August 13, 2024 • 30 mins
What if the word "evolve" could completely transform your life and business? As we wrap up seven incredible years of The Charging Station, I recount the emotional journey since our launch on August 27, 2017. This season finale is a heartfelt thank you to our loyal listeners, both new and returning. I open up about the divine message I received, propelling me towards growth and challenging me to potentially close my coaching business, Living My EmPOWERed Life. Join me as I share the trials and the triumphs of embracing change, and the liberating philosophy that letting go, as directed by God, makes room for something even greater.
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Tracey (00:23):
What's good everybody.
Welcome to the Charging Station.
It's your girl, racy Massey, ofLiving my Empowered Life.
Hey y'all, I'm sad a little bit.
I'm a little bit sad becausethis is the season finale.
Season seven has come to aclose, and what a season it has
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been.
Thank you so much for rockingwith me.
In August, we will celebrateseven years of the Charging
Station.
I released my first episode onAugust 27th of 2017.
Wow, what a time.
What a time.
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And before we get into thisepisode, I just want to welcome
everyone.
If you're new here, welcome.
We're so glad to have you here.
I hope you stick around forseason eight and the seasons to
come.
You know I'm gonna do thisthing until God says otherwise
or until He calls me home.
And make sure you're followingme on all the socials.
(01:26):
This is for everybody.
Whether you're returning or newhere, everybody follow me on
all the socials so you can seewhat's going on in my life and
behind the scenes.
You can find me on Facebook,Instagram, TikTok, YouTube at
Living My EmPOWERed Life.
I'm also on threads at LivingMy EmPOWERed Life, so make sure
you stay connected during thisbreak off of the podcast and,
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baby, if you have been rockingwith me for a whole seven years.
I love me some you for real.
If you are a returning listener, welcome back.
Thank you, boo.
Thank you, boo.
Y'all know the shenanigans thathave been happening in my life
and so because of theseshenanigans I've just kind of
been looking at my life a littledifferently and I'm changing a
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lot of things.
You know, in my prayer time Godgave me the word evolve and it
messed me up.
I ain't gonna lie, it messed meup because I know when usually
God gives me those one word,things that I have to do a deep
dive.
It's a shift that is happeningin my life.
It's a shift that is happeningin my thinking.
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Basically, everything justchanges, and change sometimes
can be very hard, it can be veryscary and it can be difficult
because you get comfortable, youget used to things being a
certain way.
And I was talking to a friend ofmine the other day and I was
telling her about what was goingon, because she was asking me
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about coaching and I think Ishared on the last episode how I
just may not have been the lastepisode I shared on one of the
episodes where I was reallythinking about closing, living
my Empowered Life.
And God said not so.
But he also told me that thingswere going to be a little
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different around here, and whenI was talking to my friends and
telling her about this changeand everything, she said you
know what?
That's really brave of you,because she admitted that she
would be one to think about themoney that she's put into it,
the time that she's put into herbusiness, the tears, the blood,
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sweat and tears that you putinto the business, and I was
like you know what?
But yeah, that's all true, butif God tells me to let go, I
have to let go, because onething that I've learned on this
thing called life, this journeycalled life trying to hold on to
stuff that God says to let gowill not go over well for me.
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So I have to let go.
I'd rather honestly, I wasabout to say I'd rather lose it,
but it's really not a loss,because I don't look at things
as losses anymore.
Everything that God strips meof, he replaces it a hundredfold
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and it's so much better thanwhat I had before.
And so right now I feel likeI'm being stripped.
I feel like living, myempowered life is being stripped
, and I'm here for it.
I'm here for the ride.
Is it scary?
Yeah, yeah, is it exciting.
Yeah, you know, two things canexist at one time.
So I'm going to take thisopportunity in the season finale
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just to give you guys someinsight into where I'm headed.
And if you want to stay on thisjourney with me, you are more
than welcome.
I mean, you stuck it out thislong.
Will I get off the train now,unless the Lord tells you to do
that?
You know I'm not going to usurpwhatever God says for you to do
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, but here we go.
So I shared this with my emaillist.
I mean, if you don't know, ifthis is your first time joining,
hi, my name is Tracey.
I am a Certified Grief Coach.
I am also a Certified LifeCoach and, aside from The
Charging Station podcast, I runthis company called Living My
EmPOWERed Life, where we teachpeople impacted by tragedy how
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to disrupt the cycle of griefand thrive in a new normal.
And I also share my life.
I am a firm believer in "I canshow you better than I can tell
you.
So I shared this email with myemail list and when I tell you I
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was terrified to send thisemail, it wasn't because I was
afraid of people unsubscribing.
That happens every day.
It's like okay, I never wantpeople to be on my email list or
be on my social media or in anykind of capacity in the
presence of me, in any kind ofcapacity, and it's not serving
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them, they're not being fed,they're not being challenged,
they're not being pushed.
I don't want you to be here.
If we're not vibing, okay, Idon't want you to be here.
I would rather you spend yourtime, your precious time, wisely
and into things that betterserve you.
So it wasn't because I wasafraid of what people were going
to say or think, or even youknow, just leaving the email
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list or socials or whatever.
That wasn't it.
I was terrified because once Iput it in writing and put it out
there, it was real.
It was real.
I have to do this now.
There's no hiding.
And when I tell you I'm a goodhider, I'm a good hider and I
know that God says that we arelights on hills that cannot be
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hidden, I really do challengeGod.
I'm like you sure.
Like you sure Because I'mreally good at hiding.
He's like yeah, I never meantfor you to hide, I never meant
for you to fit in, so why are wedoing this?
You know why are we doing this?
Why are you trying to do theopposite of what I'm telling you
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to do?
This is why you've beenstruggling, so finally
surrendering.
But I sent this email and Ishared some of the things that I
am going to transition into.
Well, I don't even know if it'sreally transitioning, because
it's not new to me, it's not atransition to me, it's going to
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be a transition for everybodyelse that sees it.
But this is something that I'vebeen doing since March.
This is something that reallyhoned in once.
I found my sister and found outwe got there's seven of us at
least that are walking thisearth.
So, yeah, I don't know if Ishared that with y'all.
Oh yeah, we got seven siblingsLike it's myself, robin, that
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you heard on the podcast.
We found another sister andthen we found out that our
father had four other kids thatwe know of.
So it's seven of us.
Yeah, it's seven.
Seven is the number ofcompletion.
So maybe I am the baby, I don'tknow.
We're not talking about DNAtoday.
We're talking about, we talkabout this pivot and everything.
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So A couple of things that I'mgoing to share and, by the time
that this podcast airs, airs,releases, it's going to be on my
social media.
So I'm taking that deep breath,that sigh, because it's really
going to be real, because I havenot shared this with my mentor,
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I have not shared this with themajority of my audience.
So, yeah, here we go.
I'm evolving.
And let me just read thedefinition of the word evolve.
Let me make sure I can pullthis up without this thing
blasting, because I did postsomething on my social media.
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I am the queen of dropping ahint and then leaving y'all
hanging.
So I did post something, andwith a definition of the word
evolve, evolve means to develop,gradually, grow.
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Progress of evolution.
Progress of evolution, naturalgrowth.
So, being that I am still alive, I'm growing, I'm changing.
Things are different about me.
I'm going to tell you, you know,finding that I'm one of seven,
finding out that I'm one ofseven, finding out my DNA
results, that really threw mefor a loop, that really changed
me.
And in my caption I said thisseason of my life has caused me
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to reflect and reevaluate manythings.
The woman I knew two months agois no more.
She has served me well,although I grieve her.
It's time to move forward inlife, business and ministry that
last word, ministry is thething that really has been the
challenge for me.
I'm getting emotional.
I'm getting emotional.
I know that God has a callingon my life.
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Matter of fact, I know God hasshown me a glimpse of what my
future looks like.
He showed me this years ago.
I'm 48 years old.
At the time of the recording ofthis podcast, I'm 48 years old.
He showed me this.
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So, knowing that I have madesome tough decisions, some wrong
decisions, I've made badchoices, I've made good choices.
I've tried to rush the processof what God is doing in my life
because I was excited about theend result, not thinking, not
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thinking that the process in themiddle may get murky.
And with every decision that Imake to not be obedient, to not
follow his lead, to not do whathe says and move quickly.
It was costing me time, eventhough God is the redeemer of
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time.
I was putting myself in a cyclethat I wasn't even supposed to
be in, and so now I feel likeGod has broken me again, and I
feel like this is a rebirth.
And when I say broken, I don'tmean in the literal sense, I
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don't mean like oh, you know,don't take it like I'm losing my
mind or nothing like that.
No, I am the healthiestmentally that I think I've ever
been in my life, like everythingis just flowing all cylinders.
Mentally I'm good.
Spiritually I'm goodFinancially.
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I'm good Physically, I'm goodSpiritually, I'm good
Financially, I'm good Physically, I'm good.
But I feel like God has takenit up a notch.
So, with that, my evolving,these are the things that I'm
going to be focusing on.
Focusing on ministry Teachingthe word of God, edifying the
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word of God, lifting up God'speople, leading people to Christ
.
I am an intercessor and aworshiper at heart.
Going back to the things that Ilove, going back to the basics
Ministry for me is more thanjust standing in a pulpit and
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preaching a sermon.
I know God has given me aunique gift.
I know that he has anointed myvocal cords.
I know my voice is anointed.
It's time for me to use it inthe way that he has intended for
me to use it.
So don't think that I'm goingto be one of those Christians
that's beating you over the head, because that you know that
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word Christianity, right nowit's.
Some people out here are notdisplaying Christ's character
and his love and things likethat.
You can see that what'shappening in the United States
right now, it's just like, yeah,god will spew you out for the
way that you're acting and thethings that you're doing and
trying to do.
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Anyway, not being political.
As for me, I have to do whatthus says the Lord, but I'm
going to do it in the way thathe uniquely designed me to do it
.
If you ever get the chance tomeet me in real life, a lot of
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people, when they meet me inreal life, they tend to say
there's something differentabout you.
They tend to say I feel so calmwhen I'm around you, like your
voice is soothing.
When I worked in healthcare, Iliterally had patients to tell
me that my voice calmed them.
And when I was in healthcare, Iworked in transplant.
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So these were some really sickpeople.
These are some people who werehaving life-saving surgeries or
waiting to have life-savingsurgeries, but when it got to me
, I gave them a sense of peace,a sense of hope, and I owe that
all to God, because without himI wouldn't have been able to do
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that.
So we're focusing on ministry,focusing on serving, focusing on
you know all the things thatwhat ministry means to me
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Another thing that I'm going tobe.
My values are centered around,you know, god, jesus is my
center, but these are like thebranches of what my life is
going to be displaying.
So, when it comes to living myempowered life, when it comes to
business, when it comes to thecharging station, these are the
things that you're going to seemore from me, in my own way.
So, of course, I am a mentalhealth advocate.
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I plan on going back to schoolto finish my degree in
psychology, because I feel like,if I'm going to do this thing,
I'm going to do it right, and Iwant to be able to be even more
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knowledgeable in a thing thatI'm passionate about.
So we're going to be focusingon mental health because, baby,
let me tell you something, whenthe mind goes, everything goes
with it.
Everything goes with it.
We can sit here and try to eatright, get some sleep, drink all
the water and mind our business, but if your mind is running
100 miles an hour, all day,every day, when that mind goes,
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everything goes along with it.
So I will continue to be amental health advocate, I will
continue to offer tools andresources in that area and I
will continue to share myjourney with my mental health,
which is good right now, praiseGod.
Of course, the podcast willstill be here.
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The charging station willcontinue to go on.
I feel like there's so muchmore growth that can happen with
this podcast.
There's so many more people wecan reach.
I'm still blown away at thefact that there, my voice is
heard in places that my foot hasyet to touch, just like God
said he was going to do.
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I'm still blown away by that,but there's still more people
who need to hear it.
I'm still blown away by that,but there's still more people
who need to hear it.
So I'm going to continue withthe charging station.
We will still have episodesonce a week.
That may change once I get backinto school and in classes and
things like that, but thecharging station will be here.
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You know, I thank God for sevenbeautiful years of being able
to do this.
I don't take it lightly.
I don't take it lightly.
So the charging station willcontinue and, of course, I'm
going to be living.
I'm going to be living and whatthat means, and what that means
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, what that entails, is.
You'll see things about my life.
I'll be sharing things likewhat I'm reading, what I'm
watching, what I'm listening to,places I've traveled.
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You know lifestyle content.
You know I don't want to callmyself a lifestyle influencer no
, no, but lifestyle contentbecause you guys have shown me
that you find my life prettyinteresting.
I think it's boring because Iguess I'm in it every day, but
you guys tend to enjoy theshenanigans of my life, so I'll
be sharing those things andgoing a little bit deeper about
you know my favorite things.
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I'll be sharing those thingsand going a little bit deeper
about you know my favoritethings.
I'll be sharing my faith andhow grief has changed my
relationship with God and how Iincorporate faith into my life
every day, like some of mypractices that I do as far as
like praying and fasting andmeditation and things like that
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what I do to stay connected andeven get deeper connected to God
.
I'm also going to be sharing andthis is one that's going to be
a little challenge for me, butI'm turning 50 in about a year
and a half now.
I'm turning 50 in about a yearand a half now.
So I started this thing calledFit, fine and Fabulous by 50,
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where my goal is to drop 100pounds by my 50th birthday or be
the fittest in my life.
So I want to be healthy, I wantto feel good, I want to look
good.
You know all those things.
And by the time I turn 50, Ireally want to be celebrating my
50th birthday at a villa on anIsland with my cheeks out.
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Okay, my friends can't stand itwhen I say I'm having my cheeks
out, but y'all going to get oneday, like, if you go on this
trip with me, you're going toget one day when I'm in a thong
all right, because I have beenworked, literally working my
booty off, so you gonna getthese buns.
But I'll be sharing the thingsthat I'm doing with Fit, fine
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and Fabulous.
I really don't like having acamera in my face when I'm
working out because it's ugly.
It's really ugly, like myworkouts be ugly, so I don't
want to.
I don't want to put those outthere, but there may be a couple
of days when I do.
But I'll be sharing what I'mdoing.
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For that I'll still be sharingmy DNA journey when we find
things.
Right now we're at a standstillbecause we're just trying to
reach out to people and get somemore information, but right now
I have a beautiful relationshipwith my big sister, robin, and
I love it.
I love it.
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I love being a baby sister.
There are a couple of thingsthat I want to do as far as
building a community.
We have a great community rightnow, but I want to do more.
I want to do more.
So I'm not saying that this isgoing to be in the next year or
so I don't know when, but Iwould love to have some meetups.
I would love for us to be ableto get together and go to dinner
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sometime, like if you're in theCharlotte area.
I would love for us to gettogether and go to dinner
sometime, like if you're in theCharlotte area.
I would love for us to gettogether and go to dinner
sometime and support each other.
Just build that community,because I know how lonely grief
can feel.
You always feel like you're byyourself in this thing and
you're not.
So I really want to bring ustogether, because when I tell
y'all y'all be in my DMs, you bein my DMs and you be in my
emails and all y'all are sayingthe same thing, I feel so alone.
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I don't know who I am.
Listen, listen and hear meclearly.
You're not alone.
You're not the only one thatgoes through this.
But I feel like if we havepeople face to face where we can
hug, we can cry it out, we cansupport each other, I feel like
that will make things a littlebit better.
And that's a stretch for me,y'all, because I am very much
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the introvert.
I am not a networker, I'm shy,I am.
People don't believe me when Isay that, but it is so true, it
is very true.
So, me wanting to buildcommunity, I know that's God,
honey.
Because, yeah, and of course,because I am trained in this, I
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will still be talking aboutgrief.
All right, I'm not going toleave you out here hanging to
try to navigate the waters ofgrief by yourself.
Are you serious?
Did you really think that?
I know you didn't think that.
I know you didn't think that.
Well, if you thought it, I'mthinking.
But I will still be sharing theebbs and flows and the plot
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twist of grief.
Even in my own grief, I'm still,you know, I still deal with
grief.
I tell people all the timegrief is going to be there.
It's like life, grief and lifego hand in hand and grief isn't
just about death.
You know I, like I said at thetop of the episode, I am
grieving the woman that I wastwo months ago.
I'm a totally different personthan I was two months ago.
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God has brought up a lot ofstuff that I did not know was
there, or maybe I havesubconsciously buried them, but
all of that stuff had to comeout in order for me to drop that
weight.
So I grieve the Tracy from acouple months ago.
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She served me well, like I said, but she can't go where God has
taken me.
But I will still providestrategies and resources to help
you disrupt grief.
I'm still going to help youthrive in your new normal.
This is my calling.
I can't just put it down.
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So on this journey, again, Iwant to thank you for being here
with me.
If any of those things piquedyour interest, stay along for
the ride.
Matter of fact, I'm going on agirl's trip next weekend.
So this time next week, at thetime of the recording of this
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podcast, I will be on a beach.
I will be on a beach gettingall of the sun Lord, I hope it
doesn't rain, but getting all ofthe sun in the sand and just
relaxing and resetting andevolving even there.
So thank you for being on thisride.
Thank you for being on thisjourney.
More things are to come.
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I'm looking forward to gettingback in the classroom and
learning.
I'm looking forward to meetingsome of you.
I'm looking forward totraveling.
I'm looking forward tohopefully meeting my siblings
more siblings.
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It's just I'm in a great space,y'all this peace that I feel and
I have, I can't explain it, andI think this is what God is
talking about in the Bible.
He says he'll give you peacebeyond your own understanding.
I don't understand this peacethat I have, even in the midst
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of the craziness of this world.
I have a peace that goes beyondmy own understanding and I
can't tell you how grateful I amfor that, and I wish that same
peace upon you.
So, as we close out seasonseven, I want you of course you
know I gotta leave you with achallenge I want you to evaluate
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your life.
Look at what has worked in thepast season.
Look at what has not worked inthe past season.
Set some goals for yourself,because this time is going to go
by, with or without you.
You might as well make the mostof it, but evaluate, evaluate
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your friendships, evaluate.
You know what can change, whatmust change.
Look at yourself.
Where do you see yourself, noteven in five years?
Where do you see yourselfwithin the next week?
What are your hopes?
What are your dreams?
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If you journal, go back throughthose journals and just look
back, remember those dreams.
I want you to walk in achildlike faith, because I'm
doing that too.
And whenever the challengescome up, just know that God has
you, because I'm doing that too.
And whenever the challengescome up, just know that God has
you.
God is with you.
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You will not fail.
Failure is not an option.
I remember my mentor, big Sis,saying that years ago and that
has stuck with me Failure is notan option.
It's not that you won't reachthe mark, because you know
that's human nature, that's life.
You're going to make mistakes,you're going to fall, but you're
never a failure as long as youget back up and try it again.
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The only time you fail is ifyou don't try.
And don't worry about how crazyyou look.
Don't worry about the peoplelaughing in your face, child,
let them laugh.
Let them laugh, because most ofthe time their laughing isn't a
result of you.
You can be an open rebuke tothem because they didn't try or
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they're too afraid to try.
You just keep treading water,baby.
And when you got to float,float and I'm saying all this to
you as I say it to me Let themtalk, let them laugh, but you
keep moving, just keep swimming,just keep swimming.
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So, yeah, just send me those.
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socials, as you should be.
If you follow me on socials,you can just DM me, all right.
So, with that being said, again, thank you for an amazing seven
years.
Thank you for giving me yourear and your time.
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I sure enough love me.
Some you.
I sure enough appreciate you,some you, I sure enough
appreciate you, and I sureenough want to see you back for
season eight and y'all.
I'm over here killing timebecause I can't find what I'm
looking for, but I don't see it.
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I don't see what I'm lookingfor, so we just going to close
out the episode and also at therecording of this podcast y'all,
I was tired.
I went to the gym and I swam,but I'm still doing swimming
lessons and all that stuff.
So I'm going to go home and laydown, but before I do remember
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God loves you.
I love you, and ain't nothingyou can do about it.
Boo, until next season, seasoneight.
I love you.
It ain't nothing you can doabout it.
Boo, until next season, seasoneight.
I love you.
Bye.
What's good everybody.
Welcome to the Charging Station.
It's your girl, racy Massey, ofLiving my Empowered Life.
Hey y'all, I'm sad a little bit.
I'm a little bit sad becausethis is the season finale.
Season seven has come to aclose, and what a season it has
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been.
Thank you so much for rockingwith me.
In August, we will celebrateseven years of the Charging
Station.
I released my first episode onAugust 27th of 2017.
Wow, what a time.
What a time.
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And before we get into thisepisode, I just want to welcome
everyone.
If you're new here, welcome.
We're so glad to have you here.
I hope you stick around forseason eight and the seasons to
come.
You know I'm gonna do thisthing until God says otherwise
or until He calls me home.
And make sure you're followingme on all the socials.
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This is for everybody.
Whether you're returning or newhere, everybody follow me on
all the socials so you can seewhat's going on in my life and
behind the scenes.
You can find me on Facebook,Instagram, TikTok, YouTube at
Living My EmPOWERed Life.
I'm also on threads at LivingMy EmPOWERed Life, so make sure
you stay connected during thisbreak off of the podcast and,
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baby, if you have been rockingwith me for a whole seven years.
I love me some you for real.
If you are a returning listener, welcome back.
Thank you, boo.
Thank you, boo.
Y'all know the shenanigans thathave been happening in my life
and so because of theseshenanigans I've just kind of
been looking at my life a littledifferently and I'm changing a
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lot of things.
You know, in my prayer time Godgave me the word evolve and it
messed me up.
I ain't gonna lie, it messed meup because I know when usually
God gives me those one word,things that I have to do a deep
dive.
It's a shift that is happeningin my life.
It's a shift that is happeningin my thinking.
(02:38):
Basically, everything justchanges, and change sometimes
can be very hard, it can be veryscary and it can be difficult
because you get comfortable, youget used to things being a
certain way.
And I was talking to a friend ofmine the other day and I was
telling her about what was goingon, because she was asking me
(03:01):
about coaching and I think Ishared on the last episode how I
just may not have been the lastepisode I shared on one of the
episodes where I was reallythinking about closing, living
my Empowered Life.
And God said not so.
But he also told me that thingswere going to be a little
(03:23):
different around here, and whenI was talking to my friends and
telling her about this changeand everything, she said you
know what?
That's really brave of you,because she admitted that she
would be one to think about themoney that she's put into it,
the time that she's put into herbusiness, the tears, the blood,
(03:46):
sweat and tears that you putinto the business, and I was
like you know what?
But yeah, that's all true, butif God tells me to let go, I
have to let go, because onething that I've learned on this
thing called life, this journeycalled life trying to hold on to
stuff that God says to let gowill not go over well for me.
(04:07):
So I have to let go.
I'd rather honestly, I wasabout to say I'd rather lose it,
but it's really not a loss,because I don't look at things
as losses anymore.
Everything that God strips meof, he replaces it a hundredfold
(04:27):
and it's so much better thanwhat I had before.
And so right now I feel likeI'm being stripped.
I feel like living, myempowered life is being stripped
, and I'm here for it.
I'm here for the ride.
Is it scary?
Yeah, yeah, is it exciting.
Yeah, you know, two things canexist at one time.
So I'm going to take thisopportunity in the season finale
(04:50):
just to give you guys someinsight into where I'm headed.
And if you want to stay on thisjourney with me, you are more
than welcome.
I mean, you stuck it out thislong.
Will I get off the train now,unless the Lord tells you to do
that?
You know I'm not going to usurpwhatever God says for you to do
(05:12):
, but here we go.
So I shared this with my emaillist.
I mean, if you don't know, ifthis is your first time joining,
hi, my name is Tracey.
I am a Certified Grief Coach.
I am also a Certified LifeCoach and, aside from The
Charging Station podcast, I runthis company called Living My
EmPOWERed Life, where we teachpeople impacted by tragedy how
(05:36):
to disrupt the cycle of griefand thrive in a new normal.
And I also share my life.
I am a firm believer in "I canshow you better than I can tell
you.
So I shared this email with myemail list and when I tell you I
(05:57):
was terrified to send thisemail, it wasn't because I was
afraid of people unsubscribing.
That happens every day.
It's like okay, I never wantpeople to be on my email list or
be on my social media or in anykind of capacity in the
presence of me, in any kind ofcapacity, and it's not serving
(06:19):
them, they're not being fed,they're not being challenged,
they're not being pushed.
I don't want you to be here.
If we're not vibing, okay, Idon't want you to be here.
I would rather you spend yourtime, your precious time, wisely
and into things that betterserve you.
So it wasn't because I wasafraid of what people were going
to say or think, or even youknow, just leaving the email
(06:46):
list or socials or whatever.
That wasn't it.
I was terrified because once Iput it in writing and put it out
there, it was real.
It was real.
I have to do this now.
There's no hiding.
And when I tell you I'm a goodhider, I'm a good hider and I
know that God says that we arelights on hills that cannot be
(07:11):
hidden, I really do challengeGod.
I'm like you sure.
Like you sure Because I'mreally good at hiding.
He's like yeah, I never meantfor you to hide, I never meant
for you to fit in, so why are wedoing this?
You know why are we doing this?
Why are you trying to do theopposite of what I'm telling you
(07:31):
to do?
This is why you've beenstruggling, so finally
surrendering.
But I sent this email and Ishared some of the things that I
am going to transition into.
Well, I don't even know if it'sreally transitioning, because
it's not new to me, it's not atransition to me, it's going to
(07:54):
be a transition for everybodyelse that sees it.
But this is something that I'vebeen doing since March.
This is something that reallyhoned in once.
I found my sister and found outwe got there's seven of us at
least that are walking thisearth.
So, yeah, I don't know if Ishared that with y'all.
Oh yeah, we got seven siblingsLike it's myself, robin, that
(08:18):
you heard on the podcast.
We found another sister andthen we found out that our
father had four other kids thatwe know of.
So it's seven of us.
Yeah, it's seven.
Seven is the number ofcompletion.
So maybe I am the baby, I don'tknow.
We're not talking about DNAtoday.
We're talking about, we talkabout this pivot and everything.
(08:39):
So A couple of things that I'mgoing to share and, by the time
that this podcast airs, airs,releases, it's going to be on my
social media.
So I'm taking that deep breath,that sigh, because it's really
going to be real, because I havenot shared this with my mentor,
(09:02):
I have not shared this with themajority of my audience.
So, yeah, here we go.
I'm evolving.
And let me just read thedefinition of the word evolve.
Let me make sure I can pullthis up without this thing
blasting, because I did postsomething on my social media.
(09:26):
I am the queen of dropping ahint and then leaving y'all
hanging.
So I did post something, andwith a definition of the word
evolve, evolve means to develop,gradually, grow.
(09:50):
Progress of evolution.
Progress of evolution, naturalgrowth.
So, being that I am still alive, I'm growing, I'm changing.
Things are different about me.
I'm going to tell you, you know,finding that I'm one of seven,
finding out that I'm one ofseven, finding out my DNA
results, that really threw mefor a loop, that really changed
me.
And in my caption I said thisseason of my life has caused me
(10:19):
to reflect and reevaluate manythings.
The woman I knew two months agois no more.
She has served me well,although I grieve her.
It's time to move forward inlife, business and ministry that
last word, ministry is thething that really has been the
challenge for me.
I'm getting emotional.
I'm getting emotional.
I know that God has a callingon my life.
(10:42):
Matter of fact, I know God hasshown me a glimpse of what my
future looks like.
He showed me this years ago.
I'm 48 years old.
At the time of the recording ofthis podcast, I'm 48 years old.
He showed me this.
(11:07):
So, knowing that I have madesome tough decisions, some wrong
decisions, I've made badchoices, I've made good choices.
I've tried to rush the processof what God is doing in my life
because I was excited about theend result, not thinking, not
(11:27):
thinking that the process in themiddle may get murky.
And with every decision that Imake to not be obedient, to not
follow his lead, to not do whathe says and move quickly.
It was costing me time, eventhough God is the redeemer of
(11:47):
time.
I was putting myself in a cyclethat I wasn't even supposed to
be in, and so now I feel likeGod has broken me again, and I
feel like this is a rebirth.
And when I say broken, I don'tmean in the literal sense, I
(12:09):
don't mean like oh, you know,don't take it like I'm losing my
mind or nothing like that.
No, I am the healthiestmentally that I think I've ever
been in my life, like everythingis just flowing all cylinders.
Mentally I'm good.
Spiritually I'm goodFinancially.
(12:29):
I'm good Physically, I'm goodSpiritually, I'm good
Financially, I'm good Physically, I'm good.
But I feel like God has takenit up a notch.
So, with that, my evolving,these are the things that I'm
going to be focusing on.
Focusing on ministry Teachingthe word of God, edifying the
(12:53):
word of God, lifting up God'speople, leading people to Christ
.
I am an intercessor and aworshiper at heart.
Going back to the things that Ilove, going back to the basics
Ministry for me is more thanjust standing in a pulpit and
(13:17):
preaching a sermon.
I know God has given me aunique gift.
I know that he has anointed myvocal cords.
I know my voice is anointed.
It's time for me to use it inthe way that he has intended for
me to use it.
So don't think that I'm goingto be one of those Christians
that's beating you over the head, because that you know that
(13:38):
word Christianity, right nowit's.
Some people out here are notdisplaying Christ's character
and his love and things likethat.
You can see that what'shappening in the United States
right now, it's just like, yeah,god will spew you out for the
way that you're acting and thethings that you're doing and
trying to do.
(13:58):
Anyway, not being political.
As for me, I have to do whatthus says the Lord, but I'm
going to do it in the way thathe uniquely designed me to do it
.
If you ever get the chance tomeet me in real life, a lot of
(14:19):
people, when they meet me inreal life, they tend to say
there's something differentabout you.
They tend to say I feel so calmwhen I'm around you, like your
voice is soothing.
When I worked in healthcare, Iliterally had patients to tell
me that my voice calmed them.
And when I was in healthcare, Iworked in transplant.
(14:41):
So these were some really sickpeople.
These are some people who werehaving life-saving surgeries or
waiting to have life-savingsurgeries, but when it got to me
, I gave them a sense of peace,a sense of hope, and I owe that
all to God, because without himI wouldn't have been able to do
(15:03):
that.
So we're focusing on ministry,focusing on serving, focusing on
you know all the things thatwhat ministry means to me
(15:35):
Another thing that I'm going tobe.
My values are centered around,you know, god, jesus is my
center, but these are like thebranches of what my life is
going to be displaying.
So, when it comes to living myempowered life, when it comes to
business, when it comes to thecharging station, these are the
things that you're going to seemore from me, in my own way.
So, of course, I am a mentalhealth advocate.
(15:57):
I plan on going back to schoolto finish my degree in
psychology, because I feel like,if I'm going to do this thing,
I'm going to do it right, and Iwant to be able to be even more
(16:17):
knowledgeable in a thing thatI'm passionate about.
So we're going to be focusingon mental health because, baby,
let me tell you something, whenthe mind goes, everything goes
with it.
Everything goes with it.
We can sit here and try to eatright, get some sleep, drink all
the water and mind our business, but if your mind is running
100 miles an hour, all day,every day, when that mind goes,
(16:41):
everything goes along with it.
So I will continue to be amental health advocate, I will
continue to offer tools andresources in that area and I
will continue to share myjourney with my mental health,
which is good right now, praiseGod.
Of course, the podcast willstill be here.
(17:03):
The charging station willcontinue to go on.
I feel like there's so muchmore growth that can happen with
this podcast.
There's so many more people wecan reach.
I'm still blown away at thefact that there, my voice is
heard in places that my foot hasyet to touch, just like God
said he was going to do.
(17:24):
I'm still blown away by that,but there's still more people
who need to hear it.
I'm still blown away by that,but there's still more people
who need to hear it.
So I'm going to continue withthe charging station.
We will still have episodesonce a week.
That may change once I get backinto school and in classes and
things like that, but thecharging station will be here.
(17:45):
You know, I thank God for sevenbeautiful years of being able
to do this.
I don't take it lightly.
I don't take it lightly.
So the charging station willcontinue and, of course, I'm
going to be living.
I'm going to be living and whatthat means, and what that means
(18:07):
, what that entails, is.
You'll see things about my life.
I'll be sharing things likewhat I'm reading, what I'm
watching, what I'm listening to,places I've traveled.
(18:28):
You know lifestyle content.
You know I don't want to callmyself a lifestyle influencer no
, no, but lifestyle contentbecause you guys have shown me
that you find my life prettyinteresting.
I think it's boring because Iguess I'm in it every day, but
you guys tend to enjoy theshenanigans of my life, so I'll
be sharing those things andgoing a little bit deeper about
you know my favorite things.
(18:49):
I'll be sharing those thingsand going a little bit deeper
about you know my favoritethings.
I'll be sharing my faith andhow grief has changed my
relationship with God and how Iincorporate faith into my life
every day, like some of mypractices that I do as far as
like praying and fasting andmeditation and things like that
(19:11):
what I do to stay connected andeven get deeper connected to God
.
I'm also going to be sharing andthis is one that's going to be
a little challenge for me, butI'm turning 50 in about a year
and a half now.
I'm turning 50 in about a yearand a half now.
So I started this thing calledFit, fine and Fabulous by 50,
(19:39):
where my goal is to drop 100pounds by my 50th birthday or be
the fittest in my life.
So I want to be healthy, I wantto feel good, I want to look
good.
You know all those things.
And by the time I turn 50, Ireally want to be celebrating my
50th birthday at a villa on anIsland with my cheeks out.
(20:01):
Okay, my friends can't stand itwhen I say I'm having my cheeks
out, but y'all going to get oneday, like, if you go on this
trip with me, you're going toget one day when I'm in a thong
all right, because I have beenworked, literally working my
booty off, so you gonna getthese buns.
But I'll be sharing the thingsthat I'm doing with Fit, fine
(20:22):
and Fabulous.
I really don't like having acamera in my face when I'm
working out because it's ugly.
It's really ugly, like myworkouts be ugly, so I don't
want to.
I don't want to put those outthere, but there may be a couple
of days when I do.
But I'll be sharing what I'mdoing.
(20:44):
For that I'll still be sharingmy DNA journey when we find
things.
Right now we're at a standstillbecause we're just trying to
reach out to people and get somemore information, but right now
I have a beautiful relationshipwith my big sister, robin, and
I love it.
I love it.
(21:04):
I love being a baby sister.
There are a couple of thingsthat I want to do as far as
building a community.
We have a great community rightnow, but I want to do more.
I want to do more.
So I'm not saying that this isgoing to be in the next year or
so I don't know when, but Iwould love to have some meetups.
I would love for us to be ableto get together and go to dinner
(21:25):
sometime, like if you're in theCharlotte area.
I would love for us to gettogether and go to dinner
sometime, like if you're in theCharlotte area.
I would love for us to gettogether and go to dinner
sometime and support each other.
Just build that community,because I know how lonely grief
can feel.
You always feel like you're byyourself in this thing and
you're not.
So I really want to bring ustogether, because when I tell
y'all y'all be in my DMs, you bein my DMs and you be in my
emails and all y'all are sayingthe same thing, I feel so alone.
(21:46):
I don't know who I am.
Listen, listen and hear meclearly.
You're not alone.
You're not the only one thatgoes through this.
But I feel like if we havepeople face to face where we can
hug, we can cry it out, we cansupport each other, I feel like
that will make things a littlebit better.
And that's a stretch for me,y'all, because I am very much
(22:09):
the introvert.
I am not a networker, I'm shy,I am.
People don't believe me when Isay that, but it is so true, it
is very true.
So, me wanting to buildcommunity, I know that's God,
honey.
Because, yeah, and of course,because I am trained in this, I
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will still be talking aboutgrief.
All right, I'm not going toleave you out here hanging to
try to navigate the waters ofgrief by yourself.
Are you serious?
Did you really think that?
I know you didn't think that.
I know you didn't think that.
Well, if you thought it, I'mthinking.
But I will still be sharing theebbs and flows and the plot
(22:52):
twist of grief.
Even in my own grief, I'm still,you know, I still deal with
grief.
I tell people all the timegrief is going to be there.
It's like life, grief and lifego hand in hand and grief isn't
just about death.
You know I, like I said at thetop of the episode, I am
grieving the woman that I wastwo months ago.
I'm a totally different personthan I was two months ago.
(23:16):
God has brought up a lot ofstuff that I did not know was
there, or maybe I havesubconsciously buried them, but
all of that stuff had to comeout in order for me to drop that
weight.
So I grieve the Tracy from acouple months ago.
(23:37):
She served me well, like I said, but she can't go where God has
taken me.
But I will still providestrategies and resources to help
you disrupt grief.
I'm still going to help youthrive in your new normal.
This is my calling.
I can't just put it down.
(23:59):
So on this journey, again, Iwant to thank you for being here
with me.
If any of those things piquedyour interest, stay along for
the ride.
Matter of fact, I'm going on agirl's trip next weekend.
So this time next week, at thetime of the recording of this
(24:19):
podcast, I will be on a beach.
I will be on a beach gettingall of the sun Lord, I hope it
doesn't rain, but getting all ofthe sun in the sand and just
relaxing and resetting andevolving even there.
So thank you for being on thisride.
Thank you for being on thisjourney.
More things are to come.
(24:41):
I'm looking forward to gettingback in the classroom and
learning.
I'm looking forward to meetingsome of you.
I'm looking forward totraveling.
I'm looking forward tohopefully meeting my siblings
more siblings.
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It's just I'm in a great space,y'all this peace that I feel and
I have, I can't explain it, andI think this is what God is
talking about in the Bible.
He says he'll give you peacebeyond your own understanding.
I don't understand this peacethat I have, even in the midst
(25:24):
of the craziness of this world.
I have a peace that goes beyondmy own understanding and I
can't tell you how grateful I amfor that, and I wish that same
peace upon you.
So, as we close out seasonseven, I want you of course you
know I gotta leave you with achallenge I want you to evaluate
(25:48):
your life.
Look at what has worked in thepast season.
Look at what has not worked inthe past season.
Set some goals for yourself,because this time is going to go
by, with or without you.
You might as well make the mostof it, but evaluate, evaluate
(26:09):
your friendships, evaluate.
You know what can change, whatmust change.
Look at yourself.
Where do you see yourself, noteven in five years?
Where do you see yourselfwithin the next week?
What are your hopes?
What are your dreams?
(26:29):
If you journal, go back throughthose journals and just look
back, remember those dreams.
I want you to walk in achildlike faith, because I'm
doing that too.
And whenever the challengescome up, just know that God has
you, because I'm doing that too.
And whenever the challengescome up, just know that God has
you.
God is with you.
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You will not fail.
Failure is not an option.
I remember my mentor, big Sis,saying that years ago and that
has stuck with me Failure is notan option.
It's not that you won't reachthe mark, because you know
that's human nature, that's life.
You're going to make mistakes,you're going to fall, but you're
never a failure as long as youget back up and try it again.
(27:14):
The only time you fail is ifyou don't try.
And don't worry about how crazyyou look.
Don't worry about the peoplelaughing in your face, child,
let them laugh.
Let them laugh, because most ofthe time their laughing isn't a
result of you.
You can be an open rebuke tothem because they didn't try or
(27:37):
they're too afraid to try.
You just keep treading water,baby.
And when you got to float,float and I'm saying all this to
you as I say it to me Let themtalk, let them laugh, but you
keep moving, just keep swimming,just keep swimming.
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No-transcript.
You are a part of the ChargingStation family, so don't think
that you can't say, hey, I wouldlove for you to talk about this
or what do you think about this?
So, yeah, just send me those.
You can text um, just click thelink in the show notes, or you
(28:54):
can.
If you're on my email list, youcan respond to the email when
the podcast episode comes out,or if you're following me on
socials, as you should be.
If you follow me on socials,you can just DM me, all right.
So, with that being said, again, thank you for an amazing seven
years.
Thank you for giving me yourear and your time.
(29:17):
I sure enough love me.
Some you.
I sure enough appreciate you,some you, I sure enough
appreciate you, and I sureenough want to see you back for
season eight and y'all.
I'm over here killing timebecause I can't find what I'm
looking for, but I don't see it.
(29:38):
I don't see what I'm lookingfor, so we just going to close
out the episode and also at therecording of this podcast y'all,
I was tired.
I went to the gym and I swam,but I'm still doing swimming
lessons and all that stuff.
So I'm going to go home and laydown, but before I do remember
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God loves you.
I love you, and ain't nothingyou can do about it.
Boo, until next season, seasoneight.
I love you.
It ain't nothing you can doabout it.
Boo, until next season, seasoneight.
I love you.
Bye.
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