Episode Transcript
Available transcripts are automatically generated. Complete accuracy is not guaranteed.
Speaker 1 (00:01):
Good evening, good
evening.
Well, the 10-week party is over, it's 9 o'clock and I'm zipping
home.
We went from 7 to 9.
I got there at 6 to set up andmake everything look pretty.
It was a good event, definitelynot the ideal event.
We kind of shared the room alittle bit with other patrons,
but it worked out well.
(00:21):
It was a little bit sad.
High energy, high engagement,really great audience.
And it's weird, in the back ofyour brain you realize there's
only so many more of these leftIn your head.
You're like these are going togo on forever.
(00:41):
These days are going to lastalways.
And sometimes, when you're likethese are going to go on
forever, these days are going tolast always.
And sometimes, like when you'refeeling depressed and sad and
down and like defeated and youcan't get things can't get
better, like these days willnever end, like when is this
going to end?
But then, like when it's a goodday and like you're having fun,
you're meeting with people, youhave the same thought of, like
these days, these days like willnever end, and us humans forget
(01:06):
that things end and that's suchan in the moment.
That's a novel concept and itwas just really surprising to
realize like all theserelationships, all these
friendships, all thesehappenings, like they're all,
they serve a purpose and areason.
I'm just feeling kind ofsentimental about it, so I
(01:26):
didn't realize it, but likepulling up to the event no, it
was it.
No, it's at like a thing oflike an adult chuck E Cheese I
don't know what to call it, I'mnot gonna name drop it, but
think of it like there's arcadesand food and like pub tavern
vibes and just a fun place forfamilies to hang out.
And I didn't realize this.
(01:48):
But across the street was thesame Jimmy John's I went to 15
years ago.
I worked at a car dealership inhigh school, or in high school,
In college, and I worked fulltime.
I went to school full time andit was a grueling couple years
and I was saving up every dollarI could, making $10 an hour at
(02:09):
a car dealership.
And I just remember thinkinglike having broke poverty
mindsets and like, yeah, you'rein college.
I went to community college.
I did whatever I could to likescript together $167 a month to
pay my parents for the car thatI bought from them.
Um, saving up money for anengagement ring, trying to
(02:32):
figure out how I'm going topropose to my wife and how we're
going to get married and stillbe in college and afford at the
time a $3,000 a month homebudget.
That was our home budget, likefor everything, and it was all
the money.
I could not make that much.
I didn't have a way to figurethat, make that much money.
I didn't know how to do it Likeit just wasn't possible.
I was making 10 bucks an hour.
(02:54):
10 bucks an hour for a year is$20,000 a year.
That's not enough to afford anewlywed Um.
And so I remember like I got it,like I couldn't skip meals
because I was just skin andbones and so I would go to a
nearby Jimmy John's.
I found out they had day oldbread for 50 cents a loaf.
I found out when they openedand I would go when they opened
(03:17):
and for my lunch break I wouldorder two, maybe three day old
breads because I had to like buymy own groceries.
It was just rough um, at leastmy.
I remember having to do that um, like if I can eat for a dollar
a day, like I'm good because Iget my parents food at home, if
I forgot to make a lunch, I caneat for free at home.
(03:38):
But then I just thinking likehow am I gonna get through this?
I can't even spend like adollar, dollar fifty, without
feeling guilty.
And so tonight was across thestreet from that.
And so I'm going to a part oftown I never drive by and then
across the street I'm like, allright, I just want to like not
pay respects, pay homage, but Iget closure for that.
(03:58):
And Jimmy John's is gone, thelocation's gone.
Like I walked up the spaces forlease, the place John's is gone
, the location's gone.
Like I walked up the spaces forleaves.
The place is completely gutted.
You can't like all you see issome tiling in the background
and like a few like wall spigotsfor where, like the water and
the gas lines are.
There's just nothing.
It's just gone.
And those days are gone and Ican't get them back.
(04:21):
And that just really hit me Umand so just like a phase of life
, like if the memory wasn't soclear I would wonder if it
actually happened.
And that was a solid year of mylife doing that for the car
dealership.
I had other jobs in college,but just it was weird to get
(04:44):
that closure and to see thatit's gone and to feel at peace
with that.
It was just it was too parallelto too many other things going
on and so had a good party,tipped our waitresses out the
max tip on the three buttonsthat they could do.
Um, had a chance to like minglewith the members just slightly.
Um, I'm learning I'm besteither on an audience in front
(05:08):
of people, or one-on-one withpeople, and like in a semi
private, in a semi group settingof like 30, 40, 50 people.
I I just don't know how torelate to that crowd.
The exact same way.
I still have good stagepresence.
I know how to deliver, I knowhow to entertain, but like I'm
(05:31):
either an audience person orlike a one-on-one person.
As of today, I want to sharpenthat skill.
But going home, voice is shotfrom shouting and, yeah, I'm
just going to enjoy today.
It's not a given that my wife isgoing to be alive for 50 years.
It's not going to be a giventhat I'm going to be in a
financial feeling, financiallypinched, for 50 years.
It's not a given that my kidsare going to be five years old
(05:52):
for 50 years.
Like it's not a given that bothmy parents are alive for 50
years.
Like it's not a given I can,can even make this podcast for
50 years.
People assume the present isforever and it inherently is not
, and so that's why when peopledie in a car crash or they
(06:19):
overdose on alcohol or like Idon't know what to say, because
it's going to be insensitive tosomeone who's lost someone, so
I'm just going to stop Peoplethink the present is forever and
that's why people forget to begrateful about the present,
because they think it's going toalways be this way and that's
not true.
The truth is, the present isjust the way it's supposed to be
.
People will come and go, peoplewill be born, people will die,
(06:42):
people, things upgrade, theydowngrade, they get rusty, they.
The only thing that's, the onlything that's constant is change
.
So when you're in the moment andyou're with people and you're
doing something you enjoy, youneed to like be grateful for
that snapshot, because it's asnapshot worth, worth preserving
(07:05):
and framing, and we got a greatgroup photo of that.
So I'm feeling extrasentimental because I'm seeing
how the studio is not going tobe around for another three
months, and so today's extraspecial and sentimental, and
heck if jim, jimmy John's canclose and leave.
(07:25):
Not everything is forever.
So, yeah, that's where we're at, that's where we're going.
Let's rock and roll.