CYG - Episode 2 Panic Mode

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Episode Transcript

Joei (00:00):
Welcome to Call Your Grits podcast.
I'm your host joei Allen.
I'm just your average stay athome mom, homeschool mom and
wifey Who loves all thingssparkly and anything DIY from
party planning to interiordesign, Basically just a crazy
Pinterest Mom.
Oh, and I've also recently,Jumped into the pageant life

(00:21):
because why not I'm a selfproclaimed expert at nothing
other than hanging on by athread.
I am living my best life, duringwhat I can only describe as my
midlife crisis.
This podcast is about nothingand everything.
So whether you're here becauseyou can relate or for some comic
relief, my hope is that you'llwalk away learning something new

(00:44):
or at least feel a little lessweird about the voices in your
head and the decisions you'vemade in your life Welcome back
to calm your grits podcast.
I'm Joei Allen your host I thinkthis is episode.
I have no clue.
I've lost track.
I'm at the point where I've justbeen overthinking, I'm on
information overload I hitrecord and figured I would just

(01:07):
rant and see if I can make anepisode out of this.
So we'll see.
why rant?
Because I just finished editinganother episode.
So, the first episode, whichI've recorded three times.
I decided to, uh, Start apodcast, kind of like on a whim,

(01:31):
but then I, my, my dumb assstarted telling people, Oh, I'm
going to do a podcast, do apodcast because I felt like I
had enough information and thatit wasn't going to take that
long and whatever.
Anyone can do it, anyone can doit, I'm sure, but it's been kind
of a pain in the butt.
It's been, it's been challengingto, to say the least.

(01:52):
but I also feel like me sharingthat is kind of the whole point,
behind the essence of thispodcast.
Like I said, during episode one.
I have no clue why I'm doingthis, other than the fact that I
feel called.
I want to work on some things.

(02:12):
I shared...
I'm pretty sure I can't, I can'teven remember what I kept for
episode one and what I editedout.
Okay, so I'm just going to bereal.
This is what I've learnt so far.
I say, um.
Like, you know, so I did it, butthey're the, all these things
that I didn't even realize I wasdoing, but you realize when

(02:35):
you're editing, I'm like,really, like how many times can
I possibly say you know, so Idid it.
So here we are.
I don't know.
Apparently a lot, but I guessthat's good.
Oh, I also say, I guess a lot incase you didn't catch on to that
yet.
From when I decided to do thepodcast, there's so much
information out there.

(02:56):
So much.
But at the same time, there's noperfect formula or step by step
way to do it.
One of the things that I, I lovedoing that I think the reason
why I love doing is because I'mADHD, ADD.
I don't know what we're callingit these days but some ADD and

(03:17):
part of, and let me back up.
So I figured out I'm ADHD.
ADD when I was young in Ecuador,third world country, many moons
ago where ADD wasn't a thing.
Now there are so many resourcesfor ADHD, ADD, like everyone
knows everything about it.

(03:37):
But when I was told that I hadADD or whatever, it was more of
a, you're not, you never finishwhat you start why can't you
concentrate?
Why can't you do this?
and so I think one of my copingmechanisms and ways that I dealt

(03:58):
with it because it wasembarrassing to not be able to
just finish a task or I don'tknow There were many things that
were embarrassing, you know I'dget really excited about
starting something and thenhalfway through it just felt so
overwhelming that I would quit.
I would stop, but I didn't knowwhy.
Anyway, all that to say isthanks to that, I've gotten

(04:22):
really good at being organized,at dissecting things.
I guess now the term is hyperfocus basically that means I'm
trying to figure something outand nothing else matters until I
figure that out.
Because I love being able tolearn things, and then dumb it

(04:43):
down and break it down for thenext person.
I don't want other people tofeel like that.
Especially when I've put hoursand hours to figuring stuff out,
I really like making it easy.
I'm a checklist girl.
That's basically where my careerbecame good was I started a new
job and I was like, I had noidea what I was doing.

(05:04):
Knowing myself and always secondguessing myself.
I know that if I don't checkstuff off, I will sit there and
Did I do that?
Did I do that?
So as I was learning, I wasmaking checklists because, Oh my
God, if I would get some kind ofquality control, something, I

(05:25):
would be so mad at myself.
That's when I would say I waslike, yeah, I'm ADHD, but I
don't necessarily know thatthat's a bad thing.
Like, does God really makemistakes?
I mean, I don't think so.
I just think my brain worksdifferently and I don't think
that's necessarily a bad thing.
I don't know maybe for whatevernormal is.

(05:45):
I guess I'm not normal and Ithink that's okay.
I probably won't even post thisepisode, but whatever.
I was, I had a point.
Okay.
So once I decided to do thispodcast, I went into research
mode and it's fascinating.
There's so many different partsof it.

(06:05):
It's not just turning on acamera.
Sitting down and talking mygosh, probably already lost
everyone.
Oh Okay, so like you and rightnow I'm like, it's not perfect
if it's not perfect I'm notgoing to do it, we'll see if I
do it, as I was researching me,I love researching.

(06:26):
I felt like that word was allover the place during episode
one.
Who cares?
As I was researching, Irealized, there were so many
different pieces to the puzzleof just starting a podcast.
Take that back.
So there are, I think on YouTubeor whatever, you can literally
just hit record, use your webcamand start a podcast.

(06:51):
But me being the overthinker,perfectionist, perfectionist.
That I am, or I've been told Iam, I'm overachiever.
I wanted to make sure that I didit right.
So I wanted to make sure I hadthe right camera for good
quality.
By the way, do not go with thecheap one.

(07:14):
thing from Amazon.
It sucks.
I've re recorded, I think threeepisodes now.
The camera I'm using now is aLogitech 4K Pro X webcam.
It's better than my webcam on mylaptop, the other one was doing

(07:35):
this crazy thing where as I wasrecording, he would just, it
would just like focus andrefocus and refocus.
So even if I got to the pointwhere I could say a sentence
without, um, blah, blah, blah,it would still be super
distracting because the camerawas doing this.
Okay.
So camera, I guess I finally gotthat.
Then there's the whole softwarething.

(07:56):
As of right now.
I'm using Descript so I likedthe Descript because once I'm
done recording, it'll upload andgive me like word by word,
everything I said.
And it ties to the camera, solike, if I say, like, like,
like, and then I in the text, Ijust select like, like, like,

(08:18):
and hit delete.
It also deletes it out of thevideo.
So for someone that has zeroknowledge or background with
editing any kind of anything,that was one that seemed
easiest.
Plus after about a thousandvideos that I watched that's
what most people said was thebest one for beginners and dumb

(08:43):
moms, whatever.
That's the editing after yourecord.
So then recording the episode, alot of people use their iPhones
because apparently the camera isgreat.
I personally could not figureout how to do that without it

(09:03):
taking up my entire memory in myphone and then the quality was
not great.
So I wanted a software that Icould just hit record and then
it stored it in the cloud,whatever the cloud is.
It's not, all I know is it's noton my computer, so it's not
making my computer super slowand it's not on my phone.
So.
I went with squad cast, which Ijust figured out that it wasn't

(09:28):
part of the Descript.
I started looking at like howlong ago these videos were
recorded because I was getting,I was finding a lot of
information would contradictitself.
I realized that I was watchingold videos but finally got it
together I get it now.
So to record it's going to betwofold.

(09:48):
One is squad cast, that is nowpart of the Descript.
So I went ahead and signed upfor a year, um, subscription.
Yeah, a year plan so I was like,okay, might as well use
Squadcast.
But then I didn't realize thatit could not record two videos

(10:09):
and two microphones at the sametime.
I prefer to do interviews, onthis nice couch and I actually,
I did a whole interview with myfriend Vickie and it never
recorded and I'm so mad becausewhen we were done with that
interview, we both felt likethat was good.
We're like, man, we should starta podcast together, but it

(10:29):
didn't record.
So that sent me down anotherrabbit hole of trying to figure
out like, okay, so how do peoplerecord with someone in the same
room?
How do I control my microphoneand me talking and yelling?
I really don't know What thetechnical terms are so I'm going
to use squad cast since Ialready paid for it for remote
interviews, you create a sessionand you share the link just like

(10:53):
you would with zoom.
I haven't tested it out yet.
My sister Shana recently starteda podcast.
She's published several episodesnow, but that's great because I
can call my sister and be like,what is happening anyway?
So we're going to jump on aninterview.
So back to the software torecord, I'm using Squadcast for

(11:16):
solo and remote interviews.
And then I landed on RiversideFM apparently that's the best
software for in personinterviews that gives you all
these different tracks, is thatwhat they're called?
So that way you can separatethem out and fix the"gain" I had

(11:41):
no idea what gain is.
I still don't know that I fullyunderstand what it is as of
right now.
But anyway, I'm going to useRiverside.
But the pricing for Riversideit's limited to five hours.
As of right now, if I actuallydo this, and actually post, I'm
going to most likely useRiverside for in person

(12:03):
interviews, I don't even knowthat I'm going to do in person
interviews until I launch thepodcast because right now as I'm
recording this, I'm ready toquit.
I'm ready to back out of this.
Like, okay, it was cool.
I learned a couple things.
Let me pack everything up andsend it back to Amazon.
We'll see.

(12:24):
I don't know, maybe I'll feelbetter after this rant, oh, the
microphone don't even get likeright now I got so excited with
this microphone and it's gotthis nice little arm thing, but
I don't like how you can see, Ifeel like that says Moana and I
did end up just going the cheaproute through Amazon.
And just finding a microphone, Iwant to say it was like 50 bucks

(12:45):
When I first recorded my firstfew episodes.
First takes of my first episodesthe volume was pretty low, but I
think I've figured that outthere's a button here.
I read the manual and I I don'tknow.
We'll see as of right now.
This is what I'm usingheadphones I have I've tried a

(13:09):
bunch I have so these And I havea white pair again,, I went the
cheaper out with this I feellike part of me was like, are
you even going to do this?
Why are you going to spend allthis money on all this equipment
and then quit or not even get tothe point where you actually
launch it and post it.
But anyway, so, but the thing Idon't like about these is I

(13:31):
look, it looks, it looks stupid.
I feel like, or maybe, maybeI'll get over that.
Who knows?
But I feel like I'm like, Hey,Mr.
DJ, like.
I don't know.
I don't like them.
So I went with these.
So if I do my hair, then you cansee it.
But then the first episode, thethird take.

(13:55):
I was looking at it and my hairis all crazy.
I'm my biggest critic.
I man rant over, no, I'm notgoing to rant not over lighting.
I did have pretty decentlighting already I had a ring
light and based on like shadowsand stuff like that.
I'll probably end up gettinglike a soft light, but I felt

(14:17):
like, okay, this was enough fornow, then the backdrop, There's
only so much I can research andwaste my time with, without even
knowing if this is going tostick, and I mean that in the
sense of if I'm going to keepdoing this, or if I'm, first of

(14:39):
all, if I'm actually going toget to the point where I launch
it, which I think what I'm goingto use for that is I'm going to
do YouTube podcast and then I'mgoing to use Buzzsprout.
I haven't gotten to the point ofuploading that so I really can't
give much feedback other thanwhen I was watching videos on
how to do it.
It seemed like Easy ish one.

(15:01):
I'll let you know.
I'll do a follow up, maybe, if Ipost this episode, that probably
means I've at least jumped inand actually created the
podcast, not just sat here andrecorded it myself talking and
cringing over, over everything.
But I will do a follow up tothis if that day ever comes.
What else?
I feel like there's more.
So the camera and the quality,everything's like 4k, 4k.

(15:26):
But then when I actually went totry to record 4k, it didn't
work.
It doesn't let me do it.
So I still need to figure out alittle bit more about that.
And then another thing that Ireally struggle with is I know I
can edit out sentences.
It takes forever to type outwhat I'm going to say.

(15:49):
And then I feel like it's dumbbecause I'm sitting there trying
to read it and say it, read itand say it.
So I feel like there should besome kind of happy medium where
I can just put bullet points andnot lose track of the session or
what I'm, or what I'm trying tosay.
Because it gets to the pointwhere I've, I've written it.
I've thought about it.
I've said it like 10 times and Idon't even remember, If I

(16:13):
already said that if I'mrepeating myself and yes, I can
go in and I can edit out asentence or like 10 sentences,
but then I struggle with, I likethis part and I like this part,
but now they don't make sensesaying this right after I
deleted out a whole squirrelJoei rant where I went off on

(16:35):
something because it seemedrelevant.
I had the topics I was going totalk about down before I even
fell down rabbit holes offiguring out like how to
actually record and all of that.
But I feel like because I've hadthem down for so long now I'm
second guessing them and I'mjust like, is that even a topic

(16:57):
that people want to hear about?
So, have I ranted about enoughthings?
I think I have.
So that concludes this rant.
This episode And that's a wrapas always.
I would love it if you wouldsubscribe and follow me on all
the social media thingies.
Thanks again for listening toanother episode of Calm Your
Grits podcast until next time.

(17:19):
Bye.