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Speaker 1 (00:24):
What's good everybody
.
Welcome to the Charging Stationpodcast.
It's your girl, tracey Massey,of Living my Empowered Life.
I got a story to tell.
I have a story to tell, butbefore I tell the story, I want
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to welcome all of our newlisteners and viewers.
If you're watching on YouTube,hey boo, hey, hey, hey, thank
you for joining us.
You could be doing anything,watching anything, listening to
anybody, but you chose to lendyour time to me and I don't take
that lightly.
So, thank you, thank you, thankyou, thank you, thank you.
I hope you come back for moreshenanigans, because if this is
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your first time, this is a goodepisode to listen to, because
this is some shenanigans.
All right, if you are areturning listener, hey, power
Squad, you know I love me some.
You Welcome back, boo.
Y'all know what to do.
Make sure you're following meon all the socials.
You find me a living mind,power, life everywhere tiktok,
youtube threads, instagram,facebook, yeah and uh.
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The shenanigans continue overthere.
So, also, you know what to doright now.
Okay, you know what to do.
Grab your coffee, grab your tea, grab your water, grab your
wine whatever your beverage ofchoice is.
Go ahead, grab that thing.
Have a seat on the couch, couch, couch, baby, take your shoes
off, get comfortable, because Igot a story to tell you Hot off
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the press.
Now, if you follow me on TikTok, you know what this is.
Y'all, I stuck my big toe backinto the dating pool and now
it's gangrene.
Because of this experience thatI had, let me paint the picture
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.
Picture it Florida, florida,2006.
I decided to join a Facebookgroup for mature singles and the
age range is 25 to 50.
I know that's a big age range,but they had a lot of people my
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age who were wanting to, youknow, network, network, date or
whatever.
So I decide to go ahead andjoin and you have to put, you
have to do an introduction.
So I, I do my littleintroduction, add a couple
pictures, because you know theface card, the face card has not
been declining lately.
So I, so I add a couplepictures, and this guy messages
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me and he seemed cool.
All right, he messages me andthen he says you know, hey, I'm
in Charlotte too.
Do you mind exchanginginformation?
I'm going to DM you my contactinfo.
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So he sends me a friend request.
I accept it, which I usuallydon't accept friend requests
from people I haven't met inperson.
Yeah, I'm not doing that again.
So he DMs me.
And one thing he said, thoughhe said I can see the DMs but I
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can't respond, which soundedweird anyway, but anyway.
So we exchanged phone numbersand go from there.
This was on Saturday, so I wasin Florida visiting my sister
for her birthday, so this was onSaturday.
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Go about my merry little way.
On Sunday we're sitting at mysister's table, you know, having
dinner and laughing and this,that and the third, and my phone
starts going off.
It's about 930.
My phone starts going off andanybody that knows me knows my
phone goes on Do Not Disturb at8 pm.
And anybody that knows me knowsmy phone goes on do not disturb
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at 8 pm.
Every day, every day, 8 pm to 8am, my phone is on, do not
disturb.
Only a select few can getthrough, so I just don't happen
to have my phone in my hand andall of these pictures start
coming up and I'm looking likewho is this coming up?
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And I'm looking like who isthis Because the number that he
gave me on Facebook was adifferent number than what he
was texting me from.
So I was like who is this?
And so he tells me his name andhe says from FB.
And I was like, oh, hey, howyou doing Blah, blah, blah, so
just casual conversation, and Isay, hey, you know, hey, um, I'm
enjoying time with my family,I'm I will hit you back later on
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.
I said it's kind of it's a busyweekend I'll hit you back later
on because I wanted to spendtime with my sisters and my
nieces and nephews.
You know, this first time we'reall in the same room together,
so it was a big weekend for me.
Okay, he's cool with that.
Sunday, no Monday, sunday, noMonday.
I'm at the airport with mysister and let me see, I still
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have these text messages, y'all.
I just might put the textmessages no, I'm not, never mind
, never mind, never mind, nevermind.
Do I still have them?
I think I do anyway, while Ilook this up, um Sunday, you
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know, just casual, real casualconversations, because I'm like
you know, I don't know you froma bag of chips.
So I'm very cautious when itcomes to meeting guys because
some of them can be a littledifferent.
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And yeah, I'm so glad Icontinue to roll the way that I
did and I'm going to tell youwhy in just a moment.
Hang in there, hang in there.
I must have deleted them.
But anyway, just casualconversation.
And Sunday we're sitting, I'msitting at the airport with my
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sister, we're having lunch, andhe sends me a picture of himself
at the gym.
So yeah, we were talking aboutthe gym, we talked like casual
stuff.
He was asking me a picture ofhimself at the gym.
So yeah, we were talking aboutthe gym, we talked like casual
stuff.
He was asking me all kinds ofquestions about my birthday and
he just like went down this listof things, like he in one text
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he told me about his parentsbeing deceased.
He told me about kids, like hetold me everything in this just
one long text.
And I'm like, like what in theworld?
But it's fine.
So he's telling me all of thisstuff.
I'm not really giving up anyinformation because, again, I
don't know you.
You know, I don't know you,just very generic stuff.
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And so we happen to have asimilar story where he's met
siblings from a DNA test that hedidn't know existed.
So we connected on that level.
So, okay, cool, sunday I'msitting at having lunch with my
sister before I got on my flight, and he sends me a text of him
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at the gym.
Now, mind you, he's a goodlooking guy.
He's a good looking guy fromthe pictures, keep that in mind,
from the pictures.
And so this picture was like Iwas taking a back because I went
ooh, now he wasn't topless ornothing, but I was like ooh.
And when I made that sound, mysister was like what?
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And so I showed her the pictureand she went ooh too, and made
that sound.
My sister was like what?
And so I showed her the pictureand she went oh too.
And so we were looking andtrying to figure out okay, well,
how tall is he?
Blah, blah, like all thatregular stuff.
So, um, I say to him hey, I'mabout to catch my flight, I will
hit you back um later when Iland, or whatever.
So that was Monday when I gotback, um, I had to get myself
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settled and everything like that.
He texted me again and so we'rejust having again another
casual conversation.
Then it starts to he calls me.
So when he calls me like thisis our first conversation he
calls me and is just like justtalking, just talking, just talk
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, just talk, just talk, justtalk, just talk, just talk, just
talk.
I can't get a word in edgewise.
He would ask me a question andwouldn't let me finish my
sentence, wouldn't let merespond, and that drives me nuts
like that gets on my last nerve.
And I noticed that he startedto twist some of the things that
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I was saying and so I was likeyou know what?
I'm going to have to hit youback later.
I have, I need to unpack andget myself settled and get ready
for work tomorrow.
Blah, blah, blah.
He says what do you do?
What are your?
What are your work hours?
What do you work?
Like all of this stuff, likeI'm not telling you that, I'm
not telling you that for you toshow up at my job, no, and y'all
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, let me tell you something.
My body started to have areaction.
It was like my body was tellingme then to abort mission.
My body was telling me girl,leave it.
Block, block, block, block.
I should have listened.
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I actually should have listenedto my inner self, to my Holy
Spirit.
I should have listened.
When I saw the first picturethat he sent me and he was
wearing a top hat and a pinkyring, but my sister was like, no
, just wait.
I should have listened.
I should have listened.
Yes, he was wearing a top hat,so hang up off of there.
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And the next morning I'm goingto the gym.
It's early when I finishedworking out with my trainer and
I get ready for work andeverything.
I'm walking out to my car and Isee that I have a text message
from him at like 5.15, 5.20 inthe morning.
So I text back like goodmorning, blah, blah, blah.
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And he's like what took you solong?
I'm sorry, what?
So I said so I said I said, huh, what took me so long?
I was like, I was working out,like, and I didn't owe him that.
So he said oh okay, so did youget sweaty?
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Yeah, I was working out, so Ishould get sweaty.
Then he says to me I can getsweaty too and I can drip all
over you, blah, blah, blah, blah, sir, hold on.
So me catching what he's saying,because one thing I'm going to
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do, one thing I'm going to do,is listen.
I am a good listener.
So I hear him say that and Iknow where he's going with this,
this.
I'm not going there with youbecause one I don't know you we
have not met.
This is a little weird.
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So I said, well, we must beworking out in the gym together.
Because no, I say, um, this isall by text.
Y'all sorry we weren't talking,this is all by text.
He texts and says, um, no, Isay, well, how are you gonna get
sweaty on me, which I shouldn'thave done, but it was early and
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I immediately text again.
I said we must be working outat the gym together because
that's the only way that's gonnahappen.
I said, and even then, you'renot even going to be that close.
He says, nah, well, yeah, wecan work out together.
Okay, we're doing this.
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So then he texts how importantis sex to you?
Now?
Y'all, keep in mind, weconnected on Saturday.
This is Tuesday.
Saturday, sunday, monday,tuesday, three days.
We connected on Tuesday.
He's asking me these questionswhile I'm at work.
I'm at work, I'm busy, my firstday back, blah, blah.
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So I say to him it's too muchto type.
No, I say to him intimacy ismore important to me than sex,
which is true, intimacy is moreimportant than sex to me.
And he says explain.
And I say it's too much to type, I'll have to call you when I'm
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done.
So I left work, did my thingthat I needed to do.
It was a little later in theevening I texted him.
I was like hey, can you talk?
He's like, yeah.
So we get on the phone and hesays, hey, explain this intimacy
thing to me.
And so I say to him intimacy ismore important than sex,
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because intimacy is more thanphysical.
You're connecting with a person, you're learning about who they
are, you're learning about whatthey like, what they dislike.
You're figuring out what youlike about them, what you don't
like about them.
Like, intimacy creates a bond,it creates a relationship.
And for me now, if I can't beintimate with somebody outside
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of a physical thing, we can't bephysical.
And so he's like, oh, I.
And then he just goes on atangent.
It was just like that, that,that, that, that, that, that,
that, that.
And we went from the intimacything to him mentioning Orange
Satan.
And here's the thing that gotme when he mentioned Orange
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Satan, because he was talkingabout he agrees with that man
about people going back to workin the office, like full time,
no, working from home.
And I say please don't mentionhim.
And he's like what?
I'm just using it as an exampleI can't mention him.
So now you're going to bring uppolitics.
It's going to turn intopolitics.
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This is what you're going to do.
And I'm like what just happened, like what just happened.
And I say okay.
I said no, it's not politics,he just goes off on a tangent.
Now here's where I mess up,because he comes down, the
conversation gets back on trackand I say to him I said okay.
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I said well, do you haveanything going on this weekend?
He's like no, what's up.
I said well, maybe we can gettogether and meet for a coffee
or something.
And he says can I ask you aquestion?
Sure, ask away.
He says can I ask you aquestion?
Sure, ask away.
He says why I got to be theweekend.
See, this thing I don'tunderstand about females.
Red flag number two when hesaid females, I should have
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known Exit stage left.
He said this is what I don'tunderstand about females, like
why we got to meet up on theweekend, when we live in the
same city.
You know we could do somethingduring the weekday why I got to
be in a weekend.
It's like a long distancerelationship, because in my mind
I'm thinking first of all,we're not in a relationship Like
I want to meet you during theday so I can be safe.
So I said all right then,because, being me, I said all
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right then, what you doingtomorrow?
He's like, uh, uh, nothing, Idon't know Nothing.
I'll let you know tomorrow,okay.
So the next day comes.
This is Wednesday, day four.
The next day comes.
He texts me, um, at like six 15in the morning.
Day comes.
He texts me At like 6.15 in themorning.
Again, I'm getting ready forwork and I actually talked to
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him on the phone this time and Iusually don't talk to people
early in the morning.
I don't.
I got to get my mind right, Igot to have my time, you know,
prepare myself for the world,and so we're talking easy breezy
conversation.
And so we're talking easybreezy conversation and again
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he's not letting me get any likea word in.
So I'm just there to get readyfor work.
I don't think this man realizedthat I didn't say two words
until I actually got to work.
And so when I got to work, I Isaid, well, I made it to work.
It was nice talking to you,because he was talking, I wasn't
talking.
It was nice talking to you.
I said I hope you have a greatday.
And I said, oh wait, are westill going to get together this
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afternoon when I get off, he'slike I don't know, I'll let you
know.
I left it at that and went towork.
It was a busy day.
I left it at that and went towork.
It was a busy day, I ain'tthinking about it.
By the time I got off work I hada rip-roaring headache.
So I came home and I laid downtrying to ease my headache.
About 5.23, my phone rings.
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It's him and he says what's upLike attitude?
And I'm like nothing, what's upwith you?
And he says what's up Likeattitude?
And I'm like nothing, what's upwith you?
And he says what are you doing?
And I'm not exaggerating howaggressive he talked Like what
are you doing?
I said I'm laying down, I havea headache.
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Oh, so you can call me, you cantell me you have a headache.
Like we're supposed to gettogether at 4 o'clock and I'm
like hold on, hold on.
I said can you give me 20minutes, just give me 20 minutes
.
And so he's like all right, andwe hang up.
So I take, uh, some, some moremedicine to ease my headache.
Talk to a girlfriend of mine,talk to my sister, and um, I
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call him back, I text him, I sayhey, can you facetime?
And I call him back, I text him, I say hey, can you FaceTime?
He's like, yeah, so I FaceTimehim Now.
Keep in mind, he was supposedto let me know if he was
available for us to get together.
I'm still in my full faceclothes, dressed, everything.
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He was not.
When I FaceTimed this man, itlooked like he hadn't shaved in
a couple days.
He had on this tank top.
He was sitting outside chilling, fine, but he did not look like
he was ready to go anywhere tomeet me or anything and, granted
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, people can get dressed quicklyor whatever, but he did not
look like he was going anywhere.
Okay, so we FaceTimed.
He was like all smiles.
He was like, hey, how you doing?
And I was like, you know, myhead is still hurting.
I'm actually talking to himwith one eye open because my
head was still throbbing, butI'm trying to be, you know,
pleasant.
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He starts going in again andhe's like communication baby
girl, baby girl.
You supposed to, you supposedto do this, you're supposed to
do that, you're supposed to dothis.
And I said hold on.
I said can you at least ask meif I'm okay, check why he hang
up, why he hang up on me.
So, mind you, I had this rip,roaring headache.
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You can visibly see that Iwasn't feeling well.
He did not ask me if I was okay.
He just went on this wholetangent and then had the nerve
to hang up on me.
Baby, when I tell you, I saidoh, immediately blocked,
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immediately blocked everywhere.
I blocked him on Facebook, Iblocked him in my phone
immediately because at thispoint I'm like, all right, he's
not stable, like he's not stablewith all the tangents going on.
And I had told him, I told agirlfriend, um, earlier that day
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.
I was like it's something abouthim that annoys me.
So, remember, my body washaving a literal reaction to him
, like saying like justuncomfortable.
You know, you just get thatfeeling about people.
Sometimes that vibe is off.
So I was having it and hadn'teven met him, but just by the
text messages and theconversations it was just like
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all over the place y'all.
Why this man?
I'm on, I'm on facetime withanother girlfriend and after I
blocked him, why this man?
Leave me a voicemail?
And it was.
I was saying to my girlfriend.
I was like girl, I blocked himbecause I told him like he hung
up on me.
She's like oh no, that'sdisrespectful.
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That was absolutelydisrespectful.
And I was telling her about,like the conversations and
everything and she was like ishe okay?
I said I don't think so.
Blah, blah, blah.
So we're talking aboutsomething else and I see my
little voicemail icon pop up butthere's no number and I say I
bet that's him.
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I said I bet he left me avoicemail.
I said I want you to hear thisman because I want to make sure
I'm not tripping.
So I played the voicemail.
We listened, listening to ittogether, listening to it
together, and her face wasmortified.
She was like what is he?
Who is he talking to?
Blah, blah, blah, blah.
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So me being me again, y'all prayfor me.
The Lord is still working on me.
All right, me being me.
I messaged him back.
I sent him a voice note.
I didn't call him.
I sent him a voice note and I'tcall him.
I sent him a voice note and Isaid let me tell you something.
You don't know me.
You don't know nothing about me.
You won't get to know anythingabout me.
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I said you can say whatever thehell you want to say and you
can think whatever the hell youwant to think, but the people
that know me in my real life.
Whatever you say, they're goingto know that you full of
shiitake.
And I said lose my number.
I didn't say shiitake, I saidthe actual word.
But we're trying to keep itclean over here.
That's why I was.
I was going to be petty and puthis voice notes in here, but
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I'm not even going to do thatbecause we're going.
But I said lose my number,don't call me again.
I wish you the best on yoursearch.
I am done.
And that was it why he callback, why he leave another voice
note.
And this time it was even morevile.
Y'all the vitriol this manspewed at me.
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I was like, oh okay, you bigman, like you're definitely off.
And so at that point I was like, okay, he is unstable, let me
go report him in this group.
And so I sent the voice notesto the admins of the group and I
was like, hey, this man is inthis group.
And this was after these arethe messages he's left me.
After four days, he is not safe.
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And so I did put the voice noteup on on my TikTok if y'all
want to see it.
But it was only four days, andso I let some of my friends hear
it.
Some of my guy friends was likewhat is Joker at?
They didn't say Joker.
But I had to remind my guyfriends like, listen where this
joker at?
They didn't say joker, but Ihad to remind my guy friends
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like, listen, you got y'all.
Got wives and children and goodpaying jobs.
No, they was ready to find him.
I was like, no, I don't evenknow where he is.
He don't know where I am, blah,blah.
But that's how bad this was andif I was someone who had low
self-esteem he would have got tome.
But I'm gonna be honest withy'all.
I was sitting there likecackling, like why is he so mad?
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We haven't even met in person.
And I'm glad that I didn'tbecause, honestly, even if I met
him, I was not going to drivemy car.
So here's, here's a, here's atip ladies, if you're, if you're
out here in these datingstreets and they can be real
crazy never let them know whereyou live until you are pretty
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sure about them, and don't evendrive your car.
I was going to Uber to whereverwe met, because what you don't
need to do is know the make andmodel of my car and you don't
need to know the license platenumber of my car.
I was going to uber to whereverwe met and always when I go on
dates, somebody has my location.
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Somebody has my location everysingle time, because people are
crazy.
There's take that tip, use itfor what you will.
So my friends were all like likethey was ready to tussle with
this man all of them.
That's one thing I realized myfriends don't play about me and
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I don't play about them, butthey was ready to tussle with
this man.
And I had to say you know whaty'all it I think is it's sad
because clearly something is notright.
But also I thank God that Ihave grown so much, because I
could have gone back and forthand back and forth, but it's not
worth it and I actually justlaugh because I thank God for my
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confidence.
Now, one thing he kept sayingwas like you're not the prize,
baby girl.
You're not the prize, youbetter get in the gym.
But meanwhile I was looking atyou like remember when I said he
was a good looking guy and hewas kind of fit, he was sending
me pictures from the gym.
Those were old pictures.
No offense, those were oldpictures.
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I'm going to leave it at that.
So I laughed at it because Iknew that I was respectful,
which I did not owe him respect.
I was open to a certain extentnot too open to where you know
my whole life story and I wasstill keeping my integrity and
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my safety.
But the way this man talked tome on those voicemails
unacceptable.
And then he had the nerve, theunmitigated call, to try to call
me from his burner phone numberthat he had given me previously
in the that he had DM mepreviously.
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He tried to call me from thatnumber at almost midnight on
what was it Wednesday night?
So you spew all this vitriol tome on Tuesday, then you try to
call me later that night, almostmidnight, to try to get me.
And remember when I said myphone goes on, do not disturb.
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At eight o'clock I didn't getit and my phone actually saw
that number and labeled it asspam, so it didn't come through
anyway.
And then I saw that and Ilaughed.
I said why is he calling me?
Do you really think I'm goingto talk to you after what you
said to me and how you weretreating me?
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And you didn't even think toeven stop and ask me if I was
okay.
So that showed me a lot, youknow, that showed me a lot, like
I was not about to sit up hereand be playing with these red
flags.
No, sir, no, ma'am, no, ma'am,no, no, no, no, no, I am too
grown for that.
Now I, the old tracy, maybe Tryto see it through my boy.
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I must see it through, but no,immediately, no, no, immediately
, no.
And so I'm glad that I didn'tmeet him.
But I'm also mad that this ismy first attempt at dating again
and this is what I get.
Ah, ah, this is my firstattempt at dating again and this
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is what I get.
But, um, let me tell you howfunny my therapist is.
So Friday I had therapy and Iwas like I sent my therapist the
voice notes too.
And so when we got on ourtherapy session and I was
telling him, he was like likewho?
Because I told him, mytherapist, that, okay, I tried
dating and this is what I got,like I ain't going back out
there, I'm not going back outthere.
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And I sent him the voice note.
And so my therapist said T,have you ever been around
somebody who does cocaine?
And I was like no, I don'tthink.
So he said well, you have now.
And I was like what he said yes, this person is displaying
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addiction tendencies.
God, I thank you for protectingme.
So yeah, that was my story.
With the top hat, all thesedating streets are a trip, but
I'm not giving up.
I'm not giving up on love.
I keep telling a girlfriend ofmine who's engaged now, like in
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the way that she and her fiancegot engaged.
It's just a beautiful story andthe way that God just
orchestrated everything and itjust moved so fast.
It was like kind of scary howfast it moved.
But we, we know that it was Godand his timing.
I keep saying to my girlfriendslike I know God got somebody
back in the in the storage roomwrapped in bubble wrap, just for
me.
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He, just he just waiting forthe perfect moment to, you know,
display him.
But I'm also like God, don't letme get too, too up in age where
I get really set in my ways andI'm like I don't even want to
deal with you because I'm I'mgonna be honest with y'all.
It's some days I don't want todeal with these, these men.
I need him to come healed or atleast on a healing journey.
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At least on a healing journey,because, yeah, I'm on a healing
journey.
There's some things that I'mhealed from, but I'm also on a
healing journey.
So, yeah, I'm not giving up.
I kind of feel like I'm gonnabe walking down the street and
then boom, there he's going tobe, and then we're gonna live
okay.
Okay, all right, but y'all, Ishare my dating shenanigans with
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y'all, because this, this, thisby far, this by far is the
worst experience I have had.
I've had some some experienceswith dating, but this by far was
the worst, and I feel like Godis answering my prayer, because
I pray God.
If he is not the one for me,let it end quickly, like, show
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me immediately and when I tellyou, my discernment was on point
.
But now I got to get to thepoint where I'm believing what
I'm seeing and believing what mybody is telling me, because I
had a literal reaction to thisman, like tensed up, something
triggered me.
Tensed up, my body was tellingme abort mission.
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My discernment is on point.
So, anyway, y'all, I would loveto hear your dating shenanigans
Like what are?
Have you had a bad encounterwith somebody, a bad first date,
or even a good first date?
Because I feel like I need somehope now, share stories of good
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dates, good first dates, goodconnections, things like that.
So, again, I'm not giving up,because I know he out there
somewhere.
He's out there somewhere and heis praying that I don't meet
somebody.
And, sir, your prayer is beinganswered by the Lord, yeah.
So, all right, I will.
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I'm going to get back out there, maybe not this week, maybe not
the rest of this month.
I think I need to have a hotgirl summer, because that is
something.
Anyway, y'all, I hope that youenjoyed this story, because you
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know, I said I'm gonna stopsaying that my life is boring,
because stuff like this happensto me a lot.
So, yeah, thank you for tuningin, thank you for watching,
thank you for sitting back andlending me your ears, y'all.
I hope you come back next time.
Come back next time.
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We don't know what's going tohappen.
Anyway, you best believe it'sgoing to be something good.
All right, now, before I signoff, I just want you to remember
always, always, always.
God loves you, I love you, andain't nothing you can do about
it.
Boo Bye.