September 24, 2024 • 19 mins
Ever felt like you're balancing on a tightrope between your passions and self-doubt? This episode of "A Spectrum of Hyperfixations" opens with our new segment, "Cheers and Jeers," where we celebrate the highs and acknowledge the lows of our week.
This episode serves as a heartfelt reminder that genuine growth often requires stepping out of our comfort zones. I discuss embracing purposeful hyperfixation, particularly in the realm of mental health advocacy. I share how divine guidance and the unfaltering support of friends have been my anchors in navigating self-doubt and fears of failure. Following my journey, you'll hear about the pivotal moments that reinforced my mission to help others, despite the fear of judgment. Plus, I invite listeners to get creative and share unique sign-off ideas for future episodes!
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Speaker 1 (00:25):
Hello, hello and welcome to another episode of A
Spectrum of Hyperfixations.
I am your host, miss T, and theT stands for today.
Let's go with tenacious ortenacity.
And so, before we dive in tothe contents of this episode, I
(00:45):
have been doing some thinking oflike what can be regular
segments to open up the podcastand the radio show I listened to
it's called the woody show.
You may have heard of it, it'sreally good, and they have
started a cheers and jeerssegment which I think they
ripped off from like old TV guysor something like that, and I
(01:06):
thought, oh well, that's kind ofa cool idea, cheers and jeers
for the week.
And so let me just start with afew cheers, which I find that
that's harder than jeerssometimes and jeer sometimes,
okay, cheers.
I attended the Sisters eventthat is put on by Life Church
(01:29):
every September.
I believe I attended last year.
That was my first time becauseI had just started attending
church and the worship set wasgreat.
My mom went with me and youknow we were both in tears and
it was just a wonderful messageon prayer and the importance of
(01:52):
it and whether you think you'repraying properly or not.
You know, just just pray.
You know, don't get in yourhead about doing it correctly or
this and that doing itcorrectly or this and that, and
so it just felt really good tobe in community with other women
and who may or may not even goto the church regularly, um, but
(02:13):
to also see my familiar facesof, of ladies there at the
church, and it was just, it wasreally really powerful.
Um.
Another cheer for the week isthat same day I attended a small
business luncheon where thespeaker was discussing her
nonprofit and it's calledStorytime Village, based here in
(02:35):
Wichita, kansas, and justhearing her journey, getting it
together and all these thingslike she touched on, you know,
find your joy, step out in faithand like pursuing your, your
purpose and passion.
And it's exactly what I needed,as I'm watching her and I'm
(02:56):
getting a little teary eyed, I Iimagine myself at the podium,
like that's what I want to do.
I want to speak and motivate,inspire, you know, get out there
and, just, you know, share somelight and awareness in this
world about the topics I'mreally passionate about, and
(03:17):
that will kind of go into whattoday's episode is about.
So let's go into the jeers then.
The jeers is it was a very, um,emotional filled week and you
know having thoughts of I don't,I don't want to be here anymore
, like I don't want to liveanymore.
(03:37):
And while there was nointention to uh, actively act on
these thoughts, it was stillthere and just you know, kind of
the spiral had been buildingfor a few months and I refused
to listen to my body saying like, hey, we really need a break.
Can we just take a few days offfrom work?
I'm thinking, no, I still gotto get out of the PTO hole that
(04:02):
I've dug myself in and just notallowing myself to take a day
off of work.
And eventually it just was like, no, we're going to force you
to take a day off of work, andtwo in fact.
And so I stayed home for twodays last week and it was much
needed to just kind of recoup.
There was, you know,overstimulation just from you
(04:26):
know some public events andbeing around people, but there
was also a lot of you know kindof trauma getting turned up
around this time of year and mybrain feeling like, oh so you
did a lot of inner work lastyear with your coaching
certification.
Like, oh so you did a lot ofinner work last year with your
(04:47):
coaching certification andyou're doing really well at
acknowledging and being moreself-aware.
Let us look at all these littledust bunnies you've put under
the carpet and we're just goingto bring them to light and see
how you deal with them.
Now that's how it's kind ofbeen feeling and it's terrible
and it's also like good becauseI need to be clearing out these
things and fully processingthrough them, but it's just
(05:09):
really difficult.
One thing I have found that hasbeen helpful that I've started
doing recently at the suggestionof my therapist, is true
meditation.
So I've gotten me some sets ofmala beads where I think it's
like 108 beads and it looks kindof like prayer beads, I think
(05:31):
is what you call them, and soyou touch each bead with your
fingers and you say a mantraover and over again.
So you're saying it 108 timesand mine differ day to day.
They I just kind of sit for amoment and feel out what I need
(05:52):
to hear for that time, and soit's been um, I am worth knowing
.
Uh, I am worthy of being loved.
Uh, your writing has valueworthy of being loved, your
writing has value.
Just very positive affirmationslike that and the repetition
(06:13):
helps to cement it in your brain.
So that's been kind of helpfulin calming and grounding and
being present in the moment.
And whenever your brain wanders, you know, you just gently
guide it back to the mantras andthe feel of the beads and you
know how you're feelinginternally.
So, yeah, let's just wrap upthat.
(06:35):
Cheers and jeers.
Then, again, I am learning thispodcasting thing.
I also think that my audio wasnot set up correctly for the
last several episodes.
I don't think I had it on thecorrect mic, so I'm hoping that
this audio is going to be alittle bit better.
Again, beginners errors and Idoubt there's going to be a lot
(06:56):
of people listening to theseepisodes since I'm just
beginning.
But who knows?
Who knows If you're here?
Thank you, love you and we'rejust going to get together.
So, as I mentioned, thenonprofit speaker kind of leads
into what today's topic is, andthat is.
I just wrapped up watching thereplays of Lisa Nichols'
(07:17):
Motivating the Masses workshopthingy that she did over the
course of last week it was fivedays in a row, live done via
Zoom and the Facebook group, andshe was kind of touching on the
foundations of speaking thatshe's come up with and taught
people and then she's sellingher program.
(07:38):
It's an eight-week programwhere you really dive into these
techniques, you get clear onyour vision of what you want to
talk about, you get feedback andthen it's all going to
culminate in a in-personworkshop in San Diego, I believe
she said, where all thestudents will come together and
(07:59):
kind of test out your talk andstuff like that and test out
what you've learned.
And as I was watching this,like I had no intent, you know,
to enroll in anything, I didn'tknow that she was selling
something, but I mean you got toright, she's got this wonderful
product and of course she'sgoing to sell something.
But I mean you got to right,she's got this wonderful product
and of course she's going tosell something.
And I've learned that from mycoaching.
And the first couple times I'mlike yeah, not for me, I'll just
(08:23):
continue.
You know, watch the free livereplays.
But then I don't know somethingsort of shifted when I heard
her talking about it.
It took, I think, like thesecond or third time for her to
dig into what you would get inthis program.
And then I started thinking,huh, I wonder if maybe this is
(08:45):
for me.
Oddly enough, my last therapysession on Wednesday, my
therapist, susan, mentioned howthis year I haven't really had
anything to work towards or beexcited about and reflecting on
that.
You know, the last five yearshave been filled with me
(09:09):
enrolling in my global MBA andtaking classes that were eight
weeks long at a time andfulfilling those and moving
towards graduation.
And then in 2023, it was mycoaching, certification and
working towards that andlearning something new.
This year I haven't really hadthat.
I did do a different speakingmentorship I think it was 12
(09:35):
weeks or something or it waskind of one-on-one with Dr Lee
Cordell at the Institute forPsychological Safety and Trauma.
I always get that mixed up.
It's ITPS, so Institute forTrauma and Psychological Safety
there we go, and so she hashelped me lay some significant
(09:58):
groundwork for the talks I'mgoing to start to promote and
get out there and that's feltgood.
But I've, you know, since thatprogram's concluded, I've lost
that one-on-one and with howthings shifted at the coaching
school that I was attending, I'mnot really feeling that support
(10:21):
.
I guess that was there withcoaching labs and things like
that and I honestly don't knowwhere I'm going with this.
Anyway, again rabbit holes.
Anyway, again rabbit holes, butwith this one.
You know you get thatsustainability and support from
other students and other coachesthat Lisa Nichols has taught
(10:50):
and it just it's so right inline again with what I want to
do with speaking and reallypolish that up.
And so I tend to make reallyrash decisions, like once I
decide, oh okay, yeah, that'swhat I want to do, I will
instantly buy.
Instead, I try to like,regulate myself because I was
feeling, you know, there's adeadline that you got to sign up
by, because they do start thisweek.
(11:14):
There's a kickoff call onWednesday and then they start on
Thursday, and I had told acouple of my friends and
wondering if this is a gooddecision, do I even have a
unique story to provide?
Is it worth, like who am I togo out there and be a speaker?
And they were both supportive,like, of course, you have a
(11:37):
unique voice, you have a uniqueexperience, just like anybody
else.
And just because, like you mayshare some similarities, that
doesn't mean that you are justlike everyone else.
You know you can tastedifferent dishes from the same
restaurant and it or people havedifferent tastes.
You know, I don't know where Iwas going with that example, but
(11:58):
you know it's like there'sdifferent flavors and not
everybody's going to want thatflavor, but they might.
They might want your flavor andso I'm like OK, ok, ok.
And then I had a moment to Iallowed myself some distance, to
give myself time to kind ofthink through it.
(12:20):
I knew I kind of wanted to makea decision by the end of the
day, which I know that's not alot of time truly.
But then, as I'm filling out myplanner for the week, I come
across this I have I forget whather name is, it's like the
latest Kate, I believe and she'sgot these, this very cute style
of artwork.
It's very colorful, very cuteanimals, but also really
(12:44):
positive phrases.
And the one for this week is acute little otter and it says
it's truly impressive how faryou've come.
And that hit me like so hardbecause I'm thinking like
downplaying you know where I wasand where I am now and how I
(13:11):
want to use that to impactpeople, to inspire and have them
even just be here for anotherday.
You know, going back to how Iwas saying, I don't know if I
want to live anymore.
There's a lot of peoplethinking that and I want to get
out there and be an example forthem.
I'm putting in God's hands,like, okay, I know my mission.
(13:33):
I keep getting these signals ofknowing what my mission is on
this earth and I can't leaveuntil it's fulfilled.
And that is helping others,raising awareness of mental
health and suicide preventionand just really trying to go out
there and be a light in theworld.
And sometimes I don't even feelit, but that's, that's my
(13:55):
assignment.
And then I'm like, okay, so Iprayed about it.
I asked God I'm in tearsbecause my friend also sent me a
really kind voice message and Iprayed and I said, god, please
help me in this decision.
Should I go for this?
Should I not?
(14:15):
What is your will?
Will this get me in line withmy purpose and what you have
planned for me?
Please help me with thisdecision.
So I think it was about 10minutes later I'm doom scrolling
on Facebook, you know, orwhatever, because I've finished
the live replays.
I've kind of skimmed throughthe comments and whatnot.
(14:36):
Tell me why?
I then see something, a quoteon my feed that says sometimes
you have to stop being scaredand just go for it.
To stop being scared and justgo for it.
(14:56):
Either it'll work out or itwon't.
That's life, and I did.
I had this fear of you know whatare others going to say?
Are they going to be saying, oh, you've got too much on your
plate, you're going to go intoburnout again?
What are you doing?
Spending this money?
You know all these differentkinds of things.
And then myself being scared,like am I going to be able to
accomplish this?
Am I going to be able to handleit?
(15:17):
Do I really have anything tosay?
You know, and all these voicesand what I really, really want
and I may get emotional here,I'm kind of feeling the tears
now what I want, at the end ofthe day, is to just help people
(15:38):
and be the best at that, toreach as many people as I can,
and if this is a step that isgoing to take me further to that
goal, then it's okay that I'mscared.
It's okay that I might not beperfect at it, because my
perfectionism is just, you know,always rearing its ugly head.
(16:03):
But it's okay if it doesn't workout, because you know what it
was?
Still a learning experience.
There is nothing wrong withknowledge and gaining more
knowledge and learning and beingin community.
And so I'm like, oh, okay, I'mgetting these signals and I
(16:25):
think I'm I'm gonna go for it.
So that is, you know, that'sthe hyper fixation of me is
learning.
I love to learn and I loveself-improvement stuff now and
well, not now, but you know,learning how the brain works and
(16:46):
all this stuff, but it's just,I don't even know.
See, now I'm all emotional andI can't think straight.
I guess we're going to wrap upthis episode and just say you
know what?
It's okay to hyper fixate onwhat you feel are really grand
dreams and grand goals and it'sokay to hyper fixate on learning
(17:14):
everything you can about asubject and really diving in.
It's okay.
And whether it works out or not, but it's again, it's the
journey People like to say, it'sthe journey of getting there
and of you know what you learnalong the way.
(17:35):
So I'm going to wrap up this.
I've got an hour before I've gotto get around to attend the
evening service at churchbecause I did not make it to
serve this morning and I feelbad.
But you know, things happen,should I say, when I'm recording
(17:58):
these.
I'm really curious.
So I'm recording this onSeptember 15th and, like I said,
the program kicks off with astarter call on Wednesday.
So I mean, it's right aroundthe corner in eight weeks.
So I am going to do some thingsin the meantime and, uh see, we
(18:22):
got to figure out how to how toend a podcast too.
Do I need to do a call foraction?
Do I need to do inspiring words?
Um, what is my, my unique signoff to you guys, because I feel
like everything's been takenLike Bayou Lovelies, is the game
grumps on YouTube.
If you know of them, ralphGarman, does the Love you Mean
(18:42):
it by, which is LMB and itdoesn't stand for.
Lick my balls.
So we need to figure out how toend this, other than I guess
you know what.
Just keep on hyperfixatingToodaloo.
Ah, and Toodaloo is Stylosa onYouTube, see, ah, I'm just
(19:06):
pulling from everybody.
We gotta find a unique way,okay?
So if you're listening to this,drop some comments of how we
should sign up.
So keep hyperfixating, youlovely humans.
There we go.
We'll make it a littledifferent from the game grubs
with you, lovelies.
Bye for now, bye.
Hello, hello and welcome to another episode of A
Spectrum of Hyperfixations.
I am your host, miss T, and theT stands for today.
Let's go with tenacious ortenacity.
And so, before we dive in tothe contents of this episode, I
(00:45):
have been doing some thinking oflike what can be regular
segments to open up the podcastand the radio show I listened to
it's called the woody show.
You may have heard of it, it'sreally good, and they have
started a cheers and jeerssegment which I think they
ripped off from like old TV guysor something like that, and I
(01:06):
thought, oh well, that's kind ofa cool idea, cheers and jeers
for the week.
And so let me just start with afew cheers, which I find that
that's harder than jeerssometimes and jeer sometimes,
okay, cheers.
I attended the Sisters eventthat is put on by Life Church
(01:29):
every September.
I believe I attended last year.
That was my first time becauseI had just started attending
church and the worship set wasgreat.
My mom went with me and youknow we were both in tears and
it was just a wonderful messageon prayer and the importance of
(01:52):
it and whether you think you'repraying properly or not.
You know, just just pray.
You know, don't get in yourhead about doing it correctly or
this and that doing itcorrectly or this and that, and
so it just felt really good tobe in community with other women
and who may or may not even goto the church regularly, um, but
(02:13):
to also see my familiar facesof, of ladies there at the
church, and it was just, it wasreally really powerful.
Um.
Another cheer for the week isthat same day I attended a small
business luncheon where thespeaker was discussing her
nonprofit and it's calledStorytime Village, based here in
(02:35):
Wichita, kansas, and justhearing her journey, getting it
together and all these thingslike she touched on, you know,
find your joy, step out in faithand like pursuing your, your
purpose and passion.
And it's exactly what I needed,as I'm watching her and I'm
(02:56):
getting a little teary eyed, I Iimagine myself at the podium,
like that's what I want to do.
I want to speak and motivate,inspire, you know, get out there
and, just, you know, share somelight and awareness in this
world about the topics I'mreally passionate about, and
(03:17):
that will kind of go into whattoday's episode is about.
So let's go into the jeers then.
The jeers is it was a very, um,emotional filled week and you
know having thoughts of I don't,I don't want to be here anymore
, like I don't want to liveanymore.
(03:37):
And while there was nointention to uh, actively act on
these thoughts, it was stillthere and just you know, kind of
the spiral had been buildingfor a few months and I refused
to listen to my body saying like, hey, we really need a break.
Can we just take a few days offfrom work?
I'm thinking, no, I still gotto get out of the PTO hole that
(04:02):
I've dug myself in and just notallowing myself to take a day
off of work.
And eventually it just was like, no, we're going to force you
to take a day off of work, andtwo in fact.
And so I stayed home for twodays last week and it was much
needed to just kind of recoup.
There was, you know,overstimulation just from you
(04:26):
know some public events andbeing around people, but there
was also a lot of you know kindof trauma getting turned up
around this time of year and mybrain feeling like, oh so you
did a lot of inner work lastyear with your coaching
certification.
Like, oh so you did a lot ofinner work last year with your
(04:47):
coaching certification andyou're doing really well at
acknowledging and being moreself-aware.
Let us look at all these littledust bunnies you've put under
the carpet and we're just goingto bring them to light and see
how you deal with them.
Now that's how it's kind ofbeen feeling and it's terrible
and it's also like good becauseI need to be clearing out these
things and fully processingthrough them, but it's just
(05:09):
really difficult.
One thing I have found that hasbeen helpful that I've started
doing recently at the suggestionof my therapist, is true
meditation.
So I've gotten me some sets ofmala beads where I think it's
like 108 beads and it looks kindof like prayer beads, I think
(05:31):
is what you call them, and soyou touch each bead with your
fingers and you say a mantraover and over again.
So you're saying it 108 timesand mine differ day to day.
They I just kind of sit for amoment and feel out what I need
(05:52):
to hear for that time, and soit's been um, I am worth knowing
.
Uh, I am worthy of being loved.
Uh, your writing has valueworthy of being loved, your
writing has value.
Just very positive affirmationslike that and the repetition
(06:13):
helps to cement it in your brain.
So that's been kind of helpfulin calming and grounding and
being present in the moment.
And whenever your brain wanders, you know, you just gently
guide it back to the mantras andthe feel of the beads and you
know how you're feelinginternally.
So, yeah, let's just wrap upthat.
(06:35):
Cheers and jeers.
Then, again, I am learning thispodcasting thing.
I also think that my audio wasnot set up correctly for the
last several episodes.
I don't think I had it on thecorrect mic, so I'm hoping that
this audio is going to be alittle bit better.
Again, beginners errors and Idoubt there's going to be a lot
(06:56):
of people listening to theseepisodes since I'm just
beginning.
But who knows?
Who knows If you're here?
Thank you, love you and we'rejust going to get together.
So, as I mentioned, thenonprofit speaker kind of leads
into what today's topic is, andthat is.
I just wrapped up watching thereplays of Lisa Nichols'
(07:17):
Motivating the Masses workshopthingy that she did over the
course of last week it was fivedays in a row, live done via
Zoom and the Facebook group, andshe was kind of touching on the
foundations of speaking thatshe's come up with and taught
people and then she's sellingher program.
(07:38):
It's an eight-week programwhere you really dive into these
techniques, you get clear onyour vision of what you want to
talk about, you get feedback andthen it's all going to
culminate in a in-personworkshop in San Diego, I believe
she said, where all thestudents will come together and
(07:59):
kind of test out your talk andstuff like that and test out
what you've learned.
And as I was watching this,like I had no intent, you know,
to enroll in anything, I didn'tknow that she was selling
something, but I mean you got toright, she's got this wonderful
product and of course she'sgoing to sell something.
But I mean you got to right,she's got this wonderful product
and of course she's going tosell something.
And I've learned that from mycoaching.
And the first couple times I'mlike yeah, not for me, I'll just
(08:23):
continue.
You know, watch the free livereplays.
But then I don't know somethingsort of shifted when I heard
her talking about it.
It took, I think, like thesecond or third time for her to
dig into what you would get inthis program.
And then I started thinking,huh, I wonder if maybe this is
(08:45):
for me.
Oddly enough, my last therapysession on Wednesday, my
therapist, susan, mentioned howthis year I haven't really had
anything to work towards or beexcited about and reflecting on
that.
You know, the last five yearshave been filled with me
(09:09):
enrolling in my global MBA andtaking classes that were eight
weeks long at a time andfulfilling those and moving
towards graduation.
And then in 2023, it was mycoaching, certification and
working towards that andlearning something new.
This year I haven't really hadthat.
I did do a different speakingmentorship I think it was 12
(09:35):
weeks or something or it waskind of one-on-one with Dr Lee
Cordell at the Institute forPsychological Safety and Trauma.
I always get that mixed up.
It's ITPS, so Institute forTrauma and Psychological Safety
there we go, and so she hashelped me lay some significant
(09:58):
groundwork for the talks I'mgoing to start to promote and
get out there and that's feltgood.
But I've, you know, since thatprogram's concluded, I've lost
that one-on-one and with howthings shifted at the coaching
school that I was attending, I'mnot really feeling that support
(10:21):
.
I guess that was there withcoaching labs and things like
that and I honestly don't knowwhere I'm going with this.
Anyway, again rabbit holes.
Anyway, again rabbit holes, butwith this one.
You know you get thatsustainability and support from
other students and other coachesthat Lisa Nichols has taught
(10:50):
and it just it's so right inline again with what I want to
do with speaking and reallypolish that up.
And so I tend to make reallyrash decisions, like once I
decide, oh okay, yeah, that'swhat I want to do, I will
instantly buy.
Instead, I try to like,regulate myself because I was
feeling, you know, there's adeadline that you got to sign up
by, because they do start thisweek.
(11:14):
There's a kickoff call onWednesday and then they start on
Thursday, and I had told acouple of my friends and
wondering if this is a gooddecision, do I even have a
unique story to provide?
Is it worth, like who am I togo out there and be a speaker?
And they were both supportive,like, of course, you have a
(11:37):
unique voice, you have a uniqueexperience, just like anybody
else.
And just because, like you mayshare some similarities, that
doesn't mean that you are justlike everyone else.
You know you can tastedifferent dishes from the same
restaurant and it or people havedifferent tastes.
You know, I don't know where Iwas going with that example, but
(11:58):
you know it's like there'sdifferent flavors and not
everybody's going to want thatflavor, but they might.
They might want your flavor andso I'm like OK, ok, ok.
And then I had a moment to Iallowed myself some distance, to
give myself time to kind ofthink through it.
(12:20):
I knew I kind of wanted to makea decision by the end of the
day, which I know that's not alot of time truly.
But then, as I'm filling out myplanner for the week, I come
across this I have I forget whather name is, it's like the
latest Kate, I believe and she'sgot these, this very cute style
of artwork.
It's very colorful, very cuteanimals, but also really
(12:44):
positive phrases.
And the one for this week is acute little otter and it says
it's truly impressive how faryou've come.
And that hit me like so hardbecause I'm thinking like
downplaying you know where I wasand where I am now and how I
(13:11):
want to use that to impactpeople, to inspire and have them
even just be here for anotherday.
You know, going back to how Iwas saying, I don't know if I
want to live anymore.
There's a lot of peoplethinking that and I want to get
out there and be an example forthem.
I'm putting in God's hands,like, okay, I know my mission.
(13:33):
I keep getting these signals ofknowing what my mission is on
this earth and I can't leaveuntil it's fulfilled.
And that is helping others,raising awareness of mental
health and suicide preventionand just really trying to go out
there and be a light in theworld.
And sometimes I don't even feelit, but that's, that's my
(13:55):
assignment.
And then I'm like, okay, so Iprayed about it.
I asked God I'm in tearsbecause my friend also sent me a
really kind voice message and Iprayed and I said, god, please
help me in this decision.
Should I go for this?
Should I not?
(14:15):
What is your will?
Will this get me in line withmy purpose and what you have
planned for me?
Please help me with thisdecision.
So I think it was about 10minutes later I'm doom scrolling
on Facebook, you know, orwhatever, because I've finished
the live replays.
I've kind of skimmed throughthe comments and whatnot.
(14:36):
Tell me why?
I then see something, a quoteon my feed that says sometimes
you have to stop being scaredand just go for it.
To stop being scared and justgo for it.
(14:56):
Either it'll work out or itwon't.
That's life, and I did.
I had this fear of you know whatare others going to say?
Are they going to be saying, oh, you've got too much on your
plate, you're going to go intoburnout again?
What are you doing?
Spending this money?
You know all these differentkinds of things.
And then myself being scared,like am I going to be able to
accomplish this?
Am I going to be able to handleit?
(15:17):
Do I really have anything tosay?
You know, and all these voicesand what I really, really want
and I may get emotional here,I'm kind of feeling the tears
now what I want, at the end ofthe day, is to just help people
(15:38):
and be the best at that, toreach as many people as I can,
and if this is a step that isgoing to take me further to that
goal, then it's okay that I'mscared.
It's okay that I might not beperfect at it, because my
perfectionism is just, you know,always rearing its ugly head.
(16:03):
But it's okay if it doesn't workout, because you know what it
was?
Still a learning experience.
There is nothing wrong withknowledge and gaining more
knowledge and learning and beingin community.
And so I'm like, oh, okay, I'mgetting these signals and I
(16:25):
think I'm I'm gonna go for it.
So that is, you know, that'sthe hyper fixation of me is
learning.
I love to learn and I loveself-improvement stuff now and
well, not now, but you know,learning how the brain works and
(16:46):
all this stuff, but it's just,I don't even know.
See, now I'm all emotional andI can't think straight.
I guess we're going to wrap upthis episode and just say you
know what?
It's okay to hyper fixate onwhat you feel are really grand
dreams and grand goals and it'sokay to hyper fixate on learning
(17:14):
everything you can about asubject and really diving in.
It's okay.
And whether it works out or not, but it's again, it's the
journey People like to say, it'sthe journey of getting there
and of you know what you learnalong the way.
(17:35):
So I'm going to wrap up this.
I've got an hour before I've gotto get around to attend the
evening service at churchbecause I did not make it to
serve this morning and I feelbad.
But you know, things happen,should I say, when I'm recording
(17:58):
these.
I'm really curious.
So I'm recording this onSeptember 15th and, like I said,
the program kicks off with astarter call on Wednesday.
So I mean, it's right aroundthe corner in eight weeks.
So I am going to do some thingsin the meantime and, uh see, we
(18:22):
got to figure out how to how toend a podcast too.
Do I need to do a call foraction?
Do I need to do inspiring words?
Um, what is my, my unique signoff to you guys, because I feel
like everything's been takenLike Bayou Lovelies, is the game
grumps on YouTube.
If you know of them, ralphGarman, does the Love you Mean
(18:42):
it by, which is LMB and itdoesn't stand for.
Lick my balls.
So we need to figure out how toend this, other than I guess
you know what.
Just keep on hyperfixatingToodaloo.
Ah, and Toodaloo is Stylosa onYouTube, see, ah, I'm just
(19:06):
pulling from everybody.
We gotta find a unique way,okay?
So if you're listening to this,drop some comments of how we
should sign up.
So keep hyperfixating, youlovely humans.
There we go.
We'll make it a littledifferent from the game grubs
with you, lovelies.
Bye for now, bye.
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