Starting Over and Facing Fears

Life after Revision Surgery for an Amputee     I must have been crazy, right? To CHOOSE to revise my amputation! To go from being uber active to starting over?!?! Golfing on Kauai   Having fun catching waves   At the beginning of this interview process, to be eligible for the AMI procedure, I was very interested in the idea of being a part of something so "cutting edge" (pun intended) and chose to continue through the several interview steps to see if I was even eligible. When it came down to having to go out to Boston for a face to face interview I knew that it was getting very real and that the decision to have it done was going to be all mine. That's when I started to second guess myself and the reason why I would want to go through that again. Decisions need to be made, but with a good, clear reason and with no doubts. I couldn't do something like that again, and have my family be put out because of it... and what if? What if I was as good as I could get? What if I feel more phantom pains? What if, this time I get an infection and start down a harder road than ever before? I will tell you that I never put those questions in my head or spoke of them before the surgery, but the reality is, those are the concerns that hide in the dark, when you are anxious, vulnerable, weak. These are the doubts that create fear, and then stop us from charging forward and achieving greatness. Needless to say, my CT scan showed something that had to be dealt with that had nothing to do with the AMI and everything to do with the pains I had been dealing with for 6 years! THAT was what made my decision one I was at peace with. Now here I am 3 weeks post-op. Starting PT the day after surgery and having those flooding pains upon walking   My biggest support and the guy who has always had my back! <3   Back at the hotel and trying to rest   Fear is such a disabling emotion. It stops us from trying new things, meeting new people, and reaching our goals. I don't know about you but I don't want to live a life where I'm not reaching out and living a full and amazing life because fear holds me back. What fears are stopping you? What goals are you not hitting because you worry about the "What ifs"?     This week and each day in it I want you to face a fear! It doesn't have to be huge, like jumping from a plane, but what's holding you back from living a full and happy life? What scares you? What goals have you been sitting on because something keeps you from achieving them, that YOU control? Let's face those fears together and start living! You are a warrior, you need to believe it and know you have that within you! You are strong, powerful, and capable! Now get out there and SLAY YOUR FEARS!!!! F-ace E-verything A-nd R-ise   And as always, Be Healthy, Be Happy, Be YOU!!!   Much love,