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Hi Mihita.
Today is one of those episodesthat comes straight from the
womb of my soul.
I'm recording this while I'mstill in the middle of healing
for my plastic surgery, my tummytuck, my chichis, my
reconstruction, my breast cancerremoval, everything.
And I'm sitting in the middle ofmy living room with all the
feels and all the sounds and theeverything because the hubby is
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going cracker right now, beinghomemaker.
This journey has been wowpainful, humbling,
transformational.
There have been moments where Ifelt relief, gratitude, oh, and
divine protection.
And others where I cried from atype of pain that only the body
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can explain.
And I commend these people thatgo through this, like the you
know, by choice, by electivechoice, like the reconstruction,
like the boobies and theBrazilian buttlifts and the war
and the quirks.
My as my daughter said, I'm nowentered into the plastic surgery
circle.
But today I want to bring youwith me not the cute version,
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not the Instagram ready version,but the real raw da dentro para
afuera, where we're going totalk about the emotional and
spiritual layers of healing,what my body has been teaching
me in these past few days, thegratitude that's poured in from
my family, my community, and myteachings of redefining
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strength, living softly in ahard world.
Because this season, this hasbeen my most tender invitation
yet.
So grab your cafecito, yourtecito, and let's join me for
the ride.
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This wasn't just a tummy tuck.
This wasn't just new Chichis.
This was part of a bigger story,my breast cancer journey.
One I didn't ask for, one Ididn't choose, but one that came
as a divine wake-up call.
I went into surgery knowing Iwas removing cancer with my
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first mastectomy on November 4thof 2025, and with a second
surgery on November 10th, 2005,like shortly a week after, this
is where I went into thisplastic surgery knowing I was
reclaiming my body.
I was choosing life.
And then on top of that, thereconstruction, the repair, the
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letting go of old tissue, andusing that to build my new my
new breasts.
This wasn't vanity.
This was victory.
This was survival.
This was rebirth.
But even then, no one preparesyou for the level of pain, the
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depth of surrender, the humilityof needing help to sit up, to
shower, to just breathe, thehobby to wipe my butt, the
gassiness that goes on aftereight hours of being in surgery,
the anesthesia, and how it allshuts down.
It was it was quite theexperience, and just being able
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to eat and feel the food gothrough my body, down my
esophagus, and needing help,even getting, you know, drinking
from a straw, all those thingsjust so raw, so real, and the
feeling in my bodies.
So let's talk about the painbecause I meek, it has been
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intense.
The type of pain that humblesyou, the type that makes you
surrender every illusion ofcontrol, the type that takes you
into your body in a way that'salmost spiritual.
There were moments I felt like,dang, I did like, did I just do
a thousand classes at the gym inone night?
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Why does my body feel like it'smade out of bricks?
My legs, especially the side ofmy hips, churning hard with
because I haven't been movingand poor circulation.
Why am I shaking?
Why does everything hurt?
It's like when does thisanesthesia wear off?
Feeling the numbness.
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When the pain meds faded, when Iwas awake late at night, that's
when the grief leaked in andleaked out.
Not just the physical pain, butthe emotional release of decades
of carrying the world on myshoulders.
And in that pain, I heard mybody whisper, Mihita, you've
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been strong for too long.
Let yourself be held.
The drains on each side of mybody, the pain of getting up
from the chair or from the bedat first was so intense.
I didn't realize how much of myab muscles I use on a daily and
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working out all these years, ithas helped me to have that core
strength and the legs and myarms.
But when you're unable to moveyour arms, especially after that
first day, like my right arm wasso sore.
I couldn't even like pick up myphone.
Um, I could only voice a textcertain things, and then loop
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being loopy and in and out ofmedication, and especially with
the anesthesia part, it being along surgery, takes a very long
time to even pass a bowelmovement.
I didn't realize it took like 48hours, and so all that becomes
so frustrating.
But then again, it's things thatthe body, right?
It's amazing how the body knows.
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It's a b amazing how the bodyrelearns how to walk again,
especially taking those firstfew steps to go to the bathroom
standing upright.
Like everything is so stretchedout right now, and no joke, I
look like Frankenstein, like myboobies look like Frankenstein
because they took my tummytissue and they redid my and
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reconstructed my breasts.
So girl got new Chi Chis.
But obviously, they don't looklike beautiful and precious
right now.
Um and all the markings allaround my body, it's just all
the stitches.
It's wow, it's amazing.
It's amazing what plasticsurgery can do, um, especially
after you know being given sucha big news of you know breast
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cancer and and everything.
On my right side, though, mysurgeon did say they weren't
able to salvage that much skinfrom the vasectomy, so I ended
up having more tummy skin umadded to my right side.
And so it's been an emotionalprocess as well, because
breaking down, it's it's beenalso being very grateful and
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very thankful of everything thatI'm that I'm experiencing.
And wow, me quedo así como Diosmedio vida, right?
Like God gave me this life andmade me feel all the feels right
now and be grateful for what Ido have, and really have been
testing me at all levels,especially with myself, but then
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also my relationship with myhusband, because I have never
seen my husband feed me.
Um, and at first it was kind offunny because he would feed me
kind of fast, but it's like it'slearning the dance, right?
It's learning what true loveactually is.
And my husband and I have hadour rocky moments, but this was
communication just by like awince where he could tell that
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I'm pain, and he's all aboutmaking me comfy right now.
And wow, that is that is truelove, right there.
That is true love.
One thing this journey made mefeel in the deepest way is
gratitude for my husband who hasbeen crying, holding me,
watching over me like his wholeworld could shatter.
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And the amount of care and loveand tenderness and grace that
he's has had and patience for mykids, definitely stepping up,
supporting, loving on me, beingthere for me.
Um, I it feels weird being ledby them.
Like they hold me for my mama,trying to be strong.
I know she cries a lot at nightor when she's away and she feels
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a certain extent of guilt.
She feels worried, stressed, butyet tender, right?
And her cooking, oh my god, issuch the bomb.
And I came home um yesterdaynight, she made sopes, and they
were oh, the de asada.
Of course, I could only havelike one.
Um I don't have much of anappetite, but it's like dang,
she really knows how to throw itdown with food.
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And then for my sisters, oh myloving Lola, hmm, my loving
sister coming over and wiping medown and wiping my butt, um, and
feeling all the fears with me,seeing me raw and my true self,
like that definitely has me,that got me.
And then my other sister, like,for her to start a new job and
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have her sister go through allthis journey and hold her shit
together at work, I could justimagine.
But being able to make time tocome on over and and pay a
visit.
And for my ancestors, it's likeI swear, my ancestors' teachers,
loved ones, the ones that havepassed, I swear they have been
surrounding my bed every night.
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And to all the many people thatI don't realize how many people
actually love me and hold me intheir prayers and thoughts, y re
sal mucho.
They they have a lot of prayer.
And that's when you don'trealize how many people actually
love you until you need help tostand up, to actually get up and
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out of bed, to eat, to move, toexist.
I learned that receiving love isalso strength.
Letting someone care for you isstrength, allowing yourself to
be vulnerable is strength.
My community has I posted onInstagram and Facebook, but then
also the the messages that I'vebeen receiving are are of so
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much of love and compassion thatit fills my heart, especially
when it's trialing times in theworld.
And that's what it's all aboutis love.
Love, the root of all, light,the root of all.
Eso's amor.
And I know divine, God, source,universe, whatever you identify
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with.
There's a bigger plan for all ofus in this life, and there's a
purpose for each one of us.
And right now I'm sharing mystory, but it's like the story
of resilience, the story oflife, the story of you can do
it, and notabatumbar, it's notgonna knock you over.
You have the like for me, it'slike motivation to see people
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show out themselves, like thetender and raw self, because
we're not perfect, and I'm notperfect.
And this this surgery wasn'tnecessarily by choice, it was it
was definitely something thatcame on right away.
It's it was growing fast.
Um, luckily, the breast cancerdid not go to my lymph notes.
Um, so so far it's it's panningout good.
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But I have my oncologyappointment later this month on
the 24th of November, and I willbe taking note of next steps,
which is most likely chemo.
So this journey is onlybeginning, and it's been such an
emotional and physical ridealready.
You know me, I see everythingthrough the lens of healing,
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energy, and the soul.
And this journey and thissurgery, this recovery, this has
been one of the biggestspiritual experiences of my
life.
Bodies hold memory, bodiesspeak, bodies keep score, and as
I look at my stitches and theytug here and there, as my
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muscles and my skin are supertight, as the drains have you
know, they're they're doingtheir thing, as the bruising
showed up, I could feel oldgrief leaving, old trauma is
dissolving, old identities areshedding.
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It felt like once the cancerleft, everything I had been
holding on for years began tosurface.
My body was saying, no morecaring, no more pushing, no more
neglect.
It's time to heal, Mika.
And I truly embody that becauseas I go through this pain and as
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I go through the feelings andthe emotions, it's everything's
just coming together.
This has been my greatestteaching so far.
Strength isn't about how muchyou carry, strength is how
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softly you allow life to holdyou.
Strength isn't beingunbreakable, strength is letting
yourself break open and trustingyou'll rebuild softer, wiser,
truer.
Strength isn't pushing through,strength is pausing, resting,
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listening, letting your bodylead.
Living softly is not being weak.
Living softly is beingconscious, being intentional,
being aligned.
In a world that says hustle, I'mchoosing to lie down or sit in
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my healing chair.
In a world that says be strong,I'm choosing to be soft.
In a world that says don't showweakness, I'm choosing to say I
need help.
This experience has shown mesoftness is medicine,
vulnerability is sacred,receiving is powerful, slowing
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down is healing, letting otherscare for you is holy.
I'm redefining strength formyself and for every woman
listening.
So lessons that I'm carryinginto this new chapter, into my
new chapter, is lesson one.
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The body speaks.
Listen sooner.
Don't wait for a breaking pointto rest.
You don't want your body to giveout on you in order for you to
take note on what it needs.
Lesson number two, you areallowed to receive.
You don't have to be thecaretaker all the time.
That's where allow yourself toreceive the accolades.
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Allow yourself to receive thelove, the compassion, the grace,
what divine God source universeis trying to tell you that you
need in this given moment.
Lesson number three, healingrequires softness.
Trying to heal in survival modeis impossible.
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That's where be soft withyourself.
The way you nurture yourself,talk to yourself, your thoughts
that come through, just takenote and reflect on them.
Lesson number four, yourancestors walk with you.
I felt them every night, and Istill do.
And I was just having aconversation with one of my
close relatives where I feel mygrandfather, he went through
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cancer, prostate cancer, and hepanned out not to live for a
long time, but he ended upbeating the odds, and he handled
it like a champ.
And I know he in his experience,like going through the chemo and
going through the motions,that's the one person, and
that's the one ancestor thatkeeps coming through time and
time again.
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Lesson number five, strength isbeing held, not holding
everything.
And that's where I go to the gymand I would work out and do all
these intense things.
But I'm learning a differenttype of strength this time
around.
And that's where when you leteverything drop, all the cards
and everything drop, and youdon't have to hold it.
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All the juggle, all the balls inthe air.
It's actually reallysatisfactory, or there's a lot
of satisfaction I have when Ifeel like I can just like fall
back in my recliner.
It's kind of a drop of trust,right?
That someone's gonna catch you.
So those are the things that I'mwalking away with into this next
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phase of my journey.
Close your eyes, Mijita.
And if you are feeling in a safespot and you're able to, you can
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place your hand over your heartand one on your lower belly.
Breathe.
In through your nose, and outthrough your mouth.
Slow deep.
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Ask your body, what do you needfrom me today?
And drop down to your heart.
Ask, where have I been toostrong for too long?
And drop to your slow to yoursoul and ask your soul, where
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can I soften?
Let the answers rise.
No forcing, no judging, onlylistening.
Feel your energy drop from yourmind, into your body, down to
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your womb, into your roots.
You are held, you are protected,you are guided, and softness is
allowed here.
And I invite you to stay here aslong as you'd like and reminisce
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on what comes up.
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Thank you for witnessing me andmy softness, my vulnerability,
my truth.
I hope this episode reminds youthat you don't have to be the
strong one all the time.
You're allowed to rest, youdeserve support, and your
softness is actually asuperpower.
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As I continue healing, I'mtaking things slow.
I'm listening to my body, andI'm letting this experience
guide the next evolution of mywork, including my teachings on
redefining strength and livingsoftly in a hard world.
Thank you from the bottom of myheart for all the prayers, or
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losientos, el amor, el carino,the messages, the love and
support.
I feel every single one of them.
And Mijita, I do love ya.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for showing up foryourself on a daily and going
through the motions.
I want you to remember toembrace your raises, reclaim
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your essencia.
Nos vemos pronto.
Thank you so much.
And I wish you the best and seeyou next time.