Hey friends, this episode is different.
It’s just me, Erin. No Cinnamon, no guests, no clever banter. Just me, a mic, and a story I’ve spent years living and carefully deciding how (and when) to share. I realized recently that we throw around the word “recovery” a lot on this show. Cinnamon and I both reference it, we nod to it, but not everyone really knows what that means. So today, I’m letting you in a little deeper.
This is the Cliff’s Notes version of how I got here. How I grew up in an alcoholic home, lost my mom to the disease, watched my dad find sobriety, and still somehow ended up unraveling in my own addiction. It’s messy. It’s nonlinear. It involves some hard truths about my relationships, the darkness I waded through, and the moments that cracked me wide open.
But it’s not just about pain. It’s about purpose. It’s about the voice I heard...twice...that told me, “You can’t do this anymore.” It’s about the people who showed up when I couldn’t stand on my own. And it’s about what happens when you stop being afraid of your own light and finally decide to step into it.
If you’ve ever felt like you were too far gone, too broken, too messy, or just plain too much...this one’s for you. You’re not alone. Me too, friend. Me too.
DISCLAIMER:
After the Tones Drop has been presented and sponsored by Whole House Counseling. After the Tones Drop is for informational purposes only and does not constitute for medical or psychological advice. It is not a substitute for professional health care advice diagnosis or treatment. Please contact a local mental health professional in your area if you are in need of assistance. You can also visit our shows resources page for an abundance of helpful information.
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