First Temple Night, Ritual Work & Personal Truths | What Actually Happens at ISTA? | ISTA Day #5

My first temple experience at ISTA left me with mixed feelings. After matching flowers with partners and sensing disappointment on their faces, I found myself drained rather than enlightened. I'd been told today would be more intense, but honestly? I was just exhausted. I showed up for the evening temple ritual, determined to participate in the "gods and goddesses" ceremony. Ended up sitting in meditation pose while the guy next to me creatively dangled candles from his toes. When they kept asking "are you where you need to be?" my answer was clear - I wanted to be in bed with my audiobook. Yes, I could've stayed longer, danced, connected with others. But sometimes the most honest choice is admitting you don't have the capacity for it. Being curious about conscious sexuality is one thing - forcing connection when you're depleted is another. I'm glad tomorrow's the last day. I'm even happier I'm leaving early on Monday. Not because I'm desperate to escape, but because constant intensity needs a counterbalance. 00:00 Morning reflection on first temple night 02:15 Addressing misconceptions about sacred sexuality 04:30 Social dynamics and rejection in conscious spaces 06:45 Raw talk about temple space guidelines 08:20 Morning sharing circle conflict 10:45 Intense ritual demonstration & preparation 12:30 Nature object ritual setup 14:20 Partner work experience - honest reflections 16:40 Second temple night - choosing boundaries 19:15 Final thoughts on workshop intensity ✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✦✦ Want more? Get access to extended versions of these videos by becoming a member! Click 'Join' to unlock exclusive content and dive deeper into the journey. Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@andyjoinscults Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/0KSE7Qxzw2USiRZw84Qhfe?si=93916bdb9628426f 🝗∇☭🝈Ɏ✞ዘ!ⵍᏳ !Ֆ Ⲁ ☾ⵡ𐌋✞