BKP #353 [中] Fifi Junn, 永远能找回自己现在的状态

Fifi 来聊她从做模特到现在做户外跑步博主的过程。聊到怎么做自己，怎么保持开心的心态。顺便人家说我好看 哈哈哈哈。

Episode Transcript

(00:08):
大家好 今天来的是Fifi
Fifi很久不见
好久不见哈哈哈
刚回来对吧
刚回来多久
一周一周了
啊刚好一周
你跟大家说一下你从哪回来的
嗯大家好
我是菲菲
我刚从南非回来
然后安排了一个一个月的一半工作
然后一半玩的一个行程
嗯你现在是做什么工作的

(00:30):
可以跟大家说吗
呃我现在就是主业就是自媒体的博主
然后副业就是模特
哈哈哈
但是我可能不在国内做模特
然后可能国外有些工作的时候
有些就有些叫直接
怎么翻译呢
就是他们会个别的
有项目会直接飞舞过去嗯嗯嗯

(00:51):
lucky thank you
很好玩对吧
挺棒的哈哈哈
啊所以我认识你其实是通过Kate
然后听说你特别爱跑步特别爱运动
所以想听一下你从不从模特这个角色
然后到现在跑 50公里

(01:11):
我现在是60冲100 对冲100
疯了
我身边的朋友都还是在马拉松那边那个阶段
你已经超过
这个也不能算超过谁
就爱好不一样嘛
然后就是简单讲下
因为我之前在做模特
是像我说我在国外做模特

(01:32):
然后可能他们对这个身材的这个要求
就是可能
呃你的臀围啊什么要求比较高
我当时的想法就是
一个长距离的有氧
是比较不容易长肌肉的
嗯然后
然后你就可以维持比较小的一个维度
然后真的只是为了瘦而已
那在后面就是我人生在过

(01:54):
一段时间
我年纪更大之后
尤其后来在我决定搬回国的时候呢
我为什么后来喜欢上跑步
是因为我喜欢早上出门
因为我当时是很喜欢
我住在国外的时候
我会早上一个人
呃因为我住的地方都离山比较近啊
就是近 我会每次都去
就是离山比较近
离海比较近的地方住
哦amazing
对 非常幸运
然后所以就是我很喜欢早上出门

(02:17):
那就跑步
是一个很快去解决这一圈
看完一圈附近的东西
无论是上个差
还是说我去海边一下
呃然后就变成了一个早上出门跑步
就变成了一个一个生活习惯
嗯 然后呢
当你有的时候就是这个有生活习惯
说有时候就在忽然想说 哎
我这样做是为什么呢

(02:38):
对吧你
我是喜欢我做事情一定要有个原因的
然后来到上海之后
就是更加渴望
就是说
我能出门早上享受这安静的这个状态
因为上海真是人很多
然后我一个人在法租界
然后就开始跑起来
看看周边啊
这个地方我以前没有见过
那边有没有看过
就是变成一个就是在探索这个城市呀

(03:01):
直到后来有朋友推荐我去
说你要不要试下马拉松的时候
我才开始好奇说哎
为什么不给你的跑步增加一点意义
这个算意义吗 我算
要算目标吧
算一个目标
呃我对
因为我是喜欢
就是我
我还是说意义
因为对我来说是个意义啊

(03:21):
就是嗯
如果说我不是为了去完成一个马拉松的话
那么我的训练就会很
我的跑步变成很佛
但是当我要去完成这个事情的时候
对我来说
可我的人生第一场马拉松
对我来说是一个意义
然后我就会有更加努力的想去训练
然后但同时我又不喜欢那种
你知道操场跑就是严严格跟课表这种

(03:45):
所以我就觉得哎
我既可以给自己的生活加了一点意义
给我的人生里程碑加点意义
同时然后
我还可以继续维持我现在做的事情
他就变得更有意思了
就更有原因在后面了
需要这个原因吗
我需要我一定需要
那为什么
点是什么呢
点就是我很
我做事情一定要知道为什么要这样做

(04:07):
哈
嗯
你不会因为我觉得你之前的那个嗯
比如说traveling的这个状态就特别好啊
对我觉得
其实
这个应该是大部分生活里该有的状态
然后首先就是
我本来就是我的运动的个人的路程
就是有十几年了
我很小接触嘛
但我年纪也三十几岁了
肯定是有十几年了

(04:29):
所以有的时候
当你比如说如果我不减肥
如果不是为了跑的更快
那我就有的时候
总是想给生活加点小小的意义在后面
然后而且一到体育项目的时候
我就会变得有点竞争的意识对
然后当你看到周围的朋友啊
他怎么忽然间跑的这么快了
他可以跑完一个半马了
嗯我还没没不行

(04:51):
这个我会有一点点小小的嫉妒心
大家都会
对然后我就说啊不行我我我也可以
我怎么会比你还差呢
对吧然后当着内心的对话
然后我就会开始对这件事情有好奇心
嗯嗯我觉
得有一点点竞争意识蛮好的嗯
我对我同意

(05:11):
我觉得有一点点是没问题的
有哈哈
我发现上海是过度的有这个竞争意识
我同意
经常就有人很卷很爱比
我觉得这个
已经到一个一个过渡的一个程度
现在因为我看到特别是攀岩嘛

(05:31):
攀岩他还有级别
对所以你很清楚的知道哎
他为什么能爬到那个级别
V4 V5 我怎么还卡在V3
嗯
就很多人会因为这个嗯竞争心会quit
嗯或是更夸张受伤对
然后再quit

(05:52):
是的就我感觉这个在特别是在上海
有点过度
因为啊我我自己的个人想法啊
我觉得因为上海是这个城市
首先哦首先
我们整个就是国内的文化
就是都有一点点这样
就是一定要要有上进心对吧
从小就是我们是被这种捆绑的
就是学习要好或者什么的
上海因为城市特别大

(06:13):
如果说你不努力
是会被淹没到对这个城市里面的
那很多时候打个比方
有些人做一件事情这全都个人看法
嗯就是你可能做一件事情觉得哎
显得我这个人有点小酷
但是当哈哈
当你
当你已经有一群人可以在爬V3的时候
可以可以上V3的时候
你会想更酷一点
上V4 我我觉得很多时候

(06:34):
很多人做这个事情
是没有跟身体建立感知的
这是我特别的抗拒的一件事情
就是跑步
至于它的意义可能在于个人
我以跑步为主
就是配速
我多长时间完成的这个马拉松等等
就是它这个衡量的标准
但是你身体在除
了啊 我很跑很努力跑在顶之外

(06:54):
你的感知变得特别的低
因为你大部分在那种顶的状态里面
我个人觉得
这个就是源于人们没有感受这件事情
因为在上海
这是一个整个一个文化的东西
就是包括你去吃什么东西
我认为很多人觉得他好吃
他对那个食物是没有感觉的

(07:15):
当你还在玩手机的时候
你怎么感觉到这个东西好吃
不可能
不可能 对
我觉得同样东西可以套用在跑步
可以套用在所有的体育项目上面
我很认同
对 所以就是你你你
这个意义性质对于这个人来说很低
因为我不能感受到
我没有真正的100%的在享受这个过程

(07:35):
嗯
对 所以这个是我
我觉得就是因为人们对这种感知的缺
缺乏
嗯 对呀
我也我可以意识到
这个主要的原因就是
其实你说到吃的
我真的哈哈哈
就很触碰到我的那个点
我是完全同意的
是吧是吧
因为我看到太多人在餐厅
就是边玩手机边吃东西

(07:57):
然后结束的时候说
这个地方就很一般
嗯 当然一般
对 就你
你没有专注在吃这个方面
对 只是过来
然后你没有享受
对 我觉得这个是最大的一个问题
就是你需要这个enjoyment
你需要 可是我朋友就会说 嗯
拉回运动

(08:17):
他就会说我进步就是享受
嗯 我赢就是享受
嗯嗯
就我这个比赛我赢了
这个就是我的享受 嗯
哎 我我觉得就是
你 你知道
就是那种那个舞蹈Tango
嗯 他就是
我觉得就是
我觉得生活就是跟Tango一样有那种拉
扯有点快有点慢啊

(08:38):
有点有点
有点酸有点苦
就你在那种拉扯中
你才能享受那个过程
但是很多人啊
我觉得还是回到就是我们的这个整体
大的文化背景上来说
就是我们从小被教育的东西
就是要追求好的成绩
嗯而不是说你我
我认为现在小朋友有了
就是如果说你问他
你学到这个诗的时候他

(08:59):
他会跟你说
我能感受到我想象的当时
比如说李白在写这首诗的时候
他在什么样的状态
什么样的心情
他一定很想念谁
就是我觉得现在我们很多人在
可能这个年纪是没有的
但是我认为现在小朋友们开始有了
因为大家开始意识到这个问题了
你有见过这种小朋友 我
我有在刷到过视频上面
对对对 我有看到过

(09:20):
maybe我
我暂时还嗯
我比较悲观
嗯嗯
我经常在柔术馆嗯
我会听到小朋友玩的特别开心
一个小时
嗯从头到尾玩的特别开心
然后爸爸妈妈
或是大部分其实是保姆过来接的时候
他们说第一件事你问

(09:42):
你问我我想问你
第一件事他跟保姆说的是什么
嗯你猜
乱猜小朋友会跟保姆说什么
或者跟爸妈都会
哎 我今天摔跤赢了或什么的之类的
我今天做到一个什么之类的
我会think so嗯
可是大多数我可以说80以上嗯
的小孩第一句话跟爸爸妈妈说

(10:02):
手机在哪
iPad在哪
happens all the time
我经常看到这件事就玩得特别开心
great然后一看到爸爸妈妈iPad在哪
可以玩iPad
吗 就是那种
其实从我的角度
就是毒品上瘾的这种行为

(10:23):
就我yes 我这个小时玩的特别开心
可是我要的
其实就是我的这个上瘾的毒品
然后这个经常就是手机 iPad
而不是我很享受这个东西
哇 就真的爱上
然后爸妈就会跟教练说
我这个小孩他已经揣过

(10:43):
跆拳道 柔术 攀岩他都揣了
他都不那么感兴趣
我不知道为什么他不感兴趣
我真的尽量让他享受到
很多不一样的爱好
让他自己选
可是到最后教练会跟他说
因为你你小孩上瘾手机啊

(11:03):
他爱的东西是手机而不是这个运动
他爱的就是这个iPad
他打喜欢打游戏
我可以理解啊
这些游戏
他们的程序员花了那么多时间
那么多钱
就是让你上瘾
对 是
所以他们把他们的任务做完了
完成了 你上瘾了这个东西

(11:25):
可是导致这些小孩虽然玩的东西很多
可是他真的到家就是我要玩我的iPad
我这个经常听到
然后爸爸妈妈就不知道要干嘛
我觉得这跟父母有一定关系
我们有点
我们有点
就是转转了话题
因为我发现很多
就是他们在出去吃饭的时候
你可以干到

(11:46):
有一些一大桌的时候
他们会为了让小朋友安静
跟他们手机玩
所以他变成了一个奖励机制
就是说如果你做什么什么什么
你安静的话
我就给你玩手机
但你记得不要吵它
变成了一种奖励机制东西
就像他的一个一个小狗狗
得到零食一样的那个奖励一样
所以这个东西就是
变成了一个

(12:07):
嗯
我觉得种在他们脑子里面的那个想法
就是从小被种植错了
因为呃他不是一个玩具
包括就是也是
就是说
你把小孩放在可能这个小朋友从小
他的他的奖励就是玩手机
你怎么他怎么会有机会去感知
我到底喜不喜欢柔术
或者这些我都不喜欢
有可能他就是

(12:28):
有些小朋友可能就喜欢外面看昆虫
不知道就是你很难去
你父母
也不知道会怎么去跟孩子去沟通
这件事情
然后以至于我
我认为就是它是一个解决方案
就是我给你拿你的手机
你的iPad安静了
good这事就结束了哈哈
那你怎么上瘾到啊

(12:48):
跑步因为我觉得从作为模特
嗯
到你现在这个跑
可以说Ultra的这种Marathon
嗯就在我的心里
这个是完全两个不一样的世界
真的是的
你怎么从一个很可以说

(13:09):
很城市化的一个人
变成一个很户外的一个人
因为你要想在城市化之前
我就是一个户外的人
哈哈哈
因为你想我是一个蒙
我是内蒙古人
我从小就是
小的时候就跟那个比我大的哥哥们
带着我去山谷里面
然后真的很危险
就是爬我现在回想起来

(13:30):
就小的时候就开始爬山
非常非常危险
那种偷偷出去的快乐
哈哈
一直种植在我的脑袋里面
就是这个才是快乐
然后但是我是内蒙古人嘛
我就觉得
你有的时候也不一定都是这样
就是你总是回到你的根的感觉
我觉得这个总是会激发我一些

(13:50):
就是因为小的时候我有
那种没有物质欲望的快乐
从那个里面我超级快乐
然后可能潜意识的
激发到我这种对同样快乐的渴望
然后就是因为我很多时候一个人
在长的距离路线的时候
这一段山路的时候是我一个人

(14:11):
然后我一个人就
啊就我一个人
然后我就非常开心
然后就可能干一些很蠢的事情
自己可能扭两下或者什么的
然后吼两下
这种快乐的
这种嗨的感觉
跟我过去买Chanel包是不一样的
哈哈哈
比什么Chanel包快乐多了

(14:31):
所以所以
就确实是因为它
让我在这个时时间段是感受到快乐
然后可能是因为我
可能尤其是我们就以跑那个越野为主
因为我的主要是很喜欢跑越野
嗯
你好不容易爬上
因为你那么费劲爬上那个山顶
看到的风景来得那么不容易
真的会珍惜
我觉得就是人
人的心是会

(14:53):
就是人的这个本性和本能就是这样的
好 这个
至于这个转换的话
我认为我有的时候也会在想说 啊
我以前是去party
我去 对啊
我会去Hollywood party
你知道吗
然后就是什么Kelly Jenner
Tiger啊 那个经常小李子
嗯 叫谁来着
doesn't matter
what i mean that was so beautiful

(15:14):
然后然后到后面我就 哎
这是泥巴里面
但是我我真的认为
就是因为社会可能定义说
那些可能是更好的
嗯 但不是我的定义里这些是更好的
嗯 就我的定义里
我现在在的地方就是最好的
我现在我的定义里
可能以我现在年纪
然后我现在的状态
你把我再放回到好莱坞的时候

(15:36):
可能我
我现在不一定觉得它是最好东西
对 不能因为你觉得好我就觉得好
所以这些东西的转换
我觉得源自于就是我心里去评价什么
对我来说是更快乐的
这个怎么转的呢
因为我也有我们在这边的时候
第一份工作我们在啊
外滩有一个酒吧
嗯 然后那个时候我就觉得

(15:57):
这所i don't know life的巅峰
嗯 this
我可以一直这样子一直party
每天晚上就在party到三四五点
有的时候到早上8 九点
天太阳出来我还在party
以前以为this is the best yeah
现在想i never wanted
就根本想象不了这个

(16:17):
根本就不会参与到我的top five里面
嗯 我宁愿就是柔术馆
跟朋友在外面晒太阳
然后去爬个山 游个泳
这个一定在我的top five
可就去个party 我就
一定不要不想我
我我觉得特别有意思
就是我差不多也有

(16:38):
也许在很人生很短的时间
跟你有个类似这样的状态
我曾经把它都写下来
一张纸上面不是一张纸
就是写下来
然后如果我在这里是这样的
我曾经做了一个决定嘛
就是我是住在欧洲过这样的生活
还是住在南非
嗯
我后来发现
南非的这些东西对我更重要

(16:59):
当我把所有东西写下来看到的时候
我就知道这些不用想了
这对我是最重要
因为你现在知道这句
但有段时间
可能你在属于转换的过程中
你不是很确定
但是有一些疑问
那最简单
方法就是眼睛看到我就写
在欧洲我有什么什么什么什么
在南非有我最喜欢的这些
什么什么什么
我我喜欢
现在喜欢去雇去那个farmers market

(17:21):
多过于去一个一个
一个很华丽的一个一个商场耶
然后我就哇
就很简单的
你看到这么这个这么长这个这么短
然后就OK那我们决定做好了
就是这样了
就是然后呀就这么简单
那
我现在如果重新再回去看那些过去的
我会以好奇心哎

(17:42):
现在发生了什么
好奇心看一眼就哦好的
我会还是会尽量去享受
但是我还是以这个我知道
这个是我就好了嗯嗯嗯
所以我好奇那你的这个啊
运动的这个哲你怎么来的
因为大部分人也是应该也跟你差不多
就是一开始跑跑步
然后去健身房练一下力量啊

(18:04):
可能后面下一步就是瑜伽更专业一点
然后慢慢
这个流程我觉得大部分都有走过
嗯也是这么走的
就是先去健身房减肥
然后找教练
然后啊你练臀练腿都练了好练背
这些就是这个流程几乎都转过了
但因为我

(18:25):
因为这个过程中
我一直因为做模特的原因嘛
就是我又不能练大
嗯
你不能练大的话
就是你一直在重复一样的事情
就是我不能练大
然后呢后面就是
我也没有对瘦有更多的渴望了
那我还练什么呢
就变成功能性运动了
嗯好像有意思一点
反观中心运动也做了之后嗯

(18:46):
干嘛那会去攀岩了
然后就是总是我觉得点在于
就是我总是会对新的东西有 点好奇
大家都是
对但不是所有人都是这样的哦
啊你比如说现在很多跑步的人
他们只跑步
他们只只会跑步啊
但我现在还是
我觉得我还是要去
不能只局限于跑步这个上面
就是我一定要知道外面还有什么

(19:08):
对我就是有种害怕捆绑
会死在这里的感觉哈哈哈
我觉得害怕捆绑
是就是好奇人的
必须要有的一个一个心态嘛
嗯嗯就我一直在这边
我是不是会就就死在这边了
对你就nothing else
别的我未来的life都现在就能看得见

(19:28):
那对我来说是太恐怖了一件事
我我一定不会这样
我希望有新鲜的更好玩的
对我永远都是追求
这个
我同意基本上跟你是一样
可是我也有的时候觉得
maybe选一两个然后真的喜欢的东西
然后就放在身边也maybe OK

(19:49):
我现在我觉得按年龄来说
我慢慢慢慢往这个方向走了
你你猜
就是我我
我有个想法
就是
你知道我们为什么就小朋友的时候
就特别保持年轻
学东西最快
嗯就是你什么都不知道
然后年纪越大的时候
我们就越寻找安全感

(20:09):
嗯呃住在自己熟悉的区
然后总在一圈朋友里面
我觉得这个是人的本性
但我就我
我当然就是认为我可能跟你一样的点
就是类似
我可能会有一个
我自己在选的这样东西
里面有一个目标
去完成它
就是我现在要完成目标
但是我觉得就是底

(20:32):
就是一直要知道外面发生了什么
就是可能你可能打个比方说OK
啊 攀岩附近的
就是攀岩类的
或者跟攀岩相似的运动
嗯
可能你可能在这附近选
就是对这个这个圈圈里选
但我觉得就是在小
就是要保持年轻化
就要学所有你
就是你 让你不舒适的跳出舒适圈

(20:54):
我不知道
我就是很有这种
我不知道为什么
就是我总是有这种想法
就是
我一定不能一直待在我的舒适圈里面
嗯
我今年嗯
今年做了一个大决定
就是要我要回到我舒适区
哦 是的 我
我小的时候是游泳的
是游泳队
从小到18是一直都是游泳的
然后到了后面

(21:15):
我决定我要去玩格斗
嗯 游泳跟格斗的movement
嗯
完全不一样
嗯 完全不一样的两个动作
方模式然后就完全从零开始
现在玩格斗
玩攀岩就玩地面上的东西
这么多
哇 发现我还是很爱游泳

(21:37):
然后还就今年
我真的决定
我要回到游泳池
我要多游泳
我不需要那么多
不是我舒适区的一些东西
嗯 其实回到游泳我真的很开心
所以今年做了一个下一个决定
我就是要多游泳
多游泳 尽量下水
我觉得这很有趣
还有的时候
就跟你人在不同状态的时候也有关

(21:59):
可能你今年是这个想法
可能十年后你对天上没有兴趣
我现在就是叛逆为天地水啊
就是天上的
山里的和水里的
把水放到最后面了
哦
嗯 然后所以就是我觉得就是
可能就是你现阶段的这个想法
我觉得就尊重就好了
对 当然对
所以我不喜欢游泳

(22:20):
你为什么不喜欢水
我不是不喜欢水
我对密封空
间恐惧啊啊我只会我会有那个呃
嗯可是游泳没有啊
因为我一下听不到声音
不能感到空气了
对这个会让我觉得
你是完全就是游泳身材
啊哈哈哈
你是又高又瘦

(22:41):
就是很完美的一个游泳身材
没关系我觉得我我觉得要就是有
我在告诉自己
有一天你在研究这个事情的
就是研究物理
学习物理
为什么你一定不会淹死这件事情
然后你就然后当我确定他的时候
我觉得也许就是你要相信
我会变成一个死
就我要相信科学
嗯

(23:01):
maybe maybe
有一天就会好了
对的对但是还有还有
地上的还没有玩完天上的还没去呢
哈哈哈哈
所以你现在啊跑这种
嗯业余啊
业余
业余跑嗯你准备
你怎么准备这些比赛
你怎么准备你怎么备赛

(23:23):
我怎么备赛
呃在还在去年的时候啊
就是我可能像大部分人一样
就是看到什么我就啊就忙忙报名
就是有什么就去什么
就是先看看自己喜不喜欢
那今年其实有一点点计划性质的
去做这件事情
就是呃一个是我的竞争心
哈哈哈然后我完成我的公里数

(23:44):
然后我希望马拉松的配速上有一定的
呃这个速度的一个进步
那目前为止
因为跟我自己工作的特质而言
就是我没有什么固定的时间
所以我肯定要
我目前为止的备赛计划
就是因为我以长距离为主
所以我可能隔天跑一个20公里
然后这是我在上海时候的一个状态

(24:06):
嗯因为我要跑的是百公里的
这样的是我今年最大的目
标嗯所以
我以这个训练身体的这个有氧力为主
然后现在是加入隔天的话
就是比如说我周一是呃
周一是上半身上肢背核心
然后周二是长距离
然后长距离之后练一点点腿嗯
然后周三再回去练健身的这个力量

(24:28):
然后拉伸
然后周四再回去
所以我做一个隔天的训练
嗯然后呃目前是这样为止
然后我在南非的时候就是隔天
一天上山一天下海
一天上山就跑海岸线
哈哈哈对
一天爬上山
然后也就是练我的攀攀爬能力
嗯然后一或者下坡能力
然后有一天就是去海岸线边

(24:49):
去跑这个海海航线
这样所以就是完全是根据我在哪
然后我最近的身体状态去临时调整
有一次我摔了在南非这次
然后啊
那我摔的时候其实还不是在山上摔的
我是真的是在不该摔的地方
有一个石头
就是跳跳出来没看见
然后摔的很惨
然后那个时候

(25:09):
我就前一天的时候很焦虑
然后后来我就开始休息了
我发现我特别享受休息的状态
然后我也就当我休息了四天之后
我再跑回去
开始跑步的时候
我真的觉得自己进步了很多
然后因为我就跑去石头上冥想上发呆
然后我觉得他给我的这里

(25:30):
大脑的充电可能都过于我
这段时间
就这4天的我
人的更慢了
因为你知道从上海到南非
人是这个状态是不一样
上海很忙
然后南非已经慢了
然后当我又不能运动的时候
已经慢到不行的时候
我发现我这4天自己个人就是
一直在思考
想事情反而会更多
然后人会非非常充电的一个状态

(25:51):
然后再回去跑
哇就是立刻就进步了
对你从一个心态的一个角度看
一定是好事啊
嗯 可是从一个身体上也是好事
嗯我们游泳比赛
大比赛之前我们会做一个taper
嗯啊
我这个我不知道中文怎么叫
taper就是你是狂游泳

(26:12):
前面可能一个两个月 你是
最难的最难的一段啊
计划 然后后面三个礼拜
嗯 你会慢慢慢慢减
减减减 然后减到你每天
就是啊 我不需要那么work hard
然后再越来越轻松

(26:32):
然后突然一早起来
全身都是energy
全身都呃
the best对
就这个feeling
就感觉我是超人
对 我一起来我就是全身都是energy
这个feeling是想象不了的
大部分
如果没有经历过真的这个feelings the best
那我同意就
我大概就是在前几天那段时间

(26:54):
经历了一个这样的一个感受
但是我从这周下周开始
会有教练给我发课表
嗯 然后我希望更科学一点
因为我之前是特别抗拒课表
没有 我觉得这对我来说
我是一个快乐跑步的人
怎么会有课表的捆绑呢
但是我觉得就是得试一次
我在我看就是得努力一次

(27:15):
必须得拼一次
我要看看我能做成什么样
我觉得这个
教练也会给到你一个一个框架吧
嗯 你未来可以用
可以不用
it's up to you
可是有这个这个knowledge还是蛮重要的
对对
因为像我的前两次马拉松
马拉松在盲跑
因为我不
知道第一次跑的时候没有被赛

(27:36):
就是就是知道就是啊
发枪就冲出去跑
啪啪啪跑
然后跑的累死累活
然后跑完之后整个人巨崩溃的状态
嗯因为你拼尽全力
因呃你不知道该怎么跑
因为不够科学
第二次的时候太保守了
因为嗯也是
没有人告诉我

(27:57):
其实你现在可能以什么
什么样的配速跑
但是我就是很怕跑崩
怕再像第一次那样
然后我就特别保守那么这次是第三次
然后我希望有一个教练告诉我
差不多要以什么样的配速
我现在可以去尝试这样去设一个目标
就是我觉得就是知道自己在干什么
对我来说很重要
哈哈哈

(28:19):
对所以所以就是会慢慢的
对我来说越来越科学一点
然后再结合我自己的生活习惯
因为他一定要
就是结合你的生活习惯
我觉得这个特别重要对
我小的时候
我的教练有跟我说这个
以前的一个夏威夷游泳队的一个人
嗯啊他进了奥运会

(28:40):
嗯然后这个人
我的教练听说他演讲的时候说
虽然我拿到这个奥运银牌
嗯啊我也没有怎么训练
然后他说我没有训练呢i don't train
i just swim
嗯他说他每天早上起来就去海里游

(29:00):
嗯他说我也没有计划我也没有
就i just swim这个feeling就是对的
然后他说我游完泳
有的时候我就去冲浪
然后我不想冲浪的时候我就不冲浪
然后今天就想游蛙泳
明天想游蝶泳
我就就i just swim
他的这句话很深入的刻在我心里

(29:21):
就感觉哇
他这么放松也能赢一个奥运银牌
现在我知道是不可能的
嗯 对吧
现在大家都太科学了
对对对
可是我觉得他那个心态是对的
i just swim我到现在都还记得这句话
就i don't train i just swim
你知道
我觉得如果说在一个短距离的比赛中

(29:44):
可能我认为
这个心态是应该是没什么问题的
可是我在比赛中撞过墙
我在赛道上大哭过
就是因为
哈哈
因为没有好好准备
就是啊 我只是来享受的
然后在赛道上大哭
电解之诗
紊乱
所以才意识到
就是在单上
有教育每一个过度自信的人

(30:04):
因为他可能能力到了
但是我没有
对对 所以也是因为这个长距离
因为山里面
可能会遇到各种各样的问题
下雨啊什么的
室温啊 万一有任何问题
肠道有的时候你经常会呕吐啊
嗯 浑身疼痛啊
头痛啊 这些中暑啊都会发生
那么你要有如何知道
如何去对应付这件事情

(30:26):
这是我喜欢跑越野的原因啊
我觉得就是特别有趣
因为它的变化变数特别大
嗯
毕竟是大自然嘛
对no
你永远可以教育一个有自大的人
哈哈哈
对这个心
所以就是我觉得生活特别有意思
就是跟平衡一样
就是你既要科学
但是你又要平衡住那个心态

(30:46):
要不然就变成卷
对
嗯
对 我觉得是要大家
然后大家的平衡点都不一样
对 然后有一些人就完全就在卷那边
有一些人就是完全就是很peace
嗯
我觉得大多数人就要找一个平衡点
就在中间那里
平衡的才能走的更长久
agree 对
因为我觉得如果你一直卷

(31:08):
也不能一直卷
没有人可以这样子的
就总有一天你会受伤
对不对 嗯
就一定会有出问题
然后你不能一直peace
嗯 我觉得太peace我也理解
这是这是会出问题的
嗯 就一直待在那边
然后i don't know if that's good either
就需要找一个中间的一个点
你 你可以一直保持放松的状态

(31:28):
你只要不要过
来来来
跟你的很训练的朋友说你为什么这么
你为什么不等
等我的时候
只要没有这个问题我都OK
哈哈哈 对对
所以哎呀
你现在到这个啊这个level 嗯
你不觉得
跟你以前的那些modeling

(31:50):
就特别分开了吗
你还有联系到这些人吗
因为我现在已经不跟我以前party
大部分的朋友认识
我感觉我们活的世界就完全不一样
你还会跟那个世界的人联系吗
做朋友吗
就感觉那聊什么呢
有 因为我们也会退休的

(32:12):
哈哈哈
我不知道你party的朋友还没有在party
但是我 我的模特朋友也也都退休了
然后他们会干嘛呢
模特公司老板
哈哈哈哈
有一些做妈妈了
然后就是 呃
当然有一些也是像我这样单身
也不知道每天在干什么的那种

(32:33):
会 然后我们会一起
就是回忆
就是曾经
就是过去
我们的生活的那个状态和现在的状态
有时候我们会聊一些对比的东西
但是我们都特别庆幸
就是年轻的时候经历过这
这波就是特别浮
夸的生活
以至于就是想象
相当于小小年纪见了点世
见了点世界吧

(32:53):
然后就现在能特别更稳下来
我觉得其实很多
而且你知道吗
这些做模特的女生
我现在还在做朋友的
没有一个人是有竞争心的
没有女生嫉妒心
因为我们当时全都跟这些女生
就全都是最
就全都是未来的supermodel
然后所以我们现在看
很多事情就是挺平淡的
尤其是对于竞争心理

(33:15):
就是女生竞争心理这些
所以就是其实可以聊的
其实比你想象的要更更更放
放松的那种的
对对对 而且我现在也在说
就是我现在特别喜欢跟呃
经历过一些事情
见过一些这些东西的人
然后但是又回来好好稳稳稳妥妥的
就是做人的人

(33:35):
去沟通去做朋友
然后我觉得这个特别重要
嗯对对对
就是这个
是我的舒适圈的朋友嗯
我可以理解
你是什么时候开始的模
做模特我大部分是很久
十八九对 19岁
有一些人是1516
就还完全没看过世界的人
突然就跑去纽约伦敦这些地方

(33:59):
我觉得挺危险的
挺突然就抓你
在一个大城市
不舒适区的一个一个行业
哎
是
因为有的时候多少次我都自己在想说
如果说
我小的时候要像现在这么懂事
或知道什么
知道现在知道自己是谁

(34:19):
给自己肯定的时候
我就不会经历
我自己做模特时候的那些痛苦
永远在否定自己
就是我都已经签了最好的模特公司的
说明我有机会
但是你老是把自己跟其他人去做对比
就 是哦
他比我瘦
他腿比我腿长
他的脸更好
然后他的头发更美
就是或者是今天跟跟你说你也可以去

(34:42):
你可以减肥
然后就开始质疑是不是我的问题
就是比如说我去穿一件衣服
可能这个设计师就是神经病
他就是把衣服做的很小
是他的问题
这一定是他的问题
现在就是我觉得很有
其实我小的时候
在不知道自己是谁的前提下
然后就一下经历这么多质疑
因为你每天都在被选择吗

(35:03):
然后所以就是相当于你有这个条件
然后被你三块被啪啪啪全部打碎
然后打碎之后
我自己再一块一块把它贴起来
贴成我今天会贴回成我现在这个样子
这就是很有趣的一个人生经历吧
就是可能呃
我真的特别特别渴望能告诉我
小时候的自己
就是it's okay
你很优秀的

(35:24):
你很棒的
你后悔吗
不后悔一点都不后悔
有有后悔的这样的一个时间段吧
就是我不愿意承认自己是模特
但是现在就是完全不后悔
哇哦就是
这是我的过去塑造了我的这些经历
然后以至于
我才觉得自己是一个这么棒的人

(35:44):
哈哈哈哈
对我现在就是对自己是肯定的
嗯哼
嗯因为我有一些模特朋友
嗯然后他们的那个路线
没可能没有你这么乐观
到现在就我
我已经遇以前遇到很多模特
我们酒吧也有很多
嗯那个时候就看到小小小小嫩嫩的

(36:05):
嗯然后啊开始化浓妆了哦
然后开始微整了哦
然后就开始真的整了
就就看到这个过程
就是很你已经
你一开始就已经很美了
嗯what are you doing
的这种 嗯
可是他身边的人都跟
身边的一些朋友会跟他说

(36:26):
可是这个人可能就get不到
他真的很好看
嗯他就不需要这些东西
因为他的环境就一直在
就像你说的筛选他
嗯嗯所以他就一直在攀比攀比攀比
我有这么差吗
然后别人跟他说也没有用
就说no your grade is perfect
你不需要再再整容

(36:47):
不需要再整容
嗯然后现在40岁就说我整那么多干嘛
嗯嗯
就这种悲观故事我听到比较多
嗯所以听到你这么开心
我是很that's amazing
你是我觉得你是偏少的那一部分
OK 我很幸运
我觉得可能像你说的是
也是朋友的筛选
包括我是后来身边留着的模特的朋友

(37:10):
也都是因为可能大家相似吧
所以所以才可以走到一起嘛
然后嗯
真真的是有点有
像你说就是有点可惜的
然后大环境的时候确实能挺改变人的
然后我是一直就是渴望一个人
出去看看东西呀
什么的 所以我的心思可能从来
也许从来都不是100%在模特上面

(37:32):
对 可能他不是占据我的外表
可能不占据我的100%
虽然我有很多怀疑自己的时候
但同时就是我觉得每个人长得这我
因为可能在做这个行业吧
就是
我可以看到一个人好看的点在哪里
对 然后有人跟你说过

(37:52):
你的这个下眼睛的这个叫什么
这个你有一边
一个是大的一个是小的
但是很妙
这样好看
哦我no one
我身边
没有一个人会跟我说这种东西的
哈哈哈
主因为我觉得我现在的这个圈子
嗯嗯就只有哎
你柔术厉不厉害你攀岩厉不厉害

(38:15):
你这个就
我没有一个朋友会跟我说
因为这个会让你
因为你的眼睛是比较长的
又又插曲
因为眼睛比较细
因为眼睛比较细比较长的
但是你的这个可以让你人中和一下
让你看起来更憨
就是诚实更憨一点
你知道吗
就是他跟你的整个
因为看起来就很聪明
然后这个眼睛这个地方看起来

(38:35):
就是给你加了一点
就是憨厚的那个感觉
就做了一个平衡OK
对耶耶所以就是哈哈哈
但是我有的时候也是自己会想一些
看一些有的没的的一些事情
我觉得对
所以就我
我就可能也本身因为我我是我
我只是走到了模特的这条路上

(38:57):
然后我也许还踩一点点在里面
但是我就还是我
就是我可能是跑步的我和做模特我
也许我
也许
改天也不知道去做什么其他的事情
但是核心肯定还是我
对就是这样
我觉得你这个心态是很难学到的啊
我跟你说一个我的一个经历吧

(39:18):
我有一个很明显的一个岔路
在可能2020前面一点
嗯就2223那段嗯
我有两个
那个时候在做投行
有两个老板一个老板跟我很close
嗯他又
那个时候我又喜欢fashion又喜欢啊

(39:40):
就比较在后面一点
嗯
就可能做分析比较多可是不去做sales
嗯然后这个老板
他特别照顾我
嗯另外一边有一个很夸张很
哇哦 我不是特别喜欢那个人
那个时候
然后他他是做sales那块
嗯 就经常在外面party

(40:02):
经常在 然后他就是这两个人
都要我跟着他们走的更近更近
然后我做这个岔路的时候
我在想 我想更像Terence这个人
就是好好在分析
好好就是做you know这一块
还是跟这个老板叫Calvin

(40:23):
Calvin就他说我们去开个club
嗯 然后说开个club
我根本就不懂开club
什么东西都丢了
然后哈哈哈
我就跟问Kelvin嗯
我不知道为什么
那个时候我就做了这个决定
后面就一直说我做这个决定做对了
嗯
可是其实question不应该是我更像Terrence

(40:47):
还是更像Calvin
应该走的就是你要不要更像自己
哪一个是更像自己
可是那个时候
我根本就没有想这个话题
嗯 我只是觉得更像这个人会好吗
还是更像那个人会更好吗
就根本就没有想
可是其实你越像自己就会越开心
对 然后很多人都没有走到这个岔路
然后根本就没有分析到这个岔路

(41:09):
嗯嗯
所以你能做到这个东西已经that's amazing
我觉得这也是时间后面发现的吧
小的时候可能也许就是像你做的决定
也许就是你的本能
然后可能你后面才知道
我做的这个决定是我要的
这是我 对对对
是你在人生那个阶段中
需要做这个决定

(41:29):
然后是这是你需要的
所以我觉得年纪沉淀的吧
哈哈哈
所以要一直运动
保持年轻
然后呢 我才可以就一直去玩
然后直到
自己50岁的时候
把自己当成一个30岁的人一样去
哦 一定会
嗯 就保持这个happiness 我觉得

(41:50):
你已经有这个map
这个roadmap
你已经在心里
应该不会太出错吧
也不会 我我我
我不得不说我现在人是就我的快乐的
这个点是我人生中哦 最高的
me too
对吧
拜拜哈哈哈
嗯 是我人生我认识最高的

(42:11):
就是
不一定说是我现在事业是最成功的
但一定是我认为我做最fulfill
就是我 我是我
我做出喜欢的事情
然后知道你
你像你说的
在这条路上
我觉得特别重要
我觉得我就是在线上
我就吵 这是我人生最快乐的事
你觉得为什么现在没有人教这个

(42:32):
就我真的觉得
有的时候在学校里
嗯 老师就应该教这个东西
就应该找到自己
it's so hard美国也不在做
这边也不在是nobody
对 就很多人都不知道
就我看到
我觉得我们父母的一个一个generation

(42:53):
他们也不能教
因为他们也不会
他们也没有真的坐下来说我是谁
嗯
因为他们的精力全部都投给我们嘛
嗯 嗯
他们的life目标就是我小孩活的更好
嗯 导致我们活的great
可是我们现在有这个时间
有这个括号 Privilege
嗯 可以找自己

(43:13):
嗯 可是大部分人都不在找
因为他不知道是什么感觉
因为嗯
我打个比方
就是我曾经为了我妈妈
去看了一次心理医生
就是我妈妈
其实需要看心理医生的人
因为但是我不知道怎么处理
所以我自己去看了个心理医生替他讲
了这样的情况
直到然后我包括很很多书去看
这件事情

(43:34):
最后有一件事情
他就忽然间我认为点通了
我就是说说
你也许可以尝试放弃
让你妈妈所谓变得健康这件事情
因为你知道
他们那个年代就是在国内长大的
就是我们又是蒙古人
有些历史的事情就不说了
就是不是一个不是一个很快乐的童年
嗯他说

(43:54):
可能他这辈子都不知道
一个正常人的
应有的一身轻松的是什么感觉呀
你他不知道是什么
他从小没有一天有过
所以你可能可能这是他的一辈子
就是你可能不不要去对
他可能就不知道这什么感觉
你没有办法去跟他讲清楚

(44:17):
所以我觉得这就是跟大部分人
就是这是一个例子
就是可能这辈子都没有这种感知力
所以你
他没办法跟别人
去有这样的一个对话
沟通
然后一直去教育你的小孩这是什么
这件事情
对所以很难很可惜
我觉得主要就是因为
我们那么疼我们的父母

(44:38):
嗯我们也希望他们可以感受到
我们的这个快乐
嗯可是就很难沟通这件事
然后我跟他说
你看我今天这么这么开心
然后他的脑子里全部都是
要不你再赚一点钱吧
哈哈哈
要不你再努力回到回到投行吧
我说那是我最不开心的一段时间

(44:59):
那是我最不喜欢的就是一段life
然后你要我回到那个时候
然后再进一点钱
再就totally different
对我的这个feeling就传不过去
可是我照样疼他们
我希望他们能感受到我
的这个快乐
嗯 it's hard
因为他们可能觉得更多钱是更快乐的

(45:20):
哈哈哈
hard但是我就觉得
能把他们稍微感受到我那么一点
就够 嗯
但是呢
我也不能要求他们玩100%理解我
too hard
这对这一点都很难yeah
那你觉得Molly那个时候 嗯

(45:42):
有没有感觉到很多人太巴彦了
就是很相信modeling is the best这个行业
就that's my life的这种人
就有点像hmm
i don't know现在的跑步团
嗯哈哈哈哈哈
呃interesting
哈哈

(46:03):
呃我有朋友是这样的
就是还在做自己的模特梦
呃我
我不知道
就是我事实来讲
我也不是很理解
就是
这是一个你所有的东西不在你掌控中
的这个事情
我特别不喜欢这种control Freak
i'm not control Freak

(46:24):
但是我觉得
我希望对我的人生有一点控制力
me too对吧
有起码一些大的规划上面
嗯 但这个行业我觉得没有任何的
呃 因为我们是属于知道有自主性
知道自己想要什么
喜欢什么
是谁
所以我知道
这个事情
可能在我的生活中里出现一段时间
我就很有趣
然后就chill by

(46:45):
然后但也许有些人不知道自己是谁
想要什么
未未来一步怎么走的时候
就迷上留在这里面了
因为这是他们的精神寄托
就像很多坏的婚姻一样
嗯或腐烂的婚姻一样
因为他不知道下一步是什么
我离开这段婚姻
是谁 然后呃我

(47:06):
我我自己是谁
所以肯定会有这样的人
他一定会不是陷入到这
就有点像一个坏的一个上瘾一样
这个省就是瘾的那个怎么说呢
怎么形容就是他因为你有这个问题
以至于他有可能是模特
但也有可能是婚姻
也有可能是任何的事情

(47:29):
对对对所以有是肯定有的
嗯然后但我因为有这种
我知道我想要控制住我自己的时间
我想把控我的时间呃所以我就嗯
跳了哈哈哈
你觉得这个
因为我看现在的跑步团
嗯我都把他们讲括号邪教
哈哈哈
他们就是都穿一样的衣服

(47:51):
然后都喊一样的一个一个口号就这种
我小的时候我们有参我有参加过啊
教堂的一些活动嗯然后大家一起唱歌
嗯然后大家都就我现在想
那就很邪教啊
就很why你们为什么这么爱这个东西

(48:12):
我一直没有get到然后我来到这边
我看到柔术柔术也很邪教
是吗 对
这些group因为有一群人
他们就觉得这个爱好就是我的life
that's my life
running is life
Jujitsu is life然后我说
为什么不是you are life
你说实话我其实也不是很理解

(48:34):
哈哈哈
呃我甚至有尝试去我去过
但是我不绑定任何跑团
然后我只是在我时间允许的情况下
偶尔去一下
然后但是除此之外
我是比如说你是我的跑步朋友
他是我的芭蕾的朋友

(48:55):
我曾经有段时间跳过芭蕾OK
你是我的
你是我的party的朋友
但是你是我的
吃饭的就是搭子
我们我我得分开
但是确实很多人把它都放在一起了
嗯你不 会把它们重叠吗

(49:16):
我不太喜欢
我不知道为什么
我以前很不喜欢
现在我开始挑选
有一些人是可以通的
嗯然后有一些人
我发现就是我们没有那么close
就这个
如果我把一个柔术的朋友拉到
比如说啊
打桌游的一个场合
嗯他是进不去的

(49:37):
嗯嗯就这些门槛太高
对他只会聊柔术这些人只会聊啊
桌游嗯那他们就connect不了
我就一定不会放在一起
可是有一些人是比较能通的
我慢慢在发现
这些人通的人就会跟我更close
就是啊我又可以把他拉到攀岩

(49:58):
嗯又可以把他拉去聊you know
Dungeons and Dragon
或者就比较nerdy的一些东西
嗯都可以碰到
那这些人能通这些group那就很好
就重叠的性更好
因为我个人我不知道
就是你是艺人是吧
你肯定是actually就是你是

(50:18):
其实没有觉得是可是有的时候会
对但我我会
个人就我就是纯是个人性格问题
就是我喜欢小少人少然后安静
很多时候我是很喜欢这种状态的
所以我不是很不知道
没有想过没有没有具体思考过为什么
哈哈衣袖可以试试
因为我觉得跑步团他们就很

(50:42):
虽然有很多好处
我真的觉得有好处他们又能教
有很多教客
就是在团里每天都会分享一点
嗯coaching我觉得是好事
嗯可是有一些人就觉得就被捆绑
就像跑步就是这个团没有别的团
我的团是最好的

(51:02):
we are the bad
就那种行为我一看就what's going on
这个 这个这个其实真的挺妙的
因为我最近去了一个南非的跑团嘛
确实凝聚力也是很大的
但是没有国内这种典型的这种哎
就是很捆绑的感觉
没有我不知道插在哪

(51:24):
大家也是会准时出现
然后有些也会比如说喝呃
跑步完我们会一起喝个咖啡
或晚上去个夜市什么的
没有这种很典型
就是说捆绑感
他们有在这个群里一起daily吗
哈哈哈我不知道
因为我不太参与这种群体的

(51:45):
因为我觉得这边的一个捆绑的点就是
大家互相约会
互相在Dating
因为上海的club
running club我觉得就是Dating club
我有听说过
我也有听说过
他们不是running club
running只是这个club里面的一个行为
可是主要我觉得都是Dating club呜

(52:07):
导致他们就被捆绑在组里面了
你有知道有那种跑团Butterfly吗
哈哈哈是吗有吗
你有啊哈哈哈你是吗
你算是吗
我我在思考说我是不是啊
但我不是的
我我只是固定去一个两个
适合我时间的
有些是真的会
就是各个跑团各种去活动各种蹭
各种说为了什么

(52:27):
说为了有拍照哈哈哈
哈哈哈然后我说啊为了拍照哈哈
对啊哈哈我这个不吸引你们
你已经被拍照n次了
你不需要这个吸引
but我可以理解
哈哈因为啊
你去过学校吗
我去过哈哈哈有吗
我去过

(52:47):
然后呢在哪
等会你去过吗
我去过
我也去过
我在我在悉尼去过
哈哈哈因为因为
当时我的那个男朋友是一个是
一个像Peter pan一样的好奇宝宝
哈哈
那也有点像我
然后呢
他就他们就说所有的少好的生意

(53:07):
就是一个coat
就是一个邪教
呃 对对
是吧 差不多就是这样的
然后我们就说好
我们就去学校看一看
然后我们有大概有八个人一起去了
一个叫日本的
叫light或者Lightning
或者什么样的一个名字的
我们去了
然后所以到了那之后
我不知道那种
可能像教会活动一样吧
我没有去过教堂
然后就是有去了一个院子里面

(53:30):
然后可能有些食物摆在那
他说看我们的这个酱油
这个是给过他光的酱油
然后你蘸了一下
是不是吃起不行
然后我就OK
然后呃
确实很多很多人在那躺着
就可能你坐在这
然后他就把手放在我的头前面
他可以给你光
然后说你是不是呃

(53:50):
Coin 就是说自己可能已经治好什么病
之类的 然后我在观察了
我们观察了所有人
就是做这件事情
然后包括最后
他们非常热情的让我去受治疗
这件事情
这是我人生中最漫长的10分钟
甚至想要骂人的状态

(54:11):
就是去试图去理解
嗯 因为有的时候只有你亲自去了
可能也许你能理解为什么这件事情
也许这真的是一群很缺爱的人
真的在这里有一些虚假的爱
被洗脑了吧
对
但是说实话
就是我是作为市场
市场调查认为我是失败的
我们没有人理解

(54:31):
我们最后像逃离一样
就是属于精神崩溃
就是为什么有人会接受这样的
就是有这样的
想法可能我就说实话
肯定我们真的很幸运啊
就是我们人都很完整
所以就是我没有理解到
然后我甚至不觉得
作为一个完整的人
怎么可以去理解到这样的事情
我不知道你是怎么怎么看的
所以我我没有收获无收获

(54:53):
我也是无收获
可是跟你说的一模一样
我觉得大部分人就是缺爱
或是缺something
嗯我可以说我
我有一个阿姨
她一到一到美国
嗯教堂嗯立马就帮助你做1234
嗯就这是好事
Don't get me wrong
我觉得教堂真的

(55:14):
他帮助他办签证
需要就各样东西
然后搜索也都在
就很容易融入进去
就感觉他我需要什么
我可以问这边的人
他都能帮到我
嗯
我来到上海的时候很多人迷上柔术
也是嗯哎
我签证有问题

(55:34):
就在群里说
有人认识一些帮我办签证的人吗
立马哒哒哒
我推荐这个人啊
我膝盖断了
我是有没有人认识什么康复师
不不不 就你需要什么
这个群这些人都能帮助你
嗯嗯那就很缺的时候你都有
在这你就感觉this is my life嗯

(55:56):
this is perfect
嗯我为什么需要一些别的东西
i don't没有这个好奇心
说外面是不是有更好的
嗯就是
你想象一下动物生存原则
在草原上面
在非洲嗯
我们就是狮子
哈哈
我不觉得我不会把自己当狮子
都会

(56:16):
然后野狗
没比
really
我在打个比方
就是因为我们不需要群居生存
有些人需要群居生存
我们一个人可以独立的做很多的
事情对所以就是有一个群更好啊
我有的时候有一个群
嗯会更开心
会更嗯有满足感吧

(56:39):
嗯我觉得是有的
嗯啊
我小的时候有一个team有一个游泳队
真的哎我这个stroke一直没有进步
我会问你
然后上辈
哎你们这个东西求什么
我可以帮助我吗
嗯啊我很多跟女生说话的一些女生
都是上辈教的

(57:00):
都是18岁的时候教我们15岁的男生
然后这个it's nice
有这种group是能帮助你是好事
可是我也觉得
有的时候你就需要自己出去一下
就自己绕一圈
然后再回来
这些group会更有价值
嗯更让你感觉到哦

(57:22):
this is嗯valuable我觉得
哎我听了你这个讲的这个话
也许我今年可以尝试更参与一点点
对因为我太太分割了我的
这是我的一个缺点
嗯就是跟因为
我
全体的
还是收手的
嗯不
我们不可能完全独立

(57:43):
嗯独立是好
我也很喜欢
嗯一个人就一个人在家
whole day whole week一个人我都没问题
因为手机也不用看
nothing great
可是回来的时候
然后看到柔术的朋友有一个好拥抱
嗯这种that's great我还是很喜欢

(58:04):
我不知道你会不会
我给你说一个故事
嗯我来中国前面两年
两年半蛮孤单的
嗯中文也不好
朋友也不多
然后我记得第一个有点谈恋爱的
一个feeling
哈哈哈
然后能每天拥抱一个人

(58:27):
那个that feeling is just it's amazing就lonely太久
对对
然后突然能有一个hug
有一个人
真的 care about you我觉得很上头
那一段时间我记得很清楚
就特别上头
导致我理解我是需要一点收手的
我不可能forever一个人就有那种

(58:51):
那种feeling
还是很很human
看对
这是我的人
这是我的一个功课
我我会 我也个人
个人就是我要的吸气
我知道这个问题
我我要taking
然后我也要改变的一个事情
要克服的
那我跟你说我对这个东西是怎么想的

(59:11):
are you ready
我在这个电台上经常说
为什么
我觉得人是需要有一个marketing funnel
嗯的朋友
嗯social funnel
嗯然后跟marketing是一模一样的
他们需要知道你是谁
他们需要对你有兴趣
他呢 才会稍微买单
你这个朋友才会变成Loyal的一个朋友

(59:34):
嗯 就多买单
多多给你喊药
可是你需要从一最高最大的这个池子
过滤 过滤
过滤 过滤
导致需要时间
嗯 如果你不从上面一直在添加
嗯 你就永远都不会有这些close FRIENDS
嗯然后你就必须要有
你发现你有问题的时候

(59:54):
嗯 已经太晚了
你需要一一些人从一直在上面
这个that takes time 嗯
然后又要过滤
一直过滤
一直过滤
很多人都都没给
这个是最重要的
这一群人是通过多少筛选呢
才能有这一个朋友
两个朋友
所以你需要多搜索

(01:00:15):
然后我也我觉得我很爱说实话
嗯 OK
可是我刻意出去认识新的朋友
去新的group
因为我知道这个词一直要满的
嗯 这个词一空的时候
下面全部都会空下来
然后就会 出问题
有道理有道理
我很推荐

(01:00:35):
我会仔细思考怎么可以去实现它呢
哈哈哈
因为你always traveling
你不会就很难待在一个地方生根
对对 就比较难有这种朋友
除非是以前的我
同意这个
这个也是
我为什么后来觉得
我一定要在上海有个定的地方
就是因为这个原因
对 可是你不会觉得

(01:00:56):
你定的时候就很不舒服
很想很想野一下就跑出去
跑出去野了呀
哈哈哈
谁都不要管我
我要一个人去山里撒欢了
我真的每次都是这种感觉
每一次太兴奋了
哈哈
这个太上瘾了
兴奋和上瘾是的

(01:01:17):
那怎么办
what what do you think
你觉得最理想
嗯 我们最后一个话题
你觉得最理想的
Fifi啊 10年后是长什么样子
你说的不是持掌
是整个人的样子
我思考一下
我很渴望的
我

(01:01:37):
我觉得就是说实话
就是可能我也没有办法去
去有那个画面现在在我的头上
在我的脸
就是在我身上去显现
就我自己
有一些五年和十年的一些小的计划在
但就是抛开我的个人计划不说啊
如果说我如果一直能维持住

(01:01:59):
无论发生什么事情我都能记得
找回现在我的这个状态
保持住这个能力的话
我相信无论我在哪在做什么
我认为都会很好
就是我一能一直能找回到我是谁
就可以了
如果10年后我还在做
我无论我在这个行业还是别的行业

(01:02:20):
我知道我都会很好的
嗯
OK好
我们今天就录到这边
菲菲很开心
你真的跑老远了哈
哈哈
还行 11公里 哈哈哈
啊 跟大家说一下
你就是菲菲Jun
每一个平台都是这个名字吗
对 我就是菲菲Jun
OK 好啊
小红书啊
你还有什么
微信号

(01:02:41):
微信啊
微信叫it's not fifi啊
it's not fifi OK 好
这些我都会放
呃 评论而形容
去大家
thank you 拜拜
bye
Hello everyone, today I'm here with Fifi.
Fifi, long time no see.
Long time no see.
Just came back, right?
How long have you been back?
A week.
Exactly a week.
Can you tell everyone where you came back from?
Hello everyone,
I'm Fifi.
I just came back from South Africa.
I arranged a half-month work schedule,
Then half play an itinerary
What do you do for a living now?
Can you tell everyone?
Well, my main job is a blogger for self-media,
and my side job is a model.
Ha ha ha.
But I may not be a model in China.
And maybe when I work abroad,
some will directly
How to translate it?
That is, they will directly
They will fly me directly to some projects.
Lucky, thank you.
It's fun, right?
It's great, ha ha ha.
So I actually met you through 一只海胆.
And I heard that you love running and sports very much.
So I want to know how you changed from a model
and now you can run fifty kilometers.
I'm 60km pushing for 100km
crazy
All my friends are still at that stage of the marathon.
You have surpassed
It's not like you're better than others.
It's just that we have different hobbies.
Then I'll simply talk about it.
Because I used to be a model.
I was a model abroad.
Then maybe their requirements for this figure
maybe
the requirements for your hip circumference are high.
My idea was that
long-distance aerobic exercise
is less likely to build muscle.
Well, then
and then you can maintain a smaller dimension.
And it was really just to be thin.
Later, as I went through my life
originally.
when I got older,
especially when I decided to move back to my country,
Why did I like running later?
because I liked going out in the morning.
because I liked it very much.
When I lived abroad,
I would go out alone in the morning.
because my place was close to the mountains.
I would go there every time.
I lived near mountains,
or near the sea.
Oh, amazing.
Yes, very lucky.
So I really like going out in the morning.
I would go for a run.
It's a quick way to finish this lap.
and see the things around.
whether it's a business trip
or go to the beach,
Uh, and then it becomes a morning run.
it becomes a habit.
And then,
When you have a habit,
Sometimes you suddenly think,
why I'm doing this, right?
Right?
I do. I do things for a reason
After coming to Shanghai,
I'm more eager to
That is to say,
I can go out and enjoy the quiet morning.
Because there are so many people in Shanghai.
I was alone in the French Concession,
I started to run around
I look around
I've never seen this place before.
and see if I've been there before.
It became exploring the city.
Until a friend recommended me to go
suggested me to try a marathon.
I began to wonder,
why not add some meaning to your running?
Does this count as a meaning? I think so.
Be the target
It's a goal.
Uh, I think so.
Because I like it.
It's just that
I still say it's meaningful.
Because it means something to me.
Yes.
If I wasn't there to finish a marathon
then my training would be very
My running has become very Buddhist
But when I'm going to do it,
for me,
my first marathon in my life
it means a lot to me.
Then I will have more motivation to train harder.
But at the same time, I don't like
You know, running on the track strictly following a schedule.
So I think
I can add a little meaning to my life
and add meaning to my life milestone.
At the same time,
I can continue to do what I'm doing now.
it becomes more interesting
and have more reasons to do it.
Do I need this reason?
I need it, I must need it.
Why?
What is the point?
The point is that I
I must know why I do things like this.
Huh.
Hmm.
You won't because I think your previous
traveling was particularly good.
Yes, I think.
actually,
This should be the state that most people should have in life.
First of all,
my personal journey of sports has been for over ten years.
so it must be more than ten years.
I started at a young age.
But I'm already in my thirties.
so it must be more than ten years.
So sometimes,
if I don't lose weight,
or run faster,
I sometimes
I always want to add a little meaning to my life.
And when it comes to sports,
I will become a little competitive.
And when you see your friends around you,
why they suddenly run so fast,
and he can finish a half-marathon.
I haven't.
I will have a little bit of jealousy.
Everyone will.
Yes, and then I would say, no, I can do it too.
How could I be worse than you?
Right, and then in my inner dialogue,
I will start to be curious about it.
Well, I think
I think a little bit of competitiveness is good.
I agree.
I think a little bit is fine.
Ha ha.
I find that Shanghai has too much competition awareness.
I agree.
People are often very competitive and love to compare.
I think this
it has reached a transitional level.
Now, because I see that especially in rock climbing,
Climbing has levels.
So you know clearly
why they can climb to that level.
I can't climb to V four or V five, why am I stuck at V three?
嗯
Many people will quit because of competitiveness.
or even more seriously injured.
or even quit.
Yes, I feel that this is especially in Shanghai,
is a bit excessive.
Because, in my own opinion,
I think because Shanghai is a city
First of all,
our entire domestic culture
there is a little bit of this.
we must be aggressive, right?
We are tied up since childhood
you must be good at studying or something.
In Shanghai, the city is very big.
If you don't work hard,
you will be submerged in this city.
For example,
It's all personal opinion, for example,
Well, you may do something and think,
it makes me look a little cool.
But when, ha ha,
when you
When you have a group of people who can climb V three,
and can climb V three,
you will want to be cooler.
I think many times, when you climb V four,
many people do this thing
they don't establish a sense of perception with their bodies.
This is something I particularly resist.
It's running.
As for its meaning, it may vary from person to person.
I focus on running,
which is pace.
how long it takes me to finish a marathon and so on.
is the standard of measurement.
But your body is in addition to
except for running very hard and reaching the top,
your perception becomes particularly low.
Because you are mostly in that top state.
Personally, I think
it's because people don't feel it.
Because in Shanghai,
it's a cultural thing.
including what you eat.
I think many people think it's delicious,
they have no feeling for the food.
When you are still playing with your phone,
how can you feel that it is delicious?
It's impossible.
It's impossible.
I think the same thing can be applied to running.
and all sports.
I agree.
Yes, so it's you, you, you.
the meaning of this thing is very low for this person,
Because I can't feel it.
I'm not really enjoying the process one hundred percent.
Yes.
So this is me.
I think it's because people lack perception of
lack of.
Yeah.
I can also realize that
the main reason is that
Actually, when you talk about eating,
I really
it really touches my point.
I totally agree.
right?
Because I've seen too many people in restaurants
who eat while playing with their phones.
and then at the end, they say
this place is just so-so.
Of course it's average.
Yes, you.
you didn't focus on eating.
You just come here.
and you didn't enjoy it.
I think this is the biggest problem.
You need to enjoy it.
But my friend will say, well,
Pull back movement.
He says that progress is enjoyment.
I enjoy winning.
Yeah.
I won this competition.
this is my enjoyment.
Well, I think that
you know,
the dance Tango.
it's like
I think that
I think life is like tango, with pulls and
It's fast and slow.
a little bit
a little sour and bitter.
In that pulling and tugging,
can you enjoy the process.
But many people
I think we should return to our overall
in the context of the overall culture,
what we are taught since childhood
to pursue good grades.
instead of saying you and me.
I think now children have
if you ask them
when they learn this poem,
he will tell you that
I can feel and imagine what he felt at that time.
For example, when Li Bai wrote this poem,
what kind of state he was in
and what kind of mood he was in.
He must be missing someone.
I think many of us now
may not have at this age.
But I think now children are starting to have it.
because people have begun to realize this problem.
Have you seen such a child?
I have seen it on videos.
Yes, yes, yes, I have seen it.
Maybe.
I haven't seen it yet.
I'm a pessimist.
Yeah.
I often go to the jiu-jitsu gym.
I often hear children playing happily.
for an hour.
and they play happily from start to finish.
Then the parents
or mostly when the babysitter comes to pick them up,
they say the first thing you ask is
You ask me, I want to ask you.
What is the first thing they say to the babysitter?
Guess.
Guess what the kid would say to the nanny.
or to their parents.
I won a wrestling match or something like that.
I did something today.
I would think so.
But most of them, I can say more than eighty percent,
the first thing the child says to his parents is
Where's my phone?
iPad?
It happens all the time.
I often see this and they are very happy.
Great, and then when they see their parents' iPad,
Can I play iPad?
it's like that.
From my perspective,
is a behavior of drug addiction.
Yes, I had a great time playing.
But what I want
what I really want is my addiction.
And it's often the phone or iPad.
I don't really enjoy it.
Wow, I really fell in love.
Then the parents will tell the coach that
my child has tried
he has tried Taekwondo, Judo, and rock climbing,
he is not interested in them.
I don't know why he's not interested.
I really try to let him enjoy
many different hobbies
and let him choose.
But in the end, the coach will tell him that
because your child is addicted to the phone.
he loves the phone instead of this sport.
He loves the iPad.
He likes playing games.
I can understand.
These games
the programmers have spent so much time
and money
to make you addicted.
Yes.
So they have completed their tasks,
and you get addicted to it.
But it leads to the fact that although these children have many things to play with,
but when they get home, they just want to play iPad.
I often hear this.
and their parents don't know what to do.
I think it has something to do with parents.
We are a bit
We are a bit
we just changed the topic.
Because I found that many
when they go out to eat,
you can see that
when there are many dishes on the table,
they will let the children be quiet
give them phones to play with.
So it becomes a reward mechanism.
That is to say, if you do something,
you are quiet,
I'll give you a phone to play with.
But remember not to disturb it.
It becomes a reward mechanism.
It's like a little dog
just like getting a treat for a dog.
So this thing is
It becomes a
um.
I think the idea planted in their minds
is that they were planted wrong since childhood.
Because it's not a toy.
and also
That is to say,
If you put the child in a situation where
their reward is playing with mobile phones.
How could they have the opportunity to perceive
whether I like jiu-jitsu or not.
or I don't like these.
Maybe he just
some children may like to watch insects outside.
You don't know how to
parents
and don't know how to communicate with their children.
about this matter.
and as a result,
I think it's a solution.
I'll give you your phone
and iPad, and be quiet.
Good, and it's over.
How did you become addicted to
Running, because I think from being a model
Yes.
to running now.
to an Ultra Marathon.
is in my heart.
It's a completely different world.
It's true.
How did you go from a very
very urban person
to become an outdoor person?
Because before urbanization,
I was already an outdoor person.
Ha ha ha.
Because you think I am a Mongolian,
I'm from Inner Mongolia.
I grew up
When I was a child, I went with my older brothers
to take me to the valleys.
It was really dangerous.
I think back now,
I started climbing mountains when I was a child.
It was very dangerous.
The joy of sneaking out.
Ha ha.
It has always been planted in my mind.
That's what happiness is.
But I'm from Inner Mongolia,
I think
sometimes it's not always like this.
you always feel like you're going back to your roots.
I think this always inspires me.
Because when I was a child, I had
the happiness without material desires.
I was super happy from that.
And maybe subconsciously,
stimulate my desire for the same kind of happiness.
And because I'm often alone,
on long-distance routes,
I'm alone on this mountain road.
I'm alone.
I'm alone.
I was very happy.
Then I might do some stupid things,
I might twist my body or something.
and shout a few times.
This kind of happiness
and this high feeling
It's different from buying a Chanel bag in the past.
Ha ha ha.
much happier than buying a Chanel bag.
So so,
It's indeed because of it
makes me feel happy during this period of time.
Maybe it's because of me.
especially because we mainly run cross-country.
Because I really like running cross-country.
Um.
You finally climb up.
Because you climbed the mountain so hard,
and the scenery you see is so hard to come by.
You will really cherish it.
I think people
people's hearts will
it's just human nature and instinct.
Okay, this.
As for this transformation,
I think sometimes I also think about
I used to go to parties.
Yes, I did.
I went to Hollywood parties.
Lin Zhao.
And then there's Kelly Jenner,
Leonardo DiCaprio,
Who is it?
I don't know who.
Oh, I know, those people.
And then later, I thought,
I was in the mud.
But I really think that
because society may define that
those might be better.
but not in my definition.
In my definition,
the place where I am now is the best.
In my current definition,
maybe at my current age
and my current state,
If you put me back in Hollywood,
maybe
I might not think it's the best thing now.
I can't think it's good just because you think it's good.
So the conversion of these things
I think it stems from how I evaluate things in my heart.
is more enjoyable to me.
How does this happen?
Because when we were here,
my first job was at
there was a bar on the Bund.
And at that time, I felt that
This is the peak of my life.
This
I could party like this every day.
I would party until three, four, or five o'clock every night.
Sometimes until eight or nine in the morning.
I was still partying when the sun came out.
I thought this was the best.
Now I think I never wanted.
I can't even imagine this.
and it would never be in my top five.
I'd rather go to a jiu-jitsu gym
sunbathing outside with friends,
and then go climbing and swimming.
This must be in my top five.
But going to a party, I just
I don't want to go.
I think it's very interesting.
I think it's quite interesting that
maybe in a very short time in my life,
have a similar state with you.
I once wrote it all down.
not on one piece of paper,
I wrote it down.
And if I were in this situation here,
I made a decision.
whether I should live in Europe like this
or live in South Africa.
Um.
I found that
these things in South Africa are more important to me.
When I wrote down everything and saw it,
I knew these didn't need to be considered.
which is the most important to me.
Because you know this sentence now.
But for a period of time,
maybe you are in the process of transformation,
you're not sure.
but you're not sure.
The simplest way
the simplest way is to write down what I see.
In Europe, I have this, this, this, this.
In South Africa, I like these the most.
what what what.
I like.
I like to go to the farmers market now
I prefer to go to
a fancy shopping mall.
Then I just wow.
It's very simple.
You see this one is so long and this one is so short,
Then it's okay, and we've decided.
That's it.
That's it, and it's that simple.
那
If I go back to look at those in the past,
I will be curious about
what's going on now?
curiosity to take a look, and I'll say, Oh, okay.
I will still try to enjoy it.
But I still know that
I know this is me.
So I'm curious about your
how did you come up with this philosophy of sports?
Because most people are probably like you,
they start by running,
and then go to the gym to build strength.
Maybe the next step is more professional yoga.
and then gradually
I think most people have gone through this process.
and how did you do it?
First, go to the gym to lose weight,
find a coach,
Then you work on your buttocks, legs, and back.
This is the process that almost everyone has gone through.
But because of me,
in this process,
because I'm a model,
I can't get bigger.
Yeah.
If you can't get bigger,
you're just repeating the same thing.
I can't get bigger.
And then, later on,
I didn't have more desire to be thin.
So what's the point of exercising?
It became functional exercise.
It seems more interesting.
After doing the center-focused exercises, um,
I went rock climbing.
And then I always think that the point is
I'm always a little curious about new things.
Everyone is.
Yes, but not everyone is like that.
For example, many runners now
They only run.
They only run.
But I still
I think I still need to go
I can't just limit myself to running.
I must know what else is out there.
I feel like I'm afraid of being tied down
that I will die here.
I think fear of being tied down
It's a must-have mentality
a must-have mentality.
Well, if I stay here,
will I just die here?
Yes, nothing else.
I can see the rest of my future life now.
That would be a terrifying thing for me.
I will never do that.
I hope to have something new and more fun.
I always pursue freshness and fun.
This one, I
I basically agree with you.
But sometimes I think
Maybe choose one or two things I really like
and keep them by my side, maybe it's okay.
Now I think in terms of age,
I'm slowly moving in this direction.
You guess.
It's me.
I have an idea.
that is
Do you know why when we were kids,
we stay young.
and learn things fastest.
Because you don't know anything.
And as we get older,
we seek more security.
We live in our familiar areas,
and always stay in a circle of friends.
I think this is human nature.
But I just
Of course, I think I may have the same point as you.
similar to
I may have a
something that I choose myself.
with a goal inside
to achieve it.
I'm going to achieve my goal now.
But I think the bottom line is
is to always know what's going on outside.
For example, you might say okay,
like rock climbing nearby,
like rock climbing,
or similar sports to rock climbing.
Um.
Maybe you choose nearby,
you may choose from this circle.
But I think it's small.
to keep young,
you should learn everything you
you should get out of your comfort zone.
I don't know.
I just have this feeling.
I don't know why.
I always have this idea.
就是
I must not stay in my comfort zone all the time.
Hmm.
This year, um,
I made a big decision this year.
I decided to go back to my comfort zone.
Oh, really.
When I was a kid, I swam,
and I was on the swim team.
I swam from childhood to eighteen.
And then later,
I decided to play combat.
The movements of swimming and fighting
Yes.
are completely different.
They are completely different movements.
I started from scratch.
Now I play fighting,
climbing, and other things on the ground.
So many.
I found that I still love swimming.
And this year,
I really decided
I decided to go back to the swimming pool.
I want to swim more.
I don't need so much.
I don't need some things that are not in my comfort zone.
Actually, I'm really happy to go back to swimming.
So this year, I made a next decision.
I just want to swim more.
I swim more and try to get into the water.
I think it's interesting.
Sometimes,
it's also related to your different states of mind.
Maybe you have this idea this year,
but maybe ten years later you are not interested.
I'm now rebellious against heaven, earth, and water.
which is the sky,
mountains and water.
I put water at the end.
Oh.
So I think that
maybe it's your current idea.
I think just respect it.
Of course.
Why don't you like swimming?
Why don't you like water?
I don't dislike water.
I'm afraid of sealed space.
I'm afraid of sealed spaces.
But I don't have that problem when swimming.
Because I can't hear the sound,
and can't feel the air.
This makes me feel
you have a perfect swimmer's figure.
Yes.
You are tall and thin.
which is a perfect swimming figure.
It's okay, I think I just need to have
I'm telling myself
one day you will study this thing,
you're studying physics.
and learn physics.
why you won't drown.
And then when I was sure of it,
I think maybe you need to believe that
I will become a dead.
I have to believe in science.
Yes.
Maybe maybe.
Maybe one day it will be fine.
Yes, but there's still more.
I haven't finished the ground and haven't gone to the sky.
Ha ha ha.
So now you are running this kind of
amateur.
amateur.
amateur running, how do you prepare?
How do you prepare for these races?
How do you prepare? I don't know. How do you prepare for the race?
How do I prepare?
Last year,
just like most people,
I just signed up for whatever I saw.
I just went to whatever I could.
I just see if I like it.
This year, I have a little bit of a plan.
to do this.
One is my competitiveness.
Ha ha ha, and then I complete my mileage.
and I hope to have a certain
improvement in speed.
So far,
because of the nature of my work,
I don't have a fixed schedule.
So I definitely have to
my current training plan
Because I focus on long-distance running,
I might run twenty kilometers every other day.
This is my state when I was in Shanghai.
Because I'm going to run a hundred kilometers.
This is my biggest goal this year.
So,
I focus on training my body's aerobic capacity.
Now I add running every other day.
for example, on Monday,
on Monday, I train upper body, arms, back, and core.
and Tuesday is long-distance running.
and then a little leg training after the long run.
Then on Wednesday, I go back to strength training.
stretching,
and then on Thursday,
So I do a training every other day.
Well, that's it for now.
When I was in South Africa, I trained every other day.
climbing mountains and swimming in the sea.
I ran along the coastline on the mountain.
Ha ha ha.
Climb the mountain one day,
and also to practice my climbing ability.
Or downhill ability.
And one day I went to the coastline
to run along the coastline.
So it's totally based on where I am
and my recent physical condition.
Once I fell in South Africa.
And then,
I didn't fall on the mountain when I fell.
I really fell in the wrong place.
there was a stone
and jumped out without seeing it.
and I fell badly.
And at that time,
I was anxious the day before.
Then I started to rest.
I found that I really enjoyed the state of rest.
And then after I rested for four days,
I ran back
when I started running again,
I really felt that I had made a lot of progress.
I went to meditate and daydream on the stone.
And I felt that it gave me here
the charging of my brain may be too much for me.
During this period,
during these four days,
I'm more relaxed.
Because you know that from Shanghai to South Africa,
people are in different states.
Shanghai is busy,
and South Africa is slow.
When I couldn't exercise,
when I was too slow,
I found that in these four days, I have been
I've been thinking.
I think more things.
I feel very charged.
Then I go back to running.
Wow, I immediately made progress.
From a mental perspective,
it must be a good thing.
But it's also good for the body.
In swimming competitions,
before a big competition, we do a taper.
Yeah.
I don't know how to call it in Chinese.
Taper means you swim a lot.
maybe one or two months before, you are
the hardest part of the training.
and then for the next three weeks,
and you will gradually
and then you reduce it gradually until you
I don't need to work so hard.
and then it gets easier and easier.
Then suddenly one morning,
and full of energy.
and all over my body.
The best.
This feeling
I feel like a superman.
I feel full of energy when I wake up.
This feeling is unimaginable.
Mostly.
If you haven't experienced this feeling, it's the best.
I agree.
I probably experienced this feeling a few days ago.
experienced such a feeling.
But starting from this week and next week,
my coach will send me a schedule.
Well, I hope it's more scientific.
Because I was particularly resistant to the schedule.
I think for me,
I am a happy runner.
How could I be tied to a schedule?
But I think I have to give it a try.
I think I have to try my best.
I must give it my all.
I want to see what I can do.
I think this
the coach will also give you a framework.
Well, you can use it in the future.
or not.
It's up to you.
But having this knowledge is quite important.
Yes.
Because in my first two marathons,
I ran the marathon blindly.
Because I didn't
I didn't know I was in a race the first time.
I just knew to run after the gun went off.
I just ran out after the gun went off.
and run.
I ran very hard,
And then I was completely exhausted after the race.
Because you give your all.
because you don't know how to run.
because it's not scientific enough.
The second time, I was too conservative.
Because um, also,
no one told me
what pace you might be running at right now.
what pace to run at.
But I'm afraid of running out of energy.
I was afraid of failing again
So I was very conservative this time, the third time.
I hope a coach can tell me
what pace I should run at.
I can now try to set a goal like this.
I think knowing what I'm doing is important.
which is very important to me.
Ha ha ha.
So, it will gradually
more and more scientific for me.
and then combine it with my own living habits.
Because it must
combining with your living habits.
I think this is particularly important.
When I was young,
my coach told me this.
a former member of the Hawaiian swimming team.
he entered the Olympics.
And this person
my coach heard him say during a speech that
Although I won this Olympic silver medal,
I didn't train much.
He said he didn't train.
I just swim.
He said he went swimming in the sea every morning.
He said he didn't have a plan or anything.
This feeling is right.
And he said after swimming,
sometimes I go surfing.
and sometimes I go surfing.
Today I want to swim breaststroke,
and breaststroke tomorrow.
I just swim.
His words are deeply engraved in my heart.
I felt like, wow,
he could win an Olympic silver medal with such relaxation.
Now I know it's impossible.
Right?
Now everyone is too scientific.
Yes, yes, yes.
But I think his mentality is right.
I still remember this sentence, I just swim.
I don't train, I just swim.
You know,
I think in a short-distance race,
I think
this mentality should be fine.
but I have hit the wall in a race,
and cried on the track.
It's because
Ha ha.
because I didn't prepare well.
I just came to enjoy it.
and then cried on the track.
Electrolyte Poem,
and disorder.
So I realized that
Just because
I educate everyone who is overconfident.
because they may have the ability,
but I don't.
Yes, yes, so it's also because of the long distance.
because in the mountains,
you may encounter various problems,
rain and other things.
and room temperature, in case of any problems.
you may often vomit,
and body aches,
headaches, heatstroke, and so on.
So how do you know
how to deal with it?
This is why I like running cross-country.
I think it's very interesting.
Because it has a lot of changes and variables.
Yeah.
After all, it's nature.
No.
you can always educate someone who is arrogant.
Ha ha ha.
Yes, this heart.
So I think life is very interesting.
just like balance.
you need to be scientific,
but you also need to balance your mentality.
otherwise it will become内卷.
Yes.
Yeah.
I think everyone
and everyone's balance point is different.
Yes, some people are completely on the competitive side.
while some people are completely peaceful.
Yeah.
I think most people need to find a balance.
in the middle.
and balance can go further.
I agree.
Because I think if you keep working hard,
you can't keep working hard.
No one can do this.
you will be hurt one day.
Yes.
There will definitely be problems.
And you can't always be peaceful.
I understand that being too peaceful.
It will cause problems.
Just stay there.
I don't know if that's good either.
You need to find a middle point.
you can always stay relaxed.
as long as you don't
Come on.
tell your very trained friends why you are like this.
Why don't you wait?
When waiting for me,
As long as there is no such problem, I'm okay.
Ha ha ha, yes yes.
So,
You are now at this level.
don't you think
with your previous modeling
is particularly different?
Do you still keep in touch with them?
Because I don't have much contact with
most of my friends from the past.
I feel like our worlds are completely different.
Do you still keep in touch with those people?
Be friends?
I don't know what we would talk about.
Because we will also retire.
Ha ha ha.
I don't know if your party friends are still in the party.
But my model friends have also retired.
And what do they do?
They are the boss of the model company.
Ha ha ha.
Some of them have become mothers.
and then, um,
Of course, some are single like me,
and don't know what they are doing every day.
And then we will
just reminisce
about the past
and the past.
the state of our lives and the current state.
Sometimes we talk about comparisons.
but we are all very fortunate
that we experienced this when we were young.
This wave is particularly exaggerated
and exaggerated life.
so that we can imagine
which is like seeing the world at a young age.
and the world.
And now we can be more stable.
I think there are many.
And you know what?
these girls who are models
I'm still friends with them.
none of them are competitive.
and none of them are jealous.
we were all with these girls at that time,
all of us were the best
were all future supermodels.
So now, when we look back,
many things are quite ordinary.
especially for the competitive mentality.
especially for girls' competitive mentality.
Actually, we can talk about it.
more relaxed than you think.
more relaxed.
Yes, yes, yes, and I'm also saying now
I really like to talk to people who
who have experienced some things
and have seen some of these things.
but then they come back to be stable and safe,
and be a person.
to communicate and make friends.
And I think this is very important.
Yes.
Yes, this is it.
are friends in my comfort zone.
I can understand.
When did you start?
Most of them have been models for a long time.
Eighteen or nineteen, yes, nineteen.
Some people are fifteen or sixteen.
who haven't even seen the world.
suddenly go to places like New York and London.
I think it's quite dangerous.
and suddenly you're dropped.
In a big city,
in an uncomfortable industry.
Oh.
Yes.
Because sometimes I think to myself,
if
if I were as sensible as I am now when I was young,
or know what I know now,
and know who I am now,
and affirm myself,
I wouldn't have experienced
the pain I experienced when I was a model.
Always denying myself.
I've signed with the best modeling agency,
it means I have a chance.
But you always compare yourself with others.
That is,
He is thinner than me.
her legs are longer than mine,
His face is better.
and her hair is more beautiful.
Or today they tell you that you can go,
you can lose weight.
and then you start to question if it's my problem.
For example, if I wear a piece of clothing,
maybe the designer is crazy.
The designer made the clothes too small.
It's his problem.
It must be his problem.
Now I think it's interesting.
Actually, when I was young,
without knowing who I was,
I have experienced so many doubts.
Because you are being chosen every day.
So, it's like you have this condition,
and then you are shattered by three views.
After being broken,
I put them together piece by piece.
and put it back together like I am now.
It's a very interesting life experience.
Maybe, um,
I really, really want to tell myself
myself when I was a child.
It's okay.
you're excellent.
you're great,
Do you regret it?
No regrets at all.
There was a period when I regretted it.
I was unwilling to admit that I was a model.
but now I don't regret it at all.
Wow, that's it.
My past has shaped my experiences.
and as a result,
that I think I am such a great person.
Ha ha ha.
Yes, I am now sure of myself.
Uh-huh.
Well, because I have some model friends.
And their career paths
aren't as optimistic as you.
But now, as for me,
I have met many models before.
and there are many in our bar.
At that time, I saw them as little and tender.
Oh, and then they started wearing heavy makeup.
and then started to have minor plastic surgery.
And then they really started to have plastic surgery.
I've seen this process.
it's just that you
you were already beautiful.
What are you doing?
this kind of
But the people around him
some friends around him would tell him that
But this person may not get it.
He is really good-looking.
He doesn't need these things.
because his environment has always been
Just like you said, they filter him.
So he keeps comparing himself with others.
Am I that bad?
And it's no use for others to tell him.
They say no, your grade is perfect.
You don't need to have plastic surgery anymore.
You don't need to have plastic surgery.
Now at the age of forty, he says why did I do so much?
Yeah.
I've heard many such pessimistic stories.
So hearing that you are so happy,
I'm very amazed.
I think you are the rare one.
OK, I'm lucky.
I think maybe as you said,
it's also a friend's screening.
The friends I keep around me are models.
because we are similar.
That's why we can get together.
And um,
It's really a pity.
as you said, it's a pity.
And the environment can really change people.
And I've always longed to be alone
to go out and see things.
and see things, so my mind may never
maybe never one hundred percent on the model.
Maybe it doesn't occupy my appearance
or even one hundred percent of my mind.
Although I have many doubts about myself,
But at the same time, I think everyone looks like me.
Maybe because I'm in this industry,
yes.
I can see where the beauty of a person lies.
And then someone told you that
what's the name of this part of your lower eye?
One of your eyes
one is big and the other is small.
but it's very nice.
It looks good.
Oh, no one.
Around me,
no one would tell me such things.
Ha ha ha.
Because I think in my current circle,
only
How good are you at jiu-jitsu, or rock climbing?
This is
None of my friends would tell me this.
because this will make you
because your eyes are relatively long.
There's an episode.
Your eyes are thin.
Because your eyes are thin and long.
But your eyes can make your face look more harmonious
making you look more honest.
It makes you look more honest and naive.
Do you know?
Because it makes your whole face
because you look smart.
And the eyes look like
it adds a little bit
which adds a touch of simplicity.
It just balances it out, okay.
Yeah, yeah, so it's just, ha ha ha.
But sometimes I also think about
and think about some random things.
I think so.
So I
I think maybe it's because I am who I am.
I just happened to be on the path of being a model.
and maybe I have a little bit of it in me,
But I'm still me.
I might be a runner and a model.
maybe
which
maybe I'll do something else someday.
but the core is still me.
That's it.
I think it's hard to learn your mentality.
Let me tell you one of my experiences.
I had a clear fork in the road.
Maybe a little before twenty twenty.
It was around twenty twenty-two or twenty twenty-three.
I had two.
I was working in investment banking at that time.
I had two bosses, and one of them was very close to me.
and
I liked fashion and
I was more interested in analysis.
嗯
I did more analysis but not sales.
And this boss
took good care of me.
The other one was very exaggerated and
Wow, I didn't really like that person.
at that time.
And he was in sales.
He often went to parties outside.
and often went out to parties.
wanted me to get closer to them.
When I was at this fork in the road,
I was thinking about being more like Terence.
and analyze things well.
and do well in this area, you know.
or this boss named Calvin.
Kelvin, he said let's go to a club.
and he said let's open a club.
I don't know anything about opening a club.
What are you doing?
Then, ha ha ha.
I asked Kelvin.
I don't know why.
At that time, I made this decision.
and then I kept being told that I made the right decision.
Um.
But actually, the question shouldn't be whether I'm more like Terrence
or more like Calvin?
The question should be whether you should be more like yourself.
Which one is more like myself?
But at that time,
I didn't even think about this topic.
I just thought, would it be better to be more like this person?
or more like that person?
I didn't even think about it.
But in fact, the more like yourself, the happier you will be.
Yeah, and many people don't reach this fork in the road.
and they didn't analyze this fork at all.
Yeah.
So you can do this thing, that's amazing.
I think you will find it later in time.
When you were young, maybe it was just like your decision.
or maybe your instinct.
Then maybe you will know later that
I made the right decision.
Yes, yes, yes.
At that stage of your life,
you need to make this decision.
And then it's what you need.
So I think it's the accumulation of age.
Ha ha ha.
So I need to keep exercising
and stay young.
Then I can keep playing.
and until
when I'm fifty years old,
treat yourself as a thirty-year-old.
It will definitely.
I think you should keep this happiness.
you already have this map,
this roadmap.
in your heart.
You shouldn't make too many mistakes.
and I won't.
I have to say that my current happiness
This is the highest point in my life.
Me too.
Yeah.
Bye bye.
Yes, it's the highest point in my life.
Yes.
not necessarily the most successful in my career,
but it must be the most fulfilling thing I do.
It's me, I am.
I do what I like.
and then know that
As you said,
on this road,
is very important.
I think I'm online.
I'm doing what I love, which is the happiest thing in my life.
Why do you think no one teaches this now?
I really think that
sometimes in school,
teachers should teach this.
and find themselves.
It's so hard. America doesn't do it either.
and no one here.
Yes, many people don't know.
As I see,
I think our parents' generation
they can't teach it either.
because they don't know either.
They didn't really sit down and think about who they are.
嗯
Because all their energy is invested in us.
Yeah.
Their life goal is to let their children live better.
So we live a great life.
But now we have the time
and the privilege
Yes, we can find ourselves.
But most people are not looking for it.
Because they don't know what it feels like.
Because um,
Let me give you an example.
I once went to see a psychiatrist
I went to see a psychiatrist.
It was my mother
actually needed to see a psychiatrist.
But I didn't know how to deal with it.
So I went to see a psychiatrist to talk about it for her.
about this situation.
Until then, I read a lot of books about it.
about this matter.
Finally, there was one thing.
I suddenly felt enlightened.
I'm just saying,
you may try to give up
letting your mother become healthy.
Because you know,
they grew up in China in their time.
and we are Mongolians.
Let's not talk about some historical things.
It's not a very happy childhood.
He said,
he may not know in his life
what a normal person
what it feels like to be a normal person.
He doesn't know what it is.
He never had a day like that since he was a child.
So maybe this is his whole life.
You may not need to
He may not know what that feeling is.
You can't explain it to him clearly.
So I think this is the case for most people.
It's just an example.
may not have this perception in their lifetime.
So you
he can't communicate with others
to have such a conversation
and communicate.
and educate your children about what it is.
about this thing.
It's a pity.
I think the main reason is that
we love our parents so much,
and we also hope that they can feel
our happiness.
But it's hard to communicate.
Then I told him that
Look, I'm so happy today.
and all he could think about was
Why don't you earn more money?
Ha ha ha.
Or you can try to go back to investment banking.
That was the most unhappy time for me.
That was the most unpleasant period of my life.
If you ask me to go back to that time
and earn more money,
It would be totally different.
It's hard for my feeling to pass on.
But I still love them.
I hope they can feel my
happiness.
It's hard.
Because they might think more money means more happiness.
Of course.
But I think
if they can feel a little bit of my happiness,
is enough.
that's enough.
I can't ask them to understand me one hundred percent.
It's too hard.
It's hard for them to do that. Yeah.
Do you think Molly at that time
did she feel that many people were too naive
who believe that modeling is the best industry.
who think modeling is their life.
kind of like
I don't know the current running group.
Hmm.
Uh, interesting.
Hahaha.
I have a friend like that.
who still pursue their dream of being a model.
Uh.
I don't know.
To be honest,
I don't really understand.
That is,
It's a situation where you don't have control over everything.
is out of your control.
I don't like this kind of control freak.
I'm not a control freak.
But I think
I hope to have some control over my life.
Me too.
At least for some major plans.
But I don't think this industry has any
Because we know we have autonomy,
know what they want,
what you like
and who I am.
So I know
this thing
may appear in my life for a period of time.
I find it interesting.
and then just chill by.
But maybe some people don't know who they are,
what they want,
and don't know where to go in the future,
they are obsessed with staying here.
Because this is their spiritual sustenance.
Just like many bad marriages,
or a rotten marriage.
because they don't know what's next.
I leave this marriage.
who I am.
who I am.
So there must be such people.
he will definitely not fall into this.
It's a bit like a bad addiction.
addiction, how to say it?
How to describe it is that because of this problem,
so it could be a model,
or marriage,
or anything else.
Yes, there must be such people.
And because I have this,
I know I want to control my own time.
I want to control my time, so I just
I jumped.
What do you think of this?
because I see the running groups now.
I call them cults in brackets.
Ha ha ha.
They all wear the same clothes,
and shout the same slogan.
When I was young, I participated in
some church activities, and we sang together.
And then everyone just
it's cult-like.
Why do you love this thing so much?
I never got it, and then I came here.
I saw jujitsu, which is also cult.
Right?
These groups, because there are a group of people
who think this hobby is their life.
that's my life.
Running is life.
Jujitsu is life. Then I said,
Why not you are life?
To be honest, I don't really understand either.
Ha ha ha.
I even tried to join a running group, but I didn't.
but I don't belong to any running group.
And I just go occasionally when I have time.
occasionally.
But besides that,
For example, you are my running friend,
and he is my ballet friend.
I used to dance ballet for a while, okay.
You are my
you are my party friend,
You are my
You are my dining companion.
We have to separate.
But many people do put them together.
Well, don't you overlap them?
I don't like it.
I don't know why.
I used to dislike it.
Now I start to choose.
Some people can be friends.
And then there are some people
I find that we are not that close.
Yes, this.
If I bring a Brazilian jiu-jitsu friend to
for example,
a board game event,
he can't fit in.
Well, the threshold is too high.
These people only talk about jiu-jitsu.
board games, they can't connect.
I would never put them together.
But some people are more adaptable.
I'm slowly discovering
These people who are more open-minded will be closer to me.
I can take them to rock climbing.
or talk about you know
Dungeons and Dragons
or some nerdy things.
I can talk about them.
It's good that these people can communicate in these groups.
and the overlap is better.
Because I personally don't know.
You are an artist, right?
You must be extroverted, actually you are.
I don't think so, but sometimes I do.
Yes, but I will.
Personally, I think it's purely a matter of personality.
I like being alone and quiet.
I really like this state a lot of the time.
So I don't know.
I haven't thought about it or specifically considered why.
Ha ha, maybe I can try.
Because I think the running group is very
Although there are many benefits,
They can teach and have many coaches,
There are many coaches.
They share a little bit every day in the group.
I think coaching is a good thing.
But some people feel that they are tied down.
Like running is this group, and there is no other group.
My group is the best.
We are the best.
I can see what's going on with that behavior.
This is actually quite wonderful.
Because I recently joined a running group in South Africa.
which also has a strong sense of cohesion.
But there is no typical feeling of being tied up.
feeling of being tied up.
I don't know where to fit in.
Everyone will show up on time.
Some people will drink after running,
After running, we will have coffee together,
or go to the night market at night.
There is no such typical
the sense of binding.
Do they date together in this group?
Ha ha, I don't know.
because I don't participate in this kind of group.
Because I think the binding point here is that
everyone dates each other.
dating each other.
Because in Shanghai, clubs
running club, I think it's a dating club.
I've heard of it.
I've heard of it too.
They are not a running club.
is just an activity in this club.
But I think it's mainly a dating club.
which leads them to be tied to the group.
Do you know the running group Butterfly?
Ha ha ha, is there?
Ha ha ha, are you?
Are you?
I'm thinking about whether I am.
But I'm not.
I just go to one or two regularly.
that fit my schedule.
Some really do.
I go to various running groups and activities.
and say for what.
I do it for taking photos.
I said, for taking photos, ha ha.
Yeah, I don't attract you.
You've been photographed n times.
You don't need this attraction.
But I can understand.
Because,
Have you been to school?
I have.
I have.
And where?
Wait, have you been there?
I have.
I have been there too.
I went to Sydney.
Because
my boyfriend at that time was a
a curious baby like Peter Pan.
Ha ha ha.
He was a bit like me.
And then?
He said that all good businesses
is just a coat.
is a cult.
Uh, yes.
Right, that's more or less what it was.
Then we agreed
we went to the school to have a look.
And then about eight of us went together.
One of them was from Japan,
called Light or Lightning
or something like that.
We went there.
So when we got there,
I didn't know what it was.
maybe it was like a church event.
I have never been to church.
We went to a yard.
and there were some food on the table.
He said, look at our soy sauce.
This is the soy sauce that has been enlightened.
Then you dipped it in,
and it didn't taste good.
Then I said okay.
and then, um,
There were indeed many people lying there.
Maybe you sit here,
and he put his hand in front of my head.
He can give you light.
and say, are you, uh,
Coin means that he has cured some diseases.
or something like that. And I observed that
we observed everyone
who did this.
And finally,
they enthusiastically invited me to receive treatment.
about this matter.
It was the longest ten minutes of my life.
I even wanted to curse.
I tried to understand.
Because sometimes only when you go there yourself,
you may understand why this happened.
Maybe they are really a group of people lacking love.
There is really some false love here.
They were brainwashed.
Yes.
To be honest,
as a market,
market research thinks I'm a failure.
None of us understood.
We ended up running away like this.
It was a mental breakdown.
Why would anyone accept such a thing?
There are such
Maybe I'll be honest,
Maybe we are really lucky.
we are all complete.
So I didn't understand.
And I didn't even think
as a complete person,
how can you understand such a thing?
I don't know how you think about it.
I have no gain.
I have no gain either.
It's exactly the same as what you said.
I think most people lack love
or something.
Well, I can say that
I have an aunt.
as soon as she arrives in the US,
the church immediately helps you do one two three four.
That's a good thing.
Don't get me wrong.
I think churches really
it helps them with the visa.
and they need all kinds of things.
and the search is also available.
It's easy to integrate.
I feel like I need something,
I can ask the people here
and they can help me.
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When I came to Shanghai, many people were obsessed with jiu-jitsu.
Yeah.
I had a visa problem,
I said in the group.
Anyone know someone who can help me with my visa?
They immediately replied.
I recommend this person.
My knee is broken.
I broke my knee, and I'm wondering if anyone knows a physiotherapist.
I'll recommend someone.
These people in the group can help you.
Well, you have everything you need when you're in a hurry.
Here, you feel like this is my life.
This is perfect.
Why do I need something else?
I don't have this curiosity.
if there is something better outside.
Yes.
Imagine the survival principle of animals.
on the grassland,
in Africa.
We are lions.
Huh.
I don't think I would consider myself a lion.
Yes.
Wild dogs.
Maybe.
Really.
I'm just making an analogy.
It's because we don't need to live in groups.
while some people need to live in groups.
We can do many things independently.
So it's better to have a group.
Sometimes I have a group.
I will be happier.
and more satisfied.
I think so.
Yeah.
When I was young, I had a team, a swimming team.
I really didn't make progress in my stroke.
I would ask you,
senior.
What do you ask for?
Can you help me?
Many of the girls I talked to
were taught by the seniors.
They taught us fifteen-year-old boys when they were eighteen.
It's nice to have this kind of group.
It's good that there is a group to help you.
But I also think
sometimes you need to go out by yourself
and go around by yourself.
and then come back.
These groups will be more valuable.
and make you feel
I think this is valuable.
Well, after hearing what you said,
Maybe I can try to participate a little more this year.
Yes, because my wife has separated me.
which is my weakness.
Because
I don't need to watch.
Because I
or social.
No.
We can't be completely independent.
Being independent is good.
I also like it.
I'm fine being alone at home
I'm fine with being alone for a whole day or week.
I don't need to look at my phone.
Nothing great.
But when I came back,
and seeing my Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu friends gave me a good hug.
That's great, and I still like it.
I don't know if you will.
Let me tell you a story.
Well, before I came to China,
I felt lonely for two and a half years.
I didn't speak Chinese well.
and few friends.
I remember the first one who was a bit like a lover.
I remember it clearly.
Ha ha ha.
I could hug someone every day.
That feeling is amazing, because I was lonely for too long.
Yes.
Then suddenly I could have a hug
and someone
who really cared about me, I felt very excited.
I remember that period very clearly.
I was very obsessed.
I realized that I needed to take it easy.
I can't be alone forever with that feeling.
That feeling is amazing.
It's still very human.
Yes.
This is my person.
It's one of my lessons.
I will, and I am also
I personally think I need to inhale.
I know this problem.
I will take it.
and I also need to change something.
to overcome.
Let me tell you what I think about this.
Are you ready?
I often say on this radio station that
Yes.
I think people need a marketing funnel.
Yes, friends.
social funnel.
which is exactly the same as marketing.
They need to know who you are.
They need to be interested in you.
Then they will pay a little.
Your friend will become a loyal one.
and buy more,
and call you more.
But you need to filter from the highest and largest pool,
filter, filter,
filter, filter,
It takes time.
If you don't add from the top,
you will never have these close friends.
Then you must have
When you find you have a problem,
it's too late.
You need someone to be on top all the time.
which takes time.
Then you need to filter.
Filtering.
Filtering.
Many people don't make it.
This is the most important.
How many filters did this group go through
to have this one friend
two friends.
So you need to search more.
And I think I love telling the truth.
Um, okay.
But I deliberately go out to meet new friends,
or new groups.
Because I know this word must be full.
When this word is empty,
all the others will be empty.
and then there will be problems.
Makes sense.
I highly recommend it.
I will think carefully about how to achieve it.
Ha ha ha.
Because you always travel,
it's hard for you to settle down in one place.
It's hard to have such friends.
unless it was me before.
I agree with this.
This is also.
Why did I later feel that
I must have a fixed place in Shanghai.
That's the reason.
But you don't feel
you feel uncomfortable when you settle down.
you really want to go out and have fun.
I just run out to play.
Ha ha ha.
I don't want anyone to care about me.
I want to go to the mountains and have fun alone.
I really feel this way every time.
I'm too excited every time.
Ha ha.
It's so addictive.
Excitement and addiction.
What should I do?
What do you think?
What do you think is the ideal?
Well, our last topic.
What do you think is the most ideal?
What does Fifi look like in ten years?
You mean not just the palm,
but the whole person.
Let me think.
I really want to.
I.
To be honest,
but maybe I can't
to have that picture on my head,
on my face
but in my body.
Just myself.
I have some small plans for five and ten years.
But putting aside my personal plans,
If I can always maintain
no matter what happens, I can remember
I can regain my current state,
and keep this ability,
I believe wherever I am and whatever I do,
I think it will be good.
I can always find who I am.
that's enough.
If I'm still doing it in ten years,
whether I'm in this industry or another industry,
I know I will be fine.
Well, OK.
OK.
That's all for today's recording.
Feifei is very happy.
You really ran a long way.
Ha ha ha.
It's okay, eleven kilometers.
Let me tell you,
You are Feifei Jun.
Is this your name on every platform?
Yes, I'm Feifei Jun.
OK, good.
Xiaohongshu.
What else do you have?
WeChat ID.
WeChat.
WeChat is it's not fifi.
It's not fifi. Okay.
I will put them in comments.
I will describe in the comments.
Go ahead.
Thank you, bye bye.
Bye.