A Healthy Push

Have you ever felt like your brain is just fundamentally "broken "and like everyone else can recover from anxiety, but you’re the one glitch in the system?

I’ve been there. For over a decade, my mindset was absolute garbage. I didn't just have anxiety; I believed I was anxiety. I thought I was born this way, doomed by genetics, and that recovery simply wasn’t an option for me.

In this episode, we’re diving int...

What does it actually look like to spend 30 years hiding panic disorder and agoraphobia from everyone around you and then finally decide you're done?

In this episode, I sit down with Lauri, a former Panic to Peace student and current community member, for one of the most honest and moving recovery conversations yet. Lauri's story started with a panic attack at a client dinner that she didn't even recognize as a panic attack. What fo...

What if the biggest thing you could do to prepare for birth and postpartum was to stop trying to prepare for everything?

After everything I've shared about this pregnancy, I'm finally getting into the details: what I'm actually planning for labor, delivery, and postpartum, and more importantly, how I'm thinking about all of it. Because the mindset going in? That part matters just as much as any plan.

This one is honest, a little emot...

What does recovery actually look like when life throws you the biggest curveball of all?

Brittany and I are back, and this one has been a long time coming. After months of keeping my pregnancy a secret, I'm finally sitting down to answer your questions — the real ones.

Labor, postpartum, depression, mom guilt, hyper-independence, and what it actually looks like to hold yourself together when you can barely get off the couch. I'...

What if your chronic pain or persistent symptoms aren’t a sign that your body is broken, but a message that it’s trying to keep you safe?

In this episode, I'm joined by the incredible Nicole Sachs, LCSW, a world-renowned speaker, author, and the creator of JournalSpeak. Nicole has dedicated her life to helping people understand the "dance" between the mind and the body, and how our nervous systems can get stuck in a loop...

Have you ever been 100% certain about something for your life, only to have the universe present you with something that changes everything?

For years, I told anyone who would listen that I would never have another child. My first experience with motherhood was a "mind-fuck" of unraveling, anxiety, and feeling like I sucked at being a mom. But after a divorce, a new relationship, and a lot of inner work, I found myself facing a choi...

Have you ever wondered if it’s actually possible to get to the "other side" of an anxiety disorder? I get asked about my personal recovery journey more than almost anything else. Even though I’ve been recovered for nearly a decade, looking back at where I was—a shell of a person, shaking, crying, and forcing myself to function through multiple panic attacks a day—still brings up so much emotion. In this spec...

Have you ever had to hold onto a secret so big it felt like it was consuming you, while also trying to navigate one of the hardest physical and emotional seasons of your life?

Well, the secret is finally out: I'm pregnant! I’m actually 8 months along, and if I’m being honest, I’ve stayed quiet until now because this pregnancy has been a massive challenge. Between navigating severe sickness while running my Panic to...

What if the "internal noise" you’ve been trying to silence isn’t a flaw, but a sign that your brain is simply wired differently?

In this episode, I'm joined by artist Demi Dawkins for a vulnerable and eye-opening conversation about the intersection of neurodivergence and mental health. Demi shares her experience living with AuDHD (the overlap of Autism and ADHD) and how years of unexplained panic attacks and sensory over...

Do you ever feel like flying is the ultimate "test" of your recovery? Or something that you feel you're absolutely not ready for?

I know exactly how that feels because I used to be the person who put flying on a massive pedestal. I’d tell myself, "Sure, I can handle the grocery store now, but a plane? That’s different. That’s the ultimate trap." If you’ve ever felt like your progress doesn't count until you c...

Are you doing "all the things" but secretly dying on the inside?

Many high achievers and "Type A" personalities wear their productivity like armor. But what happens when that armor becomes too heavy to carry? In this episode, I’m joined by Jennifer Bohle, a therapist based in Colorado who specializes in helping perfectionists untangle their worth from their to-do lists.

We dive deep into why "rest" feels like a four-letter word...

Why is it that we can sign up for the adrenaline of a new tattoo or riding a rollercoaster, but the idea of an unplanned panic attack feels like a 10/10 threat?

Logic doesn't always live here, but we do! This month, we’re rambling through the highs and lows of living a recovered life. From Brittany’s big NYC comeback to Shannon’s "I’m definitely dying" food poisoning saga, we’re looking at what it reall...

Are you organizing your life around your goals and living life, or are you organizing it around the hope that you won’t feel anxious?

When we think of avoidance, we usually picture the big, external "no-go" zones: the highway, the crowded grocery store, or traveling far from home. But there is a much quieter, more insidious form of avoidance that keeps people stuck in the anxiety cycle for years: the avoidance of feeling.

In th...

“How long until the anxiety goes away? How long until I can drive again? Am I going to be like this forever?”

If you are struggling with panic disorder or agoraphobia, these are likely the questions keeping you up at night. I know because I asked them too. But here is the truth: when we ask about "how long," we aren’t usually looking for a date on a calendar, we’re looking for hope that we aren't broken and h...

If the word ‘death’ makes your chest tighten, or if you’ve spent months body scanning and wondering ‘what if this is it,’ what if I told you that death isn’t the scary, painful monster we’ve been taught to fear?

In today’s episode, I am having a conversation that is not meant to scare you. In fact, it’s meant to do the exact opposite. For some who are struggling with health anxie...

Is it possible to be "fully recovered" and still have anxious thoughts, or are we all just making it up as we go?

Welcome to the very first episode of Recovered & Rambling! This is a new monthly feature where I sit down with my right-hand person and friend, Brittany, for a completely unscripted, unfiltered conversation. Think of it as a "vibe check" on life, recovery, and the random stuff that keeps us laughing.

In this episode, ...

Have you ever been gripped by the fear that you wont make it to a bathroom in time?

In this episode, we’re diving deep into a topic that many people struggle with, but almost nobody talks about: toilet anxiety. Specifically, the distressing fear of pooping your pants in public or while "trapped" in situations like traffic or meetings.

If you’ve ever felt like your life revolves around the nearest restroom, I want you to k...

Have you ever felt like you’re a nervous wreck for absolutely no reason at all? Maybe you’re just sitting on the couch, watching a show, or grabbing a coffee, and suddenly your heart is racing and your brain is screaming "danger!" even though everything is fine. If you feel like your anxiety is "24/7" or you’re trapped by agoraphobia, this episode is for you.

Mari is back on the podcast today, and we are diving int...

What do you do when the world feels like it’s on fire, and your nervous system is simply running out of capacity to hold it all?

Today, I’m stepping away from the usual "teaching" and "fixing" to have a very honest, human-to-human check-in. If you are sensitive, empathetic, and anxiety-leaning, you’ve likely been feeling the weight of the world's chaos, uncertainty, and pain. It is heavy, it is exhausting, and quit...