July 4, 2025 • 25 mins
I disappeared for a minute not because I was lost, but because I was building in silence.
After ten years of nonstop travel, always being camera-ready, chaos, & putting on a show I finally hit pause button.
Just for a second.
In this solo comeback episode, I’m pulling back the curtain on:
- Why I walked away from a version of myself the internet was obsessed with
- What burnout really looks like when no one’s watching
- The truth about healing in private… and why it’s kind of the sexiest thing I’ve ever done
- & more
This episode is about owning my story and respecting both my past and future as an entertainer.
Whether you’re a man trying to get your edge back, or a woman redefining her entire story… this one's for you.
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SPEAKER_00 (00:01):
Aw, did you miss me?
Welcome back to the Dirty BlondePodcast.
This is your girl, Bridget P.
And if you're new here, hi, I'myour quietly chaotic, hopefully
emotionally intelligent voice inpodcast form.
(00:24):
And if you've been here before,thanks for waiting.
I needed a moment to or a wholeyear.
This episode is called thein-between era.
The part that no one reallyglamorizes.
The time after the hustle, butbefore the next chapter.
(00:45):
And if you're in it like I am,you're in good company.
Stick around.
So let's start here.
I've spent the last decadeworking.
Building, traveling, not just ina hop on a plane kind of way,
(01:06):
but emotionally as well.
I've changed cities, platforms,partners, and most of all,
perspective.
And if I'm honest, I neverreally stopped to look at life.
I never really stopped to lookat the life I was building
because I was in it.
(01:28):
Head down, grind mode.
Let me tell you something I'venever said publicly.
There was a night about a yearago when I was sitting on the
floor of my old apartment in LosAngeles.
No makeup, no glam, just me, acandle for sure, or two or
(01:49):
three, and Charlotte, mymulti-poo, who's sleeping on my
lap as we speak.
And I'm sure you've met her ifyou've been on my TikTok lives.
I'd finished my last contractand I was walking away from a
relationship that just didn'tsee the woman I was becoming.
And for the first time in over adecade, I didn't know what was
(02:13):
coming next.
And it terrified me.
Because I've spent the last 10plus years building, flying city
to city, managing businesses,doing photo shoots, press,
podcast episodes, platforms.
I wasn't just surviving.
Oh, no, I was trying to succeed.
(02:37):
And I didn't even realize it washappening because I was moving
so fast.
And yeah, you know, I mean, Ilooked good doing it, but
looking good and just feelinggrounded to very different
worlds.
That night on the floor, I hadthis odd realization.
Everything that I've done untilnow wasn't a waste.
(03:02):
It was training me, literallytraining me.
I wasn't falling off.
I was falling into somethingnew.
And this podcast is part of thatfall, part of that rebuild.
And maybe it can be a part ofyours too.
We live in a time whereeveryone's obsessed with the
(03:26):
finish line.
What are you working on?
What's next?
What's the goal?
When are you getting married?
Where's your baby?
What house are you going to getin?
Where?
What?
Who?
What?
What are you doing tomorrow?
What about this part?
The moments when I was in my cardriving down the 405 in two-hour
traffic, getting on set, doingmy job, and then coming home.
I have no regrets.
(03:47):
But at some point, it kind ofhas to end.
Now, don't get me wrong.
People can film until they're 90years old.
Do you?
That's your prerogative.
And I would have been in thatscenario if it wasn't for the
sex.
If it was just normal mainstreamacting, which is where I'm at
now, I could do that.
And I will be doing this untilthe last days because it's what
(04:08):
I do.
I'm an entertainer, but I had tofigure out different ways to
entertain.
Most importantly, you listeningright now has been the source of
my nerves growing.
Are they going to like me?
I have been terrified to shareany more than just tits and ass
because how are you going tojudge me?
(04:29):
Do you even want to hearanything?
Do you even care?
Probably not.
But there is no way that I couldgo on and share more of myself
with you, my listener, withoutsharing this side of me.
And it's ironic because I'vebeen in adult entertainment, yet
I feel that Right now, at thisvery moment, and moving forward,
(04:50):
is the most intimate, raw, andreal that you've ever gotten
from me as a performer.
Because I'm not performing.
We're working our way backwards.
Because there's a whole newgeneration of females that, at
some point, when it's their timeto make that decision, quote
unquote, moving on, that there'ssomeone in their corner that
(05:13):
understands them.
And I can leave...
a legacy of episodes that theycan listen to and know that,
okay, yeah, I can do this.
It'll be hard.
It'll be very hard, but you cando it.
And as most of the demographiccould be male, you guys have
your own fucking set ofproblems.
(05:33):
I couldn't imagine what you haveto go through as a man when the
world tells you that you have toprovide, you have to work hard,
look down, mind your business.
Which is why I always say thatadult entertainment is not
something to be judged eitherfor doing or for enjoying.
(05:54):
Because very much a parasocialrelationship develops between
entertainers and the fan base.
Because it is so intimate.
But then it stops.
So many of these performersthroughout the years and the
golden age of adult, etc.
We don't know where they're at.
This is about...
The first time that I've seen,and it's me doing it, where the
(06:18):
veil can be removed and we canhonor the past.
We can respect the past.
I had a great time, but now wemove on and we can evolve and be
entertained in other ways.
There was a study published inthe Journal of Personality and
Social Psychology that foundpeople who take intentional
(06:38):
rest, rest gaps, meaning spaces,without chasing something,
without goal chasing, actuallyexperience more long-term
success than those who neverstop to take a breath.
Why?
Because rest helps integrate andmeld everything that you've
(07:03):
learned.
It was put to me simply with,you can't weaponize your wisdom
if you never take time tosharpen it.
I was like, that's brilliant.
If you've been grinding nonstop,have you slowed down long enough
to ask, who am I?
Without all the bullshit, thatis where this in-between season
(07:27):
of the dirty blonde is allabout.
Sexy will always have currency,but sometimes sexy is a scam.
And I say that as someone whostudied the market.
from the inside.
And the crazy part, even when Itried to leave it behind, tone
(07:48):
it down, soften up, play itsmall, follows me like that
perfume that maybe your grandmawore during Christmas, that when
she gave you a kiss on thecheek, you got home, took a
shower, it was still on you.
That's how fucking sexinessfollows me.
I've learned how to build anaudience, how to communicate,
how to create, distribute,market emotion.
(08:10):
It's branding.
I have been And so for anyonewho's sitting in their own
little in-between era, maybepost-breakup, post-career, or
just fucking post-burnout,here's what I want you to hear.
You are not behind.
You are just absorbing.
(08:31):
And sometimes the silence iswhat really helps you realize
that you've had it all along.
You've had it.
It's been in you.
And nothing's been scarier.
then that little voice in myhead, are they going to like me?
And yes, I am very well awareand very socially aware that you
(08:53):
can't walk around concernedabout everyone's opinion about
you, especially within theindustry that I come from.
However, during the growth,during the year, past where I've
been deciding and figuringthings out and where I'm at at
the moment and where I know somany other girls are going to be
in, where I know so many otherperformers are and just haven't
(09:17):
had the ability to voice whatthey feel because we've been
trained to not feel.
We've been trained as performersthat all we're good for is for
tits and ass, bend over, andthat is it.
It is prevalent.
It is obvious.
(09:38):
It is always in the forefront ofour lives, of our comments, of
our DMs, where no matter what wedo, no matter what we say,
there's always the underlyingcomments, the underlying tone
of, why are you talking?
Why are you writing a quote?
(10:01):
God forbid.
God forbid we put a thirst trappicture, which as females, we
like doing that.
Yes, we feel good.
If one more person says that allthese pictures are to validate
and to be validated by men,society, et cetera.
No, we truly just think that welook good and we're posting a
picture.
(10:21):
At least that's just me.
And I know so many other girlsare because we talk about it all
the time.
And it's just like, you can'tput a picture, a pretty picture,
and then put somethingsignificant as a caption or as a
quote, because God forbid, Godforbid, the comments go off.
They go off.
(10:42):
And I can't stand not having theability to control my own
narrative on my own Instagram.
It is a common theme everywhere.
for performers to not want toexpress who they really are for
fear of being judged and beingtold once and over and again
(11:07):
what we are quote unquote goodfor.
Once I stopped caring on whatpeople thought of me in a
different aspect, aka aside fromthe Bridget B personality, the
dominating personality, MILF oncamera, which is completely the
different side of me.
(11:29):
It's not who I am on a dailybasis.
I'm a lot softer, a lot morefeminine, but I wasn't able to
express that on the adult sidebecause I knew that wasn't my
moneymaker.
I knew that as a character,Bridget B., and if you have gone
through the Dirty Bond podcast,I talk about the evolution and
(11:50):
the creation of a character,which is feel free to go ahead
and binge listen if you'd like.
It has been such a joy for me tobreathe, take some time and just
be myself, which is where I'm atnow.
And the moments that I've beenentertaining throughout the last
(12:10):
year, year and a half has reallybeen me just trying to figure
out where I belong until I justrealized that not that long ago,
which is why I'm back, which iswhy the podcast is back, I
wanted to make sure that you asmy listener, you as a potential
(12:31):
fan, or you as someone who'snever heard of me before, gets
this honest, truthful, and realperspective from my own voice
that is not being kept behind apaywall of adult because this is
(12:52):
my own platform.
And for that, I am so grateful.
I'm so grateful for theevolution that we are
experiencing in entertainmentwhere we can entertain as I am
right now or on TikTok or doinga YouTube.
The ownership that we possesshas never been witnessed before,
(13:14):
but it also lends to differentsituations that will come up
because of the influx, the overinflux of hyper-sexualized
females and males because of theaccess available through
OnlyFans, through Instagram,through thirst traps, what have
(13:39):
you, because it's everything atyour fingertips.
I, as a performer, come from adifferent era of went in, filmed
on set, you went home wasn't atall as prevalent as it is now,
which is great.
I think it's fantastic.
It adds such, when it'srespectful and when it's truly
(14:02):
enjoyed by a sound mind, I thinkit's great.
It's no one's business howanyone over the age of 21 wants
to be entertained.
But I digress.
I always, it boils my Ovaltine.
when that topic comes up in aconversation.
(14:23):
But anyhow, I'm like, we don'tlive in a federal dictatorship
in Cuba in 1950s, for fuck'ssake.
Whatever you want to do in theprivacy of your own home, as
long as you're not harminganyone, I could care less.
It's none of my business.
However, you do understand thatyou live in a functioning
(14:49):
society.
One lives in a functioningsociety filled with all
different ideals, filled withmoral compasses that are extreme
and that are vast and that areso different.
And in order to succeed insociety, you kind of have to
(15:11):
play by the game of society.
Depending on what side of TikTokyou're on, you're going to get
completely different point ofviews.
The algorithms and the waysocial media has made us so
divided, so divided, is insane.
(15:32):
And frankly, terrifying.
Because going back to how I'vementioned, and I've said it so
many times on this podcastbefore, Thank you so much.
(16:12):
much like it's there in anyindustry.
However, I've been veryfortunate and I've been very
lucky and I've been verygrateful for my complete career
path that has evolved andcontinues to evolve.
And that's not just because ofme, but it's because of you.
When I decided that it was timeto evolve, it was when I noticed
(16:37):
that the camaraderie, the, um,The culture was just changing
and that's what happens.
It just happens.
And I needed to make a decision.
What did I want to do?
What do I want to do?
So taking this time off of thepodcast and just sort of really
(17:01):
honing in on how I feel wasbecause I wanted to come in with
honesty and truthfulness,especially because I The
dynamics that are about tochange within the next couple of
years is so vast between maleand female because as Pearl, a
(17:22):
podcaster, has mentioned not toolong ago, just a couple of days
ago, 1.6, 1.7 million people arein on OnlyFans.
And I was like, wow, that's alot.
And I get it.
It's ownership.
It's ownership.
just a different form ofentertainment.
And it pisses me off and itmakes me so annoyed that still
(17:48):
you can't make everyone happy.
I have been the first one tovouch and say on the top of my
lungs, sex, adult industrybelongs behind a paywall.
For the most part in afunctioning society, it should
be common knowledge that if your13, 14, even 15 year old is
(18:11):
getting a hold of images, etcetera.
Either you talk to them about itor don't let them have the
access.
So with that said, this platformgets built.
It's a paywall.
You have to be verified.
All the things, all the jazz,great, perfect as it should be.
(18:31):
And yet people are stillpressed.
People are still angry.
Why?
UNKNOWN (18:39):
I don't know.
I don't know.
SPEAKER_00 (18:43):
And the new way of kind of jabbing someone is
saying, well, at least I'm noton OnlyFans.
As if that's an insult.
But I come with baggage.
I have a 10-plus career.
(19:04):
Of course I'm going to haveownership.
of my own content.
And it's allowed me to evolve.
It's allowed me to take a stepback because once I stopped
filming on camera, why was Igoing to go cold turkey?
It would make absolutely nosense.
(19:24):
I'm not Mother Teresa.
I am not of the cloth.
I am God-fearing, but I'm notpreaching.
to anyone.
I'm the last person that canpreach.
It's a wrap for me.
I've done it.
And taking ownership of my owncontent has been absolutely
(19:49):
lovely because I already havedecade worth of google.com.
I will never be able to escapeit.
So when people tell me now, whatadvice do I have?
for the younger generation ofwomen in the industry.
I go, there is no industry.
(20:12):
It's the wild, wild west.
Your local pharmacist could beon OF because that's considered
the new adult industry, the newporn.
And the dynamics is going tochange in the grow out of it and
(20:37):
everyone has access to it.
Because what happened to me inmy past is that the industry was
so contained.
It was in LA.
I filmed there and then I wenthome.
There wasn't any of this digitalfootprint, barely had Instagram.
And now within the last fiveyears, forget it.
(21:00):
You could see everything.
You know what everyone's doingin real time because now people
are showing behind the scenes inreal time.
I look at that.
I'm like, what?
What?
On social media?
Who knows who's watching?
The reason that I was okay withany of it back then was because
(21:23):
it was contained.
I can't walk around walking.
and tell anybody, okay guys, soI stopped physically filming
almost two years ago, so stopwatching now because I'm no
longer a porn star.
Nope, can't do that.
Once it's on the internet, it'sthere for the rest of your life.
(21:46):
And that's exactly what you signup for.
So now with the influx and thehyper-sexualization of porn,
girls that aren't evenconsidering taking any other
avenue because it's so easy.
(22:06):
It's at their fingertips.
They can just film at home.
But when I was in the industry,I had to physically get on set.
I physically had a script.
I had to get in hair and makeup.
I had a brand.
I made my brand.
I powerful and strong for areason because I wanted to
(22:32):
represent that side of me oncamera because I already knew I
was going to get judged.
I already knew I was going tohave issues and things like the
consequences that come withbeing in adult entertainment.
And I knew that if I didn't givemyself a mask and it could
(22:56):
potentially swallow me whole.
Swallow me whole, no punintended.
I didn't let it.
I have thick skin, I developedit, and it allowed me to grow
within the industry as best as Icould.
So now in this in-between era,especially during the last year,
(23:16):
before I came on here and cameback, I wanted to make sure that
I felt I wanted to make surethat what I was about to speak
on was from experience, and Ionly could give you this
perspective by getting out ofit.
And I hope that as this developsand my own digital footprint
(23:46):
evolves, I can get intosomeone's head and And give any
advice I can.
And also with you as a listenerwho's probably seen me in the
last 10 years, to understand asan involvement of a female, it
does happen.
A woman will change her mind.
We will evolve.
(24:07):
We will transform.
You will evolve.
You will transform.
And putting someone in a boxjust because of what they've
done is not fair.
But it's society.
I'm ready to be seen in adifferent light, but
(24:28):
understanding that functioningsociety will never forget, will
never let me forget.
There's no set destination rightnow.
Oh, no, no, no.
My ducks are not in a row.
I repeat, my ducks are not in Ina row.
(24:53):
In fact, one of those littlemotherfuckers is at a rave.
Dancing his little ass off.
Not in line with the rest of theducks.
But I can tell you this.
I've been quietly working on somany things which I can't wait
to share.
Let's just say if good girlenergy could be bottled, she'd
(25:19):
be the one to rewrite the rulebook.
But more on that soon.
This is the Dirty BlondePodcast, the Bridget Unfiltered
Era.
And whether you're glowing up,slowing down, or figuring it all
in real time, you are not alone.
It has been so nice to be backon the mic, and I will see you
(25:45):
next episode.
Aw, did you miss me?
Welcome back to the Dirty BlondePodcast.
This is your girl, Bridget P.
And if you're new here, hi, I'myour quietly chaotic, hopefully
emotionally intelligent voice inpodcast form.
(00:24):
And if you've been here before,thanks for waiting.
I needed a moment to or a wholeyear.
This episode is called thein-between era.
The part that no one reallyglamorizes.
The time after the hustle, butbefore the next chapter.
(00:45):
And if you're in it like I am,you're in good company.
Stick around.
So let's start here.
I've spent the last decadeworking.
Building, traveling, not just ina hop on a plane kind of way,
(01:06):
but emotionally as well.
I've changed cities, platforms,partners, and most of all,
perspective.
And if I'm honest, I neverreally stopped to look at life.
I never really stopped to lookat the life I was building
because I was in it.
(01:28):
Head down, grind mode.
Let me tell you something I'venever said publicly.
There was a night about a yearago when I was sitting on the
floor of my old apartment in LosAngeles.
No makeup, no glam, just me, acandle for sure, or two or
(01:49):
three, and Charlotte, mymulti-poo, who's sleeping on my
lap as we speak.
And I'm sure you've met her ifyou've been on my TikTok lives.
I'd finished my last contractand I was walking away from a
relationship that just didn'tsee the woman I was becoming.
And for the first time in over adecade, I didn't know what was
(02:13):
coming next.
And it terrified me.
Because I've spent the last 10plus years building, flying city
to city, managing businesses,doing photo shoots, press,
podcast episodes, platforms.
I wasn't just surviving.
Oh, no, I was trying to succeed.
(02:37):
And I didn't even realize it washappening because I was moving
so fast.
And yeah, you know, I mean, Ilooked good doing it, but
looking good and just feelinggrounded to very different
worlds.
That night on the floor, I hadthis odd realization.
Everything that I've done untilnow wasn't a waste.
(03:02):
It was training me, literallytraining me.
I wasn't falling off.
I was falling into somethingnew.
And this podcast is part of thatfall, part of that rebuild.
And maybe it can be a part ofyours too.
We live in a time whereeveryone's obsessed with the
(03:26):
finish line.
What are you working on?
What's next?
What's the goal?
When are you getting married?
Where's your baby?
What house are you going to getin?
Where?
What?
Who?
What?
What are you doing tomorrow?
What about this part?
The moments when I was in my cardriving down the 405 in two-hour
traffic, getting on set, doingmy job, and then coming home.
I have no regrets.
(03:47):
But at some point, it kind ofhas to end.
Now, don't get me wrong.
People can film until they're 90years old.
Do you?
That's your prerogative.
And I would have been in thatscenario if it wasn't for the
sex.
If it was just normal mainstreamacting, which is where I'm at
now, I could do that.
And I will be doing this untilthe last days because it's what
(04:08):
I do.
I'm an entertainer, but I had tofigure out different ways to
entertain.
Most importantly, you listeningright now has been the source of
my nerves growing.
Are they going to like me?
I have been terrified to shareany more than just tits and ass
because how are you going tojudge me?
(04:29):
Do you even want to hearanything?
Do you even care?
Probably not.
But there is no way that I couldgo on and share more of myself
with you, my listener, withoutsharing this side of me.
And it's ironic because I'vebeen in adult entertainment, yet
I feel that Right now, at thisvery moment, and moving forward,
(04:50):
is the most intimate, raw, andreal that you've ever gotten
from me as a performer.
Because I'm not performing.
We're working our way backwards.
Because there's a whole newgeneration of females that, at
some point, when it's their timeto make that decision, quote
unquote, moving on, that there'ssomeone in their corner that
(05:13):
understands them.
And I can leave...
a legacy of episodes that theycan listen to and know that,
okay, yeah, I can do this.
It'll be hard.
It'll be very hard, but you cando it.
And as most of the demographiccould be male, you guys have
your own fucking set ofproblems.
(05:33):
I couldn't imagine what you haveto go through as a man when the
world tells you that you have toprovide, you have to work hard,
look down, mind your business.
Which is why I always say thatadult entertainment is not
something to be judged eitherfor doing or for enjoying.
(05:54):
Because very much a parasocialrelationship develops between
entertainers and the fan base.
Because it is so intimate.
But then it stops.
So many of these performersthroughout the years and the
golden age of adult, etc.
We don't know where they're at.
This is about...
The first time that I've seen,and it's me doing it, where the
(06:18):
veil can be removed and we canhonor the past.
We can respect the past.
I had a great time, but now wemove on and we can evolve and be
entertained in other ways.
There was a study published inthe Journal of Personality and
Social Psychology that foundpeople who take intentional
(06:38):
rest, rest gaps, meaning spaces,without chasing something,
without goal chasing, actuallyexperience more long-term
success than those who neverstop to take a breath.
Why?
Because rest helps integrate andmeld everything that you've
(07:03):
learned.
It was put to me simply with,you can't weaponize your wisdom
if you never take time tosharpen it.
I was like, that's brilliant.
If you've been grinding nonstop,have you slowed down long enough
to ask, who am I?
Without all the bullshit, thatis where this in-between season
(07:27):
of the dirty blonde is allabout.
Sexy will always have currency,but sometimes sexy is a scam.
And I say that as someone whostudied the market.
from the inside.
And the crazy part, even when Itried to leave it behind, tone
(07:48):
it down, soften up, play itsmall, follows me like that
perfume that maybe your grandmawore during Christmas, that when
she gave you a kiss on thecheek, you got home, took a
shower, it was still on you.
That's how fucking sexinessfollows me.
I've learned how to build anaudience, how to communicate,
how to create, distribute,market emotion.
(08:10):
It's branding.
I have been And so for anyonewho's sitting in their own
little in-between era, maybepost-breakup, post-career, or
just fucking post-burnout,here's what I want you to hear.
You are not behind.
You are just absorbing.
(08:31):
And sometimes the silence iswhat really helps you realize
that you've had it all along.
You've had it.
It's been in you.
And nothing's been scarier.
then that little voice in myhead, are they going to like me?
And yes, I am very well awareand very socially aware that you
(08:53):
can't walk around concernedabout everyone's opinion about
you, especially within theindustry that I come from.
However, during the growth,during the year, past where I've
been deciding and figuringthings out and where I'm at at
the moment and where I know somany other girls are going to be
in, where I know so many otherperformers are and just haven't
(09:17):
had the ability to voice whatthey feel because we've been
trained to not feel.
We've been trained as performersthat all we're good for is for
tits and ass, bend over, andthat is it.
It is prevalent.
It is obvious.
(09:38):
It is always in the forefront ofour lives, of our comments, of
our DMs, where no matter what wedo, no matter what we say,
there's always the underlyingcomments, the underlying tone
of, why are you talking?
Why are you writing a quote?
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God forbid.
God forbid we put a thirst trappicture, which as females, we
like doing that.
Yes, we feel good.
If one more person says that allthese pictures are to validate
and to be validated by men,society, et cetera.
No, we truly just think that welook good and we're posting a
picture.
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At least that's just me.
And I know so many other girlsare because we talk about it all
the time.
And it's just like, you can'tput a picture, a pretty picture,
and then put somethingsignificant as a caption or as a
quote, because God forbid, Godforbid, the comments go off.
They go off.
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And I can't stand not having theability to control my own
narrative on my own Instagram.
It is a common theme everywhere.
for performers to not want toexpress who they really are for
fear of being judged and beingtold once and over and again
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what we are quote unquote goodfor.
Once I stopped caring on whatpeople thought of me in a
different aspect, aka aside fromthe Bridget B personality, the
dominating personality, MILF oncamera, which is completely the
different side of me.
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It's not who I am on a dailybasis.
I'm a lot softer, a lot morefeminine, but I wasn't able to
express that on the adult sidebecause I knew that wasn't my
moneymaker.
I knew that as a character,Bridget B., and if you have gone
through the Dirty Bond podcast,I talk about the evolution and
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the creation of a character,which is feel free to go ahead
and binge listen if you'd like.
It has been such a joy for me tobreathe, take some time and just
be myself, which is where I'm atnow.
And the moments that I've beenentertaining throughout the last
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year, year and a half has reallybeen me just trying to figure
out where I belong until I justrealized that not that long ago,
which is why I'm back, which iswhy the podcast is back, I
wanted to make sure that you asmy listener, you as a potential
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fan, or you as someone who'snever heard of me before, gets
this honest, truthful, and realperspective from my own voice
that is not being kept behind apaywall of adult because this is
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my own platform.
And for that, I am so grateful.
I'm so grateful for theevolution that we are
experiencing in entertainmentwhere we can entertain as I am
right now or on TikTok or doinga YouTube.
The ownership that we possesshas never been witnessed before,
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but it also lends to differentsituations that will come up
because of the influx, the overinflux of hyper-sexualized
females and males because of theaccess available through
OnlyFans, through Instagram,through thirst traps, what have
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you, because it's everything atyour fingertips.
I, as a performer, come from adifferent era of went in, filmed
on set, you went home wasn't atall as prevalent as it is now,
which is great.
I think it's fantastic.
It adds such, when it'srespectful and when it's truly
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enjoyed by a sound mind, I thinkit's great.
It's no one's business howanyone over the age of 21 wants
to be entertained.
But I digress.
I always, it boils my Ovaltine.
when that topic comes up in aconversation.
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But anyhow, I'm like, we don'tlive in a federal dictatorship
in Cuba in 1950s, for fuck'ssake.
Whatever you want to do in theprivacy of your own home, as
long as you're not harminganyone, I could care less.
It's none of my business.
However, you do understand thatyou live in a functioning
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society.
One lives in a functioningsociety filled with all
different ideals, filled withmoral compasses that are extreme
and that are vast and that areso different.
And in order to succeed insociety, you kind of have to
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play by the game of society.
Depending on what side of TikTokyou're on, you're going to get
completely different point ofviews.
The algorithms and the waysocial media has made us so
divided, so divided, is insane.
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And frankly, terrifying.
Because going back to how I'vementioned, and I've said it so
many times on this podcastbefore, Thank you so much.
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much like it's there in anyindustry.
However, I've been veryfortunate and I've been very
lucky and I've been verygrateful for my complete career
path that has evolved andcontinues to evolve.
And that's not just because ofme, but it's because of you.
When I decided that it was timeto evolve, it was when I noticed
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that the camaraderie, the, um,The culture was just changing
and that's what happens.
It just happens.
And I needed to make a decision.
What did I want to do?
What do I want to do?
So taking this time off of thepodcast and just sort of really
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honing in on how I feel wasbecause I wanted to come in with
honesty and truthfulness,especially because I The
dynamics that are about tochange within the next couple of
years is so vast between maleand female because as Pearl, a
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podcaster, has mentioned not toolong ago, just a couple of days
ago, 1.6, 1.7 million people arein on OnlyFans.
And I was like, wow, that's alot.
And I get it.
It's ownership.
It's ownership.
just a different form ofentertainment.
And it pisses me off and itmakes me so annoyed that still
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you can't make everyone happy.
I have been the first one tovouch and say on the top of my
lungs, sex, adult industrybelongs behind a paywall.
For the most part in afunctioning society, it should
be common knowledge that if your13, 14, even 15 year old is
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getting a hold of images, etcetera.
Either you talk to them about itor don't let them have the
access.
So with that said, this platformgets built.
It's a paywall.
You have to be verified.
All the things, all the jazz,great, perfect as it should be.
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And yet people are stillpressed.
People are still angry.
Why?
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I don't know.
I don't know.
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And the new way of kind of jabbing someone is
saying, well, at least I'm noton OnlyFans.
As if that's an insult.
But I come with baggage.
I have a 10-plus career.
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Of course I'm going to haveownership.
of my own content.
And it's allowed me to evolve.
It's allowed me to take a stepback because once I stopped
filming on camera, why was Igoing to go cold turkey?
It would make absolutely nosense.
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I'm not Mother Teresa.
I am not of the cloth.
I am God-fearing, but I'm notpreaching.
to anyone.
I'm the last person that canpreach.
It's a wrap for me.
I've done it.
And taking ownership of my owncontent has been absolutely
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lovely because I already havedecade worth of google.com.
I will never be able to escapeit.
So when people tell me now, whatadvice do I have?
for the younger generation ofwomen in the industry.
I go, there is no industry.
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It's the wild, wild west.
Your local pharmacist could beon OF because that's considered
the new adult industry, the newporn.
And the dynamics is going tochange in the grow out of it and
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everyone has access to it.
Because what happened to me inmy past is that the industry was
so contained.
It was in LA.
I filmed there and then I wenthome.
There wasn't any of this digitalfootprint, barely had Instagram.
And now within the last fiveyears, forget it.
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You could see everything.
You know what everyone's doingin real time because now people
are showing behind the scenes inreal time.
I look at that.
I'm like, what?
What?
On social media?
Who knows who's watching?
The reason that I was okay withany of it back then was because
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it was contained.
I can't walk around walking.
and tell anybody, okay guys, soI stopped physically filming
almost two years ago, so stopwatching now because I'm no
longer a porn star.
Nope, can't do that.
Once it's on the internet, it'sthere for the rest of your life.
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And that's exactly what you signup for.
So now with the influx and thehyper-sexualization of porn,
girls that aren't evenconsidering taking any other
avenue because it's so easy.
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It's at their fingertips.
They can just film at home.
But when I was in the industry,I had to physically get on set.
I physically had a script.
I had to get in hair and makeup.
I had a brand.
I made my brand.
I powerful and strong for areason because I wanted to
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represent that side of me oncamera because I already knew I
was going to get judged.
I already knew I was going tohave issues and things like the
consequences that come withbeing in adult entertainment.
And I knew that if I didn't givemyself a mask and it could
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potentially swallow me whole.
Swallow me whole, no punintended.
I didn't let it.
I have thick skin, I developedit, and it allowed me to grow
within the industry as best as Icould.
So now in this in-between era,especially during the last year,
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before I came on here and cameback, I wanted to make sure that
I felt I wanted to make surethat what I was about to speak
on was from experience, and Ionly could give you this
perspective by getting out ofit.
And I hope that as this developsand my own digital footprint
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evolves, I can get intosomeone's head and And give any
advice I can.
And also with you as a listenerwho's probably seen me in the
last 10 years, to understand asan involvement of a female, it
does happen.
A woman will change her mind.
We will evolve.
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We will transform.
You will evolve.
You will transform.
And putting someone in a boxjust because of what they've
done is not fair.
But it's society.
I'm ready to be seen in adifferent light, but
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understanding that functioningsociety will never forget, will
never let me forget.
There's no set destination rightnow.
Oh, no, no, no.
My ducks are not in a row.
I repeat, my ducks are not in Ina row.
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In fact, one of those littlemotherfuckers is at a rave.
Dancing his little ass off.
Not in line with the rest of theducks.
But I can tell you this.
I've been quietly working on somany things which I can't wait
to share.
Let's just say if good girlenergy could be bottled, she'd
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be the one to rewrite the rulebook.
But more on that soon.
This is the Dirty BlondePodcast, the Bridget Unfiltered
Era.
And whether you're glowing up,slowing down, or figuring it all
in real time, you are not alone.
It has been so nice to be backon the mic, and I will see you
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next episode.
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