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Scripture has provided a resounding "NO!" in answer to the questions of whether we are unloved or unwanted (see parts 2 & 3 of this series). But what about the question of whether we are worthy? Deserving blessing? When feelings of unworthiness express themselves to the extreme, we can become self-abusive, prone to self-medicating our pain or succumb to addictions. We need to recognize what the Word of God says about our "worth." In this episode, Lisa opens the scriptures and shares the cure for insomnia that's caused by a painful lie. And you might be surprised by the road she takes you down today. 

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so

SPEAKER_00 (00:15):
Welcome to the Chronicles of Christian Drama
Queen podcast.
I'm your host and the originalChristian Drama Queen, Lisa
Schaefer, and I'm glad that youare here.
I can promise you that I knowwhat it's like to think like a
lover of Jesus, but live like ahot mess every day.
And if you can relate, you're inthe right place.
Everything from the craziness ofhomeschooling my kids for 25
years to overcoming deep woundsof abandonment and abuse.

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Stay with me, sister.
I've walked down all of thosepaths, and I've got decades of
healing and hope that God'scalled me to share with you
today.
So here we go.

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Thank you.

SPEAKER_00 (00:55):
Here we go.
Indeed.
So glad you guys are with metoday.
So a couple of things I want totake care of before we get
started today.
First of all, you need to go tomy website if you want to find
out more about me.
Listen to some older podcasts.
Maybe you want to read my blog.
It is ChristianDramaQueen.com.
Also want to let you know thatthe Bible studies that I use on
the broadcasts and I shareinformation from those are

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available on Amazon.
There are two of them,Discarded, A Daughter's Journey
to Reclaim Freedom and Forgivethe Father Who Left Her Behind,
and The Christian Victim's Guideto Forgiving the Unforgivable.
Those are both available onAmazon.
Just send me an email.
Lisa at ChristianDramaQueen.com.
You can order those from me andI will spiral bind them for you
so they're easier to use.
As an old homeschool mom, welove our spiral bound books.

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That's just the way it goes.
So for the last few months, wehave been talking about the
things that keep us up at night.
I've been going through certainemotions and thoughts that in
the past have created someself-worth issues for me, maybe
created just some lies in mymind about who I am or what I am
and how God thinks of me.
So we looked at it Being unlovedand feeling unloved, and we've

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looked at being unwanted.
And today I'm going to talk toyou about this term, unwanted.
Now, I want to warn you before Iget started of a couple of
things, and I tell people thisface-to-face when we talk.
We need to guard against falsehumility.
Christians have a tendency tosay, oh, I am not worthy.
But deep down, especiallybecause we live in a society

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that's constantly telling us,oh, you're worth a lot, we have
a tendency to really notpractice that humility or not
really deep down believe that weare humble.
And I know that we've been toldin Scripture not to think more
humbly.
of ourselves than we ought, butsometimes we do.
And so I want to give you alittle bit of a warning.

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Let's guard against falsehumility today.
Let's be very, very real, okay?
I want you to be extremelyhonest to the best of your
ability about the things thatwe're going to talk about today.
What is it that makes you worthyin the sight of God?
Do you commonly compare yourlife to the lives of others?
I mean, how many of us have donethat and go, well, like the guy

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that prays in the temple next tothe sinner who's brokenhearted,
and he's like, well, thank you,Lord, that I am not like this
horrible sinner next to me,right?
We've all done that.
I think we've all done that.
I want you to think about a timewhen you've limited your own
future or limited yourdecision-making because you
thought you didn't deservebetter, or maybe you thought you

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did deserve better.
better, and you limited thedecision or the choices that you
made.
Have you ever lied orexaggerated in order to appear
more important or to garner moreattention?
I know I have.
In fact, I know for a fact, andI discussed this in the studies,
I know for a fact that I wantedto be the bigger victim in the
room.
No matter what setting I was in,you know, sleepovers with my

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friends, and we would tellstories, deep dark secrets, I
always had to be the biggervictim.
I always had to be the one, thebigger drama queen of the bunch.
I know I've done that, and Iknow a lot of other people have
done that as well, because wedon't just want to be victims.
Sometimes we want to make surethat we're getting all the
attention we possibly canbecause of our victimization.
Now, we have talked about beingunloved and unwanted so far in

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this series.
Scripture has really provided aresounding, no, you are not
unloved.
You are not unwanted.
When we ask ourselves, are wereally loved?
Are we really wanted?
Yes, absolutely.
But there is a differencebetween feeling unworthy and
truly being unworthy.
Worthy, the word worthy, meanshaving or showing the qualities

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or abilities that meritrecognition in some specific
way, deserving effort orattention or respect, good
enough or suitable.
Let's be honest, when we feelunworthy to the extreme, it
becomes self-loathing, and Iknow that.
It can also become self-abuse,things like cutting or or other
addictive behaviors to try andnumb the pain, right?

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But when we recognize that wehave been blessed even though we
are unworthy, that's grace.
That is undeserved favor.
So I want you to go to Luke 15.
Verses 11 through 24.
Now, this is the story of theprodigal son.
And we're going to whip throughthis, but I want you to read it.

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I want you to take a look at it.
There's a lot in here, guys.
This story.
Now, first of all, I want you tounderstand this is a parable.
So it's not that I know for afact this story really happened
to someone.
I can certainly give you modernday examples of how this has
happened to someone.
But the story, God gives us thisstory for a reason.
To understand the depths of hisability and desire to forgive

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and restore and redeem.
a life of lost unworthiness.
So in Luke chapter 15, what wasthe younger son asking for in
verse 12?
He was asking for something heprobably thought he deserved.
Like, you know, I'm your son, soI deserve my inheritance.
So I would like for you to giveit to me now.

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And oddly enough, in that sameverse, the father says, okay,
we'll divvy that up.
I'll go ahead and give you whatyou think you deserve.
I don't know that I would dothat.
There's this favor that thisfather gives.
And at what point did the sondecide, hey, I really need to go
back home?
Well, first of all, it's whenhe's eating crud in the pit.

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He was tempted to eat crud withthe pigs.
So he decides at that point, youknow what?
I know I'm not worthy.
I know I don't deserve to betreated like a son anymore, but
I want to go back.
and tell my father, look, I'llbe happy to be a servant.
Treat me as a servant that atleast then I'm home.
I'm where I can be fed.
Anything's better.
You treated servants better thanI'm treating myself is basically

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what he's saying to his father.
Now, how did the father respondwhen the son finally decides to
go home?
Well, first of all, in verse 19or 20, we're looking at verses
19 and 20 now.
The father is obviously lookingfor the son to return.
He sees him from far off.
So what that means is the fatherwas waiting for the son to

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return.
He was looking.
He saw him from far off.
And when he sees him, the sonstarts in, okay, I need to tell
you something.
Don't treat me like your son.
I don't deserve that.
I need to be treated like aservant.
And the father just respondswith love and generosity and
mercy and grace.
Does the father ever tell theson that, he deserves this big

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welcoming party.
Because he says, hey, we'regoing to break out the rope.
We're going to put on the ring.
We're going to have a big party.
We're going to kill the fattedcalf.
We're going to have a good time.
My son was dead and now he'salive.
He was lost and now he's found.
We're going to have a party.
We're going to welcome him.
But does he ever say to the son,you deserve this?
Over the years, I have observedmany discarded daughters like me

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who allow deceptive thoughts andfears everywhere.
to determine their character andpersonality.
In my case, I believed I wasunwanted and unloved and
undeserving, which led me tobecome extremely needy.
I put myself down.
In later years, I was terriblypromiscuous.
I developed this pattern ofterrible behavior.
I was going to be a storyenhancer, what some might call a

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liar.
No matter the sad story that youtold, mine would be sadder.
And no matter how frighteningyour experience was, mine was
going to be worse.
And the goal was to manufacturea better story so people would
like me more or have moresympathy for me or see I was
worthy of their attention.
I was a greater victim and itbecame a terrible sinful
personality flaw.
I was timid and shy so much ofthe time when I was younger.

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So it was really crazy to methat when I finally decided to
participate in a conversation,it would be with the sole intent
of becoming the most pathetic,most popular, most spoiled
sounding person in the room.
It wasn't until my mid-30s thatthe Lord really got a hold of me
and said, look, you're fallingright into the hands of the
deceiver.
This deceptive behavior, theselies are that.
They are lies.
And you're falling into thehands of the deceiver.

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But that's just one of the manycharacter flaws that I believe I
can attribute to the fact that Iwas thrown away by my father.
And we'll talk a little bitlater about that.
So how does this relate to thisidea of being unworthy?
I think deep down, We know thetruth, that we're not all that
worthy.
Like I said earlier, up to now,Scripture has said, with a

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resounding yes, you are loved.
You are wanted.
But what's the truth aboutwhether or not we are really
worthy?
The truth is, we're not.
Turn to Romans 3, 10 through 19.
As it is written, none isrighteous, no, not one.
No one understands.
No one seeks for God.
All have turned aside.
Together they have becomeworthless.

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No one does good, not even one.
Their throat is an open grave.
They use their tongues todeceive.
The venom of asps is under theirlips.
Their mouth is full of cursesand bitterness.
Their feet are swift to shedblood.
In their paths are ruin andmisery.
And the way of peace they havenot known.
There is no fear of God beforetheir eyes.

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So this picture is painted ofus.
The answer to the question, wasI truly unworthy, is yes.
We all are.
This is proof.
What about verse 22?
What does it say, though?
The righteousness of God throughfaith in Jesus Christ for all
who believe.
For there is no distinction forall who sin and fall short of

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the glory of God.
The faith that we have in Christand His desire to wash over our
sin with His blood and Hisforgiveness.
It's through our faith in thatthat we become worthy.
We don't make ourselves worthy.
We weren't born worthy.
In Romans 3, 10 through 19, itsays, How many are righteous?

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None.
How many understand?
None.
How many seek God?
None.
How many have turned aside?
All.
We've all turned aside.
We're all useless.
How many do good?
None.
So these verses continue topoint out some pretty vile
behaviors and deception andpoison of the ass was on our
lips and blah, blah, blah, whichI'd call slander.
All of this stuff, no fear ofGod.
The only thing that redeems usis faith.

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In Jesus, Romans 3.26 says, itwas to show his righteousness at
the present time so that hemight be just and the justifier
of the one who has faith inJesus.
So it's God's desire to welcomeus back in, to embrace us.
If he's like that father of theprodigal son, he welcomes us

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back in.
He treats us like his childrenbecause of our faith, not
because we are worthy, notbecause we deserve it.
It's our faith in Jesus.
He is the one claiming us beforeGod to be worthy.
I like how one pastor put it nottoo long ago.
I was in church and we weretalking about that.
What's going to happen when westand before God?

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And I was going to point atJesus and go, I'm with him.
The definition of grace,unwarranted or undeserved favor.
And God gives and gives andgives to us, even though we
don't deserve it.
One of my very favorite versesin scripture is Romans 8.
So if you turn to Romans 8, andit's just the very beginning of
the chapter, there is thereforenow no condemnation for those

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who are in Christ Jesus.
For the law of the Spirit oflife has set you free in Christ
Jesus from the law of sin anddeath.
It's one of my favorite versesin Romans.
Do you understand why I love itso much?
Now, I've never been pregnant.
And I talk a little bit aboutdealing with infertility and
adopting my children in previousepisodes.

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I've never been pregnant.
I have three adopted children.
We're very blessed.
I know that.
But I will confess to you thatduring the many, many years of
attempting to get pregnant andgoing through all those
infertility treatments andspending all that money, I
thought maybe God was notblessing me with children
because I just didn't deserve tobe a mother.
Maybe that's why my dadabandoned me.
I didn't deserve a happy littlefamily.

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I didn't deserve anything but tobe cursed because of my own bad
choices, because of somethingthat made me more and more
unworthy.
After years of telling myselfTurn to the book of Psalms 103.

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And look at verses 10 through14.
He does not deal with usaccording to our sins, nor repay
us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens areabove the earth, so great is his
steadfast love toward those whofear him.
As far as the east is from thewest, so far does he remove our
transgressions from us.
As a father shows compassion tohis children, so the Lord shows

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compassion to those who fearhim.
For he knows our frame.
He remembers that we are dust.
So you can't miss this promisehere.
The Lord shows compassion tothose who fear him.
Turn to John 6.
It's a good thing you guys canpause the podcast, right?
Verse 44.
It's a ways down, close to theend, right?
And verse 44 says, Now thinkabout this.

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God decides...
to draw you to himself.
No man comes to Jesus except theFather draws him.
See, there's no place in God'sWord stating he only forgives if
you can explain the reason whyyou chose to be a sinner.
Why did you choose to sin?
Now, maybe this sounds really,really simple, but it's really
black and white.
If you confess your sin, he'sfaithful and just to forgive
your sin and cleanse you fromall unrighteousness.

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He promises this, period, in 1John 1.9.
So your brokenness, your fear,your shame, should just lead you
closer to Jesus, not furtherfrom Him.
And yet, what we do is wegrapple onto this, I deserve
death, I deserve punishmentthing, judging ourselves even
after we've asked the Lord tonot judge us based on our sin

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because we've accepted Christ.
You know, His Spirit is whatdraws us to Him.
He still wanted me enough to dothat.
He used my pain and my sufferingto draw me to Himself.
This means it was all His idea.
Without great need for a Savior,We tend not to look for one.
But the Word tells us there isnone that's worthy.
So this whole idea of beingunworthy is true.

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Yes, we are unworthy.
Regardless, the offer is made byHim to everyone, even to our
earthly fathers who broke ourheart and those who have abused
us, who we can agree those guysaren't worthy either, right?
We know earthly fathers thatabandon and men who abuse little
girls are not worthy of Hisforgiveness, are not worthy of

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His grace.
You need to know that no matterthe depth of your offenses to
God and no matter the depth ofyour father's offenses toward
you, God stands ready to loveyou with an eternal, unending,
sacrificial, I would just doanything for you, kind of love.
Do you believe that?
Place yourself where you belong,right under the cleansing blood
of Christ, and place him wherehe belongs, graciously paying

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your debt and calling you hisown.
Think of it for a moment.
Regardless...
of my past, there is now nocondemnation because I'm covered
by the blood of my Savior wholoves me and gave himself up for
me.
Right?
Look in Galatians 2.20.
And you, my friend, we areunworthy.

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So are our earthly fathers.
So are those who abuse us.
But Jesus Christ claims usworthy when we have faith in him
That's something you shouldpraise the Lord about today,
don't you think?
I think so too.

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Thanks for joining me today,guys, on the Chronicles of the
Christian Drama Queen.
Just a couple of reminders.
Don't forget you find the videoson YouTube.
Just look for Christian DramaQueen.
And you can also go to mywebsite,
ChristianDramaQueen.com, whereyou'll find some free resources
that are available.
And of course, you can get on mymailing list, look for the Bible
studies.
You can send me an email, Lisaat ChristianDramaQueen.com.
I will be happy to spiral bindthe Bible studies for you if you

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buy them from me using my emailfor that.
Make sure you share me with afriend, guys.
There are a lot of people outthere just like you and me who
need to be encouraged to knowthat even though they are
Christian drama queen, God isworking all things together for
good.
And listen, you know I love you.
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