9 Lessons Learned in 2023-Dating, Diet, Self-Improvement & More

I reviewed my journal notes from 2023; these were nine of my biggest lessons from last year.

 

Sugar dating is an expensive alternative to seeing sex workers.

 

I've been seeing sex workers for 6-8 years now, and it was getting old. I met someone in 2023 and wanted to date them seriously, but they didn't in return; I took that as a challenge and looked into sugar dating. I've been doing so since October and learned a lot since then. Now, I have sugar babies and sex workers in my regular rotation. There are growing pains in maintaining this, but I do like the variety.

 

Regular dating sites are a waste of time.

 

I've used dating sites and had some success, but it took time, patience, and messaging other members before meeting someone in real life. When I started sugar dating in October, I signed up and paid a month's subscription to a regular dating site(along with a sugar dating site). Conversations would begin after messaging several people, or they would contact me, but I would eventually get ghosted. Ghosting also happens on the sugar dating sites, but there's often a new person showing interest. The regular dating site was a desert wasteland with little interaction. The results I got in the 30 days when comparing the two were eye-opening. I won't be using regular dating sites for the foreseeable future.

 

Urges for destructive behaviors come in waves; your mind is not your identity.

 

For years, I've used sex, food, and TV to cope with negative feelings and boredom. Urges arise to indulge in one of these activities; I commit, feel the instant pleasure from doing so, but feel terrible after. I thought it was hopeless to change this pattern because this was who I thought I was. Listening to the Porn Reboot podcast, I learned that my thoughts and my urges are not my identity. I programmed myself this way. Urges are waves; they crest and trough. They pass. What do I do now when those strong urges emerge?

 

Have an awareness and self-dialogue on your urges and reasons why you choose to distract yourself.

 

Another lesson from the Porn Reboot podcast; self-dialoguing when those urges come up. Have the awareness to verbalize the series of events that led to wanting to act out with this behavior(food, sex, overabundance of TV and video games). This technique has helped 'walk me off the ledge' multiple times. The hope is to build the habit of doing this process every time I want to self-medicate and sit with those negative feelings. They do pass.

 

Scheduling and following through builds confidence, self-discipline, and capital.

 

This lesson I formed from listening to Ed Mylett's and, once again, the Porn Reboot podcast. I've heard Ed Mylett talk about how doing what you say you will do builds confidence. I started making a to-do list for daily activities and tried to get as much done as possible. In turn, these actions raise my confidence and build capital. What is capital? When those urges arise, I use my to-do list, which I've completed/mostly completed, to show myself, 'Look at all these good things I've done today. Things I said I would do, and I did them.' These good things build capital to fight urges for bad behaviors. These good things include self-care, such as eating healthfully, getting to bed on time, and