As Long As I'm Living

Which of us is more likely to... start a loss support foundation? ...get a speeding ticket? ...text back immediately?

This is a fun little episode that will hopefully feel like a distraction from whatever hard stuff is going on in your life. (We've got some hard stuff happening too.)

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We're kicking off a new series with a controversial BANG... What do we think about co- sleeping, given its association with higher SIDS risk?

Note: in this episode we are talking specifically about co-sleeping (in the same bed) not room sharing.

More from SIDS excited Dr. Goldstein here:

In Ask ALAIL, we tackle the topics that come up for loss parents and offer our advice, experiences, or sometimes just commiseration.

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Hello from your favorite (appropriately!) medicated podcast hosts!

In this episode, we talk about psychiatric medications: why we choose to use them, when we went on them, our good and bad experiences, and more.

If you are grieving a loss (particularly a traumatic one) and have been considering going on medication, this episode is for you!

Please remember that WE ARE NOT MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS and even more than that, we...

In this episode, Judith chats with Jennifer Ventling about boundaries. What are boundaries? how should you set them? What is the best way to enforce them? More this week on this topic on our Instagram stories!

From Jen:

"I am a Certified Professional Coach. I specialize in coaching people with chaotic lives. My mission is to combat toxic positivity and messaging such as,

“take control of your chaos,” or, “learn how to manage your cha...

One baby born, another baby remembered. Both deeply loved.

In this episode, we talk about Alina's new alive baby daughter and the unfortunate timing of her birth the same week as Aiden's death anniversary. How did we navigate celebrating a birth day and a death day at the same time? Listen to hear.

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Catch this episode for a live blog of Alina's week-long induction process (scheduled, postponed, rescheduled, started, paused, started, and finally... completed) and the mental health spirals that accompanied it.

There's an alive baby at the end of this story (and she's still alive, today). If you're not in an alive baby mood, we get it, feel free to skip this episode.

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You probably already know Sara Rian's work... but if you don't, get ready to be SEEN in your grief.

Sara Rian is a poet, self-published author, mother, wife, licensed therapist, and griever living in Metro Detroit. She has been drawn to grief poetry ever since her mother's death in 2018.

In this interview, we chat with Sara about how she has turned her traumatic grief into art, what it's like to grieve out loud, and how the love we ...

It's Mother's Day... again.

We're back from our podcast break just in time to hang out with all of you for Mother's Day weekend. Sending love to all of you for whom this weekend is tough.

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There are a couple of ways you can support the podcast (below), and you can hear more about each one in this episode.

1. One-time support

2. Monthly support

3. Episode sponsorships

Our content has always been free, and it will remain free! This is ju...

Re-using an old episode title to announce that Alina's baby was born, and she's doing great! More to come -- soon! (But we may take a few weeks off.)

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How I wonder where you are...

Where did our babies go when they died?

To heaven? To the stars? Into the ether? We talk about our thoughts on this existential question and how they've evolved since we became loss moms.

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Alina is about to welcome a new baby into her family... It's the latest in a long line of leaps of faith that she's taken after losing Quinn in 2021... probably the biggest one yet. Hear how she's feeling about it all in this episode, then send well wishes her way in the comments!

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Join us for part 2 of our interview with Dr. Denise Mandel about relationships after baby loss. Part 1 was released last week... Make sure you check that out first!

She answers questions like:

- How does grief affect intimacy and connection, both emotionally and physically?

- Do men and women really grieve differently?

- How do blame and guilt cause tension and resentment between parents, and is there a healthy way to work through thos...

We're back with our resident grief counselor, Dr. Denise Mandel for a very special Valentine's Day episode about relationships after baby loss.

She answers questions like:

- How does grief affect intimacy and connection, both emotionally and physically?

- Do men and women really grieve differently?

- How do blame and guilt cause tension and resentment between parents, and is there a healthy way to work through those feelings?

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This week we are continuing our interview with Rochel, the bereaved aunt of sweet Sophie and psychiatric nurse practitioner. In this episode, we talk with Rochel about her other loss experiences (she's sadly an experienced griever) and how she uses writing and other modalities to integrate the losses into her life.

We were caught off guard by how emotional this interview with Rochel was. Both of us felt seen and held in our gr...

In this episode, we interview Judith's friend Rochel about the complexities of grief, particularly the loss of her niece Sophie. Rochel shares how she continues to build on her relationship with Sophie even after her death, and the ways in which she continues to celebrate her life.

You may remember Rochel from a post we shared on our stories a few weeks ago, part of which is shared below with Rochel's permission:

"Eve...

So many of you have asked how Alina is doing with her pregnancy after loss (PAL), and the answer is she's awful! and joyful! And terrified! And in love! And exhausted! And many, many, many, many other things.

Listen to this episode to hear allllllll about her PAL experience so far. Sending love and commiseration to all of our PAL moms (or soon-to-be PAL moms, or formerly PAL moms) out there. It's not for the faint of heart.

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What does time even matter, when you've lost someone you love? And what does it matter, when you're WITH someone you love?

A brief chat about Judith's (alive) baby son being "Aiden age" and the meaninglessness of time.

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Things we talk about in this episode:

- Learning to Measure Time in Love and Loss, by Chris Huntington

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It's our annual horoscope episode! Let's see what the stars have in store for us in 2025...

We also talk about Alina's recent "spiritual" massage, and Judith's visit to her astrologer.

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Things we talk about in this episode:

- ⁠⁠Happier New Year⁠⁠: 2022's new year episode, where we talk 2021 and 2022 horoscopes

- ⁠We Reject Our 2023 Horoscopes⁠: 2023's new year episode, where we talk about our 2022 and 2023 horoscopes

- 2024 Is G...