A candid return at fifty, where I share addiction recovery, the cost of visibility, and a fresh public voice that braids soul, money, tech, and civic life.
I came back to the mic after two years, newly fifty and fiercely alive. This episode opens with a simple claim: love can be rational, love can lead, love can think clearly without letting the mind run the show.
I walk you through the realities of ketamine recovery, the stigma that trails addiction, and the relief of real healing. I name the risks of the personal growth industry, why regulated care matters, and how offline time, books, and steady presence rebuild a nervous system.
I share the moment the parts of my life clicked together, and how a cross-discipline voice emerged. Finance, psychotherapy, politics, tech, and the daily work of being human, held in one body. I speak about work, dignity, and the power structures that shape our days. I open a door to blockchain as a tool for more participation and less capture, distinct from the hype.
We finish with a call to daily practice. Slow thought, local life, better questions, and a commitment to speak with soul.
What you will hear
- Ketamine recovery, shame culture, and what healing took in real time
- Why I stepped away from selling transformation, and what integrity looks like for me now
- The campaign trail, respectability pressure, and the appetite for powerful feminine presence
- Money, corporations, government, and the costs we carry
- Blockchain, beyond hype, as a possible path to more participatory governance
- Books over feeds, offline over trance, local over spectacle
- A closing reading from Terence McKenna on courage and the feather bed
Timestamps
00:18 Coming back at fifty
05:20 Addiction, stigma, and recovery
09:30 Sex-positive work and public life
13:40 Holding all the parts, one voice
17:30 Politics, action, and living with paradox
21:28 Cross-discipline lens, money and meaning
26:10 Blockchain, participation, and hope
31:00 Daily publishing, books, and presence
34:10 McKenna reading and closing prayer
Links
- How I went from psychedelic facilitator to ketamine addiction in 2 months, Part 2
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