October 1, 2024 • 22 mins
Ever wondered how a seemingly harmless medicinal gummy could lead to an unforgettable and hilariously absurd adventure? Join me as I recount the surreal experience of consuming too much weed in Colorado Springs. With intense anxiety and paranoia setting in, my friends Alexia and Maria had to step in, providing comic relief and unwavering support. We’ll revisit the bumbling journey down a curvy mountain road and the amusing antics that unfolded when Maria’s kids decided to check on me. From being buckled in like a toddler to eventually finding solace in the care of friends, this episode is filled with humor, heartfelt reflections, and the unpredictable joys of life’s unexpected moments. Tune in for a story that’s as enlightening as it is entertaining!
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Speaker 1 (00:24):
Hello and welcome to another episode of A Spectrum of
Hyperfixations.
I'm your host, miss T, and theT today stands for tired.
I honestly don't know if I'veused this one before, but it's
pretty accurate.
After the week I've had, Icurrently have the house to
myself.
I live with my mom and she isout in California, so the doggos
(00:51):
are alone with me this week andthey are certainly missing
their mama.
So if you hear any potentialdog noises, that is them,
because I didn't want to closethe door.
They just they're so nervous.
So we have three corgis and twocats, and the two that are
(01:12):
quote unquote hers are JesseJames and Annie Oakley and they
are just ready for their mama tocome home.
So let's go ahead and start offwith our cheers and jeers for
the week.
There was not a lot of cheers,to be honest, and I guess one of
(01:34):
them would be let's think I hadone in my head before I even
started oh oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
So the Ignite program startedand it was fabulous.
Like the first session wasreally great, learning the
framework for one of thetechniques which I actually just
(01:56):
watched the replay and tweakedmine.
I'm much more happy with it, soexcited for that to have
started.
Also, I'm much more happy withit.
So excited for that to havestarted.
Also, I'm getting distractedbecause Annie and Jesse have now
decided that they want to playa fight while I'm recording this
, and so I hope you don't hearsome dog sniffles here and there
(02:19):
.
Oh my goodness.
Oh my goodness.
So cheers for the week would be.
I learned that my grandpa hasdecided to stop a dialysis.
I think he only did it a coupleof times.
He was under the impression,though, that it was going to
(02:40):
give back kidney function, andit's actually to just maintain
it, and currently he is at 10%kidney function, and it's
actually to just maintain it,and currently he is at 10%
kidney function.
He lives in Loveland, colorado,and so now it's just, you know,
time and trying to you knowthink of planning an unexpected
(03:02):
trip back to Colorado.
Um, my body is already kind ofremembering the trauma it felt
that started two years ago.
Um, because my 2022 was horrible, and it feels so reminiscent
because two years ago, inSeptember, my friend Alexia lost
(03:24):
her mom to COVID, and I againdid an unexpected trip out to
Colorado to go be with her for alittle bit, because they were
so close and I was very worriedthat she was going to do
something to harm herself.
She was going to do somethingto harm herself.
(03:49):
So, in a fun I segue saying funwhen I'm talking, you know
about some heavy stuff, but thisI thought maybe it'd be a good
time to share this funny storythat happened while I was out
there for my friend, and so, inSeptember of 2022, the company
that I work for and still dothey got hacked.
(04:11):
They they call it a cyberincident and, you know, chaos
ensued.
Nobody knew what to do.
There were no policies,procedures in place of what to
do.
Um it, it was a lot of uh, whatyou call it lack of foresight, I
guess, and planning, and sothat was just completely
(04:34):
stressful, because work, aseverything else in my life was.
Oh my gosh, can you hear them?
Kids, hey, hey.
Have any of you listened tokevin smith's podcast when his
little dog, shecky, used to bealive?
I feel like I'm kevin smithright now.
Say shecky, shecky.
(04:55):
I might legit have to kick themout.
They are like so distracting,please hold so you won't hear
any difference, but I had totell them to settle down.
They are still in the room.
So, my goodness, these dogs.
So Anyway, as I was saying,work was kind of my place to
(05:21):
have things very routine, verystructured.
Kind of my place to have thingsvery routine, very structured
and coming out.
Just you know, several monthsafter being diagnosed with
autism, it made a lot of sense.
Why, you know, the rest of mylife may feel like it's coming
apart in various ways and feelvery overwhelming, but work was
a constant study.
(05:42):
So to have this suddenly belike what the heck are we doing?
It was a lot.
It was a lot, and so I was verymuch looking forward to getting
away for a week to go toColorado Springs and be with my
friend.
So I fly to Colorado throughthe Denver airport and then to
(06:02):
Colorado Springs, and it is myfirst time flying and staying in
Colorado.
So I've, you know, hadconnections through the Denver
airport, as I'm going toCalifornia, but never actually
stayed in Colorado after aflight, and I think that has a
contributing factor to thisstory.
Also, little did I know thatColorado Springs has a higher
(06:27):
altitude than Loveland, if I'mremembering that right correctly
.
So I've never reallyexperienced altitude sickness,
and so that's another thing thatwill come into play here.
So second day comes.
This is when we're going tospread her mom's ashes with a
(06:48):
friend of her mom's uh, her nameis maria.
So we go to maria's house andyou know, weed is legal in
colorado.
And I had done some gummiesbefore, liked, liked them.
I've tried smoking before, hateit because I feel like I'm
(07:09):
having a heart attack, like I'mgonna die.
I need the ambulance.
I'm on the floor coughing up alung.
So gummies are great.
So Maria had some medicinalgummies and Alexia had explained
to me that you know, these area little more potent than what
I'm, you know, accustomed to inthe past.
(07:29):
So I start with a half, as I asI usually do, to take it easy
and see how it goes.
We eat lunch and then, probably30 minutes later, 45 minutes
later, I'm not feeling anything.
I'm like maybe let me just takethe other half before we get on
(07:51):
the road.
So I take the other half.
Hindsight now tells me that Iwas already feeling it because
my choice here in judgment wasvery poor.
So I thought, well, I can't putback half a gummy into this
container because one that'sgross, I don't want them.
(08:11):
Like taking my half a gummythat I bit off of and I don't
really have any pockets in mypurse, it would just be hanging
out in there.
So let me just go ahead andtake that too.
So now we're up to one and ahalf.
Okay, so we're in the car,maria's driving, we're going up
(08:33):
to like Cheyenne Mountain andAlexia asks me at one point.
She's like are you feelinganything?
And I go no, well, as we gethigher and higher, I'm starting
to feel something.
I'm starting to get that likeunderwater feel, if you know
that where your movements arekind of slow, your body feels
(08:54):
heavy, like I'm knowing I'mfeeling it, but I'm not going to
say anything because you knowthat's for pansies.
Like I just said, I'm notfeeling it and I don't want to
suddenly be like, oh yeah, so weget up to the mountains.
This is when.
This is when I start vaguelyremembering things.
So we drove up to as far as wecould and then we circled back
(09:16):
around because we're looking forparking, we're looking for a
nice little space.
We, we find it, we park, wewalk a little ways to a picnic
table and it's also next to kindof like a stream area, mind you
, the sun is also.
It feels so close.
It feels so close, so warm andI'm kind of starting to have
(09:40):
some trouble.
So we sit at the picnic tableand they get out their necklaces
that they were going to putsome of her mom's ashes in and
then we were going to spreadsome.
So I remember her, like Alexia,asking me if I can help her open
(10:01):
something, and I rememberbarely being able to see what
she's handing to me.
Um, I'm starting to feelnauseous, I'm starting to feel
panicky because I'm like I feellike I'm going to have some
issues coming out both ends.
There's no privacy.
What am I going to do?
(10:22):
I just met this lady too, maria, and I don't want to book like
a crazy fool in front of thisperson that I just like barely
met, right.
So at one point I finally justhad say like I don't feel so
good, and Alexia tells me that,or they both tell me that I
(10:48):
looked pale as a sheet, I lookeda rough shape, right.
So Maria is like okay, let'sget you back to the car.
So she again just met this lady.
She escorts me back to her Jeep, gets me into the chair the you
(11:09):
know second row seat and makessure I'm comfortable, asks me if
I want the door still open.
I said yes because I just wanta little bit of air.
And I said yes because I justwant a little bit of air and
that is where I remain for thenext five hours.
(11:29):
Um, they, I could.
I could hear everything aroundme.
I um was talking to myself inmy head.
It is one of the most unsettlingand bizarre experiences you can
have is to be passed out on toomuch weed, and I think they
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occasionally checked on me like,hey, how you doing?
I can't say anything, right,because totally passed out.
I remember at some point alexiaasks maria I think this is that
we're heading like they'repacking up, they're getting
ready to go back down themountain, and she goes um, can
you overdose on too much weed?
(12:10):
And at that point in my headI'm screaming yes, take me to
the hospital, I need help.
Oh, my gosh, help me.
And I'm freaking out.
But of course they can't hearme, maria.
Maria is sure oh, no, no, no,no.
She just needs to, like, sleepit off, she'll be fine.
And I'm thinking like, no,please take me to the hospital.
(12:31):
So we start down the mountainand you know it's very curvy and
suddenly Maria's like oh, Idon't think we buckled her in.
She pulls over, buckles me in,and I can hear her asking like
hey, you know, you, okay.
And later on she said yeah,when you didn't take the
(12:53):
seatbelt from me, like youdidn't even offer to help, I
knew that you were like gone,gone.
And I remember like thinking,thinking, yeah, let me help you.
And trying to tell my arm tomove, but it would just not move
.
So, bless her, she buckled mein.
We go back to Maria's house.
We park in the garage.
They decide that it's better tojust like leave me in the car
(13:15):
rather than carry me in.
All that, plus, I'm a heavygirl.
I'm just going to say I'm alittle bit heavy, I'm a little
bit curvy, okay, and I didn'twant anybody touching me either.
I'm like I just barely met thesepeople.
I maybe I think I met herhusband when we were there
eating lunch and maybe I think Imet her husband when we were
(13:35):
there eating lunch.
Again, briefly, I don't knowthese people and I'm already
telling myself I am so terrible.
I am a horrible friend.
I am supposed to be here formoral support and to be a part
of spreading her mom's ashes.
I'm completely passed out.
I am like this is terrible, butthey were laughing about it that
(13:58):
that was a good sign.
So I'm sitting in there,maria's garage, and it's so
funny because they I think itwas evening when they finally
thought, oh yeah, maybe weshould get some air movement in
here so they opened the maingarage door so, like, get a
breeze going, open the car door.
I remember it was always likeit would go from dark to light
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because the light would go offand Maria's kids were just
having a ball.
They thought it was so funnythat here is this girl passed
out cold in their car and theykept saying like something with
the chicken strips and thechicken nuggets.
They made like a bunch oflittle videos, which I guess
(14:43):
Maria made them delete later,but I still have them on my
phone if I ever want to go back.
And I have a picture from Alexiathat says, like famous last
words, I don't feel it.
And it's then a picture of mejust passed out the high heaven
in the car.
Luckily she left my purse inthere with me, because when I
(15:04):
finally finally was able to cometo it, my body felt so heavy
and so I kind of reached down inmy purse take out my phone.
By the way, I was supposed tocall my mom when we were done,
so she's.
(15:25):
I got a text from her, so I hadto text her real quickly and be
like call you tomorrow.
Couldn't say anything else.
I couldn't say anything elseand I texted Alexia and I said I
think I need some help gettingout of the car.
And so shortly later, here theycome, here comes the cavalry,
(15:47):
she helps me into the house,they sit me down at the
breakfast bar and Maria juststarts piling out food like what
would you want to eat?
We've got this, we've got this,we've got this.
And they had already had likehamburgers or something.
And, um, stupid me.
I'm thinking like I feel sonauseous.
(16:08):
Please just give me water andsaltines.
Mind you, I forgot to mentionthis.
I had horrible dry mouth up onthe mountain because the weed
gummy made my mouth so dry and Iwas so nauseous up there that I
had actually taken like one ofthose like anti-nausea pills.
It's like a pepto-bismol andpill form.
(16:30):
I thought I was gonna choke onit because my mouth was so dry.
It was just like caked in thereand I could barely swallow.
So that's what ended up with,like the saltine, sitting there
just trying to eat a saltine toget something in my stomach.
But then it's like doing thatcakey, like it's not going
anywhere, I can't swallow.
(16:51):
So then I'm like trying to chugsome water back to get to get
it down.
And then I remember saying likeI I need to go like to the
bathroom.
I'm either gonna barf or I'mgonna do the other end.
So Alexia escorts me to thenearest bathroom and I just sit
(17:12):
on the floor and I put my headdown to like try and weave off
the nausea.
And then I get so hot so I tellher I'm really hot.
So she gets like a coldwashcloth, puts it on the back
of my neck um, you know kind ofwhat's my hair with it a little
bit too and just kind of lets mesit there, um, I guess.
(17:37):
Uh, later on they told me that,uh, another one of maria's kids
like passed by the bathroom andI'm just sitting there head
down, eyes closed, you know, andthey're like who is that weird
chick in the bathroom like justhanging out there?
And they start dying, laughingagain.
They.
They're like oh, don't worryabout her, she's just she got a
little too much and she's justtrying to work it out.
(18:00):
Eventually, I think I'm in thebathroom for probably like 30
minutes or something, and thenAlexia's like hey, let's get you
out into the cool air, right?
Oh, so can you hear the dogs?
They're back at it again, oh mygosh.
And so she helps me outside.
I lay down on like this reallynice chair, it's nice and cool
(18:20):
air, it feels so nice outside,it's just so peaceful, and so
we're out there for probablylike another 45 minutes and then
finally we're going home.
So, mind you, oh my gosh, theyard.
Hey, hey, hey, knock it off.
Finally we're going home.
So, mind you, oh my gosh, theyard.
Hey, hey, hey, knock it off.
So, mind you.
(18:40):
We got to Maria's houseprobably about 2 o'clock and hit
the road between like 2.33.
And now, once we once Alexia,finally put me in her car and we
go back to her house and sheputs me to bed, it is like 10
o'clock at night.
(19:02):
So the day is gone, it waspassed out for the majority of
it.
It was like a horrible hangoverthe next morning I don't think
I woke up until probably one ortwo in the afternoon, something
like that, and my mom was likewhat the hell happened, and so I
had to tell her all thesethings and be like I didn't want
(19:25):
to worry you and yeah, and myAlexia was just so kind about it
because I felt like a terriblefriend.
Like I said, I was supposed tobe there for moral support and
here I am passed out so high offmy ass and no, she and Maria
still laugh about it to this day.
Maria loves me.
(19:46):
Now I'm like, well, that wasnot the impression I wanted to
get Maria for the first timemeeting her, but they still
laugh about it.
I'm so glad that I was able toturn kind of like this somber
moment into something, I guess,extra memorable.
You could say, um, but yeah, sothat was my last unexpected
(20:10):
trip to Colorado.
I know now that, uh, I'm gonnastay away from the medicinal
gummies and again, I need and itwas not like Alexis said.
She kept saying that she feltbad because she should have
known like my tolerance was notas good as hers.
I said, well, there was no wayfor you to have known that.
I took the other half, like yousaw me take the one half, but
(20:33):
you didn't see me take the other, because I decided that was not
going to be a good idea to putit back like you had no way of
knowing.
So look at this, not your fault, it was my stupidity.
Um.
So yeah, that was the time inColorado I got so high that it
passed out.
I do not recommend um.
It is a funny story now that I'mout of it.
(20:53):
It was scary as hell at thetime.
But, yeah, I thought that wouldbe a fun little story for the
heaviness that has been thisweek and I'm feeling kind of
better from talking about itbecause it is, it's still just a
funny funny thing.
It is, it's still just a funnyfunny thing.
(21:16):
And yeah, so who knows whatwill happen with my grandpa for
how much longer I have.
I think I'm going to try to goout with him in the next couple
of weeks for a few days.
And it's also just a reminderthat your body can definitely
(21:38):
hold on to trauma, like itremembers.
You may have heard of that bookthe Body Keeps the Score, and
it's absolutely true that yourbody can remember all those
sensations and those feelings ofthe trauma and you may be like
have forgotten, like your brainforgot the memory, until you're
like, oh yeah, that's what thisis probably in relation to, so
(22:00):
thank you for listening again.
Um, and like I said, with thesebeing just my hyper fixations of
the moment, these are going tobe such random episodes, so I
couldn't even tell you what nextweek is going to be about, and
I hope the dogs weren't toodistracting.
This will not happen again.
I will keep the door closed,I'm sure, but they are just.
(22:21):
They wound up for whateverreason and without their mama
being here.
I wanted them to have access tome.
So, and how do we end thisagain?
Oh yeah, Until next time, time,my beautiful humans, bye-bye.
Hello and welcome to another episode of A Spectrum of
Hyperfixations.
I'm your host, miss T, and theT today stands for tired.
I honestly don't know if I'veused this one before, but it's
pretty accurate.
After the week I've had, Icurrently have the house to
myself.
I live with my mom and she isout in California, so the doggos
(00:51):
are alone with me this week andthey are certainly missing
their mama.
So if you hear any potentialdog noises, that is them,
because I didn't want to closethe door.
They just they're so nervous.
So we have three corgis and twocats, and the two that are
(01:12):
quote unquote hers are JesseJames and Annie Oakley and they
are just ready for their mama tocome home.
So let's go ahead and start offwith our cheers and jeers for
the week.
There was not a lot of cheers,to be honest, and I guess one of
(01:34):
them would be let's think I hadone in my head before I even
started oh oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
So the Ignite program startedand it was fabulous.
Like the first session wasreally great, learning the
framework for one of thetechniques which I actually just
(01:56):
watched the replay and tweakedmine.
I'm much more happy with it, soexcited for that to have
started.
Also, I'm much more happy withit.
So excited for that to havestarted.
Also, I'm getting distractedbecause Annie and Jesse have now
decided that they want to playa fight while I'm recording this
, and so I hope you don't hearsome dog sniffles here and there
(02:19):
.
Oh my goodness.
Oh my goodness.
So cheers for the week would be.
I learned that my grandpa hasdecided to stop a dialysis.
I think he only did it a coupleof times.
He was under the impression,though, that it was going to
(02:40):
give back kidney function, andit's actually to just maintain
it, and currently he is at 10%kidney function, and it's
actually to just maintain it,and currently he is at 10%
kidney function.
He lives in Loveland, colorado,and so now it's just, you know,
time and trying to you knowthink of planning an unexpected
(03:02):
trip back to Colorado.
Um, my body is already kind ofremembering the trauma it felt
that started two years ago.
Um, because my 2022 was horrible, and it feels so reminiscent
because two years ago, inSeptember, my friend Alexia lost
(03:24):
her mom to COVID, and I againdid an unexpected trip out to
Colorado to go be with her for alittle bit, because they were
so close and I was very worriedthat she was going to do
something to harm herself.
She was going to do somethingto harm herself.
(03:49):
So, in a fun I segue saying funwhen I'm talking, you know
about some heavy stuff, but thisI thought maybe it'd be a good
time to share this funny storythat happened while I was out
there for my friend, and so, inSeptember of 2022, the company
that I work for and still dothey got hacked.
(04:11):
They they call it a cyberincident and, you know, chaos
ensued.
Nobody knew what to do.
There were no policies,procedures in place of what to
do.
Um it, it was a lot of uh, whatyou call it lack of foresight, I
guess, and planning, and sothat was just completely
(04:34):
stressful, because work, aseverything else in my life was.
Oh my gosh, can you hear them?
Kids, hey, hey.
Have any of you listened tokevin smith's podcast when his
little dog, shecky, used to bealive?
I feel like I'm kevin smithright now.
Say shecky, shecky.
(04:55):
I might legit have to kick themout.
They are like so distracting,please hold so you won't hear
any difference, but I had totell them to settle down.
They are still in the room.
So, my goodness, these dogs.
So Anyway, as I was saying,work was kind of my place to
(05:21):
have things very routine, verystructured.
Kind of my place to have thingsvery routine, very structured
and coming out.
Just you know, several monthsafter being diagnosed with
autism, it made a lot of sense.
Why, you know, the rest of mylife may feel like it's coming
apart in various ways and feelvery overwhelming, but work was
a constant study.
(05:42):
So to have this suddenly belike what the heck are we doing?
It was a lot.
It was a lot, and so I was verymuch looking forward to getting
away for a week to go toColorado Springs and be with my
friend.
So I fly to Colorado throughthe Denver airport and then to
(06:02):
Colorado Springs, and it is myfirst time flying and staying in
Colorado.
So I've, you know, hadconnections through the Denver
airport, as I'm going toCalifornia, but never actually
stayed in Colorado after aflight, and I think that has a
contributing factor to thisstory.
Also, little did I know thatColorado Springs has a higher
(06:27):
altitude than Loveland, if I'mremembering that right correctly
.
So I've never reallyexperienced altitude sickness,
and so that's another thing thatwill come into play here.
So second day comes.
This is when we're going tospread her mom's ashes with a
(06:48):
friend of her mom's uh, her nameis maria.
So we go to maria's house andyou know, weed is legal in
colorado.
And I had done some gummiesbefore, liked, liked them.
I've tried smoking before, hateit because I feel like I'm
(07:09):
having a heart attack, like I'mgonna die.
I need the ambulance.
I'm on the floor coughing up alung.
So gummies are great.
So Maria had some medicinalgummies and Alexia had explained
to me that you know, these area little more potent than what
I'm, you know, accustomed to inthe past.
(07:29):
So I start with a half, as I asI usually do, to take it easy
and see how it goes.
We eat lunch and then, probably30 minutes later, 45 minutes
later, I'm not feeling anything.
I'm like maybe let me just takethe other half before we get on
(07:51):
the road.
So I take the other half.
Hindsight now tells me that Iwas already feeling it because
my choice here in judgment wasvery poor.
So I thought, well, I can't putback half a gummy into this
container because one that'sgross, I don't want them.
(08:11):
Like taking my half a gummythat I bit off of and I don't
really have any pockets in mypurse, it would just be hanging
out in there.
So let me just go ahead andtake that too.
So now we're up to one and ahalf.
Okay, so we're in the car,maria's driving, we're going up
(08:33):
to like Cheyenne Mountain andAlexia asks me at one point.
She's like are you feelinganything?
And I go no, well, as we gethigher and higher, I'm starting
to feel something.
I'm starting to get that likeunderwater feel, if you know
that where your movements arekind of slow, your body feels
(08:54):
heavy, like I'm knowing I'mfeeling it, but I'm not going to
say anything because you knowthat's for pansies.
Like I just said, I'm notfeeling it and I don't want to
suddenly be like, oh yeah, so weget up to the mountains.
This is when.
This is when I start vaguelyremembering things.
So we drove up to as far as wecould and then we circled back
(09:16):
around because we're looking forparking, we're looking for a
nice little space.
We, we find it, we park, wewalk a little ways to a picnic
table and it's also next to kindof like a stream area, mind you
, the sun is also.
It feels so close.
It feels so close, so warm andI'm kind of starting to have
(09:40):
some trouble.
So we sit at the picnic tableand they get out their necklaces
that they were going to putsome of her mom's ashes in and
then we were going to spreadsome.
So I remember her, like Alexia,asking me if I can help her open
(10:01):
something, and I rememberbarely being able to see what
she's handing to me.
Um, I'm starting to feelnauseous, I'm starting to feel
panicky because I'm like I feellike I'm going to have some
issues coming out both ends.
There's no privacy.
What am I going to do?
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I just met this lady too, maria, and I don't want to book like
a crazy fool in front of thisperson that I just like barely
met, right.
So at one point I finally justhad say like I don't feel so
good, and Alexia tells me that,or they both tell me that I
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looked pale as a sheet, I lookeda rough shape, right.
So Maria is like okay, let'sget you back to the car.
So she again just met this lady.
She escorts me back to her Jeep, gets me into the chair the you
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know second row seat and makessure I'm comfortable, asks me if
I want the door still open.
I said yes because I just wanta little bit of air.
And I said yes because I justwant a little bit of air and
that is where I remain for thenext five hours.
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Um, they, I could.
I could hear everything aroundme.
I um was talking to myself inmy head.
It is one of the most unsettlingand bizarre experiences you can
have is to be passed out on toomuch weed, and I think they
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occasionally checked on me like,hey, how you doing?
I can't say anything, right,because totally passed out.
I remember at some point alexiaasks maria I think this is that
we're heading like they'repacking up, they're getting
ready to go back down themountain, and she goes um, can
you overdose on too much weed?
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And at that point in my headI'm screaming yes, take me to
the hospital, I need help.
Oh, my gosh, help me.
And I'm freaking out.
But of course they can't hearme, maria.
Maria is sure oh, no, no, no,no.
She just needs to, like, sleepit off, she'll be fine.
And I'm thinking like, no,please take me to the hospital.
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So we start down the mountainand you know it's very curvy and
suddenly Maria's like oh, Idon't think we buckled her in.
She pulls over, buckles me in,and I can hear her asking like
hey, you know, you, okay.
And later on she said yeah,when you didn't take the
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seatbelt from me, like youdidn't even offer to help, I
knew that you were like gone,gone.
And I remember like thinking,thinking, yeah, let me help you.
And trying to tell my arm tomove, but it would just not move
.
So, bless her, she buckled mein.
We go back to Maria's house.
We park in the garage.
They decide that it's better tojust like leave me in the car
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rather than carry me in.
All that, plus, I'm a heavygirl.
I'm just going to say I'm alittle bit heavy, I'm a little
bit curvy, okay, and I didn'twant anybody touching me either.
I'm like I just barely met thesepeople.
I maybe I think I met herhusband when we were there
eating lunch and maybe I think Imet her husband when we were
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there eating lunch.
Again, briefly, I don't knowthese people and I'm already
telling myself I am so terrible.
I am a horrible friend.
I am supposed to be here formoral support and to be a part
of spreading her mom's ashes.
I'm completely passed out.
I am like this is terrible, butthey were laughing about it that
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that was a good sign.
So I'm sitting in there,maria's garage, and it's so
funny because they I think itwas evening when they finally
thought, oh yeah, maybe weshould get some air movement in
here so they opened the maingarage door so, like, get a
breeze going, open the car door.
I remember it was always likeit would go from dark to light
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because the light would go offand Maria's kids were just
having a ball.
They thought it was so funnythat here is this girl passed
out cold in their car and theykept saying like something with
the chicken strips and thechicken nuggets.
They made like a bunch oflittle videos, which I guess
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Maria made them delete later,but I still have them on my
phone if I ever want to go back.
And I have a picture from Alexiathat says, like famous last
words, I don't feel it.
And it's then a picture of mejust passed out the high heaven
in the car.
Luckily she left my purse inthere with me, because when I
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finally finally was able to cometo it, my body felt so heavy
and so I kind of reached down inmy purse take out my phone.
By the way, I was supposed tocall my mom when we were done,
so she's.
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I got a text from her, so I hadto text her real quickly and be
like call you tomorrow.
Couldn't say anything else.
I couldn't say anything elseand I texted Alexia and I said I
think I need some help gettingout of the car.
And so shortly later, here theycome, here comes the cavalry,
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she helps me into the house,they sit me down at the
breakfast bar and Maria juststarts piling out food like what
would you want to eat?
We've got this, we've got this,we've got this.
And they had already had likehamburgers or something.
And, um, stupid me.
I'm thinking like I feel sonauseous.
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Please just give me water andsaltines.
Mind you, I forgot to mentionthis.
I had horrible dry mouth up onthe mountain because the weed
gummy made my mouth so dry and Iwas so nauseous up there that I
had actually taken like one ofthose like anti-nausea pills.
It's like a pepto-bismol andpill form.
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I thought I was gonna choke onit because my mouth was so dry.
It was just like caked in thereand I could barely swallow.
So that's what ended up with,like the saltine, sitting there
just trying to eat a saltine toget something in my stomach.
But then it's like doing thatcakey, like it's not going
anywhere, I can't swallow.
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So then I'm like trying to chugsome water back to get to get
it down.
And then I remember saying likeI I need to go like to the
bathroom.
I'm either gonna barf or I'mgonna do the other end.
So Alexia escorts me to thenearest bathroom and I just sit
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on the floor and I put my headdown to like try and weave off
the nausea.
And then I get so hot so I tellher I'm really hot.
So she gets like a coldwashcloth, puts it on the back
of my neck um, you know kind ofwhat's my hair with it a little
bit too and just kind of lets mesit there, um, I guess.
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Uh, later on they told me that,uh, another one of maria's kids
like passed by the bathroom andI'm just sitting there head
down, eyes closed, you know, andthey're like who is that weird
chick in the bathroom like justhanging out there?
And they start dying, laughingagain.
They.
They're like oh, don't worryabout her, she's just she got a
little too much and she's justtrying to work it out.
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Eventually, I think I'm in thebathroom for probably like 30
minutes or something, and thenAlexia's like hey, let's get you
out into the cool air, right?
Oh, so can you hear the dogs?
They're back at it again, oh mygosh.
And so she helps me outside.
I lay down on like this reallynice chair, it's nice and cool
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air, it feels so nice outside,it's just so peaceful, and so
we're out there for probablylike another 45 minutes and then
finally we're going home.
So, mind you, oh my gosh, theyard.
Hey, hey, hey, knock it off.
Finally we're going home.
So, mind you, oh my gosh, theyard.
Hey, hey, hey, knock it off.
So, mind you.
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We got to Maria's houseprobably about 2 o'clock and hit
the road between like 2.33.
And now, once we once Alexia,finally put me in her car and we
go back to her house and sheputs me to bed, it is like 10
o'clock at night.
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So the day is gone, it waspassed out for the majority of
it.
It was like a horrible hangoverthe next morning I don't think
I woke up until probably one ortwo in the afternoon, something
like that, and my mom was likewhat the hell happened, and so I
had to tell her all thesethings and be like I didn't want
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to worry you and yeah, and myAlexia was just so kind about it
because I felt like a terriblefriend.
Like I said, I was supposed tobe there for moral support and
here I am passed out so high offmy ass and no, she and Maria
still laugh about it to this day.
Maria loves me.
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Now I'm like, well, that wasnot the impression I wanted to
get Maria for the first timemeeting her, but they still
laugh about it.
I'm so glad that I was able toturn kind of like this somber
moment into something, I guess,extra memorable.
You could say, um, but yeah, sothat was my last unexpected
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trip to Colorado.
I know now that, uh, I'm gonnastay away from the medicinal
gummies and again, I need and itwas not like Alexis said.
She kept saying that she feltbad because she should have
known like my tolerance was notas good as hers.
I said, well, there was no wayfor you to have known that.
I took the other half, like yousaw me take the one half, but
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you didn't see me take the other, because I decided that was not
going to be a good idea to putit back like you had no way of
knowing.
So look at this, not your fault, it was my stupidity.
Um.
So yeah, that was the time inColorado I got so high that it
passed out.
I do not recommend um.
It is a funny story now that I'mout of it.
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It was scary as hell at thetime.
But, yeah, I thought that wouldbe a fun little story for the
heaviness that has been thisweek and I'm feeling kind of
better from talking about itbecause it is, it's still just a
funny funny thing.
It is, it's still just a funnyfunny thing.
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And yeah, so who knows whatwill happen with my grandpa for
how much longer I have.
I think I'm going to try to goout with him in the next couple
of weeks for a few days.
And it's also just a reminderthat your body can definitely
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hold on to trauma, like itremembers.
You may have heard of that bookthe Body Keeps the Score, and
it's absolutely true that yourbody can remember all those
sensations and those feelings ofthe trauma and you may be like
have forgotten, like your brainforgot the memory, until you're
like, oh yeah, that's what thisis probably in relation to, so
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thank you for listening again.
Um, and like I said, with thesebeing just my hyper fixations of
the moment, these are going tobe such random episodes, so I
couldn't even tell you what nextweek is going to be about, and
I hope the dogs weren't toodistracting.
This will not happen again.
I will keep the door closed,I'm sure, but they are just.
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They wound up for whateverreason and without their mama
being here.
I wanted them to have access tome.
So, and how do we end thisagain?
Oh yeah, Until next time, time,my beautiful humans, bye-bye.
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