Chapter Blue

The truth most of us only whisper: the job can break your body before it breaks your badge. From Coast Guard beginnings to SWAT and command, Bill McAuliffe walks us through toxic leadership, a federal civil rights fight, and the day a doctor said returning to work might end his life. What follows isn’t a simple solution, but it’s the blueprint for resilience that more departments need to teach and more officers deserve to practice....

A smooth DM from “Johnny” can feel like harmless attention until the mask slips. Former special agent Chris Duff joins us to unpack how grooming actually works in the apps and games kids use every day, what law enforcement ran into during the early internet years, and how a shift from arrests to education can protect families. Chris helped stand up one of the first high‑tech crime units and later drafted online solicitation laws. N...

Trevor Williams takes us inside the moments that reshaped his life and explains how surviving Haiti’s 2010 earthquake set the course for his career as a Los Angeles County firefighter and entrepreneur. 

We walk through the quake in vivid detail: blocked roads, aftershocks, food distribution that turned dangerous, helicopter drops, and the raw urgency of a field hospital where he learned procedures on the fly under the watch of exhau...

A lot can change in seven months. We’re back without theme music and a some thoughts behind my message. I share why I paused the show, what I’ve learned about mindset and accountability, and how intuition and a belief system can be of importance to anyone.

I talk about the lawsuit that stemmed from the night a loud party became a mass-casualty scene and what it felt like to be first on scene. Making those decisions in real...

Tyra Valeriano opens a new chapter for the podcast by welcoming her first non-law enforcement, but first responder guest, paramedic Stacee. Though they once worked alongside each other without forming a connection, they've since developed a friendship that bridges the gap between their first responder roles.

Stacey reveals the subtle psychological shifts that happen to EMS professionals after just a few years on the j...

Tom Smith's 30-year career with the NYPD reads like a roadmap through the evolution of modern American policing. From his early years patrolling the streets during New York's high-crime era through his extensive work in plainclothes units, narcotics, and gang divisions, Tom offers listeners extraordinary insights into the realities of law enforcement.

Following 9/11, Smith's career took a dramatic turn when ...

Ever wondered what happens when traditional mental health approaches fail our first responders? In this groundbreaking episode, I speak with Rob Poynter, a retired deputy sheriff, who took an unconventional path to healing the wounds left by his law enforcement career.

Rob's story begins with his upbringing as the son of a homicide detective who was an active father but struggled with alcoholism. He decided to follow ...

What happens when the badge comes off? In this powerful conversation, former NYPD officer Vincent Scotto takes us behind the blue wall of silence to reveal the deeply human struggles of life in law enforcement. After serving 20 years with the NYPD and being retired for 13 years, Scotto brings rare perspective on how police work fundamentally transforms those who wear the uniform.

"People who join law enforcement go in...

What happens when a law enforcement officer confronts the demons of addiction and infidelity, and emerges with a mission to transform mental health support within the force? Listen to the compelling story of Alan Hendrickson, who, alongside his wife Amy, turned personal adversity into a pillar of hope for law enforcement officers struggling with mental health challenges and addiction. Alan and Amy open up about their personal journ...

Law enforcement officers face unique challenges that impact their financial and mental well-being. Willie Bermudez, a seasoned officer, shares his journey from personal debt to advocating financial literacy for first responders, emphasizing the importance of overall wellness in policing. 

• Willie's early life and entry into law enforcement 
• The struggles of financial literacy among officers 
• Transitioning...

Imagine transitioning from a high pressure law enforcement career to civilian life and carrying with you the emotional toll and mental challenges that come with wearing the badge. In this episode of Chapter Blue, seasoned officer Nathan Clark shares his journey through 23 years of policing in Arizona, offering a rare glimpse into the diverse agencies he served, including the ASU Police Department and a reservation police agency. Na...

What happens when a dedicated SWAT member decides to shift gears and focus on personal wellness and family? Join me for a interesting conversation with David Smith, a seasoned police officer from Virginia, who takes us through his personal transformation from high-stakes law enforcement to prioritizing self-development and holistic wellness. With 13 years of service under his belt, including seven years on the SWAT team, David shar...

Charles Heasley, a former Texas law enforcement officer, stands as a testament to resilience and transformation in the face of adversity. Grappling with toxic leadership and mental health challenges during his time on the force, Charles' journey is both harrowing and inspiring. We talk about his unexpected exit from law enforcement, and how internal job stressors led him to a critical point, contemplating suicide. Yet, with un...

Doug White shares his profound journey from law enforcement to retirement, discussing the struggles of identity and mental health that follow a career behind the badge. By confronting his past, he talks about the importance of vulnerability, honesty, and seeking help, ultimately encouraging others to embrace their healing journeys.

• Doug's introduction as a veteran officer with a rich career 
• The challenges fac...

This episode discusses the intersection of law enforcement and mental health, offering insights from former prosecutor Cody Robinette about the unique challenges officers face. Listeners will gain practical advice on navigating legal situations while prioritizing mental wellness. 

• Understanding the pressures of litigation faced by officers 
• Common mistakes officers make in court and how to avoid them 
• The imp...

Carrie Matthews, a seasoned officer with 20 years in the Chicago Police Department, opens up about her life on the force. Growing up in a family rooted deeply in law enforcement, Carrie shares her unique perspective on the challenges that come with parenting as a police officer and growing up with a parent on the force. Her discussion about the importance of a support system beyond the uniform provides invaluable insights into main...

Understanding the unseen struggles of police officers, such as fitness and mental health challenges, is essential for improving officer wellbeing. Anthony shares essential insights on realistic expectations, the impact of stress, and the necessity for proactive health measures within law enforcement. Anthony comes with a Master's Degree in Psychology, 18 years of law enforcement experiences, and a long history of fitness to in...

In this deeply personal solo bonus episode of Chapter Blue, your host, Tyra Valeriano, shares her story for the first time. From the challenges of balancing motherhood and a law enforcement career to the emotional weight of tough decisions, Tyra talks about how her experiences shaped her journey in and out of law enforcement.

Listen as she discusses her struggles of work-life balance, the impact of trauma, and the lessons learned ab...

Join us as Tyra Valeriano sits down with Jeff Kunze, a dedicated volunteer police chaplain from Kansas City, to explore how he's reshaping mental health support in law enforcement. Jeff shares his incredible journey, from being a pastor to becoming a trusted ally for officers, offering a safe space where they can open up without fear of judgment. Together, they discuss how the stigma surrounding mental health is gradually chan...