This Little Light of Mine - LGBTQ, Christianity, religious trauma, mental health

This Little Light of Mine - LGBTQ, Christianity, religious trauma, mental health

This Little Light of Mine is an LGBTQ+ tale of terror (growing up as a closeted Gay Christian in the Evangelical church) that led to trauma (cPTSD, religious trauma, spiritual abuse, sexual abuse, addiction) to what I intend to become triumph. Join me on my healing and recovery journey towards mental health, spiritual health and emotional health as I find my voice by sharing what happened in my life as a Queer Christian where I was taught that I was not allowed to love.

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March 13, 2020 2 mins

Hi, My name is James Powell and I want to introduce you to This Little Light of Mine.

This Little Light of Mine is a tale of terror to trauma to what I intend to become triumph. Join me as I find my voice by sharing what happened in my life as a result of being taught that I was not allowed to love.

This Little Light of Mine is a raw, soul-searching journey of healing, forgiveness and recovery. Journey with me as I heal the ...

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Welcome to the first episode of This Little Light of Mine.  My name is James Powell and I’m thrilled to have you join me on this personal journey of healing, discovery and possibility.  

For full show notes visit www.ThisLittleLightOfMine.CA  

Here's a rundown of S01E01:

(3:52) Chapter 1 – Starting the world’s first, fully affirming LGBTQ Baptist Church

In the first part of my personal story, learn all the many things that...

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May 13, 2020 18 mins

Welcome to episode two of This Little Light Of Mine.  

My name is James Powell and I’m thrilled to have you join me on this personal journey of healing, discovery and possibility.  

(3:02) LISTENER ADVISORY: this episode may contain triggers for some. Topics in this episode include: sexual abuse, trauma, suicide, exorcism, addiction & conversion therapy 

For full show notes visit www.ThisLittleLightOfMine.CA  

Here's a...

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One of the big reasons for starting TLLoM is my belief that we grow, heal and shine when we authentically share our stories.  With this belief I want to use this platform to have conversations with other queer people of faith, trauma survivors, people in recovery and people hungry for a deeper spiritual connection in their life.

My hope is that today’s episode will spark something inside of you, open your eyes and your heart ...

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    May 28, 2020 37 mins

    We need to save our kids. We can no longer afford to ignore the psychological, spiritual, emotional and mental abuse that the church inflicts on children when they teach that any of God’s children are less than, unworthy of love or unable to love in the way that God has designed them to love.

    We have another big episode in-store for you today. Here’s what’s coming up…

    Full show notes available at TLLoM.CA

    I’m going to hit p...

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    In today’s episode of This Little Light of Mine I’m going to be speaking with Jonathan Brower who knows a little bit about NOT CHANGING (as in not changing your sexual orientation, based on what someone else believes SHOULD be true for your life). As I introduced on the last episode of TLLOM, Jonathan has been through conversion therapy programs four times… yes… FOUR TIMES! 

    There has been lots in the news recently about conv...

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    Hello and welcome to a special Pride Month BONUS episode of This Little Light of Mine.  

    In season one we’re talking about a lot of tough topics from trauma to addiction, systemic racism and gender inequality to coming out to conversion therapy.

    I wanted to take a hot minute to take a deep breath, throw some glitter in the air and talk about a new take on the elusive pride body… to do that I’ve partnered with personal traine...

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    July 1, 2020 23 mins

    In today’s episode of This Little Light Of Mine I share the part of my story where this project first began.  In today’s episode I take you into my disclosure session with my parents during my stay at a long-term complex trauma and rehabilitation centre in the US.

    This is where I really started living.

    I’m thankful that we didn’t really have a Pride Weekend in Toronto this year.  I’m thankful for chaos, anguish and trauma th...

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    July 15, 2020 62 mins

    In Western cultures we have been trained to label addictions as BAD.  They are something that are undesirable, they hurt, they destroy and they kill.  Our first trained instinct when the topic of addiction comes up is ‘HOW DO WE STOP IT’, ‘how do we get ride of it’, ‘how do we help the person just say no drugs/alcohol/sex/food or whatever’.

    But what if we took another approach?  What if we looked at our addictions as gifts?  ...

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    July 29, 2020 21 mins

    Hello and welcome to Episode 9 of This Little Light Of Mine.  My name is James Powell and I’m glad that you’re able to join me for today’s episode, Seeds of Shame.

    Before I get started I want to give a big shout out to a few community members who are blowing me away with their sharing, encouragement and insights as we discover, heal and grow forward in love together.

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    August 12, 2020 50 mins

    Looking to create a healthy sex life on your own terms? 

    Matthias Roberts, host of Queerology, therapist and author joins us to share some of his personal experiences with shame AND insights from his new book ‘Beyond Shame'.

    I really appreciate when a therapist, author and expert on ‘shame’ is able to walk the talk when it comes to vulnerability.

    The definition of vulnerability that Mattias’ shared that talks about our capa...

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    August 26, 2020 27 mins

    Were you ever taught that who you were was wrong, evil, sinful or less than?

    In today's episode, God hates figs?  I’m taking another stroll down memory lane to share some of the messages that I learned around homosexuality as a young boy growing up in a fundamentalist church background.

    Maybe you’re not part of queer community, but perhaps you were taught some of these same toxic messages because of the colour of your skin, ...

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    September 9, 2020 55 mins

    Hello and welcome to Episode 12 of This Little Light Of Mine.  My name is James Powell and I’m glad that you’re able to join me for today’s episode, ‘I was wrong’.

    In today’s episode I’m joined with best-selling author, columnist, Anglican cleric and former nightly television and radio host, Michael Coren.  Michael and I will be talking about his book Epiphany and “what went wrong” on his journey from being the posterboy of C...

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    September 23, 2020 43 mins

    In today’s episode ‘Gospel gaslighting’ I share where some of my emotional arrested development started. 

    Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation in which a person or a group covertly sows seeds of doubt in a targeted individual or group, making them question their own memory, perception, or judgment, often evoking in them cognitive dissonance and other changes, including low self-esteem.

    In short, gaslighting is...

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    October 7, 2020 57 mins

    Hello and welcome to Episode 14 of This Little Light Of Mine.  My name is James Powell and I’m glad that you’re able to join me for today’s episode, ‘The shift’.

    In today’s episode I’m joined by best-selling author, podcaster, and PROGRESSIVE pastor Colby Martin.  Colby is passionate about carving out a space within Christianity that includes: a whole-heartedly affirming posture toward LGBTQ individuals, a broader acceptance ...

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    October 21, 2020 30 mins

    In today's episode I share what it was like for me growing up in the 90’s evangelical church culture and share about one of my worst nightmares coming to life.  

    And from the many stories, comments and messages that you have been sharing online through FB & IG it is very clear that this period in time wasn’t an easy, joy-filled or shame free period for so many… not matter where we may have lived on the spectrum of gender ...

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    November 4, 2020 54 mins

    Join Chad Rollo and I as we talk about deconstructing our faith and the importance of being in community with 'fellow travellers' as we journey this wild & windy (and often painful) road towards integrating our faith and sexuality after years of living behind a wall of shame & fear.

    Growing up so deeply entrenched in an evangelical church-based community and family I know how painful and important questions around fai...

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    November 18, 2020 31 mins

    Hello and welcome to Episode 17 of This Little Light Of Mine. My name is James Powell and I’m glad that you’re able to join me for today’s episode, ‘In the shadows’.

    Before we get started with today’s episode, I want to be very transparent that this is my first ‘explicit’ episode as this part of my story contains content that may trigger some survivors. In today’s episode I will be talking about sexual assault, rape, trauma ...

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    December 2, 2020 58 mins

    Hello and welcome to Episode 18 of This Little Light Of Mine.  My name is James Powell and I’m glad that you’re able to join me for today’s episode, ‘Scapegoat’.

    Over the past few weeks on IG and Facebook @MyLightShinesBright our trauma topic of conversation has been around the concept of ‘The Scapegoat’.  This is a relatively new term for me, and it seems like it’s a term that resonates with many that are on similar journeys...

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    December 16, 2020 35 mins

    Trauma is blocked emotional energy that is trapped inside of your body. You need to process it and you need to feel it.

    What I have learned is that when I repress and deny my feelings and my Knowing, I’m blocking my connection with God and I’m hurting myself… and I’m hurting others.

    At more than one point in my life I thought it would be easier to leave this world than to feel my feelings, follow my God given Knowing, speak ...

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