, AndI was like, hold on that nigger.
Hello bro, we both got handcuffsnigga.
I won't put your elbow at the elbow.
Takedown nigga. Yeah, I can't but that you had
to get that. But I mean, usually I cry, I'm a
crier and I'm just talk to myself and get through the

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process. But or if not on my toxic shit,
I used to just deal with a new person and I once I'm deal with
a new person, it's lit. It's but new me.
Oh no, we gonna we gonna processthis.
I need you to cry. I need you to cry.
If you need to talk about it, you need to journal it.
You need to go to the therapy about it.
You need to go to the gym, work it out.
You want to, but you have to go through it because one thing I

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used to do is numbing it. I'm a numb it.
Give me a bottle, give me a drink or I'm gonna wind up
laying under somebody or just keep going.
Just trying not to go through the process.
Go through the process. You got to go through it.
So now I'm definitely big on that.
Agreed. Agreed, Because even, you know,
the only thing I have to reference these days is that's

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just because every other relationship that I, I, you
know, broke up with the girl is just like, all right, I broke up
with you. Hang on.
I was cold blooded to a certain extent.
I got a pet. That is the landlord.
Oh, oh, shout out to her, man. I ain't seen her so damn long.
Yeah, but yeah, back in the day,it was just like when I would

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break up with a girl. It was just like, I ain't really
feel no way 'cause as much as itmight have seemed like, oh, it
was out of nowhere. It was like a thought process.
Like it wasn't something I just woke up and I did it right.
Right. But then the last one that was
actually like the big one, the heartbreaker, the one where I
felt that pain in my chest. Nigga, I ain't never felt that

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pain. You felt that pain before?
That was the the old nigga. Oh word.
Yeah, that shit. I was doing the the slow cry
sliding down the 90s video sliding down the wall what I'm.
Going through Hey God bro listenthat.

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Dumb, dumb, dumb. Be the one.
I don't wish heartbreak on nobody, bro, 'cause it was just
like, get into a situation whereyou had to do it.
You don't want to, but it's like, bro, I got to.
I'm end up in jail or something.But yeah.
But with that one, like it was around the time of getting this
position, right. So like, I remember breaking up

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and then like the next week I had to fly to Miami or I drove
to Miami. One of the two, I don't remember
how I drove, drove to Miami to do the interview, the panel
interview for this position. So it was just like, I was just
distracted with shit. And then when it finally hit me,
I'm just like in the bed, just like just chilling.
Had to drop in tears bro, gotta let it out.

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Got to you, got to. It's the only way.
Yeah. Gotta get it out.
But I ain't gonna lie, that first night, yeah, I was on some
toxic shit. First night, I was in some pussy
right away. Right away, brother.
Right away. 3-3 hours, I kid younot 3 hours 3.
What? Three hours.
I was drunk. You ever had a You haven't had a

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Haitian room? It's called baboon.
Cool. You never had that shit before.
Yes, I did. Yes, I did.
I was off of that shit. OK.
That's why I really fuck with itnow.
I stay away from that liquor right there.
That one right down too much. But see using.
Yeah, I was like, damn, I can still do that.
No, I don't want to. Never mind.
I could, but I don't want to. Yeah, yeah, no, we ain't doing

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that. Hell no listen 'cause she be
wanting to go off topic again, she'd be wanting to squirm and
shit then Dick come out like I'll be like bro that's a reset
like. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Now you're gonna go. It's gonna.
I'm done. I'm done.
All right, You got yours. You got a couple.
Alright, cool. I'm cool.
I can't do the fucking. I don't want to be enough of 45.

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I'm over it. I'm done.
But yeah, I was like 27 at the time.
Yeah, so. Yeah, that's prime time.
That's real. Real.
That's real. And the girl said I was so like
blackout drunk. Like as soon as I busted a nut I
just fucking passed out. I was just.
What? Gone damn pussy sober me up bro.
I got a problem. Got a problem?

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What they call it the after nut?Well, no, no, not clarity.
No, I mean that ain't had nothing to do with it.
Not no, it is post nut clarity. Yeah.
So you don't make no bad decisions, you know?
Bad decisions. Yeah, I definitely am.
Wholeheartedly, yes. Busting up before you make a bad
decision. But yeah, man, like I think

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yeah, that was always my thing. And I'm a music person.
Oh my God. That's why I love Trap Soul to
this day. Like trap soul is like my go to
album now. It's it's a point where I can
listen to it and just enjoy. But at one point I was listening
to it and I was it was just mademe sad.
Yeah, yeah. Yeah, because certain songs will
represent good times or a good time because we have a lot of
good times, good time. And then there's a one song,

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Bryson Tiller. Been that way.
Oh my God, I don't know if you know that one.
You know that one, bro. I was like, oh, this nigga know
my life right now. He knows my life like how do we
get to this part? He's.
Going. He's going on Chris Brown shit.
Chris Brown right? Oh my mom.
I'm upset. Every date that I possibly could
have dealt with, the one in Toronto is right around the

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town. A baby going to be born.
Dang. Then the one that's in like
Florida is like crazy Price bro.I can only imagine I heard them
numbers, some Beyoncé and more type.
Nigga if you trying to sit damn near you know not super close
but like a good decent side or see that shit about 8-9 hundred
for one person. Hey Chris, get your money.

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Get your money. You deserve it.
He definitely man I'm not even mad at because they be black
listening to him so whatever he acts for, give it to that man.
Facts. I'm definitely going for Bryson,
but I definitely fucking Chris Brown though, like, you know,
the old shit. Residuals is my shit.
That's my motherfucking that. When I heard that song, I'm
like, this is a toxic nigga anthem right here.

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It's a toxic ass song. That's probably why I like.
Yeah, that's that shit is. But don't you hate when somebody
give you a song like they dedicate a song to you?
So but now it's low key your favorite song, but every time
you hear the song, you got to think about that dumbass person.
You haven't had that before. Yeah, but I didn't really have
no like, oh, this our song. I only got one song that was
like our song with a girl. And I was like when I was 20.

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So that shit dead and gone, she married, you feel me?
Like, no, it's just another songnow.
Yeah, why I'm so anxious. That's like summertime Jersey.
That's when the first time I heard that song.
I was attacked, Yeah. I was young.
Now that's like. That was.
Legit 1617, that's that. Teens.
That was a minute ago. I wasn't even that.

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I think I was middle school, man.
Middle school, elementary. Wanted them to what?
Hey. Jeez, so that thing dropped,
man, listen. Oh.
Yeah, I wanna repeat, man, but yeah.
So do you ever notice like because I only bring this up
because, you know, start noticing people on your
timeline, you know, two weeks ago they was posting themselves

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with a ladies or with a man and then all of a sudden they
outside and they overly sharing,you know, like because that's
the opposite route where you want to dry yourself and I'm OK,
I'm having a great time. What's that Tyrese?
What's that Tyrese shit that crying?

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Congratulations. Yeah.
Hey, man. That's the fact though.
I see that that's what you always know.
Like, oh, she broke up with. Yeah, yeah, he broke out.
No, no, that'll tell you. That'll tell you what he posts
will tell you. Oh she broke up with him that's
a fact. Cause nigga I was like the

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caption he putting with shit like oh I'm finna focus on this
money and money ain't never leftme like OK brother.
OK, I. See what's going on?
OK, OK, I get it. I get it.
It's cool. I see what's going on.
It's alright. Oh, that's I will never, and I
would say never. I'm never posting a man ever

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again. Oh nigga, that that one, that
last one told me. And either way, you're single
until married, so why are you posting people?
Anyway, OK, why? OK, see I.
You got your. Ring I got, I had that as a
topic but I didn't even bring itin because I'm like now I feel
like but that's a great one. I didn't use it though, but that
is a great one now that you openup new can of worms.

(32:45):
What is it about that though? OK so I get never posting the
person right? But then you have the girls that
will do the utmost to hide the person.
They will fucking blur the face out.
Emoji on the face only show a hand, no tattoos, no identifying
factors. You feel me?
Just don't. Post, don't post it.
Just actually don't post it. You can put a whole blurry image

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on the arm. You got arms wrapped around you
with the blurry image over your neck.
Sis, let it go. It's not even that serious.
It's all right, it's OK, it's cool.
Let it go. But I agree.
It's the validation. I agree what you're saying
though. You are technically single until
you're married because niggas could wake up tomorrow and be
like yeah I'm straight. Or a woman could wake up, you
know, and be like, I'm cool, butthat marriage a little

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different. I ain't just do that.
It's. Different.
You can't just get up and, well,I mean, you can't, but you.
Can, but it's a way. It's a process.
It's a process. It's a process, you just don't
get up and go so it's like 9 y'all don't need to see.
So you, you don't think you'll ever you'll post, you'll only
post like what will make you post somebody in the future Like
it has to be like, oh, proposal like is there.

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That would be the next time somebody will see a man even.
That I would say Mary. Even that is Yeah, yeah, you're
right. Even that bro she could get.
It ain't official official Hey, I'm raising my hand and only
lasted 3 months and I was out ofthe but that does happen.

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You know, like you propose and then now you're having these
different conversations about this down the 3rd and it's like,
wait, maybe we don't align, you know what I'm saying, like.
Yeah, yeah. You have them goggles on.
The way that's a question for you, what was the difference?
You dated the person that whole time and it took you to the end
to realize we're not aligned. So me, I was OK.

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So you ever love somebody and just you love them so much that
you're just like hoping that they change certain things like
you just like, yeah, I love themso much and they know I love
them. So if they love me, they'll
change this or they'll work on this.
It don't work like that. Learn very, very, you know, the
hard way, Like you people got tochange.

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So they want to change. They don't matter what you do
for them, what you say to them. They gotta want to change for
themselves. And if they can't do that, bro,
like that shit did, bro, it's over.
Yeah, it's over. That's a biggie.
That is a very, very big. A lot of a lot of us females go
through that all that well, shit.
I think more females than we. Do that, yeah, potential.

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And I know like if I give him this baby, he goes, he goes
stick around like girl, no, no, please don't do that.
Don't do that. Well you, you don't have a baby
with a nigga. You don't even know his parents
names. You go do that if you want to
because shit changes after a baby comes into effect.
Like he's in love with this chapter of you.

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Is he going to be in love with this other?
Because bro, like you know that you can't just be in love with
someone's physical, bro, physical will fade over time
easily. Like what else is there?
Can you sit there and joke with the person?
Can you? You know what I mean?
Like it got to be deeper than just, oh, she looks good.
She looks she's nice to look at,which is what, what the

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beginning of what we were sayingwith these celebrities, like
they deal with these girls because they look good, but like
it's surface value. What else is there?
Absolutely, absolutely. You can't even be sick if you
feel awkward sitting in silence with a person.
That's how you know. Like you can't even how you
can't even be in awkwardness with a person you feel
uncomfortable. Like get out of you don't know.
It's definitely been girls in the past that I'm just like, it

(36:26):
was a sexual situation. I'm just like, after you bust
that and I'm like, you ready to go?
I remember I used to deal with this one girl.
I used to deal with this one girl when I lived at my mom's
crib, bro. Like I would have to go pick
this bum bitch up bro and like it's so different when you can

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either go to a girls crib right?Right.
Or she come to you, she got a vehicle.
So now I didn't do what I had todo.
Mind you, I pick her up, she's annoying me on the way, right?
Oh yeah, saying stupid shit, doing stupid shit, get to the
house, do our thing, cool in themoment, everybody changes during
sex, good vibes. Then after the fact, it's like,

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damn, I gotta take this long assdrive back to the crib and I
can't stand this motherfucker really.
But she freaking like. Ah damn, that is the worst.
When you could bust a nut with somebody and joke with them, or
even joke during sex like you'rewinning.
And just be chilling and we'll be chilling out.

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Even after the the nut clarity, you're still like, you know, you
ain't, Yeah. Yeah cool.
Like even leading up shit you could be laying up butt nigger
aren't be playing. Y'all fucking singing the shit
together, you know what I'm saying?
Like. That is a biggie that I'm one of
my exes. He said.
That he's like, I knew I knew I loved you because my Dick was on
shrimp. And I was just.

(37:54):
Laying up. Next to you the.
Music, not caring. And I was like, oh, that's a big
thing, he said. That's a very big thing, that
is. A big thing.
Oh God, oh God, because I am a grower, not a shower.
If I could lay there with you with the shrimpy shrimp.
Yeah. I fucking shoot a long way shit
if I let you put my Dick in yourmouth, not least I'm on gummy.

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You know how embarrassing that I'm fucking just playing with
your shit? That is yo you got to chill
because the image is crazy. I'm trying.
To bro Bro fucking. What's the gummy worm?
Yeah, No, Hell no. What if I don't get up?
You ever had that When it don't get up and it's you think like

(38:37):
once you put your mouth, it's going to get up and then it
don't Nah, he knows the. Only time I no, I've gone, I've
gone limp twice, right. The first time it ever happened
and I realized, you know, sorry,I wasn't into like the big I
could do BBW, but like the big girls wear was disproportionate.
Oh yeah, that ain't for me. My shit went limp.

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Never in my life went limp except for and then the second
time I was actually wit wife butshe wasn't wife at the time like
we were. This is like this is like two
months after that original breakup and it was my birthday
damn day. Exactly what it was.
It was my birthday and I get a text from my ex saying happy

(39:20):
birthday killer. Oh my God, what?
Oh my God, shit immediately bro,it's like a nigga like he's
getting some pussy. Let me go ahead and fuck this
shit up right, Oh my God, hey, my jump went all the way down

(39:42):
bro like that jump was crazy andand Shorty Shorty didn't even
like get mad or nothing like that.
She kind of right. That's why she had to become a
wife because she always understood like you know what
I'm saying like some people could get bad like oh, you
thinking about it like you know what I'm saying?
I could have took it a differentway, but she always came from a
place of understanding, which isa rarity out here.
Big. Very rare.

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Very rare. Yeah, very rare.
What was the next thing here? So say you're dealing with a
nigger, right? Right and.
He masturbate Would you be mad if you're your your guy was
masturbating and is there a is there a Max?
Is there a Max amount that he can masturbate in a week?

(40:24):
I just had this conversation with one of my coworkers at
work. All of me would say oh.
Maybe like little. Hair and like 3 * a week.
It's cool. Like you know, you got to do
what you got to do. New me.
That's the dubs. Why are you jerking off?
There's no need. At all need to ever, ever ever.

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Ever. Ever.
He can't ever Jack off. And this is the biggest thing
because he's like, there's no way niggas not going to beat.
Over. I'm like, I'm like, but it's,
it's so much to that because it's.
Like wait, like y'all living together jacking off or y'all
living in separate places and like, or you just come to visit.
I'm. Talking about where to where

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we're married. Together.
OK, OK. Married and living together.
This to me I don't feel like there's no need to be being off
and there's no need for a woman to be playing with her pussy.
OK first first because it takes away the sexual tension when I
finally get to my person OK likeI'm cutting hat it's supposed to
be. I should be on hot and red and

(41:26):
ready period. Hot and ready?
Yeah. Yeah, he is.
Yeah, it takes it away. So like if I dissed in earlier
that day and then my can't come home, I already low key took

(41:47):
half of the UFF out of it because I was already playing
with myself early in the morningand then you just get half of
it. I supposed to be ready to hot
and ready and just give it all I've been backed up.
You supposed to get that type ofenergy.
Same thing if somebody's masturbating and you always have
to look at the porno. That's the porno situation is
hand in hand with the masturbation.
I don't think you need to be watching pornos on wanting the

(42:08):
marriage either. I think that takes away because
it always heightens up your needor want for how sex should be.
So now I'm in competition with an actress or actor and that's
that's not real. I can see that they're faking
it. They're they're fake.
They they don't like cut 8 and they looking like they've been

(42:29):
in it and Oh yeah, that's how it's supposed to be.
Why don't my bitch do that? You're comparing a bitch to an
actress. This is not.
That's crazy. That's definitely not realistic.
That's not realistic at all. It's not realistic.
So. Now it just messes up the whole
sexual dynamic with you and yourpartner.
So that's why I'm like it all need to get out.
But see it all out. Let me tell you why a man will

(42:52):
masturbate in a relationship sometimes.
We don't want to have to go through the all the extra hoopla
of like quickie, I don't know everybody else's quickies.
I don't, I don't fucking know what a quickie is, Alright.
My quickie is probably like 15. I think we did have a quickie
that was kind of under 10. Well, I usually like 15 bro.

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Like I yo, shut up, whatever genetics I got going on, shout
out that little fuck nigga, whatever he did, but I do not
bust quick bro. So like the quickie route that
you're saying Like I don't know,what's the average quickie in
your experience? 5 minutes?
5? Hell no. 5 minutes.
What is going on in 5 minutes tomake a nigga bust that?
Damn quick if you in it and you got to go to work or you got

(43:37):
things to do you want make. Sure, I'm calling out nigga like
I don't the fuck. Well, everybody got to go to
work. Some people need to quit.
So, people. Need to quit?
True, We still don't. We still don't get paid right.
Get this out. Let me get this out real quick
so I don't go in this job and try to kill everybody and then
I'm gonna do the things I need to do.
Like that's what a Jackal out ofthe.
Now, all right, now this is TMI.Your jackals is not 15 minutes.

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Hell no. Oh how long is jackals is like
less than 5. Yes, definitely.
But you're watching pornos. Yeah.
Just doing that awful imagination.
What the? Fuck doing that shit off
imagination yo I. Used to do that awful
imagination. On your own.
Oh, you got a wild imagination, yo.
Like imagination of what you've done.

(44:23):
Yeah, like throwbacks. Just like everything in the You
got a Rolodex you. Know damn nigger.
Sorry and also I wanted to stop watching porno so I got myself
into that habit of using what I.Imagination is going through
that. Damn.
So wait. OK OK wait so if you got videos
and pics from niggas, does that does that count as pornos or

(44:43):
not? Yes, yes, these are people you
know. But you need something to get
off. You could yo just touching
yourself. Don't feel bad, but porno.
But think about it. You said porn is like an
unrealistic, you know, whatever,but if it's a person, you know,
it's like OK, let's say you had your own sex tape, right nigga,
this is you and the person. This is not a a.

(45:04):
Fake. Now I'm taking that image with
my husband in the bedroom I'm thinking about.
Another, Oh my God, why you had to know this?
Oh shit, yeah, that's nasty word.
That's why nasty word. But you know, hey, it's so
fucked up, bitches. I think, 'cause I didn't have a
girl say that. Oh my God, I'd be fired if I

(45:27):
said that nigga name. But a girl definitely said that
one time. She was just like, I had sex
with this person, almost said his name.
I had this person sex with this person last night and I had to
think about you to bust. Oh Nah, just leave the man, hey?
If I if I'm lying, I'm flying. Hey, one thing I don't do, I

(45:49):
will not lie on hill. Oh, that's horrible.
Hey, Nah, that's that's the hey man, that's bad.
Some people like the aesthetics.Another woman they work
together. They they, they do their thing
together. Like aesthetically, he fits her
moles. That's.
The person that's a whole, that's a whole, another topic.

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Some people try to, you know, create this cookie cutter of
what they think they should. You know what I'm saying?
Like, it's cool to a certain extent, right?
Yeah, to a certain extent. But are you living for yourself?
For the image? Period.
You just said it. Period.
Period. Like you just you just not
you're not even into the person.You got to think of somebody
else in the bed, right? Your most intimate time.

(46:31):
What as well, No. Yeah, Insane.
Insane. No, absolutely not.
So we go go hold on. What was the last thing I was
about to say? OK, OK, OK, OK, alright, so we
go ahead with the freaky shit that we all move into some other
shit. I know that the correlation of
the Alright, so because I remember they they started

(46:52):
talking about these things, right, like, oh, talking,
talking your partner through right.
I don't know if you've seen the trend on TikTok when girls were
going crazy. They had me right?
They was going crazy bro. I didn't.
Want my algorithm? To fuck, I weren't going crazy.
Imagine your phone just playing by yourself and going to one of
those videos. Oh shit.
Ain't no joke. But yeah man, no joke.

(47:14):
I want to try to see if I can find one of those videos bro.
That shit and these girls over here really talking what they
the girls are trash. I know I haven't seen a fire
chick. Do no I.
Said no. I haven't seen a fire chick
really do a good talk like the dudes killing.
It So what's your shit? The girls shit.
What's your go to? I'm gonna fuck your game.

(47:36):
All right, now, what's your go to?
My go to I need a deeper. New York accent.
But like, Oh my God, like, Oh my, it's so much like, I like to

(47:57):
say things to not to get a person mad, but to get them.
Yeah, just to make you want to do more like, oh, you, you, you
playing with me. Like, yeah.
And then to keep it going. Like, that's my thing.
It could be a little toxic even though like he could.
Be a little that's a lot of toxic.
That's a lot of toxic. That's kind of like like when a

(48:17):
girl say oh, why you fucking me like this?
Some shit like that, right, Thattoxic.
I hear that shit. It's a mind game.
It's a mind. Game, thanks for the motivation.
OK, I almost caught a crap, but I'm good.
I'm here. I'm delivered.
I. Delivered shit man, that's a
fact. That's definitely probably like

(48:38):
a my game thing. What about you, I?
Don't even know because bro I'llbe, I'll be focused.
I'll be focused. I think I just go off the energy
of the situation to be honest. Like I definitely remember one
time I only got caught with a girl and like well if I was like
knocking on on the on the door or whatever and I was just like
bro don't worry about them bro. Focus on this Dick type shit

(49:00):
bro. You what?
Went crazy. Nah, that's like crazy that
shit. Wow, how did you not get
distracted in that even somebodywas like looking at y'all.
Yes, I definitely remember that shit, bro, when the shit lit, I
ain't gonna lie. When you got what?
What Like when the combination of like the pussy is good, the

(49:24):
what's the word, the sexual energy is there as well.
Like bro, it ain't too many things that's not distracting
and it ain't too many places that you're going to be like,
no, I'm not going to do it. Yeah, that's like a motherfucker
tell you like, hey, pull over right now on the side of this
road. If the motherfucker got it like
that, you finna do it. It's.
Just that's right. We'll definitely get in the
backseat with a motherfucker in 2.5 seconds.
Yeah, it's a whole entire fat whole entire.

(49:48):
Fat burns on knees and everything bro fuck it.
That's a fact. That is a fact.
Nah, that's tic tac trend. They they talking.
Yeah. Talking, talking.
I'm trying to see if I go, let'ssee, I'm going to have some good
ones. I'm like damn bro me never said
that to me. Now they don't fuck the game up
because niggas going to steal that shit.

(50:08):
Bro, these girls, these girls isreal slick with it.
I ain't I ain't seen none of theniggas shit.
Obviously my algorithm is not for that.
Yeah, Nah, the niggas is. The niggas is wowing, wowing.
I'll be like, oh God, I got to. Which one you heard from?
Which one you heard that you could remember?

(50:29):
What was 1? I could pull out some Wesley
Pipes. Wesley Pipes was a wild boy.
Wesley Pipe, you know what? I think it was the lip that he
used to do with the little gold Tifa show.
Yeah, why? Hey man, shout out to Wesley
Pipes, man. God damn, Wesley Pipes.
They got shot out of Leslie Pies, bro.

(50:51):
Yeah, but that's a crazy placement.
Yeah. I don't know why that niggas be
like, why you coming? Better ask me to come on this
Dick better ask for permission. What the fuck you going?
Oh come here. Hey, that nigga he had it low
key. If I do talk shit, I'll probably

(51:12):
talk shit off the Hennessy like me sober like I'll be in my head
drunk me. Oh yeah, we popping shit, in
which case I cannot remember what the fuck I'm saying.
So that's. A fact because everything.
'S the drunk shit I channel my inner Wesley pipes without a
doubt. Without a doubt Wesley pipes
off. That's my spirit animal that
nigga. 2 funny porns bro. That nigga.
I wonder where the hell he had now.
Oh, I think he had like a health.

(51:33):
Scare old though. No, he ain't old, but he's
visibly older. Yeah. 60s maybe.
I wouldn't say that. Probably fifties, 50s.
These niggas was young back then, bro.
They just went through a lot, bro.
They don't. They're not aging like us.
Like us. We like, OK.
Them niggas look 40 at 21. What the fuck is going on out

(51:55):
here, though? They definitely did.
They definitely did. That's a whole entire fact.
That was my God, that was him. Cherokee, man, there was so many
of them. Lex.
Lex what? Was that one?
Get me started. Oh.
No, my favorite. I like, I like the ratchet.
I always liked me some ghetto shit.
It was beauty. Dior bro Little chocolate.

(52:17):
I've seen maybe one or two the little she's petite right?
I'm not petite but she slipped. But she had a nice ass though.
Ass Dickie's ass. Yeah, I always like natural
women, bro. Like I, I realized that looking
back at like certain girls that I liked in like high school,
middle school and shit like that, I'm like, I always kind of
had a thing for a certain type of girl and I always like

(52:38):
natural. Like I used to watch some
pornos. I want to see the titties moving
around. Like I don't want to see this
big fake. Like motherfucker got half a
basketball cut and they put it on their chest.
Like I don't want that. Like why is it not moving?
Yeah, that shit is nasty. Well, that's, well, that's our
age though. It was BBL wasn't the thing.

(52:59):
You know, we had Maya and Aaliyah.
We had, you know, like it's natural, just regular, just.
Regular. Beautiful.
Women no our two hour makeup setsessions and all this sticking
the the thing on the forehead none of.
That say Lavi, but alright, so now we we dive into a different

(53:21):
realm for the episode. So I watch a YouTube shout to
YouTube out real quick. What's the?
What's the actual name of it? Big body butter, that episode is
called Tears of Joy. Tears of joy.
Yeah, so I was watching that oneand I was like, damn, OK, OK.
And like, I could tell. See, I can deal with people
crying like that on camera, but I hate the motherfuckers that

(53:44):
will be crying. Then they take the time to pull
out their phone and then start recording.
Yo. Yo like what are you?
Waiting for the water. But like with yours, it was
genuine. Like you could tell like bro it
just hit you and you just like damn right.
I don't know if you want to go into detail about what you were

(54:05):
talking about. It's a YouTube video anyways,
it's outside, right? So you were talking about like,
you know, the, the sexual side of, of living basically was just
like, I don't know, just go explain a little bit more
because then I'll tell you what I was thinking at that point
when I seen it. So for me, slow, it's long, but
make it short. So for me, my I've been

(54:25):
struggling with this sex porno. That's why I'm very big on the
mass station and the porno. No, no, I've been struggling
with that since maybe 8. So for me, I started watching
pornos at 8. I started getting sexy active
probably like early teens, maybelike 14.
So I've been in this thing for along time.

(54:48):
So me finally being able to be like, you know what?
I'm done and God coming to me atI used to always say guys
working on me, guys working on me, guys work.
Because I always, yeah, you saidthat on that.
One, I say that all the time, but then I was like, you know
what, You got to stop with it. Like just let go.
So I finally let go, literally let go like and surrendered last

(55:09):
year. So now when I'm being tempted.
It. This shit be.
Yeah, I'm having flashbacks today, I remember exactly.
That shit be hard because first you got not only is you you're
fighting yourself because of course we horny like we're born

(55:29):
into sin. It's our flesh.
We're going to want everything that we don't supposed to have.
We're designed to be like that. I've.
Been I've been so craving cake all day.
We want to talk about that bloodwork shit too, but go ahead,
sorry. Oh.
Shit. Oh shit.
Well, yeah, so you got to fight yourself and then the enemy he

(55:51):
going to try you because literally I gave I surrendered
January in January 2024. By the time I'm no February,
February 2024, by the time Marchcame around, I'm getting
flights. Yo, let me fly you out to Vegas.
Let me yo, let me come out to see you in San Francisco.
I go to Chicago solo, Dola. I always go on vacation by

(56:13):
myself. I go to the bar.
Here comes some 65. 65 nigga 6/5and.
You chocolate, I said. Oh no, I'm not a mother wearing
their heels with that. Nigga, I'm like, Oh my God, no
way. This is not happening.
So he comes they that's he meetsme on day one.

(56:35):
So the whole Chicago trip, I'm over here chilling with him.
We didn't do nothing, but I'm over here and I'm thinking in my
head, like your pitch, bring that nigga upstairs.
Yeah. Bring him upstairs.
You got the suite and they got the you can do some shit in the
hot tub. I'm thinking wow.
Yeah, I need your plug in your hotel because yo the hotels
you'd be selecting bro. Can you take that chef's kiss?

(56:58):
Chef's kiss? Go ahead, continue.
I'll be I'll be trying to get the Hilton and Marriott points,
but they they hotels be trashed unless you're out the country.
Depends on where. Depends on where to Chicago.
That was a fire. OK, see like was it newly
renovated? Don't mean to cut you off, isn't
it? Newly renovated?
I don't know, I'll have a look into that.

(57:19):
You got to be the new one because a lot of these should be
over. Go ahead, keep going. 65 You
fight your temptation. Oh yeah, you fight your
temptation, 65. I didn't fuck up, but I did
bring them upstairs. I didn't bring.
Must say the last night I was like yo you can't unbutton the
pants bro if you pop the pants. Open.
Wait, you told him that? Yeah.
Oh, you say that shit to a nigger like me?

(57:40):
Oh word, you don't want me to unbutton?
This one he tried to, but then the way the pants they was like
some fit. There's some he's like yo you
lucky got these type of pants. I would be nice.
I would respect it. Well either way, that wound up
being good. He wound up flying to San
Francisco 2 weeks later after I left Chicago.
So I'm like, yo. What like to see you or it was

(58:03):
just random see. Me.
OK, butter. Oh yeah, butter.
Yo, it was wow. I'm like, oh God, I said, wait,
how many days you want that? He said, I just want to stay the
weekend with you. I just got to see you.
That's, you know, those four days in Chicago wasn't enough.
I'm like, fuck, what the fuck amI going to do?
I'm not going to stay in the hotel with you.

(58:26):
You sound like a little kid thatscared his shit bro.
Like I got to go outside, I got to go outside.
I was so. Scared mind you owe me what fish
would have had kids in the door with a church coat and nothing
on. But either way so I'm like fuck.
So I'm like we going to do this?I spent the night with that man
for three days straight and did not touch that man.
Then we even took a shower together.

(58:46):
OK. Oh, hold on, hold on.
Nudity, Nudity. There's no heavy petting going
on, none of that. Nothing bro, no nothing.
I swear to God, I was like, yo-yo, I'm going to tell you I

(59:09):
was tried. If I also did that to myself,
because I did learn from there, I would never do that to myself
ever again because that was so hard.
Oh, that. OK.
I'm like what you mean I would? Never spend a night when a man.
Bro that's crazy nigga. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
But we have we have on and off air conversations so I'm like 3

(59:32):
nights and a shower. And a shower.
Bro Yeah, that's yeah. Willpower was there.
Congratulations girl, you did. It was only God because it
wasn't me. It wasn't me.
So that's why I'd be crying in my YouTube because a bitches.
Really. Came across?
Yeah, it came across. Yeah, it came across, it hit me

(59:54):
like, no, this should be hard because I wanted to crack.
I wanted to do some things, yo. So literally the whole 2024 was
that. So literally just trying to be
obedient and just. Walking and letting go, one of
my biggest things, which was sexual sin and just trying to
just be on this, on this route, it's not easy.
It's never going to be easy to be 10 years in the game.

(01:00:15):
You could be accident for 10 years and it could be that one
person and it can go and some people.
You got to know your kryptonite.You got to know your kryptonite.
You can't be around certain people like that.
So you got to be smart with yoursituation while you also being
obedient. So yeah.
Kryptonite, Dude, you know I used to have a kryptonite.
That motherfucking daddy gone. Hell no, I'm good on that.

(01:00:38):
They make it so easy to get overthem when they just be dumb, you
know what I'm saying? Just.
Dumb, you know, but when when the Kryptonites are like
understanding and shit like that, where they like, you know
what I'm saying that that hit a little different, but that's the
fact, you know, I definitely respect it.
When I seen the YouTube video, Iwas like, wow, OK, I didn't know
that you were, you know, you know what I'm saying?
Like you don't know, like we hit, we hit each other up

(01:00:59):
randomly in the group chat. I might hit it up and just hit
everybody up like, hey, what's going on?
Everybody cool just down the third, but like that one in
depth. Well, I had that motherfucker on
the big screen. I was just like, oh shit.
Like damn, I didn't know you know what I'm saying?
But yeah, 'cause you know, you, you're good morning everybody.
You know what I'm saying? That's you.
You come on with energy. You feel me?

(01:01:21):
So like to see you vulnerable inthat moment I was just like
damn, I wish I could hug but it real quick like I like you need
a hug. Right, yeah, it should be.
And also I didn't want to be tooopen with it because I felt like
it's not a trend, but I know Godis working outside, but also it
feels like a lot of people usingchurch, a Christian as a money

(01:01:41):
grab right now. I don't know what's going on.
So I like, I don't want to promote it like that.
Like this is something personal between me and Big G And then
once I do my whole one year, then I start being more vocal
about it. So once I hit my one year mark,
that's when I was like, all right, let me go on YouTube with
it and stuff like that. But yeah, Big Model was going
through it and I'm still going through it to this day.
What her day? OK, so this.

(01:02:03):
Forever Yeah, shut up, because Ithink I hit up I hit up the
homie Martin when I seen the video, I was like you watch the
YouTube whatever and he was likeyeah, bro, that was she was
crazy. I was like, yeah, that should
why why? I didn't even know, but when I
seen it I don't one thing I thought about too right and
might be a little you know no, I'm hoping to right.

(01:02:25):
OK, so when I was watching it right I was just thinking like
'cause you said you know you will cover up.
I guess the attention that you got sexually was it like AI
forgot? I I wish I watched it before so
I can remember, but like the attention, the male attention
boom that's what it was yes right, yes.
So didn't have me thinking right.

(01:02:46):
Your father, you know. My which one?
Your father. Oh and I I thought that too.
So that's why I was a therapy. Yeah, that's what I was thinking
when I say I was like Daddy. Issues that's.
Probably what it is. I got daddy issues too so I'm
like oh shit I got daddy issues but it wasn't because maybe

(01:03:07):
because my relationship with my dad is so healthy.
It was like. How old were you though?
I was 17. OK, OK.
So it wasn't like you were like 8 or something like that, right?
OK, so he left foot with something.
It was something. It was more of a validation type
of situation. I need that, Val, because you're
just not, you know, the chubby girl and all that stuff.
I was just about to say. That the big, big feet, big

(01:03:29):
head, toe, everybody worried about her.
So I was, I was a pick me. I always been a pick me.
So I suffered through that a lot.
You know, and, and sometimes I see that with, with girls, like
cuz I only know this version of butter, right?
I don't know the old version of you, right, right.
I only know the, the, the low hair, the short hair, blonde
butter. I like, wait a minute.
Does she fuck with niggers or she fuck bitches?

(01:03:52):
Like, Oh, I don't know, it kind of scares me, but it intrigues
me at the same time, right. I just remember when we met each
other, we were just like, Oh, you from this Oh, y'all from we
both were trying to get the fuckup out of the cat.
That was like the man conversation, right?
Oh, so I only know this version of you, right, But I can
understand where you're like, OK, you are used to this version

(01:04:14):
of you. So you dealt with things
accordingly because it was just like even the sexual side,
right? You like OK, so this nigga want
to deal with me. So you might feel like OK,
sexually, I got to keep him around.
So I got to do these things and I got to be great at these
things type of deal, right? That's just what I got from the
the the episode itself or the the what do they call you 2?

(01:04:36):
Vogs episode Vogs is the same. Thing, OK, I ain't a little
nervous. I feel old right now, but same
thing. Yeah, 'cause even 'cause that's
not a great correlation, but like, sexually, right?
For me, back in the day, I just felt like I had to just be good
at it all 'cause I didn't feel like some girls might have

(01:04:59):
thought like, oh, he cute, he handsome, but I was just like,
I'm dark as fuck. I didn't feel like, And then I
also didn't think I had a, a, a good size penis.
What the fuck going on with my, I thought my penis was small
because, you know, I always usedto hear girls are liars.
Girls will lie to niggas. This, that and the third.
I always believed this. So when girls will be like, Oh
yeah, I'm like, OK, so I'm in that motherfucker trying to go

(01:05:20):
crazy, like trying to prove a point and then finally get to
the point where I'm just like, OK, all right, maybe maybe I'm
above average. You know what I'm saying, right?
People break up with me because,you know, people break up with
people. They usually be like, yo, Dick
was falling. I ain't never heard that.
No, I ain't never heard that. I think I shout out to the not
shout out to the shout out to those dumb ass girls who do that
like you was in. Love selling out bro.

(01:05:42):
It. Had a finger in your butt all
types of shit just be just giving it all up.
That's crazy. All right, so for so you went to
therapy and realized it wasn't it wasn't that as far as like
the father. So where, where where you think
it came from? Like the you say the validation
from like? Validation Fat not fat girl
syndrome, but I don't even know how to It's basically a valid.

(01:06:03):
I I have validation issues. I suffered through that pick me
situation because also at the same time, my mom, she owned the
restaurant. So when you own the restaurant,
you're doing 18 hours a day. So I don't get validation
through nobody. My dad's gone, my mom's hustling
owning a a business. So all I know is from only from

(01:06:23):
what I received, right. So and you in New York watching
porno? Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Exactly or whatever. I'm learning through it.
So then I realized like, oh, me watching porno since I was eight
kind of made me kind of good when it came into the bedroom

(01:06:43):
situation. So now I see a man do this and
he's acting like this through sex.
Oh, so now sex is my best friend, me and me and her.
Like weaponize it. Now I'm weaponizing it, and now
I feel like that's my power. That's my I know.
Yeah, that's now I call myself Miss Gettin Sprung because I get
these niggas. Sprung.

(01:07:06):
Yeah. Hey, I got a you know I should
make your freestyle to intro to the fucking podcast.
You know what, I might find it before I upload this episode.
Might put it in somewhere bro. Oh.
I hate you. I hate you for that.
I hate you for that. But yeah, I definitely get it.
And I respect where you at now for sure.

(01:07:27):
So like even now, so back then, right?
If you're in a group of girls, Idon't know, like I don't want to
assume, but like if you're in a group of girls, like guys are
probably coming at you the last or whatever, I don't know.
And now so how do you think about it mentally now?
Because now you walk into a roomand you getting the attention

(01:07:47):
now obviously because you are 6 footer, you feel me, but you
won't point with your shit. And now you got the you know,
the Pixie cut. Is this a Pixie cut?
Is that what? They call it, yeah.
I think you call it Pixie cut. You feel me?
So like when you step, you're going to step, you're going to
grab the attention. But now it's like it's a
different type of attention. It's not an attention where it's
like, oh, she's she's tall, she you know, she may be this person

(01:08:10):
or she drunk or she loud or whatever the fuck at that time,
right? But now it's a different
attention where it's kind of like niggas is coming at you
damn near want to kiss your feetbecause that one video you had
where the nigga was just ready to you foot yourself with your
faces. Nigga, where was that?
What that was where you went with was that was that was the

(01:08:30):
birthday trip for you guys. What?
You talking about the one in Oakland?
That was recent. I don't know if that was Oakland
though. You went somewhere.
With the dude trying to which way I'm kind of wise.
You was with Steph for her birthday, my daughter.
Please, she got locked. Out.
Pause. Pause.
Hold on. Let me, let me do it.
Hold on, guys. Alright.
And we're back. OK, Mommy, You good?

(01:08:51):
You good. So I was saying now with the
attention that you get now, right.
So how do you decipher or navigate the attention?
Oh, because I was saying so it was, it was Steph's birthday.
That's what it was. And you, I think you was
somebody, I don't know whatever he was saying to you.
Oh yeah. Yeah, oh, yeah, yeah, that guy,

(01:09:15):
that guy, it's most crazy. And I had to go back to therapy
for that because I realize now Ihave a problem of receiving
because I realized because I usesex as my power so much to get
and do. And I'm more of a giver that now
when I get compliments or when people try to do things for me,
I push it away. And now I don't even when I go

(01:09:37):
in the room or guys are looking,I'm like, he's not serious.
He just want to fuck. And it's like, no, he probably
actually you don't even know that though, because you ain't
never been on that side. Now you on this side of town.
Now you got to learn things completely different.
So that's the interesting part. That's what I'm realizing.
That's why I started realizing last year.
So it's definitely it's, it's definitely different.

(01:09:59):
But then you get some of the dummies like that.
You could just see he just want to like clearly at the bar, Wow
told the way. Oh come on.
Oh RIP, oh RIP. I'm.
Confused. 35 years on this earth, man, I don't think I've
ever just walked up and said like, yeah, let's just jump

(01:10:20):
straight to it. Not even what you drinking, you
know, saying what's your name, where you from?
I'm like, Oh yeah, this is a both.
I'm I'm not even interesting. Where y'all was at though?
What state was that? It was.
That was DC. DC OK.
So that's her hometown. So she was.
Well, DMVI didn't know that all that shit is linked together
like that. She has a DMV.

(01:10:40):
I'm definitely not dullest now. I ain't even gonna hold.
Her where Virginia. Where else is with that?
Because she from Virginia. Virginia, so that would be
Dulles, but I didn't know that shit.
It's 20 minutes from every 20 minutes from DC, 20 minutes from
Maryland. It's like boroughs to them.
So I like oh that's fire. Got like 3 States and 1:00 in.
Washington Hood low key shit. That's crazy.

(01:11:01):
The White House in the middle ofthe hood.
Wow. Super wow.
It'd be like that. Super wow, but definitely a
dope. Wow.
Yeah, definitely a dope. So now it's just like, I guess
looking at the attention of different and trying to decipher
it now, because now you're looking at it with a different
lens from the therapy basically,right?
Like he probably not just want to fuck.
What if he actually likes you stupid?

(01:11:22):
Like, oh, maybe he do. But then, OK, so you feel like
that, you feel like that from what you know, therapy is saying
like OK, the sexual side, but doyou feel like your past
relationship, do you think that still has an effect on you to
where you kind of like, because that shit was like a curveball
because y'all niggas was hot. Y'all talking about hot and

(01:11:43):
ready, Y'all niggas was hot and ready.
And then to to how it went was like a curveball.
Do you think that's like in the back of your head when when it
comes to niggas approaching you?It might, no.
No. I don't, I don't think.
But you know what's crazy? I only had two relationships, so
I don't even have that much experience.
I got a crazy one with a strain on it and then I have one who

(01:12:05):
goes to me. So it's like I have nothing like
shut up, whoever, whoever my king is coming.
Oh, bear with me because I'm going to be learning at the same
time. Like I've been getting all these
tools but I don't even know how to use them or anything because
I have nothing. I really have nothing.

(01:12:26):
Your next chapter? Oh no, you said they have a
bunch of midgets out there. Hell it it gives that.
I could be wrong, I could be wrong, but.
I don't even know it gives what those people look like because I
just thought it was all the sameto be honest.
I thought I thought the same too, but shit, it's completely
different. Completely different.

(01:12:47):
But you don't know where where your next stop will be.
Like what you thinking right now?
If I could choose dream locationit would be Dallas, Dallas and
maybe Philly. No I'm sorry.
Florida, Fort Lauderdale. OK, Fort Lauderdale, Dallas and
Dallas and Philly would be 4. Philly, Philly it's Granted, I

(01:13:13):
know it's a little every season one way, but Philly's high.
I. Just want a cheese steak.
That's all I want. I just want a cheese steak and
call it a day. Yeah, I can do Philly, but
Dulles kind of took the Philly away because I realized I could
still go to New York when I wentto visit, right?
That's what, 223 hour drive? That's where I'll be out
mentally. Like I'm like, do I want to be

(01:13:34):
back in Florida? Do I want to be far enough where
you got to call me when you say you want to come over?
Or do I want to be close enough where I can just drive and drop
the kids off? Because my biggest motivation
right now is the kids and dropping them off like.
Hey, you need a village Yeah, you need the village when you
when mommy and daddy need a timey'all need to know we able to do
what I need to. Do I'm reminiscing on our old

(01:13:54):
shit Like I'm just like damn we can't.
We don't even live like this normal like the honeymoon.
She was a whole stripper got ones throwing ones and all this
shit. I'm like this seems so long ago
like how is the key this time? Bro?
She she was getting her nails done with the baby earlier and
like the girl didn't Diarita on herself diarrhea.

(01:14:16):
It didn't go nowhere, but it waslike she's like there's a
speckled doodle on her shirt. I'm like, what the fuck?
How did that happen? It's not it's not on her hand.
I'm like, is it on her hand? She's like, no, nothing on her
hand. So I'm like, how the fuck did a
speckled Doo Doo get out onto your shirt?
Breath like this is what we're. Just touching it, then to touch

(01:14:36):
the shirt. Yeah, it can be so many ways,
you know, it came different. It's.
Different. Oh, that is the cutest.
But go ahead too though, you said what?
The next one coming up. Yeah man, as long as the baby
healthy uncle or whatever, we already got the name going.
We thinking about the middle name.

(01:14:56):
Okay, we don't know yet, but so okay.
So you've been doing your journey for a little over a year
now, right? Because you said February 2024.
Yeah, I'll be here with or what journey like a love journey or?
Surrendering, surrendering, surrendering well, self love.
You've been doing yourself love.Thankful.
Yeah, self love in a minute. Yeah, self love in a minute.

(01:15:16):
But surrendering. Do you feel like it's getting a
little easier now? It is, but it's Are you hiding?
Because is it getting easier or are you hiding from the things?
You know what I'm saying? Because that's the thing as
well. I'm hiding.
I ain't no lie. Because every time I go outside,

(01:15:36):
I'd be like, damn, This is why you stay inside.
This is exactly why you stay inside.
But I, I'm, I know I'm going to have to test myself, especially
like people, you know, I might not need to be around my
reminisce. I don't know how I'm going to
move. I'm not going to slip up.
Am I not going to slip up? Are you that strong?
Do you think you got it? Are you just good only because

(01:15:57):
you by yourself? Like I think about all of that.
Damn, but and boom, like what ifyou do slip up right?
Do you slip up in in the middle of fucking start crying or do
you slip up and be like, I'm going to go crazy because I've
been pissed off Like you know what I'm saying?
Like that's a 5050 right there bro.
That's a 5050 because I don't know which way is going to go.

(01:16:18):
Nigga, you can go like, you can go for like that.
Shit ain't funny man, but it's funny.
Damn yo that would be crazy as hell.
God, that would be so. Like bro, that nigga would just

(01:16:38):
be looking like is this part of is?
This is this part of what we're supposed to do.
That's why I don't put myself inthose.
Situations. I don't even want to find out.
Like I don't go inside how? I'm not going inside no man's
apartment. I'm not going nowhere.
You. Strong for that shower dog, that
shower shit you. Strong as a I'm.
Stupid. I'm trying to think like.

(01:17:01):
Because I that I should have cracked.
I don't know how that that's whyI was saying it wasn't me.
Because if it was me, I shouldn't.
Oh yeah, that's what I want to ask.
Like there wasn't no heavy petting?
Did I ask it already? What it wasn't like?
Like petting going on, Like touching nothing.
Touching, kissing, everything. It didn't.
Crack. He did Yo my one of my

(01:17:21):
weaknesses is grabbing my neck right this nigga.
He's a six. Look at Google your face I swear
to God. Finally got a flashback.
It was Loki angry in the. Shower the steam.
He grabbed my neck and I'm a kisser so he's like when I say I

(01:17:41):
was going to say fuck I like yo-yo we got to go.
Let me get out the shower, nigga.
Oh shit. You got to be crying though.
Yeah, yeah, I've. Never.
I guess. I think God wanted me to go
through that so I can see how. Don't do it again.

(01:18:02):
Don't. You ever do that stupid shit
again? Why would you do that?
So yeah, I'll never do that to myself.
Ever. Again, have I ever been like
naked and it didn't happen? But I've been naked before and
it didn't happen before. But if I'm me as a man, if I'm
getting butt naked, nigga, God damn, I'm trying to do

(01:18:22):
something. And I know he was trying to do
something. Yeah, shit.
Wait, not like that. That sounds crazy.
God damn. No rape.
No rape. He did not condone rape.
No rape. No, Yeah.
No rape. No rape.
Well, that's a fact. Yeah.
I mean, it could happen. It could happen.
You could be naked with a. But nigga.

(01:18:43):
Not something. Yeah, it did not happen.
I'm feeling like something possibly happened.
I think I got head before and the girl didn't let me.
Fuck that was Krypton. I actually.
Fucking damn how you get head and not let you fuck.
Nigga, they don't like where yougoing.
No, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait,
wait, wait. What you doing?

(01:19:04):
What you doing? You can't just do that and not
give me the pussy and I was warmup.
Nigga you can give me the appetizer, not the fucking like
the meal. Like what's the full?
Course bro, that's why. I think that's probably.
A woman do something like that 'cause like she wants you to,
Yeah, like fee for it. Like, yeah, I'm gonna leave you
with that and let you like let you simmer on that type of shit.

(01:19:24):
I'm not not leaving. Nah and Nah.
We not my wild day. You leave me like that nigga
man, that's why it's so low key.I was driving through Orlando
right and I'm thinking like bro,I don't think I really want to
move back to Orlando because when I was driving so I had to
fly out of Orlando because it was way cheaper coming back to
Canada. So I had when I was going to my

(01:19:48):
homeboys crib and I'm just driving around.
I'm just like you know, you get the memories.
I'm pretty sure it's like that for you in New York, right?
So it's certain areas you just like memories, like oh man, some
good memories, dog. And then it's like where I'm at
now, I'm just like. I don't outgrew this, you know
what I'm saying? Like damn, people still here?
It's like what? Don't.

(01:20:09):
Same thing, you know what I'm saying?
Like the the so I had did that voting thing for like, you know,
if you could choose somewhere tolive, Texas or Florida, you
know, everybody was choosing Florida.
But like a lot of the people I've seen choose in Florida, I
know for a fact they haven't lived anywhere else outside of
Florida, right. So it's like, damn, can you
really, you know, you coming from a bias standpoint, but I'm
just like, oh man, man, Orlando,I had a great time.

(01:20:32):
I did east side to the West side.
I had a great time. Was you in Orlando your whole
life? You born and raised in Orlando.
No, no, I was born in Jersey. Come on man.
Oh, I'm sorry. Come on.
Man, but now I was raised in Orlando.
I don't even claim Jersey. No, because I've been in Orlando
so long, bro. It's like, yeah, I was.
I'm from Orlando. I was born in Jersey and I will
always say I was born in Jersey because I do not have the
Orlando swag at the fuck off. I don't move like an Orlando

(01:20:56):
nigga. I don't be in my feelings like
an Orlando nigga. None of that.
None of that. So I always put that disclaimer.
Born here, raised here, but raised there.
So I know the nonsense. But yeah, yeah.
It was just, you know, you livedthe time and and I always used
to say, like, I would never wantto deal with a girl that wasn't

(01:21:17):
experienced. Not saying she need to be
promiscuous and nothing like that, but just, you know, come
to me knowing you want to be here.
Like I don't need you to be like.
I wonder how it is to be outsidenow.
I want you to be outside and be like you.
I don't want to be outside anymore.
I want to be inside, you know like.
That's a fact. So and do all of that.

(01:21:38):
Yeah, so for me, you know, wifeybe like, oh, why?
You don't what you want me to do.
You want me to Make Love to you?You want me to fuck you like a
slut. I've been fucking motherfuckers
like sluts for a long time. Goddamnit.
I'm tired. But sometimes you got to throw
in a little. Yeah, for show girls, we need a
little hoe. I know I I hey, listen.
Like a little hoe hoe. I remember the day that that

(01:21:59):
penis did not pull out of that vagina for this this second baby
coming. I specific.
I definitely remember like the motherfuckers hitting a little
and we was definitely you know, I was in my toxic bag that day
for sure. I remember but and boom, yeah,
but I think I think for you, youknow, everything happens for a
reason. I feel like granted you, you
know, it brought you to tears thinking about your past and you

(01:22:20):
know, things that stand the third.
But I feel like it shaped you tobe a better version of yourself
because you push yourself like no other I've seen you feel me
like that jump rope and shit. Fuck that jump rope and shit.
That jumper was shit. Nigga.
I will jump rope. I'll be fake jump rope.
I only use the jump rope. I'll be like, all right, I'm
doing the the movements. You know what I'm saying?

(01:22:42):
Because you fuck around and get tired and hit yourself in the
back of the head, man God, you know, or the shins.
Like Nah, but I think I think all the experiences, good, bad,
ugly, whatever, like it's all something that will shape you
for the person that that you would end up with, right?
Because for me, everything I went through good, bad, ugly,

(01:23:03):
being a whore, not you know, they even at the the the so for
you, right, you feel like you a sexual person, right?
I'm a sexual person, but in the forefront is love like you
because you feel me like you want to take care of your man.
I always wanted to take care of my woman.

(01:23:23):
Like I might be a freaky ass whore nigga, but whatever.
But I know in the back of my head I'm just like, Nah, like I
know what I'm supposed to do as a man.
You gonna feel me? Absolutely.
And like absolutely. You're one up on a million girls
so on a million cuz you know howto keep that nigga in the
bedroom and you also ought to know how to keep that nigga full

(01:23:44):
and all these other things and be you know, gentle and sensual
and you know what I'm saying? Like these all things necessary
man. Your time coming bro.
That's all I wanted to say. Thank you, thank you, thank you
so much. But what if I lose it?
Lose what can you lose? Get the fuck out of here nigga.
Get the. Fuck out of here bro.
That's a fact. If you don't use it, you lose
it. If you don't use it, you lose

(01:24:06):
it. It's a fact.
No, that's a motherfucker. No, that's like riding a bike.
OK, like riding a bike, hopefully.
And then the working out. I'll be working out.
I'll be like the image in my head is like grabbing my back.
You know what I'm saying? Like that'd be my image.
Like wifey just grabbing my back.
That's when I'm OK. One more gotta Today was a

(01:24:28):
great, great chest day. Great chest day.
Chest day had an ongoing shoulder.
You know, it was a great workoutday.
I've been trying to, oh, this iswhat I wanted to say too, the
blood work. Because you would, you've been,
you know, pushing that, getting tested and stuff like that.
You know, a lot of shit was happening with work.
I'm not going to say what I wantto say because I don't know who
would end up listening. But right, I did end up going to
the doctor and, you know, doing the blood work.

(01:24:49):
You know, I chose this lady to be my physician because I'm
going to be there for three months.
So, you know, they do the blood work and stuff like that.
You know, Dick clean is a whistle.
Beautiful thing. Amen.
But bro, I came back and they sent me like a, you know, a
message thing or whatever and they're like, Oh no, they sent a
voicemail and I was reading the voicemail and it was like, oh,

(01:25:09):
pre diabetic they got to say. Like whoa me nigga.
What the fuck me, I've been in my workout bag.
Granted I have not been on the cardio side because like, OK I
don't like treadmills, I'd rather run outside, but this
fucking -20 shit. The last time I tried to run

(01:25:31):
outside I sat in front of this fireplace for like 30 to 40
minutes before I felt my fingersagain.
And I'm not exaggerating. Do you hear that line?
I sat in front of the fireplace.Let's get into that right here.
Shout out to the fans. I ain't paying a guy.
They'll sit on this. Bitch, yeah, that's different.

(01:25:54):
Right outside, yeah. And that type of weather, No,
not happening. But.
Like pre pre. Diabetic only do the treadmill,
though you could do any. No, you know, you know what work
I do, but you know, I work out like at work.
So I'm like, I don't be wanting to get sweat 'cause I haven't
gotten a membership, 'cause I'm like when I get in this house,
I'm not, I'm not leaving until it warms up.

(01:26:15):
I'm not leaving this house, so Iwork out at the gym.
So I usually get to work and then go.
And I don't even change clothes I like, I'll just take my, you
know, the uniform shirt and justhave the undershirt on.
Go work out. So I'm not trying to get like
super sweaty. Like I'll do what I have to do
and this that, but you know, cardio gonna make you sweat.
Squats. That's going to make me sweat

(01:26:35):
like a motherfucker every time. Nigga, I'll be oh shit.
But no, the one, the one with the dumbbell.
I don't mind squats though. I when I was on the island, I
was doing squats like every day before work.
I didn't matter what body part Iwas working out.
I was doing squats because like my knee was starting to hurt.
But once I was doing that, it was good.
I need to go back to that. Actually, you know what?

(01:26:56):
I'm glad I said that out loud. I'm going to go back to that.
But anyway, the one with the dumbbell, I don't know what it's
called when you like it's like asnatch.
Yes, that was a good one. I always use that one as like a
cardio substitute because I definitely be breathing that's.
The fact it's about the heart rate, there's a lot of things
that could be cardio. Low key, you don't even know

(01:27:16):
that it's cardio, but the heart rate is getting into that fat
burning zone, which is usually, if you take your age from 180,
take away, that shows like your high, your fat burning zone.
And if you can stay in that, that's your cardio.
You don't have to actually do the lip cool the Stairmaster or
whatever. Do what you like because if you
don't like it, you're not going to do it.
Period. No, that's what I always tell

(01:27:37):
people. People want to, oh, I'm going to
do the Stairmaster for 45 minutes because Kim called that.
45 is crazy. 45 is crazy. Girls is doing 45 you.
Remember when I worked out with your ass?
We did. We didn't do 45.
Hell no, we didn't do 45, nigga.That's what I'm saying.
We barely did that. We got maybe 15, maybe 10 to 15.
I don't remember what the minutes were, but nigga, I
almost died. Leaned over all on the travel.

(01:28:01):
I don't know what possessed me to be like, oh, but I'm going to
come work out with you. I don't know what the fuck whose
idea. Yours.
That's the idea. What the fuck is wrong with me,
I. Don't know.
OK, OK, I'm not gonna say. No to them, hey what?
Listen, niggas work out for likestrength and shit like that.

(01:28:21):
But the endurance side is what we got to remember dawg.
So all that oh you can lift it up heavy, but how long can you
sustain that weight? That's what we really got to
think about. That, that's a big fact.
Anyway, all right, go ahead and end this man.
I'm. Glad, glad you blessed us, man.
I hope. I hope the conversation helps
somebody, somewhere. Definitely, definitely.

(01:28:44):
We all on this journey, we all trying to do something, be some
become something. So we all gone through tribal
tribulations. It's like it's all right you.
Fail you, fail you. Do it, get up, do it all over
again. Facts, period.
Facts. I'm not mad at it, man.
But this is a time where you know have your time to shout out
whatever you need to shout out, your Instagram, your YouTube,
and it definitely will be taggedin the description of the

(01:29:06):
episode. It is big body butter on
everything on Instagram, on YouTube, on TikTok, on LinkedIn,
on Snapchat. I'm literally on everything but
big under score body under scoreBUTTA.
And we just here on the journey.I'm being transparent, being

(01:29:28):
real, being raw. I'm just trying to motivate my
girls. And don't get all confident,
explain what the hell happened at work before you leave.
But as always, man, it's your boy Cadet, the bowlegged
assassin, man, y'all be safe. Y'all be easy and stop jacking
off. Apparently, yeah.

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