In Totality with Megan Ashley

My friend, Hayley Mulenda & I sit down to unpack what God’s been teaching both of us-- discomfort is a discipline, and avoiding it might be the very thing holding us back from intimacy with him. 

Today, we live in a world where everything is designed for speed and convenience. Amazon delivers in hours, food shows up at our door, and even spirituality seems available at the click of a button, but when it co...

The past several weeks have been a lot! Multiple car accidents (yes, including a deer collision), parenting chaos and disappointments that hit me hard. I found myself frustrated, exhausted, and honestly asking God: “Why is this happening?”

But in the middle of the mess, the Lord impressed something powerful on my heart:

“I’m not trying to destroy you. I’m trying to weaken you.”

If this episode encourages you, ple...

In this episode, I sit down with Brenna Blain for one of the most honest conversations I’ve had on the podcast. We talk about what it really looks like to follow Jesus while still battling mental illness, trauma, and temptation. Brenna shares her powerful story from growing up in church as a pastor’s kid, abuse, same-sex attraction, and deep seasons of depression.

We talk about what it means to suffer well, how motherhood ...

In this continuation of last week’s episode, my mom, Ms. Yvette and I move past trials we’ve faced together and into the transformation we’ve witnessed. We talk about cultivating a lifestyle of prayer, learning to listen for God’s voice, and how true healing happens when we yield to His presence.

Tune in to hear how the Lord has taught us both to walk in humility, steward our relationship differently, and grow together in g...

In this deeply personal and long-awaited Mother’s Day episode of In Totality, I sit down with one of the most important people in my life - my mom. 

This conversation is raw, honest, and full of the kind of love only a mother and daughter can share. We open up about our journey together - how my mom came to know Jesus, how our relationship has evolved over the years, and the very real struggles we’ve faced as ...

In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m back with my dear friends, CD and Melody Fabien, for Part II of our powerful conversation on purity, obedience, and trusting God in the waiting. If Part I stirred something in your spirit, this next part goes even deeper.

We’re talking about what it really looks like to walk out a set-apart relationship—one that honors God even when it’s countercultural. From setting...

When God writes your love story, it looks different from the world’s version — and it’s worth the wait.

In today’s episode of In Totality, I sit down with two of my dear friends, a married couple whose very first kiss was at the altar on their wedding day. We talk about their individual journeys of salvation, the seasons of preparation God led them through, and the faith it took to trust Him every step of the way.

Th...

When my son was diagnosed with autism at age two—and later with Fragile X syndrome—I entered a kind of grief I wasn’t prepared for. It wasn’t loud or dramatic. It was quiet, slow, and deeply sacred. It was the grief of letting go of the life I imagined and learning to embrace the one God was writing.

In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the pain, surrender, and beauty that come with raising a child with spec...

In this episode of In Totality, I’m talking about what it means to truly live as a sacrifice for God.

As Christians, we love the idea of purpose, calling, and blessing, but what about surrender? What about the moments when obedience costs you relationships, opportunities, reputation—or comfort? Scripture tells us to offer our lives as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God… but are we reall...

In this episode of In Totality, I had the pleasure of speaking with Carl Lentz for a vulnerable, honest, and meaningful conversation about grace, redemption, and what a renewed faith looks like.

This is Carl’s first time on the podcast, and we didn’t hold back. We talked about the power of God’s correction, and the process of rebuilding faith, and what it means to live fully dependent on God — even in the private, hidden pl...

Have you ever felt on fire in your faith, only to wake up one day and feel like God is distant? I know I have. It can be confusing, discouraging, and even a little scary. But here’s what I’ve learned—these shifts aren’t random. They’re part of the faith journey.

In this episode of In Totality, I’m diving into the spiritual cycles of consolation and desolation—those seasons when God feels incredibly ...

In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m back with my good friend, Preston Morrison, host of The Leader’s Cut podcast, for Part II of our conversation on walking the narrow path as a follower of Christ. If you thought Part I was powerful, you won’t want to miss this!

We’re diving even deeper into what it means to fully live a life that reflects Christ—no matter the cost. We’ll talk about the challenges that come with obed...

In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m joined by a very special guest, host of The Leader's Cut podcast, Preston Morrison! I’m so excited for you guys to listen in as we dive into what it really means to walk the narrow path as a follower of Christ. Choosing to live for God isn’t always easy — it requires our obedience, willingness to sacrifice, and a personal commitment to knowing His Word. Together, we’ll discus...

In this episode of In Totality, I share how stepping away from podcasting exposed where my trust in the Lord actually was… and where my pride had been hiding. I had to confront the uncomfortable reality that I was leaning more on my own strength than on God’s strength.

Through fasting and prayer, seeking His face daily, and surrendering to His way, I learned that faith isn’t just believing in God—it’s trusting Him completel...

Welcome back to In Totality! Have you ever found yourself so caught up in the busyness of life that your time with the Lord becomes more about what you need from Him rather than just truly centering Him? That’s where I found myself at the end of last year, and I knew I needed to step away. In this episode, I’m sharing why I took time off from social media and the podcast, what God revealed to me through a week of prayer an...

After taking time away to rest and seek the Lord, I’m coming back with a renewed heart, deeper conviction, and fresh perspective. This season of In Totality is all about the seriousness of our relationship with God—fully surrendering, completely dependent, wholly devoted (Romans 12). It hasn’t been easy, but God has been refining me so that what I pour out is pure. I pray this season edifies you as much as it has stretched...

Join me, Megan Ashley As we gear up for a much-needed seasonal break, I wanted to leave you with something special—a Best Of episode showcasing the most impactful and encouraging moments from this season of In Totality.

This year has been nothing short of phenomenal. We've had conversations that inspired, challenged, and uplifted us, featuring guests I deeply admire, love, and pray for. I’m so grateful to every sin...

What if recharging your spirit was as simple as stepping back?

Join me, Megan Ashley As we prepare for a holiday break, I’m reflecting on the power of rest and a social media sabbatical—a step toward mental health and spiritual well-being. Through biblical teachings and Christ’s example, we explore the necessity of pause, reminding us that consistent podcasting since 2022 has only deepened my commitment to serving you. Duri...

Join me, Megan Ashley, for a closer exploration of spiritual highs and lows, inspired by transformative experiences from the Acts 2:42 Conference. Together, we’ll reflect on the joy of God’s presence, the challenges of feeling distant, and how the enemy sows doubt about His love. My hope is to offer encouragement for those facing spiritual struggles as we approach our holiday break

We’ll unpack the spiritual battle betw...