Privilege, Purpose, And The Courage To Simply Be

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What happens when the life you once prayed for arrives early, and the pressure to justify it never leaves? I open up about a decision I feared saying out loud: stepping back from the grind, simplifying a sprawling business, and choosing a slower pace that protects health, love, and creative honesty. The story moves through guilt about privilege, the relief of real friendship, and the difference between hustling for approval and creating from alignment.

I take you behind the scenes of years spent building: coaching, speaking, launching, posting, and maintaining complex systems that quietly shaped my days. Then I share the pivot: converting the Her Collective into a streamlined value vault, pausing weekly coaching and community, and focusing my energy on invite‑only retreats that allow deeper mentorship without the noise of constant content. This isn’t quitting. It’s a reset that respects capacity, emotional regulation, and the truth that ideas need rest to grow strong.

We talk about calibrating your life between being and doing, recognizing when you’ve drifted too far into performance, and finding a rhythm that lets your purpose breathe. I also reflect on support, luck, and the responsibility of choice—how to use privilege as fuel for service instead of a reason for shame. If your body has been whispering slow down, consider this your permission slip to listen and to design a season that fits. Subscribe, share with a friend who needs a gentler gear, and leave a review telling me where you’re choosing less doing and more being.

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Episode Transcript

SPEAKER_00 (02:24):
There was a day I remember dreaming of the life
that I have now.
So why is it that for years I'vecarried a guilt for the life
that I've built?
A guilt that I have access thatothers don't.
Guilty that I have choicesothers don't.

(02:46):
Guilty that I have a privilegethat others don't.
Recently, I was on a regularweekly accountability call with
a girlfriend who I've been doingthese calls with now for over
six years.
That's over 300 hours of callswith this friend.
Needless to say, she knows meand my journey intimately.

(03:08):
Well, I met with her at apersonal growth event.
It was back in 2019.
We both have grown so much inour lives and in our businesses.
She has watched me struggle andsucceed.
She has watched me cry andcelebrate.
She has walked with me throughthe online virality, through

(03:28):
deep leading it all.
She has known me as a cleaninglady, as a health coach, as a
content creator, a relationshipcoach, an intimacy educator,
professional speaker andtrainer, an app developer, a
business coach, a softwaresystems and automation
developer, a retreatfacilitator, an energy worker,
an emotional mastery coach, andnow as a TEDx Harvard Square

(03:52):
speaker, she has seen and heardit all.
So when I tell you my hands weresweating and my heart was racing
when I went to tell her what mymost recent decision has been.
I was so nervous of what she wasgoing to think of me.
Will she be disappointed?

(04:13):
Is she going to be jealous orspiteful?
Is she going to try and talk meout of it?
No, what I didn't prepare forwas her actual response.
It was pure love, support, andencouragement.
I mean, how could I have thoughtshe would do anything less?

(04:36):
She reminded me that we walk twoseparate paths, and it's okay
for mine to look different thanhers.
She will still walk it with me.
You see, the decision I made wasto step back from my business
and go back to just being astay-at-home partner again.

(04:58):
I felt like I was admittingfailure, taking the easy way
out, by letting my man be thebreadwinner that he is, and me
just focusing inward on ourhealth, home, and happiness.
Well, the truth is, I don't haveto work.
I have been, I haven't beenrequired to work for the last

(05:20):
decade of my life, if I'm trulyhonest.
Everything I have created,everything that I have done, has
been because I chose to.
That's the privilege.
That's the privilege I have hadsince I was 23 years old.
It's a privilege few have inthis world.
A privilege that I use to fuelmy purpose, which is to reduce

(05:46):
suffering through storytelling.
I never had to build mybusiness.
I chose to.
I never had to coach people inall areas of life.
I chose to.
I never had to volunteer orspeak at events.
I chose to.

(06:06):
And now I'm choosing to stepback.
Not forever, not in always.
But what I'm stepping back fromis the pressure to do it all.
The expectations of others andof myself, the complex systems
and data, the long days oncalls, speaking for free, the ex

(06:30):
for exposure at events, themaintaining of a digital
presence through social media,websites, the Her app,
memberships, checkout portals,email funnels, you name it, the
promoting of products andservices, the consistent
podcasting, yes, podcasting, andmaking of YouTube videos, the
annual industry events,attending virtual webinars and

(06:53):
networking calls.
I'm stepping away from all ofit.
And what I'm stepping into ismore time with myself and Tom.
More focus on movement andrecovery.
More homemade meals prepped.
More slow mornings with longerroutines, more self-care and

(07:17):
skin care, more time for homecare and maintenance, more space
in my week for nothingness, morefly dance fitness classes,
Pilates, yoga, you name it, morewalks outside with audiobooks
and music, more reading books inthe sun, ultimate creative

(07:41):
freedom of expression, morecuriosity and learning, more
time with family, more peace andcalm, more gratitude and
stillness.
This is the very thing almostevery woman out there is looking
for.

(08:01):
An integrity-based, kind,honest, intelligent,
hardworking, wealthy, healthy,handsome man.
And at twenty-two, I attractedmine.
Which is also my favorite numberand my lucky number.
Imagine.

(08:22):
Imagine manifesting everythingyou ever wanted at twenty-two
years old.
That includes genuine love,human to human, something some
people never experience in theirentire lives.
When I tell you, my brain broke.

(08:54):
When really it was the day myheart was healed.
And I was simply forming newnarrow pathways in my brain.
It's been over a decade sincethen.
I constantly grew.
I learned, I stretched myself, Ifaced discomfort because I chose

(09:15):
to become the woman I am today.
And I'm grateful I did.
I earned who I've become day byday.
Did I have help in the form ofsupport?
Yes, absolutely.
Did I show up and put in thework?
Yes, absolutely.
Will I continue to?

(09:36):
Yes, absolutely, at my owncreative pace.
I am deciding to finally stepinto the privilege I have and
live the life I now feel like Ihave earned over the last two
decades.
So now I'm converting the HerCollective just to the value

(09:58):
vault.
Just.
It is truly the ultimateresource library.
Everything I've ever created andeverything I ever will create
will go live in the value vault.
Either pay$99 a month to accessfor as long as you'd like, or
pay$4.99 for a lifetime.
But there's no more communityand there's no more weekly or

(10:21):
monthly coaching involved.
It is just access to all theresources you could need.
I'm releasing myself from anyresponsibility of anything that
repeats commitments of my time.
But that said, I still intend tohost retreats as exclusive ways

(10:41):
to receive mentorship orcoaching from me.
Attending a retreat is now theonly way to qualify for my
one-on-one sessions.
It's basically just supportafter the retreat.
With me no longer attendingevents, making content, and
actively networking, theseretreats really will be curated

(11:01):
by word of mouth and inviteonly, making them less of a
business trip and more of aluxury girls' trip with purpose
and emotional impact.
I intend to continue sharing thevision of her healthy emotional
regulation.
And as I do, it will come from aplace of inspiration versus

(11:23):
desperation.
Because when we suffer, ourideas suffer with us.
And one of my foundational ideasis that each of us thrives at a
different calibration of beingand doing.
I actually get the opportunityand the honor of expanding on

(11:44):
this topic in an upcoming TEDxHarvard Square talk in February
21st of 2026.
And for my idea to fully thrivein its communication, I must be
living its core thesis.
I have been much too far intothe doing for far too long.

(12:04):
It's time for me to experimentwith more being, to find my
personal sweet spot.
So happy birthday to me.
It's been fun being 33.
And now that we're officially34, it's time we slow down even
more.

(12:25):
Thank you for listening.
See you next time.
Whenever inspiration joins me.
P.S.
If you were not worthy of it, itwouldn't be showing up as a
choice in your reality.