Episode Transcript
Available transcripts are automatically generated. Complete accuracy is not guaranteed.
Mel (00:00):
Welcome back to another
episode of Beyond Organised.
I just wanted to start bygiving a bit of a trigger
warning that this episode willcover.
It'll touch on points ofchildhood sexual abuse,
depression and anxiety, so ifany of these things are
triggering for you, please justskip this episode.
Welcome to Beyond Organised, apodcast that helps you simplify
(00:38):
your life and amplify yourpurpose.
I'm Mel Schenker, life coachspeaker, founder of She's
Organised, but, more importantly, a wife and mum of four little
kids.
If you've ever felt overwhelmed,like you're constantly juggling
everything but never quitecatching up, this is the place
for you.
Here we go beyond just thetidying up and creating systems.
(00:58):
We're talking about real-lifestrategies that bring order to
your life, but also we talkabout the things beyond the
organizing, the things thatreally matter, like your
parenting relationships and somuch more.
So grab your coffee and let'sdive in.
So I wanted to give a littlebit of a further background into
(01:20):
me, into trauma, healing,forgiveness and how that all
plays a part in my journey withorganizing, and I'm hoping that
it will help some of you whohave maybe walked through
similar experiences or otherforms of grief and trauma.
So, when I was a child sobetween the ages of eight and 10
(01:40):
, I was sexually abused quiteregularly by a trusted adult
friend and I was unable to tellmy parents at the time due to
various threats and everything.
But it came out when I was 12and I assured them it was fine.
I just wanted to move on andforget about it.
(02:02):
So that's what we did until Iwas 15 and my dad walked in on
me self-harming, and that wasagain another difficult moment
for my parents.
My dad still, even to this day,is dealing with it.
But at that time I wasn't happy, I wasn't sad.
(02:22):
I literally felt nothing.
I felt no emotions.
I hadn't cried in years and itstill, even at that point, was
going to be about another threeyears before I even cried again.
So pain was the only thing Icould feel.
And that's why I did it,because it was almost like
reminding myself that I'm stillalive, I'm still human, because
(02:45):
when you don't feel anything,your brain does a lot of things,
questions a lot of things.
But I promised from that momentthat I wouldn't do it again,
and I didn't.
I didn't do it again, but itwas very difficult starting to
process all the things thathappened.
We went through, the policegave statements.
We went through the police,gave statements and it
(03:08):
eventually went to court when Iwas 18.
So pretty much from the ages of8 to 18, I was trapped, I guess
you could say.
Apart from that part of my life,I did have a very good
childhood.
I had a very good upbringing,went to a great school, I had
good friends.
So my life overall was prettygood.
So I'm not complainingdefinitely not complaining and
(03:31):
my parents did a fantastic joband they still do a great job,
more so now with the grandkidsbecause I am 36.
But that was a tough time forall of us and I distinctly
remember the day before goinginto the courtroom.
I made that decision to forgivehim, and not because he
(03:54):
deserved it, certainly didn'tcondone what he did at all.
I wanted him to still getjustice on it.
But it was for me.
It was because I wanted to beable to walk out of that
courtroom knowing that that partof my life was now done and
behind me, and for the most partit was.
(04:16):
But it still took time.
It still took a lot of timewith healing and I knew that
there were going to be certainperiods of my life where I was
going to have to deal with itagain, particularly when it came
to relationships.
Fast forward to when I gotmarried.
I was 24 and I also moved outof home at the same time, so it
(04:37):
all happened at once and I knewand my husband was prepared for
the fact that there was going tobe a bit of an adjustment,
given the fact of what I'dwalked through was going to
potentially bring up issues inour marriage and our physical
relationship.
(04:57):
And I know I married the bestman I really did.
He's been a fantastic husbandthroughout this whole process
and he's an incredible father.
So I am so incredibly blessedand even at the time I knew I
wanted to get married to him.
This is what I wanted, this wasthe life I wanted.
(05:17):
But something still happened inme that I kind of went into a
little bit of a depressive stateagain just after I got married.
Wasn't due to him or anythinghe did, and I pretty much had
everything I wanted really, butit was just bringing up parts of
my past that were really hardto deal with, that I couldn't
(05:42):
really deal with until I was inthis situation.
So a big part of moving forwardwas the forgiveness, because I
know I wouldn't have met myhusband, I would not have these
four beautiful children, Iwouldn't have this life if I
hadn't forgiven, because thatfreed me to be able to move
forward in my life.
(06:02):
So if that is something thatyou've struggled with, I do
encourage you to really sit withit and think about what this
will do for you Because, as Isaid, it doesn't condone
anything that's happened to you.
It just frees you and enablesyou to be able to move forward.
So, even though that was onepart of it, the other part of
(06:25):
the healing was actuallystarting to get my life in order
.
So that's where organizingcomes in.
Now, as you would have heardbefore, I was so disorganized
when I was first married I mean,obviously before that too, but
this is sort of the realadulting part, because that's
when I grew up and I moved outof home and I thought I was an
(06:46):
adult, honestly Gosh.
So I mean I always paid thebills on time and I was
responsible, but I didn't, wasjust so out of order.
Everything was so chaoticreally, and the first step that
I took to getting organized wasactually with the finances.
(07:08):
So my husband's friends at thetime they were a couple and they
were doing really well withtheir budgeting and stuff.
And so then they gave us sometips and gave us their
spreadsheet and everything kindof evolved from there.
But I started to pay attentionto what was coming in and what
was going and I realized a lotof the money was going on little
(07:29):
things and it was little thingswithin the home.
And so when I startedrecognizing where the money was
going because I knew where itwas coming from and it wasn't a
lot, so when I knew where it wasgoing, I, it wasn't a lot.
So when I knew where it wasgoing I then started to deal
with things in the home.
But even then that wasn'tstraight away.
(07:51):
I went to an event at church andthis lady was talking about
Joshua Becker's book, the Moreof Less.
And that was actually a turningpoint because I never even
thought of decluttering before.
I know you're probably laughinglike who is this simpleton, but
I just had not contemplated thethought of ever getting rid of
(08:14):
anything, because why would youdo that?
You bought it.
You might need it.
Why would you get rid of it?
But it opened the whole doorand it made me realize that we
just had so much stuff we didn'tneed.
We lived in a littletwo-bedroom unit which in years
to follow after that would soonhave two kids in there as well.
(08:34):
But I started in the bathroombecause that was the least
overwhelming place.
It had no sentimental items oranything like that.
And I started in the bathroomand I realized like we had you
know, eight shampoos and fivesoaps and I don't know enough
like earbuds and stuff to lastprobably 10 years, like it's
(08:55):
almost like I'd go to the shopsand be like, oh yeah, I think
we're running low on that andI'd grab it and just all these
little things that I'm sure alot of you have done at some
point too.
And when I started goingthrough the bathroom it was hard
to get rid of some things Now,things that were sealed and
perfectly good, but I knew I hadan excessive amount of that
would probably take years to getthrough.
(09:16):
I gave to friends and familywho needed it and wasn't going
to add to their clutter.
But I got through the bathroompretty quick.
I got through it like in a day.
And that was a big turning pointfor me because then when I went
back to the budget and startedgoing through the financial side
of things, because I wasconscious of it.
(09:36):
I stopped just buying thingsfor the bathroom just in, just
in case, because I knew exactlywhat was in there, because I'd
just gone through it and Iwasn't going to just stock up on
things that, to be honest, Iprobably wasn't even going to
get to for another year or two.
Like it's not like we wereliving in a pandemic.
At that time I didn't need awhole lot of toilet paper.
So I very quickly then flowedinto other areas of the home,
(10:00):
going through the bedroom, thekitchen and all that kind of
stuff, and because it's almostlike taking inventory of what I
had or what we had, and sohaving that in the back of my
mind, it stopped me from doing alot of purchases that were
unnecessary.
And so between the money andthe home sort of backwards and
forwards, they worked hand inhand and I very quickly started
(10:22):
to get a taste of whatorganizing was like.
But through that process thatreally helped me heal from a lot
of things in my past, because Ijust assumed I was really
disorganized, I was never goingto be organized.
I had all these other issuesbut never really connected it to
(10:42):
the fact that I had a lot todeal with growing up and in the
early days of my marriage too.
So I want to encourage you thatif you're someone that
recognizes that you're not themost organized person, your home
feels chaotic.
As soon as you walk in, you'rejust not at peace.
There's just stress and clutter, both physical and mental.
(11:04):
No matter where you look, justthroughout your day, at work, at
home, it's all full on.
If you have walked through sometough stuff in your life, I
encourage you to make some time,with some grace, to revisit
some of that.
It's going to be hard and ifyou have got a counselor, a
(11:28):
psychologist, a psychiatrist, aprofessional of some sort to
help you through that, I wouldencourage you to do so during
this.
But it is worth actuallysorting through some of those
past hurts and pain to actuallyidentify that maybe those are
(11:49):
the things that have beencontributing to the chaos in
your current situation.
It is possible to regaincontrol of your life Now.
I'm not going to talk about youknow a few years fast forward
from there and how I went toofar the other way.
I can talk about that anothertime.
But this was about me regainingsome control for me and feeling
(12:15):
like an adult.
Yes, all of that kind of stuffwhen you're young but it was
part of my healing journey wasregaining some control and order
over my life.
And when the money started toimprove it still took many, many
years to get out of debt andall of that, but it was
improving, it was heading theright way.
(12:36):
My home was a lot more calm.
Even my husband would come homefrom an 80-hour work week and
just even he would be like it isso nice to come home and it's
clean and it's done, and Ididn't even have to do a whole
lot of cleaning at that point.
I didn't have kids at thatpoint, so my gosh, life was so
(12:59):
much easier then and I didn'teven know it.
But I very quickly realized thatthis was something that I
needed to do in order to feelsome peace and some balance and
some order in my life.
So I know it's a little bit ofa different take on this episode
(13:21):
and it can be a bit raw and abit vulnerable.
And, look, it's taken me many,many, many, many, many years of
processing and healing andworking with professionals, and
that as well, to get to a pointwhere I can talk about what
happened and not break downcrying or anything like that.
So I am hoping that giving youjust a little snippet, a little
(13:46):
bit of background and insightinto my life and my journey will
help you a bit with yours,because if I can't use the bad
stuff in my life that's happenedfor me for good, then all it
ends up being is bad stuff andthat's just not how I want to
live my life.
Now I've turned it around andmade it good stuff for me, but I
(14:11):
want to be able to do that foryou and I would love the dark
parts of your history to becomepart of the stepping stools for
your future, that you canactually have a future filled
with hope, filled with joy,because, believe it or not, you
can feel that again.
I want you to be able to have alife that is living and that
(14:36):
this part, this organizing part,is just a small part in the
grand scheme of things.
Now it might be a big focusright now while you're on this
journey, but it's going tobecome normal and automatic and
once you've done the real hardstuff, like you, go through all
the decluttering and everythinglike that, and then it's just
maintaining and that can stilltake a bit of effort, but it's
(14:58):
certainly not as difficult andyou just got to start somewhere
and you can start small and I'vegot a number of resources and
that that can help you.
And I just want to encourageyou that the chaos, the
disorganization, all the kind ofoverwhelm that you're feeling
right now doesn't have to bewhat you're feeling even
(15:19):
tomorrow.
That every day is a new day.
Every day has a new opportunityto be able to move forward, and
don't let your past define you,don't let that be the excuse
that holds you back from livinga life of purpose and of meaning
and of intention.
Don't let it hold you back.
And trust me, if I can do itand I walked through some pretty
(15:45):
dark stuff if I can do it, youcan too.
And look, that's not todiscredit what anyone has gone
through as well any trauma, anypain, anything like that.
But I just want to encourageyou that there is hope you can
go from a dark place and bewalking daily in the light.
(16:05):
It is possible and I'm a livingexample of it, and I do hope
that as you get started or asyou continue on your organising
journey, that you focus on thethings that are your reasons.
Why Is it your relationshipwith your partner?
Is it your children?
Is it for your dream career?
(16:26):
Just focus on why you want tohave a life that is a bit more
organized, and it will make theprocess just all the more easier
.
If you loved this episode,don't forget to hit subscribe so
you don't miss what's comingnext.
And if you want to continue theconversation, you can connect
with me on Instagram at @shes.
(16:46):
organised, or, for some freeresources, head over to
beyondorganised.
com.
Slas toolkit.
Remember organising is a toolto live the purposeful life
beyond it.
See you next time.