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Welcome
Hey, I'm Suki Kaur, your host and fellow
cycle breaker. I'm here to help first
generation women of color grow their
business that's been on their heart by
breaking free from limiting cultural
expectations and navigating self-doubt.
Together, we'll cultivate self-trust,
explore how to step into your full
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potential, and create success on your
terms. Let's break those much
needed cycles and build an impactdriven
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in community.
So today I want to talk about one of the
most important relationships that we need
to focus on, especially when it comes
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to being able to
take steps toward the business that we
want, being able to stay steady
in the business that we want when we
don't see as much progress as we want,
as fast as we can, and really
just being the person that we
want. Running our business, which is a
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lot of my clients are,
you know, solo entrepreneurs or starting
off and you know there's hesitation on
being in in itself being a cycle
breaker and and moving
forward and putting, you know, efforts in
and really just believing and and
breaking through any like barriers
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basically whether it's self-perception
and confidence. Or whether it's
just, you know, that hump of the
financial aspect of it of, you know,
going from stability to instability.
And I want to talk about today
basically the foundation of our business
and being able to get to where you want
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to be. And something that has been really
been on top of my mind, but also has been
put to the test for sure for me is
our relationship with ourself and.
I know that sounds cliche. I know I talk
about that a lot and about how
we talk to ourselves, what we make things
mean and a lot of like what I do with my
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coaching clients and and in our
one-on-one sessions. And today I want to
give an example of how I was really
tested to make sure that. I
actually act the way that I preach,
right. So it's always easier to say, oh,
you know, don't be hard on yourself,
don't, you know, call yourself an idiot
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when things go wrong. But it's really
difficult to do that. And I think it's
not Even so much in business. It's it's
that it happens. It happens in real life
as well and in our business life as well
and in our love life as well and all
around, right. But.
The way that we talk about Octar ourself,
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regardless of whether we are working in
our business at the moment or not, makes
a huge difference. And this is kind of a
funny story, but you know, I
I really pride myself in having worked on
myself so much where I have the
self-awareness to be able to stop
and then choose my action. And it's not
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always the case, right?Cause we're all
human, but most of the time. That's
something that a skill that I really
built up and that that has helped me a
lot. And you know, I
was going on a trip. I just came back
from vacation like a week ago and
before I was leaving, I was trying to
just, you know, jam pack everything into
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a carry-on bag and into a
carry-on suitcase. So that way I don't
have too many things and I was still
recovering from my injury. So I just want
to make things better for myself, right?
So finally, like the day before I'm
leaving, I get my stuff all into a
carry-on
suitcase. And
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um what happens is that it was,
it's one that I have had for a very long
time. And it has like the
TSA lock, like the zipper lock, right?
And I was like, okay, you know what, in
order to make sure the zipper doesn't
break, let me just secure it in the lock.
Not realizing that I don't remember the
code. So then it's almost
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like 1:00 AM at this point or midnight.
And then it was 1:00 AM by the time I'm
done with all these shenanigans. But I'm
sitting there like, Oh my God, like,
and I'm thinking to myself as a default
that like, oh, I'm gonna say the story to
my friend who's going with me of like, Oh
my God, I'm such an idiot. I can't
believe this happened. This is hilarious.
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It's a really funny story. And it is a
funny story, like. You know, stepping
back for me, it is pretty hilarious to be
like, OK, you pride yourself in getting
all your things into the suitcase, but
like, then you couldn't get into it.
Like, that's just, that's ridiculous. But
it was so interesting to hear, like
my thoughts as default of like, OK,
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now I'm starting to think about how I'm
gonna tell the story versus thinking
about staying calm and figuring out what
I need to figure out. It was just more
so the fear of looking like such an idiot
and thinking of myself as an idiot. So
then in the moment I had to be like, OK,
you know what?That's not gonna be
helpful. Like calling myself an idiot,
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thinking about how I'm gonna say this
story is not helpful right now. Like, I'm
pretty sure I can either remember the
code and you know what's what's
Crazy is that I actually did know the
code. I was just pressing the side button
wrong at the end of the day, but I used
my resources. There was no one else that
I can. I really wanted to wake up at that
time to help me. And so I was like, OK,
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let me ChatGPT, let me YouTube, let me do
what I need to do so. At like one in the
morning, I'm learning how to pick a
TSA lock at this point. And then at one
point Chachi Puji was like, you know
what, if you don't get it, you can go to
the airport and then have them do it for
free. The agents will do it for free. And
I'm just like, OK, that is going to be
the most humbling experience if I have to
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go 8 hours early before my flight to get
this done. And then like, what's going to
be, that's going to be such a waste of
time. It was just like that humbling
experience of like. Of not
even having the experience of just
thinking of myself. Well, how is that
going to make me feel and how am I going
to think of myself?But in that moment I
had to be like, OK, you know what?Like if
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that that worst comes to worst, I just
have to do it and get it done. Cause
like, I don't really, I don't have time
for any like extra drama time because
it's I have to sleep, I have work in the
morning and then I have my flight later.
So in that moment, I had to stop
panicking and just be like, OK, let's
just try one more thing. Let's just try
one more thing. And then I gave myself a
time of like, OK, within 15 minutes, if
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we don't get it, we're gonna go to sleep.
And like, I was able to learn how to pick
it using this YouTube video. And it was
pretty simple, which is, which is
ridiculous. Like now I know how to pick
locks, but it's really funny when I say
the story in the morning. But in the
moment, I think if I
didn't stop and like.
Recalibrate. I wouldn't have been able to
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get done in a very steady way
what I did right like in order to be able
to resolve what I needed to and rather
than being out of the moment all in my
head and kind of all in my emotions.
And I think that this these are the kind
of skills that like I work with on with
my clients and I work a lot on on myself
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of like these saying these
skills come in handy so much
like. It's not really just taking big
steps of creating your LLC or your
however you create your business and what
country you're in, but it is more of
like the the smaller
things that add up. And you know when
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you refuse, when you have that
self-awareness to the point where you
refuse to call yourself an idiot, even if
even though you have literally locked
your items. In a suitcase, which makes no
sense cause the whole point was to get
them in there, not to just lock them in
and not be able to get them out. And I do
laugh at myself, which is fine, but in
the moment that would have been a very
different. I would have still laughed at
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myself later, but I could have had a
terrible experience of how I treat myself
and then set myself up to just
feel like an idiot. And so
our relationship with ourself and like
this, I wanted to share this example
because. I think this is the kind of
patience that this level. Of patience and
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awareness is what we need when we
are creating our businesses, when we
are, you know, cycle Breakers
and we are women of color trying to do
what's on our heart, like create the
business that's on our heart versus just
going ahead and going and doing the
things that we're going to do. Because
there's going to be so many times like I
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just in the US it's tax season. So
actually it's a few days after taxes are
due, but. Tax season's always like a
little bit of an antsy feeling for me
because it's a humbling experience, right?
Like I've had a business where I'm like,
oh, like it's helping me that I'm showing
a loss, but like, do I really want to be
at a loss in my business and do I still
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want to continue on?And
for me, like coaching is something that I
found that was so helpful for me that I
really do think like. I
come alive when I'm in my sessions. I
love working with people and I'm
I'm naturally more introverted. And
the fact that I found a career in which I
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can help others live a better life with
their self-awareness, build the the
life that they want, build a business
that they want is like amazing. It's like
fascinating to me that I found a career
that I didn't even know existed. I didn't
even know what it would be called and I'm
here, but I think. For
example, like the tax thing, like it's
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like, OK, if you're not where you want to
be, reach your tangible goals, like do
we, how do we talk to ourselves?What's
that relationship look like?Do we still
trust ourselves to be like, are we just
being and and like also like do we
trust ourselves to have that open
conversation and have that honesty with
ourselves to be like, OK, I'm not going
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to treat myself poorly, but I need to be
honest with myself. Like do I still?
Because it is a decision year after year
when you don't get. The
the tangible goals met as you want, right?
And that's been a humbling experience for
me. But I think over time I've learned
that it doesn't have to be all or
nothing. It doesn't have to mean that I'm
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not moving forward or I'm not where I'm
at. It's just that I need to change a few
things and it's OK. Like it doesn't need
to mean terrible things about myself. It
doesn't need to mean that. You know, I
put myself down for a whole entire month
and I recover from that cause then we're
just creating a cycle where just dwelling
in the like
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in the self-pity or in that imposter
syndrome and we just start dwelling in
it, drowning in it and just kind of get
consumed with it. So the
relationship with ourselves is so
important how we deal with
things when they're not going the way
they're they they we want them to go.
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And I hesitate from saying should because
that's, you know, sometimes it's really
an external timeline, but
it's really how do we take care of
ourselves?How do we treat ourselves?How
do we trust ourselves when it's like a
decision of like, hey, this may cost me
X amount. Do I trust myself that this is
something I want to do?And a lot of
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times, you know, especially
women of color, especially first
generation, we haven't had that
opportunity. Naturally to be like, hey,
what do you want to be when you grow up?
What do you want to do with your life?
It's always like, OK, I think I should do
this, this, this, because that's what's,
you know, most accepted in the general,
in the grand scheme of things and
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culturally like in the world
and you know how we've been raised. But
I think having that opportunity to be
like, hey. This is what I want to
do. I'm not exactly where I want to be.
And maybe I will be questioned. Maybe I
will be, you know,
uncomfortable with the fact that I'm not
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where I want to be. But do I trust myself
to continue?And
it's not kind of like, you know,
conversation with myself that I had at
like one in the morning of like, what am
I thinking?And it was to the point that
day where I'm like, I if I tell my friend
that's traveling with me who doesn't
really travel much, she's gonna be like,
do I trust you to go abroad with you?But
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like, it can't. Our default thoughts go
to that, right?Of course I've been on, I
travel all around the world and I do it
very frequently. So it's not a big deal.
And I know at the end of the day I could
have just cut the zipper part off. It's
not a huge deal, but it wouldn't have
been. Like it could have continued
that cycle for way longer if I just was
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like, I just don't trust myself
completely. And I think that's the same
thing in business where especially when
you're trying something what you haven't
done before and most of the time like the
people that I work with, it's their first
business or the 2nd or it's just a
different field. It is gonna be something
where the way that you know you treat
yourself, the way that you what your
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relationship is with yourself is going to
come first and. How much grace do
you have?But also how much discipline do
you have?How much you know,
like what what drives you?Are you honest
with?Is that something what you wanna do?
And if you are, it's like, OK, what am I
willing to prioritize
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versus what am I willing to deprioritize?
So I just think the
relationship we have are with ourselves
and how we treat ourselves is really the
foundation of our business. It's
really like really the foundation of the
life that we create, but also the life
that we're capable of creating. Like as
we progress and as we become more
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honest, I think we become a lot. And I
know that it's not the goal is not
to for happiness, right?But it is nice to
be like, OK, I can
have emotional regulation. I can
think outside of the moment and look
at the bigger picture. I can.
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Create self-awareness where I dig deeper
and I'm not scared of the answers that I
might get. So I'd like for you to really
reflect on, you know, if you recently
have had an experience where,
yeah, like if any, if you were to tell,
if you were to hear that story, you'd be
like, wow, what an idiot. But you decided
not to say that to yourself. Or
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was there a time where you did do that,
where you know you were really mean to
yourself and you were really like not
giving yourself grace?As you would
somebody else and like, how would you
do that differently?What would that look
like?And how would your
actions be different afterwards?Because I
think for me in this example, like I was
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able to calmly figure out what I need to
do, but I it's only once I decided to
calm down and I wanted to be in that
state. So reflect on that
is was there a was there.
A scenario where you recently did the
same, where you know you were able to
acknowledge, be self-aware and stop. Or
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was there an example recently where you
could have done that and like what would
that look like?And if it's just, you
know, if you're like it's too hard in the
moment for me to stop, like just now in
hindsight, what would that look like?
Because I think just even
thinking about it or imagining it, it
kind of opens up some. You know,
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possibility for your brain to be like,
OK, this is not completely foreign. We
could try to do this. And our
relationship with ourself is really so
important and it carries
us more than we realize. And it allows us
to do more things and especially
courageous things like the things that we
need to do in our business, like stay in
it, decide to do it, keep doing
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it and create bigger goals for
ourselves. So reflect on that this week
and if you have any questions, you know
how to reach me.
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