November 21, 2025 • 36 mins
A lemon tree landed on my life and I decided to plant it. Two major surgeries—bilateral mastectomy and DIEP flap reconstruction—rewired how I relate to my body, my voice, my family, and my work. Between T‑Rex arms, double‑D swelling, and late‑night closet recordings on yoga balls, I found a wild mix of pain medicine and laughter that turned survival into a softer, truer way to live.
I open up about the moments no one prepares you for: needing to be fed, crying because identity slips when productivity stops, and realizing you can’t hustle through stitches. We talk about the living room “therapy” that helped our family speak in we instead of you, and the uncomfortable grace of receiving support without deflecting. I share how a bold coaching pivot changed my business trajectory—naming misalignment, asking for what I needed, and discovering I wasn’t too much; I was in the wrong room. We also dig into the practical side: lymphatic care, vein health, nutrition shifts, and how a year of prep became the scaffolding for recovery.
You’ll also get a guided somatic reflection with simple breathwork and seven journal prompts to help you locate your own pivot points, claim your truth, and hear what your body is asking. If you’re navigating cancer, surgery, burnout, or a quiet identity change, this conversation blends spiritual grounding, cultural nuance, and real‑life tools you can use today. Subscribe, share this with someone who needs it, and tell me: what truth are you finally ready to say out loud?
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SPEAKER_00 (00:05):
Hi Mijita, welcome back to another episode.
And hoy.
Hoy si les traigo unaactualización of my video that
uff.
So if you don't hang on tight,you're gonna fall like a butt.
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Because these last few months,life didn't just hand me lemons.
Life threw the whole damn lemontree at me with the soil and the
pot and said, Grow here.
Like all the all the signs, justyou know, pointing to this spot.
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Between surgeries, businesspivots, emotional awakenings,
and figuring out that my coachand I, we were energetically
about as aligned as a water andoil.
I've been in full transformationseason.
Pero aquí stoy.
(01:12):
Raw, bruised, soft, stronger,and with way hella more clarity
than ever.
Today we're diving into my twosurgeries and what really
happened behind the scenes, thespiritual lessons I didn't ask
(01:32):
for, but apparently needed, howI found my voice in the middle
of everything, pivoting coachesand advocating for myself like a
healed toxica, and humor thatkept me crying from crying 24-7.
I was actually crying oflaughter to the point where I
peed myself.
I gotta thank my comadre forthat one.
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And how this season completelyreshaped Mi Essentia.
And I'm still going through it,don't get me wrong.
So I know this episode's cominga little late, um, or a day
later than I normally would.
I usually drop it on Thursdays,but today's Friday, November
20th.
24st.
And it's just that my mygracious little Julian, he's
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been going through the motionsof wrestling.
He started last week andpobrecito, everything hurt.
Um, he started having somesymptoms on Tuesday, but then
yesterday he just woke up and hecouldn't even let's just say
everything hurt to the pointwhere he like his breath hurt.
And that's where I needed to nojoke take back seat because my
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daughter Josie was the one thatdrove him to and I to the
immediate care.
And obviously, Mama Bear needsto sign a lot of forms.
So I was she drove both of us,and I I I legit like I sat back
seat in my own car, and I waslike, I think I'm gonna cry.
Actually, I'm gonna cry.
(02:57):
I'm not gonna I'm not even gonnapause this one because this is
where I saw all the seeds Iplanted, all the seeds that I
planted in my two kids, and theoutpour of everybody reaching
out has been amazing.
But I'm blown away.
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I'm so blown away.
And then something magicalhappened this week, and I know
this is all intro, right?
But before we dig into my myjourney and everything, this is
part of it, and that's why Ithink I've needed to process a
lot of things.
And I'm still processing it andI'm like trying to sit beach air
in my closet.
It's like the most hilariousthing ever.
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I'm propped up on two yogaballs, a yoga ball chair and a
yoga ball to lift my feet up,and it's just oh my god, I think
it's hilarious right now.
But um I I think I'm trying I'mtrying to distract and like come
up the energy because this isgonna is another sucker punch
(04:11):
for me.
Is this week I like my husband?
I'm not gonna lie, he's justbeen having a rough time with
this, um, with my cancerdiagnosis and seeing me in pain.
And I know, I know who you are,those people that have not
reached out for your reasons,you have.
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Una porque a lo mejor no saben,and I totally get it.
It's like, let's just join theno sabo club, but and no hard
feelings, and there's no rightor wrong.
But I know there's people outthere that it's triggering this
whole situation, my breastcancer, it's triggering.
It's triggering that they had ahot loved one, they have someone
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cancer survivor or someone thatactually died from cancer.
And I know my family, mygrandfather died of cancer,
prostate cancer, and that wasfucking hard for everybody to
accept because my grandpa wasthe and I've been actually
talking to my grandma every day,although I did miss what was it,
Wednesday when I was out to myappointment, to my follow-up,
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because okay, so on Tuesday, mymy my caregiver at the time and
I called her, and my husband wasin the room, and this again,
this is all related back to myhusband, but my husband was in
the room and it was perceived aswe were laughing at my
grandmother, which it wasn'tthat, it wasn't like we were
laughing at my grandmother, itwas not that.
No, no, no, no.
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It's just my this person and Ijust we just look at each other
and we just start laughing.
Like it's that's how we are.
I see somos, I see somos, and ohmy gosh.
So and and we're and we're loudas fuck, and we're we own it.
We own it when we're togetherand we know each other since we
were little, we're likesoulmates.
We are like soul, we're soulsisters.
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We're I como te digo, like ourbirthdays are the same month,
like I mean, we everything isvery parallel, and she's always
been such a big mentor, sister,ever since the beginning, and
and I and actually we were memreminiscing on the fact that
when I was pregnant with Josie,like she was the only one that
took me to see Philly when myparents were like, no bitch, you
can't see your you can't seehim, the baby daddy, because
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he's such such a she's he's sucha horrible person and he did
this to the family and blah blahblah.
And she was the only one therethat actually understood me
because she went through itherself.
Not the same facet by no meansbecause I'm not I'm not gonna
take away from her her sufferingand all the things, but I'm just
so happy for her because she I'mso proud.
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I'm so proud of her, and sheknows who she is, and so back to
Feely, it's been really tough,and so and I did apologize to my
grandma by the way.
I did call her yesterday and Iwas on the phone for about an
hour with her and she wassharing me oof some nice
stories.
Um, but with Feely, like it'sjust it's been tough all around,
and and and it was such amagical moment, not yesterday,
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but the day before on Wednesdaynight.
I was explain I was we weresitting in the living room
because girl needs to be in arecliner, so we have one
downstairs in the living roomand one upstairs.
And they were done.
My mom came over, she madestuff, and then people, you
know, they ate and everything.
I was in a phone call onWednesday night.
I'm not gonna lie, I do dozeoff, okay?
Um, I am not all there becauseof the pain management and pain
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medications and all that, butI'm off my met my my pay med, my
opiates and all.
But I still fall asleep becausemy body is just so tired, right?
Like we're going through somuch.
So I'm in phone calls and stuff.
I don't know, I don't I myattention span is probably like
half an hour of that.
I will like if I'm watchingsomething, I'll start falling
asleep because not that I'm notengaged or it's not juicy enough
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what I'm watching or what I'mengaged in.
It's just my body shuts downbecause I'm I'm just so tired.
I have not slept since lastMonday, November 10th, when I
got my surgery.
Well, the anesthesia, I thinkthat counts, right?
Like when I was eight hoursunder.
But that's where I have notslept.
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So I don't man, this feels notgreat.
Um, that I'm not showering everyday like I normally would, like,
you know, all the crooks and thecrannies in the body.
Yeah, it's been it's been real,and I stink.
Like my belly button when thegauzes and everything came off.
Yeah.
Anyway, I'm getting too farahead.
Um, I'll save that for later.
But back to Feeney, um, and justthis tidbit is we were able to
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have a beautiful conversation asa family for the first time
ever, people.
First time ever.
And we were all able to talk,and it wasn't uh a you you you,
it was a we and an I feel thisway, and then it opens up the
opportunity for us, and then wesat in the living room, which
was a different dynamic.
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Usually we sit around the diningroom table, but because I'm not
able to like sit for longperiods of time, like I've
noticed now, um, especially wellin this condition, I can't sit
for long periods of time arounda table, and so in the recliner,
and then everybody's on a couch,and then Phoenix in the chair,
and we were all talking verybeautifully, but that's where he
was able to voice finally in aclear, collected manner, what
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his feelings are and why hefeels a certain way.
And no joke, that was a therapysection right there.
That was it.
It wasn't that hard, it was like40 minutes, and I given I had to
get up to go to the pottybecause again, my bladder is
like on like repeat right now,but yeah, so I'm just sharing
those things because just alittle teaser on what we've been
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going through, or what I've beengoing through, and what my
perspective is of life rightnow.
So take a deep breath, lightyour palo santo, grab your
cafecito, your tecito, or yourwine.
Okay, so no judgment.
This is going to be a long juicyepisode, um, and it's gonna be a
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corazon cracked open kind ofepisode.
So let's begin.
So let's start with the obvious.
I now have two major surgeriesunder my belt, literally and
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emotionally.
So surgery number one, thebilateral massectomy, I went
into that operating room like awarrior, but then I came out
like a catching I was my bustle.
And what happened to me?
And surgery number two wasreconstruction breast cancer
breast reconstruction.
So they took my it's called thedeep flap, D-I-E-P, and then
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flap L F-L-A-P, where they takethe tummy tissue, fat, and they
plant it or they um make andmold my boobies, my new chichis,
with that.
And it's pretty impressive stuffbecause they hook up the blood
vessels, so they kind of liketake and they did have to cut
into my tummy, so my I have a Ido have a tummy toxin, so from
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side to side, so from hip tohip, all through the bikini
line, I have a of scar, and thenthey took out my nipples, right?
The the the nipple part in thefirst uh in the first surgery,
the bilateral masectomy, andthen I didn't have boobies, but
then they they I kept some ofthe skin, and then when they did
the second surgery, that's wherethey transplanted the my fat
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from my belly over to the top.
Thank you, and shout out to allthose friends of mine and
conocidos and stuff that were onthe list of of donors.
Um I did have enough belly fatto cover um a 36C, so we shall
see what it actually results to.
But right now they feel likeflipping double D's.
They feel so big.
Um, and then I have stitchingaround the like what would have
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been the the nipple part, andthen inside the nip, like what
where the nipple was, it is nowskin from my from what my belly
tissue was, and then they justlike drag all that down.
They made my new belly button.
I have that scar.
And yeah, it's been quite theprocess with that.
So I never been so flat, butthen again, the inflammation,
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I'm so swollen right now.
Um, my legs are so hard on thesides, like the T-band and that.
So I'm missing my massages, mylymphatic massages.
I was missing all my pills, likeall the vitamins and all the
things that I would nourish mybody.
So I finally, because ofWednesday, I went to the post op
appointment, I was able to getcleared on I can resume all my
vitamins and the goodies that Itake on a daily.
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So iron is one of them becausethat's low and like I'm low
energy, but then again, I don'tsleep.
Um, so that attributes to it.
So there is nothing like tryingto reach for a cup and realizing
your arm said, you know, girl,sit down.
Absolutely not.
Everything hurt, especially withthe second surgery.
My husband had to feed me.
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Um it feed me in my mouth, in myboquita.
And and he would, it was so itwas so cute because he would try
to feed me like super fast.
You know when you get food stuckin your like chest when you
don't drink water, that's how itfelt like.
I'm like, okay, slow down.
And I was and when he wasfeeding me, I started crying,
and he's like, What's wrong withwhere?
It's que te duele.
It's like no, it's que no meduele.
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It's just the the simple factthat I can feel everything in my
chest because it's all stretchedout.
And my right arm, like I couldnot move it whatsoever.
I felt like I went to the gymand did, I don't know, like a
thousand biceps.
And shout out to all my groupinstructors um that I'm in their
classes for um to work out inthat on a on a regular, but
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yeah, it it was hard like tomove my arms, I couldn't reach.
Everything, everything justhurts.
What can I say?
So for days I couldn't move.
I couldn't reach, I couldn'tlift, I couldn't do anything
without making a noise.
I didn't know my body couldmake.
And humor kept me alive becauseyo, there were moments where I
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legit felt like a T-Rex.
Little arms, no reach, no grab,just vibes.
And here's the real talk.
My body forced me to slow down,whether I wanted to or not.
I realized how much I used topush, ignore, or override.
But you can't bypass a surgery.
Like that's cra Right now.
I'm like, I can't even fake ittill I make it.
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You can't gaslight a s ascalpel, you know, like those
tools that they use and allthat.
You can't hustle your waythrough stitches.
I mean, come on.
You have to feel it.
Like I have I have had to gothrough all this to live it, and
then to heal through it, andthat's what you're being witness
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of right now is my process ofeverything.
And so my body became myteacher, my healer, my guide.
And it's been like that throughthis whole journey for the past
eight spiritual years that I'vehad awakenings in that left and
right.
And my body, she spoke loud andclear rest, receive, allow.
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Three words that used to piss meoff, but now they're my
commandments.
Let's be real.
I'm not myself right now.
Not the Dora that wakes up andmoves mountains before
breakfast, not the healer whocan hold the world, not the mom
who does a million things atonce, not the business owner who
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uh shows up consistently, noteven the accountant version of
me at work who can keep thenumbers and life in order and
totally take care of the chaos.
I am softer, slower, morefragile than I ever wanted to
admit.
And yet, I feel like moregrounded than ever.
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Identity gets weird when we youcan't do the things you're known
for.
Like I used to think that I wasan accountant, that's how I
would introduce myself, and it'slike, no, I'm Dora Alicia
Praxedis, damn it.
Like I am a person, I'm a mom,I'm a I'm a lot of things, I'm a
multifaceted individual.
But there were days where Icried, not because of the pain,
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uh, but because I didn'trecognize who I was anymore.
I'm not recognizing who I am.
Like I am I who who I am, butit's like it's a new me.
It's like I'm being shaped andtransformed to be a different
version of me.
Um, obviously a better versionand everything in the works and
the bells and whistles whistles,but that's when I started
hearing spirit whisper, Mijita,you are not what you do, you are
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who you are becoming.
And oh my gosh, that was so itwas like a cascade of like light
and that warm sunshine lightkind of feeling.
And oof that hit me in myChi-Cheese, my new ones.
Let's talk about the big pivotthat I had this week, or I've
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been having actually these pastcouple months.
Because in the middle of myhealing, I realized something.
I invested in a program that I'min.
I do invest in a lot ofdifferent programs actually.
I'm in in various differentcollectives.
But this month specifically, Iwas expecting more for like
coaching and that in mybusiness, and my coach wasn't
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the right fit for me.
Like I sensed it from theget-go, but I'm like, no, maybe
this is what it is.
This is the first time Iactually dropped some big money
on stuff like this.
And so energetically,emotionally, rhythmically, no
functionava.
Like it wasn't working out.
Old Dora would have stayedquiet, would have avoided
confrontation, would have madeherself wrong.
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But new Dora, post-cancerfacing, post-surgery, post-ego
death Dora, she was like, Iknow.
Yeah no.
I reached out to the Powers atB, the top coach, and I voiced
what wasn't working.
I did all the things, I've doneall the things, I haven't been
getting the results.
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And I asked for what I needed.
And I voiced what wasn'tworking.
And guess what?
Nobody died.
The world didn't end, I didn'tget kicked out of the program,
they didn't tell me I was toosensitive.
Instead, support poured in.
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I got switched from a new from Igot aligned to a new coach.
Solutions flowed, accommodationswere offered, and I realized
it's not that I was too much,it's that I was in the wrong
vibration, in the wrong room.
A room built for the pastversion of me, not who I am now.
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My voice cracked open something.
And now no one can shut me upagain.
In the best spiritual waypossible.
And you know what saved me?
Humor.
Because let's be honest, healingis dramatic as hell.
Half the time I felt like anovella character, a whole
scene, my room s my robeslipping off one shoulder, hair
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everywhere whispering, Ay Diosmío, porque yo And then I'd
laugh because I'd see myselffrom above like, girl, eat a
snack, hydrate, get the gatorread, you're fine.
Humor became medicine.
It softened the hubby, it madespace for the light.
Because healing isn't onlytears.
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Healing is also laughing at howslow you walk.
Making fun of your TX rearms.
Well, my TX arms.
Telling your husband, I'mfragile, be gentle, like a
princess.
Asking your kids to pass youeverything because mommy is
delicate right now.
Laughing at the fact thatnothing fits the way it used to.
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Making titty jokes to keep fromcrying.
Finding humor in theawkwardness, the pain, the
recovery, the weirdness.
Humor is a coping skill, aspiritual one.
And spirit?
She jokes.
She has jokes too.
Trust me.
I mean, and and you can trustme, but if you want to test her,
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go for it.
The outpouring of support, oh mygod, wow.
Wow, wow, wow.
People showed up in ways I neverexpected.
In ways I didn't know Ideserved.
In ways I never allowed before.
And I had to learn how toreceive.
Actually, like receive.
Not the I'm fine receiving.
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No, no, no.
Not the oh, you don't have toreceiving.
Not the I can do it myselftrauma response.
But the thank you.
Oh gracias.
I needed that.
Necesitaba yo.
I received that.
Lo recibo.
It cracked me open.
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Because receiving is intimacy.
It's a connection.
It's a bond.
Receiving is surrender.
Receiving is letting yourself beheld.
Be held by your community, beheld by others, be held by your
support system in your corner.
Like that takes doing beforeshit hits the fan.
Those are the people you go andcall when you need emotionally
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being regulated.
When you need someone and you'respiraling out of control.
Like those are the people youhave a person for each maybe
area of your life or that.
And I was so naive to think thatit's like my husband needs to be
my best friend and my husband'sthe only one that I can talk to
and everything.
No, that's why you havegirlfriends, that's why you have
people in your life, coaches,therapists, doctors,
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nutritionists.
A year ago, I was preparing forthis, and that's where I was in
that conversation this week withmy fam and my husband.
I was telling him, I'm like, ifI didn't a year ago get my tubes
tied for not having kids, andtold myself, I am gonna get in
the best fucking shape of mylife, body-wise, like I'm gonna
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lose the weight because Iweighed like that my heaviest
actually was 22 was 226.
I think it was something aroundthere, or 220, let's just say
220 in January, and especiallyafter my surgery, like the first
one with the tubes died.
That's where I started on on inJanuary.
I went to the doctor and I'mlike, hey, like October,
November, December went by.
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I'm like, okay, I had mysurgery, I've been going to the
gym, I've been doing thesethings for years now, like five
years plus, and I'm not losingweight, like I lose the weight,
but then I gain it, but then mylegs were so hard and like they
were heavy, heavy in the intowards the end of the day, and
right now they're just heavyoverall because I know my
lymphatic my lymphatic system isnot draining as it should,
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especially with surgery.
And so my doctor, and I'm gonnabe open about this.
My doctor prescribed me becausewe discovered that I am insulin
resistant, so he put me atmetformin, which is used for
diabetes and all that, but I'musing it for a different
purpose.
And again, I'm not a medicalprofessional, I'm disclaimer
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right here, but I'm just talkingabout my experience.
And then he put me on zip boundand he put me on the lowest
dosage, and I was I I wasinjecting myself every week
Wednesday, so I was doing goingthrough the motions, and then I
in October of 2024, last a yearago, I worked with a
nutritionist, and so she'staught me how to eat.
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And she's like, Okay, when youwake up, within the first hour,
eat something, and uh, and shecalled she didn't call it a
meal, she called it a mealevent.
Like she called it a food event.
Like you eat something, you putsomething in your body.
So every day when I wake up, Ieat.
Usually my go-to is a banana, orit's like a yogurt, or it's a
cutie, or it's uh apple, or it'sa something, but usually it's
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like half a banana because abanana, she told me you have to
keep under the 30 grams of sugaror carbs, I'm sorry.
And so I eat half the banana,that's 15, and then I can mix it
with something else.
And my other favorite now, thankyou to one of my good comader
friends.
She, okay, earth-shatteringthing.
I never liked avocado in mylife.
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Oh my god, I'm Mexican and Inever liked avocados.
Correct, correct, ding ding,ding.
You got that right.
So I always would get made funof at work.
Not made fun of, but like peoplewould no, it was it was funny.
I was laughing too.
They I I you know, whatever.
The guacamole would come and thechips, and people that people
would devour that guacamole.
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And guess what?
I never got it.
Like, I'm like, oh, I hateguapacado, and I just didn't
like the consistency, like Ididn't like it.
But then my friend came overlast Friday, and she let me just
tell you, she's un pan de dios.
She came over and then and andlike okay, she wet my butt.
As my mom and my sister andfeely and my sis, my daughter,
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like a few people have wiped mybutt in my life, and my friend
was had the honor to do that forme.
But before she could do that,she did make me breakfast and
she did me an avocado toast witheggs.
And I've never had an egg overeasy, so she was talking.
Oh my god, she this girl is likeamazing when it comes to
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vitamins and and things.
She got me on sour soap when forcancer, and I'm taking that back
again, like a vitamin and allthat supplement.
She's she's amazing.
So, shout out to my friendsending you a big kiss.
Um, so yeah, girl likes avocadonow, and it has so many good
properties for you.
So, as I'm rep as I'm as I'mgoing through like all these
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motions right now, it's like Ihave to really pay attention to
my body, right?
And and if it wasn't for a yearago doing all those pivotal
things, because every week forsix months, I would go get a
lymphatic massage.
Every single week on a on aFriday.
On a Friday afternoon, I wouldleave work early and then I
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would go get my lymphaticmassage.
And then it was and then it wasevery other week for a while,
and then yeah, and then until Iwent up leading up to my
surgery, then that's where Iwould, you know, I'm in pause on
that, and then I'm picking itback up on Wednesday, I have my
appointment because I girl needsto need some drainage.
So March, that's where I gotdiscovered that I went back to
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the vein doctor and the vein andI had disappeared for three
years because you're supposed togo every year.
And I do have great insurance,don't get me wrong.
Like I have great insurance,great benefits, but if I'm gonna
pay in$30,$50 for every doctorvisit and I have to pay a
deductible, it's like$3,000.
I get discouraged because it'slike everything goes towards the
the deductible, and then theystart to pay like 100% or
whatever they're gonna pay.
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So I personally think healthcareis a flipping lucrative
business.
I mean, I'm not gonna getpolitical or anything like that.
I'm just saying like stating thefact.
So I went to my vein clinic, andthat's where um three years ago
I had an ultrasound, and likethe veins looked fine.
One of them was a littleclogged, like on my left side,
but it wasn't such a big deal orwhatever.
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But then when I went back, likemy left in my pelvic area, it's
called Mae Thurner Thundersyndrome or pelvic congestion
syndrome, and so my vein inthere in my pelvic area, um,
it's it's right next to my lowerback.
And so when they put a stent inthere because it was blocked
60%, my body created a whole newvein on my right side to keep me
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alive.
I didn't even know that.
I had go figure, and so thestent was put in, and my god, my
back hurt for the first fivedays, actually, 10 actually.
I went through the tenth day,but the first five days was
unbearable pain of sciatica,inflammation, the works.
And so if it wasn't for allthose events, and then now with
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this surgery and and thisdiagnosis of cancer, breast
cancer, it's like I I I goinginto this, I went into the into
this with the best shapementally, physically,
emotionally, spiritually,energetically.
I went I I in right now sittingin my closet recording this, I
never have felt in the bestshape of my life.
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And I know I feel sore and Iknow I'm all stitched up, I look
like Frankenstein, but I'venever felt a better, and I've
never felt so high on life, andI already was like high on life,
and this is just making it evenit's elevating it to a whole
nother level.
Like I thought I knew peace andjoy, no, mm-mm.
This new era that I'm living isway better, way better, and it
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just keeps getting better comoel vino.
Mm-mm, and tequila, mm-mm.
Okay, and so all these thingssaid, I I've been learning,
like, as a first generation andoldest daughter, like this is
all learning a new language,like this is beyond the
spiritual side, and so thatleads me to my next thing about
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business.
My business, my work, mypurpose, everything is shifting.
I thought I lost momentum, butin reality, I've been gaining
alignment.
This season slowed me downenough to see what wasn't
working.
What needed to change, whatneeded to be reborn, and the new
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moon in this week, and thenthere's a lot of stuff happening
astrolog astrologically.
It's just getting it's whippingeverything into alignment.
And especially we're in Mercuryretrograde, of course.
It's testing the boundaries.
But what also needed to bereborn is the big thing, right?
I'm I I birthed my new Chi Chis,haha.
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Re, right?
Re because I'm using the sametip tissue.
It's very symbolic, I'm tellingyou.
Like everything in my life rightnow, and then I had another
friend of mine point out,another colleague friend point
out that I've been like on itwith the numerology, like
everything I'm sometimes.
When I record something, it'sfour four four, two, two, two,
one, one, one.
Pay attention.
Like, I'm paying attention tothe numbers, damn it.
Paying attention to everythingmy spirit guides and my angels
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and my everything are sending mebecause that if it wasn't for
all the spiritual journey forthe past eight years, like I
would have not been able tohandle such a diagnosis and be
such a positive person and go onsocial and do all the things and
do master classes and and do thechallenges and push myself and
invest in myself in a program orin different programs and
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collectives.
And so I'm not building abusiness from survival anymore.
I'm building it from embodiment,from softness, from clarity,
from truth.
Spiritually, I've been crackedopen in ways I did not expect.
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My boundaries are sharper.
My patience is thinner.
Like my tolerance of things arevery, very, very low.
Um that set me off.
It's like I need to kind ofregroup with myself.
So my health though is verythin.
Not toxica thin, just it's it'sthinner.
My vision is clear.
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This version of me, she'sbuilding something long lasting,
something deeper than content orposts like on Instagram and
Facebook and social in general.
So my purpose is evolving withme.
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Now we're gonna do a somaticpractice, guided reflection.
So we're gonna go ahead and whenyou're ready, and if you can, um
close your eyes, put a hand onyour heart, and a hand on your
womb, and take a deep breath ininto your nose, hold it at the
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top a little bit, and outthrough your mouth.
We'll do that two more timesinto your nose.
Hold it and out through yourmouth.
Let's do that one more time inthrough your nose, hold it and
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out through your mouth.
No, if you like, you coulddefinitely keep your eyes open
and journal.
Or you could just see what comesup and keep your eyes closed and
see what comes up.
You can always pause this forreflection.
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So ask yourself the firstquestion is where in my life am
I being invited to pivot?
Where in my life am I beinginvited to pivot?
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Number two, where have I beensilent when I needed to speak?
Where have I been silent when Ineeded to speak?
Number three, where have I beenstrong when I needed softness?
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Where have I been strong when Ineeded softness?
Number four.
What is my body trying to tellme?
What is my body trying to tellme?
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Number five, who am I becomingin this season?
Who am I becoming in thisseason?
Number six, what support am Iready to receive?
What support am I ready toreceive?
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Number seven, what truth am Iready to say out loud?
What truth am I ready to say outloud?
And when you're done, you caninhale for four, exhale for six,
and let that vibration settle inyour body.
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And again, you can come back tothis part.
This is homework for you, if youso choose to take it, and just
go through the motions.
And I invite you to bring yourjournal and journal what comes
up and free write what it is.
And if you need more assistance,you can always reach out to me.
You can um message me via thispodcast down below.
There's a link for that.
You can send a text or a voicememo, or you can go ahead and uh
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reach me out on Instagram atDPraxedis, or you can find me on
Facebook at Doralicia Braxedis.
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For listening, for witnessing myjourney through pain, humor,
pivots, and rebirth.
If you're in a season oftransition, or redefining
yourself, of finding your voiceagain, remember this.
You are allowed to pivot, youare allowed to rest, you are
allowed to heal slow, you areallowed to ask for more, you are
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allowed to be held.
Your voice matters, yourboundaries matter, your healing
matters, you too, you matter.
Embrace your raises, reclaimyour essencia, and let your
voice guide you home.
Alrighty, that wraps us up.
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Nos vemos hasta la próxima.
Los quiero mucho.
Un abrazo, a big hug, and unbesote.
Until the next episode.
Love y'all.
Have a great, great week.
Hi Mijita, welcome back to another episode.
And hoy.
Hoy si les traigo unaactualización of my video that
uff.
So if you don't hang on tight,you're gonna fall like a butt.
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Because these last few months,life didn't just hand me lemons.
Life threw the whole damn lemontree at me with the soil and the
pot and said, Grow here.
Like all the all the signs, justyou know, pointing to this spot.
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Between surgeries, businesspivots, emotional awakenings,
and figuring out that my coachand I, we were energetically
about as aligned as a water andoil.
I've been in full transformationseason.
Pero aquí stoy.
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Raw, bruised, soft, stronger,and with way hella more clarity
than ever.
Today we're diving into my twosurgeries and what really
happened behind the scenes, thespiritual lessons I didn't ask
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for, but apparently needed, howI found my voice in the middle
of everything, pivoting coachesand advocating for myself like a
healed toxica, and humor thatkept me crying from crying 24-7.
I was actually crying oflaughter to the point where I
peed myself.
I gotta thank my comadre forthat one.
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And how this season completelyreshaped Mi Essentia.
And I'm still going through it,don't get me wrong.
So I know this episode's cominga little late, um, or a day
later than I normally would.
I usually drop it on Thursdays,but today's Friday, November
20th.
24st.
And it's just that my mygracious little Julian, he's
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been going through the motionsof wrestling.
He started last week andpobrecito, everything hurt.
Um, he started having somesymptoms on Tuesday, but then
yesterday he just woke up and hecouldn't even let's just say
everything hurt to the pointwhere he like his breath hurt.
And that's where I needed to nojoke take back seat because my
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daughter Josie was the one thatdrove him to and I to the
immediate care.
And obviously, Mama Bear needsto sign a lot of forms.
So I was she drove both of us,and I I I legit like I sat back
seat in my own car, and I waslike, I think I'm gonna cry.
Actually, I'm gonna cry.
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I'm not gonna I'm not even gonnapause this one because this is
where I saw all the seeds Iplanted, all the seeds that I
planted in my two kids, and theoutpour of everybody reaching
out has been amazing.
But I'm blown away.
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I'm so blown away.
And then something magicalhappened this week, and I know
this is all intro, right?
But before we dig into my myjourney and everything, this is
part of it, and that's why Ithink I've needed to process a
lot of things.
And I'm still processing it andI'm like trying to sit beach air
in my closet.
It's like the most hilariousthing ever.
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I'm propped up on two yogaballs, a yoga ball chair and a
yoga ball to lift my feet up,and it's just oh my god, I think
it's hilarious right now.
But um I I think I'm trying I'mtrying to distract and like come
up the energy because this isgonna is another sucker punch
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for me.
Is this week I like my husband?
I'm not gonna lie, he's justbeen having a rough time with
this, um, with my cancerdiagnosis and seeing me in pain.
And I know, I know who you are,those people that have not
reached out for your reasons,you have.
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Una porque a lo mejor no saben,and I totally get it.
It's like, let's just join theno sabo club, but and no hard
feelings, and there's no rightor wrong.
But I know there's people outthere that it's triggering this
whole situation, my breastcancer, it's triggering.
It's triggering that they had ahot loved one, they have someone
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cancer survivor or someone thatactually died from cancer.
And I know my family, mygrandfather died of cancer,
prostate cancer, and that wasfucking hard for everybody to
accept because my grandpa wasthe and I've been actually
talking to my grandma every day,although I did miss what was it,
Wednesday when I was out to myappointment, to my follow-up,
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because okay, so on Tuesday, mymy my caregiver at the time and
I called her, and my husband wasin the room, and this again,
this is all related back to myhusband, but my husband was in
the room and it was perceived aswe were laughing at my
grandmother, which it wasn'tthat, it wasn't like we were
laughing at my grandmother, itwas not that.
No, no, no, no.
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It's just my this person and Ijust we just look at each other
and we just start laughing.
Like it's that's how we are.
I see somos, I see somos, and ohmy gosh.
So and and we're and we're loudas fuck, and we're we own it.
We own it when we're togetherand we know each other since we
were little, we're likesoulmates.
We are like soul, we're soulsisters.
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We're I como te digo, like ourbirthdays are the same month,
like I mean, we everything isvery parallel, and she's always
been such a big mentor, sister,ever since the beginning, and
and I and actually we were memreminiscing on the fact that
when I was pregnant with Josie,like she was the only one that
took me to see Philly when myparents were like, no bitch, you
can't see your you can't seehim, the baby daddy, because
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he's such such a she's he's sucha horrible person and he did
this to the family and blah blahblah.
And she was the only one therethat actually understood me
because she went through itherself.
Not the same facet by no meansbecause I'm not I'm not gonna
take away from her her sufferingand all the things, but I'm just
so happy for her because she I'mso proud.
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I'm so proud of her, and sheknows who she is, and so back to
Feely, it's been really tough,and so and I did apologize to my
grandma by the way.
I did call her yesterday and Iwas on the phone for about an
hour with her and she wassharing me oof some nice
stories.
Um, but with Feely, like it'sjust it's been tough all around,
and and and it was such amagical moment, not yesterday,
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but the day before on Wednesdaynight.
I was explain I was we weresitting in the living room
because girl needs to be in arecliner, so we have one
downstairs in the living roomand one upstairs.
And they were done.
My mom came over, she madestuff, and then people, you
know, they ate and everything.
I was in a phone call onWednesday night.
I'm not gonna lie, I do dozeoff, okay?
Um, I am not all there becauseof the pain management and pain
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medications and all that, butI'm off my met my my pay med, my
opiates and all.
But I still fall asleep becausemy body is just so tired, right?
Like we're going through somuch.
So I'm in phone calls and stuff.
I don't know, I don't I myattention span is probably like
half an hour of that.
I will like if I'm watchingsomething, I'll start falling
asleep because not that I'm notengaged or it's not juicy enough
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what I'm watching or what I'mengaged in.
It's just my body shuts downbecause I'm I'm just so tired.
I have not slept since lastMonday, November 10th, when I
got my surgery.
Well, the anesthesia, I thinkthat counts, right?
Like when I was eight hoursunder.
But that's where I have notslept.
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So I don't man, this feels notgreat.
Um, that I'm not showering everyday like I normally would, like,
you know, all the crooks and thecrannies in the body.
Yeah, it's been it's been real,and I stink.
Like my belly button when thegauzes and everything came off.
Yeah.
Anyway, I'm getting too farahead.
Um, I'll save that for later.
But back to Feeney, um, and justthis tidbit is we were able to
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have a beautiful conversation asa family for the first time
ever, people.
First time ever.
And we were all able to talk,and it wasn't uh a you you you,
it was a we and an I feel thisway, and then it opens up the
opportunity for us, and then wesat in the living room, which
was a different dynamic.
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Usually we sit around the diningroom table, but because I'm not
able to like sit for longperiods of time, like I've
noticed now, um, especially wellin this condition, I can't sit
for long periods of time arounda table, and so in the recliner,
and then everybody's on a couch,and then Phoenix in the chair,
and we were all talking verybeautifully, but that's where he
was able to voice finally in aclear, collected manner, what
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his feelings are and why hefeels a certain way.
And no joke, that was a therapysection right there.
That was it.
It wasn't that hard, it was like40 minutes, and I given I had to
get up to go to the pottybecause again, my bladder is
like on like repeat right now,but yeah, so I'm just sharing
those things because just alittle teaser on what we've been
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going through, or what I've beengoing through, and what my
perspective is of life rightnow.
So take a deep breath, lightyour palo santo, grab your
cafecito, your tecito, or yourwine.
Okay, so no judgment.
This is going to be a long juicyepisode, um, and it's gonna be a
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corazon cracked open kind ofepisode.
So let's begin.
So let's start with the obvious.
I now have two major surgeriesunder my belt, literally and
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emotionally.
So surgery number one, thebilateral massectomy, I went
into that operating room like awarrior, but then I came out
like a catching I was my bustle.
And what happened to me?
And surgery number two wasreconstruction breast cancer
breast reconstruction.
So they took my it's called thedeep flap, D-I-E-P, and then
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flap L F-L-A-P, where they takethe tummy tissue, fat, and they
plant it or they um make andmold my boobies, my new chichis,
with that.
And it's pretty impressive stuffbecause they hook up the blood
vessels, so they kind of liketake and they did have to cut
into my tummy, so my I have a Ido have a tummy toxin, so from
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side to side, so from hip tohip, all through the bikini
line, I have a of scar, and thenthey took out my nipples, right?
The the the nipple part in thefirst uh in the first surgery,
the bilateral masectomy, andthen I didn't have boobies, but
then they they I kept some ofthe skin, and then when they did
the second surgery, that's wherethey transplanted the my fat
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from my belly over to the top.
Thank you, and shout out to allthose friends of mine and
conocidos and stuff that were onthe list of of donors.
Um I did have enough belly fatto cover um a 36C, so we shall
see what it actually results to.
But right now they feel likeflipping double D's.
They feel so big.
Um, and then I have stitchingaround the like what would have
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been the the nipple part, andthen inside the nip, like what
where the nipple was, it is nowskin from my from what my belly
tissue was, and then they justlike drag all that down.
They made my new belly button.
I have that scar.
And yeah, it's been quite theprocess with that.
So I never been so flat, butthen again, the inflammation,
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I'm so swollen right now.
Um, my legs are so hard on thesides, like the T-band and that.
So I'm missing my massages, mylymphatic massages.
I was missing all my pills, likeall the vitamins and all the
things that I would nourish mybody.
So I finally, because ofWednesday, I went to the post op
appointment, I was able to getcleared on I can resume all my
vitamins and the goodies that Itake on a daily.
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So iron is one of them becausethat's low and like I'm low
energy, but then again, I don'tsleep.
Um, so that attributes to it.
So there is nothing like tryingto reach for a cup and realizing
your arm said, you know, girl,sit down.
Absolutely not.
Everything hurt, especially withthe second surgery.
My husband had to feed me.
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Um it feed me in my mouth, in myboquita.
And and he would, it was so itwas so cute because he would try
to feed me like super fast.
You know when you get food stuckin your like chest when you
don't drink water, that's how itfelt like.
I'm like, okay, slow down.
And I was and when he wasfeeding me, I started crying,
and he's like, What's wrong withwhere?
It's que te duele.
It's like no, it's que no meduele.
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It's just the the simple factthat I can feel everything in my
chest because it's all stretchedout.
And my right arm, like I couldnot move it whatsoever.
I felt like I went to the gymand did, I don't know, like a
thousand biceps.
And shout out to all my groupinstructors um that I'm in their
classes for um to work out inthat on a on a regular, but
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yeah, it it was hard like tomove my arms, I couldn't reach.
Everything, everything justhurts.
What can I say?
So for days I couldn't move.
I couldn't reach, I couldn'tlift, I couldn't do anything
without making a noise.
I didn't know my body couldmake.
And humor kept me alive becauseyo, there were moments where I
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legit felt like a T-Rex.
Little arms, no reach, no grab,just vibes.
And here's the real talk.
My body forced me to slow down,whether I wanted to or not.
I realized how much I used topush, ignore, or override.
But you can't bypass a surgery.
Like that's cra Right now.
I'm like, I can't even fake ittill I make it.
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You can't gaslight a s ascalpel, you know, like those
tools that they use and allthat.
You can't hustle your waythrough stitches.
I mean, come on.
You have to feel it.
Like I have I have had to gothrough all this to live it, and
then to heal through it, andthat's what you're being witness
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of right now is my process ofeverything.
And so my body became myteacher, my healer, my guide.
And it's been like that throughthis whole journey for the past
eight spiritual years that I'vehad awakenings in that left and
right.
And my body, she spoke loud andclear rest, receive, allow.
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Three words that used to piss meoff, but now they're my
commandments.
Let's be real.
I'm not myself right now.
Not the Dora that wakes up andmoves mountains before
breakfast, not the healer whocan hold the world, not the mom
who does a million things atonce, not the business owner who
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uh shows up consistently, noteven the accountant version of
me at work who can keep thenumbers and life in order and
totally take care of the chaos.
I am softer, slower, morefragile than I ever wanted to
admit.
And yet, I feel like moregrounded than ever.
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Identity gets weird when we youcan't do the things you're known
for.
Like I used to think that I wasan accountant, that's how I
would introduce myself, and it'slike, no, I'm Dora Alicia
Praxedis, damn it.
Like I am a person, I'm a mom,I'm a I'm a lot of things, I'm a
multifaceted individual.
But there were days where Icried, not because of the pain,
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uh, but because I didn'trecognize who I was anymore.
I'm not recognizing who I am.
Like I am I who who I am, butit's like it's a new me.
It's like I'm being shaped andtransformed to be a different
version of me.
Um, obviously a better versionand everything in the works and
the bells and whistles whistles,but that's when I started
hearing spirit whisper, Mijita,you are not what you do, you are
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who you are becoming.
And oh my gosh, that was so itwas like a cascade of like light
and that warm sunshine lightkind of feeling.
And oof that hit me in myChi-Cheese, my new ones.
Let's talk about the big pivotthat I had this week, or I've
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been having actually these pastcouple months.
Because in the middle of myhealing, I realized something.
I invested in a program that I'min.
I do invest in a lot ofdifferent programs actually.
I'm in in various differentcollectives.
But this month specifically, Iwas expecting more for like
coaching and that in mybusiness, and my coach wasn't
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the right fit for me.
Like I sensed it from theget-go, but I'm like, no, maybe
this is what it is.
This is the first time Iactually dropped some big money
on stuff like this.
And so energetically,emotionally, rhythmically, no
functionava.
Like it wasn't working out.
Old Dora would have stayedquiet, would have avoided
confrontation, would have madeherself wrong.
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But new Dora, post-cancerfacing, post-surgery, post-ego
death Dora, she was like, Iknow.
Yeah no.
I reached out to the Powers atB, the top coach, and I voiced
what wasn't working.
I did all the things, I've doneall the things, I haven't been
getting the results.
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And I asked for what I needed.
And I voiced what wasn'tworking.
And guess what?
Nobody died.
The world didn't end, I didn'tget kicked out of the program,
they didn't tell me I was toosensitive.
Instead, support poured in.
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I got switched from a new from Igot aligned to a new coach.
Solutions flowed, accommodationswere offered, and I realized
it's not that I was too much,it's that I was in the wrong
vibration, in the wrong room.
A room built for the pastversion of me, not who I am now.
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My voice cracked open something.
And now no one can shut me upagain.
In the best spiritual waypossible.
And you know what saved me?
Humor.
Because let's be honest, healingis dramatic as hell.
Half the time I felt like anovella character, a whole
scene, my room s my robeslipping off one shoulder, hair
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everywhere whispering, Ay Diosmío, porque yo And then I'd
laugh because I'd see myselffrom above like, girl, eat a
snack, hydrate, get the gatorread, you're fine.
Humor became medicine.
It softened the hubby, it madespace for the light.
Because healing isn't onlytears.
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Healing is also laughing at howslow you walk.
Making fun of your TX rearms.
Well, my TX arms.
Telling your husband, I'mfragile, be gentle, like a
princess.
Asking your kids to pass youeverything because mommy is
delicate right now.
Laughing at the fact thatnothing fits the way it used to.
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Making titty jokes to keep fromcrying.
Finding humor in theawkwardness, the pain, the
recovery, the weirdness.
Humor is a coping skill, aspiritual one.
And spirit?
She jokes.
She has jokes too.
Trust me.
I mean, and and you can trustme, but if you want to test her,
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go for it.
The outpouring of support, oh mygod, wow.
Wow, wow, wow.
People showed up in ways I neverexpected.
In ways I didn't know Ideserved.
In ways I never allowed before.
And I had to learn how toreceive.
Actually, like receive.
Not the I'm fine receiving.
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No, no, no.
Not the oh, you don't have toreceiving.
Not the I can do it myselftrauma response.
But the thank you.
Oh gracias.
I needed that.
Necesitaba yo.
I received that.
Lo recibo.
It cracked me open.
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Because receiving is intimacy.
It's a connection.
It's a bond.
Receiving is surrender.
Receiving is letting yourself beheld.
Be held by your community, beheld by others, be held by your
support system in your corner.
Like that takes doing beforeshit hits the fan.
Those are the people you go andcall when you need emotionally
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being regulated.
When you need someone and you'respiraling out of control.
Like those are the people youhave a person for each maybe
area of your life or that.
And I was so naive to think thatit's like my husband needs to be
my best friend and my husband'sthe only one that I can talk to
and everything.
No, that's why you havegirlfriends, that's why you have
people in your life, coaches,therapists, doctors,
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nutritionists.
A year ago, I was preparing forthis, and that's where I was in
that conversation this week withmy fam and my husband.
I was telling him, I'm like, ifI didn't a year ago get my tubes
tied for not having kids, andtold myself, I am gonna get in
the best fucking shape of mylife, body-wise, like I'm gonna
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lose the weight because Iweighed like that my heaviest
actually was 22 was 226.
I think it was something aroundthere, or 220, let's just say
220 in January, and especiallyafter my surgery, like the first
one with the tubes died.
That's where I started on on inJanuary.
I went to the doctor and I'mlike, hey, like October,
November, December went by.
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I'm like, okay, I had mysurgery, I've been going to the
gym, I've been doing thesethings for years now, like five
years plus, and I'm not losingweight, like I lose the weight,
but then I gain it, but then mylegs were so hard and like they
were heavy, heavy in the intowards the end of the day, and
right now they're just heavyoverall because I know my
lymphatic my lymphatic system isnot draining as it should,
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especially with surgery.
And so my doctor, and I'm gonnabe open about this.
My doctor prescribed me becausewe discovered that I am insulin
resistant, so he put me atmetformin, which is used for
diabetes and all that, but I'musing it for a different
purpose.
And again, I'm not a medicalprofessional, I'm disclaimer
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right here, but I'm just talkingabout my experience.
And then he put me on zip boundand he put me on the lowest
dosage, and I was I I wasinjecting myself every week
Wednesday, so I was doing goingthrough the motions, and then I
in October of 2024, last a yearago, I worked with a
nutritionist, and so she'staught me how to eat.
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And she's like, Okay, when youwake up, within the first hour,
eat something, and uh, and shecalled she didn't call it a
meal, she called it a mealevent.
Like she called it a food event.
Like you eat something, you putsomething in your body.
So every day when I wake up, Ieat.
Usually my go-to is a banana, orit's like a yogurt, or it's a
cutie, or it's uh apple, or it'sa something, but usually it's
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like half a banana because abanana, she told me you have to
keep under the 30 grams of sugaror carbs, I'm sorry.
And so I eat half the banana,that's 15, and then I can mix it
with something else.
And my other favorite now, thankyou to one of my good comader
friends.
She, okay, earth-shatteringthing.
I never liked avocado in mylife.
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Oh my god, I'm Mexican and Inever liked avocados.
Correct, correct, ding ding,ding.
You got that right.
So I always would get made funof at work.
Not made fun of, but like peoplewould no, it was it was funny.
I was laughing too.
They I I you know, whatever.
The guacamole would come and thechips, and people that people
would devour that guacamole.
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And guess what?
I never got it.
Like, I'm like, oh, I hateguapacado, and I just didn't
like the consistency, like Ididn't like it.
But then my friend came overlast Friday, and she let me just
tell you, she's un pan de dios.
She came over and then and andlike okay, she wet my butt.
As my mom and my sister andfeely and my sis, my daughter,
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like a few people have wiped mybutt in my life, and my friend
was had the honor to do that forme.
But before she could do that,she did make me breakfast and
she did me an avocado toast witheggs.
And I've never had an egg overeasy, so she was talking.
Oh my god, she this girl is likeamazing when it comes to
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vitamins and and things.
She got me on sour soap when forcancer, and I'm taking that back
again, like a vitamin and allthat supplement.
She's she's amazing.
So, shout out to my friendsending you a big kiss.
Um, so yeah, girl likes avocadonow, and it has so many good
properties for you.
So, as I'm rep as I'm as I'mgoing through like all these
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motions right now, it's like Ihave to really pay attention to
my body, right?
And and if it wasn't for a yearago doing all those pivotal
things, because every week forsix months, I would go get a
lymphatic massage.
Every single week on a on aFriday.
On a Friday afternoon, I wouldleave work early and then I
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would go get my lymphaticmassage.
And then it was and then it wasevery other week for a while,
and then yeah, and then until Iwent up leading up to my
surgery, then that's where Iwould, you know, I'm in pause on
that, and then I'm picking itback up on Wednesday, I have my
appointment because I girl needsto need some drainage.
So March, that's where I gotdiscovered that I went back to
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the vein doctor and the vein andI had disappeared for three
years because you're supposed togo every year.
And I do have great insurance,don't get me wrong.
Like I have great insurance,great benefits, but if I'm gonna
pay in$30,$50 for every doctorvisit and I have to pay a
deductible, it's like$3,000.
I get discouraged because it'slike everything goes towards the
the deductible, and then theystart to pay like 100% or
whatever they're gonna pay.
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So I personally think healthcareis a flipping lucrative
business.
I mean, I'm not gonna getpolitical or anything like that.
I'm just saying like stating thefact.
So I went to my vein clinic, andthat's where um three years ago
I had an ultrasound, and likethe veins looked fine.
One of them was a littleclogged, like on my left side,
but it wasn't such a big deal orwhatever.
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But then when I went back, likemy left in my pelvic area, it's
called Mae Thurner Thundersyndrome or pelvic congestion
syndrome, and so my vein inthere in my pelvic area, um,
it's it's right next to my lowerback.
And so when they put a stent inthere because it was blocked
60%, my body created a whole newvein on my right side to keep me
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alive.
I didn't even know that.
I had go figure, and so thestent was put in, and my god, my
back hurt for the first fivedays, actually, 10 actually.
I went through the tenth day,but the first five days was
unbearable pain of sciatica,inflammation, the works.
And so if it wasn't for allthose events, and then now with
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this surgery and and thisdiagnosis of cancer, breast
cancer, it's like I I I goinginto this, I went into the into
this with the best shapementally, physically,
emotionally, spiritually,energetically.
I went I I in right now sittingin my closet recording this, I
never have felt in the bestshape of my life.
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And I know I feel sore and Iknow I'm all stitched up, I look
like Frankenstein, but I'venever felt a better, and I've
never felt so high on life, andI already was like high on life,
and this is just making it evenit's elevating it to a whole
nother level.
Like I thought I knew peace andjoy, no, mm-mm.
This new era that I'm living isway better, way better, and it
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just keeps getting better comoel vino.
Mm-mm, and tequila, mm-mm.
Okay, and so all these thingssaid, I I've been learning,
like, as a first generation andoldest daughter, like this is
all learning a new language,like this is beyond the
spiritual side, and so thatleads me to my next thing about
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business.
My business, my work, mypurpose, everything is shifting.
I thought I lost momentum, butin reality, I've been gaining
alignment.
This season slowed me downenough to see what wasn't
working.
What needed to change, whatneeded to be reborn, and the new
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moon in this week, and thenthere's a lot of stuff happening
astrolog astrologically.
It's just getting it's whippingeverything into alignment.
And especially we're in Mercuryretrograde, of course.
It's testing the boundaries.
But what also needed to bereborn is the big thing, right?
I'm I I birthed my new Chi Chis,haha.
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Re, right?
Re because I'm using the sametip tissue.
It's very symbolic, I'm tellingyou.
Like everything in my life rightnow, and then I had another
friend of mine point out,another colleague friend point
out that I've been like on itwith the numerology, like
everything I'm sometimes.
When I record something, it'sfour four four, two, two, two,
one, one, one.
Pay attention.
Like, I'm paying attention tothe numbers, damn it.
Paying attention to everythingmy spirit guides and my angels
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and my everything are sending mebecause that if it wasn't for
all the spiritual journey forthe past eight years, like I
would have not been able tohandle such a diagnosis and be
such a positive person and go onsocial and do all the things and
do master classes and and do thechallenges and push myself and
invest in myself in a program orin different programs and
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collectives.
And so I'm not building abusiness from survival anymore.
I'm building it from embodiment,from softness, from clarity,
from truth.
Spiritually, I've been crackedopen in ways I did not expect.
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My boundaries are sharper.
My patience is thinner.
Like my tolerance of things arevery, very, very low.
Um that set me off.
It's like I need to kind ofregroup with myself.
So my health though is verythin.
Not toxica thin, just it's it'sthinner.
My vision is clear.
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This version of me, she'sbuilding something long lasting,
something deeper than content orposts like on Instagram and
Facebook and social in general.
So my purpose is evolving withme.
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Now we're gonna do a somaticpractice, guided reflection.
So we're gonna go ahead and whenyou're ready, and if you can, um
close your eyes, put a hand onyour heart, and a hand on your
womb, and take a deep breath ininto your nose, hold it at the
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top a little bit, and outthrough your mouth.
We'll do that two more timesinto your nose.
Hold it and out through yourmouth.
Let's do that one more time inthrough your nose, hold it and
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out through your mouth.
No, if you like, you coulddefinitely keep your eyes open
and journal.
Or you could just see what comesup and keep your eyes closed and
see what comes up.
You can always pause this forreflection.
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So ask yourself the firstquestion is where in my life am
I being invited to pivot?
Where in my life am I beinginvited to pivot?
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Number two, where have I beensilent when I needed to speak?
Where have I been silent when Ineeded to speak?
Number three, where have I beenstrong when I needed softness?
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Where have I been strong when Ineeded softness?
Number four.
What is my body trying to tellme?
What is my body trying to tellme?
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Number five, who am I becomingin this season?
Who am I becoming in thisseason?
Number six, what support am Iready to receive?
What support am I ready toreceive?
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Number seven, what truth am Iready to say out loud?
What truth am I ready to say outloud?
And when you're done, you caninhale for four, exhale for six,
and let that vibration settle inyour body.
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And again, you can come back tothis part.
This is homework for you, if youso choose to take it, and just
go through the motions.
And I invite you to bring yourjournal and journal what comes
up and free write what it is.
And if you need more assistance,you can always reach out to me.
You can um message me via thispodcast down below.
There's a link for that.
You can send a text or a voicememo, or you can go ahead and uh
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reach me out on Instagram atDPraxedis, or you can find me on
Facebook at Doralicia Braxedis.
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For listening, for witnessing myjourney through pain, humor,
pivots, and rebirth.
If you're in a season oftransition, or redefining
yourself, of finding your voiceagain, remember this.
You are allowed to pivot, youare allowed to rest, you are
allowed to heal slow, you areallowed to ask for more, you are
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allowed to be held.
Your voice matters, yourboundaries matter, your healing
matters, you too, you matter.
Embrace your raises, reclaimyour essencia, and let your
voice guide you home.
Alrighty, that wraps us up.
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Nos vemos hasta la próxima.
Los quiero mucho.
Un abrazo, a big hug, and unbesote.
Until the next episode.
Love y'all.
Have a great, great week.
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