Tamer’s victory

Dear Aaron’s Opinions Podcast,
My name is Tamer Zaid, and I'm the author of the recently released book, Blind War. I'm reaching out because I believe your podcast, Aaron’s Opinions, would be an excellent platform to discuss some of the themes and insights from my new work with your listeners.
Blind War is a compelling autobiography that recounts the author's journey through adversity as a blind Palestinian navigating life in America. It chronicles his battles with internal and external conflicts, from health challenges like leukemia and blindness to cultural identity struggles and societal expectations. My aim with this book is to highlight the unwavering support of family, the resilience of the human spirit, and the power of faith and determination to overcome life's most daunting obstacles.
I'm confident that a conversation about overcoming adversity would resonate well with your audience. I'm prepared to offer my perspective on how going through hardships can make you stronger as a person as you realize what you did and how you can fix it so that other people can learn from you. You can become an example to other people. The reason I wrote my book is that I wanted to inform my readers what I went through so that it could help them in the long run.
I've been a longtime admirer of Aaron’s Opinions s in depth and thought provoking interviews. I believe my expertise in overcoming hardships aligns well with your content.
You can find more information about me and Blind War here:
•https://tamerzaid.com/
•https://www.instagram.com/tame...
•https://youtube.com/@tamerthehammer
•https://www.facebook.com/profi...
I am available for an interview at your convenience and am happy to work with your schedule. Please let me know if this is something that interests you, and we can discuss potential topics further.
Thank you for your time and consideration.
Best regards,
Tamer Zaid

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someone that you know very well, and this is someone
who has been on the show now for his third
appearance on the show. His name is Tamar Zayad, and
he has had a very interesting life so far, and
basically Tamar has had to overcome many things in his life,

(04:43):
and in today's episode, he's going to mostly be strictly
talking about his new book that had that has come out,
and it's a great book. You can get it on
Amazon and or anywhere else you get a book, but
primarily on Amazon. And we are hoping that Tamor will
get many new downloads and things like that. So definitely
go support his book. He has really overcome a lot,
and he's really really a great person to talk to

(05:05):
in the community, and he's doing a lot of important
work in the community. So don't forget about that. You
can find his book and I will put a link
to his book in the description, of course, and then
of course you can go download the book on Amazon.
So without further ado, let me tell you that you're
listening to the Erin's Opinion podcast. This means we need

(05:26):
a great title for this episode. So you're listening to
the Erin's Opinion Podcast. My name is Aaron Richmond, and
now let's sit back and let's listen together two Tamar's Victory.
Welcome or welcome back, everybody to another exciting episode of
Aaron's Opinion, the podcast for blind people where we speak
about critical issues in the blindness community and all other
issues from across the universe and galaxy. Today we're joined

(05:49):
by a very familiar face his third time on the podcast,
Tamar Zayad, Welcome back, Welcome aboard, as we always like
to say, today we're going to be focusing on something
very specific. Of course, we can talk about whatever Tamer
wants to talk about, but mainly we're going to be
promoting and focusing and sharing the positive message from his
new book. I've been wanting to sit down with you

(06:12):
and talk to you about this for a while, and
now we finally get to do it. So, of course,
if you don't mind me saying, why don't you give
a one sentence reminder to anyone who wants to remember
who you are? And then you can just basically dive
directly into your book and go from there. I'll me
into microphone talk as much as you want to go.

Speaker 4 (06:29):
Thanks Karen for having me again on your podcast. I
really appreciate your You're trusting me the the honest interviews,
you know, sharing, you know the knowledge, and uh you

(06:51):
know the purpose of all the people that you interview.
My name is Samrada is uh a self published author.
I'm from Houston, Texas, and Uh I recently became an
author after writing my first autobiography, Blind War, So here. Recently,

(07:16):
I released my second edition of Blind Wore, which really
focuses on my life journey and talking about my struggles
growing up and uh, you know, realizing how I can

(07:39):
grow as a person, dealing with uncertainty, dealing with you know,
basically gness, and also some other issues that I talked about.
You know, my focus of writing a book is to

(08:04):
make others that may have, you know, similar issues understand
how they can overcome challenges, how they can understand their
their life and basically have purpose in their lives. So
you know, in my book, I do talk about how,

(08:27):
you know, I faked so many challenges, but you know
I was you know, fortunate to have a great family,
great mentors. You know, you know, the national tradition of
the mind as an adult helped me to you know,

(08:50):
shine as a person, Know that I am worth you know,
being a leader and providing you know, sufficient you know,
practices of of how I can you know, make a

(09:18):
change in other people's life and also make my life
you know, positives where I can give back to the community.
So in a way, it's a through a treat And
you know, I wanted to write my books because as self,

(09:39):
theirs so many people out there that are saved, you know,
feeling down, feeling hopeless. And you know, because I went
through my life and understood how I can, you know,
live my life to the fullest, I wanted to share
my journey, my story, you know, whether you're mentoring others,

(10:05):
whether you're making a difference in other people's lives. And
you know, my journey is about self reflection, it's about
you know, growing as a person. And I stuff all
of that in my you know, in my.

Speaker 1 (10:26):
Book excellent, perfect, you know it really I think takes
a very special person to choose to write a book, right,
So correct. You know, you've been you've been having a
lot of experiences in your life, and you've been we've
been talking about a lot of these experiences over the
years here on the podcast. So and it's something that

(10:49):
I didn't understand before you came today, and now I
understand it. And either I misunderstood or I didn't know.
So you said though the book is called Blind War,
but you said that there's there was like a prequel
to the book you just released, or is it just
one book that wasn't entirely so?

Speaker 4 (11:06):
Yeah, So the the way I did it is I
had the first book that I released. Uh that was
that book was published through a publisher, a publisher, a
publisher's house. But during that process I had so many

(11:26):
issues because those publishers I worked with did not really
understand the blondness perspective, you know, the non visual skills
that blonde people used. Uh. The they did not understand,

(11:47):
you know, how to craft my story so that I
can tell it in a profound and honest way. So
that was my first edition. But what I did after that,
I after six months of that, I went and uh,

(12:09):
I you know, took the uh, the urge to re
write my story in a way that a blind person
can understand it and for you know, people like us
to understand the struggles and you know, the misconceptions of

(12:33):
a one person going through life. So to you know,
to make this clear, I you know, my first book
wasn't really profound. It wasn't really you know, told in
a way that it would you know, have emotions, it

(12:55):
would have feelings. But you know, I was, you know, hopeful,
and I worked with a vine writer that helped me
to track my story and put my story out so
that you know, one people can read it. And connect
to it.

Speaker 1 (13:17):
Really good, really good. So who did you work with,
by the way, when you released your new your most
recent book.

Speaker 4 (13:23):
Who My writer name is Haggi Tran. She is a
local writer here in Newton. She is visually impaired, and
she is actually also a secretary in my local factor
of the NSC. And I was very happy to connect

(13:48):
with her and you know, helped me to put my
words down so that it would effectively make a difference
in you know, and the readers, whether it's volunteer wind
readers or you know, statist readers. You know, she helped

(14:12):
me to really put my story out so that, you know,
those emotions and feelings can really resonate to whoever is
reading my autobiography.

Speaker 1 (14:31):
Excellent, excellent, Well, that sounds like it sounds like we
should get that person. On Aaron's opinion too, she sounds
like a great writer as well. We should definitely get
connected with that person. That's really cool, you know, And
I've known a lot of people, actually more people than
you realize, camer have come to me wanting help publishing
their books who are blind. So this is this is
a really important thing. You also said too, you feel

(14:54):
that now that you've written this book, you feel that
your true authentic self, your true self as a blind person,
is truly understood and is truly expressed in this book.
So I mean, we've we've answered, I've asked you many
times and you've answered beautifully. But really, what what version
of you? And I know that you only portray the

(15:17):
real you obviously, but what what version of your blind
you could a reader find in the pages? And how
do you think it's so different being being a blind author?
You know, what what perspective do we have? Because I
want you to dig into your you know, philosophy about
about this, So tell us, you know.

Speaker 4 (15:35):
It's really being honest with the reader, being honest in
a way it would uh flip a swisp in those
reader's mind and understand that everyone is going through struggle.

(15:56):
No one out there is.

Speaker 1 (15:59):
Is Uh.

Speaker 4 (16:01):
It's truly having a fulfilling life. And I don't mean
it in a bad way. I mean it certainly. I
mean it in a way that everyone you know goes
through partships, everyone goes through struggles. But you know, being

(16:22):
honest in a way that it would, you know, effectively
make a difference in others other people's minds to put
that into perspective. It's uh, you know, it's you know,

(16:48):
it's uh it's a way where they would you know,
the reader would say, I'm not alone. I'm not you know,
there's other people out there that are also going through
the same situation, and I can you know, I can
overcome this, I can successfully get out of this issue

(17:15):
or this uh problem. Because obviously in my book, you know,
I do talk about my blondness side, I do talk
about my invisible disability. But you know, you have to
uh come to a realization to know that, you know,

(17:39):
there's people out there that can help you. There's resources,
there's you know, ways to minimize you know, challenges, and
you know my story, you know, I've talked about in
chapter ten about you know, attending ls beings and you

(18:02):
know here to come to know that LSB was the
place to be. The reason is because I was lacking
skills and it was time for me to understand that
I had to work on my skill sets. I had
to gain confidence. I had to have the trust in

(18:27):
my instructors to keep me you know, the right way
of doing things non visually. And it's about trust, It's
about you know, not even like my instructors, having trusted them,

(18:49):
but also like if you go home, So I had
to also go through this when I went home from
l TOB. I had to build the trust with my
family because before, you know, I wasn't. I did not
cook by myself, I did not claim by myself. I
did not travel by myself. But I had to come

(19:14):
back and take the initiative to show them exactly how
I do things in a non visual way. And I
had to make them, you know, understand that I can
be independent even with blindness. You know, it's all about

(19:39):
you know, confidence, it's all about having purpose. So absolutely yeah,
I was able to you know, effectively show my fidon,
my my home and my whole family that I can
be independent. I don't need their their health, you know,

(20:02):
might need their help one day or you know, one time,
but I can do everything on my own when I
you know, when I sit down and pan for it
or I effectively you know, gather information, and I usually

(20:26):
do that with Rail.

Speaker 1 (20:29):
Of course. Absolutely for for the listener who doesn't know, I,
I know what l c B is. I never went,
but I'm familiar with it. Why don't you go back
there and remind people, So what is in one or
two sentences? What what what's l l c B, How
does that work? And what what do you know about that?
L CB is a major thing for a lot of people,
So walk through that a little bit.

Speaker 4 (20:47):
Yeah, So l the B is Advonish training by the
National Federation of the Plan. It's one of three UH
national centers. It's lowcated in Western Leis, Vienna. So basically,
if you want to get funded, you need to speak
to your rehab cancellor. So basically for me, I had

(21:12):
to It's okay, I had to work with the Sextus
h NFC office to get funding.

Speaker 1 (21:23):
UH.

Speaker 4 (21:23):
So that that process took a while. You had to
go back and forth with book rehab to tell them
exactly what your needs are, why do you want to
go there? You know, tell them exactly what you need
help with so that you can get the proper funding. So,

(21:46):
you know, I was able to do that and after
a few weeks I communicated with the UH you know,
the centers directors Cam Allen and uh you know, I
you know, I told myself before I went that I'm
going to put my hundred ten percent into this training

(22:08):
because working with the NFC. I knew that the NFC
would help me tremendously. I knew that in the past
book we have, you know, did a you know, I
would say a bad job with providing me training. But

(22:30):
you know I had the trust in the NSC. So
you know, once I started training, you know, I, you know,
I was very fortunate too to grow to help myself
understand that, you know, I need skills. I need to

(22:53):
have the repetition of learning all those skills. And you know,
by by week by week, I grew, uh you know, exponentially.
I was reading Braille faster. I was, you know, planning meals,
writing about Embraille, taking it step by step, making no mistakes.

(23:20):
You know, I was walking with the cane, you know,
using stepture discovery structure. And you know I I learned,
you know, effectively how to use the cane and go
everywhere I want to go. I don't need to depend

(23:41):
on anyone, you know, I learned how to you know,
use a saw in the shop fast. I But you
know one thing that I also realized, I don't through
about training that you know, I was lower than other

(24:03):
you know, other participants in the program. And uh for
for a while, I did not know why. I did
not know why I was lower, why it took me
a while to complete projects in the in the top past.
But it comes to be that it's my memory. It's uh,

(24:29):
it's you know, I'm lower because of my past brain injury.
But again, what I've also learned is that I don't
compare myself to anyone. I looked at myself and that's
that I don't look out, uh, and that helped me
to really realize that, you know, learning is a long

(24:58):
it's a skill that you have for the rest of
your life. And it's a pay to be slower. It's
a pay too, you know, do things on a slower pace.
But with me having being sower in being more careful,

(25:20):
results in a better result. And that's actually what I've learned.
It's just, uh, you know, you can learn on your terms.

Speaker 1 (25:35):
Yeah, you're so right. You are so so right about
all of it. Absolutely and very interesting. Okay, So how
long were you at LCB.

Speaker 4 (25:44):
By the way, I was there for nine months?

Speaker 1 (25:46):
Nine months? Yeah, that's usually how long. It is about
nine months, nine months to a year, depending on the person. Yeah, yeah,
really good. Okay, all right, you kind of started at
chapter ten, So how what what can you tell us
aboutapters one to nine? How do we get up to ten?

Speaker 4 (26:02):
So?

Speaker 1 (26:02):
What what? So basically what I would like you to
do is try to walk through the book, talk about,
you know, how you laid out the chapters and and
what what are some of the key points of the
keystone moments from each of the chapters that somebody should
be aware of when they read the book.

Speaker 4 (26:17):
Yeah, so basically chapter one talked about, uh, you know,
how I was born here in the US. Then we
as a family, we moved back to Paleston and you
know in Palestie is where they have the whore. You know.

(26:43):
I talked about how I grew up with you know,
first my grandparents and my grandma from my mom side,
and it's it's talking about how I was always spoiled

(27:03):
as a child. Everything that I wanted, I would go
to my aunt media too, uh to fulfill my witch.

Speaker 5 (27:15):
And uh how you know that that was the realization
stage with me still, you know, you know, until I,
you know, came here and you know, I was always
wanting wanting things.

Speaker 6 (27:37):
You know.

Speaker 4 (27:37):
I also speak about having you know, a connected family
that always cared for me. You know I speak about
how you know, how these the struggles dealing with war
in in Palston was was a perspective where it made

(28:06):
me sick, you know from you know, from pollution. You know,
I was diagnosed with leukemia and I had to come
here to the US, and I was fortunate to have
a US citizen, and you know it goes into going

(28:32):
into a coma for a month and a half and
how I did not you know, remember what happened to
me during the coma, but you know I got some
information from my family to cover that and uh, you
know in my in my story or my in that chapter,

(28:56):
I talked about how you know what occurred while I
was in the coma, and uh there was lots of
you know, emotions and feelings, you know, in situations that
were very difficult for my parents. And uh it's where

(29:22):
you know it brought they stayed too much struggles for
my family. But you know my family and uh you
know my friends and all that you know, praying and uh,
you know, one day I woke up and my father

(29:45):
was next to me and I mumbled my friend's name
and that from that time I woke up really so
you know, from there chapter to would would go through,
you know, the challenges I say, realizing that I was blind. Now,

(30:13):
it took me a while to understand that. But there
was the time that I woke up and realized that
now I don't have sight, I needed to do something.
I needed to look up to my siblings, you know,

(30:36):
they were going to school and I wanted to go
to school too. So, you know, I speak about how
I started school. I spoke about how I was introduced
to Brail, and I was at first, I was discussive,
ah from the idea of learning Brail. You know, I

(31:01):
talk in in my in the saster about how one
day in my school back home, we had people disabilities
that came and did the presentation reading for but I
was always uh started to say that, but it made

(31:24):
me feel, you know, not together. I'm not sure why.
But now being on the other end, I regret that.
You know. In chapter three, I talked about, you know,

(31:54):
growing throughout school, how how my journey was, you know,
how I basically grew up with my family and learned
how to communicate with them, which was very difficult. You know,

(32:21):
It's it was a time where you know, I had
to you know, learn things in alternative ways. I had
to get my family's help with schooling, whether it's homework,

(32:47):
whether it's projects, and you know, I talked about how
those experiences really were effective, but in the same time
did not helped me grow as a person. You know.
I also talked, you know, because I went to a

(33:16):
school for starched people, Yes, it did help me, but
in the same time, it is you know, I did
not really know the bones start of it, how it works,
how a blunt person can be successful in life. So

(33:40):
that really affected my empathy, affected my way of learning.
So all of that was, you know, I talked about
in you know, in detail. Stay in chapter four. I

(34:03):
you know, I talked about how, you know, I go
to college and you know, I I would have the
same struggles. You know, I'm slower and I do realize
I'm slower. And Uh. I was fortunate to have a
counselor at eighty out of community college that helped me

(34:27):
through my you know, short term memories, taught me with uh,
you know, accommodations, uh, you know, for my passes, and
I did not really struggle through uh community college. Uh,

(34:47):
but it was where after that I went to the
university and that was a total game changer. You know,
I I went into mental health issues. I I faced
many challenges with accessibility. I you know, I had to

(35:15):
be my own advocate, which I was not ready for,
and that made me, you know, go and seek help
from you know, services that I was not supposed to
get help from. Was you know. I do I do

(35:36):
talk about IRA. I do talk about how I've got
to help to compete assignments, which I was not supposed to.
You know, at the time, I was not you know,
using my brain. I was not My skills weren't up there.
And you know, I can tell you that I, uh

(35:58):
failed through college. But the way I made it work
is you know, my my dad at home or futuring
at COVID. So all of that was you can say cheating,
but I did it in a way where it wasn't recognizable.

(36:29):
And I honestly I regret that because I should have been,
you know, using my brains to do everything I was not. Uh.
At the same time, I had my my trough jobs. Well,
I had a first job with Apple for two years
that was the Apple store. And uh, I can tell

(36:53):
you that I failed because I I did not have skills,
not think about things potically. I did not use you know,
systematic approach. I you know, I always told my employer

(37:18):
that things are not working, which they were not working.
Accessibility was lacking at Apple. You know, tools were inaccessible.

Speaker 6 (37:33):
Uh.

Speaker 4 (37:34):
I even went to a job that uh used a
chaos and the chaosks wasn't accessible. I you know, there
you open tickets to solve issues within the technology, but
you know, the tickets would never get resolved and they

(37:57):
put you in the dark for recently and uh, you know,
it was an unfortunate situation where you know, I told
my managers that I want to proceed. I I am
a person with lamentum. I'm a person that is ambitious.

(38:22):
But my first job I resigned and after ten months
I was successful at speaking another job with Apple, and
that time was it was in the Best Buy but
working for Apple. And after three years I did quit

(38:43):
because the same it's just a right and that resulted
in mental health issues. So I had to leave my
my job knowing that I was lacking and at the
time I did not know it was a bunch of hawks.
But after several weeks I went to a doctor and

(39:13):
they realized that I was going through cut, I was
going through anxiety. So you know, it was the unfortunate
time advocating and uh and letting Apple know that they

(39:35):
did a just fused. But I want to reveal something, Aaron.
It's uh, the issue wasn't really my vision. Uh, that
would have been resolved after a few spries. But I

(39:58):
believe my issue was my a disability that caused me to,
you know, suffer as an employee. You know, being slower
than your colleague is an unfortunate thing. Your your managers,

(40:21):
managers would think that you're lacking and they don't know
why because our part of disability is invisible. They cannot
see that. And uh it seems as if everything happened
at once, and uh, I have to leave because I
couldn't do my job. I didn't function, I shouldn't put

(40:47):
my thoughts together. I couldn't multitas. But I can tell
you that the corporate world means lots of help. It
needs lots of ways to improve. Because when when you

(41:13):
say that it's before all SATs of distability, uh, we're
working with all sorts of accessibility. That that is not true.
That's company that I worked with and I don't know
if you know, working with multiple disabilities was it wasn't

(41:38):
what Apple can do. But I can tell you that
accessibility does lack in the area. And uh, you know
you know, yes, I failed at my job. I so
this still this day, I say determined. I say, you know,

(42:03):
I want to be an advocate for others with multiple disabilities,
to us to know that those you know, companies need
to do to do more. You know, we need more accuracy,
We need more people to be you know, working with

(42:26):
us to make this not happen to others.

Speaker 1 (42:34):
Absolutely, you are so you are so right. Yeah, thank
you for speaking about it again. I know that we
we've talked about it before, but I appreciate you bringing
it up again. That's totally fine. Okay, all right, moving
please please continue with and then the next chapter. Please continue.

Speaker 4 (42:51):
The next chapter is finding my my focus.

Speaker 7 (43:00):
Mhm.

Speaker 4 (43:00):
It was weird.

Speaker 1 (43:01):
We're on, by the way, I think we're on chapter five, right,
I just to keep track of the numbers. Are we
in five?

Speaker 4 (43:07):
Yes? Yes? Chapter five? Okay, okay, so chapter five is
about the shamane. Let me uh look at my notes, okay, okay,
here we go. Okay, So chapter five talked about let's here. Okay.

(43:53):
So chapter five almost their okay, So in chapter five
I do talk about hm h.

Speaker 6 (44:17):
M hm.

Speaker 4 (44:21):
Okay. So in chapter five I do talk about, you know,
facing uh m hmm okay. I don't have a fuck

(44:57):
them h yeah, mhm Eric, can you post here? Yes,
I'm still here at continued pause it for a second.

Speaker 1 (45:15):
Oh, yes, yes, pause, yes, hold on one, hold on
sure I can pass for a second. Pause one, Well moment, guys. Okay,
we're gonna we're gonna pause hold one.

Speaker 4 (45:30):
Okay. Now we're gonna be talking about chapter five. And
the tackle for this is living home, uh, finding myself,
and that's the tackle of the chapter. So in this chapter,

(45:51):
I uh, I'm rarely talk about, you know, how I
and I was able to go through cold, how I
was able to uh you know, how I struggled through call,

(46:12):
how I realized that you know, how you know that experience, uh,
you know made me go into other challenges. And then
you know, talking about also you know, the the job

(46:34):
with Apple, how that experience you know made me realize,
you know, there's you know, there's other things that are
going on. You know, I was basically struggling to understand
what was going on. I tried to make myself see

(47:00):
as if I'm normal, but I couldn't you know, justify
you know that just by that at all, I knew
that there was something else that I that was going
on with me. I knew that there's something that I

(47:26):
needed to you know, be aware of so that I
can focus on being myself, focus on how I can

(47:47):
understand myself so that I can help myself know how
you know, I can function as a normal uh human beings.
So you know, through this chapter I talked about, you know,

(48:09):
what struggles I went through. I talked about you know,
I did provide the feelings and emotions that I faith
which were very very you know, hard to understand. And

(48:34):
you know, it makes the reader feel as if, you know,
they want to support me, They want to you know,
men hands to that so that I can feel connected.
But you know I struggled. I couldn't you know, realize

(48:59):
what was going on. So this chapter really focuses on
how I went through that process. You know what helped
I got, whether it was my family, whether it was
my my friends or mentor Mark, whether it was members

(49:25):
of the NFB. So it's it's the chacter really focuses
on you know, you know, understanding my my own self
and knowing how I can live my life you know successfully.

Speaker 7 (50:00):
Okay, got it?

Speaker 1 (50:02):
And chapter six so we can get all the way
all the way through. I don't know how many chapters
there are, but we can get all the way back
to chapter ten.

Speaker 4 (50:12):
Chapter really focuses on the you know, the the overwhelmed
experience going through going through college and descending to uh

(50:33):
descending into a mental health crist. So this chapter really
tells you, you know, why how I went into college?
Why was why I went to college? And that was
basically I wanted I want I wanted to mimic my

(50:55):
siblings experience. I wanted to you you know, show my
parents the eye can be a successful uh bright h
h white collared employees that works for this company, that

(51:20):
has a status, a person that has a position that
has value. And you know I talked about my college experience.

(51:43):
How again, how I as a person with a visual
inpairment and a talkingstive disability, I was a slower. I
I was. It took me time to understand what I
was reading. And you know, I just struggled as a student.

(52:13):
And yes, I completed my fourth work at atp offic
Comunity College. But then the big boy college came and
that was a total darkness. I had to do everything
on my own. I had to again get guidance from

(52:40):
services like IRA, get help with my advanced math process
from my father. But that wasn't the way it's supposed
to be done. Again, I uh, in the fafter I

(53:03):
talked in detail about how I made my experience even worse,
going into uncertainty, going into mental health issues and not

(53:26):
being able to think with my own mind. You know,
that made me go into part time where I and
I doubted myself all the time. It was it was yes,

(53:49):
I uh, you know I was. I received my bachelor's
and HR management, but at the same time, I felt
as if I was betraated because that work wasn't only
my own work. It was you know, getting help from

(54:13):
the people are then me and uh, you know, I
I talk about how, you know, how I done all
of that, but it was bigically the wrong thing to do.

(54:35):
And you know that that degree wasn't wasn't what I what's.

Speaker 6 (54:46):
The books to earn?

Speaker 7 (54:54):
H yes, yes, mm hmm okay, so chapter seven, yep,
maybe maybe you can talk more about like maybe put

(55:17):
if you like, you can put seven eight together or
nine to kind of group some of these topics if
you want, You're welcome.

Speaker 4 (55:22):
To all right, So chapter seven talk more about the
dream job, the rejection, and how am that Apple job

(55:45):
was the wrong jobs to go into it. As I said,
you know, I I I lacked the skills to do

(56:10):
any job at the time. I did not know that
because I I was basically oblivious to what skills I
should have had before I went into imponment. But you know,

(56:31):
the rejection comes from managers doubting my performance. The rejection
came from nothing. My managers know that I can do

(56:55):
their job, but it's takes no more time, you know.
I uh, you know, I did not know at the
time that I needed to know how to do a
try and be And you know, I just told them
I can I can do the job, and.

Speaker 6 (57:16):
It's like.

Speaker 4 (57:19):
Giving them a false answer. So you know, I would
tell them I can do the job, but at the
end the job would not be done correctly. But I
can tell you it's also about you know, my memory became.

(57:46):
You know, if somebody told me something I have to
racket down. At the time, I was just listening and
forgetting what they would say, and that would put me
in a sub situation. So in perspective, I now know

(58:08):
the right way of doing things, but at the time
it was where, you know, they wanted to avoid me
all the time. They never gave me, you know, rooms
to expand they never gave me room to get promoted.

(58:33):
And I talked about why I do I talk about,
you know, because now I know why, you know, I
provided that in the book. It was because I did
not have the proper training to know how to perform

(58:55):
a job successible, whether it was take notes, whether it
was recording, whether it was you know, effectively communicating with colleague.
So in that chapter I talked a lot about not

(59:20):
doing things the right way and how I should have
done it in a way that was you know, it
was done professionally.

Speaker 1 (59:43):
Absolutely, yeah, totally, you're totally right, and I totally understand. Yeah, okay.
And then chapter eight and nine.

Speaker 4 (59:52):
So in the chapter eight, in chapter eight, I it's
it's called waking up unveiling my mass. So in this fact,
I really talk about, you know, all the things that

(01:00:13):
I that I did want, all the things that I
that I say that I you know, made promises that
we're not done or we're not accomplished. I talk about how,

(01:00:36):
you know, I was always having the positive attitude, having
the you know, a mindset where you know, I want
to do everything, I know how to do everything. But
it's some to know that I did not I uh,

(01:00:58):
you know, all the people that I've worked with, all
all the colleagues that I interacted with, it was basically
not true. It wasn't where I am, you know, I

(01:01:20):
wasn't fuckworthy. And part of it, again, it's uh, is
not having the right build set, not having the right
tool or the correct tools to do my work. And

(01:01:46):
I needed to, you know, learn that the way I
do things is different, and now I know the right
ways to do it. But at the time I was oblivious,

(01:02:07):
I was unaware on so I couldn't do all those things.

Speaker 1 (01:02:17):
Sure, sure, sure, yeah. No's that's all really good, all
really really good. So how many how many other chapters
does your book go up to?

Speaker 4 (01:02:28):
More?

Speaker 1 (01:02:29):
Okay? Just okay, because just so, it just goes to
ten or it goes to twelve. Ten, okay, all right, yeah,
please please go to chapter nine and then we already
know what chapter ten is about and then we'll actually
go on to walking towards the conclusion and how someone
can download the book and listen.

Speaker 4 (01:02:47):
Yeah, okay, so chapter nine is I think faith, Kah
and focus. So yeah, it's finding a faith and focus.

(01:03:08):
So this chapter is about, you know, going through my life,
I realized that, you know, I did not have a
way to connect to God because of my memory issues.

(01:03:38):
It's a short term memory, so you are not able
to you know, remember you know, how to connect to
God to get to get that faith. And I can

(01:04:01):
tell you that when I was at l to Be,
I attended church over there and uh, you know, with
with my friends, you know, I was able to slowly
regain the notion that that my faith was gone. But

(01:04:30):
now I can begin it. It was because I lacked
confidence and I had no faith. That's why I wasn't
able to for the longest time ever be able to
connect to you know, my religion. You know, because you

(01:04:59):
are not being able to believe in something. It's that
that you're not able to you know, have a conversation
with with God. It was where you know, realizing that

(01:05:27):
my you know, my the way I attended church there
was you know, I basically regained the confidence that I can,
you know, relate to God, relate to the faith again,

(01:05:50):
and that made me have trust in myself too. It's
it's just a way where the boots of confidence comes
to and uh, you know, day by day you get
more connected to.

Speaker 1 (01:06:14):
Yeah Jesus, absolutely sure, sure, all right, very good, And
then we already know about chapter ten you talk about that. Okay, Tammer,
Well you did a wonderful job today talking about your book.

(01:06:37):
So for one, so currently now your book is on
is on audible writer or it's on Amazon. So a
huge thing for blind people is we have to be
able to listen to it. Though, So where does that
stand with people being able to listen to your book
and download and download it that way?

Speaker 4 (01:06:54):
Okay? So you know, as I mentioned before, my book
is not in audio format yet. It's in the process
of getting recorded. Uh. I am using a local studio
recording I mean recording studio here in Houston for one people.

(01:07:17):
It's uh it's called Sights into Sounds.

Speaker 1 (01:07:22):
Uh.

Speaker 4 (01:07:22):
So those guys are helping me to put my book
into audio and I'm I'm going to be uh posting
that onto uh Amazon, and also my website. So basically

(01:07:44):
it's the same way you purchased my other books. But
the way it's done is that you or the way
I'm chose to do it is get the studio recording
to repose my book and then I'll be able to
oppose it to Amazon. So you know, I that was

(01:08:15):
becoming very.

Speaker 1 (01:08:16):
Soon excellent, very very good and for people and for
sight of people who want to read it. Is the
book already on Amazon?

Speaker 4 (01:08:24):
It is, Yes, it's got the Amazon and search forth
vine by Tamada. It would be.

Speaker 1 (01:08:31):
Sure, it would please be sure to just send me
back the Amazon link to the print copy, certainly, and
that's where people can go. It's important when you have
a book that you direct people very very well, very
directly to it or else people become with books people,
it's a little harder because there's so many titles and
all of that. Right, all right, Well, tamer thank you

(01:08:52):
for stopping by the day on the podcast. It was
an honor to have you for your third third of
many installments. As always, man, you did really you did
a graceful and beautiful job as always sharing your story
and everything like that. But certainly, before we go, do
you have any questions for me. I always like to say,
do you have any questions? That is totally, totally fine,

(01:09:14):
totally fine, all right, everybody, Well, we want to take
this time again thank you Tamor for sharing your beautiful
book and thank you for writing it, because I think,
as I've said over the years, I think more people
than you realize, more people than I realized, and more
people than we realize, actually do need to hear your
words of wisdom and encouragement. And I think it means
it means a lot to people. And you know, in

(01:09:35):
the future, people will will certainly look at these They'll
listen to this episode and they'll say, Okay, that's great,
But then they'll say, wow, and he actually took the
time to write a book, And that's truly a spectacular accomplishment.
Not to say that everything else isn't, but the fact
that you took the time to write the book, to
publish it, to work with these people, that's, you know,

(01:09:55):
whether you have a traumatic brain injury or blinder sighted
or regardless, it's a huge accomplishment to say you published
a book and that you're an author. And we want
to say thank you so absolutely, man, you are so
welcome here, and and we will certainly work very hard
to make sure that people not only by your book
in print, by the print copy, but when it is

(01:10:16):
available on audible. We need to talk because I want
to listen to it when it's on audible, and our
our Aaron's Opinion family will certainly listen when it's on audible.
I think probably more people will will listen then read
the print. But absolutely, well.

Speaker 4 (01:10:32):
It's on Kindle as well, you know, if anyone likes
the Kindle version. Okay, but you can also uh you know,
get the softcover or the hotcover and they are also
accessible with low visions.

Speaker 1 (01:10:50):
Yeah, all right, all right, that's really cool man, that's
super super cool. Yeah. Yeah, And what about a large
print version? Did you did you produce a large print version?

Speaker 4 (01:10:59):
Correct? It isn't in large prints.

Speaker 1 (01:11:04):
It isn't.

Speaker 7 (01:11:04):
Oh, it isn't.

Speaker 1 (01:11:05):
Oh, there is a large print Usually some books have
like a standard print option. I'm not sure what the
font size is, but then I've I've also heard that
in some cases they'll produce a large print version. Yeah,
that would be really useful for low vision, low vision readers.

Speaker 4 (01:11:19):
Yeah, and also, don't forget to follow me on social media, Facebook, Facebook, Instagram,
and YouTube. It's uh tamor the Hammer my uh uh
handle and uh yeah, and don't don't forget to fit

(01:11:47):
my website dot com.

Speaker 1 (01:11:49):
And don't forget to click the link in the description
for even more information. And you know, this video will
be added to the Tam or the Hammer playlist. So
if you want to hear the past conversations with Tamer
over the years, that's it's a great place to go
tamor the Hammer playlist on YouTube. And when I send
this back to you, it will be part of the playlist.
So when you get the playlists, to share the playlist,
and this will be the most up to date one.
But it's a really cool feature. And we are just

(01:12:11):
so glad to have you. All right, man, you're so
welcome in all the best to you all your writing
and keep writing, keep publishing articles, and keep you Typically
authors do that though you write several big books in
their lifetime, but they oftentimes write publications and article shorter
articles about what's going on around the community. Man. So
we're doing great, all right, everybody there you go Tam

(01:12:33):
or the Hammer, check it out wherever you get books.
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(01:12:57):
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great job you really did. I really appreciate by the
way during the conversation that you know, we had to
stop and you had to kind of recollect your thoughts

(01:15:08):
and get reorganized, and I think you did a really
you did that really gracefully, and I think that's a
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very very important thing. Anyway, Tamar, I wish you all
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(01:15:29):
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