Closed for Maintenance

Have you ever made a mistake and immediately felt the urge to fix it, hide it, or carry the weight of it on your own?

In this episode of Closed for Maintenance, Natasha reflects on a small moment that turned into a powerful reminder about grace, surrender, and the way we often try to repair things in our lives without bringing them to God first.

Sometimes the very things we worry have ruined everything are the same things God is invi...

In this deeply personal episode, Natasha reflects on what it means to learn how to live again after years of survival mode.

Growing up, she watched her parents work hard to provide but rarely slow down to enjoy life…a pattern she later realized she had quietly repeated in her own adulthood. At 37, a quiet realization changed everything: if she didn’t learn how to live now, she might spend her entire life just getting through it.

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Sometimes the hardest part isn’t falling down...it’s believing you’re allowed to get back up.

In the Season 3 premiere, I’m talking honestly about what it looks like to lose momentum, feel out of alignment, and wrestle with the tension between faith, creativity, and obedience. There was a season where I was still consuming God’s Word, but not fully living it out, and the result was confusion, noise, and a lack of clarity in my creat...

For a long time, I've been closed for maintenance.

Not because I disappeared.

Not because I didn't care.

But because life demanded more from me than I had language for.

Season 3 of Closed for Maintenance explores what happens during and after survival- when you're still standing, but learning how to dream again.

This season isn't about having a five year plan. It's about rebuilding in real time.

Moving forward without clarity.

About faith...

In this "interlude" between Seasons 2 and 3 of the podcast, Natasha pops in to share her heart about how God's Word helped her dismantle the enemy's lie that she was in fact not alone at a time that felt extremely lonely.

Scriptures Referenced:

Deuteronomy 31:8

“It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”- ESV

Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lor...

In the Season Two finale, Natasha shares a timely reminder for anyone feeling stretched thin between purpose and performance: the fruit God desires in your life doesn’t come from hustle...it comes from abiding.

Through scripture, personal conviction, and honest reflection, she unpacks how easy it is to drift from the Vine while doing things for God, and how critical it is to return to simply being with Him.

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What you pour in is what will eventually overflow. In this episode, Natasha shares a personal moment that sparked reflection on how the things we consume...spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, shape the way we live, respond, and grow.

Using a powerful cup analogy, she breaks down how our daily inputs (whether it’s scripture, music, podcasts, or even TikToks) affect our peace, clarity, and obedience to God. From caffeine to cultur...

In this episode, I reflect on a conversation with a friend that made me question if I focus too much on the “big” sins from my past—like drinking and sex before marriage—while overlooking the more subtle struggles I still wrestle with daily.

Drawing from James 4:7-8, we’ll talk about why remembering what God saved us from is essential to staying free, why no sin is small in God’s eyes, and how true spiritual growth co...

Influence—it’s a word we hear all the time, but what does it really mean? Many think it’s about having a big platform or a massive following, but true influence isn’t measured by numbers—it’s measured by impact. Whether we realize it or not, we’re all under the influence of something, and at the same time, we’re influencing others in ways both big and small.

In this episode, we’re diving into the weight of influence—how it...

In this teaser, get a sneak peek into the upcoming episode 9, "under the influence," where we unpack the true meaning of influence. It’s more than a big platform or a following—it’s about the impact we have on those around us, whether we realize it or not. Every day, we’re shaped by what we consume—social media, music, conversations, even the people we admire. But the real question is: Whose influence are we under? And in...

After a long break, I’m back with a lesson that changed everything. In this episode, I share how I struggled with second-guessing, overthinking, and trying to control my purpose—only to realize that purpose isn’t something we pick. God assigns it.

I break down the difference between purpose and assignments, what Matthew 28:19 and Haggai 2:19 taught me, and why it’s time to step out in obedience. If you’ve been stuck in doubt or fea...

Welcome to Season 2 of the Closed for Maintenance podcast! In today's episode, Natasha shares an eye-opening dream she had recently. As a result of this dream, she unpacks what it means to be prepared for Jesus' return, the distractions that can keep us from being ready, and the eternal consequences of our choices. We talk out how we can accept his gift of salvation and eternal life, prioritize our faith and make sure we're ready w...

In this teaser, get a sneak peek into the upcoming episode 7, "ready or not," where Natasha shares a recent dream she had and what God revealed to her that emphasizes the importance of staying focused on our spiritual priorities.

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In Episode 6, Natasha shares what she believes about the state of this generation. She also opens up about some of the struggles she's experiencing in her journey with Christ, how community and newfound friendships have been her lifeline and more.

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In today's episode, Natasha lays it all out about her personal struggle of balancing commitment to spirituality, how she's dealt with feeling "lost" and what's next for the Closed for Maintenance podcast.

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In the first ever "in between" episodes segment, Beyond the Couch...Natasha sits down with cherished & loyal CFM listener, AunJanai Query-Smalls. They unpack and explore her insight, revelations and personal takeaways from her favorite episodes.

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In Episode 4, Natasha talks about the importance of defining what is enough for oneself beyond societal expectations and external influences. She shares her own experiences of feeling uncomfortable as a result of taking on the burdens and desires of others.

Natasha also discusses the freedom and empowerment that comes from being clear on one's own wants and needs and she encourages listeners to have hard conversations and advocate f...

In today's candid discussion Natasha sits down with sobriety influencer, 2x author, baseball mom and licensed massage therapist, Ebony K. English as they talk about their journeys to sobriety.

They talk about the difficulties they experienced, the changes they've had to make in their lives, and the support they received throughout their path to sobriety.

Ebony shared the life changing wake-up call that started her sobriety journey....